#although I guess it was kinda needed

[watmalik]

NUMBER #1 BABYYYY

#the rookie #chenford #also not tim having only like 5 mins lol #although I guess it was kinda needed #for story purposes

[buwheal]

We can't hear it Spam, but it's real to you. I get auditory hallucinations a lot, and usually what helps me is a distraction. Maybe... name 5 things you can see? Or make paper airplanes with old messages, or draw some pictures. Otherwise, I'm sure someone has a crossword or story they can send you to help you out!

#thank you anonnnnn some of these are kinda hard to work with lolll #[you've got mail!] #spamton #spamton g spamton #deltarune #deltarune spamton #deltarune chapter 2 #if i get a shiver of guilt when im writing it thats how i know its the one LMAOOOO #sometimes i forget i dont need dialogue. descriptions can do my job for me. #I guess im living up to the every other day schedule i said id be doing #although i wish i could do every day again LOL but its important to take my time with these ones in particular because i want them to feel #certain way while also being effective esp guilt wise. you guys caused this so you get to feel bad ab it when hes miserable. This time you #get to see the aftermath. haha. this is your fault! haha. your actions have consequences for him! #That and the active participation people seem to like lol

[ward-against-blight]

So I’m having a thought.

I’m almost to Lemuria now, and one of the things that’s struck me about arc 4 so far is how quiet it is. There’s so many places where I click on something and there’s no narration, even though it feels like there should be. I know why, obviously. Grandmother Raven retired to the Husk with Spider, the Wizard is on their own.

I just wonder how that feels for them!

You spend your very traumatic formative years with a literal goddess on your shoulder, and then suddenly that’s just gone. You’re completely on your own, stuck with a very important universe preserving job at a really tender age! If you graduate Ravenwood at 18 like most assume, that makes the Wizard in their early 20’s ish by arc 4. And as someone who is currently 21,

Yikes

If I, a player on the other side of the fourth wall feels the loss of Raven this much, just imagine how the Wizard feels!

#wizard101 #w101 #wizzy fandom #it’s missing Dell Aldrich hours over here okay #I know that technically Raven stopped narrating somewhere around Polaris #but she was still in the story #I guess I’m just feeling it more now that that story arc has wrapped up #but seriously think about it #as if the wizard needed more trauma #I think it’d be cool if Bartelby started narrating for us since were his scion now #kinda like he does the books in wizard city #although I’m not caught up yet so maybe he does start narrating at some point

[pothospant]

silly lil designs for pf ez and aphelios blending into piltover :]

#me arts tag #i was going to draw smth a bit more substantial but i need a nap :'D #the monocle and glasses are just their visors disguised somehow #and the weird half vest? design for ezreal.. i imagine half of it tears off/opens (like buttons or smth) #to accommodate his arm cannon transforming. actually i imagine both their outfits kinda work like that #tearaway clothes for their pulsefire equipment somehow #although im imagining the pulsefire tech might be able to make some illusion/disguise clothes.. transforming tech? who knows #realistically im sure aphelios would cover up the glowing marks on his face but it also looked odd w/o his face markings so i just left em #ezreal monocle doesnt look as silly as i thought... maybe he should wear one normally #im meh on aphelios's coat design but maybe ill rerereredesign into oblivion... LOL #wanted to give him more of like a pilot jacket originally but idk what his vibe is. goofy lil guy. what fashion even suits you #OH.... I GUESS. HE NEEDS HIS SCARF.... ill fix it at some point probably maybe sure #i think it'd be a bit funny if ezreal is unintentionally a fashion/style person #just bc of how much blending in with timelines and worlds and stuff hes done #he just ended up absorbing so much fashion knowledge #aphelios or ekko points it out at some point and hes like. huh. im not into fashion #(said while reading a hefty book on fashion history for whatever location theyre at) #yeah im sure PEARL probably has built in search engine stuff #but ezreal just strikes me as the type of guy to research and memorize/learn stuff #''just in case i lose access to PEARL's database again'' or whatever #im sure thats probably happened like 100 times #so random but i feel like aphelios has the vibe of a guy you wanna dress up in various outfits #but also hes like :) (just happy to be included/present) so he doesnt mind #you put a goofy souvenir shop floppy hat on him and hes like. :) #my aphelios hcs are nonsense im so sorry. i want him to be happy #pulsefire ezreal #pulsefire aphelios #pulsefire #aphelios #ezreal

[exuberantocean]

Accessibility *sigh*

I do yoga as a means to handle my anxiety. I've had a yoga place that I've been going to for years, but they closed. This week I tried a new yoga place.

I got to the class, settled in and took my glasses off as usual. Past experience has taught me it's safer to keep them off when doing yoga.

And the entirety of the class was hearing the yoga instructor say "and now do this" from a distance way to far away for me to see what "this" was that she was doing. Worse, the (blurry) people around me seemed to be doing different things (I don't think I was the only one struggling to know what we were supposed to do). Occasionally she'd say something like "now do downward dog" which, okay, I know most yoga moves (the only one new one for me was "tadpole") but I kept thinking, what if I didn't? By the end of the class I gave up and just did my own thing completely.

After class the yoga instructor came up and asked what I thought of the class. I asked if she was open to constructive criticism. She said yes.

"When you are demonstrating a move, you should also describe it rather than just say 'do this' because anyone who can't see you can't tell what we are supposed to do. I couldn't see you and I couldn't follow you. That's why I started doing my own thing." I said.

Her body language immediately got defensive. "I don't appreciate you assuming things about me."

"I'm not assuming anything about you. I'm just informing you that your class isn't accessible."

"Well thank you," she said in a very unthankful, sarcastic voice.

*sigh* I mean, I realized on the car ride back I did make an assumption about her. I assumed she wanted to reach all her students. My bad, I guess.

#accessibility #disablity #kinda #i mean in the right circumstances i guess needing glasses is a disability #although we rarely think of it as such since it is normally accommodated and accepted

[front-facing-pokemon]

#*again* another closer one under the cut. just gotta get in there for that fuckin nose tbqh #bagon #this is the guy that eventually evolves into salamence. and there's. well. salamence is. salamence. but this guy is just bagon #they're like. *kinda* cute? i dunno. pure dragon-type which is always strange-but-fun to see in small little guys like this #although they do still evolve into a very powerful dragon/flying-type so maybe it doesn't count. we need more middling dragon-types #dragon-types that're only dragon-types to be cute and they aren't actually super powerful. there probably are some out there #i just can't remember them off the top of my head #i guess you could say tatsugiri but i think it ends up being good anyway esp in doubles. closest example is *probably* the applin lines? #appletun especially i like way more than flapple. it is indeed cute and it is indeed a dragon-type for some reason #that's not bagon though this is bagon. i dunno they have rocks on their head but no semblance of a rock-typing even when they're shelgon #what's there to say until i get to their evolutions

[qlventingspace]

I read on twt someone described firstkhao as queercoded and I can't agree more

#they are giving queerplatonic relationship and I'm living #i need this kind of relationship #someone? pls? #apparently they have smaller fanbase at home and I'm kinda glad? #cause it means there are just people who really really appreciate them for them #I guess I get it #their series are mostly not the sweet clichéy thingies that are appealing to most of the audience but heavy on reality and social issues #and packed with their insanely good acting especially in dramatic scenes #they are SO.FUCKING.TALENTED #and although they deserve more fans I'm glad it's limited now to those few who can appreciate their immense talent and cosy bond they have #I'm so in love with them #someone wanna be my first? pls? #firstkhao #firstkhaotung #first kanaphan #khaotung thanawat

[steakout-05]

i was thinking about how it took me a while to figure out i'm aegosexual (which basically means that there's a disconnect between yourself and being the subject of attraction) and i thought about how much i really dislike and just cannot see myself in slash reader fics. i tend to dislike these fics for multiple reasons, but some of them include that the reader self insert is usually really boring, has no personality outside of being lovey dovey and isn't unhinged enough for certain characters for reasons outside of contrasting personalities for my tastes (like spamton for example, why are you writing a normal protagonist to pair with fuckin spamton of all characters). but another reason is that i literally cannot connect myself to the reader self insert. like i cannot imagine myself in their place at all, it's always another stand-in that i imagine instead and thinking about myself in their place makes me uncomfortable. i can't see myself in their place because i don't see myself as a subject of attraction, and i'm repulsed to that idea. so i imagine someone else instead because that's better to me. and also because of the aforementioned reasons that have more to do with the writing of the self insert, i just cannot imagine myself acting the way the self insert does because I Personally Would Not Fucking Do That™. like i would not be romantically kissing a guy on a date, i would be infodumping about my special interests for 3 hours and then start ranting about how funny cars are while he just smiles and nods lmao

this is why i've never really self-shipped with any character. like i can be attracted to them and be like "i wanna hold his hand/kiss him/do inexplicable things to his psyche", but in reality i could never actually see myself as a subject of attraction by this character, so i'd either ship them with another character i like or imagine a sort of stand-in that has some of my traits and lives out my fantasies but still isn't me. i can fall in love but i can never connect because ew that's gross and weird. watching from the sidelines by reading fics and looking at fanart about characters being shipped with others and being intimate with each other is more my cup of tea.

#aegosexual #also i'm not like. sad about this or anything #maybe i'm a little disappointed that i probably won't experience some things but i'm not like. crying about it. #i literally don't care about it and i think i actually prefer it this way #being seen as something arousing is fucking disgusting and weird in a bad way to me and i don't think i should ignore how i feel just to- #-experience something i won't enjoy. #i just want to watch my little fictional men hold each other and kick my legs like an excited schoolboy about it in peace #also unpopular opinion but slash reader fics SUUUUUUCK and i'd rather read something else instead #now let's sit back and watch literally everyone get mad at that opinion lmao #i'm kidding i'm kidding you're obviously free to enjoy slash reader fics #i just find them to be completely unrelatable and i feel like throwing a self insert into the mix kinda ruins the whole dynamic for me #like i just personally find the idea of meddling in that character's life and being their hubby to be very unattractive #especially when the self insert is so barebones that there's no chemistry #we need more slash reader fics that are just an expression of how much the reader admires the character and nothing more i think #idk maybe i just haven't read enough slash reader fics to appreciate them as their own thing disconnected from me but i really just kinda- #-don't like them because the ones i've read were mostly kinda boring..... sorrgy #i always preferred projection anyway #although i do like dating sims. of course i don't attach myself to the MC but i do like them more than reader fics. i wonder why that is. #probably because the MC tends to have more character traits i guess? so then i can just consider them to be a different person- #-and i'm just pressing buttons for them #it's more free and directional i guess

[drewsaturday]

obviously different people say different things and you can support something existing while still complaining about things not being to your taste as long as you don't comment it on actual creationssss

but sometimes it does get mentally chaotic seeing posts saying you should be allowed to write whatever you want and bad art is okay etc etc and then i scroll down a little more to see people having incredibly high expectations for things that people make for fun and for free in fandom spaces and it's like...

i think there is a gap between seeing our tumblr peers tm as people and creatives having fun, but ourselves as consumers expecting perfect content. you are demanding perfection from those same people you claim to want to support.

???

#txt #i really wish fanfic dot net weren't dying because lowkey. #although the etiquette over there is abysmal i kinda feel like the expectations for fics posted to ao3 is weirdly high #obviously i have my own personal standards but it really does get on my nerves sometimes #to see such a clash between 'uwu two cakes theory!!!' posting and then 'god this trope in fic/this art style/this vidding style #etc etc is sooooo annoying/tired/overdone/bad/ETC' #again it's not always from the same people and we do contain multitudes or whatever i am sure im hypocritical too and #there are things that do deserve discussion and you can have your own preferences as long as you don't make it a creator's problem #and to be okay posting the things you make publicly anywhere you need to understand there #will be people coming at it from both angles i am just #mostly confused about how prevalent those clashy mindsets are within the same spheres i guess #support creators and reblog things etc but only if they're not being cringe haha #and what is cringe changes depending on the month instead of being grateful people are making things at all #as usual i need to remove myself from caring and start creating things #rather than scrolling through so much of these discussions i forget that oh right making things #is supposed to be fun actually and that's what outweighs those negatives #but alas i am here #making nothing and wishing fandom felt more like a community the way it used to for me #instead of finding ways to cultivate that myself lmao #at least having minimal free time excludes me from the content mill grind for now : )

[anxiousanteaterr]

After mulling over what I wanted to do for my team, I decided Gardevoir's Physchic/Fairy typing would be better for balancing my team as opposed to Mawile, so I went all the way back to route 4, and instead of running into the 5% chance for a Ralts, I get THIS 1% encounter rate FOOL who REFUSED to be contained in ANYTHING other than a Luxury Ball

#pokemon #pokemon xy #i kinda still want a Ralts bc i NEED poison type coverage #although i GUESS my honedge could cover that via being totally immune #im only not picking mawile bc my team already has a big fire type weakness 😔 #my panpour is going to solo team flare at this point

[homoeroticvillain]

angie is... surprisingly annoying to design clothes for? cause as angel it isnt too bad just fancy suits usually with yellow worked in. but her casual outfits are hard to make look nice and distinct cause she just wear tanktops and the occasional band tee for smth youve never heard of

#she and luci actually dress pretty similarly with more sporty casual clothing #but i worry less about luci's clothes cause uhh id never admit to forgetting to develop a character but um luci is kinda on the backburner #but angie! i love her so dearly i want her casual clothes to look good #but an in universe joke that shes a fashion major but she dresses like someone's deadbeat dad #also i just dont think she's an accessories person so i cant do that #i guess i focus on her hair? should probably figure out a way to draw it more consistently #its gone through a few changes design wise so im pretty rough with drawing it still #ooo maybe some cool sneakers #maybe a few patches on her pants? to be the opposite of geist #geist has complicated shirt designs but simple pants so angie can have a simple shirt but complicated pants #and then adam has simple clothing but wears more accessories #and bianca! umm i need to fix her outfit to look nicer still #but also her not fitting into the group as nicely design wise would make sense #although actually bianca kinda brings it in with the hair maybe? since she has white hair + the bow she always has #maybe that makes sense #shout out to anyone who reads all this and sees my live design process #klepto talks to himself #klepto rants about ocs

[majorshatterandhare]

Apparently my brain really hates when names have A, U, and R in them, because without fail, every time I go to type Arthur my brain wants to spell it “Aurthur” or perhaps “Aurthr” and every time I go to type Marius my brain wants to type “Mauris” or maybe “Maurius” or maybe “Maurias” its unclear because I *usually* notice my mistake by the end because it’s clear to me those ending are wrong. Brain just really wants “AUR” together.

#if you see me misspell those names. that’s why #also im american so i default to pronouncing marius— hang on let me look up some IPA symbols #i pronounce is with this vowel ‘ɑ’ which is the open back unrounded vowel #where as they seem to pronounce it with the ‘e’ symbol which is an english (or at least am english) long a sound. #they say it like the name mary. like ‘marry us’ #reasons english needs either more vowel symbols or accent marks #also i am aware the ipa vowels are fucked up but its still the best ive got because even in the same language there are accents and- #dialects and that makes examples hard. i also learned recently that british and australian english has actual long an short vowels. #i knew american english didnt have strut (inverted v) but i didnt know- i mean i kinda did because i had noticed it but like not fully- #understood it. anyway if youve read this far you should go watch dr geoff lindsey on youtube hes great #to be clear we have ‘long’ and ‘short’ vowel sounds in am english. but ‘long’ and ‘short’ are just names. the actual length that we say- #them is apparently basically the same. at least when compared with br and au english. #dr geoff lindsey *just* published a video about this. re: how br and au eng speakers say ‘two o’clock’ and ‘four o’clock’ as significantly- #different lengths. while am english speakers say them the same length. he also touches on a bunch of other interesting stuff #im not gonna fandom tag this i guess #i think its funny though that its arthur and marius since they are both voiced by the same person #oh also i think all IPA symbols should have special names like eng. schwa. and strut. rather than having to be called shit like ‘open back- #unrounded vowel.’ although i do realize that theres a fuck tonne of ipa symbols. i also think each of the names should have the sound it- #represents in it. #im autistic about pronunciation somehow. arent i supposed to be in the… *other* sciences. how did this happen?

[natreads]

okay so I’m searching for a part time or full time job alongside my freelance stuff mostly because I wanna move out soon (living alone in gdansk made me realize I Cannot live with my parents anymore even though I love them because I need the independence and solitude) but my friend now asked me if I want to take over her apartment when she moves in with her bf!!! and idk if I’ll still need a job to get it or if I can move in anyway, because I definitely can survive for a couple of months on savings + my freelance business if I haven’t found anything by then but idk if that’s “smart” or if I should wait??

#nat talks #personal #I need to start applying for jobs everyday now ugh #kinda feel bad for my parents bc my brother moved out last year and it crushed my mom lol #also my dog is depressed because I've been away for three weeks </3 #although I guess I will visit more when I move out since I'll be in the same country lol #also had the realization that maybe I don't mind having temporary homes as much anymore bc I wanna travel more #and try to live in other countries for a bit if I can

[schneckmag]

Pyro is a fantastic character design, because I don't even wonder what's under the mask. That's just their face to me

#You ask 'where is the pyro from' i say that bugger came out of a minecraft spawn cage #Valve kinda built the character up to keep people guessing about their identity like with their gender for instance #But honestly I'm not even curious about it at this point. Although it makes it a fun character #It being an anomaly is utterly fantastic #Living censorship bar #It leaves gaps for alot of headcanons i suppose but i personally prefer em just literally being like that #Kinda the beauty of anonymity #Like with snifits and shy guys in mario #No need to dig into the mystery theyre just like that. Funny creature #Tf2 #Team fortress #Team fortress 2 #Tf2 pyro #Pyro

[cultivatingyourfuture]

ive got a framing device finally woaahaoooo!!!

#youll still need to suspend yr disbelief that a [REDACTED] from 2009 could be sending realtime messages in 2023 #but its not called an ALTERNATE REALITY game for nothin ! #meta #i really wanna talk about it but. im having issues where its like #omg i wanna talk about this!! but if i talk abt it and someone just so happens to nab a screenshot here then it All Comes Apart #but itll be OK i think #umm basically cherry kinda. dies. but only a little bit #his mechanical parts are still mostly functioning #he cant tell whats happening around him (they can only guess really) #but he can still reach out to other people and he can still access his own files #she knows she was supposed to find someone after the fact but she cant really tell who anymore #the hopes is that people will ask him the right questions and theyll basically show you everything you need to know #although those files will be somewhat corrupted since. yakno. theyre coming from a dying computer in virtual purgatory. #fun times! #also if you read this far i assume youre an ivw fan so while i have your attention; #neil is the last person they remember running into before they started dying. have fun with that.

[be-good-to-bugs]

only ever drawing the same character repeatedly but i love her so much so its ok

#the bin #i feel so terrible recently because something very bad for me is gonna happen in august and im stressed about it :/ #but im drawing some stuff again. finally got my sister to keep listening to tma with me so i draw then #extra laptop only has a beadphone jack and 2 usbc ports 1 of which is for charging because its a terrible computer so i need am adapter but #then i can watch stuff while i draw finally. exited to rewatch nichijou for the 16th time while drawing finally #wish i could watch precure while i draw but alas i need 2 read the subs. well i guess i could watch smile since ive seen it twice #technically smile has its dub but its terrible. i know it well enough that having it in background subbed is just fine i think #still havent drawn them yet. i should. although tbh i kinda just wanna draw my current fav oc as a bunch of characters including them #i think maybe ill do that