just discovered through tiktok that some girls have been shaving their widows peak for years cuz they hate it????? you share a physical trait with a vampire and you DONT LIKE IT????
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anyway ive been thinking a hell of a lot about my past experiences with the nhs for my mental health and it just. makes me feel so fucking defeated
like even if i was prepared to go out n try n get help and do everything that goes with that its. not gonna fucking get me anywhere is it? im just gonna get brushed aside and dumped back out the system and ignored if i imply i think its more than simple situational depression
i cant do anything about this. i dont get a choice. i cant get the help i need and i simply dont have the energy to fight for myself. i don't even really want to try. im stuck like this for the rest of my life
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back in my pissy at some people in my friend group a little bit era!!! ✨✨
i am just gonna, not be online and social until new years i think. (might be online a little. Just want to get away from everything though. Still will be active and spreading info on twt so maybe /maybe/ it’ll get thru some of their heads.)
just, dont want to talk to some of em again. In my evil era. All I see is the worst in people era. Tired era. 🙄 In my wish I was ignorant again but i cant even wish that because of everything era.
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we took tenacious to the vet and he got blood work and x-rays done and all of his organ function is fine, though he has high white blood cell count due to infection, but they aren't exactly sure what said infection is. i don't have the money for them to be able to take CT scans or x-rays of the inside of his throat and mouth to check for tumor/polyps, so he very well could have one of those too... but as it is, he still isn't eating, he still isn't moving, and he isn't breathing well at all. he got antibiotics at the vet but we aren't even sure if that's the issue. if he doesn't eat by monday they say to call but it's been two days since he ate last. i can't sleep. i've never been this scared in my life
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i’ve been so so depressed thinking about school and how just . clueless i was with everything and being blinded by the envy and the desire to be friends with and be like all the cool interesting people that seemed to surround me and walk straight through me but for so many reasons i have this ridiculous difficulty with seeing people as multi-faceted and understanding that they could have cultivated a personality and life that seems to take so much effort and equally be putting effort into work and career and studies and i just. wasted everything. years and years of not knowing what i want to do not knowing much of anything seriously at all and just thinking it was going to work out all laissez-faire like those cool people make it seem but suddenly they’re all talking about their classes and everything and i’m realising oh i really am just as stupid as i was trying to avoid acknowledging. like i actually don’t know what to do with my life at all and because i’m antisocial and trapped in my parents’ house i can’t have a crisis while living on my own with friends to talk to that i literally don’t have so i know i’m just gonna have to kill myself soon. it is so. bleak. and so utterly depressing and i have to spend my last moments with the people who probably understand me the least on earth. i feel shame and i feel just complete and utter misery for everything wasted and everything lost
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kind of thinking maybe I am finally reaping some of the many consequences of loving to drink so much as my liver pretty much started swelling up and hurting halfway through today umm <3 that coupled with the general mental confusion that I can no longer tell if it's normal or not + the complete lack of appetite I almost always have. ok maybe these things are related
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