#and it was so good so i had to do ir

[marstectomy]

NOT drawing anymore for this AU, it wasnt even supposed to be an AU

#apri does art #fanart #someone suggested godot as darcy #and it was so good so i had to do ir #it*

[if-we-are-free-tell-me-why]

Do you know how much media has been produced in the last decade? This really was the era of overstimulation where you never really could watch all the stuff there was.

So when people complain that TV will be bad now, so? Go back and watch all the stuff that's just rotting on streaming platforms it's not like it's 2007 and linear TV is your only option.

But most importantly just support the strike so that the people who make all the stuff you like can keep making it :)

#I'm not even from the US but I find this argument so irritating in the age of streaming #so what if entertainment sucks we literally just had a so called golden age of television it's not like theres nothing to watch #support the wga #writers strike #wga strike #also tbh I wonder if writers in Germany have a similar union bc maybe ir would do the entertainment business here good to have one

[spitinsideme]

Any thoughts on the new trailer?

going to beso honest like righr now, lime COMELTY honest righr now, i actually do not care for tadc lime .. at all .. it is not a show id usually watch and when it does come out i will probably not watch ir unless im feing like watching ragapom moments i guess ? it juat isnr sowmthing i actually care aboit .. so sorry to you all i am actually not a tadc fan 💔 heartbreaking im sure, i juat am a daily distrubutor for ragapom art

ive heard about it rhoifh from posts ? the like princesss of sweets or soemthig, she seems pretty i guess ?? sowmrhing aboit pomni beong jelaous for ragatba and the sweets princess, old woman yuri idonrknkw my sources are from gay artists but looks good o guess 👍 im sure it will be fun !

#i dont even knlw WHY i drew ragapom art in the begining lik actuallu #i didnt even actualy ship them #i watched the tadc trailer because i was seeong the charagers from it everywhere #and i was like yeah alroghr ill give it a look #it wasnt my thing ! i wasnt Interested in it but thats just me i just am not an animatrd kins of dark show person #me personally i love happy feel good things or anythong that is gay and depressing #i think i started drawing ragapom because o saw a fanart foe ir maybe ? ans thoifht it was cutw and was like yeah sure ill add to that #it was in lke novemeber i had zero other things to do i may as well start a tumblr art accounr i guess ! #kind of funny to me how i thinm im like the artist who draws ragapon the most because i do it like daily #and yet i have zero interwat in the show #to be fair allthe fandom i am interwsted on have like so few people who care aboit ir #like for me to be in a fandom woth over 5 people ??? crazy ... #ragapom is cute thoufh ! i love okder women #soemtone tell me how it ends and if it ends happily i will watxh kr but if it ends sadly i will not #i will NEVER watxh a show with sk many epaopdes just flr there to be a sad ending #i will only watxh lesbian movies with tragic endings and NOTHING else #everyrhing else needs to be happy

[n1ghtwarden]

she won the idgaf war in the shadowfell

#minth vc: so like. can i place an order to tim hortons or something. are we leaving soon. should i have not ordered coffee. can we like #go get it before we go to moonrise? no? damn. #(thx key for the joke) #i did not have her interfere. im on the fence. she didnt interfere as a companion and openly admits that like. #becoming a DJ wld be BAD for shadow (but good for the party) and if im playing this like she has a soft spot for her companions. #i think given the lack of free will she had... she'd be receptive to letting the party do as they please and not getting involved even if i #brings the ire of a god or goddess upon them. aylin congrats u lived bc minth and shadow r buddies. #then in act 3 every decent choice she's made is going to fall apart. slay!!!! #it's always sunny in menzoberranzan #ooc. claireposting. #and this is coming from someone who has done multiple full evil/bad runs like. i feel minth's is more morally grey (ie she'll kill anyone #who gets in her way to justify her means) which she has been doing. and no good she has done is from the kindness of her heart. #but at the end of this run shes gonna take over the cult and do a bunch of other questionable shit.

[bonesandpoemsandflowers]

i can do this i can do this i can do this (file my taxes a day late) i can do this i can do this if i consume enough coffee i can do this i can do this i can

#yes i've had my rx stimulants too today! it is just. #i've never filed on time in my life #i was SO CLOSE this year #idk i know i've been held at gun point and knife point in my life but those are intense and one way or another v temporary problems #tax forms????????? formless boundless anticipatory dread forever #one year i filed so late that e-filing was CLOSED #I had to PRINT OUT MY FORMS and MAIL THEM to the IRS #do not reccomend #sometimes i truly understand my father #mister yeah I want hazard pay sure send me to negotiate with terrorists idfc yolo fuck it we ball. just get me a really good secretary #mister I have highly personal beef with several legitimate insurgency leaders and have had literal bounties on my head #mister “sweetheart i mailed your birthday present to your address from five years ago can you handle it” #like. i get it. i get it! I would also rather have heavy problems limited in time #paperwork that can get you audited is way scarier #paperwork where the punishment for getting it wrong is like. a lot more paperwork #okay! i have blogged about my personal failings. #time to actually do something useful #about me

[imflyingfish]

Honestly i dont like sculk spreading/corruption storylines theyre really boring with a few exceptions

#at least make it MEANINGFUL. OR AN ALLEGORY SURE #but a lot of thr timr its just like #augh... ohnoo... thr sculkk.. its spreading and taking me ovrr.... fukkkkk..... #and then its either like poof all better now or oops fuck everythinfs dead the end #i just dont think theyre cool unless they have a specific meaning #like cub's sculk arc? that was really boring man ur not even from that server and ir didnt like do anything #i mean its funny from a 'its cub' pov but aside from that ehhh..... nah...... #The corruption from s1 esmp was cool however but more because it served an actual function it was a good mass server event not caused by a #specific player but instead a mass storylune and players got to interact with it in interesting ways #but also there was never the threat of oh.... noo.... the entire world will become corrupted it was more WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS BIGASS PLANT #DOING HERE #and it tied into very nicely xornoth and that #esmp2 ALSO kind of had a corruption line with the fae but like.... what was that even.... i literally dint remember and i was there..... #it was boring...... #oh and also owens nlsmp corruption storyline.... sigh.... #there was so much potential for Sparrow and that storyline and i wish Owen had just gone 'okay i need people to roleplay as online for this #narrative' like Oli does #like u cant really do long term storytelling on what is a short term server if you arent ready to direct people and allow yourself to #control YOUR story the whole sculk spreading thing just seemed like a copout due to the server ending #where i think owen should have put his own content above what is technically true #its roleplay #like owen does roleplay well. but the difference is on the POW servers is that theres a set time and most people are on at the same time #but that just doesnt occur so much on youtube based smps and thats why i think until owen is able to direct more (outside of shared rp with #scott specifically) he's probably better suited towards streamed roleplay later edited #idk sculk storylines are boring basically they can work but only in an active server i feel #like with owens it was like 'oh fuck the sculk is spreading i have GOT to stop this!' meanwhile everyone else on the planet is like already #dead following his videos like idk man just didnt hit #there was also no specific defeat or true responce to the sculk either like ik there was the vault but idk #like overall. it was fine and i enjoyed it but thst doesnt mean i like sculk storylines

[loverboybreakdowns]

& now im crying. great.

#came home she got out pork chops says i have to cook & eat them bc i need protein #dont want hot food rn & even if i did i dont have the energy to cook dont even have the energy to get a glass of water #but like i was handling it was gonna lay down a while then make pork chops feed them to the cat if i couldnt make myself eat & thats fine. #but then she said i was being a little shit bc of like i guess my tone of voice ir something? #idk man im tired & im frustrated & im in pain & im trying so hard to be polite & say the right things #but like. no matter how hard i try i cant get it right my voice always comes off wrong #& it always has & it will continue to the rest of my life #i try SO HARD she knows i struggle with tone & i still cant get it right & shes mad at me for it #i cant fucking do this i cant be a person im not GOOD AT IT. #im like failing at humanness and i always have been #& idk its a stupid thing to get so upset over & i know logically im being dramatic #but im just so tired #& i havent eaten since 7 so i probs have low blood sugar or something idk #and i’ve had a headache for 3 days that wont fucking go away #& i just cant make myself be rational rn #rambling

[lovelyleech]

I just don't think anything will get better and I am doomed to be this wretched obnoxious nothing person for the rest of my life begging to just stop being a complete fuck up for once but I know it won't happen so I guess I just have to live like this but ar this point its embarassing I havent gotteb used to it like what has possibly made me think i deserve to be this greedy

#I just wish I had any like. Good unique traits #Anything I could possinly have going for me there's other people who are better at it readily available #I just wish I was someone worth talking to but no matter what I try and who I am it doesn't work so #I just need to stop being fucking greedy and be thankful I can at least be in the background of other peoples lives #19 years of only being good for padding social groups and you'd think I'm used to it by now #or at the very least somewhat fucking decent at ir #what fucking ever Im not doing anything good by wallowing in bed I might as well work out or go on a walk

[wibble-wobbegong]

could a more perfect man exist

#i love him so fucking much #he helped me cook pasta over the phone and was so sweet about it the whole time and he’s so silly :(((( #pasta with seasoned marinara and parmesan cheese is fine dining in this house considering everything is expired ir we dont have it #no bread no eggs no tortillas nothing i could throw some cheese on and call a meal #we had spaghettios totinos pizza lettuce cheese and canned beans #i try not to make anything i dont know for sure i can make bc im bad at cooking #or we just. dont have the ingredients #most of the time we just dont have the ingredients to make things bc my mom is My Mom and kinda shit at feeding us #so i never learned how to cook beyond the basics #but he was so sweet and helped me make pasta #he said im gonna get fat in the future when we live together because we’ll have good food and snacks and shit #i always feel bad when he comes over and we dont have food bc im used to just looking at the stock and realizing its either disgusting #expired or Lettuce so i just. dont eat. but i dont wanna do that to him #and he’s jsut #djnejrbskdbsjhks :(((( #i love my boyfriend #dear diary

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Besties, it's clipboard season again, and not to brag but I'm really fucking good at colors

#clipboard season: when i tey desperately to paint a clipboard for all of the leadership and my staff at the camp i work at #this year it amounts to about fifteen clipboards #i choose a different cool thing that reminds me of the person or what i think they would like and then paint it on the back of a clipboard!! #today i started the first because i got the overwhelming vision while i was at work and i needed to paint it #this guy is the nature director. loves fishing and is very good at it. knows a shit ton about fish and fishing #so im painting his clipboard in the style of those educational posters with a bunch of different fish on it #yknow the yellowy beige ones with like fish or plants drawn on them #yeah. im doing that with common fish found in our lake!! #which prompted this post because. that yellowy beige was a fun color to mix up. and not to brag but i got it just about perfect #now comes the drawing. im better at painting than drawing #colors and stuff make more sense than lines and stuff. but im getting better! #im learning more and more every day. and i guess today (and for rhe next ten days) ill be learning to draw fish #(I'm giving myself ten days per clipboard) #(last year when i started i only had like three days per clipboard to finish them before camp) #(spoiler: i finished exactly one) #really hoping this year ill do better. mostly because i love painting and this is a fun way to remember to do ir #as well as challenge nyself and get better #i hope youre all having a great 2024

[crossbackpoke-check]

wait you got me so invested in the stammer & heddy tailor au....

this is my standard disclaimer that i have never posted a fic on ao3* and for however much i say “au” i truly mean that it’s a universe that lives in my head & i am absolutely delighted to tell you all about, all the time <3 if it helps i ALSO got me so invested in the heddy & stammer tailor au

ok now that the author’s note is out of the way here’s some notes about the not!fic heddy & stammer tailor au:

stammer as the tailor from gent’s playbook, very reserved, quiet, with an excellent eye for details (honestly the evidence i have for his style sense is just that he’s best friends with pk subban so it has to be there somewhere if only by proxy irl) is hired by victor hedman, star of the tampa bay lightning who is every other tailor’s nightmare to dress (huge, opinionated, fashionable)

heddy is decently well-known throughout the league for being very well-dressed & becomes quietly well known for also being one of his new tailor’s favorite loyal customers [heddy has the nicest fabrics. he has his suits the first day a new collection drops & e v e r y o n e is jealous]

stammer’s business booms after heddy takes a chance on him as his first big client & promotes him, heddy sees him grow in popularity & get more clients

heddy also moonlights as a model for stammer’s suits on instagram, initially to help him grow his business because then he won’t have to pay for a model and then because he’s over there all the time anyway because they’re dating (that’s why the model’s face is never in the pictures)

there’s not really a plot to this besides the vague idea of a plot where stammer makes heddy his lucky suit that he wins the cup in & sews a special little tag into the lining of his jacket that says i love you

because love sometimes is picking out the perfect right color pocket square to match your husband’s beautiful suit that you fitted like a kiss to the curves of his huge body

& also sometimes love is making your beautiful husband who makes you beautiful clothing enjoy nice things for himself once in a while, like the fancy watch you bought him or the nice suit you custom-ordered for him (from him) just so you could take it off of him

#*i did very much post a zine on ao3 that was part of a really fun exchange that i loved doing (thank you leah for organizing!!!) #& had a fantastic time with however i have not strictly speaking posted a fic. one day i will. eventually. hopefully. pray for me :) #also one time my horoscope told me i was a ‘neutral projector’ & i’ve never felt more called out (‘loves making up things’/‘will not #actually write or plot but will explain every intricate detail of their world & character relationships’/‘hype up every member of the #writing chat & give good advice but never follow it’) like HI CAN U NOT DO THIS TO ME HOROSCOPE THANKS i was read to FILTH #liv in the replies #i do LOOOOOVE me a good one of them plays hockey the other one does not au sometimes they’re so fun to explore dynamics outside/inside sport #at the time i came up with this stammer was out on IR & heddy kept showing up to the playoffs in ridiculously nice suits what was i to do?? #the gent’s playbook tailor will sometimes model his own suits w/o showing his own face which made it look like he had a secret model come in #heddy canonically says his suits make him feel better when he plays esp during playoffs & if he wins in a suit he’ll keep wearing it #oh also the truth of the love is in the pocket square bit? angela price i will never forget. anyway that blue suit i posted in the last ask #with the perfect pink pocket square? that pocket square is a pair of stammer’s boxers heddy took To Me. in my brain #me about the beautiful clothing: this is like daisy crying in gatsby’s silk shirts except it’s baby alpaca fur & also it’s not sad #it’s simply decadent & the inherent intimacy of a fitting mapping the body yada yada yada knowing the ways to flatter someone is a form #of loving them etc etc. love is art love is food love is given love is stored in the custom three-piece suit and tie #is this an enemies to lovers? workplace drama? is the secret plot i only just now invented & added that heddy is ‘difficult to work with’ #but it’s just because he wants to look good & in the words of his own (real) tailor the hardest guy to fit because he’s so big? OHHH HOLD IT #I GOT THE PLOT IN THE TAGS Y’ALL AND IT’S STAMMER TEACHING HEDDY TO LOVE HIS BODY heddy who’s been told what to/not wear & you know. #the commodification of the body in hockey (but we’re not getting that deep) but stammer with a mouth full of pins tightening heddy’s pant #leg down even further as he listens to what heddy wants for once & lets him pick fabrics (this is the daisy shirt moment but it’s heddy #looking at fabric swatches dozens of books of them stammer helps him pick out matching linings &outsides &squares) & stammer compliments him #& they’re in love & idk NEARLY enough abt fashion but there r like codes? messages? to wearing suits i think w/the etiquette so that too #should this have also gone under a readmore? yeah probably. whoops #victor hedman #steven stamkos #tampa bay lightning

[the-acid-pear]

Lately i can't stop thinking of Ruby getting redeemed thru dead and how angry that makes me like. I know it would have been been odd to have two Ruby's on s3 but

#luly talks #evil dead #sorry but my wife deserved better 😐 #like i dont hate s3 because it gave us a lot like a downwards angle of Bruce's fat fucking cheeks my god that man is so caked up 🥵 #but like. like the gifs say it all it makes me so angry season 2 giveth and season 2 taketh and season 3 is but the crumbs of a dying show #like there's good yws yes i love brandy and her relationship w her dad and etc but RRNGHHGREN MY GIRL RUBY GOT IT SO UNFAIR #like i just keep thinking of that interaction w Pablo where he's like ah you do have some humanity in you :'3 and irs #i just wanna cry and scream i wish she had become a main character i would have died to see her build strong bonds w the cast 😭

[nomaishuttle]

exciting day so far

#264 (the couple who pays extra to have their bed made every day (which is crazy)) knocked over a CLOCK in their room #the wife did it on accident luckily she was ok.but i had 2 hunt down maintenance to fix da clock and i thought i found a guy but apparently #he wasnt actually a maintenance guy So i might kms. but he said hed find a maintenance guy for me so.. #bc my boss was like ok ryan (head of maintenance (wnd housekeeping but hes a maintenance guy. my boss is the real head of housekeeping lol) #might be in the maintenance shop. and i was like okie went in and he wasnt 💀💀💀 so i just saw a guybwearing black which i thinkk is #maintenance color and i was like halp me ! and he was like erm yeah ill find a maintenance guy for you ^-^ #it was so awk tho. my job on weekdays (except tuesdays bc thats the day they get cleaned) is 2 make the bed and its usually umm #shes usually in da shower with her caretaker. not like eith but. ykwim. and the husband is usually asleep on da couch #but i got there like 10 minutes early so they were both up and also yhe husband was like Are you a guy can you help and i was like erm no #and i misunderstood i thought he was having like #a medical or #something else issue. yk. but then i overheard him talking to the wifes caretaker and realized he said CLOCK. and i was like ohhh ok.. #but i finished the bed and said okie ill find a maintenance guy t come help asap :] #and he was like thanks 👍 hes very sweet idk if we had spoken b4. well probably but idr much of it #i think ive mainly spoken to da wife b4. shes very sweet shes had a stroke so its a bit difficult to understand her sometimes but shes very #nice.. i ws sooo worried thenfirst day bc allegedly we got there early (aka the time they usually went to do the bed) so now k do it at 9 #which is mildly inconvenient but not too bad. ideally id be making the bed b4 i starty rooms 4 the day bc i have like an hour anf a half to #do my morning work. so i could just slot ir in real easy.. but its all good jo worries. but ya so she was kind of irritated the first day #and also it was my first time speaking to someone who had had a stroke. so i didnt realize thats just like. how she ralks and thought she #was just super duper mad. and i was like eep! but its ok.

[toytulini]

god i still couldnt watch final destination tbh

#toy txt post #i remember walking in to my mom and her friend watching one of the paranormal activity movies? and being like #well this isnt that bad yall are just screaming everytime the camera moves at all which is frankly more startling than the movie #and i was like oh maybe i could watch horror actually #and then i think i watched either an entire ir at least part of a final destination movie and that specifically. bad for my brain lmao #im STILL haunted by that god fuck i will NEVER get lasik fuck that #idc how unrealistic or not actually scary it doesnt matter u see cos similar to the spn mirror episode #it was really scary in a way that imprinted itself on my little teenage brain so even if it is objectively Not That Scary. #what i remember it being is scary even if that memory is proven to be embellished. its like. well. we already thought up the scary image #lets just be scared anyway just in case lmaoooo #brains can be so fascinatingly stupid #anyway its good i never watch more of those movies than i already did tbh bc i could drive myself bananas with that content #i do find it interesting finding out which like horror tropes or types or whatever i Cannot deal with and whatever final destination has #going on is one of them i think cos i also couldnt deal w the fate ep of spn very well which had a similar vibe #of like. freak accidents that no amount of being careful couldve prevented or smth. idk #like in that log pic below this one #yea the logs cant hit u dead on now but like there could still be a freak shit to happen that could lead to the logs killing u

[rosykims]

ok. ok. i think im finally (mostly) settled on elspeth's ending and her handling of the landsmeet in particular. illegible hysteria below

i spent like 20 hours of this game hyping up an alistair/anora alliance but i dont think i can do it in practice im too weak Lol. BUT i do like the idea of trying it anyway and it falling apart bc everything always falls apart in this universe. so yeah, alistair does do the dual in the end, despite what i said the other day (he's the one who at this point wants to be king. so why not) much to ella's horror. the detail i mentioned about loghain being the only person to defeat her in her tourney days still carries symbolic weight, because it was ELLA who trained and mentored and levelled alistair up through the blight. shes like babe if i cant beat him you shouldnt risk it !! and so him then BEATING loghain regardless is a nice lil "student surpasses the teacher" moment and also drives home that ella is a good commander and theyre both stronger than they were.

ofc this means alistair obviously goes rogue and does what he does at the end of the fight — regardless of the promises of mercy ella made to anora and their attempts at an alliance lol. which sucks and its not as neat a solution, but emotions were high and its understandable and also L + ratio + loghain sold elves into slavery. ella got her vengeance over howe earlier so shes like sigh ok anyways. SO. the alliance is a bust, but alistair is hardened anyway so its not the end of the world. he rules alone post canon with ella still as adviser and his mistress, BUT :) im thinking about him refusing to take a wife in this path, specifically because he's trying to convince ELLA to marry him and make it official. she always rejects him but its in an ahaha.... unless 👀 kinda way that encourages him to keep trying. i mean the only reason she doesnt feel like she can is bc Duty and Responsibilities and Obligations blah blah blah..... ALL of which she could still honor while being queen. so yeah. completing her story and having her reaffirm her grey warden duty + alistair's king duty, and their mutual dark ritual sacrifice, but with the open ended possibility that a happier ending IS possible at some point ! when she's ready ! maybe after she cures the taint :) who knows

#oc: elspeth #ok im feeling better about this actually. i hate feeling paralyzed by lore it happens wayyyy to often bc my brain is broken #i think the reason im not feeling the anora/alistair choice anymore is bc it requires alistair to make that sacrfice PLUS the dark ritual #like the ending was supposed to feel like it's ELSPETH bearing the brunt of the angst FOR ali and yet that route just #fucks him over way too much and ella by extension. i do like it in theory but i wish the dark ritual didnt have to be involved sigh #but whatever this ending fixes all of that ! and the ritual actually suppports this choice imo #alistair feeling less beholden to c*ncieve an h*ir bc hey idk if u forgot but i actually have a fucked up kid out there somewhere lol ! #really the only loose end im :/// about is anora #bc she was important to ella :/ very important #and having that whole aspect of her story finish with 'oh alistair exiles her or puts her in prison and we all move on' just. ugh. #i WISH there had been even the slightest mention that anora knew how to fight or was interested in it at least #bc if ella could conscript her into the grey wardens THAT would be a lot of fun lol #like 'your boyfriend killed my dad and stole my throne but you tried your best but also fuck off' is suvh a good dynamic :( #idk. i'll have to think abt how i can fuck around w canon to make that ending more satisfying since that is ofc what i Do lol <3 #im just shouting into the void w this mostly but i love her so much and im having fun so. #i think ive realized thru fixing up this worldstate is that i love angst but with a healthy serving of hope on the side #ella's hope that her love for alistair can fit with her duties as commander #cillian's hope that anders can be redeemed #ashara's hope that she's not too far gone to forgive solas. and that her love can still save him despite everything #man. #ANYWAYS THANKS FOR READING IF U DID LOL

[viovio]

mamas making soup tmrw which is great but i reallyyyy want curry

#thinking about my college course cuz rn im taking up home ec and cookery #which includes table setting reservation systems and just working at food establishments #and cleaning. which i can do #w cooking my mom told me i had to fix my habit of being a picky eater which i cant but i can follow directions and taste stuff #speak iza #idk why i picked this course.. i like cooking but so far i only make simple dishes and pastas and soups #bc i. likw my cooking. not bc it taste good it tastes alright and how i want it to #and thats the rhinfg i KNOW whats in it so i wont get surprised by different textures or ingridients #(?) not surprised more like uhh idk the word. like i love peppercorns bayleaves ginger and bones and what they do for flavors but when #theyre left in. worse is whenbits MIXED WITH MT RICE FUCK NO!!!! #if i know all the ingredients or see that its a dish without them i trust ro mix it with my rice. if not #like a dish w meat that has too much taba or bones i will section it off from the rice. and organize each bite #other people do ir like. one carrot. meat. potato. liver. and a spoonful of rice in my mouth #repeat and i just ate lunch (1 hr