#TODAY is the day i learned it was water

[coffeeshib]

pool day

#today is not the day i will learn how to draw good water 😩 #caitvi #arcane #league of legends #caitlyn kiramman #vi #lesbian #piltover's finest #my art

[obsob]

a redraw of ‘lament for icarus’ by herbert james draper ✷

#mine #heheHEHEHE #this was a little tricky to figure out colour wise but i did it!! #orange overlay orange multiply my beloved #also made him trans bc. i can. #DONT look at the rocks too hard okay i. i was tired by that point #and the water also thats meant to be a straight line some how it is diagonal #they are going downhill its fine #owhh today we went to a stately home bc my mum got national trust membership heehe #my god that was a home. i havent been to one like it there was a huge hallway #im talking like. very large. lined w tapestries n paintings #i like. wanna learn how to oil paint low key high key. its not rlly a good time for me to learn that now but....one day #i gotta figure out portraits first hehe #i want to draw. realistic. portraits. bring my gcse art dream to life #i think i can do that. it will just..take time. idk how to learn that skajfbsdjkbs #n also need to find my way of doing it artistic language etc etc #ihg my leggies hurt. lots of walking #im going to play some hollow knight i think then go 2 bed #tomorrow is turning into a house task day it seems. maybe i will also try 2 figure out portrait hehe #i'll add id tomorrow!!

[skeletalheartattack]

im showing my friend clanker the awesome six eggs and single ice key i found today

#happy easter clanker #for the past three days ive just been playing banjo kazooie for fun #ended originally with a time of 8:22:12 #but that changed when i wanted to try getting the stop n swop stuff for the first time on my copy of banjo #so the final time is 9:32:33 #i forgot how much i disliked rusty bucket bay. good lord that engine room and stinky bad water #every other level was fine. though i got so confused at first as to what jiggy i was missing in click clock woods #it was just the one on the branch at the very top of the tree. i wouldve never found it had i not looked it up #notes and honeycombs though? did those purely from memory #jiggies too i guess minus the single 1 out of 100 #which i think is better than what i was hoping to achieve playing without a guide #i didnt get all mumbo tokens though. i DID get the ones you could easily lose if done wrong though. #i need 7 more mumbo tokens basically to reach 100% #i was also very tempted to 100% gruntys furnace fun (i.e. all squares) but. at a point i was like ''hm. no lets not'' #maybe someday. just not then. #i managed to blind guess a lot of grunty questions though #only talked to her sister like. once. and i didnt get any of those questions on the quiz #oh yknow whats fucked up? that one shortcut between rusty bucket bay and mad monster mansions puzzle #you cant break the gate for it if you raise the water level too high #also it took me until today to learn that CheatO's cheats are upgrades and not... cheats #fucked up. but i didnt have too much problems without it. <- he died to grunty once only cause he got knocked off the tower #anyway sorry for the strange photo quality. played on my n64 on an old crt ive had. and i only have a lamp on in my room. #its not as dark as it looks in the image atleast #i also learned that banjo kazooie has way more cheats than i ever knew about #before collecting all the stop n swop stuff. i gave myself the infinite air underwater cheat cause. god. #its so nice to swim around with any anxiety. mostly just used it to swim with clanker for a bit. :). #didnt need it for any other reasons. i done collected everything else girlies #though kid me used a lot of cheat codes in tooie. only because i had a magazine that had all the codes #i 100%'d that one a few years ago i think. jiggies atleast. i think. #anyway. :) clanker

[forcodsake]

just learned that "remember remember the 5th of november" has nothing to do with destiel and is originally about an attempted domestic terrorist attack on parliament a few centuries ago

#destiel #history #today i learned #supernatural #my whole world is turned upside down actually #imagine having having the destielputinelection on the same day that people tried to blow up parliament #there is something in the water with nov 5 #nov 5 #november 5th

[itwoodbeprefect]

i'm very wary of suggestion algorithms and i could come up with a whole list of reasons why their increasing ubiquity is Annoying or even outright Bad, but. on letterboxd, these are the first three suggestions for "similar films" to purple noon, which is a movie based on the book the talented mr. ripley:

and you might note that these suggestions are, in order, 1) another movie based on the talented mr. ripley, 2) another another movie based on the talented mr. ripley, and 3) the algorithm going "... so i hear you like gay people doing murder for terrible reasons?" and, look, alright. i'll have to give the suggestion algorithms this one.

#however! today is also the day i learned that youtube now offers suggested videos at the very end of my carefully curated fanvid playlists #and those suggestions are invariably just random music videos. based on video length and musical content i suppose #so i UNDERSTAND how they got there but also! oh my god. no. i'm spritzing youtube with a water bottle and saying STOP THAT very firmly #which i mention to illustrate that unfortunately this one letterboxd bullseye has not put an end to my feud with algorithmic suggestions #*

[blujayonthewing]

love to buy water filters in case the local water gets poisoned and air purifiers in case the local air gets poisoned

#we already have air purifiers upstairs actually because of I don't remember why #suspicion of allergies I think? #but a) I've discovered today that this kind of purifier emits?? ozone??? so we shouldn't be running them all the time lmao??? #and b) they're The Size Of That Room so when I'm downstairs or when I've been sleeping in the guest room because of back problems... #it is not a very efficient kind for household use but I bought a water purifier that I've BEEN wanting for wilderness reasons #... shortly after the chemical spills in ohio #and it depressed me deeply :') #got a back country water filter for camping three days before learning there's PFAs in Literally All Water! #got a more robust purifier not for fun and camping but in case of tap water becoming undrinkable from failing infrastructure!! #and I've got it GOOD relatively speaking!! I've been in the 'nervously watching everywhere ELSE get fucked' part of the country #just waiting for michigan's inevitable turn #how am I gonna be an optimist about this #about me

[milo-is-rambling]

Some bird images for you all

#as of today he has learned how to land on my shoulder and how to climb up on my #hand and he lets me pet his head and neck and really all of him he’s super cute #he’s a biter but I don’t let him hurt me at all I don’t let it like jump me I just keep him on my hand #he’s super sweet and mostly well behaved. he head bobs and repeats sounds I make and hes learning to flip and go upside down while hanging #from my hand #he’s so cool I’m so happy with him #and I think I’m gonna clean his cage every three days instead of weekly #I cleaned it this morning and it just seems right to space it out like that based on how messy he’s gotten so far #I’ll change his water and make sure he’s got food in the mornings. clean his cage and vacuum my room a couple times a week #this seems good. I think I can handle this and just have him work his way into my daily routine instead of disrupting it #🪩 #also I’ve decided one of his nicknames is lucky. idk why. when I think of him I think of the name lucky. and that one Britney Spears song

[onepiexe]

on god. why.

#logbook #parent mention #mother rent out here making me lose my mind. she scheduled the tire apt for today 😭 bro. i have shit to do today. like actually. #ok well. im not going by myself so if shes not coming then too bad so sad shouldnt have scheduled it without asking 🙄 #thats what happened when they scheduled a dentist apt and i was like no its in the middle of the day i have work. #and then they ignored me until the day before and got mad and i was like i told you THE DAY YOU ASKED no and you all ignored me. #and they asked over text and then assumed when i didnt answer that it was fine. no i answered in person and then we texted abt other stuff. #its soooo funny theyre the ppl who preach communication they learned from work and one from a DEGREE #ans then turn around and pull this shit. like. yeah youre right i learned abt communication from you 😶 #the sad thing is ppl are so shocked by how much i want to/will communicate esp abt job stuff. and how efficient i am abt it too. #like yeah sorry my parents are shit so most things i do / try to do are bc i dont want to be them. like ever. and yet. #anyways gm guess i'll make my tea water plants and let them soak while i shower.

[albonium]

i need to shower and sleep but i'm too lazy to get up and do it 😭

#i had a night shift and i had to empty the sand from the water jet cutter #shoulder deep in the machine i had sand on my armpit 😭😭😭😭😭 #i hate it thankfully they rented a huge one that will only need to be cleaned out p #one time per month instead of every day bc i can't stand it anymore and our colleagues are lying on the maintenance check list #to avoid doing it #ALSO TODAY I LEARNED that they never empty it completely out of laziness while i've been doing it thoroughly and squicky clean EAch TIME

[aceloha]

#I thought when I signed up for my summer school it would only be a few weeks each corse and it would take only a few hours out of my day #but nooooooo #I was signed up for both courses at the same time and it starts today and ends not even a full week before real school starts up #and because I have to do two courses it will take pretty much my entire day each day to do #so because this back water country can’t accept the fact I did a full year of world history I am going to be locked in my room for 3 months #learning about greedy ass Europeans that invaded this land just so I can graduate this year #I fucking love this

[a9saga]

tbt - hachi (feat. miku & gumi) - matryoshka // we love an electronic steampunk vocaloid duet

#nah the art is awesome #i didnt know matryoshka was the name of those russian nesting dolls #you learn something new every day #i had no idea qhat the fuck to post today #i wasnt gonna have a better song rec than last week #sandy's worrying me today she's not eating a lot but she just threw up a bunch of grass around noon today #and i mean like... a loooot of grass #and a lot of water #youre 14 years old girl what are you doing eating all this grass now #my poor girl it makes me sad :( #song rec #vocaloid #hachi #hatsune miku #gumi megpoid #tbt #shut up kaily

[shinkai-kaiju]

tbh once i get Space Going [tm] it would be cool to get back to linocut/screenprinting. I miss the more physical arts that dont have me up for over 24 hours in an arguably insane state working on a project that'll get dropped within seconds after i take a break bc my brain decided its not good/theres no point to it

BUUUT more importantly i wonder. just how viable it would be as a printing method for me. I'd need a rack to dry things on, but it could be cool to sell some small linos whenever I get to opening up shop. My linos have always been more consistent than my screenprints when it comes to making a series, but I really do prefer screenprinting...

(and lithography isnt viable at this time bc i do NOT have the necessary chemicals/kitchen lithography doesnt work anymore apparently??)

#i HAVE to finish this blender model now. sunk cost fallacy save me #chatty today it seems! a rarity from me! i am usually hiding in a hole too scared to do that! #i dont think anime/game fans rlly have a. desire or want for those kinds of printing styles tbh? #and my linos tend to border on blasphemous idolstry and nudity (depending on the day usually) #so idk! but it would be neat. i like carving things #tbh i wanna learn to get meticulous about it bc theres a specific artist who's work i like n i wanna get mine like here #but. alas. humidity maybhavr a factor #also kitchen litho needs an acrylic paint an oily pencil or sharpie (i think?) coca cola and water. you use the coke to etch alukinum foil #but we tried several times n couldnt get it to work #kitchen litho relies on the acids and gum arabic in soda but maybe coke doesnt have gum arabic anymore? or foil is unetchable now? #in terms of acrylic olate: drypoints are fun and i saved a bunch of garbage plexiglass sheets for the purpose of doing more drypoints #but! those def arent for seling tbh. the line quality isnt as good as it is on other materials #ALSO intaglio is STRAIGHT out. too many chemicals and i am never rocking a plate like that for minimal payoff ever again

[pibsboots]

I've always had chronic fatigue. I remember being twelve, and an adult mentioned how I couldn't possibly know how tired they felt because adulthood brought levels of exhaustion I couldn't imagine. I thought about that for days in fear, because I couldn't remember the last time I didn't feel tired.

Eventually I came to terms with the fact that I was just tired, and I couldn't do as many things as everyone else. People called me lazy, and I knew that wasn't true, but there's only so many times you can say "I'm tired" before people think it's an excuse. I don't blame them. When a teenager does 20 hours of extracurriculars every week and only says "I'm too tired" when you ask them to do the dishes, it's natural to think it's an excuse. At some point, I started to think the same thing.

It didn't matter that I could barely sit up. It was probably all in my head, and if I really wanted to, I could do it.

When I learned the name for it, chronic fatigue, I thought wow, people that have that must be miserable, because I am always tired and I cannot imagine what it would feel like if it were worse.

Spoiler alert, if you've been tired for a decade, it's probably chronic fatigue.

Once I figured that out though, I thought of my energy as the same as everyone else's, just smaller in quantity. And that might be true for some people, but I've figured out recently that it absolutely isn't true for me.

I used to be like wow I have so much energy today I can do this whole list for sure! And then I'd do the dishes and have to lay down for 2 hours. Then I'd think I must gave misjudged that, I didn't have as much energy as I thought.

But the thing is - I did have enough energy for more tasks, I just didn't go about them properly.

With chronic fatigue, your maximum energy is obviously much smaller than the average person's. Doing the dishes for you might use up the same percentage of energy that it takes to do all the daily chores for someone else.

If someone without chronic fatigue was to do all the daily chores, they would take breaks. Because otherwise, they're sprinting a marathon for no reason and it would take way more energy than necessary. We have to do the same.

Put the cups in the dishwasher, take a break. Put the bowls in, take a break. So on and so forth. This may mean taking breaks every 2-5 minutes but afterwards, you get to not feel like you've run a marathon while carrying 4 people on your back.

Today, I had a moderate amount of energy. Under my old system of go till you drop, I probably could have done most of the dishes and wiped off the counter and then been dead to the world for the rest of the day.

Under the new system, I scooped litter boxes, cleaned out the fridge, took the trash out, cleaned the stove, and wiped off the counter and did all the dishes. And after all that, I still had it in me to make a simple dinner, unload the dishwasher, and tidy the kitchen.

It was complete and utter insanity. Just because I sat down whenever I felt myself getting more tired than I already was.

All this to say, take fucking breaks. It's time to unlearn the ceaseless productivity bullshit that capitalism has shoved down our throats. Its actively counterproductive. Just sit down. Drink some water. Rest your body when it needs to rest.

There will still be days where there is nothing to do but rest, and days where half a load of dishes is absolutely the most I can do. But this method has really helped me minimize those, which is so incredibly relieving.

#chronic illness #chronic fatigue #chronic pain

[darknight3904]

It Burns For You

𝕊𝕦𝕞𝕞𝕒𝕣𝕪: ɪɴ ᴡʜɪᴄʜ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀɴᴅ ᴄᴏʀʏᴏ ɢʀᴏᴡ ᴜᴘ ᴛᴏɢᴇᴛʜᴇʀ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴀᴘɪᴛᴏʟ ᴀɴᴅ ᴏɴᴇ ᴅᴀʏ ᴄʀᴏꜱꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ʟɪɴᴇꜱ ʙᴇᴛᴡᴇᴇɴ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅꜱ

𝕎𝕒𝕣𝕟𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕤: ɴᴏɴᴇ, ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ꜰʟᴜꜰꜰ. ᴏᴏᴄ ᴄᴏʀʏᴏ, ʜᴇ'ꜱ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴛᴏᴛᴀʟʟʏ ʜᴇᴀᴅ ᴏᴠᴇʀ ʜᴇᴇʟꜱ ꜰᴏʀ ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ. ᴄʜᴇᴄᴋ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴍʏ ᴍᴀꜱᴛᴇʀʟɪꜱᴛ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴍʏ ᴡʀɪᴛɪɴɢ!

ᴘᴀʀᴛ ᴛᴡᴏ

Coriolanus is 12 when he sees you for the first time. Your red uniform is pressed perfectly and your school bag looks brand new. Your lunch consisted of a hearty-looking sandwich with roast beef and lettuce and a container of fresh fruit that had his mouth-watering.

"Do you want a piece? Our maid always packs too much and I can never finish it. You can have some if you want." Your voice fills his ears

A delicate-looking hand is holding a juicy-looking strawberry in front of him. He reaches for it and it takes every ounce of self-control he has not to shove it in his mouth. Instead, he takes a small bite and thanks you for sharing.

"Don't you have a lunch today?" You ask

He doesn't. The school had said they would start supplying the students with lunches soon but how soon? Coriolanus had already been attending for a number of years and still nothing.

"I already ate it." He lied

"You're still hungry though. You can have the rest." You say with a smile as you push your fruit bowl to him.

"Is it your first day?" He asks

"Yes, my mother thought that my governess wasn't doing a good job so she had my father enroll me here. I miss being at home with my new kitten though. She has long white hair and she is the cutest thing in the whole world." You said

Coriolanus can't believe that you had your own governess, let alone a pet to call your own. He later learns from Arachne that your father became incredibly rich by manufacturing weaponry for the Capitol. Despite your inherent wealth, you've never flashed it around him.

You and Coriolanus are 15 when you discover all the lies he tells at school about his family. He had left his uniform jacket behind on his chair and you got his home address from Sejanus, meaning to give it back so he'd have it for tomorrow. Instead, you had discovered the Snow's decrepit-looking building and barely functioning penthouse. Coriolanus' heart nearly stops when he emerges from his room to see you and his Grandma'am sitting together as she compliments your shoes.

"What are you doing here?" He asks, ready for your judgment and teasing words

"I wanted to return your jacket, Coryo. You'll need it for tomorrow."

The red of the jacket in your arms matches his face as he ushers you to the door, trying to hide the fact that Tigris was preparing cabbage in the kitchen that would undoubtedly stink the entire place up with the scent of the Snow's poverty.

"Stop rushing me, your cousin invited me to stay for dinner." You say trying to stop the way he is leading you to the door.

"You don't want what she is making. Tigris is a terrible cook." He said

Tigris lets out a shout of disagreement from the stove and Coriolanus ignores it.

"How about, I go out and get something to add to the meal Tigris is cooking, and by the time I get back you change your attitude about me staying for dinner Coryo. "

And with that, you walk out the door and slam it in his face. He's rather stunned at your declaration but knows you're serious. He rushes around their home, trying to clean up what he can while Tigris laughs at his frantic motions. Then, just as he was debating whether or not he wanted to change out of his uniform, you return from your short trip to the closest market.

"I wasn't sure what Tigris is cooking so I got a couple of things." You say placing the bags on the table.

Coriolanus is sure you spent a fortune on what is in these bags. Fresh bread accompanied by a sickly sweet fruit spread and a block of butter sits in one while the other holds something else in a brown box. You take your seat next to him at the ugly little table he has eaten too many meals at and cut a piece of the bread for Grandma'am. He is worried when Tigris starts portioning out the cabbage she cooked on the stove. Coriolanus watches your expression as you take a bite but nothing that he expected happens. You don't knit your brows in disgust or get up to leave and take your fresh bread and mysterious box with you. Instead, you go back for a second bite and compliment what Tigris has done with the food.

He sits stiffly next to you and can barely accept the slice of bread you offer him. You excuse yourself to use the bathroom and Tigris reaches across the table and pinches his shoulder.

"Stop sitting like that, Coryo!" She scolds

"Like what?" He asks,aware that Tigris meant how oddly straight his back was.

"You're making her uncomfortable. You've been friends with her for years she isn't worried about what our home looks like." Tigris says

"She might not be but what happens when she goes to school tomorrow and talks?" He asks

He shuts up when he hears the sound of the bathroom door opening again.

"That was lovely Tigris. I've never had anything like it, I'll have to invite you all to my own home for dinner sometime. Our cook makes these pastries that are simply wonderful. They even get sold at local markets, which leads to this..."

His eyes widen when you finally unveil what was hiding in that second bag. A dozen expensive looking deserts sit in the brown box you brought, each one decorated differently.

"I hope I picked something everyone would like. I know Coryo mentioned that Grandma'am liked chocolate so I picked this one just for her."

Coriolanus feels a wide smile stretch across his face as you pass out your little desserts. His worries about you gossiping to their peers fade from view as he bites into what he thinks is a croissant. You laugh at his reaction and toss a napkin at his face which is most likely covered in the gooey fruit filling that was in his pastry.

He walks you back to your home that night and thanks you for making his night. He can't remember the last time Grandma'am had smiled from eating chocolate. You accept his thanks and gently tell him that he shouldn't be ashamed about his financial situation. He never gets to disagree with you though because a soft kiss is pressed to his lips followed by a rushed,

"Goodnight, Coryo! Thanks for the cabbage!"

He walks back to his own home with a jump in his step. Thoughts of you consume him as he smiles to himself, proud his first kiss was shared with you. He feels his heart burn with something that felt like it was going to come up and out his mouth as he finally made it back to his room, you officially had him wrapped around your finger.

Your room is flooded with sunlight the first time Coriolanus sees it. A soft, silky-looking bed spread sits atop one of the biggest beds he has seen as you beckon to your cat, Maisy to come and say hello to him. He looks at the oversized wooden dresser that sits against one wall. He sees the photograph of him and you that was taken a few weeks ago at your 17th birthday party nestled among little knickknacks. Books Coriolanus has never even heard of line your shelves as he you place a record on the player that sits on your desk. Soft sounds of a piano and the words from an unnamed singer fill your gorgeous room as he turns to you.

"Do you want to dance?" He finds himself asking

You accept and he leads you or well tries to. You're rather stiff and it turns out dancing is harder than it looks because he isn't any good at it either. You laugh as he trips over his feet and end up falling with him, landing on the ground entangled in each other. Your fingers brush his curls from his eyes as his nose brushes yours.

"What're you doing?" You ask quietly

"Nothing." He responds, his eyes flicking to your lips.

The moment his lips touch yours, a tingle shoots down his spine. This is a real kiss, not what you gave him when you were both 15. He cups your face and your hands are tangled in his hair as he deepens it. He felt his head spin as you moved against him, almost as if you wanted him to swallow you whole right here on your bedroom floor. A giddy feeling swelled in his chest when he pulled away for air.

"Coryo...what was that?" You ask

"I thought you'd know by now. That was a kiss, darling." He laughed brushing his thumb across your lip

"I know that...but why'd you give me one?" You ask

"Don't you know?" He smiles and places a chaste kiss on your lips "My heart, it burns for you, it always has."

Part 2 is out now!

Series Masterlist

#the hunger games #fanfic #coriolanus snow #coriolanus x reader #coriolanus snow x reader #katniss everdeen #mockingjay #peeta mellark #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #lucy gray baird #tom blyth #rachel zegler #jennifer lawrence #coriolanus snow fluff #coriolanus x you #sejanus plinth #tbosas #thg #young coriolanus snow #coriolanus snow smut

[idkwhatimdoingbutpersonal]

First ever pride parade is happening in my region this month and the stars simply aren’t aligning :(

#was gonna try to say I’m just going to the library but the day it’s on just won’t work 😭 #(say that excuse to my fam cuz obvi) #and it’s only an hour and a half #idk if most parades are an hour and a half but I wish it was longer so I could have more wiggle room #there’s always next year 🤷🏾‍♀️ #but this is the first !!! #I’m pretty sure there was a drag Queen reading today at the library too that I could’ve gone to but forgot and it was probably for kids so #it would be awk 🏃🏾‍♀️ #ugh being in the closet and not having a ton of free reign is hard work #somebody get me a bottle of water I’m sweating over here #shlayed fr #I’ve gotta start going outside omd I’m missing out #edit cuz this has been in my drafts: JUST LEARNED BUSSES DONT RUN ON SUNDAYS HERE ???? WHAT ????

[no-one-hears-me]

the past is gone

#there are some people that I'm not gonna see in my future. gotta decide who #tired of dealing with certain people and the misery that it brings me #such a shame to see people go. I've loved them and I always will #but they don't see me the same way and it's time to leave the past in the past #anyways. I wanna fast today but I didn't plan it so I'm not prepared so it won't go well #btw. I've never seen a proana blog talk about fasting properly don't take advice from them they don't know what they're doing #don't take any ed advice from them realistically. restricting like that isn't sustainable and it's not even efficient #since I know what I'm doing you should take ed advice from me. eat 3 meals a day and drink plenty of water and enjoy your life #I can't give ed advice bc I'm too good at it. you can't find this anywhere else I've had to learn through years of personal experience #also just don't have an ed. like that's obviously the advice I was giving where I said to eat 3 meals a day but fr do that #there's a lot of proana blogs following me and idk why since I'm not one of them I just post ed vents #idc who follows me and I don't hate the proana people bc they're just mentally ill too. I understand them #I've spent some time on proana tumblr I just never posted like that bc I don't wanna encourage ed behaviors #also bc they're wrong lmao #this is gonna sound super fucked and ik that sorry. but I have never seen a proana blogger skinnier than me but they're way more passionate #you can't eat a cucumber and diet coke daily go eat some protein and maybe some delicious pasta #eating the least amount of calories possible doesn't help anything it just makes you feel proud of yourself #eating some good mexican food will make you feel good tho trust me 🙏 so will eating proper meals throughout the day #Sera