#and havent filled it out in weeks

[sgt-celestial]

Guy from my uni radio station gave me this today and i flat out did not know what to say....

#planning on baking some biscuits for him later this week cuz um. WOW!!! #i havent even started recording yet like ive filled in all the forms etc but its still an early stage for me. fingers crossed i can start #helping out more soon 🤞🏻🤞🏻 #emi's meandering jotts

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

im finally going through my stuffed animals to choose which ones to donate (most of them. ive been putting this off for a long time ahaha sobs) and each webkinz i put in the box kills me inside

#THE GUILT IS EATING ME ALIVE #both a betrayal to them & my younger self #who would burst out sobbing at the mere notion of parting with a single one #and swore to themself that they'd never willingly say goodbye to any of their plushie friends #im trying to do it quickly and unemotionally but man. Man.... #clinging to my mangled toothless plush like it has any life left in it #GODDDD AND ALL THE WEBKINZ #when i was little i fucking collected them. i was obsessed. id play the online game for hours and diligently add each toy i got #some of them im not sure i can part with... #like milk the cow... dinner the turkey... white fang the husky... orchard the dragon... #ice cream the polar bear... strawberryblast the horse... kevin the bloogaloo or whatever the fuck it is... #why yes i do still remember most of my stuffed animals' names. which is making this infinitely harder #'sorry lovemuffin. sorry ellie. sorry momma dolphin. sorry snakey' etc etc #im keeping the ones with the most emotional value #like High emotional value. devastation to say goodbye level value #this box is Not Small and its still gonna get filled up.... #i havent donated or thrown away a single one in all of my years #eating glassssssss #absolutely unprompted #but it needs to be done!! i finally have a moving date! the uhaul will Be Here in like! just over two weeks! #and i've barely packed Anything!!! its crunch time babey! #its emotional turmoil of a different flavor babey!!! #now if yall will excuse me i will sit here and reminisce #of long past nights sneakily spent awake to play with my stuffed animals #oh the stories i would give them... #cooking shows... assassinations and resurrections... broken marriages.... betrayals... #white fang & milk you were my most iconic couple fr fr #badass lone wolf (husky) / easygoing sweetheart cow.... #OHHHHH THIS IS KILLING ME ITS KILLING ME #gonna go purposefully choke on my leftovers i stg-

[cheeriochat]

The before and after of the wig stuff

I teased it going from the base to the end of the hair and then I straightend it with my sisters old hair straightener from 2012 or something. Then some hairspray and brushing it out until it was smooth and fluffy!! Baby powder was also utilised.

#i actually did this awhile ago but i kept forgetting to post it #so here it is i guess lol #im starting to panic a little since the con is coming up real fast #and so is my next mock law trial #WHICH IS THE SAME WEEK AS THE CON #AND IM A KEY WITNESS #uuuuuuuurh im panicking #I HAVENT FINISHED SANDING AND FILLING EBONY AND IVORY YET #OR WASHED THE COSTUME #PANIC #i'll... figure something out. #devil may cry #dmc #cosplay #cosplay wigs #dmc4

[theokusgallery]

I'm gonna take a break from anything internet-related for a few days ! WiFi turned off and etc

#it's been a while since ive done it and i really think i need some time off #finals stressed me out a lot #sorry if we're talking and i havent said anything ! #its not gonna be longer than a week probably... im also still gonna be filling the queue for daily-basil #so if theres anything important ill probably see it #rant

[dragonji]

breaking out of artblock in thee most complicated way possible♡

#cnp art #cnp wip #i normally dont post wips but ive been working on this piece for 4 days now and i just Need someone else to see it [grins painfully] #still have to finish filling out the wolfs tail + detail texturing on the fur and im So eager to get to it i LOVE fiddly ink layering<3 #rabbit is going to have red eyes and golden claws while wolf will get blue eyes and silver claws btw. just so yall see the vision. #I Still havent decided on how im doing the background tho :) teehees fearfully. guess we'll find out soon hopefully! #this is actually for an upcoming local gallery show so tune in in another couple weeks for the final ehehehe

[skunkg1rll]

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#i havent been wanting to get out of bed in the morning at all lately :(( #i just dont want to :(( #today i should be going to the gym w my mom nd then stop by the store nd library #tmrw i have to go to school #but omg i rllyyyyy dont want to i wanna cry #i feel like skipping it today even if then i dont get the book i wanna read bc they'll send it back today #plus there r some things i'd like to get at the store. but ugh i just wanna stay in bed and stay in my room #and i had an unpleasant dream of my school years :/ #i dream of that and my class all the time and it fills me w such anxiety :( #stuff like that. that anxiety most ppl fill me w. reminds me how badly i only want to be w him #but maybe it's ruined now. bc of miscommunication.... i havent even dared checking the app #bc im sooooooo scared to open it and be met w the unread sign. that he hasnt even seen my messages #that'll hurt me so much so i just dont even open the app. now i have no idea if he's seen it or not nd thats all i can deal with atm #it makes me so sad tho bc if he rlly wanted to he could have me. and i have such a big heart w sm love to give to someone :(((( #he's like the one person i've met who fills me w calm instead of that anxiety #which is somewhat funny to say bc he also makes me so sad sometimes :(( nd frustrated #but ohhh even now all i can think abt is being w him nd having a future. even if idk if nd when we'll even simply talk again skskksksk #sighhhhhh i was so happy to have talked to him almost every day the past week... i have things i wanna share w him constantly!!!!! but then #i ofc made a mistake w i always do. i just wish ppl could come to me nd talk abt it instead of just getting upset and pulling away :((

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ho hum they finally filled my prescription so ive now got the new medication #havent decided when im gonna start taking it tho. like i should start tomorrow bc i dont feel that great #i mean ive physically recovered from my allergic reaction debacle. my mood is generally just low. not like dangerously so. more like i #talk to ppl and im like oh im being a bummer. which i hate. so like i should start taking it #but im only here for like one more week before i fly home so im like. well ill b fine over the break bc no school #which is like yeah ill prob b fine but like even when im hanging out with family and being chill im not really happy. im just like not so #stressed but theres still like a cap on my mood so like maybe if i take it i can b like a human person. but like im still somehow resistant #which is dumb but like taking an old timey non ssri anti depressant feels different than taking an actual up and down mood stablizer #which is stupid bc im just getting freaked out by the word anti psychotic. and like grappling with the stupid voice #in the back of my head from growing up around the super health freaks in my family who r like: dont take medicine. dont trust doctors who #want to unnecessarily medicate u. but like im also worried itll work and ill just have to b on medication for the rest of my life #which is like fine but it feels weird to theoretically spend 30 dollars a month to be not miserable. bc idk the copay on this medication was #way higher than anything else ive had to get. but idk its dumb and i should just take it #but also a tiny bit a afraid of side effects after last time. i dont wanna deal with that :-[ #unrelated

[pocketramblr]

my apartment has literally never been cleaner but on the other hand i still have so much paperwork from work i haven't done this weekend like i said i was going to ughhh

#i procrastinated by cleaning and i feel so productive but also ahhhhh #if i dont do the paperwork this weekend next week will be actual hell for me #as my truly final deadline is thursday #but like................... i can do it tommorrow #i want to write but i cant focus so i should just get the paperwork done so i can #but it is truly mind numbingly boring #and i have to fill out like............57 forms i think? plus 24 from the other teachers if they actually got something #which. probably didn't. not high on the priority list #....... maybe i'll make my powerpoint for next wednesday i havent done that yet #and its technically work stuff #that i can do now to not have to do later in the midst of paperwork hell....

[treypug]

💊

#personal #im stressed the fuck out about everything #and depressed as hell #again #i tried to go back to the psych office i used to go to but bc its been so long they consider me a new client #so i filled out all the new client paperwork and turned it in online like they asked and they said after that they would call me back #and schedule the appointment #well its been over a week and they never called or emailed me back and work has been so rough that i havent been able #to get out of work early enough before their office closes to call and be like wtf can i make a fucking appointment #so i dont know when ill get this damn appointment and on top of that the 1st appointment will cost double bc im now a new client i guess #and the office is like an hour drive away but none of the other offices near me have good reviews #maybe they just had a backload from winter breaks idk #but yeah stressed about that and i can never fucking sleep well #cant fall asleep cant stay asleep dont feel well after rest its bs #and im eternally broke #really need a new bed thats bigger so i can maybe sleep better with my bf #i could ask my parents for money help but i hate doing that im almost 25 i shouldnt be so fucking broke and dependent right #also ive been feeling ugly for over a year #and this weather has me fucked up #and bills have me fucked up #ugh

[corvidcall]

reading Turtles All The Way Down and it's really good but also aza's compulsions and anxieties are TOO REAL and im getting so much secondhand anxiety

#anime life #(sees aza constsntly checking her finger for infection) #(looks at me constantly checking my teeth to make sure they havent chipped) #(to the point that i am developing sores on my tongue from pressing it against my teeth) #(refuses to relate) #admittedly mine is a recent development #and happened because i DID fuck up my tooth a few weeks ago #i chipped my front tooth in 2010 and got it fixed finally in 2021 #and then the filling like. fell out. a few weeks ago. and my tooth was even more fucked up than it had been when i chipped it originally #i couldn't drink anything without a straw because it would hurt too bad

[number-one-hog-hater]

Just kinda saying shit

#ive got the next 3 days off of work so imma go nuts on the discord #discord spoilers i guess #i want to try and get it up and running before robs podcast ep comes out #this isnt like an offical im 100% gonna get this done asap thing btw #i could be a liar and take a couple more weeks #cause im.Busy and burnt out rn from work #lmaoni did that poll then fucked off i to the sunset cause when making a list of things ive done it was basically nothing 😭 #but i think weekly events would help keep the fandom alive esp once the podcast dips #im like the gang aiming high but not having Any of the skills needed to execute #weekly or like once every 2 weeks #idk its gonna be a poll when i finally have an update list that isnt i named the channels but the premissions are all fucked #also emotes #we got 10 so far #also we have 2 reactions roles for pronouns and who your fav character is #boring i know #rn figureing out how to do 18+ is hirting my brain #i was gonna do a section for minors to interact but i think yall are just gonna be left in the rain for a bit as j give up on that for rn #oh also i have about 8 pages filled with shot for the discord so there are Plans im not just free ballin #also to the 2 people who offered to help i havent forgot about you im just waiting to figure a couple things out then imma dm yall

[retrospectislame]

wilbur soot brainrot just hit me like a fucking truck i thought i was done with this what the heck

#i havent watched anything dsmp related in months #(nothing against it i just sorta fell out of the fandom) #but these past few weeks my mind is constantly filled with wilbur and qsmp and omg #tallulah #i saw one post of her and she pulled me right back in the mcyt fandom #this is great i think

[possum-tooth]

"im not really in the right headspace to be a good bf" then why the Fuck did ur tinder profile say differently.

#i should block him and get it over with. rip the bandaid off. #then id feel Bad and think about it nonstop 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #i need a lobotomy. anyone know any good back alley surgeons? #can someone be proud of me tho i havent opened tinder in like a week <333333 slowly but surely getting over the weird fixation i had #w it. (knowing full well i was getting addicted to the attention and it wasnt good for anybody involved) #i Am talking to ppl on hinge tho so. wins and loses i guess LOL #but theres more unhinged/chaotic gay ppl on there so!!!!! its been much more enjoyable sans the m*rvel/d*sney stans #anyway. i dont get this guy lol. i need to make a decision and soon tho bc i think the constant stress im putting on myself is manifesting #into physical things and um. uncomfy! cant say its enjoyable! #i dont wanna say one bc its extremely specific but That Thing + a lot of back acne for some reason????? one directly on my shoulder that #hurts just so bad. idk i gotta figure it out and Soon lol #i also have to fill out my psych paperwork bc ive been putting it off for um. 3 weeks now. 🤭🤪 brb playing in traffic #ok i think thats everything for now! i need to start physically journalling bc i think it unfortunately helps but. i like seeing numbers #next to my posts. i like when my friends see my posts and tell me theyre seen them via a little heart. i love u guys. <3 ok gn love u #talk tag #dontrb #OH i also have not subscribed to the dr*cula email but i am loving yalls post ab it <3 u go u funky little cryptid lovers <3

[vellichor-virgo]

writeblr friends! i’ve been quite absent lately—tell me what you’ve been up to!

#this week is busy & i havent been on tumblr at all #but i plan to make my comeback (fill out tag games) next week #ramblings

[thursdayg1rl]

oh my god i have to go to FUCKING school tomorrow to get this form filled in

#i really thought i would have one day of peace and be able to skip a day this week but no #to add to the embarrassment he did see me as i was walking out of school right after i emailed him.kill me dead #whatever this will be done soon thank god #what else do i have to do #rest of tomorrow will just be loads of revision ig #need to print out the form rn #oh also was thinking of applying for my provisional licence like what is she gonna do make me send it back? #honestly i just want a form of id #friday physics test 🚬 she decided today for some reason #god why is a provisional licence 34 pounds. havent i suffered enough. #will sleep at 10 today i hope she doesnt wake me up at 5 am with her loud thumping footsteps i will lose it #ok will go and print the fucking form now bane of my existence #hopefully it is filled by tomorrow . will be an awkward half an hour but i will live i hope. then upload online then whole fiasco over #all this to probably take a gap year anyway

[denimsnake]

i know if i actually got a massage it wouldnt be that great but i do still feel like a really good massage would fix everything wrong with me

#mine #i filled out the appt request form on the physical therapy website nearly a week ago and they havent gotten back to me 😔 #might have to make a phone call #tangentially they have a self-pay fee listed and it's legitimately the same price as 1 massage from a massage place #like u pay the same amount of money but instead of getting slopped up by someone who does reiki u get an actual doctor. what's up with that