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#also yes i'm definitely spinning stories in head about both games the question is if i'll ever find the will to actually write them lol
storiesfromafan · 6 months
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A/N: Hi everyone, been a little while. I have been working on various stories in an attempt to break the writers block. Finally finished something, though I'm not 100% on how I feel about it. Hope you enjoy.
Mattheo x Fem!Reader
Spin The Bottle
How the Hell did you get here, starring down at an empty glass bottle. Which was pointed at you, and on the other end was none other than Mattheo ‘God’s gift to every Hogwarts girl’ Riddle. That pointed, smouldering gaze boring into you, making you want to slink back to oblivion.
Ah yes, good old days where you weren’t on anyone’s radar. Not even Mattheo fricken Riddles radar. The bliss of not being notice, blending into the students around. Free of social queues, or being social in general besides you’re few friends. It was such a nice existence, and this past month you began to miss it.
But like every teen girl, towards the end of fifth year, you began to feel a bit restless. The need to feel pretty, to be seen by the opposite sex as something to desire. So, during the break you had taken a trip with your parents to Paris to visit family. While there you sort out advice from your older female cousins. They were beautiful, graceful and everything you wanted to be. They took you under their wings. Guided you, and made you over.
So, when it came time to gather on Platform 9¾ and head back to Hogwarts for sixth year, you were nervous but excited. Joyous but also filled with dread. For the invisible nerdy girl finally took off her glasses and used contacts. No longer boxed in by framing bangs, now they are slowly growing out. Along with the growing out your bangs you had ditched tying your hair up every day, instead letting your (colour) locks flow over your shoulders in soft curls, all thanks to your cousins and their tips. Finally, your frumpy clothes were gone, replaced with more fitted and fashionable ones.
Your sixth year was your fresh start. New year, new you. That’s what you told yourself. Unfortunately, your lack of social queues made you oblivious to notice all the eyes that saw and followed you. You were the shiny new penny, with a gleam catching everyone’s eye. Including the Syltherin heart throb that’s gaze was currently all you could notice.
Now back to the question at hand; how the Hell did you get here. Chalk it up to teen insecurities, some ambition and lack of male attention. That’s how you got here. Along with your friends pestering you to finally go to a Slytherin House party. They had begged, no pleaded with you. And reluctantly you gave in. Though a small part was intrigued. The stories over the years of House parties always piqued your interest. And going from an ugly duckling to a beautiful Swan made you think you should go. But you did not expect to play spin the bottle, nor have Mattheo land on you!
The boy should be outlawed for being so good looking, as well as charming and over all dangerous to the female population! And just like all the other girls, you had a small crush on the guy. But what female student didn’t? And if they said they didn’t, they are lying. For Mattheo was every girl’s type. All girls like a bad boy, and Mattheo was the definition of bad. He had the looks, the attitude, smokes, drinks, skips class, pulls pranks...you get my drift. Mattheo was the bad boy every girl wanted to save, or sacrifice themselves in the process.
“It’s you” Ella, one of your friends whispered nudging you.
Her words brought you back to reality, which also made time seem to return to normal. Releasing the breath you had been holding you looked to the bottle and then back to the Slytherin before you. Now came the time for the game to claim your first kiss, and with Mattheo.
Shakily you moved to your knees and moved to lean over the bottle, Mattheo following your movements. You both met over the bottle. He looked into your eyes, which no doubt showed how frazzled you were. A soft, sweet smile formed on his lips, which seemed to settle your nerves.
“Eyes on me” Mattheo said softly. “Forget everyone else, it’s just you and me...”
With some ease in your eyes and body, Mattheo didn’t wait for that spell to break, for he was the one to close the distance. The feel of his soft lips against yours brought you back to reality. Mattheo Riddle was kissing you! (First name) (Last name) were locking lips with the most crushed on male in your year, no school!
Slowly Mattheo moved his lips against yours, his tongue coming out to run along your bottom lip. Your body stiffened. First your first kiss, and now your first French kiss he wants to take!? Who did he think he was?
Noticing your hesitance, Mattheo pulled back and looked at you with questioning eyes. He hadn’t forced his tongue into your mouth, nor did he take your first French kiss. Part of your heart skipped a beat at how the bad boy had some gentleman in him. The ohhhs around you both brought you back to the present. You had just kissed Mattheo. In front of a group of your peers.
Feeling the heat in your cheeks, you averted your eyes while moving back to your spot. But before you took your turn you decided to make a quick exit. You couldn’t play on. You shouldn’t have played in the first place! Some groaned and protested of your choice to leave. But Ella saying she’d spin instead helped ease those around you.
It didn’t entirely matter to you. You were a mixed bag of thoughts and emotions. Escaping the party, which was in fine form, you headed to a bathroom. You need a moment of as much silence you can get so you could sort yourself out. Once in the nearest bathroom, you turned on the tap at the sink. Cupping the cold water you were about to splash your face but stopped, you remembered the make up you wore. Instead you let your hands cool before placing the cool, wet hands on the back and around your neck.
‘I’m an idiot!’ you thought with a groan, as reality sunk in.
After kissing Mattheo you practically ran from the circle of your peers. Who does that? No one had ever done that before. You knew that because there has never been any gossip of someone kissing and running. Until now. You will be the talk of the school. How pathetic you are to kiss the schools heart throb and then run away like a baby.
Then you replayed the kiss in your mind. Mattheo had been gentle, and not forceful. From the way other girls talk about him, he was meant to be some scoundrel that takes what he wants, but does it in a way that makes you want more. He might be a bad boy, but he still was respectful. You touched your lips with your fingers. It was a perfect first kiss. You smiled at that. Only for it to fall knowing you’d had ruined your chance by taking off like a spooked animal.
‘Good job’ you scolded yourself, looking at your reflection. “Just perfect” you huffed.
“You or the kiss?” Came a curious voice behind you, making you turn around and clutch the sink behind you.
Upon turning around you were greeted by the boy on your mind, Mattheo Riddle. He gave you a soft smile placing his hands in his pockets.
“Personally, I think both are perfect” his voice was soft and slightly echoed against the walls.
It took a few minutes before his words sunk in. Mattheo Riddle just said not only was your kiss perfect, so are you. No doubt the look on your face marked with confusion and some horror. He thought you to be perfect. Was he crazy? Possibly. Or was this some big joke? More likely.
“I...I don’t understand...” You said in disbelief. “I’m far from perfect...”
Mattheo gave a soft, genuine smile. “I think you are”. He slowly moves across the bathroom. “I think your caring, smart, thoughtful, attentive, adorably cute...and that was all before your change”.
He stopped before you as he finished his words. Once again you were floored. Mattheo has noticed you all along! He saw you when you thought you were invisible, or rather thought you were invisible. You always thought your friends, some of your house mates and teachers always saw you. You had only became visible when in your first broom riding class in first year when you fell off your broom while a few meters off the ground. Also the numerous times you had been a klutz and fallen down staircases, quiet ungraceful too. Being uncoordinated and smart, every mistake or accident got your peers laughing at you.
“I-I don’t understand” you said softly. “You noticed me before?” You asked, needing an explanation.
Mattheo brought his hand up and moved a bit of hair out of your face. “It’s hard not to when you were the first person I encountered on the train in first year. You were all alone in a carriage. Dressed like a boy with crazy hair” he chuckled.
A light bulb went off in your mind. How had you forgotten that moment? He had asked if he could share the carriage, and you had meekly said yes. You both sat quietly, studying the other. Finally Mattheo took the initiative to talk, though he had been rude. After seeing you jump, he realised you were nervous, maybe a bit scared.
“First time away from home?” He had asked with a sigh.
You nodded your head watching him with big (E/C) eyes.
“It’s like that” he offered with a softer tone of voice. “Your parents were sad to watch you go. But they were just like you, leaving their family to go to Hogwarts”.
Once again you nodded your head, but slowly.
“Look at it like this, you’re on an adventure” he sat back further with a genuine smile. “Every moment away from home you are learning, exploring and making memories, all stories to tell your parents when you see them”.
Mattheo had shown a moment of kindness to you. But looking back over the years there were other times he had been kind to you. From opening a door and letting you enter first, to helping take potion ingredients that are too high on a shelf down for you, to stopping you from falling into the lake a few times when students had tried to push you in. Mattheo Riddle had always noticed you and had been so kind.
“You were always kind to me...” You said slightly dumbfounded.
Mattheo playfully rolled his eyes. “Don’t let everyone hear you say that. I have a bad boy rep to keep intact”.
You laughed at his words. “Sorry, I won’t go broadcasting it”. Mattheo then laughed.
Once you both stopped laughed, you both looked at each other. You took this time to study the boy before you. He had changed so much since first year. He was cute back then but now he was handsome. Much taller now, you had to tilt your head up to look at the male before you. His gorgeous brown eyes shining with humour and delight, a rare sight to be seen, as they usually show coldness and boredom.
“You’ve changed so much since the tomboy with crazy hair” Mattheo chuckled.
You rolled your eyes, “shut up” you chuckled playfully pushing him.
Before you could retract your hand, Mattheo reaches out and took your hand in his. Watching you closely he brought your hand to his lips, leaving a chaste kiss to your knuckles. You felt your breath hitch at his ministrations. He was being charming, like he would with many other girls, but with you it was real.
“I didn’t mind the tomboy you. Nor did I mind the frumpy, nerdy look you had going” Mattheo stated, thumb caressing the back of your hand that was still in his hold. “But I would be lying if I said I didn’t like your new look. I want you to know I have always like you, the you on the inside”.
If your brain was working you would have either melted, knees would have gone week at his confession and actions. He was making it hard not to fall head over heels for the boy before you. Than you asked yourself why he followed you? Why he has said what he has?
“Why? W-why tell me this now...” You thought out loud.
“Isn’t it obvious?” Mattheo asked. “I thought I was being apparent, and I thought you were smart” he joked. “(Y/N/N), I like you”.
You were shocked. The school bad boy just admitted to liking you. And possibly liked you for sometime. Any girl would swoon and kiss Mattheo for such a confession. But you weren’t like those girls. You pulled back your hand and moved away from Mattheo, thinking of running from the room. Running was something you liked to do recently.
“Where are you going?” He asked watching you with slight worry but a lot of hilarity. “Going to run away again? Might have to call you Cinderella”.
You stopped and shot Mattheo a dirty look. “I’m not like Cinderella”.
“Yes you are, you ran after we kissed” he stated matter-of-factly walking towards you.
“I-I” you spluttered trying to figure out what to say as you move backwards, Mattheo moving with you.
Feeling your back coming in contact with a wall, you jumped. Mattheo taking no time, placing a hand on either side of your head blocking you in.
“No running away this time Cinderella” he said softly, holding your gaze with his deep brown eyes.
Seeing as you weren’t going to speak, or run, Mattheo moved his left hand to caress your cheek. The contact made you jump, but the soft movement slowly soothing you.
“I serious (Y/N/N). I like you. Past, present and future” his words held sincerity that made your heart flutter. “And I hope I’m part of that future...”
Mattheo’s words left you speechless. You had never heard him speak so much to you, let alone hear how much depth he had in him. The Hogwarts bad boy, Slytherin heart throb was opening up to you. Mattheo Riddle likes you. The ugly duckling, turned beautiful Swan, as stated by your friends.
“Are you going to say anything?” Mattheo asked, fear leaking into his voice. He of all people was the last you’d think to be self conscious.
Snapping out of it, you stood up straighter. “I like you!” You blurted out not thinking. Once realising what you just did you groaned and hung your head.
Mattheo started to laugh, but it wasn’t malicious. It was hearty and warm. As his laugh died down, Mattheo lifted your head up. He looked you in the eyes, nothing but warmth and joy in his eyes.
“You are too cute love” he said softly. “And I’m glad you like me back”.
You smiled threw your embarrassment. Before you could say anything, or try to say anything, Mattheo took the opportunity to capture your lips. Shocked you tensed up, but feeling him lace his fingers in your hair relaxed you. He was soft, tender with you. But then his tongue ran along your bottom lip, causing you to jump a little again.
Pulling back Mattheo looked at you reassuringly. “It’s alright love, no rush”.
Mattheo took you into his arms and held you close. You rest your head against his chest, muttering sweet things in your ear.
Unfortunately that was the moment a few girls walked into the bathroom, and came across you both. You all looked at each other, before you felt your face heat up and you pushed Mattheo away. Not waiting for him or the girls to speak, you took off out of the bathroom. Without skipping a beat, Mattheo took off after you and the girls found themselves giggling at what they walked into, or what they could have walked in on. If Mattheo’s reputation was correct.
Feeling a tad humiliated you didn’t listen to Mattheo and his calls to slow down or stop. You had decided you were done for the night. And hoped tomorrow’s gossip mill isn’t about you.
A/N: as always, happy for feedback :)
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you know I'm not even gonna read those questions I would like you to answer R, A, V, I, O, L, and well you'll already have answered I x) damn
R: Are there any writers (fanfic or otherwise) you consider an influence?
Yes! Glau inspired me to challenge myself with exploring styles other than the one I had been using for a long long while, and I'm still immensely grateful! I also still draw inspiration from Michael Scott and his Nicholas Flamel series, more for the storytelling and character building. Damn I need to try and read my old favourites again soon.
A: How did you come up with the title to Deserving?
Late at night after dishing out about 3-4k words and desperately wanting to post and not having a title. x) I don't remember exactly where it came from, but the title definitely came to me before the title drop moment. It always referred to 'deserving to be loved', but I couldn't tell you anymore how deep the thought truly went the day I decided on it. This fic evolved so, so much, and the meaning sort of evolved into the title the longer I went and built on the themes.
V: A secondary (or underrated) character you want to see more of in fic?
Most of the Zeldas, really, I want to see more of them!! Otherwise though, Hyrule! There is a severe lack of Hyrule-focused fic. This needs to be rectified.
I: Do you have a guilty pleasure in fic (reading)?
I'm gonna split the two Is :P Yes, absolutely I do, and it's both timeloop fics and "return to start with your memories intact"-fics. I have a soft spot for events being reshuffled by a character with knowledge, as cliche as it is.
O: How do you begin a story–with the plot, or the characters?
Mostly the characters! I usually think of a neat trait or an idea for a character first, and then build my story around that (which is why a lot of them lack direction in the plot and give me trouble with it later). I've only ever started with a plot idea a couple times, and I like it too, but I definitely am a character-driven writer.
L: What’s the weirdest AU you’ve ever come up with?
Probably the gamer AU where Mask and FD are siblings, FD sometimes takes over for Mask in games with the rest of the Chain to stomp everyone but barely talks, because Mask keeps the headset on. FD's real name is Ferdinand. Time is their dad. I should do more with this it was immensely fun to sketch out
I: Do you have a guilty pleasure in fic (writing)?
Long long long long introspective scenes. Putting my own spin of words on a recollection of a situation. It's so boring to read for anyone else, but I love doing it. Most of this ends up being cut and moved into a separate document during the editing process because it messes up the flow more often than not, but it's my comfort writing. Also, casual introduction banter scenes. There are introduction scenes of almost 2k length I have not published lmao, just because they usually head a oneshot and make it unnecessarily longer. Such are my woes
THERE YOU GO AZA U GOT THEM ALL I HOPE YOU'RE HAPPY THIS TOOK SO LONG
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fizzybugpop · 10 months
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For the awesome tism ask game 💚💚
8, 9, 12, 24, 25, 34
Okay bestie I know I said I deleted the app but my mistake I actually wasn't paying attention and DIDN'T so I'm going to real quick answer this and then hop to it!
8. If you have any, what are your special interests?
Okay so my most current special interest is, of course, the "with M*rkiplier" series (hoping to keep this out of main tags because I'm embarrassed teehee) and all related content to that. It's both an extremely welcomed but also HELLISH change from my previous special interest in SPN. Because on one hand, the "M*rkCU" (as many of us affectionately call it) is genuinely just fucking better is basically every way to SPN, but the major downside? Utter. Lack. Of content. Especially content that specifically caters to me and I want really badly!
I'm on the brink of making my own blog (which I was tempted to do while in the SPN fandom as well), but I'm just a nervous bitch.
Now that I mention it again though, I'm very tempted to take the plunge and go for it. Like, why not, right? Seeing as I plan to delete this app for a little while though it'll have to wait a minute longer, lol.
9. What was your first special interest?
Okay, usually when I'm asked this question, I think of the Sonic franchise. It's one of the earliest ones I can reach back into my memories of without having to think to hard and say with utter certainty that yes, that was a special interest.
However! With more thought put it it, I think my first special interest may have been merfolk, and by extention, the ocean. Something about merfolk has stuck to me no matter what, even into adulthood though I feel it's less intense now due to just...continuous disappointment with how merfolk get depicted by most people. It isn't dead though, rest assured, I still get excited seeing merfolk related content (especially in my fandoms).
And the ocean, man, that absolutely is sticking with me for the rest of my life, I think. It's such an incredible, awe-inspiring simultaneously terrifying and beautiful wonder! It's the fucking ocean!! I might incorporate it into my blog theme at some point when I get back. Maybe. We'll see!
12. Do you headcanon any characters as autistic? If you want, tell us why you headcanon them as autistic.
Okay I'm spinning this question around my head like it's a microwave, this is about to be a long-winded answer, so bear with me.
Some background: I've admittedly been suuuper hesitant to fully commit to the autistic label for the longest time before now.
Because despite the fact that I've known a lot about it, have friends with it/heavily suspect they have it (and I absolutely would never invalidate their experience especially when they match up with so many of the symptoms), many of whom suspected me of having it, my brother has it (and my mom said it came from her side of the family), and I had a reeeeeally good feeling that I did indeed have it, I still felt like I'd be an imposter by using the label myself. (Tale as old as time, canon event, etc etc, I know.) It was just yesterday I finally found a PDF for the autism DSM checklist and was like, "oh, yeah, this is definitely me." And has cemented me using this label with full confidence.
With that in mind, I very very rarely EVER saw myself in fictional characters. I could relate to them in some ways, or I'd feel attraction to them, but it was (and still is) an incredibly rare occurrence for me to actually look at a character and go "oh shit that's literally me fr!!".
That is until I got into SPN and C*stiel came into the story. He was the first character who ever provoked that reaction out of me and I DEEPLY related to him on SO MANY LEVELS to the point it ended up making me truly upset that the show seemed to be INCREDIBLY unfavorable toward him and I'm STILL salty about it. He deserved way better! (And by extention so did I, haha.) He is suuuuper autistic-coded to me, to the point I just consider it canon in my mind. It just fits.
I won't drag this out much longer but I do have another character I feel very strongly about headcanoning as autistic - which is The D*strict Att*rney/The Captain from the M*rkCU. Trust me, the hilarity of saying that isn't lost on me, but I stand by this so seriously in my head. This is my blorbo and they are SO fucking autistic, just like me, partly because they are me while simultaneously being their own character. (And go figure that by feeling this way about them, there is naturally an even fiercer lack of content that caters to me in the fandom, lmao.)
24. Do you have meltdowns?
From what I now understand about meltdowns - and as far as I can account for - no, I haven't experienced them. If I ever had one (or multiple) as a child it'd be up to my mom to confirm that for me as, largely due to C-PTSD, my memories of my childhood are an extremely hazy soup that blurs together.
(I'm not going to ask her anything about possible indications I was autistic as a child though, at least not this soon, because I'm deeply unsure how she'd react and by extention how helpful she'd be in that regard, just based on things she's expresses in the past.)
Considering how intense they sound though I am fairly doubtful I have experienced them, because I'm fairly certain I would remember it happening or at least surrounding factors, if the things I have retained are anything to go by.
25. What about shutdowns?
Oh my god, YES. I actually wasn't familiar with this term before last night so I DEEPLY appreciate you asking this, actually. It prompted me to look into it and this is definitely something that happens to me and it SUCKS so fucking bad, especially so when it occurs while I'm at work. It can even be hard to type of I'm feeling/what I'm thinking during when they're happening.
34. Do you enjoy hugs? Or are they sensory hell?
I absolutely adore hugs!! They're one of my favorite ways of showing and receiving affection, and I've been told I give very good ones, much to my delight <33!!
I'm very very much a sensory-seeking autistic who's more prone to understimulation (but I do and have experienced overstimulation as well and ohhh my god does it suck ass and I hate it).
This is also possibly influenced/is intensified by my touch-starvation. I'm very thankful for my current roommates because the two of them I've grown close to dish out physical affection very casually and often and I love and appreciate it so much!
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indecisive-v · 3 years
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NINJAMUFFIN DOING ANOTHER AMA ON TWITTER, HERE'S MORE SHIT FOR YA! keep in mind i'm just sharing the funkin related stuff, though i am including WAAAAY more than what i shared before 👍 go check out ninja's twitter profile for questions about stuff like ritz! questions in blue, answers in orange. if yall don't wanna read everything i MIGHT make a version of this post where i replace the answers with my own summaries of em (and if the questions are long, those too)
and here's a link to the ama tweet itself! dunno if it's still goin
Q: I figure the answer will be yes but do you have more plans to implement more guest appearances from people in the newgrounds community into FNF? Or are you all gunna focus on OG lore and stuff going forward
A: for guest appearances, I think we have always seen it as getting a healthy mix of both. PERSONALLY I'd like to lean towards having more OG stuff than guest stuff, BUT it's all a matter of what other boys think of that as well. I'm not the sole person working on game!
Q: Are you gonna release the full FNF game or are you gonna be releasing week after week? Like, are you gonna release week 8 or are we gonna wait some years until The Full Ass Game comes out?
A: Release plan for FNF right now is a few more updates or whatev to the 'demo' we have out right now, and then a long silence of probably no updates whatsoever until the full game is done (which will likely be a few years). That's partly why we made kickstarter for game.
Q: Hey so like, how much will Fnf cost after it's finished? And when will you ask the supporters what they want the game on?
A: It's all subject to change, but right now it prob gonna be standard 15-25$ lil steam indie game.
We will ask Kickstarter pledgers and whatnot what they want the game on SUPER close to when its released, to keep options open if we get onto anything like a console people want.
Q: 1. how was your day
2. are you releasing a week 8 song early like week 7, or are you goin full lockdown
A: I am doing GOOD today, and I think recently I've been good in general.
up to the mood, but so far we doing good about not having anything leak or whatev, so I think it'd be fun to have update come out with people not knowing what to expect at all. Build dat intrigue
Q: Will fnf ever get official plushies?? Seems like an untapped market
A: FNF plushies will prob happen some point, we have a lot of current merch stuff on our plates already though! (Mostly kickstarter type stuff, shirts, pins, posters, and all the physical OST stuff) Its a lot to sort out, but in time more and more stuff will happen. We r jus 4 boys!
Q: did you ever expect your game to blow up as it did? what was your first reaction to seeing it become super popular
A: FNF never had a humble moment, literally day 1 before the prototype even came out, the vid on twitter had like 5K likes overnight. Then when ludum dare version came out, it got 5K likes again, like it wasnt just a fluke. Was crazy, and def felt like somethin was different wit FNF
Q: Do you plan on getting other people to come in to help with the music? That seems like a lot of work to dump on one person, what with the erect mode and whatnot.
I guess the question could apply to all aspects of development. Will you be bringing on more people to help?
A: We definitely are getting help from other people. We are always keeping an eye on people for various different things. In terms of programming, already I've gotten 2 people (MtH and Geokureli) to help with certain Week 7 stuff (charting/polish, and loading stuff). Shit like dat
Q: Oh, also, will the Steam version be Workshop compatible? That'd really help streamline the process of downloading mods.
A: Steam version of FNF will likely NOT be Steam workshop compatible, because we want all the mods to NOT be spread out through different places. There WILL be modding support that is as streamlined as Steam workshop though. Mainly for non-steam versions of the game!
Q: Are there any chances that the game will have a physical release? Also any updates on a switch port? I remember one of you guys talking/joking about it.
A: Not impossible for FNF to get a physical release. We would want to see how far we could go with it though. I think it'd be super easy to do something wit people like LimitedRun games or whatev, but I think stuff like that can only go so far. I wanna see Funkin in mf Walmart!!!!!!
not that LimitedRun isn't going to be an option! Just we consider and pursue many different things! FNF release is years away, so we have time to think about everything. Whole mindset can be different just a few months from now.
Q: Out of curiosity, how are you dealing with all the popularity? It blew up so fast id barely be able to handle it if I was in your shoes.
A: The only way I've been able to handle it is having the other boys on the crew and being able to talk to them about all the overwhelmingness.
Part of it feels very lonesome, feels like NO ONE can come close to comprehending exactly how I'm feeling, except them. also other PALS!!!
Q: Do you own any of the bootleg FNF merchandise? Like any bootleg plushies or anything?
A: i dont, i genuinely think they r a waste of money, and I know any bootleg shit that gets made, we can prob go about and make it, and make it 100x cooler because we actually put effort into shit. bootleg shit just in it for the coin, so they aint gettin that from me
Q: How did you go about getting in contact with sr pelo for skid and pumps vocals?
A: Pelo i think was familiar and pals wit PhantomArcade a bit thru various Newgrounds things and collabs and whatnot.
pelo retweeted the first OG FNF posts first ever, and brought a LOT of attention to it. to pay him back, we put skid and pump in game! ask dave for more info prob
Q: what's the plan for having the full ass game open source if it's gonna cost money? couldn't people just download the source and compile the game for free?
A: when FNF is fully released, the full source code will be released as well.
the game will be DRM free so it will be way easier for people to redistribute the released/offical .exe instead of compiling it, so that's not the issue anyways. people will pay for things if they like it
Q: What are the chances of it getting on consoles like switch or Playstation, ps5 would definitely be my preferred way to play
A: it'd be a matter of hiring someone to build out backend stuff for those specific consoles. someone who knows their way around all the wacky code stuff, AND knows console hardware stuff. Then its just a matter of hittin up those console manufacturers (Sony, Microsoft, or Nintendo)
the CLOSEST one is SWITCH. pretty much all of that backend is already made, so it just a matter of gettin all that access and shit.
i think in any case though, there's a lot of NDA stuff required, i dunno how much we'd be able to talk about it even IF we get that stuf sorted
Q: any ideas of releasing it on epic store or another platform?
A: Right now, the only thing that is 100% confirmed and WILL happen is a Steam version, itchio version, and mobile versions on respective app stores. Other storefronts aren't out of the picture though, but we don't want to spread ourselves too thin with it.
Q: Will you continue using HaxeFlixel to make the rest of FNF?
A: yes, because it is what I'm the most technically proficient in, and generally is VERY flexible. just a matter of ME becoming a better coder. It's ALL open source, so if I need something done a certain way, either I can do it, or we can hire someone to do it.
Q: have you seen game theory's videos on your game yet and if so, what do you think about them? (not talking about his predictions because i dont want spoilers. i like mystery)
A: it is always good silly fun to watch the Game Theory vids about Funkin with some pals, and see what matpat thinks of the game. i lov the vids, but wish he used my face less! Or at least used a cuter pic of me like this one!!
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Q: Ok so: What does the future of FNF look like to you?
A: future of FNF is a rhythm game that not only exceeds every expectation that people have of it, but subverts most expectations and conventions as well.
Q: Do you plan on retouching on older weeks once the game is fully out? Like reanimating sprites, redoing some charting, updating the background, etc
A: retouching and probably overhauling certain aspects is almost definitely gonna happen. Everything is fluid and can be changed (and should be changed when necessary). i dont think anything should be too attached to, especially this early on in development
Q: I honestly do not care if the answer to this is vague as hell to keep surprises and shit lol but… Since Week 7 was the closest we’ll get to a playable girlfriend (still bf controlling tho), do you have plans to make girlfriend playable in spin-off things or just freeplay?
A: wouldnt be out of the picture for a playable GF, i don't think we've had some hard thing AGAINST it. just a matter of what we want out of the game, and what sort of story or whatev we could do with that concept
Q: How do BF and GF manage to meet famous newgrounds characters (such as pico, tankman and the others to come) like is this all in one universe/ timeline or are they being brought in?
A: i think they are all just there existing. i think there's a lot of wacky things in other media that try to justify crossovers, like MULTIVERSE bullshit or TIMELINE shit, but i dunno, its like subspace emissary. Captain Falcon and Olimar from Pikmin just hang out. Shit like dat
disclaimer that all lore shit is in phantomarcade head pretty much and maybe there is wacky dimensions or somethin
Q: Will the game have dlc?
A: its not too unlikely that we'd have expansions of some sort, but i mean right now we plan on packing in as much as we can into base game, and trying to make that as pure as possible.
if there is ANY dlc, i would personally want it to be 100% free updates
Q: How did you meet Phantom Arcade, Kawai Sprite, and EvilSker? And what do you think about the community and its controversies?
A: me and phantomarcade been fukin around NG for years so years and years ago we naturally crossed paths and became pals
about 2 years ago i found kawaisprites music on NG, and started talkin wit him, made Ritz wit him and we fell in lov
and evilsk8r i met cuz of FNF!!!
quik elaborate on evilsk8r, wanted artist for gamejam FNF was for (ludum dare), and OG person i asked wasnt available, so he referred me to evilsk8r, who I have never met or talked to before ever.
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squishyselz · 4 years
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Nothing compares to you
Pairing: VAV Lou x Female!Reader
Genre: Fluff/Best friends to Lovers AU
Word count: 1.4k
Summary: This year's spring is definitely going to be different. Not only the beautiful flowers will be carried away by the warm spring breeze.
A/N: This is my first story I have ever written so I hope you guys enjoy it :) I'm also open for any form of criticism so I can improve my writing. Also English isn't my first language so I hope you guys will understand.🌸
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"I don't know what I'd do without you Y/N!"
You raise your head and look at your best friend Lou, sitting across the table. "Just because I let you copy my homework... When are you going to start doing it yourself Lou?"
He rolls his big brown eyes "But you know I'm very busy at the moment. If I don't practice enough then how am I supposed to be an actor one day?"
Well he isn't wrong. He really invests a lot of his free time into acting lessons. It's his big dream after all. "Fine I can't just let that bubble burst" you giggle and poke the tall boy's nose.
Lou just smiles at your action and gets back to copying your answers onto his piece of paper.
After school you guys normally hang out at his place where you either be his acting partner or you insist on playing some video games.
This afternoon you're lucky and the two of you actually play a few rounds of Overwatch. A game Lou has recently discovered. It feels like hours have passed when he stands up and does some stretches. "That was fun" you say with a big smile on your face.
"Definitely but you still got a lot to learn. We almost lost every round Y/N" Lou says while scratching the back of his head. "Yes sir!" you salute him and stand up as well. He just smiles at your action and looks at his phone. "It's already past 10 pm so I suggest you better go home now Y/N or your parents are going to be worried again" he raises an eyebrow at you while trying not to laugh. Yes, Lou is your best friend but your parents didn't care much about that fact. They are very strict and didn't like it when you were hanging out with boys more than girls.
"Yeah yeah I know" you sigh "If only my parents would be a little less... well like they are now and my life would be so much easier" you grab your bag and start to head for the door of Lou's room as he suddenly takes your hand gently into his. "Y/N uhm you know that next week spring vacation starts so I was wondering if..." you look at him slightly confused "Lou? What's the matter?" your best friend just stands there, still holding your hand while blushing oh so slightly. He continues "well I know a beautiful place we could go and take some nice photographs." One of your biggest hobbies was photography. "And where exactly would this place be and especially what is there that I can take pictures of?" you ask him, still a little confused. "It's a flower field I have discovered recently. People told me that there would be a lot of rare and beautiful flowers. And I thought since you like photography so much we could visit it and take some pictures" His heart was beating faster with every word that left his lips. Yes, he is your best friend but what you didn't know yet is that Lou had a crush on you for a long time now. You smile gently at his invitation "Well I can't say no to such a great idea" Lou smiled happily and lets go of your hand "Now go home or you'll get yelled at again" he mockingly says. "Yeah yeah don't worry too much about that" you giggle slightly as you walk out of the door and onto your way home. Lou just lived a few houses away of yours so it only takes you a few minutes to reach it.
When you arrive at home you are lucky again as your parents are sound asleep. You sneak up the stairs into your room quietly and lay on your bed. The feeling of Lou holding your hand... the way he looked at you... Many thoughts about him, about the two of you, are racing in your head until you fall asleep.
The last week of college felt like it would never pass. Luckily it did after all.
"Why is college sooo haaaard" you sigh as you walk next to your tall best friend. He pats your head "Don't worry Y/N, we got some time off now" You smile up at him and nod your head "You're right... Let's just try and enjoy the time with no homework or studying until late at night"
Today you agreed to visit the flower field, Lou has talked about. However you have mixed feelings about it. The past week, Lou hasn't left your thoughts one time. Somehow you always have to think about him, his big brown eyes, his gummy smile whenever you do something silly... Just everything that made him so dear to you. You even noticed that your heartbeat increase whenever he would hug you or as just now pat your head. You always ask yourself one question - Am I in love? - This question was driving you crazy. For once you know Lou is your best friend and you trust me. So why not change that title to him being your boyfriend? At the same time you are scared because you don't know if he feels the same. So of course you're not just going to confess right away and risk your friendship.
You just don't know what to do about your heart, your feelings or your thoughts.
"Y/N!" you hear him yell from across the street.
You were waiting for him to come over so the two of you can walk to the flower field together.
After a short walk you already reach the field and were taken aback by how beautiful it was. So many different flowers are dancing with the warm spring breeze. Immediately you take out your camera and start to take lots and lots of pictures. "This place is absolutely amazing Lou!" you exclaimed. Lou watches you and smiles to himself. He then has an idea and starts picking some of which he thought were the most beautiful flowers in the field. You are too busy to see what he is up to. "Wow so many great pictures. That was the best idea e-" You're not able to finish your sentence as you feel something soft on top of your head. You gently touch it and realize it was a flower crown. "Yes that is definitely your style" Lou giggles as he takes your camera "And now smile"
A slight blush sits on your face as you smile gently into the camera. Lou takes a few pictures.
After that the two of you lay down into the flower field and look up at the clear blue sky.
All of this makes you nervous nonetheless. You turn your head to look at your best friend. He has his eyes closed, breathing slowly.
He looks so peaceful you think to yourself. Then suddenly a hand reaches out to you and pulls you into a tight hug. "L-Lou?" you stutter surprised. "Y/N..." he sighed and opens his eyes to look directly into yours. "All these flowers are beautiful but if you ask me, nothing compares to you" your heart feels like it stops for a moment. "..." you look at his flushed face not being able to say anything. "You're the most important person in my life Y/N and I know you may not feel the same as I do but my heart couldn't take it any longer. I need to tell you how I feel" he continues softly. Your head was spinning, your heart was racing. You look into his beautiful eyes and just smile. But it wasn't just a simple smile. "Looks like you've won this round" you slightly giggle at him. He gives you a confused look. "What do you mean Y/N?" "I mean that I feel the same about you silly" you boop his nose with yours gently, lips not touching each other. He almost doesn't believe his ears. You were also in love? With him?
He still holds you in his arms as his lips gently find their way onto yours. It was a simple kiss but it felt sweeter than anything for the both of you.
You look at him completely blushing "D-Does that mean that... we're a couple now?"
Lou just smiled at you and says "Of course my sweetheart" You're heart almost skipped a beat after hearing this nickname "Hey who allowed you to already nickname me" you pout slightly.
He pinches your nose softly. "I did and now let's just enjoy spring together"
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voxofthevoid · 5 years
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Oh man I was reading "I'm a ghost, You're and angel" for the 10000 time, and there was a little interaction that just got my brain spinning, where Steve asks Bucky if he's on a honeypot mission. What would it be like if the answer was yes? Bucky definitely enjoying the sex and /enthusiastically/ consenting, but at the same time there's an undercurrent of like... he's saying yes because he wants to, but he would still say yes if he didn't want to. Because sometimes bosses are just like that, man.
Hello, there’s a fun question. Grab a seat, anon, we’ll be here a while!
So that question is kind of a pivotal moment for the story in terms of tone and content.  The plot of i’m a ghost, you’re an angel is what it is because Bucky said yes to that question because it makes honesty the basis of their evolving relationship. Not honesty in the sense of complete disclosure but more of this tacit understanding that they both have about each other. So Steve knows that Bucky has orders to spy on him, but Bucky also knows - he’s not 100% sure, but 99.8, let’s say - that Steve knows what Fury wants, and again, Steve knows Bucky knows Steve knows.
Typing that gave me a headache, and I apologize for what it will do to you.
And what tips them both into this unspoken understanding is that question. Is Bucky fucking Steve on Fury’s orders? Nope, they can move on. Steve, who’s been tentatively seeing Bucky as a possible ally, pretty much decides at that moment that Bucky’s on his side and his loyalty to SHIELD is the problem if he wants Bucky to join the Avengers. That’s his angle, from that point onwards. It’s why most of the conflict - which is sparse to begin with because let’s face it, I write more porn than plot - is external. Bucky’s easy to seduce to the dark side because he very much wants to be there, with Steve and the Avengers.
Now, if we take that question and make its answer yes, then we’ll have a whole lot of complications, which I wouldn’t have been able to finish in 3 chapters tbh.
Scenario #1 - Steve asks whether it’s a honeypot and Bucky admits that it is, but that he’d sleep with Steve anyway of his own will.
In this case, we have the same kind of honesty as in the fic, except that undertone of “he would still say yes if he didn’t want to” is there, and Steve would be very aware of it. He wouldn’t have sex with Bucky at the point he did in the fic and would probably be working through his own issues about fucking him in his apartment, early in chapter 1. Meanwhile, Bucky would be - well, very thirsty. UST galore. Natasha would be the definition of done, and Clint would just cackle in private. They’d end up in similar straits as in the fic ultimately; they’d just take a longer, more curvy path to resolve their personal matters as opposed to the professional side of it. Because it wasn’t just the process of falling for Steve that got Bucky to switch sides, it was also what Steve saw in him as a person and an agent, and how the Avengers worked together.
Scenario #2 - Steve asks whether it’s a honeypot and Bucky convincingly lies that it isn’t
Scenario 2.5 exists where Bucky lies but unconvincingly. But that's not relevant because the plot would wither and die a very quick death there.
Okay, so, this one would be a long fucking fic. We have Bucky who’s very much attracted to Steve but also cool with fucking him on SHIELD’s orders. We already know he’s been on honeypot missions before, that he’s decent at it, and it would be easier with Steve because Bucky doesn’t have to convince him that the attraction is real because it is real. Problem will be later on, once Bucky starts to fall for Steve while also developing a soft spot for what he has seen of the Avengers.
I think the split in the plotline would be the end of chapter two, where instead of telling Steve that Fury sent Bucky to gather info - which they both know Steve already knows - Bucky would confess that he lied to Steve and that the mission was a honeypot.
I don’t have a clear idea of how exactly things would proceed, but there would be angst and temporary separations. Steve would do what Bucky asked and terminate his deal with Fury. Bucky would return to SHIELD and pine.
Pine a lot.
And then, I don’t know. More interactions during missions that just happen to intersect, ill-advised passion-fueled sex, fraught conversations under gunfire, all that fun shit. The fic would definitely need an Angst with a Happy Ending tag.
Scenario #3 - Bucky decides to play the long game, doesn’t tell Steve at the end of chapter 2 that it’s a honeypot, and pretends to defect from SHIELD
In terms of plot, we’d have the entirety of i’m a ghost, you’re an angel as it is, with certain changes at the beginning of chapter 3. The interior monologue would be a very different beast though. Bucky’s characterization would also be significantly different, though still in line with what we see in if you’re looking for jesus.
The sex would be Complicated in that they both want it but:
Bucky’s still on a mission and would’ve said yes either way
Steve doesn’t know and thinks Bucky’s doing this solely out of personal interest
Dubious Consent tag, anyone?
And after the plot-as-we-know-it ends, things would get a lot more complicated, especially in Bucky’s head. Caught between SHIELD and Steve but in a way far more intense and with higher stakes than the series.
There would be one or two scenes of Thou Hast Betrayed Me and the likes. Would it end happy? Yeah, probably, because I’m predictable like that, but then, my definition of a happy ending can accommodate a lot of fucked-upery so there’s that.
I won’t be writing any of these scenarios, but if anyone wants to give it a shot, go right ahead.
[Also, I’m scheduling this for a few hours later so that it won’t get buried in my queued posts]
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gtsvnbys · 6 years
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a whole new world
prince!jackson x royal tutor!you
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so prince!Jackson
he's the most outgoing, happy, cheerful prince ever to be introduced to the kingdom
the public absolutely adores his positive attitude and caring, considerate manners towards everyone—royal or not
he's always on the move, so he's never in the visiting kingdom for a long time, which makes everyone miss him even moreeee
he lOVES LEARNING NEW THINGS
in every country he visits, he tries to learn the basics of their language
it may be a bit rusty and there's wrong grammar stuff, but he makes the effort and it definitely shows:)
adorably handsome and suave at the same time
he is incredibly humble and and grateful for the working staff and crew after dinners and ball, he tries to help the staff clean up by taking things to the kitchen for them
he also is sure to thank everyone for an amazing night
his role as an ambassador for his kingdom requires him to travel to many countries and know everyone on the royal court
so when he first sees you standing by the entrance when he lands in a new kingdom, he panics
bc he doesn't know your name
he intensely stares at your young face, locking eyes with you for a moment, before he hears someone with a familiar voice next to you
"ah! SOMI!" his attention is diverted towards her as he wraps her up in his arms, lifting her feet off the ground and spinning her around in the air
princess jeon somi is basically his kid sister, the only royal daughter in the royal kingdoms younger than him
and like a sister, she dislikes affection from her older brother
"jaCKSON!" she swats her arms on his back as he gently sets her down on her feet
in addition to you and somi, there's royal assistant jiwoo, who tsks her tongue at jackson
jackson formally bows to all of you, thinking you're another visiting royal, "excuse my behavior, somi, jiwoo. I wasn't aware you were entertaining another royal, excuse my behavior, princess..."
but instead, he sees the hem of your skirt hit the ground, looking up to see you curtsy to him, "I am (y/n), a tutor to the princess"
jackson is taken aback, "a tutor?"
you stand up quickly, your eyebrows knitted together in offense, "I am an educated woman, is something wrong with that?"
"n-no!" jackson immediately backtracks, "I think knowledge i-is beautiful! and everyone should be allowed to learn more about the world and the fact that you are a tutor is amazing! I didn't mean anything negative at all, there should be more people like you, eager to learn and teach, thank you for passing on your wisdom"
"oh," now you're taken aback, "uh thank you" 
he's smiling at you warmly and your cheeks tint themselves a light pink as jiwoo clears her throat, "prince jackson, the other diplomats are meeting in the study right now"
"right! I'll get going! I'll see you both later, somi, (y/n), excuse me" he bows and jiwoo directs him towards the study
you're still frozen when somi glances at you, a smirk on her lips, "(y/n)? you alright?"
"huh? yes!" you beam a smile at her, "let's start our lesson! today is all about economics, the mathematics and logistics behind the production, distribution and consumption of goods and services!"
you couldn't stop smiling to yourself as prince jackson's words echoed in your mind
later that night at dinner, the table is filled with much laughter and smiles thanks to jackson's colorful storytelling about his adventures all around the world
when all the heads of royalty and the visiting diplomats leave the room for bed, you usually stay behind and help clean up with the kitchen staff
and you're surprised to see the visiting prince helping some of the elder ladies, "prince jackson, shouldn't you be off for bed?"
"I will be, after this" jackson carefully stacks the placemats and folds the linens as you set away the candles and the metal trays, "and you don't have to call me 'prince jackson,' just 'jackson' is fine"
you nod, "pri—jackson, do you always do this?"
"this? of course, I don't think doing simple things like cleaning up or housework is 'beneath someone's station,' as others have referred it as. my mother always taught me good manners, I just want to do right by her and myself"
you lead the way into the kitchen, "(y/n), how did you start tutoring somi?"
you launch into the story of being scouted at your university, being the only female tutor well-versed in many of the school's subjects
jackson's in awe of your intelligence and knowledge, so he prods you with more questions about yourself
he ends up walking you to your room, the game of 1 million questions sadly coming to an end as he kisses your hand and bows goodbye to you
your heart has never beat this fast bc of a simple gesture
the next morning you and somi finish a morning lesson, there's jackson outside the door 
he offers to take you both out on an adventure in the somi's kingdom, but bc somi is busy with her other princess duties, it's just you and jackson roaming around
somi's texting you nonstop bc she's bored with everything but she's also keeping an eye on you two bc she has a feeling that someone likes someone and bc she wants to be in the loop
you and jackson dress casually with only jackson's guard watching you from close distance
jackson offers to buy you various foods, but you don't want him to spend money on you
he buys it anyways bc "he wants to eat it" but gives it to you anyways as he runs away from you to prevent you from giving it back to him
he likes walking with you into the open markets and bookstores, following behind you as you wander in and explore things on the shelf
at the end of the day, jackson walks you to your room again and kisses the back of your hand, leaving you grinning madly as you shut the door
somi: so how was your date? [10:23pm] 
you: it wasn't a DATE [10:28pm]
you: but I had a very good time:) [10:28pm]
somi: (Y/N)!! [10:30pm]
somi: how much of a good time, huh?? ;)))) [10:31pm]
you: soMI [10:32pm]
on days when you’re not available or out of town, jackson eagerly awaits your return he spends his time split between conducting diplomatic business, walking around the city square and helping ppl, or sulking talking to somi
somi: (y/n), you should come back tonight [9:12pm]
somi: jackson keeps asking me what time you’re coming back and keeps moping when I say I don’t know [9:13pm]
"sooo somi," jackson's avoiding eye contact with her as he asks her about her plans for the day, which is nothing but lessons with you, "would you, uh, mind if I sat in on your lesson with (y/n) today?"
she crosses her arms with a small smirk, "why? don't you have any meetings or appointments to get to?"
"no, not today, I have nothing planned" 
he secretly cleared his whole schedule
he quickly shakes his head "I just want to… to get to know what normal palace life is like! I want to see what a day in the life of jeon somi is like"
"mhmm sure" 
somi is 110% sure he's only going to lessons bc he wants to spend time with you, but she don't say anything else
you're writing on a chalkboard as they both slip in quietly behind you, "somi! you didn't forget your language book right?" she hums innocently as you turn around and you're caught off-guard, "ah—jackson! w-what are you doing here?" 
you're easily flustered by his appearance in the study room
"I just wanted to sit in on your lesson with somi, if that's alright with you, but I can leave if I'm—"
"n-no no! you're fine, you can stay, just don't distract somi" he nods and takes a looks at somi's book, "or me" you mumble under your breath
somi disguises a "too late" with a cough, having heard your mumble
but you switch into tutor mode and start the first part of your language lessons
jackson is v attentive during your lesson, watching you with intrigue and curiosity and waiting to ask a question or two at the end of your lecture 
when your back is turned and somi is working on a worksheet, jackson helps fill out the answers for her
"don't think I didn't see you helping somi with the answers" you say out loud to him as somi takes a restroom break
"I don't know what you're talking about" jackson's just simply smiling at you whilst sitting on your desk
"I know you can speak multiple languages, but you should let somi learn mandarin on her own"
he starts saying something in mandarin about helping you but then he switches to cantonese
you don’t know much cantonese, only the alphabet and some basic greetings
but you can infer that it’s something about him and you
"huh? what did you say?" you move closer to jackson, but lean back against your chalkboard
jackson's eyes go wide, "you don’t understand?? I thought you knew everything though!!"
honest to god, he does think you know everything, that’s how highly he thinks of you:)
"I don't know everything, but I did know that was cantonese" you remark to him, "what did you say again?"
"oh nothing important,” he says, "maybe I can give you lessons... in cantonese, I mean" he quickly adds
"well, I wouldn't mind that at all" you say, a small smirk on your lips
he tilts his head closer to you, keeping eye contact with you until you notice his eyes dart to your lips
romantic tension is buildingggg!!
jackson's leaning in so close till somi opens the door to the room with a shout, "back! am I interrupting anything?"
jackson retracts away and shakes his head, "no, nothing!" 
you turn around and pretend to wipe something off the board, hiding the small frown on your lips, "let's begin again"
when you let the two royals out of your lesson, somi teases jackson in the hallway, "you like (y/n), admit it!"
"somi, not so loud—"
"I saw that whole exchange between you two before you guys noticed me! you said tried asking her out in cantonese, jackson wang, admit it! you like (y/n)!"
"okay, okay! shhh!" he cups his hand over her mouth until she agrees to keep quiet
somi agrees to keep her mouth shut, but she decides to help play matchmaker with you two
"royal ball?"
"yes, you are invited as a guest under my name to next week's ball" somi states, flipping the pages of the novel
you narrowed your eyes in confusion, "it's for potential suitors to mingle around and ask for a person’s hand in courtship, all eligible bachelors and bachelorettes will be there"
somi agrees to dress you up and everything, more excited for her plan to commence than anything
on the night of the ball, after somi helps you get ready, you spot jackson coming out of your tutoring room, closing the door behind him as he jogs up to you
"wow, (y/n)! you look—" jackson has this look of amazement and delight in his eyes as you twirl around in the spectacular gown, making you forget about asking why he was in your tutoring room
seeing you look so beautiful almost makes him forget that he’s not the one escorting you:’(
the jeons arranged the pairings and they probably set him up with a royal princess
but when the announcer reads off the next pairing to go down the stairs together, "miss (y/n) (l/n) of the jeon family, escorted by prince jackson wang"
somi nudges jackson with a smirk, "you’re welcome" 
you and jackson lock eyes and you both begin to walk towards each other, wide smiles on your faces
he kisses your hand as he bows deeply to you, "ready for tonight, princess?"
you blush at the affectionate title as you curtsey and place your hand in his, "ready, my dear prince"
jackson continues to lead you around the ballroom, your arm threaded thru his and his hand firmly set over yours as he introduces you to everyone there
many of them assume you’re an adopted daughter of the jeons or that you’re jackson’s girlfriend or that you’re a princess from a far off kingdom or that you’re the woman jackson is courting aka jacksON’S GIRLFRIEND
so you give them a pleasant shock when you tell them you’re somi’s tutor, "it’s just... you’re so beautiful, and you’re just a tutor?" they all say backhandedly
you plaster on a fake smile on your lips, "I firmly believe that one’s beauty isn’t found in their appearance, but rather in the knowledge and wisdom they share. being ‘just a tutor’ isn’t a role one should take lightly, as they say ‘knowledge is power’"
jackson loves how composed and poised you are, even when you’re absolutely seething inside
he glares at everyone who doubts whether or not you should even be here at the royal ball
you impress everyone with your elegance and grace and intelligence and fluency in multiple languages
and jackson’s absolutely delighted to have the most amazing woman on his arm
he then introduces you to his groups of friends who happen to also be the other princes from the neighboring kingdoms
princes jaebum and mark keep to themselves and enjoy your company, watching jackson stare at you in amazement as you make conversation with them and him
prince jinyoung adores you, as he finds your intelligence a breath of fresh air when you mention something from the same novel he finished reading
princes bambam and yugyeom each ask you for a dance with them but jackson just pulls you away from them and into another dance with him and only him
jackson doesn’t like sharing you
dancing with him is easy, it feels like second nature being with him
he LOVES being this close to you and being able to wrap his arm around your waist
he spins you around so much that it makes laugh so hard and it leaves you super dizzy, so you gotta lay your head on his shoulder;)
he leaves to get you water when you spot somi talking to her fifth potential suitor across the floor and something clicks in your head, "jackson, why aren’t you talking to any of the other royal women tonight? you’ve spent this whole evening with only me"
"what’s wrong with that?" he shrugs
"but isn’t this night for courtship and marriage proposals?" 
"mhmm" 
you’re still very suspicious, "shouldn’t you be courting someone? or asking for their hand in courtship tonight?"
"I was planning to ask someone special but—" 
"but what...?" you wait for an answer, but jackson bites his lip till his expression changes
"wait! close your eyes" you close your eyes as he begins to pull you along, "wait, actually not yet, follow me first"
jackson leads the way back up the stairs, back to in front of a very familiar room, "and we are outside my tutoring room because...?"
he opens the door and on your board are cantonese characters written on the board with different sized blank lines next to a bubble that says ‘jackson’s cantonese lesson #1’
you look to jackson, "what is this?"
he smirks, "my very first cantonese lesson with you, and for the first exercise, you have to translate this phrase from cantonese" he taps a cantonese dictionary on your desk, "use this and solve the riddle"
"why must I do this?"
"just do it!!" he excitedly nudges you towards the board and you melt at his smile
after a while, you manage to figure out what each character means and build a phrase from it
especially with jackson helping you turn to the right page and everything
"‘could I take/have your a hand in a courtship?’" you stare at it for a minute, repeating it over and over bc something about the phrase seems off??
"oh wait, let me fix it!" jackson adds things to your translation, changing it to read "‘dear (y/n), may have your hand in courtship? -sincerely, jackson’"
"and the answer is..."
you’re too busy wrapping your arms around jackson to answer
xx
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