#and now i just wasted money on it

[impishtubist]

I hate clothes shopping and never do it because my body is disgusting. I’m literally still wearing stuff from high school and college because the idea of buying new things for my gross body horrifies me 😂 But then I went out this weekend in a fit of delusion and bought three new outfits, and you know what? Yeah, 24 hours later, I realize they’re absolutely vile on me. 

#this is why i never go shopping ever #or wear makeup #it's like putting lipstick on a pig #how do you make imp even more ugly? #put makeup and jewelry on them lmao #anyway the fact that i'm stuck with this gross meat sack for the rest of my life is so fucking depressing #and now i just wasted money on it #why!!! #i should have learned my lesson years ago

[bamsara]

are you actually cancelling the shipment of the new laptop or was that a joke?

It's a joke but. What if I did auuugh

Making big purchases like this give me anxiety to a heavy level because low key I feel like I'm wasting money and that I don't need it because Arson, even though he's clearly not meant to last a lot longer in that shell and is corrupting and losing files, is still booting up and therefore I feel like I've done this 'too early' and that I don't deserve to get the new pc

Like I KNOW I need it and it will help me immensely but. You know

#ive been saving up for about 2ish years now since arson started showing signs #and hes well past his 'shelf life' but if youve been following me for a long time you know i dont really like replacing things #until theyre practically scrap metal #theres also the thing where if you grow up without a lot of money then you develop the mindset of #'now that youve spent that money you wasted it and also theres gonna be an emergency that will happen and youll wish you hadnt' #'what if you hate the pc' #'what if it ships in broken' #'what if something else happens and it breaks when it gets here' #just anxiety anxiety #i hate making large purchases i have such fears around them #also i actaully am really attatched to arson as a character which makes me crazy but hes like the little dude in my head aka my desk

[amygdalae]

#i think i need to take a break from college im too mentally ill to keep up with classes right now im just wasting time and money

[ruby-red-inky-blue]

Socks! Socks! Socks, socks, socks... (*sing to the tune of LMFAO's Shots*)

As you can see I ran out of yarn *just* at the finish line (because I'm an idiot and just assumed they wouldn't sell sock yarn for less than two socks, but it was a 50g ball and i simply can't read), but decided not to go out and buy more of the grey yarn since it's a) pretty awful quality, b) a weirdly unpleasant shade and c) I didn't want to spend any more money on this pattern. They turned out very nicely from a craft standpoint, I think! I *could* undo the left sock's toe cap and knit that in blue so they match, but I don't think I'm going to. I'm pretty happy with the job I did here, but I don't love how weirdly low the heel sits and how tiny the toe cap is in this pattern - my weird little toes are definitely going to wear holes into the sides of this sock very quickly. Also I personally think the deep stitch chain should run along the middle instead of the bit of garter stitch, because this way the middle stretches weirdly across the foot and makes them look a little weird from above (my feet swell up sometimes and I'm kinda self-conscious about that kind of thing, this probably wouldn't bother most people lol)

anyway, Mum, I get it now, knitting socks is VERY satisfying.

#the weird piecing on the toe just made me realise i actually want socks in that colour way more than i want grey socks lol #and also you can *really* tell the difference in yarn quality between the two from up close #it's so pretty my kingdom for schachenmayr regia 4 ply in all jewel tones tbh #textile crafts #knitting #and now all i have are stockinette projects... guess who's going to waste more time and money probably today #because i cannot be without a fiddly project lately

[gideonisms]

I want to write I want to make girls be weird about each other in MY word docs I want to have creative projects and goals againn :/

#but i am. so tired #i also don't want it to be something i'm forcing myself through because i feel like that always backfires #this year to me has really been about figuring out what is actually important to me and in what ways i can push myself to grow without #sending myself back to square one again #i can kind of feel myself gearing up to create things again and have wants and goals again but it is sooo slow #absolutely everything wipes me out mentally which i guess it always did but now i can like. comprehend it! #i know what is happening in there but i am so clumsy at working around it. i hadn't practiced that a lot before #it's taking like multiple years to recover from stuff that other people seem to recover from easily #it's sooo annoying and it's not really about feeling like i wasted my 20s anymore #i am where i am it was my life and i spent it the way i did so far. i just can't change that #it's more about like Wanting to do so many things and feeling like there is the potential for so much and feeling held back by my own self #there are so many things i want to try now that i'm doing more than bare minimum surviving and it's like i want them all at once #but i can't possibly do them all at least not yet there just is not time or energy or money to do them all right away #i have trouble prioritizing

[icewindandboringhorror]

... why he sit like this

#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little #rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo #cats #It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually #getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol #Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime #I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad. #Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering #all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty #e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time #that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense #that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh #I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol #which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything #I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still #recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually #slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.' #ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever #reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished #any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky #and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly #going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et #etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make #stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin #.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care #and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists. #take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc #ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it #82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol...... #ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol

[alwaysahiccupandastrid]

Watching all three extended editions of Lord of the Rings back to back at a cinema is a form of self care actually and I’m tired of pretending it isn’t

#… yes I did it again #someone needs to stop me because I keep wasting money on lotr stuff it’s getting really out of hand now #lotr #lord of the rings #this time no one ruined it as such it’s just the crowd were a bit too acquainted with the memes #that and I suspect the loudest group of men laughing at nearly all of FOTR were drinking booze

[terra-tortoise]

i said i wasnt allowed to buy any dragons or skins and all my funds had to go to finishing projects but alas. she spoke to me. so i spent 600g on her -_-

#100 for her 500 for the skin #which now i have both versions of this skin fhshfhsnjd #2021 duck who could not imagine wasting money on skins instead of genes hates me fucking guts fhshhfhshf #flight rising #scribes #she doesnt have a name or outfit yet but im really into her #obelisks #my dragons #ive not had a dragon in ages that i felt like i needed them to Grow Up Immediately #skin is fish time pls #by i Think kyanite but you know how to use the game database you can find it just fine #entheo

[clarabowmp3]

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#I’m starting to dislike taylor so much now I’m genuinely considering selling my ticket too #cuz i can’t just waste $1000 so I can’t just not go #and that means the money will still go to her #I just feel like she’s showing no sign of improving again and at this rate I’m never going to want to see her in concert ever again #but her music got me through my teens and i just want to commemorate that for nostalgia #Like one last hurrah for every difficult night I’ve had as a teen and holding onto her music for dear life #so I’ll prob go. just might not have as much fun anymore

[rapidhighway]

i actually wanted to buy a new sketchbook today but they didn't have the only brand I like using at empik

#idk why #where is ittt #i thought there was a ton of them and then i looked and it was those oxford sketchbooks woth disgustingly smooth paper #all sketchbooks out there are either too textured or too smooth #i like canson pls canson come back #i would like a different brand preferably with colored covers cause im tired of the black i want a pink sketchbook or something #but everything is blackkkk #and the covers are thick as fuck too #i tried a different brand two times now and every time i just wasted my money i cant do that shit it was awful #i want to buy online but i like to touch the paper before buying ugh #that's why i can't buy those sketchbooks that are wrapped in foil at stores #who even came up with that that's an awful idea #i bought one of those art creation sketchbooks that have their own stand at the art store here they look like fancy premium sketchbooks #literally the worst paper ive had the displeasure of drawing on #lined school notebooks i drew in in primary school are better than that #im in sketchbook hell ughhh #I've had moleskin when it was hyped a lot too and its mid too nothing worth spending this much money on

[lokilysolbitch]

god bless Jessica kellgren-fozard and any other disabled creator responsible for rewiring my brain at the age of like 15 so that learning im disabled and need mobility aids did not ever feel like a death sentence

#now it’s more like oh I’m disabled? how can I make my life easier #now it’s more like okay time to prepare for doctors who don’t listen so I don’t waste as much money or time thinking it’s just hormones #now it’s more like I need a cane?? ooh something new to decorate #now it’s more like saying Rollator My Beloved when you look at your mobility wishlist #now it’s more like knowing to plan ahead before getting a mobility aid and researching societal and other obstacles beforehand #now it’s more like learning niche tips like hiking sticks helping with vision issues with stairs #now it’s more like finding communities who get excited for you when you say you’re getting a mobility aid #now it’s more like looking for coupon codes for pretty compression socks #now it’s more like not beating yourself up for being tired and listening to your limits #now it’s more like knowing how to put on compression socks in advance #now it’s more like wondering if you should name your shower chair #disabled ppl can have good times sometimes #we can be cool #oh also now it’s more like knowing what pots is and finding something that matches your symptoms (thanks Jessica) #and ​now it’s more like not feeling weak #like emotionally #I feel physically weak #handmadeorganicpost #disabled

[monkeywiki]

dropping hints that we are in need of financial assistance and i'll take any help at this point

paypal.me/ceboidea

#just please select no address needed #i am really appreciative of reblogs and any help means a lot #wasted gas money going to a sketchy ass job interview and im just #like yes its cool to have gauranteed work in the fall but we have rent to pay Right Now #my immune system flares up if im outside for a damn hour and im reaching a point where i feel like the only use i have in this world is #illustrating and thats it

[adashofniallandasprinkleoflunacy]

home from work

#if I speak… #one of the girls walked out yesterday #the best worker we have is on the verge of blowing up on this bitch’s leaders bc since he can do everything quick and efficiently already #they’re putting 3 to 4 ppl’s workloads on him to see how far they can extend his worth and then they’re over his shoulder the whole time #micromanaging him so today he almost lost it and was literally walking around mumbling about his disrespectful they all are (facts) #and how if they don’t think he’s doing it right then they can do it and I know for a fact one of the ladies heard him #bc he wasn’t even trying to hide it at this point and like this dude is cool he has a lot of patience and helps out any way he can #so if HE’S on the brink of snapping then the rest of us don’t stand a chance LMFAO #anyways today was a fucking mess those leaders know nothing about our store yet so they have us making less than what we need until we need #it so we get behind constantly and they made prep a disaster bc again they think they can just prep a bunch of stuff in the morning #and it’ll last the whole day and yes that works in theory but the reality of the situation is every day is different and today #we sold double what we did yesterday so they had to move me to prep to fix their mistakes bc we were running out of stuff 4 hours in lmfao #and I’m the only one left who knows how to do everything on prep bc the other girls had never done it before #we’re supposed to prep 20 mac n cheese trays in the morning for the whole day #we open lunch at 10:30 tell me why I go into the cooler at 12 put more in the oven and there’s only 5 left #it’s been less than 2 HOURS and you’re already running out of macs which means those idiots prepped barely anything just to try and save mo #*money to cut down waste but that gag if you’re losing money bc now you’re short on everything and customers are leaving bc they’re having #to wait a long time for their food #and macs take 40 minutes to cool LMFAO #I get over there they’re out of parfaits they’re out of fruit cups they’re out of kale salads the front is coming in and having to take #stuff as I make it bc they keep getting orders and it’s all just a fucking mess #I have to make a custom wrap and what happens?? those morons didn’t pull the flatbreads out of the freezer like they’re supposed to every #night so now we have no flatbread and I had to run back there and put them in the warming drawer to defrost and we lost an order bc I had #nothing to make the wraps with <3 #I go back there to get more cold chicken SPOILER ALERT they didn’t have anyone make any this morning so now there’s no chicken for the wrap #and salad and it has to be grilled and then chilled for 2 FUCKING HOURS before it can be used #they’re a fucking disaster like 😭 #was the store perfect before?? ofc not but it ran quickly and efficiently as it should and now it’s literally just a mess #this bitch hasn’t even owned it for a full week yet and has already fucked it all up #womp womp!!!!!!

[omtai]

going to kms and everyone in this room the david byrne paramore record was sold out so i waited 1.5hrs freezing my ass off for nothinggggg😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

#literally walked out and as soon as i turned the corner i just started bawling #like im not even upset i didn’t get the record it’s more just the fact i wasted my morning in the cold for nothing #the guy was like Sorry but that’s why you should come with more things you want so you don’t go empty handed #would love to do that mate if only everything else i wanted wouldn’t be literally half of all the money i have in the world💖💖 #and actually nevermind i am upset about the record i wanted ittttttt😭😭😭😭 #now im just crying in some random park with no record and no reason to even have left my stupid room

[maranull]

i need to stop.

i ordered another gunpla.

i have to be restrained at this point.

#personal #afhggkjfdgksdg #ok ok #i got extra money from some extra work #so TECHNICALLY i didn't waste money from my salary #i'm so big brained #just do extra work and funnel all you earn into gunpla #ok but i'm stopping now #two orders from local stores and one (with two kits) from japan #THAT'S IT #I'M DONE #you have permission to slap me if i buy another one this month #mara's tiny mecha-posting

[reamed]

ya know what I’m deciding not to give a shit if my job doesn’t like me missing work bcuz I’m in agonizing pain

#txt #it is what it is #fuck it we ball #like idk what else to do #and it really erks me that my boss thinks she has the right to tell me I need to go to the doctor #because bitch I’ve been all my life I’ve been misdiagnosed with stomach viruses utis and it’s never that #I’m not risking being misdiagnosed again. I’m waiting for my gyno appointment bcuz it has fucking everything to do with my period/reproduct #REPRODUCTIVE ORGANS #like hire more people if it’s such a loss when I’m gone ?????? #don’t fucking text me telling me that “As a mom I’d tell my kid to go to the doctor😇 as if my parents aren’t fully aware of the pain I’m in #and have been fully aware since I was 10 years old #I know what’s going on bitch I don’t need to waste money at a walk in clinic for them to tell me I have a uti or my stomach is just hurting #u think jus fucking about with this shit. no I plan for this every month. usually it’s not terrible. this month has been hell #there’s nothing I can do to avoid it. I take meds and they barely do anything #i deserve to rest bcuz I’ve been busting my ass this year and last through this pain #i can afford to miss a few days off work. sorry yall can’t #I’m sorry for ranting this had jus been an issue my whole life. they used to grill me as a kid at school for missing #and it reminds me of that so much and it makes me feel like a child again #being told It’s JuSt period CrAmpS just TakE medicine #meanwhile I’m literally puking from pain #meanwhile my insides feel like they are blistering and on fire and my lower body is being yanked to the floor #ok sowwy I’m gonna go cry about it now