#and he was like 'idc just call it whatever''

[nereidprinc3ss]

BESTIE. I was just casually thinking about your whole dybmn series and now I’m wondering, as both reader and Spencer become more confident with their spicy dynamics, what kind of lover would Spencer become with her? New k!nks, maybe?, I JUST genuinely think that Spencer is so whipped for her that he would definitely use toys and anything else, not only to experiment but to get to know and find out about all of her secret facets.

I believe she would be his “creation” like he would be so proud to see her development in her confidence in spicy times like smirking all over as she does anything to please him and he’d be like “yeah, I created that” because I’M BITING MY PILLOW RIGHT NOW and gonna dig up a hole after this to hide myself because my thoughts are so hideous. Girlie, what did you do to me? I wasn’t like this. 😩

oh let’s discuss

18+ long ass rambling and things i think about A Lot ……..

in my opinion (which is not the end all be all everyone can perceive them however they’d like) reader and spencer definitely bring out more sexually adventurous sides of each other like they just have a shit ton of chemistry and for a while ithink spencer would just be easing reader into sexuality so nothing that crazy would happen aside from the power dynamics we see pretty much from the start. i think those would definitely get stronger and occasionally more variable. im not usually into sub!spence but i think there would be times he would definitely allow reader to have more control (i don’t ever think he’d be like calling them mommy lmfao) but aside from that i could also see him veering VERY rarely in a slightly harder!dom direction. like he’ll never hurt or seriously degrade you but in p3 reader says something about liking it when he acts like they belong to him and he was really into that. as the relationship progresses i think he would almost start taking more ownership of r’s body in a way, like obviously nothing is ever nonconsensual but he just knows you so well that it’s like… well he knows you better than you know yourself sooo you let him call the shots, but at his core i think spencer is forever oriented to please. he just wants to make you feel good, that’s always gonna be his goal, so he’s always going to listen and even if the power dynamic is weighed in his favor you are actually always the one in control bc he’d do anything for u lol

in terms of kinks…. idk, i never really see spencer as a super kinky guy? like he just knows too much about paraphilia and obviously sexual violence ties into a lot of his job so i sincerely doubt he’d find giving or receiving pain arousing beyond like slapping your ass or you scratching his back or whatever. love is always at the heart of sex for him and that’s going to be the most important part, he’ll never be able to see you just as a body. he’ll always see you as the person he’s in love with and there are things he’s simply not willing to do to the person he loves.

because of his trauma he’s super duper hesitant about bondage BUT i think he wouldn’t be completely opposed to very light restraints on you or him, he’d just have to be in a specific mood. i also never see him as being someone who’s super into toys because he’s such a luddite, he can barely stand having an email i doubt he’s going to have an extensive collection of sex toys. but he would so use your vibrator on you or make you use it on yourself in front of him again if he’s in a very specific mood

oh but YES he DELIGHTS in having defiled and corrupted you. idc idc im not accepting criticism on this. like he spoils you so much that you’re used to getting him whenever you want and so you’re not very subtle about it. if you get all needy in public and start draping yourself all over him and giving him looks and pulling on his sleeve because you want to go home he’ll fuck you in rossi’s bathroom because he wants to encourage your lewd behavior.

obviously he has boundaries tho and he has respect for you and the people around him like he won’t do anything that draws attention and he’ll only ever do things he knows he can get away with without anyone else noticing

later seasons spence also LOVES when you leave marks on him he thinks it’s cute how you mark your territory and he’s not at all embarrassed if there is a hickey above his collar at work. in his mind it’s like. why would he care about other peoples opinions on his sex life when they have nothing to do with it god i think about this all the time

anyway im sorry if this was disappointing😭 idkidk, thank you for asking about my thoughts tho bc i am always down for headcanons

#ramblings #asks

[lotus-pear]

you can clearly see where scara gets his good looks from

#i believe in ei supremacy🛐 #idc if she discarded scaramouche or whatever she was doing it for his own good #miko legit wanted to kill him but ei set him free upon seeing him shed tears in his moment of creation #she saw his gentle heart and wanted him to be something more.. she didn't want him to just be a lifeless vessel for her gnosis #even if scaramouche didn't understand and felt betrayed.. abandoned by the woman he called mother #ei had a heart kind enough to set him free.. i hope one day she gets the chance to tell her son that she did this out of love #bc you can clearly see how much scara wanted ei's love–its absolutely heartbreaking #HE STOLE THE GNOSIS BC EVEN THOUGH HE RESENTED EI HE WANTED A PART OF HER WITH HIM #HE WANTED TO SHOW HER THAT HE COULD CARRY HER GNOSIS JUST LIKE HE WAS INTENDED TO.. THAT HE WAS NEVER DEFECTIVE #DEEP DOWN?? THIS WAS NEVER ABOUT REVENGE. HE JUST WANTED HIS MOTHER'S ACCEPTANCE😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #I DONT THINK YOU GUYS UNDERSTAND HOW INCONSOLABLE I AM ABOUT THIS #genshin impact #raiden ei #ei genshin impact #ei genshin #raiden shogun #beelzebub #lotus draws

[galarfiend]

this post made me think of ingo and only one man in hisui would ever actually slap his ass so i kind of had to

#i say hes the only one who would ACTUALLY do it bc i know melli has considered it but never actually went for it #pokemon legends arceus #ingo #warden ingo #pokemon wielder volo #also featuring my ingo redesign where i give him hakama #volo #crazytrainshipping #blackmarketshipping #<-not the ‘’’official’’’ ship name but i like it more >:( #i only ship them occasionally and when the fic im writing calls for it but you do you #also i like volo just wearing his culty arceus outfit as just underlayers #and tiny crumbs of undercut volo in the anime for life :))) #i havent drawn either of these guys a good while since scvi came out and kind of held onto my attention. but idc i draw whatever whenever

[downtowncannibal]

It's curious how Billy had the opportunity to kill Jess like a bajillion times in the movie before the finale and just. Didn't.

#Like she's alone after she's done taking her shower and thats a one hit opportunity to knock one out and yet he's just like. yeah. #give her a call. yeah. whatever. idc.... #Billy Lenz in the idgaf wars (he's losing) #However you could argue that at the same time Jess was showering Billy was out at the park fucking Janice up #how would he have called her though? tis a mystery #billy lenz

[lesbiansanemi]

Still thinking about the conversation I had with my roommate’s bf like two weeks ago where he said he was scared of furries but also didn’t even know enough about furries to know they were called furries I had to figure out wtf he was talking about. The urge to become a full blown furry now. Despite having all the makings of a furry I for some reason have never ended up enthusiastically becoming one despite my best efforts. Well. With spite as my motivator here we are. Where are the furry artists, I’m commissioning both my tentative ideas for my fursonas. I’m inviting all my friends who are furries over and we’re gonna work on making fursuits. I will also make this a hostile living situation for you AND I will get the added bonus of doing fun furry stuff

#during the same conversation he very heavily insinuated he thought I was a cringey weirdo in the most derogatory sense #by making fun of most of my hobbies and calling ppl who liked them cringey weirdos #but then going ‘oh! oh no! I don’t mean you though you’re fine you’re like Normal 😀’ #so. you know. #anyways last night I walked in the door from work #and the entire apartment smelled like weed and there was a dog barking at me and he was watching tv SO loud #🙃🙃🙃 sensory overload immediately in main part of apartment so I hid in bedroom all night #I’m also irritated cuz I’ve had convos with my roommate about weed FOREVER ago #literally my one ask was if he was gonna smoke he do it outside so the apartment doesn’t smell like it #idc if you smoke and you are free to do edibles/dabs/whatever inside just pls don’t smoke joints #I hate the smell and it’s bad for the animals #so why is it 🙃🙃🙃 all of a sudden happening again as this guy moves in 🙃🙃🙃 #anyways about to become a revenge furry and also suuuuuper fucking cringey just to bother/embarrass him #esp cuz he said he wants to have friends over all the time which I’m also FUDJDJSJSKSK about #but sure! invite friends over! #I’m gonna sit in the living room with my giant easel and draw furries and listen loudly to vocaloid while they’re here 🥰 #I’m gonna have a great time! you won’t tho lmao #kaz rambles

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

I KEEP GETTING RECOMMENDED SO MANY DRAMIONE TWEETS HELP

I don't understand where they're all cOMING FROOMM why do they all HATE ASTORIA WHAT DID MY GIRL DO TO YALL BFFR LEAVE HER ALONE 🗣🗣

#i barely even use twitter man #but i keep getting them pushed towards me WHY #if you ship dramione then good for you idc‼️but i did not ask for all these tweets and why are half of them allergic to respecting astoria😭 #the amount of dramione shippers who make astoria an arranged marriage who dies after giving birth and never mention her again is just 💀💀 #im going to scream put some RESPECT ON MY GIRLS NAME #if youre gonna include scorpius in the fic or headcanon or whatever THE ONLY THING I WILL ACCEPT IS THEY HAD A LOVING MEANINGFUL MARRIAGE #‼️WHICH THEY DID‼️ #and then she dies like canon 🙄🙄 and draco spends ages grieving BUT ALWAYS KEEPS ASTORIA IN THE PICTYRE TALKS ABOUT HER THINKS ABOUT HER #ESPECIALLH AROUND SCORPIUS THAT IS HIS WHOLE MUM OKAY #SHE IS THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE #and then 🙄🙄 i guess 🙄🙄 hes allowed to heal and move on BUT HE STILL BETTER KNOW SHE IS THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE AND SHE WILL BE MENTIONED AT #EVERY POSSIBLE MOMENT 🤺🤺🤺🤺 #i saw one tweet which was like omg arranged marriage astoria she dies rught after giving birth and then HERMIONE SATRTS BABYSITTING!!! 😝😍 #AND THEN SCORPIUS CALLS HER MAMA 🤭🤭🤭 AND DRACOS LIKE OMG SO TRUE SHE BASICALLY IS HIS MOTHERR #when i tell you i felt so much rage #AND ASTORIA WAS NOT MENTIONED AT ALL SINCE THE FIRST PART OF ARRANGED MARRIAGE GAVE BIRTH DIED LIKE EXCUSE ME #SHUT UP???????? #im still mad can you tell #the treatment of women in hp both canon and fanon tbh is my roman empire i will never not be thinking about it #it makes me so so angry #and all the replies to it were like omg so cute 🥺🥺🥺🥺 hermiones his mum now! #dracos in love now!! 🥺🥺🥺 #shut the FUCK UP #i know a lot of it is caused by the fact we know jackshit about astoria because her treatment in canon is not much better but plz 😭😭 #yall made the marauders fandom outta nothing and you cant use a little imagination to make sure astoria isnt just a FUCKING INCUBATOR?? #astoria greengrass you deserve so much better babygirl #astoria greengrass #hpcc #im scared to tag draco malfoy the stans might come for me #i am so god awfully sorry about the amount of tags here oh my days

[celestair]

as much as i love reo and nagis relationship, im just so frustrated right now i need to talk about this, maybe im wrong but i honestly just need to let it out

spoilers for the blue lock manga

(i forgot how to put a read more warning bc i rarely do these types of posts so im so sorry)

they really had whole ass pages of reo saying he had to play his own soccer and not be nagis right hand man, to take goals for himself and show the world that he can fight on his own, just to A PAGE LATER have nagi say "i need you reo" and throw everything into the trash.

AGAIN I LOVE THEM I DO, but being individual is a good thing, they had a codependent relationship when it came to soccer, i thought it was healthy for reo to see value in himself, his talent and dreams, to let himself grow outside of his relationship with nagi. thats quite literally what nagi did in the second selection and it went great for him, he grew just like he wanted to. reo was growing and then they decided to switch up on that and have reo back nagi up again and im so frustrated about it, and all of that just to beat isagi. I LOVE THEM BUT ITS OKAY TO BE INDIVIDUAL, THAT DOESNT MEAN YOU'RE RELATIONSHIP IS WEAKER IT ACTUALLY MAKES IT STRONGER WHY DID THE AUTHOR DO THIS I HATE IT SO MUCH.

i love that they are together i do, but i dont like the way they did it, it just doesnt feel right and it fell flat for me, which it shouldn't since i really like both of their characters. i just wanted to let that out sorry i annoyed anyone i just needed to talk about it.

#idc if u ship them or see them as just friends whatever i still hate the way this was done #and all i can think about isnt even the characters making poor decisions its tHE AUTHOR MAKING POOR DECISIONS #i hate it so bad #nagi took a step back and grew and it was great #it was also reos wake up call for him to do the same but he got wrapped up in jealousy which is completely normal to feel #but then just as he started to grow out of that state of mind and work on himself they drag them back into the same bullshit as before #://////// #im pissed can you tell #also if you blame isagi for any of this thats a skill issue tbh isagi has absolutely nothing to do with their relationship #he didnt ask nagi to leave reo and join him he didnt ask nagi to be his rival and beat him it was all nagis decision #stop trying to blame isagi for everything #whatever sorry for the spoilers #blue lock rant #blue lock #reonagi #reo mikage #nagi seishiro #im not saying reo cant change his mind i just dont like the way they did it you know?

[sapphicyanli]

idk yall but i think shuri and riri can be girlfriends

#i dont read the comics or whatever so idk the source material but scientist girlfriends would be sick #go get namor an immortal husband or something he has like a millenia age gap with shuri #as if them being a het couple isnt concerning enough #black panther 2 #black panther #black panther wakanda forever #shuri #princess shuri #riri williams #mine #call me heterophobic idc #NAMOR LEGIT KILLED HER MOTHET HOW THE FUCK DID I FORGET THAT BYE #yall see female and male main charas and just decided to just go with it for no reasons huh

[rosegasly]

I am glad you like my chestappen content

!!so much!! i didnt know until after pouring ur wall that i v also read some of ur ao3 works. i commented on one the other day and u were super sweet back and ur content here too like 11/10 u r serving and providing for all us chestappen lovers and ilysm for it pls aaah 💗

#u r THE shit and after finding you my fav f1 blog on here #also psa im a chestappen fan stan whatever u wanna call it so if u dont like perez idc dont send me shit i wont see it ❤️ #danny and max were great together and like i am a gasly girl my blog makes it obv enough and who doesnt love alex albon #but ANYONE who thinks checo perez does not deserve that rbr seat is kidding themselves #a lot of people do better on the grid #not everyones that good when their teammate is max verstappen and their team rbr #and checo has season after season just done better and proven exactly why he is the right man #so whatever ur reasonings are if u are an anti perez // anti chestappen person #humbly; die mad.

[ofyorkshire]

small open because bj should talk about things he likes more lol

          "He really gets me," BJ said, more to himself than to them, though, that could be the teenage-esque dreaminess in his voice. He was sprawled out on the couch, pillow cradled under his chin, and watching Labyrinth. Sarah, the film's heroine, had just met her questionable love interest and antagonist, Jareth the Goblin King. BJ, clearly, was more focused on the latter.

          "Look at him," he hummed. "The hair, the makeup... the way he carries himself. Bowie makes anything he wears look like it's wearing him, and this 'fit is tame for him." BJ pulled his knees up to his stomach to give them room to sit if they wanted, but spared them only a second of his attention away from the screen. "I wish I had that. Imagine being that fucking free."

          Of course, he knows it's not quite that simple. David Bowie was a rock star, and the crazy looks, the confidence, the eye-catching power was just part of the glam rock scene. He could wear a full-body chicken suit and the world would scream to him. BJ was just another weird guy on the street with no fame or talent, and society was rarely as kind to other civilians who didn't fit their conventional mold.

#deals with the devil [open]; #the one who got away [post-canon verse]; #bj very loudly in my head today: did you know david bowie is my idol? also i am gay. #me for the gazillionth time: we know. #(**ignoring that bj. does say he isn't gay in the novels. and feels like a girl inside. bc i think. that def points to him being trans.) #(except peace seems to forget that for the rest of the series and it's never mentioned at all in the films which #is more the basis of my portrayal. so. i feel like i would like to mix the two? maybe? bj uses he/him pronouns but is fluid.) #(or more likely just exists in the space of 'idc what you call me. my gender is 'space invader'.' LMAO.) #(at least until i explore further and figure out more about what he wants and what he's telling me.) #(gender is weird and but whatever it is bj loves men. women are aesthetically beautiful and he's most comfy with them but he loves men.)

[bunnyb34r]

Put off making an appt for like months... and it was literally a 3 minute phone call ahdhdgd

#she was like um i have stuff this week if youd like and im thinking damn and here i was thinking id need to call yall urgently to get in in #time and said i just need something within a month sgsggdgd like im good ma'am #it's just a yearly check in like you good? meds working? thats great glad to hear it okay buh bye heres your script go away #she was like um you csn see his nurse practioner bc hes booking real far :/ like sure whatever man! idc i just need someone to see me #so i can get my shit #last year he was like why didnt you telehealth this? like we knew it would be a formality/check in and im like i tried!! they said nO! #marquilla

[zouisalmightie]

.

#im going to use these tags as a way to beat my soul about my job so if you come at me you’re a bitch and i hope you stub each individual to #i finally realized why im unhappy being a teacher and it’s because i don’t care about the future of these kids more than the cursory #‘I hope theyre ok’ you would feel for any stranger in the world #like i want to harm to come to them but i truly don’t care about them #like the kid that sleeps in class ? my thought is finally he’s fucking quiet the kid that’s got a 2% and doesn’t pay attention im like #whatever like im not motivated to get them motivated and if I wasn’t the kind of person that cared about her work id give them worksheets #for the rest of the year making them silently work while I r ead books all day #like I feel like at the beginning I did the calling home and the tutoring and the flipping over backwards to get as many of the kids to #their reading level and ensure they’re getting a great history lesson that’s going to reach every student and now im like #this is the lesson and if you like it great if you don’t idc you can pay attention or fail it’s on you #and part of me feels bad like I should want to dress up like x figure and get them engaged by doing xyz and like I just don’t want to #it’s like what’s the point im going to engage the same 9 kids in each class while the other 21 pretend to #pay attention while they’re texting under their desk and then they’re going to try to google or use ai the answers #and im like…. whatever i dont care turn it in don’t turn it in whatever #ik too young to feel this apathetic about teaching and it suck but also oof I don’t care #I want to quit at the end of the year before my apathy turns into hatred I’ve seen teachers that hate hate the kids and that can’t be me #like even if I stayed for 30 years it wouldn’t be me but the idea of it scares me #I don’t want this job to change who I am as a person but it’s taking away my care for the younger generation #I don’t hate them or wish them ill but I just genuinely don’t care about them or their progress or anything #it’s scary #anyways im rambling idk im just having a bad day ill see this tomorrow and be like wow girl get a snickers cuz this isn’t you #but rn that’s how im feeling

[girlwithfish]

hot take i rly dont think its an issue for straight ppl or ppl in het relationships to call their bfs their partner or vice versa like maybe its a little cringey depending on the person and context but like i usually see it w adults too like if ur not married but still together some ppl just think it sounds more grown than like calling ur adult partner ur girlfriend if ur like. 30... U know.... idk...

#was gonna show my amazingly constructed email but i call my bf my partner cuz i dont wanna b like hehe my bf blught it for me bc im trying #to sound adult and professional idk nd i use bf nd partner s/o interchangeably tho he is my bf more to me bc #im only twenny wan. so i can say bf still . But like i like partner too its more like serious and commitment esque too #oh nd i dont want u guys to think im being cringey saying 'it was gifted to me by my partner' . Im obviously kidding cuz idc that much lol #but that is just my opinion. But i can see how it can b like cringey when it is like a rly straight person saying it. that is all #nd obviously i dont think it is a big lgbt issue or whatever nd doesnt matter at all lol like just do what u want!

[ikilledamanforthisurl]

Minami Anon x3 but so real………. Yeah idk how old he's meant to be but he very much gives me like 21-30 35 at oldest age range vibes. Which I think/agree is a factor in Why He Is Like That. I know its technically noncanon but i also think a lot about the implications of Minami once never drinking but then when he discovered fire breathing he started drinking 24/7 from this one scene w Majima in dead souls like hmmmmmmm….. wonder what’s going on there buddy…….. something you'd like to share with the class Minami about how you perceive yourself/any potential wants for attention. Anyways it’s okay if the you sound untranslatable I understand and also relate to that feeling of 24/7 thinking i come across as incomprehensible 💖 no pressure to do so but I would personally love to read that Saejima teacher ramble and how it affects Minami etc etc also

ohhh man it's canon. if we're taking rggo's scraps as having some relevancy then dead souls absolutely is canon. and more importantly, its canon TO ME (takes consecutive puffs of my copium inhaler)

yeah i had this at the ready. yeah. i tear my shirt open and it has "the line from dead souls where Majima outs Minami as a fucking square" tattooed across my chest. not the line itself but those exact words. i cannot describe how his charm shot thru the fucking roof to me when i heard he used to be completely straight edge!! what a fucking dork!! come here i'm giving you a wedgie boy

and then the ehhhh half-subjective half-objective tragedy of him succumbing to a vice to the point of functional alcoholism (or currently functional aud as some folks call it, which is unfortunate naming conventions for those who use australian currency) implying he's been a "pretty good drinker" for an extended amount of time. and the kicker is majima totally could not care less. there's no evidence to Him Specifically being the one who got Minami to drink but it's absolutely regular Family practice, if the boy wants to fit in with the Majimagumi he needs to top up!

hc shit-i-made-up territory but i LIKE to believe that Majima personally influenced him this way during whatever limited time they had in direct contact with each other (cause while you COULD have their dynamic between a twat who signed up + the twat who runs the business and nothing more its not as fun. a little too parasocial methinks) but this is 99% due to me finding a song that makes me imagine the perfect sequence for this (dont get me.started on Majimagumi songs. i like to delude myself into thinking i'll animate to one of them eventually). also considering the kind of man Majima was during Shimano-servant-era i feel like it wouldnt be too out of character. he's not a malicious person but by god he does stupid shit and hurts people so much in so many horrific ways he could not care less about putting some highschool level peer-pressure shit on the new recruit just because he's Bored. what's one more hurt person in the grand scheme of things.

Alllso... getting back on track..? WHY was Minami straight edge in the first place. it could be any reason under the sun but the way it's worded here really sounds like it took a lot of willpower to break his resolve to just have a sip, just tryyyyyyy it, yadda yadda. if Minami is as punk as i totally project unto him to be, then he'd be no stranger to lives lived in excess..... i could not tell you for certain that Straight-Edge was a Punk Thing in pre-2010 Japan whatsoever. an attitude, sure, but i'm talking music scene shit........ however, gigs involve lots of booze at the bare minimum regardless of country. 'tis just the way of life. and 'tis a plausible outlet for WHY he seemed to have such a strong unwillingness to drink....

you know, outside of other stuff like experiences with friends and family. those can work too. those are considerably more sad and personal... those can work alongside gig culture shit. i dont have anything explicitly outlined but its definitely something i'd like to write for him... make up a little backstory so i can maybe explore some themes that RGG wouldn't touch with a ten foot pole, like addiction. it interests me a lot and getting it somewhat RIGHT interests me a lot. i know for sure RGG would fuck it up LMAO

#ikildaman shut the fuck up #also it provides an easily-contained plot outline that wont explode into tojo-wide world-ending conspiracy nonsense! #just kidding drug trade in the yakuza is canon 2 me and itd easily be the biggest form of income #fucking with their drugs IS a tojo-wide conspiracy #but speaking of which i also hc Minami as being even more staunchly against other forms of inebriation.... #cause yall remember that VA who got wholly blacklisted for being photographed lining up regular gummy bears #japans attitude on drugs is ABYSMAL #also. speaking of his friends and family. i like to think his tattoo of the womans face is related to that 😁😁😁 #its such a mysterious and strange design choice to me. like WHOOO IS SHEEEE..???? #shes got to have some significance and if she doesnt well idc i decide she does #maybe family... maybe a friend..... possibly. somebody he lost #possibly to something related to unsobriety maybe. i dunno yet. but maybe #feels more original than defaulting to the abusive drunk parent stereotype and calling it a day #not that you couldnt also do that. i do like to believe his family sucked for whatever reason #nishida having folks at home isnt like uncommon in the yakuza by any means but i dont think its regular #plus with him being such an immature/lost dude..... where is your father boy........... #ALSO YES ^_^ i will try to post my teacher saejima realness sometime soon!!!!!

[the-acid-pear]

Last night i was infodumping my bf on John Wick 4 and ngl i really don't realize how little people actually care about martial arts films as much as me and I'm not even a die hard I'm just so autistic about dilfs throwing hands

#luly talks #like i guess movies like ip man are known in between 40 smthn yo men but just as a passing name like oh yeah that movie of the chinese guy #while im sitting on my ass ripping off my hair over it or hell #EVEN OVER UNDISPUTED YALL SAW ME MAKE LIKE 3 POSTS IN A ROW SCREAMING AND THROWING UP AND SHITTING MYSELF OVER UNDISPUTED #but i fail to realize younger ppl just don't give a fuck about most these things #but idc go watch undisputed and go watch ip man and go watch uh #no don't watch mortal kombat 2021 just watch those two #ip man has like 5 movies and 2 spinoffs too 😭 #and God there's this ONE FUCKING GUY who i want to breed so bad #and he's the guy from Riki's story or whatever that one is called!! #he doesn't do much on ip man he's just there being funny and getting his ass kicked by our beloved #like im rambling i swear im so autistic about this topic please talk to me about this topic

[selfinflictedgunshotwound]

ATTENTION: BRAINDEAD POST INCOMING

i'm gonna marry him i swear to god. I promise. no kidding

#his 80s cary elwes-esque slay w the moustache WHYYYYYYYYYY i am in agony. #i think there was just something about 2021. prophetic dreams were abound and we all fell in love w someone who greatly impacted us forever #i still believe there's smth special about him and i can't let him go 😐 the nature of the dream and everything and the fact that i knew IT #i sowwy for being insane but i do believe he's my special little guy. him havin a gf literally changes nothing. whoops! 🤷‍♀️ #god i have a problem i think i need to be on anti-psychotics but idc. i'm just remembering how i was sayin i was happy abt him reading my #comment and saying good night to me and i called him 'my beloved streamer' and people were callin me parasocial for that and yet #a bitch who's been his fan for over half a decade who ends up dating him ISN'T parasocial? the hypocrisy of everyone being kind to her #while getting angry at other for being attracted to him and genuinely caring for him just like i'n sure she did. i hate alllllllll of you #i never felt like life made sense more than when i was obsessed w him... sigh #ironically i think want someone to tell me that i'm being crazy just so i can tell them to fuck off. it's not like i don't know or that i #enjoy being like this but i feel like a have no other choice? it's odd but it feels like my purpose. this is my rock to roll up the hill #my track record for this sorta thing isn't good but i'm trying to be better. just once i wanna be loved by someone i love heh... 😔 #he feels like the final one fr. the last in a line of total failures #god it's a miracle anyone puts up w me ngl LOL there's smth deeply wrong w me i don't think is fixable #not to quote astrology like it's gospel but the stars decided i was supposed to fall for someone in the public eye so. it only makes sense #that this keeps happening to me i guess. i'm just fuckin retarded no need to be concerned #anyways SCHIZOPOSTING OVER! back to whatever the fuck else i can use as a diversion so no one reads this (even tho no one gaf)