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#When I hit the age of 8 and realised I wasnt good st making friends and stopped trying I just. god.
dizzybevvie
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I think one of the biggest issues I have is just assuming that Im a back up friend to everyone
#dgmw! its never been a big deal I dont care much and I understand
#and this is gonna sound edgy but i find it difficult to feel emotion that isnt really intense? if that makes sense
#so i dont think i realise how lonely i am a lot of the time ://
#idk. its weird.
#I see people at school I would consider myself quite close to because in reality i have like one close friend
#and seeing them be so close to their friends hurts a lil yknow?
#not mad at them obviously just. around them
#Especially when theyre dudes. theyll never understand how jealous i am of them
#or that one friend i really enjoy spending time with who admitted to ditching me for their other friends after lying and saying she forgot
#again i wasnt mad at her because I understand but. i cant help but feel like Im doing something wrong
#im glad she was upfront and honest with me because thats all i ask but i just. UGH
#And all the popular kids at my school are actually friendly and nice and funny
#But all I can talk about is how to train your dragon and stare for way too long trying to figure out what to say
#Its frustrating because I know its not their fault and like. thats the worst part.
#All the people at my school who talk to me Im genuinely flattered that they enjoy my company at least a little bit
#When I hit the age of 8 and realised I wasnt good st making friends and stopped trying I just. god.
#I understand what I'm doing wrong but I dont know how to change without being thoroughly exhausted
#and id rather have energy than be liked but
#I dont know. I just wish people liked me.
#Again I GET that people my age are just assholes and thats part of it. thats why ive never cared abt no one ever crushing on me because
#i have a belly and arm hair and a flat face and cellulite and no jawline and thinner eyes and leg hair and a resting bitch face
#and I find some of those traits endearing but i know teenage boys wont
#its upsetting. i dont know.
#all it takes is not being accepted by one (1) guy to be back to being four years old wondering if my dad wouldve stayed if i were a boy
#.
#Idk. Ill unpack this later (lie)
#oversharing on main
#rant
#vent
#apollo says stuff
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