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gavisimmaculaterizz · 3 months

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bb can u write something like jude coming home from practice and being angry, mad or something, and just storming off in his room, and later on (female) reader falls asleep on the couch teary eyed bcz she doesn't know what she did wrong

— bother / jude bellingham.

summary: jude cant hold in his anger from losing his match, resulting in a distant jude.

warnings: a bit of angst ??

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as the final whistle blew, distant whistles and boos came from the santiago bernabéu. the night in madrid was cold, the huge loss of the white giants filled the madrid air with coldness. as fans exited the stadium, jude proceeded to go to the locker room furious. he couldn’t help but feel anger, not being able to help his team out with at least scoring a goal. he disappointed the fans, maybe even his girlfriend. he mentally cursed himself out for not showing his potential, preparing for the hate he’d get on twitter by fellow madridistas.

meanwhile at the comfort of your shared apartment, you couldn’t help but feel a bit of sadness watching your boyfriends team lose heavily. you turned off the television, feeling sadness wash over you, over the terrible result in the bernabéu that just happened moments ago. you hated seeing your boyfriend sad, knowing these type of losses affected him heavily.

a couple hours later, the noise of bags falling echoed around the silent home. you ran to jude, excited to hug him and welcome him in. when reaching the tall british, you were welcomed with a cold and distant jude. “hey babe how was your game?”, you asked your boyfriend. upon your question, jude’s facial expression changed heavily. “what do you mean how was my game? did you even pay attention to what just happened?”,he asked furiously. his words hit you like a cold dagger that was plummeted into your heart, dry and distant, with a hint of anger still lingering in his voice. “do you want to talk about it?”, you asked trying to console your boyfriend. his words broke you, all you tried to do was ask if his game went okay, even though you’d know what his response would be. “no, god just leave me alone— you’re such a bother y/n.”, jude stated furiously. he quickly stormed off to your shared room, shutting the door loudly, letting you know to not even step foot into the room. your heart broke, you couldn’t contain your tears anymore.

you ran to your living room in tears, only seeing blurriness, and tasting the saltiness water streaming down your face. you mentally cursed yourself out feeling guilty for making him angry, even though it was not your fault at all. you knew he was a bit pissed off from his game still , but you never meant to provoke him even more than he was. you laid down on your sofa, grabbing a blanket and covering yourself completely. you wanted to give him space, let him cool down a bit.

meanwhile in your little bubble, your thoughts raced, ‘was it my fault for making him angry?’ you kept sobbing, overloading yourself with these negative thoughts. you let yourself cry until you couldn’t anymore. all you let out were heavy breaths which occupied the quiet home. with all the crying, it made you sleepy, and you couldn’t help but doze off into the night sky. you would soon be awaiting your boyfriends apology in the morning.

but was he right about you being a bother..?

a/n: i kind of tweaked it a bit anon!! also this is my first fic so im mentally cringing at myself bc im not used to this 🙁, so i hope yall like it

#jude bellingham x reader #jude bellingham #jude bellingham fluff #jude bellingham x you #real madrid #jude bellingham angst

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neteyummy · 1 year

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ITS ME AGAINNNN I LOVE LOVEEE YOUR LAST REQUEST :C ❤️

ever since ive been reading a lot of manhwas and i got an idea form it that id love to read a fic of with neteyam xv

okay so i was thinking of a heart wrenching angst but comfort later on with an arranged engagement of reader and neteyam where neteyam starts to hate reader just because he was basically forced to be with her and reader is always patient eith him even if hes so mean to her like going with other girls or smth and one day reader snaps at his rudeness towards her and says nah lets break up. and at first neteyam is like FINE but he later starts to notice how his daily life that always had you there for him, helping him with whatever, being his maid basically sbfushd and he starts to miss you. starts to realize how much he fucked up becuz he realized how faithful you were to him and worked so so so hard for him and was always there for him :((( but hes too late now bcz he sees you finally giving other men a chance to court you since youre no longer his now ;(

Huhuhu a little request won’t hurt hm?

Warning: Hurt. No comfort yet.

From the day I was born, you and I were promised to each other without a single say in it. While you despised me for it, I felt sympathy for you and did my best to stay out of your way.

His jaw clenched as he observed your face, watching as the words left your mouth. You were both in a healing tent, where you were initially patching up the older man after he had returned with the raid party. Neteyam was being even colder than usual, asking if someone else could patch him up in your stead. That had been your last straw, after all those times, after all those years, of him either pretending like you didn’t exist or disregarding your efforts made for the sake of him.

My whole life, I have been training to become someone worthy to stand beside you, the future Olo’eyktan of our clan. Did I want to though?

You chuckled bitterly, looking down at your folded hands in your lap. You could feel his piercing gaze on your head.

What would it matter if I wanted to or not, right? Just like you had no choice but to accept me as your future mate, I had no choice but to comply to the orders given by your grandmother and my parents. I merely existed to be your Tsahìk.

Looking up from your lap, you met his hardened gaze with his ears pulled back. You felt your stomach tighten.

I did not want this, Neteyam. I did not.

What changed then? He rasped out. You think I didn’t notice all those times you looked at me as if I hung all the stars myself? Don’t think I also didn’t notice you enjoying your training with my grandmother. That says enough for me.

Silence.

You pondered over whether you should deny his claims or admit it. He looked agitated, looking down at you as he stood tall infront of you. You noticed again how much he had physically grown, over the last year. Taut muscles filling up in all the right places and facial features looking a lot sharper now. You looked down again, avoiding his accusing eyes.

You let out a small exhale.

When you spend most of your time by your teacher and have a very limited interaction with opposite genders, you tend to fall for who is most present in your daily life.

With a sad look in your eyes, you matched his gaze again.

You happened to be the only man I am freely allowed to be around, for long. I do not have the privilege of meeting up with other men like you do, with other women, Neteyam.

At that, he pursed his lips. Moving back and forth on his feet as he nodded in a mock understanding.

But you continued.

Falling for you was my biggest mistake, Neteyam. If I had known in all those times you were with other women, being hopeful for a day you would open up to me, see me for who I am and not as someone you are forced to spend the rest of your future with, against your will, that this was all nothing but a wishful thinking, I would have done everything in my will to stop these feelings from growing any further.

Cocking his head to the side, Neteyam let out a laugh, disbelief painting his face. He had stopped footing around and was now standing infront of you again. Same pursed lips as he squinted down at you in a mean look.

Save your lies for another day. I know for a fact that you are more than allowed to meet up with other men. We are NOT mated yet. Don’t act like we are. What about your lil friend that always tails you, huh? Forgot about him already?

You watched his expression grow even more sour at the last part he spat. The things he was saying confused you to no end, but hearing him deny your statement of not having the same privilege as him made anger simmer inside you.

Standing up tall in cold fury and looking dead in his eyes, you pushed your index finger at where his heart laid, hidden behind his chest.

I have never once lied in my whole life, that I assure you. But to think you are this ignorant of our betrothal really disappoints me, Neteyam. I know the sight of me upsets your mood and you wish for nothing to do with me. But I had honestly expected more from our future leader.

You paused and took in the expressions written all over his face. It going from an accusing glint in his eyes to the one of a slight shock, finally settling on an unreadable expression.

And in a low voice, he asked you.

What did you want from me.

It sounding more like a statement rather than a question, you cocked your head to the side, watching his eyes trail on the ground.

He had managed to pick up on your little movement, though.

You held me back here with this talk. I’m sure there is a point in bringing this topic up? What do you want from me with this?

A fool you were, to think he would ever be the same understanding man that he is with everyone else. You really hoped that being the one to touch on this topic and to possibly clear the air between the two of you would make some positive change in your dynamic. That you wouldn’t have to resort to your last option.

Biting your lower lips as it started to quiver while tears welled up in your eyes, threatening to pour down. You searched his eyes for any hint of guilt or regret for having been this harsh with you up until the very last moment. When you found none, the tears that were threatening to spill finally broke free. Your heart never having ached this badly before, it was almost suffocating.

I want to break this betrothal.

Tbc here

#neteyam #neteyam fic #neteyam x reader #avatar #avatar the way of water #neteyam sully #neteyam x y/n #neteyam x oc #yummys request

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minminho0 · 1 year

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-Angst - fluff

Summary: You two started fake dating for the benefit of both party. While at the relationship, you started falling for him but he already found love with another before you can even process the whole fake relationship.

Reader: Female

Warnings: Bullying, Break up, gold-digger and cheating.

A/n: writing this at school, don't know what to do

I hope you enjoy~!

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"This is what you get for flirting with my boyfriend!" She said before continuing to stomp at the poor tired body below.

"Stop pls!" I screamed.

"You dare order me around!?" The bully got more irritated but decided to let you explain.

"Fine then, if you gave me a reasonable reason why you flirted with my boyfriend, then I might just let you go." She backed away from your body, waiting for your answer.

"B-but he was the one that started f-flirting with me-" before you could finish your sentence you suddenly felt a sudden pain on your stomach.

"YOU DARE BLAME MY BOYFRIEND WHILE I'M GIVING YOU MERCY!?"

"Ah-"

She continued to beat you up until you fainted.

Every since you got in the akademiya. Its been hell. You kept on being bullied because of a nasty rumor someone started and it wasn't true, it was obvious honestly but people still bullied you and made fun of you even though they knew. Ig their life is so boring, they need to ruin someone's life just to have some excitement in theirs.

You got bullied so much to the point you can't take it anymore.

But it looks like someone finally head your prayers and grant it.

You stumbled upon a young man who also has problems with life but a different situation (he get asked out a lot and it's distracting), you both are in need of help, so lucky for you he decided to fake date you for the benefit.

But it will soon be your worst decision ever.

At the start for your fake relationship, you not getting bullied anymore but you still don't have friends tho.

It was fun at first till it wasn't, you can't help but fall for him.

He was so kind, loving, helpful, strong but most of all he was handsome.

You hated it because you knew he already started to like somebody and that somebody will never be you. But that's not what you hated the most, the worst of all he was in love with someone you will never be like, someone who is perfect, someone every one likes, someone better.

You found out about this when you were strolling around town and heard a convo between him and Tighnari.

Cyno rumbled to Tighnari how beautiful she is and how she's just perfect.

You started to feel more insecure and guilty bcz you were holding him back from reuniting with his true love.

All your life you have been dependent to people that come to your life and because of that, it always brings you down. You want to be independent and to start that, you have to let him go yourself before you can get hurt again.

The very next day, you broke up with him once yung saw him and he just shrugged it off.

You were honestly sad that he didn't think of you as much as you did to him.

Words spread out quickly, all students now know about your break up and of course, the bullying came back. You borne all the bullying.

You graduated years later and a lot has happened within those years.

Cyno got together with her, your bully and her boyfriend broke up, and bluh bluh but the thing that stood out the most in those years, is your new best friend and boyfriend.

You met Kaveh at the library and helped him, then boom you got yourself a best friend.

You two hanged out and that's how you got yourself a boyfriend. You met his roomate and you two hit it off

(easiest way to get a best friend and a boyfriend tutorial 100% #real)

You moved on from your 'ex'

It was hard but you manage and as a reward you graduated with flying colors.

"Can you guys just shut up"

Youre tired of hearing them bicker while you three are hanging out.

"I'LL STOP IF YOUR BOYFRIEND JUST GIVE ME MY KEYS. GIVE ME THAT!!!! "

"What keys?" Al haitham rolled his eyes while holding you tight.

"AHH tch"

You guys were walking until you suddenly stop which made them also stop.

Al haitham looked at you and saw you were staring at a direction, he and Kaveh followed your gaze and saw him, Cyno.. Your ex with his girlfriend.

You guys quickly hurried off not wanting to be seen by them, well- you to be exact, Kaveh was ready to confront him and Al haitham just gave you a knowing gaze.

But unbeknownst to you, Cyno already spotted you on the crowd and followed your body with his loving eyes.

"Hey!! Are you even listening!?? " his girlfriend snapped causing Cyno to look at her.

"What? " he said coldly.

"Ahhh I told you to buy me that! " she said pointing at a bag thru the glass case.

"That's to expensive! Look at the price for once, woman" he said in anger.

"I don't care just buy me it! "

"Yk what let's break up! I don't need you to waste my money" he said turning around.

"Tch I see your still in love with your stupid ex" she rolled her eyes.

"What.. What did you say!? " he turned back around with an angered expression.

"Don't you dare talk bad about her while your here looking like that"he spat

"Ahh! " she shout at anger and quickly turning on her heel and getting out of his sight.

After the break up of you two, years ago he only realized how bad he mess up, he loved you but he was to late as he already knew a bit your boyfriend.

You got a job and was soon followed with Al haitham proposing to you.

You two got married with Kaveh being the best man and the one catching the flowers.

You two had kids and Cyno being the uncle.

You two made up, Al haitham approved of it and knew about the story of you two's love life back then.

And you three lived happily ever after.

Wait wait wait

What about Cyno? Did he lived happily every after?... Well let's see.

Cyno can't accept the fact that you are married now.

He never accepted any love confession again g it wasn't yours. Which he knows will never happen.

He got a chance to be with you but he just let it past and that's the thing he regretted the most.

When he found out you have kids he lost it. But at least he was thankful that he was the uncle well actually him and Kaveh are the uncle, Kaveh being the main uncle but at least he's still somewhat attached to your life.

If your happy then he's happy.

Finished this and it was barely an hour😳 hehe

I hope you liked it~!

-March 24 2023

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worriedvision · 1 year

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Ok so basically

Reader is in a relationship with Al haitham but Al haitham fell out of love for reader while in the relationship but he didn't tell reader about it. He found someone he loves and decided to confess to that person he found but kept it a secret from reader.

So like Al haitham found a fling and didn't tell reader he fell out of love and still in the relationship with reader.

Reader found out about the secret relationship and broke up with Al haitham but reader still loves him.

Reader decided to 'move on' and got in a relationship with Tighnari (or kaveh?)

Reader thought that Al haitham would get jealous of the new relationship but Al haitham simply didn't care like at all and Al haitham and his fling made their relationship public.

Tighnari found out that reader is still in love with Al haitham and thought that reader is only with him rn bcz reader wants Al haitham to get jealous.

Basically tighnari thought reader is using him.

Tighnari broke up with reader and reader confessed that at the start of the relationship, reader only got together with him bcz reader still likes Al haitham and wanted to make him jealous (you could include this part if you want)

Reader ended up yk sad and people really didn't want to be associated with reader bcz of the relationship drama.

Basically reader never found love again and reader lived to regret it

Al haitham is now married and tighnari hates reader.

The end

"So you see -dhar Mann"

! SUPER DUPER ANGST PLS !

Gender neutral reader, angst obviously. Readers in for some emotional pain that's for sure! I tweaked how Tighnari finds out, you'll see.

When you walked in on them kissing, you being quiet and choosing to give him another chance. You didn't know how long this had been happening, and you were sure a conversation would be the solution here. Yes, this must be a case where he's realised he loves you after being unfaithful to you!

...Unfortunately, however, this was far from the truth. You asked him, and he didn't react with an apology.

"I don't love you. I never did." Alhaitham states. "I love this person, and you are a roadblock."

"But I love you!" You exclaim, shocked at Alhaitham's casual confession.

"That's the problem." Alhaitham shrugs, crossing his arms. "I'll give you time to get the few items in this house that are yours out, and I wish you the best in love."

It didn't feel real at all. He was now public with this person, showing them love he never showed you. Still wearing rose-tinted glasses, you were stupid enough to believe this was all some sick joke. Well, two can play at that game, you think to yourself as you approach Tighnari.

To your surprise, he wanted to settle down with someone. With things finally getting less hectic, he had the time to commit himself to a relationship. You were attractive in his eyes, and he did feel like he got very lucky with when your relationship broke off. Of course, he waited for you to make a first move - or at least until it had been an appropriate amount of time for you to get moving on.

When you make the first move, asking him out, he was very surprised. A pleasant surprised, and he took you up on your offer. Over a dinner, you find out more about Tighnari. The venue was a place Alhaitham frequented, and he did show up with the same person he cheated on you with.

A few dates went like this, but you slowly started to genuinely love Tighnari more than you loved Alhaitham. Two sided love was a lovely change in pace.

Alhaitham was a smart man, however, and he warned Cyno about your actions with Tighnari.

"Are you using Tighnari?" Cyno asks, you clearing your throat.

"I'll admit, at the start I did. It was unrealistic of me, I know, but at the time I thought Alhaitham was joking." You confess, Cyno waiting for you to continue. "But now, I know I love Tighnari."

"You need to tell him about the start." Cyno stops you, you nodding. "It wasn't a good idea, surely you know that."

After Cyno's words, you decided to ask Tighnari for a word in private. He seemed so excited to be alone with you, and it tore you apart when he instinctively pulled you onto his lap.

"Tighnari, I need to tell you something." You hesitate, Tighnari letting out a confused sound as you pry his arms away from you. Taking a seat across from him, you decide it's for the best with the nature of this conversation.

"Go ahead." Tighnari nods, smiling at you.

Oh god, this was a huge mistake. You should have never done this in the first place, but you knew Cyno was correct about it being a cruel thing to do.

"When I asked you out, I was trying to make my ex jealous." You begin, Tighnari stiffening up. "I thought he was pulling a joke on me, and I figured you would be... the guy he would get jealous of the most." You swallow, already sensing Tighnari change in front of you.

"So that stuff at the beginning wasn't real?" Tighnari asks, voice breaking at the realisation you had started this for a mean reason. "The dates, the conversations?"

"Now, I know I have developed feelings for you, and I know the beginning was so horrible of me to do." You look up at Tighnari, seeing the hurt in his eyes as he fights back tears. "But now my feelings are true, and stronger than-"

"Please leave." Tighnari whispers, blinking away a tear. "That was so cruel of you. My species don't take these things lightly. It's not a casual thing for me, and you used me."

"Tighnari, I know I hur-"

"Leave." Tighnari stopped you with that one word, more tears streaming down his face. Realising you ruined his trust, you leave as you hear him beginning to wail.

Everyone found out about what you did. How you took advantage of Tighnari the moment he was available, the fact that Alhaitham didn't love you and you couldn't be an adult and move on.

You weren't able to move on from what you did to Tighnari. Even after moving and changing your identity, your heart simply couldn't take you losing the man you grew to truly love - the man who loved you first. No longer did you believe you were allowed to engage in romantic relationships, you never forgive yourself for using Tighnari like that. All you could hope for was a day where Tighnari could find someone he loves, and someone who doesn't have the same intentions you had at the beginning. As much as it hurt, you knew you couldn't even check in on him. He couldn't trust you, and for good reason.

In hindsight, those rose tinted glasses made you delusional.

#tighnari #cyno #alhaitham #tighnari x reader #tighnari x gender neutral reader #angst

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kimhaeni · 1 year

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I've lost my mind

pairing: Taehyung x female reader

genre: sad, angst, modern fantasy

Summary: Y/N is a girl who's been tortured by her step father, Taehyung rescues Y/N, strangers to lovers.

Warning: abusive parents, abusive words, self harm actions, beating, fight, if you are uncomfortable then kindly leave!

You always believed in the theory:-"We need to remember that we all are unique by our own way. We should not compare ourselves with anyone." But guess what your parents never understand it. It was that when you had been unable to go for the test because you were ill.

"How many times have I told you not miss school? Huh?" Your step father shouted at you throwing your iPad somewhere.

"d-d-dad i-i wwwass sick-k" you stuttered almost breaking down in tears.

"Fuck your sickness! Haven't I told you to be the best at school? Answer me I said? " Your dad shouted almost like a maniac.

"Y-yes, ssorry dad..i won't do that again ...s-sorry"you sobbed.

"I'm warning you the last time, I swear I'll kill you if you missed school again!!!"

"o-ok " you said wiping your tears and taking your bag on your shoulders and leaving outside so that he won't shout at you again.

Fuck. That's what happens all the time if you dare to miss school. You've literally gone crazy bcz of your dad's words all the time. You need to be the best at school. You are not allowed to go at parties and other occasions.You need to work overtime so that you can survive in this hell. You have lost your mind , how is someone supposed to live like this? You hate it the way you always hide your feelings from everyone, the way you are called 'the toxic girl' at school by everyone just because you don't like to talk to anyone. Just because you are able to endure the pain doesn't mean you deserve it. You are forced to live this way. Dying is the only way left in your mind to escape this hell but fuck. You are not even allowed to die without permission.

Yet another day in school.

You were walking to the class when your bully came there...

"Yo toxic what are ya doing?"she asked.

"Leave me alone, I'm not in the mood to fight Laura!" You shouted.

"Got the guts to shout in front of me? Haan?" Laura laughed and banged your head on the wall.

"Ouch!" You cried, blood dripping from your head.

"Girls comeon lets teach her a lesson" Laura called for her gang and not a minute more the girls surrounded you and started beating you mercilessly. Just then Laura brought a baseball bat and was about to hit you, you closed your eyes tightly but later you did not feel anything. You opened your eyes when you saw the girls running outside the corridor and there was just a guy with brown hair around his mid 20s standing in front of you. But just because you were beaten badly you lost consciousness and went blank. All you could feel was someone carrying you somewhere.

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Next part coming soon,stay tuned 🤗

It was very short so please stay tuned for the next one, I have exams so I cannot make the long ones, Thank you for reading.

#taehyung x reader #taehyung imagine #taehyung x y/n #bts angst #Sad ff

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lavendertwilight89 · 3 years

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20 Writer Asks

1. how many works do you have on AO3?

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

Oh dear lord...867,431

3. How many fandoms have you written for, and what are they?

Just Inuyasha fandom. I’m boring.

4. What are your Top Five Fics by Kudos?

What You Like

Call You Mine

Halloween

Sake

Rock Bottom

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I do... Eventually. LOL Writing deadlines that only exist in my brain make me avoid my comments and then respond to like 100 at once and this disappear again. Also... I feel bad just with a simple response when people take the time to comment and then I’m like UGHHH NO THEY DESERVE MORE.

Anxiety just rules my life.

6. What fic have you written with the angstiest ending?

Uhmmm... I’ve heard Only for a Moment has an angsty ending because it’s like they are saying goodbye? But it is a happy ending overall. I think the angtiest one there will be and keep in mind it’s still happy will be What You Like--Tales of Sango and Miroku. Bcz canon-div where Kag doesn’t come back. Sad. But What You Like is where Inukag reunite. So. Yes. Hahahaha...

7. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

These are harder questions than I originally thought they’d be... Probably What You Like? Tied with Holding Out For a Hero the ending is written but the smut isn’t...sue me.... I always right a happy ending though. More ways than one sometimes. Badda bing

8. Do you write crossovers? If so, what is the craziest one you’ve written?

I don’t do true crossovers, but I do fics inspired by books/movies like Holding Out for a Hero is a Shrek AU, Bad Blood is Burn Notice, Make a Wish is an Aladdin AU kinda

9. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Yes. I have gotten some comments regarding a relationship between inukag that went too fast. But my only justification is it’s a one-shot and sometimes it has to if I’m gifting the gift of smut? Also, I rely heavily on the fact they are soulmates usually to kinda fuel my fires <3

10. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I do--and uhm...usually sweet and loving and/ frantic and mating stuff.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

No? I don’t think so. Usually check with my libraries if I have a troupe that’s used a lot so I don’t hit anyone by accident.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Not yet--I have been approached though and gave the green light.

13. Have you ever co written a fic before?

Yessss and still pending a couple more due to time and energy and WIPs...

Current ones:

Right Where I Belong with @fawn-eyed-girl art by @eliza-faust-diary

(With a Kiss) I Awaken Thee with @fawn-eyed-girl @ruddcatha and @neutronstarchild art by @mamabearcat

Just Say It with @sapphirestarxx

And not really co-writing as much as collab-ing on But There Was Only One Bed series with @superpixie42

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

INUKAGGGGGGGGGGGG A SHIP I WILL DIE ON AND SINK INTO THE DEPTHS OF THE DARK WATERSSSSS

15. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

Uhm... Crashing Down. I started it, realized how rushed it was and how I should have probably written it all first and gotten it organized and then posted since its a pretty dark idea. Idk if I’ll ever circle back, but we’ll see.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I use fragments to the best of my abilities. Inuyasha shares a lot my internal thoughts when he thinks he’s going crazy or has short patience level. Also, I feel like I’m pretty witty.

Also fluff apparently. I apparently can just barf up fluff like no one’s business.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Angstttttttt and action is kinda a struggle too. I feel like angst I chicken out on and try to skip over it rather than draw it out like it should be done and then action well.... I feel like I repeat myself and I don’t paint a good picture.

18. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

Omg I love it! Too bad I only speak French but I do love some key words or even phrases dropped in a fic in Japanese.

19. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Inuyasha

20. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

Uhm... I don’t know really. It’s really hard to pick... I think my baby is probably Shelter though. It was really original and the ideas just...flowed. Also, for an originally-supposed-to-be-a-one-shot and it’s almost at 100k words. So, definitely proud of that puppy.

Tags: Anyone else who wants to play!

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k-l-ng · 4 years

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Shang Qinghua is Nie Huaisang AU

If, for some reason (and after some centuries of blissful union bcz I wouldn't allow any less), Shang Qinghua were to die, I believe Mobei-Jun would follow him to his next life.

Fated people may reincarnate and find each other again, but not necessarily have the same relationship.

What if Shang Qinghua reincarnates as Nie Huaisang? I can easily picture Shang Qinghua going all "I don't know! I don't know... I really don't know!"

Who would Mobei-Jun be? I think the most important person to Nie Huaisang : Nie Mingjue.

Nie Mingjue is that overprotective older brother that scolds his little (half-)brother in order to make him stronger. He wants Nie Huaisang to learn how to fight, and to bring honour to their sect. But most of all, he wants Nie Huaisang to be able to protect himself. Nie Mingjue's cultivation uses resentful energy, that's why he's prone to Qi deviation. He knows he isn't going be around for long, so he wants his brother to be prepared for the day he wouldn't be there for him. It's clearly more about Nie Huaisang than the Sect, since as we can notice, he may look mean in others' eyes for regularly shouting at and scaring him, forcing him to study this and that, more often than not, he ends up indulging his wants and needs (letting him play and paint paper fans and such). Nie Mingjue is a man of little words, a warrior, his speeches are succinct but when it comes to expressing feelings, he's quite awkward. His actions speak louder than words, at least for anyone who knows how to read the signs. And read Nie Huaisang knows how to.

Nie Huaisang is a fearful young master, who clearly prefers literature and any other art over fighting. He's an average cultivator, would be too useless in the Sunshot Campaign and, due to his position as heir, should better stay protected in the Unclean Realm. That's Chifeng-Zun's reasoning, the Nie disciples say, not knowing their Sect Leader is for once, awfully relieved his brother didn't do well in Cloud Recesses. He's not sure how Lan Xichen can still stay composed, knowing Lan Wangji is off somewhere fighting Wen cultivators.

Nie Huaisang isn't suited for combat, and many cultivators look down on him for his average strength and unwillingness to be involved in any sect matter. As shown in multiple occasions, Nie Huaisang doesn't get any respect from fellow cultivators and villagers alike, whether from his time as a yound master or as a sect leader. He's too cowardly and a dimwit who didn't pass his exams back in Cloud Recesses.

Nie Huaisang is also secretly an angry, bitter man. He's actually clever and, though he doesn't show it, he picks up on elements and learns about the traitor Jin Guangyao is. He acts pitiful but hates, hates the one who abused of his brother's trust to kill him, who teared him away from his life. And he plans, he gathers informations, leads all the other sects against Jin Guangyao and tracks him down to avenge his lost brother. As long as he gets what he dearly wishes for, it doesn't matter that he looks spineless or acts insidiously.

On the one hand, I think Nie Huaisang and Nie Mingjue being respectively Shang Qinghua and Mobei-Jun's reincarnation would be quite fitting. On the other hand, it would mean their story ends on a sad note, since Nie Mingjue's soul has been sealed and thus, can't enter the cycle of reincarnation (from what I can remember).

(Edit: But Nie Huaisang will find a way out and they will live another life together bcz fated means fated)

But it could be rather Shang Qinghua and Mobei-Jun being Nie Huaisang and Nie Mingjue's reincarnation. Airplane suffered much in his life until post-canon in SVSSS, it could be some sort of karma since Nie Huaisang had been cruel at times during his revenge session. Nie Huaisang also managed to get Nie Mingjue's soul into the cycle of reincarnation because of course he would try to find a solution for his brother, lest he would be forever sealed with his enemy-killer! Maybe in exchange he had to give up on his life (Nie Huaisang's) and/or have a bad karma for the next (Airplane's). Am I veering into too much angst? Sorry. Nie Mingjue used and died from resentful energy so he became a full-blown demon :D

(Does it mean Luo Binghe is Wei Wuxian? Uhh idk, I just made a last-minute correlation. And I mean, not everyone has to be reincarnated in the same period, in the same world. Though Yue Qingyuan gives me a Lan Xichen vibe. Would Lan Wangji become Shen Qingqiu then? It's more complicated to see, the Guqin and the elegance asides, they seem quite different.)

#moshang #shang qinghua #mobei jun #svsss #pidw #nie huaisang #nie mingjue #mdzs

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sunshinetoshi · 3 years

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damn i hate you for writing that oikawa angst like my heart hurt a lot and that letter? i cried, i literally cried in the middle of my English lecture bye this is pain a lot of pain i didn't ask for when at 9:47 in the morning specially when we were analyzing a sad poetry called Dark House by Tennyson.

aND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOR WRITING IT OUT SO BEAUTIFULLY??? buckle up bubs, this will be a long ride.

ok so in the first part, i love how you expressed the more cheerful side of the relationship? like, how perfect everything was or maybe for the reader how perfect everything is. and that 'he cheated on you' really hit the spot. it was like, those 4 words to end a chapter that was so sweet in the beginning amaya big brain energy.

aND THE THE PAIN IN THE SECOND PART ONWARDS OMFG honestly idk i'm over exaggerating but personally, i think that really hurt me. bcz i expected an explanation, why oikawa cheated. did he fall out of love? was the other girl better? i expected those cliché excuses as i'm used to see in other fics. but then you really said nah amie, you're being clowned and then pull up the 'he said i love you, he didn't say i'm in love with you' card.

that was a minimal but important detail and i love how the whole story revolves around that. it actually describes how loving someone, and being in love with someone are completely different things.

and don't even get me started on the letter. i was in the middle of english lecture and then i started crying??? i'm so glad my camera of off. i don't have much to say here bcz i'm not sober lol i'm writing this with half teary eyes, running off coffee while working out physics lmfao but i'm in love with your word selection. just the right words to explain a single emotion <333

lowkey stabilized in part 4 because yes, but it hurt to read that tooru did that camera thingy and then the reader watched his matches. wanna see how the last part turns out omg

to sum it up, this is just an ask as a req. to add me in the taglist of this masterpiece 😌✋

AMIE!! I WANT TO PUT THIS WHOLE ASK ON A POSTER AND HANG IT UP IN MY ROOM WHAT. YOU'RE SO SWEET AND KIND OMG ILY. I WILL THINK ABOUT THIS ASK EVERY DAY NOW AHH

wait fr you cried?? 🥺🥺 aw bub sorry for the pain i will give consolation hugs heheh

HAHA when i was writing the end of part one i was like 'ooo cue the dramatic music'

AHH when you replied to my post earlier saying you felt pain and hadn't read part 2 yet i wasn't sure if i should warn you that part 2 hurt me more akjdkshd. FR THO I CRIED WRITING PART 2 OMG. AND MORE THAN ONCE. all your commentary in this ask has me freaking out omg

i get so soft when people say they actually felt things from the letter!! cause writing it was a struggle to try and put myself in his shoes akdjskd but the reception part three got exceeded my expectations and it makes me so sensitive AHH

OFC I WILL ADD YOU TO THE TAGLIST <33

pls i am so appreciative that you took time out of your day to write this up and send to me 💓💓 it's hard to put into words how i feel but ty for the support bb

#did i tear up reading this ask??#m a y b e 🤸‍♀️🤸‍♀️#did i also reread it MANY times??#also m a y b e 🤸‍♀️🤸‍♀️#ty ty amie ❣❣#amaya chitter chatters #amie 🖤

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gaycrouton · 5 years

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I just hate how in season 9 the attention simply shifted to reyes/doggett. Like i understand it's titled the xfiles but still it was the story of mulder and scully. Bcz it suddenly shifted to 2 new characters, then the ratings dropped.

Sorry it took my 500 years to answer this, I actually just started learning I was in the minority about this recently and it reminded me of this ask.

So HERE ARE MY OPINIONS ABOUT SEASON NINE THAT LITERALLY NO ONE ASKED FOR.

I will start off by saying S9 holds sentimental value for me. I was binging there at the end before S11 came out so I could catch up and I ended up being able to enjoy s9 on my winter break with my mom

Again, I just want to establish that this is my opinion. I’m not saying I’m right, this is just how I view it having watched it about two years ago (with multiple revisits since).

I fucking love season nine. Honestly, I like it a wee bit more than I like season eight.

I know, I know. “But there was no Mulder.” Yo, I was hella sad too, but I won’t lie when I say Scully is more important of a character for me. We enter the show with her. Scully is the audience’s lense and connection point into a universe that Mulder is willing to dive into that seems outlandish and bizzare to those unfamiliar (including Scully and the audience). Her skepticism is felt by the viewers week by week. Scully saying “wtf does untied shoelaces have to do with vampires” is us. Her seeking and gaining knowledge serves to help the audience continue on these quests. As I say this, I’m not saying Mulder is worthless, but I am saying that a show where we have to cover all bases in order to prove something is more dynamic and has more room for possibilities than one where someone just believes.

And I’m more attracted to Gillian Anderson sooo…..

But that’s besides the point and I’m going off on tangents. What I mean to say with all of this is that the show can survive without Mulder but it would struggle without Scully. Should it have both? Fuck yeah. But it’s already happened and it doesn’t so I don’t see why we can’t love the content provided. I know it had to have been hard when that was the end, but it isn’t anymore so I think hostilities need to change surrounding it.

Side note: I think my main difference between Season 8 and Season 9 is that, okay Mulder’s gone, but what are the circumstances surrounding his absence and how is Scully dealing? I can watch with less of a heavy heart when I know Mulder’s fine (which technically I always do, but I digress). For most of eight all I could fear was “is Mulder dead/going to die” and that was on Scully’s mind too which lead to some great acting (read: GREAT FUCKING ACTING) but it also gave a lot of the episodes a negative air to them (in my opinion) whereas nine felt just ever so slightly more light hearted (ofc not counting post-William) because she knew he was fine, she just missed him. Do I love angst? Fuck yeah, but god, half of season eight was the Scully season of Depression and I was fuckin depressed about it too :(

Season Nine has some baller episodes tbh.

Are they all good? No, but almost every season with few exceptions have some stinker episodes. I hate it when people act like all nine was trash.

I think season nine was so poignant bc they knew (at the time) it was the end, so it was lovely to me to see their meta commentary throughout (re: the episode Sunshine Days) So many episodes were interesting to me and fun. IF YOU DON’T LIKE THE BURT REYNOLDS EPISODE, OR AT LEAST THE GARAGE SCENE, IDK HOW TO RELATE.

I’m about to get very tangental because I have a lot of thoughts, but also I LOVE MONICA AND DOGGETT. I love we got to see more of Monica in nine and I think they all worked great together. Of course, I also don’t enjoy Scully was a side character, but GA has made it known she had a longer contract than David had or whatever, so who’s to say she asked for a smaller role? I don’t mind bc I genuinely find Monica and Doggett compelling. Maybe this is all me diverting from hardcore shipper mode to objectvely looking at the show, bc as a shipper yeah 8 and 9 are harder bc of the separation, but content wise as the show the X Files wants to be, I think it’s doing great.

It’s been said before, but Frank Spotniz said it himself at X-Fest, it was cancelled because of 9/11, not because people hated the new characters. In fact, he said ratings were starting to go up in season nine. But I digress. I just don’t like it when people make it out that Monica Reyes and John Doggett or xyz ruined the show. It simply was no longer what the culture needed at the time.

I’m spending too much time on this rant no one is going to read, so I’m going to cap it here.

TL;DR - I AM IN A FANCLUB OF ONE AND REALLY LIKE SEASON NINE AND I WISH PEOPLE WERE NICER TO IT. YES, WE ALL MISS MULDER, BUT THEY ALL WORKED HARD AND WHY BASH THE CONTENT WE WERE GIVEN?

#x files #gaycrouton #:(#plz be nice to season nine #and I dont wanna start a fight #just my opinion

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nct-dream-team · 7 years

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⭐Going to cafes with Haechan⭐

//I was trying to keep a positive mood while writing this but I have my angst playlist on because I ran outta cupcakes yesterday and now I’m sad//

-requested by @cryinggoutloud-

♥ When your on a date, Haechan likes to take you to the same place which is this one cafe ♥ Mainly because of the memories ♥ Or the old couple that runs it that always gives you free muffins ♥ Mainly the last one bcz he’s prob a cheapskate ♥ You guys never change what you get from there?? ♥ If you do get something different, he probably begs for a small bit ♥ By a small bit, he probably eats ¾ of it I suck at fractions ♥ You guys love going in the Winter and sitting by the window ♥ The snow always looks pretty ♥ Plus you can write “Haechan is an idiot” on the steam buildup on the window :) ♥ Sometimes you drink hot cocoa in the summer just to annoy him ♥ “[y/n] that’s not how summer works!11!!1” ♥ Roasting people as they walk by the cafe ♥ Imagine you and him just snorting every time someone you hate walks by ♥ Since you go there so much, the Dream Team knows where to go if he skips practice ♥ “Hyuck gotta love young love, but gotta love practic– GET YOUR BUTT BACK HERE” –Mark Lee 2k17 ♥ Once on your 2nd anniversary he bought everything at the store that was in stock ♥ He ate most of it although ♥ The couple there absolutely loves you guys though ♥ They probably offered to plan your wedding tbh ♥ You got your first job there because they overhead you talking about getting a job ♥ Whenever Hyuck is on break he comes to tease see you and buy some cocoa to go ♥ Ain’t that just adorable (⌒ω⌒)

sorry its short I’m just kinda sick and can’t concentrate on writing ty ily guys 💕💕

#nct #nct dream #nct 127 #nct u #nct haechan #haechan #donghyuck #taeyong #nct scenarios #nct drabbles #nct headcanon #nct chenle #nct mark #mark lee #haechan nct #kpop #kpop masterlist #kpop icons

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