#and I used sword text through this entire rant so ik it’s gonna be illegible ugh

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#my brain is not a very fun place but it’s at least more fun than my daily activities in this fucking house #i feel so numb knowing all I’m ever going to be good for is feeling out at home which is the most unfulfilling thing ever #I’m so ungrateful and horrible #I get to spend time with my pets and my brothers but I just can’t handle any of it anymore #I’m sick of looking out for them and getting treated like shit #I’m tired of exploding when I’m overwhelmed and treating people like shit #i isolate myself and I haven’t spoken to my friends in weeks because I have nothing to tell them except bad news #about me and my disgusting self that hasn’t lived up to any of the expectations they’ve set for me #i want them to forget about me and be happier without me #but they’re too good out people and I take them for granted but I literally can’t get myself to reach out #anyways #it’s been a fuckint long time since I’ve admitted it bc I thought I was doing better but #I don’t want to be alive anymore #I’m just so fuckint tired #and I used sword text through this entire rant so ik it’s gonna be illegible ugh #personal