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#and nevermind that i don't have the spoons to even GO shopping (:
slippery-minghus · 27 days
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oh no. i feel like if i do not consume an entire load of bread in the very near future i will simply cease to exist.
#very uh. very worried about my finances right now#like. i'm fine. i have some savings. but i also just got to put something into my savings for the first time in a VERY long time and now#now i immediately have to take it out#and i'm getting stressed out about buying groceries#because if i dip into my savings here what about there? where is the line?#and i owe so much to taxes but i can't exactly afford getting less of my pay......#my last paycheck was $0.66 more than my rent#my insurance is refusing to reimburse the last of my electrolysis visits from last year and like#i'm SO over the fight but that's $120. that i really actually kinda need?#and i'm starting to get that funny in the head feeling about wondering how i'm going to feed myself#i still feel so much shame about that funeral i went to years ago and my only thought during the reception after was about#how there was just so much food and i could actually eat my fill#i have leftovers for dinner tonight and it's fine but.... making a lovely vegan dish wasn't the best choice tbh#i feel like if i don't have a large helping of bread and meat i'm going to go insane#and it really REALLY doesn't help that i've apparently lost the ability to eat in the mornings#so i'm at quite a significant fuel deficit and it's stacking#but no matter how hungry i am in the morning the concept of processing solid food is just repulsive and daunting#eating a clif bar at 9am would take literally all of my spoons for the day#i was looking at protein shakes since i can handles *drinking* breakfast#but the cheapest one that meets my dietary requirements is $35 for a 12pack#and i'm uh. i'm worrying over spending $10 on produce this week#personal#and nevermind that i don't have the spoons to even GO shopping (:#(on an aside i switched back to my regular melatonin gummies last night and i Actually Slept. so hopefully that will continue and help some)#i just want to curl up in a ball on the floor and have someone gently place a roll of bread and hunk of cheese next to me in my enclosure#also it's photophobia season and i still feel like i haven't recovered from saturday#got too much sunlight and was nauseaus for half the day#my body feels so bad
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nkn0va · 2 months
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Could we please get general relationship headcanons for Ann, Makoto, Futaba, Haru, (and maybe Sumire if you feel like throwing her in here but you don't have to) from Persona 5? Thank you!
Hell yeah I can put Sumi in there, redhead supremacy. Tsubaki Yayoi best girl
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Content Warning: MAJOR spoilers for Persona 5 Royal. Ann Takamaki:
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-If you manage to get with Ann of all people, fuckin' major props to you. You got yourself a literal model, nevermind the trauma/nervousness she probably has when it comes to relationships thanks to Kamoshida.
-Hope you're not one who sunburns easily, because you got yourself a ray of sunshine. Delete that joke, that was stupid.
-Ann has officially decided to make it her life's mission to make every day she can brighter for you and it will be your problem.
-Favorite dates of hers include going to Odaiba, mostly for the ferris wheel, going to the underground mall, whether for actual shopping or window shopping, and of course hitting up whatever sweets store you two can find. She'll usually pay due to her modelling giving her more money than the average high school student, and she insists because of this.
-Ann is all for physical affection, she is all over you every chance she gets. Cuddles, kisses, spooning, you name it. You MIGHT get some PDA out of her but not a lot, unless she just gets one of those sudden bursts of confidence out of seemingly nowhere.
-At home dates work for her too. She's totally on board with snuggling up on the couch absolutely drowning in blankets to watch a movie. Bonus points if the two of you fall asleep together just like that.
-As for the more...explicit parts of a relationship, the kind that hormonal teenagers get the most excited over...yeah Kamoshida did some serious damage on that front. If you wanna do that with her, it's going to take a while before she builds up the confidence to wanna explore that. You'll have to bring it up in conversation first, though.
-It is not an uncommon occurrence for you to find some sort of sweet treat on your desk as you go into school in the morning. Nothing big, just a little something Ann found while out in town that made her think of you.
Makoto Niijima
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-Ahh, the student council president. Calm, composed, put together, and has zero idea what in God's green Earth she's doing when it comes to an S/O.
-If she was being completely honest she barely has any idea how she managed to even get an S/O in the first place, but she certainly won't be caught complaining. It's nice to know she has someone she knows she can count on for a change. At least anyone that's not just her sister.
-Makoto is the type to show affection in subtler ways, namely through worrying about you. Your grades, your health, your diet, she makes sure you're on top of it. It could come off as overbearing at times, but she does it to show she cares about you.
-She's much more of the shy type when it comes to more direct displays of affection. The subtle brushing of her hand against yours before it eventually rests on or holds it, her head on your shoulder as you two are sitting together. It'll take a bit before she becomes more confident to show how she really feels, but however she does it, watching the normally cold, professional student council president unwind like that is always quite cute.
-Take her to see an action movie, particularly a Yazuka movie, and she's super engrossed in it, no matter how much she blushes and stutters as she tries to initially deny it. If you're a fan of those movies too, that's even better for her.
-Study dates are a regular occurrence. If your grades aren't looking the best, Makoto is about to come in clutch and save you, whether you like it or not. She won't really be mad though, as long as you show you're at least trying your best.
-Outside of that though, she much prefers dates at your place or hers. Watching a movie, making dinner together, and just in general talking about whatever comes to mind. It's a very cozy, homely atmosphere.
Futaba Sakura
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-The social shut-in neet. The only shot you're having at a relationship with Futaba is if you're a Phantom Thief. Otherwise you will have no idea she exists.
-You thought Makoto was nervous going into a relationship? Yeah you haven't seen shit yet.
-Your first order of business in this relationship would pretty obviously be getting Sojiro's approval. Being a Phantom Thief and helping her get out of her room is a nice start, at the very least. Once you've proved yourself to him though, you've secured yourself the ultimate wingman.
-It's going to take quite a bit of convincing to take Futaba out somewhere. Your best bet would be Akihabara too look at all the tech stuff, video game/anime merch, and other general nerd things. All the while she's attached to you at the hip of course. If you leave her sight for even a second she'll never forgive you. At least that's what she says, anyway.
-Most dates are obviously going to be indoors, whether in her room or at Leblanc. Watching anime, playing video games, just about what you'd expect. All the while she'll nerd out about lore/story and teach you anything you're confused on or show some super cool tech in whatever video game you're playing, after thoroughly trouncing you, of course. Will probably make jokes about being your sensei and stuff like that.
-A fun little trick to do is to peck her cheek when you're playing something together to catch her off guard. She'll go red as a beet as her brain completely stops working, after which she'll accuse you of cheating. She'll try to eventually show affection herself in similar ways though she'll get super shy about it and act like it didn't happen. It's pretty freaking cute.
-Also she will 100 percent borrow your clothes without your permission, no matter how oversized they are. She has commandeered your entire wardrobe.
Haru Okumura
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-What. A. Sweetie.
-If you're aiming for a relationship with this heiress, you're gonna have to play the long game for a bit. When you were about to be married to Sugimura you'd probably need a break from anything romance related for a while as well. Once Haru does feel ready enough to give relationships a try again with someone she actually cares about it's really something.
-Haru is the soft kind of girlfriend, both figuratively and literally. She treats you with nothing but patience and kindness, and trusts you more than anyone else. She does anything she can for you and will push aside anything and everything if you're ever in need.
-Cuddles with her are soft, fluffy, and warm. It's almost like a sheep, you could stay like that with her for hours.
-Her favorite type of date is naturally anything involving gardening. If you're inexperienced with this sort of thing, Haru is more than happy to teach you everything you need to know. Ask her to do so and the smile on her face could replace the sun.
-The easiest way for her to show affection is through gifts. She's the heiress of one of the largest companies in the world, she has more than enough to spend on you and then some. If you say anything about something cool you want when in her general vicinity you'll be getting that same thing not even a week later. To be frank, you'll probably need to be careful when talking about that sort of stuff, she will have zero inhibitions when it comes to gift giving.
-And don't even get me started when things like Valentine's Day, Christmas, and god forbid your birthday roll around lmfao.
-Whether it's at home baking sweets, spending time a cozy cafe out in Shinjuku, or at a restaurant so fancy that you feel underdressed no matter what you wear, Haru is down for all of it. The only detail that matters to her on a date, and her life in general is that you're there.
-And for the love of God do not let this woman drive, you are gambling with your fucking life.
Sumire Yoshizawa
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-A relationship with Sumire would probably start out...awkward. Especially if you knew her while she was posing as Kasumi.
-A lot of guilt and low self-esteem will make the relationship a work in progress to begin with. An S/O of hers will need to be there for her and assure her that she is enough. They're in love with Sumire, not the image and identity of Kasumi she placed upon herself.
-It won't be forever, though. She'll eventually bounce back, knowing that she needs to be there for you like you are for her.
-Sumire is loyal above all else. You showed your loyalty when your stuck by her through such a strange, confusing and difficult time in her life, and she's damn well gonna make sure she returns the favor.
-It'll take a while for her to warm up to it, but she is all in for physical and verbal affection. Anything to show just how much she loves you. Just not in public...
-Sumire would definitely work best with an S/O that praises her for everything she does. It gives her a warm, fuzzy feeling inside and makes her feel satisfied.
-She'd definitely be the type to want to push you to be your best self, physically and mentally. She knows what the latter is like more than anything else and doesn't want you to fall into the same trap. Physically active dates are her forte. A jog around the park in the morning followed by a good breakfast at a restaurant somewhere and she's in Heaven.
-Speaking of which, you better have a good amount of money on hand whenever you go out on a date, lest you run the risk of her draining it dry on food. She'll at least have the decency to know when it's better to stop most of the time but when she gets going, she really gets going, especially if you have a hearty appetite yourself.
-You're naturally sure to catch her gymnastics competitions, whether online or in person. It serves as a motivator for Sumire. Knowing you're watching from somewhere really gives her that extra drive to do her best. You're the reason she's gotten this far, she won't let you down as long as she has something to say about it. Not just in her dreams to be a world class gymnast, but in her entire life.
First headcanon post. Hope these are up to expectations, I really tried with these.
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lenjaminmacbuttons · 4 months
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@writersstareoutwindows oki so werewolf eats cereal, while the name is fun, is...considerably less fun than the rest. basically, it's using daisira as a vent about self-harm and disordered eating. it's fun at the beginning for a second! but then it's not. i still really like it though and really hope to finish & post the whole thing someday.
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“Put that back.”
Daisy looked Basira in the eye, not even bothering to affect a pleady face, and added another chocolate Easter bunny to the shopping basket.
“I am not paying for those.” 
"It's on sale." Daisy wiggled a third box. "Feel it. Near on six pounds of chocolate for a quid."
"I know for a fact you need to be on a strict diet to rebuild your muscle mass."
"Can't I rebuild all the fat I lost, too?"
"I'm not cleaning up when you scarf it too fast and get sick all over the toilet."
"Yeah, you will."
She put the box in the basket with the most pleased-ass little smile Basira had seen since the last time she took Daisy shopping. Basira rolled her eyes. Arguing further now would just make her look more the fool later.
"Don't worry about it," Daisy teased, nudging Basira with her shoulder as they meandered down the aisle. "Next time, I'll pay for it."
(less fun but more tasty bit under the cut. content warning for the aforementioned self-harm and disordered eating.)
Basira crossed to the fridge and pushed on Daisy's chair. "You're letting all the cold air out."
"That's not how that works," Daisy mumbled, but she acquiesced to scoot forward and let the refrigerator close. Its humming quieted abruptly.
Uncomfortable in the sudden silence, Basira pressed her back against the fridge and tried to focus on her other senses. Touch of cool metal on her fingertips. Scent of milk and grain and sugar, and Daisy’s skin. Sight of Daisy's skin. Almost all of it was familiar, from the great old starburst to each freckle and mole to the flowery tattoos across her shoulder. She'd gained some new scars in the Coffin, too, and some marks that Basira knew would heal in time if she managed to leave them alone instead of picking at everything she could reach. Basira let her gaze drift down Daisy's forearms. Some of the straight marks there were decades old, souvenirs of a fraught, angry youth. Others were newer. A couple almost looked fresh.
Not that Basira had any right to say anything about them.
"It's a good thing you're getting those Institute checks," Basira said lightly, slumping into the adjacent chair and folding her arms. "Otherwise you'd eat me out of house and home."
Daisy lifted her spoon, and Basira realized it was actually a soup ladle. "D'you want?"
"I'm kidding. Eat all you want. Not like I'm gonna."
"Oh, shit, is it--" For a second it looked like Daisy was going to get up from her chair, but then she paused, brow wrinkled. "Wait, no, it's before sunrise. Nevermind." She sat back. "And it’s...April right now. Yeah? And Ramadan’s May this year."
"I'm not fasting. Just not eating."
Another second. Daisy looked at her. She looked at her cereal. She dropped her shoulders, caved in, took another ridiculous bite. She was pouring the cereal into her mouth like a toddler, just with a dash more grace. Less spillage.
Basira tapped her fingers on her bicep. When Daisy moved her arm, the beads of dried and drying blood there caught the light, shimmered. The cuts were fresh.
"Did you take my boxcutter?" Basira asked as monotone as she could.
Daisy swallowed, closed her eyes, and lowered the ladle. Her face was pointed at the ceiling almost restfully. She didn't nod or say yes, but she didn't have to.
After what felt like a very long time, Daisy said, "There were three full days where nothing moved. And I know that for sure because I counted. Out loud, long past my throat drying completely out. I whispered the numbers. Seventy thousand fifty eight, seventy thousand fifty nine.”
Her shoulders caved deeper, and the ladle sank like a lost oar against the boat of a bowl’s side. 
“I had my arm in this crevice,” she said, curling her fingers, “my hand felt completely crushed, one knee was stuck up by my face, one twisted stuck somewhere else. I reached a hundred thousand and I didn't stop crying until fifty thousand more. Two hundred thousand and I knew it was never gonna move again. Don't know why I kept counting after that, but...at two hundred sixty thousand and eighteen, I heard somebody else scream and the rocks started shifting, and I. Wailed.”
Her fingers formed a fist. 
“Just...shouted and cracked and croaked. And I guess to punish me for having a bit of relief, this wall fell and scraped my forehead open.” She pointed to one of the more heinously-picked scabs, a garish scuff the size of a thumb right above her left eyebrow. "And that pain and that blood coming down over my eyes was the warmest, wettest, most alive thing I felt until Jon found me.”
“How long was that?” Basira asked.
Daisy shook her head. “Long time. I didn’t count anymore after that.” She took a deep breath through her nose. “Anyways. That’s my excuse. So what’s yours?”
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