#and mom want to be here but isn’t

[sailforvalinor]

Idk if this is controversial, but studying for a English/writing degree at university shouldn’t make you NOT want to engage with writing or literature. Just a thought.

#the amount of times one of my literature professors presented us with the worst reading or interpretation (some of which were just plain #revolting) of a piece of literature almost as if she were expecting us to like it just because it was sensational and me and everyone else #going ‘um. no. sorry. not only does that make no sense but now I kind of want to throw up’ #I just came here to read some gothic lit and honestly I’m feeling so attacked right now. (my fault for signing up for gothic lit I suppose) #her English survey class made me never want to look at the written word again #however I know this isn’t me having an issue with survey classes (although the rate they make you read at is kind of ridiculous and I read #fast: case in point for one of them I had to read Huck Finn in 9 days) #because I took American Survey from another professor and it was really challenging but probably the best course I ever took at university #I was not expecting to develop such a distaste for the academic world at uni but maybe that’s just my university (whenever I complain about #this my mom always tells me I need to watch Dead Poet’s Society lol) #siggggghhh anyway. hoping for some better classes with my exchange program (although none of them are writing/English as I’m almost #finished with my degree) #english lit #university #english #college

[happyvoltz]

they are a happy family

#EDIT: I DREW THIS BEFORE HIM HAVING A DAUGHTER WAS EVEN CONFIRMED WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #actually though #tracy is named after troy’s mom and i did that cause his mom didn’t like him and so he still wanted to honor her so here ya go #i said this on twt but tracy was an after thought do not look too much into her only holding nicks hand troy and nick both adore her #i drew her last #the recovering alcoholic bit is in refrence to my trick fic i’m writing but also a parallel to troy never escaping it #nick isn’t a violent drunk though he’s a depressed ‘i’m fucking done’ then proceeds to feel sick when someone talks to him drunk lol #i’m really insecure about my art be nice #fear the walking dead #ftwd #troy otto #tracy otto #nick clark #ftwd trick #troy x nick #anyway #my art

[hungerpunch]

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#not me starting to cry with just 2 hrs before go live bc i realized how much i want my dad to wish me good luck #what the fuck man :'( #oh my god. wow. yeah that's hitting #biggest moment of my career and my dad isnt here to say he's proud of me #and my mom isn’t well enough to even know what this moment is #i was not prepared for these emotions at all !!!! i did NOT schedule them into the launch!!!! #driveby post #grief diaries

[vipier]

writing today but ALSO the number one reason to drop it all and apply for the international law program in paris that I’ve been thinking about for like two years is so my evil incredible amazing terrible little rat dog can stop being a pampered american puppy and start being a pampered parisian puppy who can go to cafés and on trains with us.

#this is a JOKE bc I just want to move but also it isn’t a joke #I’ve been on trains all morning and I’m delusional atm #he doesn’t deserve it but also he absolutely does #filed under: things I thought were french stereotypes until I collectively spent months here #even my mom’s tiny town has a fancy dog boutique

[fizzytoo]

oh i fucked up…. i thought the admissions for the university i applied to opened nov. 1st …… it closed nov. 1st …..

#*fizzyspeaks #bachelors degree on hold till may i guess 🧍🏽‍♀️ #what am i supposed to do till then ? WORK #life is just wake up and work come home sleep wake up and work #and i’m gonna need to deal w my mom. like i’m working and also just graduated college like a few months break isn’t gonna make me a failure #latine parents are sooo…… like what do you want from me #i hate it here #why’d i get an english degree ….. #following your dreams is for suckers #there’s no variety in my life i’m so bored i need to kiss someone #raise your hand im taking volunteers

[sh-0-w-1-sh]

Me da lagrimas que ya soy 16!

Pero AYYEEE- 2 more years till I’m an adult

#sonic the hedgehog #sonic fandom #art #sonic #birthday #ngl I miss my mom #would this count as a vent? #idk and idc #I miss her sm rn. it’s crazy cause this is the first birthday that I won’t have her here… #not that she’s dead but like she isn’t here #Ik it’s childish to be sad about that- Ik that one day she will be permanently gone and I wont be able to celebrate my birthday with me #and that I’ll have to move on #but #dam does it hurt. I want her to seem me grow up #ANYWAYS I spent 240 bucks for Tails

[antimony-ore]

TBH I’m getting mad because after you take away lying, there isn’t much left for some people

#for example #idk if my mom really has aphasia or if she misspeaks because the family used to think it was funny #but either way it’s concerning now at the age of 60 whether or not you want to admit to yourself you are aging #what it ISN’T #is an excuse to go: #well I’ve always messed up pronouns so obviously I don’t mean bad by it #and then make NO effort to correctly gender your kids who are BOTH nonbinary so it shouldn’t be hard #and does not excuse you continuous deadnaming someone who has been Kai to everyone for almost 10 years #or that you called them ‘woman’ the last time they were here #it’s not accidental #it’s not cute

[figuerockfaeth]

I NEED TO MOVE OUT NOOWWWWWWW

#i woke up at 3 pm bc this was my 1st day ‘off’ in forever #and when i went to grab something to eat our back door was fully open and my car was nowhere to be found #cat* #so i freaked out and started looking outside but when i realized she wasn’t there and my roommate also wasn’t recently outside #i knocked on her bedroom door and she was like ‘oh sorry i was asleep do you want me to help look’ #YES i want you to help look what are you talking about #eventually i found her bc my cat is the best girl in the world and never left our yard- she was in the crawl space under the house #but not only am i pissed she let my car out then took a nap #but we don’t live in the safest city in the world and while we were both sleeping our door was fully 90 degrees open #so now not only do i feel like kevin (cat) isn’t safe here but I don’t feel safe sleeping here anymore #the lease is up in july and i finally get to leave #this girl is a random roommate my former roommate found to replace her #and the whole process/experience has been awful #i just have to survive 4 months #during the summer i might keep paying rent but fully leave and go live with family #bc my school isn’t in driving distance of any of my family #now i’m thinking about asking someone if they’ll take kevin for a couple months bc im so sorry about her #but my dad has a dog that doesn’t love cats and my best friend is allergic and my mom lives in another state #personal #delete later #also this is unrelated BUT every weekend without fail she does laundry at an insane time in the morning #and our washing machine is the loudest washing machine i’ve EVER heard #and of course it’s right against the wall of my room #not hers #i only get two days a week to sleep past 630 am and she almost always ruins it

[akkpipitphattana]

i think kids should have way more of a say in custody battles btw

#like obvs if they literally can’t speak for themselves but even if they’re only like five or six they’re voice matters #and yes if there’s like definitive proof that the parent they choose is hurting them/an unfit parent that sucks #but kids are also so much smarter than people give them credit for #i’m so pissed off rn bc my brother is getting divorced and his ex is a manipulative bitch that has such control over him #she’s convinced him to go 50/50 with her having placement and it’s such BULLSHIT because shes an awful mother #she’s put hands on her kid before and she lives with her parents who are constantly yelling at him #not to mention she has two other kids shes fucked up and one doesn’t even talk to her #and my brother isn’t the best dad but he’s way better when she’s not around #and he also lives with us rn so the kid at least has me and my parents who care and have patience with him #and it’s just pissing me off bc everytime my nephew leaves here he throws a fit bc he doesn’t wanna fucking see his mom #and he’s just allowing her to make the fucking decisions. he’s not standing up for his kid at all #and it’s not like i don’t have sympathy for the fact that she’s clearly manipulating him but #BUT SHE HAD HIM ADMITTED LAST NIGHT AND THIS MORNING HES SINGING HER PRAISES #i’m just so pissed. i want better for my nephew #he deserves so much better than this #liz rambles

[devils-little-sista]

One of the most frustrating and confusing parts of life is when I start to do something for closure and then realizing this closure may do more to harm me than heal me like I hoped it would.

#looking through my moms old school year books #reading all the messages her friends wrote her and learning more about her and her actual personality outside of being a mom #every day I wish I got to know her for real. I wish she could have been herself forever. I wish i could’ve really learned who she is #instead of reading past memos for someone who is now a shadow of a person #this hurts more than I thought it would #I just wanted to learn more about my mom #she had so many good friends and they had so many nice things to write in her year books #also a reminder that I never got to have school year books #I never got to have friends like this in my teenage years #a reminder of how lonely I was and how awful high school was for me #but I’m glad my mom had fun back then #I’m sure she misses these friends sometimes #and I’m sure they miss her #I wonder if they’ve ever tried to get in contact with her and came up with static and wondered what happened to her #how many middle and high school reunions would my mom have been invited to if she actually got to live her life #this isn’t fair #this isn’t fair to anybody involved #I wish my mom was still here to tell me about all these people and stories

[prettyboysmlm]

i think god hates me actually

#trying to have a party with my friends #two of them have work today and one of them isn’t getting back in the state until late tonight #one of them never responded so i’m assuming he’s not coming #and now one of them is feeling sick and his power just went out #so he may not come #which leaves literally two ppl. #my mom made me clean the entire house by myself. for two ppl to come over. #if one of them flakes then i’ll just tell the other one to not come bc it’s not worth it at that point #it’s also a supposed to be a pool party. but it’s gonna rain for a good chunk of the day. #idk. i’m just so exhausted from this that i think no matter what i’ll probably cry when no ones here bc i’m just so fucking tired #i really wanted to like. have a fun pool day with my friends. #but now almost none of them are coming and it’s supposed to rain #and it’s also gonna be the last time i see them before i leave since i’m busy every other day this week #since my fucking coworker doesn’t know how to call off on time #and i got stuck covering his shift on thursday #idk. i just really wanna cry rn. #k.txt #vent tw

[foxgloveinspace]

Hulloooo! I just restarted my island last week! It's my personal nightmare currently but it'll get there. How have you been?

I’ve been pretty good! This weeks been a bit of a time cause I had cold that just completely zapped all my energy, but other then that, I’ve been doin pretty ok. Nothing to stressful or crazy and nothing too like.. exciting to talk about I guess, lol.

Hmmm, I think the most exciting thing that has happened is that I drove home from ‘the big city’ and I even drove in it, so like…. That was a bit crazy! Slowly getting there on the driving thing lmao.

I’m both really excited about starting over my ac island and like. Nervous lmao. I never really got very far in decorating it tho, so I’m looking forward to a completely fresh slate with it!

How about you? Anything cool, or just acnh (nothing wrong with that if it’s the answer tho 🥰).

#other then that.. my life has been taken over by sleep token (so please just blacklist them if you don’t like them cause I swear it’s all I #even post about anymore😭😭😭😭 I’m still confused about how I got here tbh.) and I’ve been knitting more again. and crocheting way more. #so that’s been my life oof #hihi!!! #kirishiimis #milo🖤 #idk if this is.. like I just wanna be reassuring here but like I want you to know that.. like I still think of you very dearly as a friend #and I know you’ve been very busy with The Baby💛 but like I want you to know no matter the breaks you take I’m still here! #I hope that’s coming across the right way tho #I’m trying very hard to unmask my adhd and anxiety and just tell people things so I’m sorry if what I’m saying isn’t even making since oof #oh!!! idk if I told you this or not (oh well) my mom got a job so now I’m just. #constantly home alone which is cool lol. it’s been pretty good for my mental health tbh #hmmmmm. idk I feel like when people ask me for updates it’s just my hobbies cause nothing happens in my life anymore😂😂😂😂😂😂 #edit: I did absolutely tell you about my mom getting a job… I think…… hmmmmmmm #eh doesn’t matter lol. I told you again🤷🏼🤷🏼🤷🏼

[voidthewanderer]

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#shut it void #I don’t want to be in this house right now #I just don’t want to be here right now at all I can’t stand this #ever since I got home I’ve had nothing but a headache and I’ve been ignored by everybody except my mom #I fucking lost someone too y’know flip was a second father to me #treating me like shit isn’t going to make that grief go away

[sho0tmcmahon]

i’m so so so so so so so so so so so so boreddddddd

#salmon speaks #wanted to go to the farmers market to look at all the fall things but i can’t cuz my mom isn’t here #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[floral-hex]

gosh, I miss flirting and being mushy with someone

#it is still early evening. it is TOO early to be yearning. #this isn’t like an advertisement for flirting or anything don’t worry #I will NEVER flirt with you! #I am just the legally required sad uncle guy on here #and not the weird kind. the kind that’ll let you have a sip of their beer or drive you to the mall #or whatever I dunno I’m getting too deep into this #ugh calling myself an uncle makes me feel old… #…and then I remember I actually am an uncle and my sister has kids #don’t call me uncle. you can call me dad. but like step-dad. the kind that just wants you to think they’re cool #also I wanna kiss your mom #no but really how is your mom doing? how’s her butt? what’s her butt doin? #im a little tired so please I’m gonna ramble a bit #what was I talking about? #oh yeah… YEARNING! #I want to be mushy! #just wanna send someone a picture of two kitties with funny little hats and say ‘me n you’ #me n who?!? #could be you? 😘 #NO! that’s what this whole post is about! it could NOT be you! keep it professional #I don’t want to make my mutuals annoyed with me by making them think I’m flirting with them #why am I talking about all of this? this is dumb #sorry I’m just sitting in this car in a parking lot waiting for my bro to get out of school #which… shit… is pretty soon. guess I need to stop zoning out #uhhhh sooo…. kiss kiss kiss #and I love you forever #goodbye I guess #you can ignore this #text

[pen-of-roses]

Uuuuuuughhhhhhhhhh

#rye rambles #my grandmother is pressuring me about grad school #and my father is trying to bribe me to go to a college near him by offering to pay never mind it doesn’t offer programs in anything I’d want #and I’m expected to be thankful for this bribery #because the man owns a house with an entire level another family could live in without running into each other #and a bloody indoor pool and hot tub #and can afford to take expensive cruises whenever they damn well please #but bitches about buying me presents for holidays and scolding us all we need to appreciate them #and gets mad at me for spending the money my mother gave me on fun stuff on vacations #but yeah I need to be thankful he’s offering something I didn’t ask for that only benefits him #because he’d have easier access to me #never mind that he’s moved by choice so many times in my life and it was never once closer to ME #but I’m expected to uproot the little life I’ve created here for HIM??? #when I know damn well I’d still be the one expected to visit them and drop everything for their plans #I don’t want him to pay for my grad school. I don’t want anyone to except maybe my employer and scholarships #I don’t want to be beholden to anyone in that way #and just honestly fuck him #fuck him and his money and rich little life that I was never really a part of #only a fucking trophy to show off about how well behaved I was because mom raised me #look at how smart they are! look at their achievements! isn’t what I created great! #he couldn’t even be fucking bothered to say congrats when I graduated with three majors #and gods forbid there’s the possibility I might be more knowledgeable on a topic than him #he can’t even respect my identity or friends or my girlfriend who I’ve been with for years #but no I’m the terrible person if I don’t thank him for his generous gift of trying to get me to fit his life when he’s the bastard #who forced me into existence and then didn’t try to be apart of mine