#and its just like. so we're just never gonna do anything???

[ecl1pt1csol4rs]

Hide Your Dick > C.S.

DomChris Sturniolo x SubFemale Reader

warnings: swearing, pet names, cut off smut, making out

summary: Chris wanted to film them cooking some burgers at home since you normally get take out. but while filming, you stand behind the camera and you see something in Chris's pants...

authors note: this whole story is fictional! please keep in mind! use of Y/n. short.

Y/n's POV:

We were in the middle of filming. Chris decided he wanted to learn how to cook, specifically burgers, and film his and his brothers experience. I never liked being on camera, but if Chris was having a bad day and they were filming, I'd join them to try to bring up his mood, which happened when I was around.

"get me my eggs.. you over there." Chris says, clearly joking. they start laughing. "ooh" Nick oohs. "get me my eggs." Chris repeats. they laugh again.

"you're on eggs, you're on spices, get goin'" Chris demands. "okay, hold on, what spices and how many eggs-" Matt says, but I tune him out when I see something out of the corner of my eye. I look down at Chris's pants.

my jaw drops and my eye widen. I hold back my laughter. I cover my mouth and turn away. Chris wasn't wearing any boxers. Chris notices me and gives me a confused look. "Y/n, what the fuck are you doing?" he says laughing. "nothing, nothing. I just... uh. its nothing." I say, smiling, my face a little red.

"okay, girl.." Nick says, then they go back to arguing. "stop going like this" Nick says, basically attacking Chris. making it swing a little. "get a tablespoon." "okay." Chris looks at me and I make a motion, letting him know to come over to me.

he stands in front of me. "yeah, Ma?" he says quietly. "Chris." I whisper sternly. his face turns a little pale. "yeah, ma..?" I don't say anything for a moment. "hide your dick." I whisper, then I push his chest with a smile. I see the color go back to his face, he's blushing.

"I'll be in your room." I say to Chris, walking away and down the stairs. I lay in his bed, scrolling on TikTok. my whole fyp is just edits of Chris, which I don't mind. I hear them laughing upstairs.

when I hear them filming their outro, I go to the bathroom and close the door, not locking it. I sit on the counter of the sink, waiting for Chris to come downstairs. a few minutes later, I hear him. "Y/n? ma?" he calls out from his room.

he walks into the bathroom. "wow, Chris, thanks for the privacy." I say sarcastically. "sorry, ma." he says with a smirk on his face. his stand in between my legs and his hands on my waist. "so, what were you thinking when you decided no boxers? hm?" I ask, wrapping my arms around his neck.

"just how hot you look on top of me, riding my dick." he says in a seductive tone. "oh, really?" I say, our lips brushes against each other. "mhm." Chris hums before kissing me softly on the lips. his tongue swipes across my lips, asking for entrance. I keep my mouth closed.

his hand slides to the hem of my shirt. his hand goes under my shirt and up to my bra, massaging my breast. I gasp, he quickly slips his tongue in my mouth, immediately taking dominance. he slides his hand under my bra and massages my nipple. I whimper at the contact.

I feel him smirk against my lips, he slowly pulls up my shirt, we separate our lips for for a second then go right back. Chris's lips trail down my jawline, then my neck. my fingers find his hair. his lips start to trail down to my breasts when we hear knocking on his bedroom door.

Chris rolls his eyes and walks to the door, I put my shirt back on. he opens the door to Nick. "Y/n, Madi is coming over. get your stuff, we're having a sleepover." I smile. "okay, I'll be up in a few." Nick leaves. "next time, Chris. hide your dick." I say, grabbing my blanket and Chris's blue fresh love hoodie.

"Chris girls are gonna go wild, sweetheart. good luck with that." I wink before leaving. "love you!"

#matt sturniolo #fanfic #chris sturniolo #nick sturniolo #sturniolo triplets #Chris Sturniolo x reader #semi smut #ma #makingout #vlog #y/n #female reader

[stevestark]

Eddie only gets told snippets of everyone else's Upside Down experiences after Vecna, like, the sanitized version. The story told by each person but omitting the most personally traumatizing parts. Which means he doesn't know much about Steve and Robin Versus The Russians. Not in its full, gory detail.

So he doesn't think anything of it when Steve has a day off and wants to hang out, just asks if he minds coming with him to Indianapolis. Steve says yes immediately because he just doesn't want to spend another day alone in his big empty house, even if it means several hours in Eddie's deathtrap of a vehicle.

But then they get there and Eddie is parking outside a tattoo parlor and saying he got a last minute booking with his favorite artist and that he's so excited to cover some of the scars he has from the bats and Steve can barely hear him over the fuzziness that seems to be filling his entire brain.

He lets Eddie guide him into the shop, watches Eddie and the tattooist make small talk, follows Eddie to the table, sits on the stool next to him, and tries to look anywhere but at the tattoo gun.

Eddie doesn't notice at first, too jazzed about the idea he and the artist have come up with, blabbering about how he can finally take his shirt off at the lake again. It's not until the line work is done that he realizes Steve's breathing has gone shallow.

He asks the artist if they can take a smoke break before filling the tattoo in with color, and he gently takes Steve's hand and pulls him out back to ask what's wrong. Steve's too deep into a panic attack to answer, so Eddie just puts Steve on the side opposite his new work and pulls him in close, squeezing him as tight as he can and just gently shushing him, running his hand through Steve's hair.

After a few minutes, Steve's breathing easier, and Eddie asks him again if he's okay.

"I'm fine, I just... I hate needles. Ever since the Russians drugged me and Robin. Can't be around them."

Eddie frowns, realizing this must be one of the parts of the story he knows they were keeping from him. "Why did Russians drug you?"

Steve sighs, pulls out of Eddie's grasp, and sits on the ground against the back wall of the tattoo shop. "Dustin picked up a Russian transmission, summer of '85. We translated it, found their secret base under the mall, and realized they were opening the Gate back up. But then we were seen, and to buy time, Robin and I let ourselves get caught so Erica and Dustin could escape and get help."

Eddie sits next to Steve, their knees bumping. "Erica Sinclair? God, that kid really is the most badass of all of us."

"Yeah," Steve laughs. "Anyway, the Russians beat the shit out of me, asking who do you work for and shit like that. Didn't believe me when I said Scoops Ahoy. So they brought in this Doctor and he drugged me and Robin to get us to talk. Just straight up jammed a big ass needle full of mystery drugs into my neck. Ever since then, needles freak me the fuck out. They had to strap me down in the hospital just to get an IV in me when Robin insisted I get the bat bites checked out."

Eddie runs a hand through his hair and shakes his head. "I'm sorry, Steve. I never would've brought you here with me if I knew."

"I know," Steve says quietly. "'S'not your fault. I'm trying to get better at being open about things like this but it's just..."

"Hard. Yeah. I wake up screaming most nights, and I can tell Wayne feels bad because he doesn't know what to do. Because he doesn't know what's causing it."

"Yeah," Steve sighs.

They sit quietly out there for another ten minutes before the tattooist comes back out to see if Eddie wants to keep going, and he glances at Steve, sees the way he's gone pale and rigid, and shakes his head. "Sorry, man, think we're gonna have to pick this up another time."

Eddie stands, grabs Steve's hand and hauls him to his feet, and walks inside, never once letting go of Steve. He sets an appointment for a few weeks from now, on a day he knows Steve is working, and they leave the shop.

The second they're in the car, Eddie sees the color returning to Steve's face, and he drives aimlessly through the city, finally stopping at a combination bookstore/cafe.

"Come on then, big boy," he says with a teasing grin. "I do believe I promised to teach you about Hobbits."

#steddie fic #drabble #stranger things fic #steve harrington #eddie munson #just a passing thought I had whilst watching Steve and Robin get drugged

[dashiellqvverty]

other libraries - even small ones! - are out here doing fun stuff all the time meanwhile my boss hasnt even ordered new books since january

#i want to make like a survey for families w kids about what programs we'd like to see #bc i was talking about how my friends library and my old job have done stuffy sleepovers which are so cute and something we could easily do #and my boss was just like we did one of those a few years ago and only one kid did it :( #and shes like we could do one again but would be worth it if no one comes :( #and its just like. so we're just never gonna do anything??? #it is inconvenient bc we're only open tues wed thurs sat so theres not a good day where kids can pick up their toys the next morning but ug #the problem is she just does not care about kids programming #she only does adult programs for stuff she is interested in #and to be fair my storytimes dont have a huge turnout but i just #i want to do SOMETHING more #r.txt #library tag

[inkskinned]

probably time for this story i guess but when i was a kid there was a summer that my brother was really into making smoothies and milkshakes. part of this was that we didn't have AC and couldn't afford to run fans all day so it was kind of important to get good at making Cool Down Concoctions.

we also had a patch of mint, and he had two impressionable little sisters who had the attitude of "fuck it, might as well."

at one point, for fun, this 16 year old boy with a dream in his eye and scientific fervor in heart just wanted to see how far one could push the idea of "vanilla mint smoothie". how much vanilla extract and how much mint can go into a blender before it truly is inedible.

the answer is 3 cups of vanilla extract, 1/2 cup milk alternative, and about 50 sprigs (not leaves, whole spring) of mint. add ice and the courage of a child. idk, it was summer and we were bored.

the word i would use to describe the feeling of drinking it would maybe be "violent" or perhaps, like. "triangular." my nose felt pristine. inhaling following the first sip was like trying to sculpt a new face. i was ensconced in a mesh of horror. it was something beyond taste. for years after, i assumed those commercials that said "this is how it feels to chew five gum" were referencing the exact experience of this singular viscous smoothie.

what's worse is that we knew our mother would hate that we wasted so much vanilla extract. so we had to make it worth it. we had to actually finish the drink. it wasn't "wasting" it if we actually drank it, right? we huddled around outside in the blistering sun, gagging and passing around a single green potion, shivering with disgust. each sip was transcendent, but in a sort of non-euclidean way. i think this is where i lost my binary gender. it eroded certain parts of me in an acidic gut ecology collapse.

here's the thing about love and trust: the next day my brother made a different shake, and i drank it without complaint. it's been like 15 years. he's now a genuinely skilled cook. sometimes one of the three of us will fuck up in the kitchen or find something horrible or make a terrible smoothie mistake and then we pass it to each other, single potion bottle, and we say try it it's delicious. it always smells disgusting. and then, cerimonious, we drink it together. because that's what family does.

#this is true #writeblr #warm up #relatedly for some reason one of our Favorite Jokes #amongst the Siblings #is like - ''this is so good u will love it'' #while we are reacting to something we OBVIOUSLY find viscerally disgusting #like we will be actively retching and be like ''nooooo it's so good'' #to the point that i sometimes get nervous if someone outside my family is like oh u should try it its good #(obvi we never force each other to eat anything. we are all just curious birds and #like. we're GONNA try the new thing.) #edit to answer why we had so much vanilla: #my mom is a very good cook and we LOVE to bake. so she just had a lot of staples in the house. #it's one of those things that's like. have u ever continuously thought ''ah i should get butter im probably out'' #even tho u are not out of butter. so u end up with like 5 years of butter. #my mom would do that in a costco but like with vanilla extract #to be fair we WERE always using WAY TOO MUCH bc we were kids #so like she was right to stock up #ps. yes we were VERY sick after this lol i just didn't want to include it in the post in case ppl had an ick about that #u can tell it's real bc we knew "oh no we fucked up that's too much vanilla to waste'' but our reaction was to just. keep drinking it #> sibling understanding that vanilla extract isn't free > knowledge mother doesnt mind if we use it for milkshakes #> sibling choice to maybe get in a loophole of ''not wasting it'' if we drink it bc that's the same as using it (not throwing it out) #listen bud i was like 13 and my sister was like 9 #when my mom discovered this we. got in. A LOT. of trouble. a lot of it. a LOT of it. #3rd edit bc i guess it isn't clear - i am 1 of my brother's 2 little sisters #i am the middle child #out of all the ways i have had to explain a post before being like ''did u forget a middle child can happen'' is my favorite

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

context <3

#THE FUCKING SOUND I MADE READING THAT REPLY #poppy: this is a genuinely good option <3 #sally: ...we're literally 28 #and then wally slams his head into one of sally's points. Instantly lobotomizing himself #jokes aside this is just. its so funny #theyre too short.... #they need the high chairs.... #but how are they gonna get into them... too tall... poppy has to pick them up and put them in... #except i doubt either of them would allow that #wally would probs be like 'no thank you' while walking away while sally suggests 20 alternatives #'why dont we sit on the floor? or go to my place? or do literally anything else?' #scribble salad #on an entirely different note: #AHA! I HAVE PUZZLED OUT HOW TO DO SALLYS POINTS!! #i have never been good at drawing stars but!!! i have cracked the code with her!!! #im so happy.... tonight is a night of Figuring Essentially Useless Stuff Out but being very pleased about it Anyway!!!!

[luck-of-the-drawings]

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saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS #REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT #NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS #THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS. #ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of #another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY.. #i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her #idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had #when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them. #but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore. #but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think #i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow. #ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that #AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE #I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME #THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE #WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL #in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad #this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks- #-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl- #-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi #gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show #i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!! #anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

So yeah avoiding my phone didn't work and also meant I sat on the kitchen floor staring into space for about 3 hours before Alfie woke up but hey at least I didn't break anything

Them being around is helping a little but they're also struggling and it fuckin sucks bc I know we're both just. Rotating money stress in our minds

#like. i went out earlier to get bread #just bread bc we cant afford anything else #got just enough in the bank to cover the work thing but since management stjll hasnt gotten back to me on HOW to pay it its like #our electricity is already in debt lol it has a thing where you can go £10 into debt before it switches off #and it usually wont switch off over weekends #presumably bc all but 1 places nearby thst we can top it up at are shut on weekends but anyway #so we're like. okay. it MIGHT last today and if it does thst SHOULD mean itll last till monday. #but then itll be at least a tenner in debt #then we only have to last till thursday but its. do we keep this money thats for The Thing that is once again unclear on how urgent it is #or do we spend it on the Soon To Be Immdiately Urgent thing #and thats not even CONSIDERING food lmao we. i got 2 loaves of bread so we can at least survive on toast for a few days #we got 3 maybe 4 meals worth of stuff still in the kitchen #like...at this point i dont even care if i have to go a few days without eating at all to make it to thursday but its. #its so fucked up those are the terms im thinking in #and this isnt asking for more donations i really cannot take that today im at the fuckin bottom of my barrel #and already feel hopeless and useless and an active drain to everything around me #but its. like. how. why. why is it still like this. why is it looking extremely unlikely its ever gonna change. #whats the point if its all for a few scattered handful hours of actual peace and comfort never mind happiness #tldr yes i am once again suicidal but small s #like in the sense of i would feel immense relief if a truck came at me on my way to work tomorrow and would not step out of the way but #dont have it in me to actually consciously act upon

[themyscirah]

I think that comic creators should be forced to read the entirety of Ostrander & Yale's Suicide Squad run before they even THINK of using Amanda Waller in anything actually

#its like oh my god. read that book #i swear to god she is complex and has so much going on ans just like you NEED to read that book if you want the slightest CHANCE of doing #suicide squad justice #but then ofc ppl just care abt having a mean boss character they dont actually care about HER #i said comic creators bc its the writing and the art both #bc they dont do her character justice with the writing but then they also dont draw her anything like she looks like #like she is called 'the wall' for a reason guys she is NOT skinny as a twig like cmon #and shes not young either the woman is middle aged shes like 40s/50s #anyways. forcing ppl at gunpoint to read good suicide squad comics. instead of just slapping harley quinn on a team with some random #villains and calling it a day #also the suicide squad is supposed to be a MIX of heroes and villains!!! theres supposed to be varying moralities there! and waller isnt #evil guys istg- shes ambitious and kind of mean and p much ALWAYS stuck between a rock and a hard place but shes not evil!!!! #like cmon guys. its a book about heroes and villains on a team together doing off the books missions. its gonna have nuance esp in the #central kind of figure #godddddd ive been wanting to reread suicide squad SO bad these past 2 days #ever since plastique and waller showed up in nu52 jla im just like ahfiahdsuehdvdjc SUICIDE SQUAD #but i must stop myself. bc whenever i start reading multiple things at once THATS when shit hits the fan #and i go into a slump where i don't read comics for like 8 months and never finish the books im reading #so we're not going to do that but man am i tempted #maybe what i should do is watch the suicide squad movie. the james gunn one. maybe that would fix me actually #viola davis amanda waller goes sooooooo hard actually. casting choice of the century imo #and also they had rick flagg leading the team there which i respect. hes no ben turner but its something #especially since nu52 jla tried to turn steve trevor into a bargain bin rick flagg jr which was... certainly a choice #anyways <3333 #also rip my stats this is a loss for feminism geoff johns just knocked kim yale out of my no 5 comic author spot on the tracker app 😔😔😔 #im so sorry kim i didn’t mean to do you dirty like that ma'am #blah #suicide squad #dc comics #amanda waller

[trans-xianxian]

I'm enjoying the fontaine storyline so far I feel like it's progressing the plot forward a good amount and we're getting some rlly cool and important lore info but I Am sort of like. can we solve an insane crisis now. can we have a boss fight please. I enjoy that we're learning a bunch of stuff but it feels like we're Only learning a bunch of stuff and not actually Doing anything of monumental plot importance we're just sort of watching all of the other characters do it

#like I enjoyed the newest archon quest a lot it was great it kept me engaged!!! but also we didn't do anything #like we weren't even there to help fix the water thing because we were sitting silently watching arlechino interrogate furina??? #everything we've done so far in fontaine feels very idle #the trial last patch was so low stakes in like. the grand scheme of things and just served as world building/an elaborate lore drop #most of the archon quest this patch was investigating childe #and then when the big high stakes thing Did happen we weren't even really there for the important part #we did nothing at the tea party w arlechino and furina except watch it happen #and again I'm enjoying it!! we're learning a lot and thats rlly cool!! important world and character information is being gained!!! #but we aren't Doing anything or Solving any problems like we did in other nations #and I guess its sort of a nice break? but doing random tasks while watching Other characters fix the crisis is sort of getting old #like I think fontaine has had some of the best written storyline thus far #I just want to actually participate in something of real significance to the world or nation as a whole #hopefully they are just doing like. a fuck ton of exposition for The Big Crisis and its gonna feel extra important #but like. chop chop #never thought I'd actually be Asking for a boss fight 😭 #ghost posts #text #genshin

[mariska]

in a lil under three hours where i live it will be may 6. which is my birthday. and i was born at 12:15 am so my actual Birth Time On The Day is just like. when the day starts. which means. that in three or so hours i will be.

Twenty-Seven (27). Years Old. 27!!!!! 27. absolutely incomprehensible and surreal

#not because i think its old (its obvs not lol). but like. thats just so strange to say #every year its more weird to think abt and say out loud but this one is rly hitting me like a truck for some reason #i dont mean that in a bad way either!!! just that like. idk i never imagined myself as someone approaching #their late-ish 20's. ever. like as a teen i could not even imagine myself past 20. and that was 7 yrs ago #ANYWAYS!! birthday :-) incoming :-) #me & eli & my moms are gonna try to leave the house and partake in fun bday activities tomorrow #and im v excited for that!! we're gonna visit some antique shops and stuff and see if theres anything else fun to do in the general area #gonna visit a huge antique mall i've been in once before a few yrs back that i love 🥰

[bangcakes]

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#personal #once again yearning but not willing to do anything about it :))))))))) #i was FINE until i had to talk about it last night. i didnt Expect to talk about it. oh god oh god #but then HHHHHHH i hate that i talk about it so much. and i KNOE the answer is to just tell him i like him #or to ask him out but !!!!@@ #im not ready !!! #i need to get a job first. like im so serious Zbfjfjdjdjjd #bc if i tell him or ask him... REGARDLESS of his answer. o im gonna be distracted #and i will not have my future ruined by a guy. nooo fuckin WAY. #and like !!@@ hes working so much anyway. like we're talkin unpaid overtime #but hes hung out with me (and other ppl) twice regardless.... but still HDJDJDJFJ #ugh idk #im so tired of thinking about this #im worried i'll ruin my chances the more i dont act. but its like.... GOD IDK. i like him so much its like. debilitating ???????? #is that the right word idk #i just.... i think im not ready #and if he moves on then ok that sucks but then at least i'll have an answer....???? #god idek #and like one of my friends got asked out by 2 different guys n im like HFJFJJFJFJDJDJDJDJ #GOD. this man is never gonna ask me out. like i think hes Shy. im so. IDK. im also older. like. i think im gonna have to make th3 move #but i wanna be SURE about it. bc like relationships are scary #and i dont wanna start something im not ready for #im kinda hoping that things will happen 'naturally' like they have all along hhhhhhhh

[twipsai]

thinking more,,

#i cant help but feel horribly heartbroken every time i hear whats happening in gaza as well as so many other places #it feels like-- like none of this had to happen #i guess ive never even been in the same universe as someone who even sees one death as a solution #let alone thousands #as a jew especially it feels horrible #like this happened to us. and we're just doing it to someone else??? why?????? #because if you walk into someones home kindly they will take you in. walk in with a gun and theres gonna be tension #i dont understand at all #and like maybe im naive. maybe im just young and my brain hasnt developed yet #and when im an adult ill understand how people could ever think war solves any problem #but. i just think its literally never fixed anything #sometimes people suck. should NOT kill them over it #and thats not even true in this situation!!! israel fucking sucks and theyre the ones commiting a genocide here!!!!!!! #if you walked in peacefully none of this wouldve happened #pass over is soon. and we'll say prayers and eat matza and have lots of food #and those across the globe will do the same. and yet they are murdering people #and we'll be in our safe warm houses and they will be dying #shouldnt there be some way to help them all???? america is one of the richest countries in the world and we're actively hurting them.. #i genuinely cant fathom how people could ever think like that #i dont think evil exists but then i look at the world and i realize weve gotten pretty damn close #and yet i still have to wake up tomorrow #and i still have my own life to live #and the world doesnt stop for me to mourn strangers #i hate all of it. why cant we just be nice to people #anyways. ive just been trying mostly to avoid this topic esp online #this is my little safety zone and ive never really been one for politics; esp things that i dont understand #yknow i dont wanna spread misinfo; and at the same time i dont have the energy or knowledge to fact check #plus the whole emotional toll in a place that i just wanna unwind in #idk. i think im starting to feel like i cant just ignore all these posts anymore. im kinda starting to feel like i wanna scream #all of this really fucking sucks. this shouldnt be happening

[todayisafridaynight]

YEAH........... YEAH..... LIKEWISE, NO NOTES AT ALL, THAT'S EXACTLY IT... Main antagonist deaths are often treated as "comeuppance," but that would be the ultimate comeuppance for Aoki. As it stands, the only people who actually suffer for it are Ichiban and Jo, and Ichi didn't even do anything wrong. Also please I'm positive there's more to wring out of Aoki and Jo for an essay 😭😭at the very least, I always love to hear your perspective!

"he'd made a social circle for himself where people predominantly liked him for the power and influence" <- incredibly Mine-core of Aoki btw (I also feel the rest applies a little in terms of Mine probably being very quick to write off people who Do care about him as not caring about him, as with Katase, but it's nowhere near the extent of the Arakawas)

Wait actually it's kind of funny... for both Mine and Aoki, I was so sure their endings would go a certain way. Mine and Kiryu'd fight Richardson off together and Ichi'd, I don't know, shield Aoki or hug him so Kume couldn't get to him in the first place, or after that INSANE direct parallel to Arakawa running to the hospital with Masato, he'd miraculously pull through like he did on New Year's. Tormented with visions of the better timeline... With Aoki in particular, it makes me want to tear my hair out because the moment of him choosing to put the gun in the locker was REVOLUTIONARY for the series, looking at the characters he was most heavily based on.

Anyway. Bottom line. These bitches need to hug it out. It was so evil Arakawa didn't hug Ichi at Omi HQ or on the waterfront like bro stop being """manly""" for five seconds you're ruining my life you're ruining your own lives

There'd genuinely be nothing more painful yet more satisfying for an antagonist than being confronted with the consequences of their actions and having to navigate life after having making those decisions, ESPECIALLY when it comes to mending the bonds that- for anyone else- would have shattered long ago. With Aoki being motivated by the want to be loved and appreciated for himself, it would've been nice to see him finally acknowledge that he did have that love and start to better himself as a result (however much he'd be able to while in prison anyway lmao).

The Mine and Aoki comparisons are so real though, I remember joking to myself about it days after beating the game but it just fuels my mental illness every time I think about it ☠️ I LEGALLY AM NOT ALLOWED TO GO OFF ABOUT THE Y7 ENDING I'VE DONE IT TOO MUCH it makes me so mad every time I think about it 😭 ESPECIALLY THE PARALLELS WITH ARAKAWA AND THE LOCKERS UGGGHHH IT COULD HAVE BEEN SUCH AN EPIC CONCLUSION WITH THAT... Arakawa running from the lockers at the start of Aoki's life compared to Ichiban running from the lockers and getting Aoki to the hospital so Aoki can restart life I'm Going To Kill Someone (myself) (in Minecraft)

#snap chats #theres a note here about aoki's self hatred and ergo his inability to believe people could love him without 'worth' #and some kind of. I Dont Know occurs that comes with aoki accepting that love and ergo At Least Tolerating himself #and again becoming better as a person as a result. not WHOLLY you cant undo Everything Wrong With Him with one therapy session #but itd at least be a start and thats far more than anything else rgg has given since like. ryuji in dead souls #but w/e i- as per usual- have the vocabulary of a walrus so we're just gonna have to imagine i said something profound #AND THE LACK OF HUGGING IN THIS FRANCHISE IM GOING TO STAB ALL OF YOU. IN MINECRAFT. #with the power of delusions and this like seven-year-old wacom tablet i can fix that...... #it'll never be enough it'll never fill the void in my soul but it'll be something i guess #BUT UGH NO SORRY IM JUST MAD NOW #nothing in my life has ever genuinely triggered anger in me than the y7 ending its just soooooooOOOOO #IT WAS SOOO CLOSE TO BEING PERFECT I CANT #im going to give myself a blood clot thinking about it anymore i feel my heart stopping Do Not Call An Ambulance I Cannot Afford It #so to stop myself from going in any more debt than i already am..... the possibility of any essays from me are very small #my ability to use words is near non existent. i feel like a right ninny sometimes #in any case im not sure what else i could expand on that isn't restating what you've said #cant ever be upset with bein on the same wavelength tho it gives my inarticulate ass a helluva easier time trying to explain LMAO #plus im petrified of trying to interpret anything from the english dub or english subs #and looking into language use is Very Much important when dissecting abusive relationships #i guess there's always just talking about general actions committed and not inspecting the exact words used #idk.. at the very least ill rotate the concept in my head and then fend off the urge to eat my teeth #i'm gonna throw up.... im still thinking of it........ gonna make an unrelated-but-arguably-related post in like three seconds #dont look at it its cringe

[lunarflare64]

I never claimed to be the responsible one in this body *takes a sip of whiskey on a completely empty stomach, having last eaten 11 hours ago and it only being half a bag of chips, no breakfast to speak of*

#look i dont think i was the one that fucked up breakfast but come on #who the hell looks away from food in this adhd ass body? #we all know if we dont immediately dig in we'll forget it exists and it'll get gross #so no breakfast and all i could manage to handle was the chips and nothing else sooooo #nothing went to plan today our life is in shambles #we should never rely on other people to do fucking anything and we should never plan around them either #didnt do chores didnt eat its a fucking miracle we took our meds #im gonna fucking drink and we're gonna TRY to not be snappish at our mum for not at least notifying us that the plans were cancelled #cant entirely blame her shes showing signs of VERY early stages of dementia. her memory isnt gonna last forever #and she doesnt have the coping mechanisms we have with our memory issues because shes used to having a reliable memory to fall back on #it'll take time for her to adjust to her brain being unreliable like this and it'll take longer than it took for us #amnesia from childhood is VERY different from amnesia appearing late into adulthood ('late' shes 41) #its gotta be weird and probably very upsetting #we were a little confused about it at first when she took our reminders as insults #if youre new to memory struggles reminders are helpful right? wrong. its not about practicality its about being deemed as unreliable #even if its true in a completely objective sense #whatever we know theres times where we wont completely understand what shes dealing with - different experiences and all that #the tism on our end doesnt help #we just cant tell when reminders are welcome so we dont give them at all anymore #even when it fucks us over - like today! ☆ #gods we're tired

[dragonji]

its time for yet another brain game of am i like fully neurotic or was this genuinely not a cool situation . prize is jack shite and yet im playing anyways👍

#j.txt #vent #just like. to preface. im not bringing any of this up im just going to stew in it for the night and then move on as per usual #alright disclaimer made now i can get to the point. So. tonight is my close irl friends bday right but she didnt tell me about any plans #so i naturally assumed she was gonna do her own thing and not really celebrate. Ive had work all day and while working get a text frm her #asking if we want to go to this restaurant i introduced our group to for dinner. so i respond saying oh im off at this time if yall want to #go even tho its late i can. Never get a response so i assume theyll bring it up when i get back. get home and no ones here not a word abt #whats going on. i do my usual unwinding get ready to chill etc which takes abt half an hour. she comes back with our other mutual friends #and theyve already gone to the restaurant which is fine i get it. but they get back and say oh now we're going to this themed music night at #a club we've all been to before as soon as (other friend) changes. and then just. dont offer for me to come along or anything and leave. #which like. whatever its happened a hundred times before im used to it but Still. does it not even occur that I might want to participate?? #if i had Any notice that this was happening I could have been getting ready instead of slacking around waiting for someone to get home #its so. i try extrememly hard not to be a downer or just invite myself to things bc I Know this is how they all operate but it does still #sting that it feels like im not even thought of if i dont happen to be in the room when plans are being made lol. #and obv I am Not bringing this up rn and ruining what im sure was a really fun night for all of them #its just truly a goddamn bitch of an unsatisfactory situation yknow. but such are the whims of fate and i shall endure as always✌️

[moonstandardtime]

love my digital art class but god it is filling me with rage and hatred for adobe.

#my post #i hope im able to use my tablet in classes when i transfer #bc good lord. this shit is impossible #i would be done with this project already .. but im not even halfway through. #its due on friday too and i cant get adobe illustrator on my laptop and work on it outside class bc adobe wont fucking COOPERATE WITH ME. #its trying to make me pay. girl the school is already paying for it for me what the hell are you talking about. let me in #i should talk to the professor..oogh but theres so much other stuff i havent done for either of the classes i have with this professor #bc of that unnecessarily long quarantine i had to do right at the beginning of the semester putting me behind #and i would feel bad abt asking for an extension for whats basically the only assignment ive actually done for both of their classes #i would feel less bad i think if i had accommodations for this kinda stuff. but i never actually went to get any and now it wouldnt be worth #it bc im not gonna be at this school next semester. and i only have these two classes that i have anything to do for #oh right this post is abt adobe #.. i dont think id be able to fully finish this assignment on time even with an extension #bc adobe illustator. like i said. is filling me with rage #it is so tedious and finicky and unnecessarily complicated and doesnt have the tools i like and i cant find a fill tool or how to make the #eraser smaller and im using a fucking. mouse. a mouse that i cant right click with btw bc we're using apple computers and the mice are lite #rally just one button. #i love this professor and i enjoy the projects but good GOD. i hate the tools so much #maybe ill ask them for an extension and if i could do it. not on adobe