#and i've been looking forward to this for literal years

[menlove]

any McLennon fic recs ?

CRACKS FINGERS

immediate rec is your lucky break by @forthlin bc millies writing makes me throw up and scream and cry and this is the fic that got us talking so!! also, young paul and dilf john and I eat it UP. also literally any of their fics are so so good. the latest one is our fic together so I won't rec it but... their writing in the john pov they wrote is soooo good so. I'll rec their half!

✨ = all time fave

just pulling from my bookmarks.......

grow old with me

Paul breaks his arm, and John panics

explicit. fix-it.

and when the broken bodies are washed to shore (who am I to ask for more)

“Jesus, took you long enough,” John says, adjusting the duffle over his shoulder. “Thought I might be out here til morning at this rate.”

For a second he wonders if he’s drunker than he thought, but no. As far as he can tell, it is still 1980, and he hasn’t seen or so much as spoken to John in ten years

mature. fix-it.

John My Beloved ✨

They've always loved each other, in their own way...

explicit. major character death. literally fucking killed me I sat there at 7am after staying up all night and teared up. I cry like. once a year.

i was a younger man then (now) (post hoc) ✨

John’s twelve when a bloke appears from a flaming pie and says, “From this day forward you are Beatles with an ‘a.’” The bloke is Paul.

Or: paul and john meet at all ages and eras and john is the time-traveler’s wife the way only john lennon can be

mature. fix-it. time traveler's wife au that lives forever in my mind rent free.

Stop all the clocks (by @javelinbk)

‘1967. After Brian dies, Paul decides not to go ahead with MMT, and takes John up to Scotland for a month instead.’

mature

Like Love, The Archers Are Blind

He wants to push Stuart out of the way, not even with a violent yank of his collar like he sometimes imagines. Just to melt into his place like butter sliding in a pan. Have it be an effortless breath of fresh air when John looks up at him and sees it all reflected back in his eyes. It’s you.

Hamburg, 1960

explicit

Boy, You've Been A Naughty Girl ✨

John makes Paul a bet. Paul takes him up on it. Crossdressing shenanigans and angst ensue, and ~feelings come out in the wash. 1961.

OR: boys in knickers, lots and lots (and lots) of sex, angst, homophobic slurs, schmoop. The Pineapple Club is fictitious. Originally posted on LJ in 2012

explicit. what can I say but whshwjjajjakak

I Still Miss Someone (series)

It's 1976 and Paul keeps showing up on John's doorstep with a guitar. Eventually John turns him away and Paul goes off to sulk in his hotel room the night before his flight from New York. Based on real events

explicit. not a fix-it.... real to me though

christmas lights (keep shinin' on)

"I'd have you," Paul said, eventually, and John felt the air being knocked out of him. "If it was different. If we were different."

mature.

two of us (burning matches)

It won't stop raining. Paul doesn't know what his feelings are doing. John's practising his right swing. Somewhere along the way, they fuse together

explicit. honestly literally everything by obstinatrix is 💖💖💖

one and one and one is three ✨ by @pauls1967moustache

Even with how badly he wants this, John wouldn't want it if he didn't think it would make Paul feel good. That's the point. It can be good, the three of them. It can work, if Paul lets it.

explicit. failed yoko/john/paul. also literally everything this author writes...... shout outs: a great threat (female paul/yoko w delicious mclennon in the bg) baby it's all relative verse (don't talk to me. the one time I've ever Ever in my life read foot kink and it???? it works??? they'd do this. I don't want them to. but this is real. entered my "psyche of john lennon" file. )

PROBABLY MORE....... but these are the ones that I keep thinking about and ruminating on.

#mclennon

[buckyeagan]

Not me crying because I was disappointed in the latest episode of JJK

#like it's so not that serious #but i was so underwhelmed #and i've been looking forward to this for literal years #so yeah i'm gonna complain about it a bit #nobody who follows me even watches it i don't think so it's not like anyone cares lol #i think it's a lot of other things combined like my mental and physical health and this is just what broke me #jujutsu kaisen #jjk

[courviknight]

happy holidays and a happy new year, @ko-rka!! i am your secret santa for @fmasecretsanta ^^

i drew for you emo punk ed fashion, cats, and stars... and let me tell you, it's been SUCH a pleasure drawing as i've listened to your mcr playlist!! i ended up liking a lot of songs on spotify back-to-back, but some of my favorites were "to the end" and "sleep"

i hope you like it, and i'm wishing you the best for the new year! :]

#fma #fullmetal alchemist #edward elric #i do apologize for making you wait for so long!! #and thank you again for the playlist!! i literally listened to it going like... why did i put off listening to mcr again this is literally #the type of music i've been looking for YEARS... the rock instrumentation and the raw vocals?? i have been missing out!! #its definitely going to occupy some brain groove for the foreseeable future... im looking forward to it >:] #i also hope ed's fashion is okay!! i think ed would have pins enforced w bottle caps to make em last! #i also imagine him to be the kind of person to embroider designs he thinks will look cool & also to repair his coat which #i imagine he loved ragged but refuses to replace; the top right img is based off of a time i left my coat out and a cat was sleeping in it #when i came back... joy be upon ye cats

[bluberimufim]

Guys, I think I'm in the final 2-ish chapters of DoS and I'm actually so scared

(ig this warrants a taglist: @little-mouse-gardens @wildswrites @cheeto-flavoured-pasta @fleurtygurl @joswriting)

#not bc i don't know how it's gonna end #i absolutely know. the concept that spawned this story was its ending. i built the world around it. #the ending is the one scene i have had since the beginning #and the stuff around it is very outlined and structured. i know what i'm doing #but i'm just scared #bc it's gonna end. it's gonna be over. #there will be no more DoS #i mean. there will. #but not Seth & Theo DoS #there won't be a Theo anymore #(and i have the emotional arc of that planned out too) #but it's just!! it's ENDING!! #do you know how long this wip has been sitting unfinished?? LITERAL YEARS #it feels weird #this wip has become a central part of my life for the past 4 months #AND IT'S GONNA END #ofc i'm looking forward to book 2 #but! the ending! it's happening! #i think i've rambled too much here today #thank you for your attention #gonna have my mental breakdown outside the tags now #writeblr #my wips #writing #devourer of souls wip #ramblies

[cottagecori]

hey. send the message. do it.

#just thinking about how i wouldn't have gotten the chance to know some of my favorite people in the world #if i hadn't reached out and said hey do you want to hear an idea i had #like i've been friends with rin and psy and mo and rose for going on seven years now #all because one of us said hey to the other #i talk to ky almost every day #i literally said hey do you want to hear about all the fics i'll never write to kale #and in turn they gave me a group of people i look forward to hearing from all the time #and i cannot imagine my life without them #the world is an isolating place but it doesn't have to be #go say hi #go ask them if they would be willing to read something you wrote #ask for a song recommendation #ask for their opinions on the fandom you have in common #just start the conversation #cori stop #FEELING SO MUCH FOR THE PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT TONIGHT

[rosielav]

Desperately need to find another currently ongoing podcast to listen to. I have nothing in my feed that releases new episodes except for MBMBAM and that's not nearly as exciting as I'd like it to be haha

PLEASE REC ME YOUR FAVORITE PODCASTS, PREFERABLY ONES STILL ONGOING OR WITH LOTS OF EPISODES!!!

Blease 😭😭😭😭

#Podcasts #podcast recommendation #Blease I keep getting recommended stuff that ended five years ago #Or only has like half a dozen episodes #Like I refuse at this point in my life to watch anime that is 12 episodes or less #Bc you just don't get enough substance #I'm very sure all these short podcasts are fun lil tidbits of comedy and horror and stuff #But I need something I can really sink my teeth into if you get me #Like my perfect ideal podcast is as follows #Ongoing with a full catalogue of previous episodes plus supplementary episodes or side stories that offer context #I need something to look forward to but also something to listen to right now #Camp here and there has been interesting but it's only 34 episodes and I'm literally about to finish the entire series #I don't feel satisfied when I finish something I feel empty which I'm sure could be psychoanalyzed to mean lots of bad stuff #So yes anyways lol I struggle to finish things that are short or have been finished for years #I can't bring myself to finish wolf 359 or the am Archives #For two drastically different reasons but still #The Amelia Project I was excited to csthc up on and now I'm excited for next season #Same with Victoriocity and the white Vault #But every other podcast I've listened to is completely finished and for one podcast I'm just not interested in the sequel #So yea... Please. Rec me something long and ongoing.... Blease.

[emometalhead]

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#having a day full of mixed feelings #I suppose this is how life goes #I'm officially done with my Bachelor's degree as of today #obviously I'm proud of myself for the accomplishment and I was excited to be celebrated today #it was a long and difficult road and there were many times where I didn't think I'd live to see it through but I made it #I'm the first person in my family to get this degree and I was really looking forward to having today be my day #I had a really lovely morning and then things kind of waned #there were a few arguments. someone I spent the day with repeatedly made negative comments about something I care about #it felt awful. I know it was intended as more of a playful jab than anything but I directly asked for the comments to stop and they didn't #it especially hurt that it was a fandom thing and the person is so invested in their own fandoms yet they felt it fair to step on mine #even though I've never done that to them #then people kept talking over me and acted like I was wrong for trying to interject to finish my own sentences #also as I said in the last post I was deeply upset by how my family members spoke of my 12 year old cousin #she's just a kid and some of our close family members have such a nasty opinion of her. she's so young and she's had a rough few years #but it seems like no one except my brother and I are willing to give her any grace #I think everyone else has forgotten what it feels like to be a kid and feel as if the world is against you #on a more positive note. I had a decadent slice of chocolate cake. it was heavenly #unfortunately I was really too in my head to fully enjoy it #literally every day for 3 weeks I've been talking about the lunch I planned to have today #I knew exactly what meal and dessert I wanted from the restaurant. it's my absolute fave and isn't available at any other local restaurant #I was totally starving by time we got to the restaurant. we were out all morning and I ate a tiny breakfast in anticipation of this meal #when we got there we found out they removed what I planned to order from the menu. I was devastated. #I know it's stupid but like this was the one part of my day that I've had planned for MONTHS and I've been thinking about it for weeks #we had a 40 minute car ride where I mentioned my excitement for the food no less than 10 times so this crushed me #also I'm just really picky in general and typically restaurants only have one or two things I'm able to eat #I offered to just eat the dessert while everyone else ordered food because they were all really hungry too but they wouldn't allow it #we left the restaurant and I still feel horrible for walking out. if I had known the item was removed we wouldn't have even gone there #it happened so recently though and I feel dumb for not even thinking to check the menu online beforehand #so we went to another restaurant and I barely ate anything and now I have no appetite for dinner and I feel bad for ruining the afternoon #even though it's my day and my celebration and I feel like I'm entitled to a slight amount of unreasonableness

[catgirlhell]

update stuff

because friday is my art posting day i've literally been in a conundrum about stuff... like not every commission that comes my way is some big bitch!!! and i kinda built a brand for awhile on posting my big beautiful catgirl on fridays. im slowly working through like. doing this stuff As A Job™ (which is insanely difficult believe me) while still being aware that im on a time limit because i'll be back at school in the fall...

but im almost through my queue! i'll be starting my last wips tomorrow and then probably reopening slots early on in the week! once im through this current queue honestly i'm probably gonna. not do stuff for a week or so as i take care of other stuff (i have a completely different job in ttrpg work, believe it or not).

the next batch of commission slots will be a bit pricier than the last and there'll be fewer, but its moreso because at my current rate its just not tenable! after i open slots again towards the end of this month, i'll probably open them one last time towards the latter half of august and that'll be it for the summer. i might take one or two here and there throughout the proceeding school year, but in all actuality im probably staring down the barrel of the most stressful one i've ever had.

ty to everyone who likes to come and look at my silly little drawings!!! getting to a stage in my life where it actually seems possible to subsist off of my commissions is really heartening, and i owe it to people who reblog and retweet and buy my services ;w;

happy fat girl friday night gay people!!!! im gonna keep drawing big bitches!!!!!!!!

#kakitalk #update post #as much as i enjoy drawing other people's characters its been grating on me for awhile now that i havent had time to draw my own #which i was looking forward to for summer!!! its a lot to go through 9 months of hell in academia #and then to inflict another 3 of intense work upon yourself #also figuring out rates and payment stuff and taxes... self-employment is scary and it makes my head hurt #ive had a few people ask at this point about a patreon??? which im totally open to #but i probably wouldnt be able to really futz around with it again until next year #the hell school which i cannot name because it is infamously litigious likes to work each student to the very literal brink of heart failur #so doing lots of actual Work™ that people pay me for is functionally impossible when im in class #that being said #i'm gonna graduate in like a year or so! i've got four quarters left #so about fall of *next* year i'll be taking my last classes for my bachelors #inbetween now and then i'll be working to do a number of things #INCLUDING setting up a patreon and a shop! #it'll be stuff i workshop in my free time probably but i'll do polls every now and again on stuff people would enjoy buying from me #nota fakename pinup calendar.... #anyway these tags are an abyss at this point #happy fat girl friday gay people have a good one!!!!! #long post

[somelazyassartist]

Medical system win! There is something deeply fucked up and wrong with me and they have no idea what and sent me home with Jack and Shit™

#technically they referred me to a specialist because there IS something wrong and they just don't have the tools to find out what #but I'm still kinda pissed and heartbroken that i have literally nothing to help me through the worst pain I've felt in years #at least i have some validation that something is wrong even if i don't have any help but i gave up the best day of my year for this #and i have nothing. not even basic pain meds. i gave up everything i had been looking forward to for months on end. #and sure i can reschedule but I'm still heartbroken. it was Valentine's. i was going to be so happy. and instead i was in the hospital. #it just isn't fair. none of it's fair. #anyways. i really need to sleep. haven't had sleep in what feels like years. I'm gonna go crash. see y'all when i wake up. #vent

[spaceratprodigy]

next week on friday I'll post the full lil faith and max mm au illustration :]

#rn I am very sleepy and a lil emotional #it's gonna be the 2 year anniversary since I started drawing them but I didn't start sharing my art of them here until last year! #and y'all have been so unbelievably kind and supportive and some of y'all have become very dear friends to me #I never thought anyone would like my ocs I definitely never thought anyone would enjoy seeing my silly lil ship art #and I'm very very grateful to all the love I've been shown and the kindness from this community #and more than anything I'm grateful for the wonderful wonderful friends that have stuck around #and make every day something special and worth looking forward to and for always listening to me ramble #and for trusting me enough to ramble right back I absolutely adore it #oooo ooouuuoughoughhhgggggoougggh #sorry I'm just a lil emo tonight like literally thank you so much to everyone

[somespicyshrimp]

drove more than an hour today to see a movie i’d been waiting to see forever that i was so so so excited for until some random horrible lady absolutely chewed me out bc i was eating candy from the concessions stand during the trailers and the plastic was making some noise (again, during the TRAILERS) and no one said anything to her so i just sat there feeling like shit the entire movie scared to make the tiniest little sound in case she’d throw another fucking tantrum about it

#love when something i've been looking forward to for literal years #gets completely fucking ruined by one deeply unkind person #:)))))))))))))))

[bsaka7]

at what point did excitement for the holidays become apathy and the occasional wave of dread...

#Going to my bosses Thanksgiving with my coworkers and like. Maybe I should have begged off. #I had another offer which would have maybe been worse but like. #I can't handle meeting twenty new people and like. It takes me so long to warm up to people #And I've had a headache for two days straight :( #I mean I'll go and I'll fake it or whatever and hopefully play some cards #But it's just. I'm trying not to feel anything at all about it #Also dreading going home for the holidays except it's not even home it's just to my dad's fam and then my mom's fam. #Week between Christmas and new years #Sorry u guys r gonna hear a lot of this :( #But i'm hoping to get some fucked up i-feel-bad-in-an-airport fic out of at least. December. #Also my coworkers make fun of me all the time and it's mostly good natured #But we're not really friends so it frustrates me #Also they are way behind on the deadlines we set for ourselves #But that's just. Work. #And half day tomorrow at least!!!! #I miss the last year and a half of living with my friends so bad #It was really something. To look forward to coming home to them every single day. #Now I sit in my house. #It also takes me forever to make friends. Like. I didn't feel like i had good friends in college til. Literally my senior year. #A bit the second half of my junior year.

[lapis-lazuliie]

SFKSKJD wait what if they are married.

#nine years. they cOULD be 🙏🏼👀 #wow this is literally the only one i've been looking forward to lmao #she speaks #tlw

[wedding-shemp]

I hit a curb and blew a tire and the soonest j can get it changed is the same day I was supposed to see otoboke beaver in Boston and now I can't go

#Screaming and crying and vomiting #They never tour in north america! #Literally I bought tickets for two shows this year and one canceled and this one was on my birthday but they rescheduled til octover #And I've been looking forward to it ALL YEAR and now I can't goooooooo #I'm gonna go eat lumber like a woodchuck

[makingshortstorieslong]

Hi hello what a beautiful night to freak out about the prospect the possibility the perhaps probability of living alone forever

every time I think maybe this is actually what I want. I have a huge meltdown about it later.

like the fact that I'm on the other side of the world from my close friends and family currently is definitely a contributing factor. There's no 'call someone to come over' or 'go stay at my parents' for a weekend' to help. But also even when I had those options...someone always has to leave eventually and then I'm alone again.

i like being alone! but like. I like being alone by choice, not by default. Like the default SHOULD be other people in the kitchen. Other people in the car. and also those people should be my brothers probably. I don't know how to live with anyone other than my family and I feel this worry that I will never learn how. Like... I cannot grow and change and experiment in that house. I spent the whole summer wanting to go to meeting for worship to try it and I did not. There are all kinds of things that I may or may not want to get involved in that I never would living at home. The fear of judgement is so real even if it's kind of silly. But anyway I have to move out. Also I already did. But like... WHO is going to hug me when I am sad. WHO is going to bring me soup when I am sick. WHO is going to let me make them dinner. WHO is going to be pleasantly surprised that I did the dishes before they could get to it. I feel suffocated by the my own ego - I am thinking so loud to fill up this apartment - I am so sick of me and I cannot take a break from me either - and yet I cannot do those things I need like another human being or something.

i think I'm okay at making friends. I have some really good ones. I don't really want more because I want to just keep the ones I have forever and I am aware of the limits of my attention and time and memory, if not the limits of my love. but like at some point I guess I'll have to? I'm not sure where this paragraph was going. I'm going to hit post and go shower now. I finally bought a shower water filter. Yay.

just frustrated I can't see an end to this issue in sight. i am aware that this is a problem typical to the human condition. i never claimed to be original.

Also alone but with pets is a huge improvement over just alone. I miss my cat.

i knew this would happen but it is not making it easier!!!!! i have cried twice this week

also I have FUCKING tinnitus and I guess I'll go to a doctor but maybe that's just here to stay and honestly I am going to run straight into a wall

#believe it or not typing this out has calmed me down #I do keep a journal actually and sometime I write this garbage there - a lot more often than I write it here - but sometimes it feels good #to post instead. journal entries don't garner sympathy lmao. anyway really I'm fine it's just my regularly scheduled meltdown #I've been having this one at intervals for probably four or five years now? Love looking forward to an unknowable length of time more! #possibly the literal rest of my life! #now see there is a suicide joke I want to make there but unfortunately that's also not funny :( so I'm just pointing it out so maybe you'll #imagine it bc like. It is funny. We're this a short story I'd write it. however it's not so I won't go there #it's along the lines of humpty dumpy telling Alice how to stay seven years old. Actually. No it's not. It made sense before I typed it #perhaps I'll delete this but it's unlikely #if you read all this I apologize

[swiftiephobe]

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#there's a big international conference happening in scotland in june this year #and i was thinking i was going to go and i've literally been looking forward to getting a trip to scotland all year #because if i go over and go present at the conference then i can get some funding from the uni #which would basically pay for flights + a bit extra #but i've been thinking and discussing with my supervisor this week and now i'm having second thoughts about presenting 🥲 #just based on the data i have and what we feel comfortable sharing with potential competitors etc #and also with the uni funding it's limited so is this really the best way i could be using it etc etc #the abstract submission deadline is literally today and there's still so many question marks so i haven't ended up submitting #there's a (good?) chance they'll extend and i'll maybe be able to think it through a bit more and decide to go #but if i don't present anything i can't get funding and basically there's no reason for me to actually go all the way over there #(i can still go ofc and just pay for everything myself but a big part of why i was excited was because i could get the funding) #i mean if it doesn't happen it doesn't happen there will be other trips in the future whether it be for work or not #i'm just so bummed and feel silly because i've literally spent like the last year daydreaming about this trip and it might not even happen