#and i really dont want to say it. i really dont but. the sacrifice i am making for other people to potentially survive ...

[buttfishfan]

People aren't completely wrong about Kara's story being really weak, but i also feel like people dont realize the amount of missed opportunity in her section of the game.

Kara's story could've been AMAZING if only David Cage knew what he was trying to write.

Sooo here's some ideas ive been mulling over for a couple weeks about how id fix Kara's story.

1. Making Alice human

Even when i was blind to a lot of the bad writing in Detroit this plot twist made me so agitated and confused because there was no plot twist it was seriously just david cage lying to the player for 12 hours 😭 making Alice human would fix many inconsistencies in Kara's story like how she just chooses to ignore the fact that Alice is an android and acts shocked when she finds out. Having alice be human also opens up the story to a more interesting themes about the bonds that can be formed between humans and androids like holy fuck david did you forget the story you were writing midway through 😭 If Alice was human it could also lead to new game mechanics or plot where kara would need to take care of Alice's human needs like food and water which then leads into Kara being put into situations where she is forced to do the "moral" thing and sacrifice comfort or to fight for Alice's survival.

2. Giving Kara's section of the game an actual overarching choice

The biggest reason i believe people think Kara's story is so boring is because in a game that prides itself on letting its players choose their very own story Kara's story allows for the least amount of choices. Both Connor and Markus have overarching distrinct choices that lead to VERYYY polar outcomes. Connor has the ability to deviate or stay a machine and markus has the ability to lead a peaceful or violent revolution. The only distinct outcomes in Kara's story is if you make it to Canada or not and even that is just if you chose the /right/ choices instead of the choices you consciously made. I wish there was more opportunities for Kara to be really evil and fucked up but all in the name of giving Alice the world. I know you're able to steal and lie in various chapters but it never felt like it had any true weight to how kara or the story progressed.

3. Give Alice an actual personality

Throughout the entire game Alice kinda doesn't do or say anything of value like I've seriously lost count how many times she's said "im cold". It makes no sense to me how you get the relationship status of family with her as Kara when you genuinely know nothing about Alice. She doesn't talk about anything. Even as an android she like must've had some sort of interest programing to act like a child but she just never shares anything even with the people that are supposedly the closest ones to her?? I feel like her personality should've been dependent on the way youd approach Karas story. If kara is willing to do immoral things for Alice's sake I feel like Alice should also be fucked up and evil cuz like, shes a kid and kara is her role model of COURSE she'll try an be similar to her mama. If Kara chooses to sacrifice comfort for morals then Alice takes after Kara in that respect too. So not only would you be responsible for how Kara acts you'd also be responsible for the way Alice acts which gives the player the choice of do they want this little kid to follow in the wrong steps or not?

Some ideas i have for how the story should've gone

Todd brings Kara home after she gets fixed and she meets Alice for the first time. Alice obviously knows Kara but after attempting to make Kara remember her she realizes that Kara's memory has been wiped. Since Kara would've probably been the only person to care for Alice before she was broken this would lead to Alice having a breakdown where she realizes her only protection and source of comfort is gone. Alice would probably resent or be distrustful of Kara a little in the beginning because of this.

I feel like running away should've been a more difficult decision on Kara's part. She's just come home from being fixed and she's already deviated i don't think she fully knows what she wants to do with Alice. Especially when they've started off their relationship with nothing i don't think Kara should've been leaning into the whole mom thing. It would've made more sense if their interactions started off as Kara just making sure Alice stays alive and then over time their relationshio actually has room to develop instead of starting off as mother daughter and ending off as mother daughter.

These are only some ideas. Im obviously not a writer but i just really care about this game and feel like it had too much lost potential 🙏🙏

#dbh #detroit become human fanart #d:bh #detroit: become human #kara dbh #dbh kara #ax400 #alice dbh #dbh alice #im the number one detroit become human fan

[fujii-draws]

OKAY! Chatot rant in tags below! Read at your own discretion.

#okay starting from the beginning of where ppl usually dislike him. apple woods chapter. #he doesn’t give hero/partner the CHANCE to explain themselves despite them being relatively good recruits up until that point. #and that legit might be my only gripe with that chapter bc!!! stories need conflict! I LIKE the conflict in apple woods!!! #hero and partner being punished so something they didn’t do! #the misunderstanding! how team skull (Skuntank) actually outplays the main duo with a clever yet rotten trick. I LOVE that it segways into- #one of the more sweeter scenes of guild members looking out for eachother. I LIKE APPLE WOODS CONFLICT. #but chatot just. not giving them a chance. is so dumb. #I’d personally fix this by having a lil montage of hero/partner fucking up on jobs. A LOT. and chatot giving them a pass every time. #and let the perfect apple incident BE the one where he puts his foot down and doesn’t listen to them. bc he’d given them loads of chances. #and doesn’t want to hear any excuse. #but yeah. I legit dont mind him during that chapter except for that really stupid and frustrating moment. #NOW. CHAPTER 17. #UGGGGHHH WHERE DO I BEGIN #Him not believing hero and Partner about Grovyle and the future being in ruin? FINE. ACTUALLY GOOD. BC CHATOT WOULD BE SKEPTIC. #IT FITS HIS CHARACTER!! #BUT WHAT DOES SUCK. IS HIM GOING ‘Dusknoir isn’t the bad guy. he didn’t do anything wrong’ #WHEN HE LITERALLY KIDNAPPED HERO AND PARTNER RIGHT I N F R O N T OF HIM. #(​NO LITERALLY. HIS CHARACTER IS IN THE FRONT ROW WHEN IT HAPPENED.) #and him. having the GALL to tell hero and partner they must’ve been ‘seeing things’ and downplaying the HELL they went through. #despite them being missing for hours/days. his own guild recruits. and his angry sprite showing up. #like. I think that’s when I genuinely despised him. #that and him going ‘OH I BELIEVED YOU THE WHOLE TIME HEEHOO :)’ shit was so fucking annoying. #just playing it off as a joke the second the guild started to believe hero and partner. #IMAGINE IF HE W A S ACTUALLY TESTING THE GUILD’S TRUST. SHOWCASING HIM AS THE MORE RESPONSIBLE AND RESPECTFUL RIGHT HAND OF THE GUILD. #and yes. Brine cave he saves hero and partner. but at that point I just didn’t care anymore. #he fucked those two over so much. that I didn’t care what ‘valiant’ sacrifice he had. #and he grills Team Skull for what they did OFF SCREEN. they couldn’t even give us THAT. #<<< THAT or him outright saying sorry would’ve been nice. IKIK his ‘actions’ or whatever but. #eughh again this is all imo. I’m not trying to make people hate him or change their mind. #I’ll get into positives in the second post cause I’m running out of tags

[kaeyapilled]

i am still not over the fact arlecchino is referred to as "father" by the house of the hearth kids btw. the gender of it all

#i cant articulate this ugh #its just. the idea that she plays not the role of mother #where nurture and compassion would typically be expected of her #but the role of father. where a more stern and i guess distant sort of love might be typically expected. Yeah #i also dont hate the fact she doesnt seem to be abusive to the kids. i know i said i wanted her to be irredeemably evil but i really dig th #s #i actually really like the direction they seem to be taking? where its like. #shes still The Fatui. shes still using orphaned kids for military missions #but she doesnt go out of her way to harm the children. id say she sort of goes out of her way to *not* do so #AGH IT MAKES ME INSANE!!!! #the fontaine siblings' voicelines about her made me utterly insane. particularly freminet's #leaks skip if u dont wanna know but when he says she doesnt like crying so he avoids shedding tears in front of her at all costs (augh) #but still will say that things got better after the house director changed and she took charge #and that she literally told him that he has to value his own life instead of prioritizing self-sacrifice for loved ones' sakes. or somethin #which i take to be good advice for freminet in particular who has some concerning suicidal tendencies going on in there #anyway yeah arlecchino i am obsessed with you #my posts

[vigilskeep]

Whenever I think about your Keir I think about Bethany telling Anders he reminds her of Malcom. I’m sure that won’t ever affect Keir ever.

bethany is my favourite mage bc she never misses with that psychic damage

but really he and anders aren’t even a thing in act 1 so it’s less like “PLEASE stop comparing my crush to our father” and more like “oh fuck off i spend my entire life trying to act like our dad and one (1) mage rolls up and suddenly he’s dad??”

#the bethany anders keir weirdness about malcolm is so real #because bethany says ‘you remind me of him (generally positive)’ in act 1 #but in later acts i think she’s still seeing the same thing just with a different uhhh mindset #seeing the way her dad wanted her to be something she wasnt and strive for something she was never sure was worth the sacrifice #how he tried to make decisions about what was best for other people. how he risked lives etc #whereas anders also has his own perception of malcolm which i think is quite... idealised #it means a lot to him that a mage raised a family that loved him. and hes envious of it #but thats definitely a standard anders is making up. if anders and malcolm really met we’d have to cast a barrier between them within five #minutes. for their own safety. #whereas keir in some ways saw a more complete version of his father from the beginning #but he also believes those more uhh flawed abrasive damaging sides are necessary. of course he does he repeats them #his father may not have been the easiest man in the world to live with but he always did what he had to #and kept his word and held himself to the same standards as others #but oh wait here’s the legacy dlc with the steel chair— #anyway my point being that u get these 3 in a room and theyre talking abt 3 entirely different malcolms. carnage #i dont think it would naturally occur to keir to compare anders to malcolm #but hed be like. ‘i GUESS?’ when bethany said it #honestly anders one of the things that’s kind of disillusioning abt malcolm bc like #i mean say what you like about my man anders but he was never all talk #not to dismiss the courage it took for malcolm to escape & raise a family #but thats one thing. insisting on using your abilities to help people & to go BACK for those still in the circle is kind of another #a lot of dialogue implying malcolm talked a big game about mage rights #but apart from raising a daughter who hates herself what did he actually do. #sorry thats mean but you see my point #and its not just justice that makes anders like that. sure he was more scared and hopeless about the circle #but his instincts are to help. you wouldnt catch malcolm going back to help against darkspawn even when told to run #and my malcolms also. gruff. stoic. serious. a man of few words. he does not do bits or tell you about his cat #if keir hears bethany compare anders to malcolm and at all agrees it’s not really anything about personality #he’s saying yeah i guess anders does seem like a good mage and a good man. thats the only commonality he would jump to #these tags got incredibly away from me

[6-2-aestheticsofhate]

i have a lot of thoughts on minos in relation to pasiphae and the minotaur (both greek mythological and in ultrakill) but i dont really want to make a lot of posts abt it considering. the topic is generally hard to talk about.

#like i dont wanna go around claiming that the myth went 1:1 in ultrakills lore #because for example sisyphus was more based off a book rather than his mythology (thank god) #so minos might be only loosely based on his mythological counter part as well #but like. the fact that with the introduction of the minotaur enemy we KNOW the minotaur thing actually happened? jesus fuck #like we KNOW ultrakill minos thinks that the people of lust are only punished for loving eachother.... #while his real life mythological counterpart got mad at his wife for essentially being raped by proxy and she had to defend herself saying #why would she want that. she was cursed/forced to do that because minos didnt sacrifice that bull to poseidon #like i KNOW why that was never really brought up in ultrakill that would be. a weird topic to bring up in a funny robot shooter #and i dont think you could accurately handle the themes of rape through lore books you find in levels of the game #but theres just. something about minos willfully thinking his wife did that of her own accord and him refusing to think about how lust #carries more than people who had sex a lot in ultrakill. #again the myth MAY be different in ultrakill. maybe he never even accused his wife of that. maybe he was more understanding #but theres a non zero chance he did #he could be willfully ignorant and think his wife willingly cheated on him. he thinks everyone in lust is innocent/only had consensual sex #because the alternatives are too gross/immoral for him to think about #it might be because i sympathize a lot with greek mythology women but finding out that the thing with pasiphae happened in ultrakill #DID happen made me lose respect for minos. #... also towards a lot of the fandom for joking abt it. #rape tw

[astranauticus]

todays orv mood: standing at the water dispenser under my dorm building waiting for my instant noodles to cook just pacing in circles and swearing

#orv liveblog #should i tag spoilers for like. ramble in tags?? #ok i'll do it just to be safe #orv spoilers #idk in case my webtoon only irl friend suddenly decides to log back into her tumblr after 3 years #context chapter 311/46th scenario #ok theres a lot going on here #first off 1863th round yjh is a character made to haunt me specifically so when the name hell of eternity came up wow i was feeling like #500 emotions at once and none of them were good #second i saw someone on lofter say today that most of the talking kdj and yjh do in this book is through fights and just #LIKE I JUST. cannot get over how our perspective of their relationship is just always being filtered through these two people #who are just fuckin INCAPABLE of TALKING ABOUT THEIR FEELINGS like NORMAL PEOPLE #like it drives me so insane that this book is so show dont tell by necessity bc kdj is a fucking moron so we just get these #insanity inducing details like yjh paying to extend his midday rendezvous with kdj for 3 years and just using it as a personal journal #and then you get past all the fuckin. the two of them beating the shit out of each other by way of communicating and its like #'i want to lock you up so you'll stop dying because im scared im not strong enough to be able to stop you and we cant lose you again' LIKE? #SIR WHAT??????? HELLO?????????????? #also the line that made me start pacing in circles around the water cooler while swearing in mandarin was specifically #'i couldn't be the protagonist. i couldn't save someone else' #says the DEMON KING OF SALVATION. like damn its 'sacrifice's will is a stigma that didn't really suit me' all over again #like i love that kdj has the nerve to be like 'of course i dont want to die' and yjh just absolutely does not buy it for a second #god. i want to hit him on the head with a brick.

[mistninja]

Have i mentioned that i love the one piece cover stories? I love the one piece cover stories

#love when artists make creative use of their medium #such a clever way to expand the world and make it feel bigger and more real without wasting page count #like these side stories really make the op world feel lived in because u get to see things happening in parallel with the main storyline #things that have nothing to do with luffy #the world doesnt revolve around the straw hats! things are happening elsewhere! both important things and silly adventures #like one piece is BIG this world is huge and always growing and theres so much to see and explore #but you dont want to sacrifice the main storyline so you get these adventures that take only 1 page every week #its so much better than say. have a full chapter covering these events #oda gets to tell these extra stories without wasting the readers time #he can use them to keep track of side characters AND be silly and whimsical AND expand the lore #i love them so much #we need to get another decks of the world cover story soon

[dergshadow]

I honestly think it's funny how the Vaati fight in the manga was more interesting than the game one(trust me I've played it), yet the Ganon fight in the game is more interesting/fun than the manga

#I'm just saying #In the game you just throw bombs at Vaati's tornado thing at the right moment and chase him around and stuff #in the manga it much more intense and interesting #(*plus the impact of Shadow's sacrifice/death) #Im not going to talk about Ganon's final boss fight since I dont want my tags to be any longer than they have to be #just search it up or smth #but its a really good boss fight! #thats all i gotta say about that #four swords adventures #four swords #warning: this my personal opinion

[dreampearls]

myyyyy goodness. that nahida quest

#LOTS OF THINGS TO THINK ABOUT #lets start with my complaints. i dont actually have that many i enjoyed this quest a lot #i will say though that genshins repeated thing of sacrifice as its ultimatum for resolving a lot of its plotlines is a Little scary. #and very predictable at this point #LIKE I DONT THINK ITS BAD ITS JUST.. as soon as the one elemental lifeform started absorbing the memories of everyone else #i was immediately like. Oh I See Where This Is Going #i kind of want to rewatch nahida's first story quest now just to compare the two (also i dont remember very much of it) #also it still feels like such a disservice to nahida to continually withhold info about rukkhadevata from her #but thats more of a personal feeling than anything. i dont necessarily think its a bad writing choice #but mannn give the girl some closure!! #my other thoughts: nahida trying to take care of apep despite their hatred & general reluctance to be saved was very reminiscent of how she #handled scara and i really hope that was purposeful #also the way she was so ready to sacrifice herself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! D: !!!!!!!!!!!!! NAHIDA #for some reason the fungi telling her ''this is not your home'' hurt me.. like on a personal level and i still dont really know why #that line in particular affected me as much as it did #nahida... still needs to find her home...

[minarcana]

#ok guess what fuckers youre going to be on another tag ramble adventure with me #ive been afflicted with the same images in my brain tumbling around and the only way to free my brain is to write them out #and anyways i have been contemplating wol au uri for a bit due to various reasons (he came up and then i got this image and couldnt be free #shb with uri as the wol is. after killing vauthry. he is SO fucked up that raha STILL wont just let him die #he was supposed to have raha send him to the rift with the light and let him die there but now that he cant stop him rahas taking it himsel #and theres the whole. 'no we really cannot have the wol die.' thing. #that makes it infinitely worse to uri. him just yelling through blood to let him die! let him have his turn! he WANTS to die! #the idea of bring told that the wol CANT die makes it so much more unfair to him #'you wouldnt know what to do if i died? i didnt know what to do for years after louisoux died! i still dont know what to do without moenbry #da! papalymo can sacrifice himself and everyone adapts! shtola has thrown herself to the lifestream twice! minfilia died! i had to stay sil #ent and let ryne choose her own path if she died or not! i cant tell people that i would be lost yet everyone gets to tell ME that? #do you think i am better than them do you think them worth less why do they have the right to die and i do not!' #he is SO SO SO much worse as a wol and it falls out in one outburst after hes quizzed as to why he thought he could sacrifice himself #but he also realizes that its really fucked up to say that aloud so yknow. yknow what. yknow. #hell bottle up all his feelings and then one day hell either die or start crying and it looks like he aint allowed to die! #he still takes the aid from ardbert at amaurot with the statement that #'if i dont try and save who i might then ill never be able to face moenbryda' #anyways cannot stop thinking about me giving uri the echo like 'this will be funny!' and hes just 'my life has become infinitely worse' #HEAD IN MY HANDS

[gazelessmenagerie]

Man, I wish there was a way for Broly not to feel like he’ll be betrayed without him trying to kill whoever’s telling him that. Not every living creature wants to kill him, ya know?

Perhaps not but he’s made as many enemies as there are stars in a galaxy (or at least those that managed to survive the complete destruction of their home planets/solar systems/etc.) along with the proverbial ‘law of the jungle’ . Experience and hellish ordeals have taught him the harshest lessons and trying to undermine that is no easy feat in any means. Insisting that he can ‘trust’ another only has the complete opposite result and likewise.. one wouldn’t easily trust the gleaming fangs of a predatory animal, would they?

#|| Tag: Answered #( its the trauma and having his trust broken on several different fronts in the past anflasdjgjg ) #( there's a wall there.. a really thick wall. ) #( not saying he's in need of some form of redemptoin or /saving/ in the traditional sense bc he'll still be awful even if he doesn't ) #( completely fuck everyone over going apeshit insane with the power he has. asndfljg ) #( its just he's pretty much gonna be like that with trusting only a very select few and letting everyone else die. ) #( he doesn't and will not give a shit about the people or worlds outside of those he deems as close. ) #( if it came to it. he'd willingly sacrifice everyone to save what he considers his. anlfsdjg ) #( thats just how he is. ) #( he's got no reason to care about anything unless he finds that and wants to keep it. ) #( but alsdfnlgj the more he trusts. the greater his chances are to misplace it..and well pretty sure the universe doesn't need to go kaboom #( cause he will stop at nothing to get even asdnfljg ) #( tl;dr ... uh angry bastard is angry bc life was Extremely Shitty and Hellish. He no trusty easy. still chaotic evil. ) #( please dont take that as being demeaning. i just cannot put it any simpler and its late and i just have many gd thoughts ) #( that i cannot write down atm )

[anotheruntitledsong]

i did like the hidden palace but (SPOILER if anyone hasn't read it?) i'm genuinely so annoyed at how Arbeely is handled like... I wish i could be sad but i'm just fucking irritated. I was overly invested in him and that's def why but i just feel like they did him dirty

#the golem and the jinni #i was scrolling goodreads and the take i kept seeing was 'oh I wish Arbeely could've had his family too bad the jinni FUCKED IT UP' #but idk that's just not how i read him. like thats not where i feel the problem is #his whole shtick is being content as the jinni's foil and like! things can change! but the way it's done leaves him totally unresolved #which in turn means the jinni's shit is also never getting resolved because there is like no way to #when Arbeely describes his future family in the first book it's all 'someday... vaguely...' and AGAIN! what you want can change! #and honestly it's really interesting and sad that he makes this sacrifice for the jinni #but it's a layer of complexity that like clashes with how little he is there for and how little the author's invested in him #and like the way the no marriage literally did not ruin his life at all... sure it sucked but the man is still like idk rich #what has continuously fucked with him throughout both books is that he wants (or at least spends half his page time thinking about) #emotional connection to the jinni in a human way #which is something the jinni cant\wont give him even though he's basically Arbeely's only close friend #(besides ig maryam who was rlly funny hinting at her dislike for the jinni like someone trying to get their friend to dump their toxic bf) #anyway the vibe in the first book is that he only thinks about wanting a wife when the jinni is being a dickhead #BECAUSE the jinni eases arbeelys loneliness by just being there because at the end of the day that's what humans need #but then it's made really weird in the second book by Arbeely getting 'trapped' by the jinni (and yet they just grow further apart) #which means that the only thing arbeely actually spent half his life discontent with and then literally died without is not a wife #it's emotional intimacy with the jinni. which is insane to me #arbeely is obviously already tragic but this seems TOO tragic entirely because the book doesn't give af about addressing it #if it was like a plot thing then all of the above would be fine and gutwrenching because it ties back into the jinnis self isolation #BUT IT'S NOT. like i get arbeely isn't that important to the plot but he was important to the jinni and the jinni was important to him #alsoo necessarily disclaimer i'm not trying to say he's in love with the jinni or anything like that #although a queer arbeely (divorced from the above idea) would also been interesting cuz I dont think the jinni has a grasp on homophobia #so idk theyd be keeping each others secrets (arbeely x the biscuit man? JOKE) #BUTTTT! I don't believe he needs romantic energy! him and the jinni having awful vibes up until arbeely's literal death is what bothers me #The jinni is a bad communicator ik but come on... not once? not even before the diagnosis? The jinni also thinks about how distant they are #could they not talk a little? for me? there are ways to do it within the bounds of their characters FOR SURE #im sure this is the point but i do dislike it either way. anyway sorry arbeely u remind me of my uncle #the hidden palace

[ma333ve]

in every relationship ive told my partner they were my soulmate and being with them feels like home and that i love them but it really occurs to me that i was just saying that stuff because i wanted it to be true, because now i actually fully believe i met my soulmate and he feels like home, i now know what love feels like

#every relationship i wanted to feel the love i have now #every relationship i forced myself to believe i was in love #forced myself to believe i was happy #forced myself to believe i wanted this forever #but the difference now is that i havent forced myself at all this relationship #everything is so easy #i feel so loved #i feel like he truly understands me #i truly feel like he's my other half #and it makes me feel bad because my brain doesnt want to say hes my soulmate due to my past record #but i really do think he is #i really do think i've found the one #ive never been more comfortable in a relationship #comfort was always an issue for me; i was never fully comfortable in my previous relationships #i always had to sacrifice parts of myself to make things work #but now i dont have to #i can just be myself and be loved for it #i now know that love cant be forced #i now know that love is unconditional #i now know what love feels like #maeveposting

[efoyisk]

me but what if i stopped interacting with the general fandom outside of writing

#it's exhausting being here actually #from people doubting loki still #to people saying shit like oh loki enslaved himself for sylvie #no he didnt #not once does he put sylvie in the centre of his motivations #his concern has always been existence and its survival #refusing to kill a version of himself is not some grand act of romance #sylvie has done nothing for him except put more weight on his shoulders and influence him negatively #in fact he could do great without her #she does nothing except create obstacles #which would be great if it was recognised #and not somehow refurbished as some epic romance??? #either literacy is dying or i dont fucking know #the only person you can put at the centre of this if you really want to is mobius #then b 15 casey and o.b come afterwards #sylvie had gone her merry way #trying to romanticise this impossible sacrifice loki made and painting it as a love letter to sylvie #who has done nothing except belittle him and push him down is just sad #loki's world does not revolve around sylvie #but it does revolve around his friends #and guess what #it also revolves around mobius #anti sylvie #anti sylki #tw loki spoilers #tw loki season 2 spoilers #i genuinely cannot tell how you can value loki as a character but then turn around and endorse this pair or make it out to be something goo #for loki #when it isnt #im sorry but i need to let this out somewhere

[pigeonliker420]

since this is my first playthru and im fumbling everything i wish there was a way to like go down the companions stories without romancing them. or maybe im just too stupid to see it

#ast sort of feels like a fenris situation where i feel bad looking @ him given his history w sex #i Really like gale so far tbh? and wyll too obviously but it feels like im missing out on sthn when i say no to em #obvs i want to know more about the others but i feel like thats not an option. maybe ill be smarter at this second time round #sthn about gales willingness to sacrifice himself after getting the orb is really. if i dont get the background this run #ill force it next time

[seatrains]

Look ok alr I'm the kid with daddy mommy issues but why couldn't i have been the RICH kid with daddy mommy issues

#and people are so quick to say she worries about money a lot just be glad you dont have to #like really. id trade every problem for not worrying about finance and its not a choice #i forget i go to school with rich kifs sometimes #its like we're discussing things and i realise just how easy it is for them to want something #they want to do something and they can just...do it #and i just want to cry at that sometimes and i hate that those things affect me it makes me feel pathetic #at the same time i cant help but wonder to myself like #these kids. we go to the same school we like similar things we talk the same way and yet my life is so different from theirs #because if they want to live their lives a particular way they can just do it and I'll always have to fight for it and make sacrifices #or give it up #why does my life have to be different from theirs #its like my life's falling apart all four walls #I'm so tired from listening to these kids talk about their future plans to me today like good for you now i feel terrible for myself cuz #my fate is fucked up unlike yours but i cant tell you that cuz then i become the pitiful cheap kid #UGHHHHHHHH