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talesofateenagedramaqueen · 3 months

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feb. 23, 2024

okay I had to ask for the date, that's the only reason it's accurate this time. "oh, why don't you just look at your phone?" because I never think to. maybe its weaponized incompetence idk, but I'm not a 30 man baby married to a woman who might as well be his mommy so is that a legitimate worry to have? I'm a shitty writer but no one is reading this except me. Dammit, why do I have a perfectionist streak if I can't even make it work for me.

my neuroses have neuroses.

it's never going to be my year. sometimes I don't think I can even make something my day. maybe I just gotta....live in the moment. damn cliches, most of them wind up being true. it's so cheesy! but the time of person I am, I'm going to worry about something and then become so worried that I my fight or flight instinct comes in (which is so totally unfair because my trauma is like, as mundane as it can get, and I don't mean that in a self depreciative sort of way, it's very true) and I either choose flight or freeze. the only people I fight with are usually people who don't even deserve it.

I'm a little lost puppy and I feel older in a jaded way but I also feel younger than my peers. but most of my peers aren't even living lives that I feel jealous of so WHY DO I CARE. I care abbot things that don't matter and then that leaves no space for things that actually do.

I need to move out and start over. get away from living with my parents in this same old town, because I feel so much better when I'm away from it all.

though, it doesn't count...if I'm with my family... it's not entirely their fault but dammit, its not entirely mine either. I'm not a bad person I'm just also not a very good one. to quote my own mother, "I suck at life." to quote myself, I'm just "a bit unfortunate."

I need to stop explaining myself to people. and myself. I actually have no clue why I do it in the first place. maybe the insatiable need to be liked? I am a Leo after all. but I'm also unique and hyper independent. do I be myself all the time? kind of. we should all strive to be ourselves, but a better version. what does the better version of myself look like?

hah, look at me, using a Tumblr blog as a journal, trying to be "cool" instead of "edgy and unique". I'm holding too tightly to the past but I don't NEED to let it go. just, allow more space for the present and future.

okay, here comes the really fun part: the venting. love this for me, I'm letting the anger flow in and then flow out again. I'm a fire sign, and more importantly, I'm a miller. the anger comes in quick bursts of flames and then dies down. I don't want to be the type of person to hold onto grudges and bottle everything up. there has to be an appropriate outlet for it. well, journaling of course. maybe angry music? do I write it myself? sing it out loud? I guess all of the above works.

(btw, what's the word limit on this? I've been going on for like, a while. if it cuts me off I'll be so upset. and then ill remember that I refuse to read this back anyways so its like, actually not a big deal. how do I validate other people's emotions when they like, trigger me? man, maybe I just have to step away from the moderator role. seriously, when has it done me any good? I value loyalty more, but I also value kindness. ugh, everything requires balance and my whole being like, physically and spiritually rejects it.)

like sorry g but I'm not a shit talker and its unfair that u expect me to be. it's unfair of me to invalidate ur feelings, but does that count for every time? u take it as me being holier than thou and invalidating but not every person u shit talk has actually wronged you. tho, I suppose its on me to know the difference and respond accordingly. I refuse to feel guilty anymore, living in the moment you know? next time I'll take a minute and think. I may not be good at it at first but I'll make a effort and that has to be enough bc its all I have to give.

and why was last night so awkward! I guess she gave me the same energy I give her but she's the one with that problem! I don't care that she was more subdued but apparently she hates it when its her which means...she hates it when I do it. but I don't mind either way! like sorry, but my depression isn't about you and your depression isn't about me. I at least realize that. and god fucking dammit but I wish everyone would realize that I'm sad and I'm fucking trying, I try so hard every day. living as I am is the most uncomfortable feeling. like a constant headache, or persistent nausea. you know when you're having a really bad day? well every god damn day is a bad day for me. I don't get good ones, only good moments and then the rest suck. "your mental illness is your own problem to deal with" yeah and I don't make it anyone else's problem except my own! and my parents... but come the fuck on, no I don't want to go to the bars. I don't want to do anything, you're so right, its bc I'm SAD!!!! depression makes you a buzzkill, who would have thought. be grateful I'm still kicking, bc if I had the capacity to Kermit I would have ages ago! I wish I had to guts to sometimes. I don't, probably never will, and its kind of fucked up that if I were sadder part of me would feel better. what if I just gave up entirely? I'm capable of giving up even more, I assure you.

ugh, this is mentally exhausting. I think that's enough for one day.

peace out <3

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rogue-durin-16 · 3 years

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FIREWORKS AND STREAMERS

Request: I have been insecure about my curly hair lately and was wondering if you can you write something with one of the weasley twins where the reader is insecure about her curly hair and one of the twins makes her feel better.

Pairing: Fred Weasley x Hufflepuff!Reader

Genre: fluff

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Requested by: @wildcat1434

Fred Weasley: @whiskeyn-rain @lumos-solemn

Permanent taglist: @elia-the-bibliophile @randomparanoid @karlthecat15722 @thebutchersdaughtersblog

Warnings: none

A/N: So like, incoming fluff bc this idea was cute and sometimes I do be needing fluff, that's about it, enjoy <3

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The relationship between me and my hair had always been... Bumpy, you could say.

There were periods in which I would find it quite lovely; during those times I would let my curls free, showing them off with a proud demeanor, knowing my hair was unique. Those times began to turn less and less usual since the middle of third year, though they were still there.

However, after the summer prior to my sixth year, those moments had banished; I only wished to hide my hair, and my friends ended up noticing. They told me surely there would be a spell or potion able to change my hair.

As if they had summoned it, the next day in Transfiguration, Professor McGonagall introduced us to what seemed like my salvation; Crinus Muto, an advanced spell that modified the caster's hair with no restrictions.

My best friend advised me against using it, claiming it wouldn't help my insecurity— if only, it would worsen it.

I really wanted to do as she had told me and completely dismiss the spell's existence, but two nights after I had a big mental breakdown about it, caused by the most stupid thing ever.

"Is Weasley staring at you or am I blind?" One of my friends whispered, her eyes trained on the Gryffindor table.

I didn't even bother to look up, not wanting to know whether it was true or not, before responding with a quiet "You're blind."

"I mean, it's hard to tell with two rows of students between us but," She nudged me, urging me to avert my gaze from my dinner and redirect it to Fred. "it kinda looks like he's... staring."

Curiosity killed the cat, I guess. My eyes finally left my plate and were, in fact, met with Fred's brown ones. As soon as they met, though, he looked away, pretending to be focused on his food, just like I had been doing seconds ago.

"Of course he's staring." Hannah Abbot, who sat right in front of my friend, commented with her mouth full. "Have you seen your hair?" She swallowed her food, looking me up and down before adding, "No offense, but it's an absolute mess." My eyes opened widely in shock at her bluntness. "You should take care of it, really."

"Has someone ever told you you're an ill-mannered bitch, Hannah?" I heard my friend talking back at the younger girl while I got up and started to make my way out of the Great Hall.

Of course, I didn't see Fred shooting up and attempting to go after me; ultimately he decided to stay in his place, since he saw my friend walking out too.

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I was very aware of all the pair of eyes that had been laid on me the very moment I entered the greenhouse where we would be doing the Herbology tasks.

When I had met my friends at the Hufflepuff common room that morning, I had received divided opinions about my straight hair. At first I had been very convinced that it looked way better than my curly hair, but seeing my friends' reaction, I wasn't that confident about it anymore.

I didn't have time to undo the spell before class, so I decided to go along with it and see how the day unfolded.

I took a deep breath, my eyes trained on the ground as I made my way to an empty seat; maybe there weren't that many people staring, maybe it was just my anxiety.

I finally gathered the courage and looked up, nervously scanning the glasshouse so I could shake off my fears.

There was only a couple of my peers staring, which would have put me at ease, if one of them wasn't Fred Weasley.

On top of it, of course, he wasn't even trying to be subtle, it was almost as if he wanted me to notice his judging eyes; I could feel his gaze on me for the entire class.

The instant Professor Sprout dismissed us, I shoved everything in my bag and left the greenhouse, thanking a couple of Gryffindors who complimented my hair on my way out.

Again, I didn't notice Fred leaving the class as soon as he could to run after me.

I threw my bag against a tree near the lake shore and, as I fell against it, I heard someone jogging in my direction.

"In a hurry to sit by the lake, Y/l/n?" I followed the tall ginger with my eyes while he circled me and sat down by me. "You alright?"

"I just needed a break from... People." I vaguely explained, focusing on the water instead of on the boy besides me.

"Understandable." He hesitated for a second before adding, "Do you want me to leave?"

"No, it's fine." I surprised myself at how calmed and collected I sounded, as if I wasn't chatting with my crush.

"What happened to your hair?" His genuinely curious inquiry took me aback, and I struggled to find something to answer.

"Why?" My heartbeat picked up, anxiety inundating me once more. "You don't like it?"

"It looks weird." Fred looked at me up and down with a grimace. "You don't... Look like yourself." I was about to enter fight or flight mode, but he seemed to notice, and panic made its way to his face. "But it doesn't matter what I think," he was quick to add, his eyes wide open as if he knew he had said something he should have not. "I mean— I think it shouldn't matter, if you like it, that's great— I mean, you don't need my opinion about that either!"

"Calm down, I understand." I tried to reassure him, before his rambling drove the both of us crazy. "Can I tell you a secret?" He nodded with pursed lips, surely afraid he would fuck up if he spoke again. "I've been very insecure about my hair lately— like, very." I sighed. "My best friend told me not to straighten it, but last night I got a not so nice comment and—"

"So that's why you left?" I nodded, tugging my sleeves. Fred went silent for a moment, and then cleared his throat and scooted closer to me. "I know this won't do much, but I really love your hair. Kinda reminds me of fireworks and streamers." He gestured around his own head, mimicking the fireworks' movement. "Dunno I think is fun and pretty awesome." I raised my brows at him in surprise. "Like you."

"Aw, that's very sweet." He offered me a sheepish smile as I felt my cheeks blushing. "It does a lot, actually." I confessed, fidgeting with my rings. "I guess I kinda needed to hear something positive about my hair."

"Well, whenever you need to hear something positive about your hair," he pointed at himself. "I'm your man." He winked at me and I let out a chuckle. "I can also tell you positive things about you in general, but that has a price."

"And what is it?"

"You'll have to let me buy you a drink at The Three Broomsticks this Saturday." I tried not to let panic slip through my recently eased demeanor; was he asking me on a date? "And give me a kiss after." He wiggled his brows at me and my face turned red. "the kiss is negotiable."

I casted my gaze down, fixing it on my shoes, not sure of what I was supposed to say at that. His foot tapping mine snapped me out of my thoughts.

"So?" My eyes traveled to him once more, only to find his studying me already. "What do you say, Y/l/n?"

"Well," I shrugged, trying in vain to play nonchalant. "Seems like an affordable price, so it's fine by me."

"I'll pick you up after lunch, yeah?" Before I could agree, he gasped, his eyes going wide. "I'm a genius."

"Come again?" I frowned, confused as his sudden frantic behavior.

"Don't mind me, love." He jumped up and jogged towards the castle, leaving me puzzled in there. I was about to grab a book from my bag when Fred rushed back, crouched down and pecked my cheek. "Your hair's amazing." He assured me. "See you!" My fingertips graced my now flushed cheek as he headed off.

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I was finishing my lunch when two towering redheads entered the Hall running; while George, slowed down, Fred made a beeline to the Hufflepuff table, his casual clothes already on.

"Ready?" He asked breathless.

"Yeah— you didn't have lunch, did you?" I pointed out, getting up to stand in front of him.

"No, but I'll eat something later—" his eyes roamed over my carefully picked outfit before stating, "You look... very pretty."

"Why, thank you." I offered him a smile and looked over my shoulder at the Gryffindor table, where his friends were very attentive to all we did. "You sure you don't wanna eat something?"

"Hundred percent." He tilted his head towards the gates. "shall we?" He prompted to walk before him, and it was then that I realized he had his hands behind his back. Once we were out in the yard, he tugged my hand and made me turn to him. "I made something for you."

"You didn't have to." Was the first thing that came to my mind when I heard his words. Then the wording dawned on me; he didn't get me something, he made me something. "What is it?"

"So, you know that I told you your hair reminded me of fireworks and streamers?" I nodded, not quite knowing where he was going with that. "Well—" he then showed me what his back was hiding; a delicate, tiny firecracker with my name written on the side. "George helped me so I could finish it on time."

"I'm—" at my loss of words, I could only let out a happy laugh. "This is so cute— am I supposed to ignite it?"

"Duh!" I gently pushed his shoulder in response to his teasing. "Do you know how to do it?"

"I've seen you do it plenty of times." I admitted, grabbing the firecracker with one hand and my wand with the other; it looked so pretty, it was a pity I'd have to ruin it.

With a brief firemaking spell, the firecracker set off. Fred pulled me back slightly before it happened, though.

I was in awe at the beautiful fireworks before us, which looked like a color-changing, expanding version of my hair.

When the colors died out, I turned to Fred, whose attention was already on me, awaiting for a reaction. Surely, he was not expecting the kiss he got, but he didn't complain either; while my hands rested on his chest, his traveled to cup my cheeks before I could pull away.

"So you liked it?" He questioned quietly against my lips.

"I loved it." I whispered back with a wide smile. "You're a sweetheart." I pecked his lips before retreating. Holding his hand in mines, I made my way back into the castle. "We're not leaving until you have lunch."

"You are a sweetheart." He responded, following my lead without offering resistance. "By the way, your hair looks gorgeous." The corners of my lips twisted into a bigger smile at the sweet words he spoke only for me to hear as we went back into the Great Hall.

Maybe my hair wasn't that bad after all.

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frenchtoastie · 3 years

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15, 24, 47?

15. How fast do you cum? What’s your record?

Well, I really love edging so I can last a while, HOWEVER like on an average basis like with no edging and I’m really in the mood, I can swing it anywhere between 5-20 minutes. There was this one time though where I couldn’t touch for a week bc of vampires only week, and when it ended I was miraculously home alone so I jumped in the shower, didn’t even turn on the water, just sat there in the tub and it took me just under one minute; I was SO needy (and I even went for a second round once the water was actually on hehe)

24. What was your first kink?

Oh definitely stuff to do with vampires like biting and hypnosis. I watched a LOT of monster movies as a kid and vampires really stuck with me lmao. I think I can pinpoint the movies Van Helsing as well as Abbot and Costello Meet Frankenstein (bc Dracula was also featured in that movie) as introducing me to biting and hypnosis in the context of vampires (or any other vampire seduce-y thing for that matter). Of course as like a 7 year old I obviously didn’t think of it that way but dear goodness did those things really stick with me when I grew up XD

47. Bra or no bra?

Depends! Like if it’s a really cute bra, why not wear it! But no bra is just as good! Tits are good either way, and I can assure you, my tits are definitely good either way

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ame-exe · 4 years

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This is such a long post I’m so sorry for rambling

Idk why I’m making this post, I don’t like posting, but whatever I’m writing this for some reason.

So there’s this new show on Netflix, right, called The Letter to the King. Ir’d based on a 1962 Dutch book, that I haven’t read but is apparently pretty famous (at least in the Netherlands). It’s absolutely amazing, you need to watch it. It’s got fantasy, magic, knights, all that stuff, has a really cool story, amazing character development, it’s really great. If you want an actual synopsis go look it up because I’m really not good at making summaries. But it’s really really good, you need to watch it.

[spoilers here, but you can read to convince yourself to watch the show ig, if you wanna]

I am ?? So ridiculously happy about Foldo and Jussipo ?? I was SO surprised when they kissed but so happy.

I kinda saw their chemistry pretty early on, but I thought it was either just me, or the writers weren’t realising what they were doing, or they would be too scared to actually canonically make them non-straight. I assumed it was kinda like the Roman soldier and the cowboy in Night at the Museum, yknow. Correct me if I’m wrong but I’m pretty sure they were never like, on-screen confirmed to be queer, but everyone thinks/knows they are.

I assumed they would be known as "should have been gay" characters. Or that I was just imagining things.

But then ?? During that scene where they talk Jussipo says "you’re kind, you’re brave.. you’re amazing with that sword. Your parents are lucky to have their lives in your hands" in that "I have a secret crush on you" tone of voice and I was like ?? Hold up are they gonna do it ? What’s happening ?

And then they did. They kissed and admitted their feelings and I was SO surprised. It’s been hours since I saw that scene and I’m still shook. Like holy shit they did it.

You could argue that it’s bad bc Jussipo dies in the same episode and it’s basically just a burry your gays trope, but imo it’s still really cool. I’m actually really sad about Jussipo dying tho from the beginning he was one of my favourite characters.

Anyway; the show does a lot more than just have canon queer characters, though. The moment that made me fall in love with it was in the episode where Tiuri and Lavania are staying at the monks’ monastery.

At first the episode made me not really like the show. I saw it as a "OoOoOo look at these crazies that will obviously be violent" type of thing, just mocking people with psychosis, personality disorders, or anyone else with a mental illness/disorder that is heavily demonised by the media.

But then, there was Tiuri’s talk with the abbot in the library. And I was like huh, this is actually really cool, and really good advice about confronting your inner demons.

But then there was the moment where the guy in chains freed himself, and the show really made an effort to make the whole situation seem dangerous. I started disliking it again because of course, the CrAzY guy is dangerous. Of course he is. But then it shows that he’s really just minding his business and is just trying to help Tiuri and Lavinia. And then the monks arrive and grab him violently and treat him like shit. And Tiuri starts yelling at them that it’s bullshit they tell him he needs to reach into his heart, find his inner demons and confront them etc, while the other guy has to be chained in the dark and be treated in really inhumane ways. And he says "how is that love ?!" (Bc the monks kept preaching about giving troubled people love and acceptance). And that, that really surprised me. In a very good way.

There’s also obviously all the character development all the main characters go through, that is absolutely brilliant, and the overall story, narration and dialogue that is done really well, and the subtle talks of racism, cultural appropriation, classism, and other things I’m probably missing, that are all just *chef’s kiss*.

Watch this show, I beg of you.

And I’m so sorry for writing such a long post. And I’m sorry if it makes no sense I’m very tired.

#letter to the king #long post #very long post #i’m so sorry

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ofkamis · 4 years

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haley lu richardson. cisfemale. she/her. ／ kameron “kami” abbott just pulled up blasting man by jojo — that song is so them ! you know, for a twenty-six year old singer & actress, i’ve heard they’re really self-destructive, but that they make up for it by being so persistent. if i had to choose three things to describe them, i’d probably say midnight drives with the top down, music playing loudly through headphones, & a wall of paintings from everywhere she’s been. here’s to hoping they don’t cause too much trouble ! ** jojo levesque acting & voice claim

general info

full name: kameron joanne abbott

birthdate: november 3rd, 1993

“stage name”: kami

basically if you know who jojo is ......... that’s kami. but if you don’t, watching this 26 min video explains everything ( and is kind of worth the watch bc jojo is a fucking QUEEN )

growing up and rise to fame

kameron abbott was born in massachusetts to recently divorced lynette & joshua abbot. though they were divorced due to other extra marital issues ( her father and mother were both cheating on each other for the length of their marriage ) they decided they could be co parents.

when they made these plans, they didn’t expect it to really affect them as much. their own personal issues made it hard for the two grown adults to get along and they wound up fighting all the time.

kameron lived with her mother full time, seeing her dad often though, but most of her early memories include hearing the two of them fighting or making comments about each other in front of her.

was seven years old when she got her first singing gig, she was going to be singing the national anthem at a school event, which is where somebody else saw her and she wound up singing at another event.

it was at one of these events that kameron was spotted by a talent scout and brought in to a recording studio. she wasn’t sure if it was going to work for her, but she was excited nonetheless. a real paying job! singing and making music, man it was her dream. she would give anything for it.

they signed a contract when kami was ten and a half, and started looking into music that they could use for her. kami was interested in writing her own music, but at ten years old she didn’t have a lot of life experiences to draw on for music. so the label worked with different demos and gave her some options and they worked with her to pick what would be best.

kameron and her mother relocated to brooklyn when she was eleven years old, working on getting her music heard by people who mattered and working on the album. it was a lot of time that kameron took out of her school in order to work on everything.

some of the kids in school were always curious why she was missing so much school, and yet was still at the top of her class. kameron continued getting her school work even when she’d be working in the studio either in new york or los angeles.

her first single “leave ( get out )” dropped the summer before her 12th birthday. the album followed, titled “kami”, was released the next winter early in the year.

suddenly, there was a lot of press about the tiny girl who had a powerful voice. she was on talkshows and working on different circuts getting her music out and talking about everything.

claiming that fame

kameron’s life changed drastically when her album dropped. she thought they would be staying in new york, since that’s where the label had relocated her. but shortly after the release, they decided it would be best to bring her out to los angeles instead.

so at thirteen kami found herself in a new city ( again ), surrounded by people she didn’t know. sure, she was making a name for herself, but what the hell was she really doing?

kami wound up not going to any of the local schools, instead her mother decided it would be best to home school her in the meantime while they were in a period of adjusting to a new place and working on her second album.

it wasn’t anything that they expected to be doing so quickly after the first, but the abbott women adjusted.

during this time kami didn’t see her father a lot. she would call him and talk to him here and there, but since he lived on the east coast and she was on a tight schedule there wasn’t time to do much of anything.

on top of working on a second album so soon after her first, kami was auditioning for film roles. she even managed to land a lead role in the film aquamarine -- which meant she was filming that and had to put the album on pause for a couple of months.

aquamarine premiered the spring of 2007, and was claimed to be one of the best “sleepover fics”. the kind teenage and preteen girls watch to get their minds off of their own problems.

she got close with her co-stars too, some of the first real hollywood friends she had.

following the success of her theatrical debut ( not as herself ), kami’s second album dropped the following year ( very unusual for me, but i’m keeping the track listings of jojo’s first two albums the same for kami’s ....... a wild concept ik ) actually just before halloween.

during the process of promoting her new album, kami got her second fil role in the movie rv. the film came out in the summer of 2008.

of course, as much as kami liked acting, she really wanted to be in the studio working on music of her own. but there was something else going on.

the lawsuit

kameron wanted to be in the studio for everything -- she’d been writing her own music finally.

except, her label was putting it off. and kami didn’t understand why.

she tried to busy herself by working on recording everything she had, working with several different producers and coming up with new tracks. and still, despite all of this, her label wasn’t releasing her music.

kami confronted them about it, telling them ( at 16 years old ) that if they wouldn’t release her new music, that she’d walk from the company and find somebody else.

that’s when they pulled out their contract. they owned kami’s voice--so she would have to do what they wanted her to do.

she was ten and a half when she signed the contract--or technically when her mother signed the contract. they hadn’t been in hollywood before and they’d been assured that it was the same kind of contract that anybody would sign.

of course, kami was livid, she had worked hard, to just wind up fucked by the label she’d thought of as a family for so long.

the label was putting out other artists music and pushing her release date back again and again and again.

finally, kami found a lawyer and she began the very long process of suing her label for her voice back.

handling the situation

to make herself heard, to keep her fans happy while she was going through all of this--kami found a loophole. she couldn’t release her music publically and do any big promo through her label. but she could release her music on multiple websites such as soundcloud and straight to youtube.

of course, she was a little disheartened at first that there wasn’t a direct answer for her issues even though she was in the courthouse.

in the meantime, since she couldn’t put her own music out into the world, kami was featured on several different songs.

she was also acting, because she felt like she needed to keep being out there in the world for everyone who cared about her.

her mother and father were both there for her, but wanted kami to see if she could quit making music and focus on something else. she had money from her previous and current work, she could make her way in anything she wanted.

but it wasn’t what kami wanted to do. it wasn’t her dream. she wanted music. she didn’t care how she had to do it, she loved making music and bringing her music to people who needed to hear it.

sure, she could go to college or find another job. that wasn’t even what she had been thinking about. but it wasn’t what she wanted. music was all she could think about.

finally, kami said fuck the studio’s rights and decided she was releasing her music one way or another. which is how her mixtapes came about.

her first mixtape was released in 2011. and then she started doing smaller shows. no big concerts or anything, but small shows in order to get everything out there.

this was also the first "album” that kami had nearly completely had a hand in writing herself. she finally felt like she was letting her fans see who she was as an artist and not just as a performer.

of course, during this time, kami is still in a consistent legal battle. her label’s going bankrupt, but they still technically own her voice and she wants it back. but nothing’s happening. and she just wants to scream out loud.

this led to a lot of self doubt and depression and kami wondering if she wasn’t good enough to be on her own. she fell into a spiral of doubt and stubborn thoughts and couldn’t bring herself out of it.

it doesn’t help that kameron isn’t the most talkative person ever in the world because she thinks she can really handle everything on her own. so while this is all weighing on her and causing mass amounts of stress and destructive thoughts, kami’s pretending like it’s all fine.

she’s photographed laughing at parties and working on her music too. nobody suspects that inside she’s dying and needs a release.

she managed to release another mixtape and an ep of covers, too.

release

finally, kami could breathe again. the spring of 2015 brought her the courts decision. it was ruled in kami’s favor that she could be released from the contract she’d signed years earlier. and finally, she could look into making music of her own with a new label.

kami’s response was a big fuck you to her label.

instead of immediately coming out with new music that she’d been working tirelessly on, kami put that to the side and began a new project.

her music wasn’t available online for her fans, and she had won the rights to the songs. they were hers. so she could do what she wanted to.

kami spent the next two years in the studio working on rerecording her original two albums ( kami, 2005 & this time 2007 ).

of course, during this time she’s doing interviews and talking to her fans and she swears that she’s back for good and nothing will stop her.

she’s found a new label that will treat her like she deserves to be treated and won’t do something like that again. she’s protected in her contracts, and she completely understands everything.

the fall of 2017 kami rereleased the albums on streaming services and on itunes. she didn’t expect anything of it, but suddenly the two albums were at the top of the itunes charts.

“#kamiscomeback” was trending on twitter worldwide for two whole days.

she was elated. began doing interviews with her fans. q&a videos on her youtube channel.

kami did a couple of pop up appearances too. she wanted to make sure everyone knew that even though she’d spent a lot of time rerecording old music, she did it for a reason. she owned it, and she wanted the people who had worked hard on the songs with her to get what they deserved from it instead of the now defunct label that had kept her in the prison for so long.

kameron was in a constant motion of making music in the studio and working on concerts. she did a whole summer concert series in the summer of 2018. she was working so hard.

DEATH TRIGGER WARNING before going on the stage during one of her summer concert shows kami got a phone call from her mother. normally she wouldn’t have answered this, but she felt it was important to do so. her father died in a car accident.

kami’s team was ready to pull her out of the show, pull her out. but kami was insistent on performing.

a video of kami breaking down during not one but two of her songs went semi viral. it wasn’t until the next day that it was announced what had happened.

focusing on now

kami took a bit of a break, which she hated doing, because she’d just been on the longest music break of her life but she knew her mom and her people were right. she needed time to grieve.

kami moved away from los angeles and went back home to massachusetts for seven months.

during this time kami was working on new songs and writing them. but she needed time to breathe and focus on herself.

it was in december of 2019 that kami released a new song off of her upcoming studio album, along with a music video just dropped with a link on her twitter. music. ( more coming in 2020 ) the video is a string of all old home videos of kami growing up and singing. it’s raw and real, and was praised for how honest it felt.

kami recently released another song off of her upcoming album, man. it’s much more of an upbeat song and she released the music video the same day too.

fun facts

kami is allergic to strawberries, which she found out at the age of four.

was never particularly close with either of her parents, but she spent more time with her mother growing up. she wished they were closer and friendlier, but there was a lot of underlying resentment.

kami has a dog named sodapop. has a cat named bender.

she’s had a couple of different hair colors over the year, but it was always different for her different phases. during her bad battle with her label her hair was jet black.

loves crime shows. always wanted to be on criminal minds, but she has done shows like hawaii five-o & lethal weapon.

was a contestant on “kids say the darndest things” when she was five.

rides a motorcycle, but also doesn’t ride hers too often.

loves to watch makeup tutorials for fun.

makes fun of herself constantly. in fact, she released a song about some hate tweets she got for shits and giggles not too long ago ( kameron )

has one a couple of awards, but won her first grammy at this past grammy awards

loves 80s and 90s movies.

collects paintings from street artists everywhere she goes. she’s got a whole room filled of them at her house.

turned her house’s guest apartment into a full fledged recording studio.

wanted connections

childhood friend(s) / a first love / exes / past pr relationship / current pr relationship / a friendship where they tease each other but love each other / maybe a roommate or something

#♬ ━━ ooc ←#excess:intro #god this is ......... so long pls love me and my new child

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Mountains & Minoans

After our relaxing days at the beach resort we were off to the mountains! And we were definitely glad to have a gps. The drive was so pretty & interesting... there is still snow on the mountains in Crete?! Not enough or far down enough for us to play with, but still an impress feat for summer in the Mediterranean nonetheless. We drove through the Amari valley, one of the recommended sights to see on Crete. It has majestic tall sheer grey cliff faces overlooking idyllic green valleys with lots of wildflowers & sheep. On our drive to our next sleeping location we also stopped by Moni Arkadiou. There we saw the remains of a monastery that served as a last stand fight between several hundred Greek rebels and a much larger and well armed Turkish force. Bullet holes are still present in the beautiful walls of the church, testimony to the close hand fighting that killed every last man holed up inside. It reminded me of the American Alamo, but unlike the Alamo the Greek soldiers had their families with them. As the men fought, the women, children, and older people huddled in the monastery cellar. When the last man fell and the Turks began to beat down the door, the 80 year old abbot in charge of the monastery lit a barrel of explosives stored in the cellar, killing everyone within, blasting out the ceiling, and killing a number of Turkish soldiers as well. Although we cannot be sure why he did this, it seems clear he feared those within would meet a fate worse than death if he surrendered. It was a beautiful monastery, and as it is seemingly super important to the Cretan national consciousness, we are very glad we visited. We may have mentioned this before, but since Crete is in such a prime location between the Middle East, Europe, & Africa it has seen a lot of conflicts over the years. However this battle with the Turks for independence from an outsiders perspective seems to hold more significance for the Cretans, maybe akin to how we Americans feel about the revolutionary war? After that stop we drove to the Aeortis Villas, our next home. It is located in Lampini, a little mountain town with a gorgeous view and more sheep than people. Even though the town is less that a square mile & maybe has a population of 50 people, we spent an hour trying to navigate the tiny roads to locate reception. We did falter a time or two (shout out to the old Greek man who let us drive into his tractor parking and doorstop to turn around on a one way road!). We were confused because we could see the villas, but there was no obvious area to check in, and so consequently we were just sort of creeping around other guests' backyards? Eventually we decided to suck up the international phone charges and call Olga, who runs the place. Olga was super nice, and ran over right away, and it seems that she had forgotten to write our reservation down. However, she put us up in a local house rental (which boy aj really liked bc then we could see how the locals live : ) and then a very nice villa the next day. She also made us dinner, amazing 3 course breakfasts and seemingly gave us one of the bigger spots (we had a two bedroom two story house to ourselves for only 50 € a night) so we really like Olga! While in Lampini, we hiked the smaller Antonios Gorge with a church/temple built into the cliff and opportunities to sort of rock climb (my favorite:). We also had dinner at a taverna with the nicest old Greek lady, who we grew a lot of the food herself. Those dinners were also fun because we had to actually use our Greek (or play charades when we didn't know a word) and we ate while the flocks of sheep that ran past. The days were relaxing here too. Even when we were exploring, and trying to find a particular place, when we messed up we usually ended up in another place we were thinking about (in one case a creepy abandoned monastery). We also watched the excellent blasphemy that is Disney's Hercules, & drank some delicious Cretan wine. The most stressed we were, were the couple of times the GPS thought that a one lane dirt road with a vertical incline of 30-45 degrees was passable in our two wheel drive mini sedan... Of course we also saw some archaeology! I'll let boy AJ share about that. We made the quick drive to Phaestos and saw our first big Minoan ruin. Although we were what would have been a day's travel or more from the Minoan capital of Knossos, this part of southern Crete was under imperial control so an administrative center developed to extend the Minoan redistributive economy to this area. Although Phaestos is called a palace and it did house local royals and other important people, it seemed to me to be more of a glorified warehouse or bank. As you enter the site, your eyes immediately focus on a grand set of stairs leading to the central part of the palace. Instead of finding the residences of the wealthy at this magnificent location, I found rows and rows of storerooms, some with massive ceramic vessels as large as a person for storing the agricultural products owed to the king. Outside of this central area were bedrooms, craft production areas, and public spaces for religious processions, but what really stood out to me here was the significance of goods to this group of people. It drove in the fact that economy is the cornerstone of society, and when it fails so does society as what would happen to the Minoans and the reason the palace was in ruins in the first place. We then made a short but harrowing drive to the Graeco-Roman town of Gournta. A brief word on driving, since I'm not sure if that's been discussed yet, but it's pretty crazy here. We've had a lot of one way situations with blind turns and little old ladies walking into the street out of nowhere, it's nuts. Anyway Gourtna was the capital of Roman Crete and as such was a pretty huge town. Unfortunately, what's on display is only a small fraction of the town and you can see its ruins extend well beyond the site's fences. What is on display is the first written legal constitution on Crete, a 6th century bc inscription etched into a massive curved wall. I'm not sure when the space between words was invented, but it certainly wasn't around then because all the letters are packed together into what looks like a giant Greek word search and looking at it for too long almost gave me a headache. Unsatisfied by the small amount of archaeology on display at such a large site, I led AJ off on a goose chase of Roman ruins through the surrounding farmland. Heidi, if you're reading this, we kept it totally safe, stuck to the dirt roads, and didn't cross any gates or fences; even I know safety is more important than archaeology. Anyway, after some searching we found a beautiful round temple, with a massive pile of marble columns in the center, out in the middle of this agricultural area. Gortna was a fun site, but we needed to explore a little to really appreciate what it has to offer. The people, the remoteness, the mountains, & the precocious sheep made Lampini a truly wonderful stop! If you're ever in the area, we'll let Olga know you're coming ;)

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