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tag the oc based on a song

#I go thru phases of 'why did i base evie off this song thats so embarassing i cant tell anyone where her concept came from' #and 'hey guys wanna hear my line by line breakdown of why this LSD song shaped her entire storyline'

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still thinking about this youtube comment i screenshotted ages ago

#throws the fuck up #cherry #fizzle #scott

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#FIZZLE

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i had a really funny interaction with my dad yesterday if i had the time or bandwidth id draw it with scott and evie

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I’m just thinking about how many times I’ve heard my dad on a long call with an obvious scammer and I’ll start begging him to get off the phone because I always think he’s a very easy mark and he’ll just keep going and then after a while he’ll say something like “I died 20 years ago” and hang up.

#SCOTT

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thrrowing away batteries feels so bad i feel like i should eat them

#fizzle

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i luv when characters have blood red eyes but theyre not evil. like. ESPECIALLY if no one acknowledges it. its just like. theres my dark winged demon friend. shes normal.

#thissis literslly cherry

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remember when harambe died

#fonnies #2nd person is cherry

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#hey man can you highlight that text in literally any other color #cherry #oh and #neil

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I mean you've threatened to kill me a bunch of times. You once told me you were gonna drown me in a river like a kangaroo.

[warm laugh of fond reminiscence] I did do that

#REGRETTABLY this is #pierre #paige #fonnies

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read ur blog title as "all my blog titties suck". sorry

i can never win w that thing i forgive u

#anonymous #asks

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If I was murdered and someone on tiktok made a video about me saying I was “unalived” I think I’d rise from the grave to eat their brain. If a beauty youtuber did a murder makeup Monday or something about me I’d blood curse them. If someone on a true crime podcast says my case was “their favorite” I’d send my dead corpse into their home and rot in a hidden space in their walls.

#cherry

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anyways all that bullshit being said i think i ought to make paige more weird. you don't go that long alone and focused on nothing but work and future qualifications without, like, getting really into horses as a child or getting a tumblr account in your adulthood. who said that

#meta tag #tumblr wouldnt have existed shed probably be on obscure livejournal forums or smth

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i play with these ideas most with paige, pierre, and eveline because i rotate them the most in my mind. both pierre and eveline are designed to kind of invoke ideas of the mid 20th century-- the adherence to structures that are not working in their favor, the need to keep up appearances for the sake of the authority in their lives, the powerlessness at the hands of a world that does not care about you and the need to bend to its will because maybe it'll get better this time.

the difference between them is that eveline is subject to and hurt by it while pierre works around it and uses it to his favor, and when eveline Leaves she gets to progresspast that point-- aesthetically, she transitions from 40s/50s into the 60s/70s, and had she gotten to live out her life she probably would've gone through the 80s, 90s, and finally the 2000s, and by that point she'd be caught up (she doesnt get to, however, which not only makes her feel literally and figuratively left in the past but is also another way in which her story is illustrated to have not meant to end the way it had)-- while pierre more or less stays right where he's always been. always adhering to the status quo, to what others makes people like him the best. always keeping up appearances, always maintaining plausible deniability. always maintaining power that has never been his.

paige is also somewhat anachronistic in that a lot of her ideals and her design is more evocative of 80s/90s corporate america. she's separated from whats going on with pierre and eveline but is still ruled by these ideas of sacrifice and commodification and overworking and more more more, never enough. exist through a name that carries weight and nothing else. play into their expectations-- even if theyre awful, you still have to give the people what they want. may as well. you have to get things done around here somehow.

she tends to see others as means to an end more than actual people and has decided that anything that makes them listen to her is worth it, even if it's cruel, if if it isn't true. for her, anything that moves her up the ladder is worth it; anything that benefits her business and her projects is worth the blood. the disregard for humanity, even her own, is born from a need for growth and a utilitarian view of the world, of seeing people as assets and products before anything else. numbers on a chart, lines on a graph, nothing with feeling or emotion worth seeing as anything more than an obstacle to commodification.

they're all stuck in the past, in one way or another. eveline and pierre start at the same place; pierre holds onto it rigidly, eveline tries to move into present day but is prevented from fully doing so, paige is supposedly ahead of them but still ruled by outdated ideas that actively make her life worse. and cherry is in the present day

this isn't like. crucial to understanding things. but you can gleam a lot from anachronistic characters who don't quite feel like they're supposed to be where they are and i try 2 play with that bc i think it's a very underutilized narrative tool el mao and i have 2 make up for all the useless historical analysis/knowledge i have somehow

vibrating so hard. anachronism as a storytelling mechanism

#cherry doesnt get so much of this because. why would he. she exists in the times she exists and they influence her the same- #as they do anyone else. nothing is keeping her locked into past ideals like it was with those three. #shes seperate from those three in so many ways because. its not their story now is it ! its theirs now sure. but who did it happen to? #whose narrative are they living in. and is it fair to ask them to follow the metaphors and conventions of people- #of characters- who arent part of his own story? #this is nonsense. im going to bed #meta tag

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vibrating so hard. anachronism as a storytelling mechanism

#im normal im normal IM NORMA💥💥 #meta tag

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next time i'm opening up to someone is my autopsy

#paige

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AUs are so fucking funny. Here's my blorbo. In an alternate universe he fights everyday to keep himself alive against an uncaring world. In another universe he sings sometimes.

#the aus i make about evie are like this also. if yall even knew. #au tag