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#THEM AND THEIR LITTLE HATS AND THEIR SCREAMS
peachesofteal · 2 hours
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Cool Girl
Ghoap x female reader / 18+ / masterlist
Your hand is shaking again.
It’s a defense mechanism or something, you think. Some physical manifestation of your anxiety. Something psychological, you’re sure of it.
It’s the only thing you’re sure of, if you’re being honest.
You stalk home as fast as you can, scowl affixed to your face like it’s been cemented there, seeping deep into your frown lines, etching them like a chisel on marble.
The walk sobers you. Brings you back to rational sense, little by little.
You shouldn’t have called them. You’re so dumb. You’re asking for trouble.
But is it so bad, to want to cause an emotional reaction? To want them to be as miserable as you?
It’s pathetic. A way to seek validation. A mistake.
One you’re sure you’re going to pay for.
Your front door is unlocked.
The door pushes open nearly on its own, and your eyes struggle to adjust in the pitch black of your hallway. No light from the street spills from the living room, which means the drapes have been drawn closed.
Your heart leaps into your ears, pounding between your temples at a frenzied pace.
It’s fine. You’re fine. It’s probably them.
What if it’s not? Do you have a weapon? A way to defend yourself? You find your pepper spray in your bag, readying it between trembling fingers.
“Hello?” You call.
Nothing.
“Hello… if you’re in my flat, you better-“ a firm hand grips back of your neck, like a viper assaulting its prey, and you scream.
“It’s me.” Simon murmurs into your hair, touching over your pulse. “Jus’ me.”
“You scared the shit out of me,” you twist out of his grip, fumbling for the lights.
When they flick on, you blink a few times to adjust.
He’s a sight for sore eyes in joggers, a black sweatshirt, black hat.
His eyes burn. They scald you, roving from top to toe, his mouth sealed in a scowl. “Have a nice night, sweetheart?”
You gulp. “I- I did.”
“Thought you were clever with that phone call?”
“I… I didn’t think-“
“You didn’t.” He cuts you off, and then points to living room. “Go sit on the couch.” Your hand trembles against your chest, and you hang your head.
Got the attention you wanted?
“Where’s Johnny?” You whisper as he takes the seat next to you, massive shoulders turning so he can peer downwards.
“Decided this was better to handle on my own.” Your heart squeezes painfully in your chest.
“Oh.” Simon takes a deep breath, eyeing your shaking hand, and then shakes his head. You can’t read it, can’t ever read him, and you wait with breath frozen in your lungs, wait for him to say something, anything.
But what comes next, is not what you expected.
“Johnny’s in love with you.” You jerk back, eyebrows raised into your hairline.
“No.” Your voice trembles. “No, this… this is casual.”
“It is.” Simon’s lips press flat. “The girl at the hotel, she was a job. Had nothin’ to do with our… personal lives. She was a loose end to tie up when we got back. It was convenient, that she lived in our city.” Your mind tumbles and falls, your sense dives off a cliff.
Johnny’s in love with you.
“I don’t understand… you, after-“
“I let you believe it.” He says simply, looking down his nose at you. He’s never looked so cold. “At first, I wanted to explain, to correct it, for his sake, but… the opportunity was too good. So I told Johnny that you reminded me of our arrangement. That you agreed, that you always said you didn’t want a relationship. The situation at the bar with your date,” he smiles self indulgently “that was just for fun. Would’ve fucked ya right up against that door for the whole bar to see if you let us. Split that pretty pussy open on my cock and watch you gag on Johnny’s, but you still wanted to be a brat,” he rolls his eyes, “it was all a distraction I built for him.”
Alarm bells blare inside your skull, Johnny’s words from the other day when he brought the flowers repeating over and over.
“Ye think ye saw us with another woman, or on a date, but-“
“Ye agreed. Ye always said ye didnae want a relationship.”
“No- no. He… he came here, he made it sound-“
Simon studies you. “He’s explosive, sometimes. Doesn’t handle his emotions well, gets all twisted up. I think when he came over here, he wanted you to tell him you wanted more,” he sighs, rubs his chin. “He’s so out of sorts over it all, poor boy.”
“Why? Why didn’t you… why didn’t you tell him the truth? Or me?” His lips curl into a sneer.
“Because Johnny is mine. I might share his body with you, sweet girl, but I won’t share his heart.”
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adreamemporium · 3 days
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Hi! Since you saw Ewan at CCXF and outside of it, I wanna ask if you think Ewan loves fan saying hi to him or he only did it to be polite? Also is there anything else you can share about your meeting with Ewan?
I’ve also seen some people on here saying that they think Ewan looked uncomfortable at times at CCXF. Whats your thoughts on that?
Hi, nonnie!
About your last question, I couldn’t see anything because I was behind them so all I could see was their back lol. Also the audio wasn’t great and with all the screaming I couldn’t hear anything. I thought everything was going well because all their managers and their team were behind them and they were smiling. I already saw the interview on YouTube and I think the whole thing was messy and cringe, the questions weren’t that interesting, that guy saying Mexican women would love to keep him in their homes… So as a whole, that was a mess. Minutes later I saw him in the thunder stage and he was relaxed, so I don’t think there was a problem after that. What I think is that he is way more calm when you are talking alone with him and that’s the real Ewan. He does an incredible job on stage, but we shouldn’t get fool, he has a reserved personality.
About the rest of your ask, have in mind that I’m again talking based on what I experienced, I would say he truly loves saying hi to the fans. We have to consider that we are talking about the same guy that takes the time to send little messages to his fans when he receives fan mail.
The first time I saw him I was working and he was doing press, so the two times I talked with him were brief and it was just a kinda random talk lol it was when he told me he needed a hat for the sun. That day I mostly saw him work while I was doing my own.
The second time I met him he recognized me and smiled to me, so I said hi and it was when he made room for me to sit down at his side. We talked for a few minutes (although I felt it was for hours lol) about how different book!Aemond is to the show version and I told him I loved what he and Leo did with the character and they were the reason Aemond was my favorite character cuz when I read the book he wasn’t my fav. He simply smiled and thanked me for what I was saying. I told him I had a fanart and that it would mean the world to me if he could signed it and he took the time to admired it before doing it and see the details.
But I think what I will treasure the most (apart from having one of my Aemond designs autographed) will be when I gave him the dragon egg I made for him. I explained to him that I’m a dragon fan since I was little and that back during got s1 I couldn’t find the dragon eggs to buy them, so I made them. While I was saying all of that he was attentively looking at me and listening, so when I started to taking the egg out of my purse he started to realize what I was gonna give him and had a huge smile when he saw the little green egg and simply excitedly exclaimed “Vhagar!”. I swear he looked like a little kid with a toy, he took it and started to see all the details, asked me how long it took me and then he told me “You’re a legend!” and hugged me. I swear to god I wasn’t expecting it and almost died in that moment. His manager asked me if I wanted a picture and he quickly said yes because he wanted to show the egg, so she kindly took it, we talked for a few more minutes and then he asked me if I was going to be at ccxp, I said yes and he told me he hoped to see me there and then we said goodbye. And that was it. 🥹
I swear to god he is everything the rest of the cast have said he is: the loveliest person ever, a complete angel, super gentle, incredible thoughtful, kind, a fantastic human being… and I have just quoted Elliot Grihault, Harry Collet, Tom Glynn Carney and Fabien Frankel only.
So tl;dr, if you ask me, no, he didn’t do it just to be polite, he truly cares and enjoys saying hi to his fans. He truly listen to what we say and takes him time with us. What it is import here is to ALWAYS respect him, his privacy, his boundaries and not be invasive. He is open to meet us, make sure we aren’t nervous, listen to what we wanna say, tell us that everything’s ok… but let’s not forget that at the end, he is also a human being as any of us and he does has a reserved personality.
PS. BTW, I just wanna add something else. When I was literally admiring my design with his autograph and saying it would have a pretty frame, both, his manager and him, said “aaw” lol 🥹
Here is my design:
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honeybcj · 3 days
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hi han my beloved 🫶🏽 i have a question for you. when you think about three of your all time favorite pairings, what do you think they'd do if they went camping?
hi my lovely india <3 i’m definitely doing this with jegulus, rosekiller, & jarty….
as a collective, if all of them went out, it would be the funniest thing ever, i swear. evan and reg are sitting back in the little chairs, feet propped up on a log as james and barty bicker about how to pitch a tent. both reg and evan are heavily unamused, most definitely not in proper wilderness attire. they’re scoffing, crossing their arms over their chest as they watch barty chase after james with a mallet, threatening to bash james over the head if he “doesn’t do it barty’s way” even though james is most definitely the most sensible about wilderness exploration and camping.
james is most definitely the guy that’s like “cmon, let’s go fishing!” and he’s got a stupid bucket hat on as he’s trying to lather reg up in sunscreen. everyone is sooo done with his energy because the last thing they want to do is go fishing. james is also the guy who’s tying up their food supply and tugging it up into a tree so the animals don’t eat it all.
now, if this is just jegulus, james is still the one that’s all for camping, practically begging reg to go out with him. it’s not that reg is opposed to nature, but he much prefers the comfort of his own bed and not getting sunburnt or bit by mosquitos. but big boy james is pouting like a baby, promising reg the time of his life and he will go all out and get the most expensive tent with the best features and a proper inflatable mattress and he will even be as absurd as offering fuckin silk sheets and pillowcases for their trip and reg is just like 👁️👄👁️. james is soooo excited, like a puppy, when reg finally agrees to this trip, even if he’s sulking the whole drive to the campsite, a baseball cap shoved onto his head and a ridiculous amount of sunscreen and bug spray in tow.
rosekiller on the other hand, they don’t intend to go camping, but it kinda turns into a last minute situation where they’re stranded on the side of the road, conveniently near an outdoor shop so they’re out here buying the shittiest tent and materials only to pitch a tent in the shoddy forest behind the shop because they’re “living on the edge”. barty’s convinced evan could snatch up a wild animal so they don’t starve to death. evan is not impressed in the slightest. he stays up all night, squinting into the dark because this is the Worst situation he has ever been in.
and jarty? i don’t trust those fuckers in the slightest to survive one night alone in a tent. they’re pissed the entire time and barty is testing james’ limits sooo much. the kind of people that would end up losing all their food supply and they’d be fucked because it starts raining right after they set everything up, so everything is soaked and ruined, but they just can’t give up to give each other the satisfaction. they’d probably end up angry, screaming at each other and inevitable jerking each other off against a tree in the pouring rain. ya know, just casual things.
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ladylooch · 3 days
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You can write it whenever. But could we have a blurb of Lucie and Mack meeting Sophie for the first time.
A/N: Mack is 3, Lucie is 5
Lucie Hischier has had a big week. Not only did she start Kindergarten on Tuesday, but now, to end the week on a Friday, her little sister is here! At least, that is what Uncle T told her when he picked her up from school yesterday afternoon. Her little sister, Mack, had been in his arms, squeaking excitedly when she saw Lucie.
Her sneakers squeak along the clean, white tile as she rolls along the hallway with her little sister holding her hand. At the end of the hall, outside of a room, her dad stands, scratching at his bearded face. He beams when he sees his oldest girls next to their uncle. 
“Hi girls!” Nico exclaims. “Come here!” Mack runs as fast as her little, pudgy legs will carry her. Lucie follows behind more cautiously. She sighs when Nico pulls her into his chest, kissing her cheek affectionately. “How was school yesterday?” He wonders. Lucie beams; he didn’t forget about her big week even with the family’s new addition.
“Good. I drew a picture for mama.” She holds the pink paper up for him to see. It’s the five of them standing in a grassy field, bathed in sunshine. The Swiss mountains behind them remind Nico of how much he misses home after returning so quickly in July to finish out the rest of Lexi’s pregnancy.
“I bet she is going to love that. Should we go in? Meet your sister?”
“Sophie!” Mack screams.
“Yeah! Baby Soph!” Nico cheers. He keeps Mack in his arms, then leads Lucie in by the fingers she clutches in her little hand. “Mama, our babies are here.” Nico announces their presence. 
“Oh! My loves!” Lexi exclaims from the bed. Overwhelmed, Lucie begins to tear up, clutching Nico’s hand tighter. “Luc, you’ve had such a big week, baby.” Lexi acknowledges her oldest right away. “School and a new sister.” Lexi watches her oldest closely, waving at Mack who is content in Nico’s arms. “Wanna come up here?” Lucie nods, crawling up without any help from her parents. She collapses into Lexi’s chest, tears running down her face as she clutches Lexi’s gown. Her mama holds Lucie tight to one side of her chest, handing off Sophie to Nico after Mack is placed in bed with her. 
“Hi mama.” Lucie cries.
“Hi baby. It’s okay.  A lot of big feelings right now, huh?” Lucie nods tearily. 
“Hi mama!” Mack cheers. 
“Hi baby!” She cheers back, smooching her puckered lips. 
“I brought you a picture.” Lucie sighs. She holds up the colored paper for her mom to see. 
“Oh, is that our family? And with Sophie, huh?” She smoothes down Lucie’s hair, pressing her lips to the top of her head. “So sweet, baby. I love it.” 
Nico sits on the bed with his girls, holding a sleeping Sophie in his arms. Lucie’s brown eyes train down to the bundle, fixating on the blue and pink striped hat as Mack crawls over to get a good look.
“Our baby!” Mack cheers.
“Yeah!” Lexi and Nico respond simultaneously. 
“Do you want to hold your little sister?” Lexi asks Lucie first. Lucie nods, wiping at the residue of her tears. Everything is already feeling better with her parents so close. 
“Me too!” Mack asks, trying to crawl over Lexi. 
“After Lucie, sweets.” Nico says as he turns to hand Sophie to Lucie while Lexi situates a pillow in her lap.
“Yeah, you come here and snuggle with me, Mackie.” Lexi distracts the three year old who happily plops in her mom’s lap.
The second Sophie is set into Lucie’s arms, Lucie starts to cry again.
“She is so beautiful.” She hiccups to Nico, who cannot even pretend he isn’t becoming emotional. 
“Yeah, baby. Just like you.” Nico leans down to kiss her head. “I love you so much, baby. I’m so proud of how you’re handling this week. When did you turn into our big girl?” He swipes his thumb comfortingly across her cheek. “You know you’ll always be our baby, though? Nothing will change about that, even as everything else does.” Lucie nods enthusiastically, then looks down at her newest sister. Her eyes are closed, glossed over by some sort of clear liquid while swaddled up into a tight burrito. 
“She is so little.” Lucie mumbles as Mack crawls over Lexi to sit next to Lucie. Mack leans down, kissing the hat on Sophie’s head with a loud “MWAH!” The other Hischiers giggle.
Lexi’s eyes find Nico’s. They share a look of pure bliss, both wanting to freeze this moment forever. Luckily, Timo in the doorway is already taking care of that with his phone.
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radskull-69 · 2 days
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ANDYS LOREEE (because he’s my fav)
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I’m thinking of changing the whole ‘town got flooded’ idea, and ditched it for more fire then water.
In Andy’s small country town/ant nest he was the only bull ant in the whole town, and usually bull Andy’s were immediately sent to war but the town was so peaceful so there was no need to prepare warriors for war.
was the biggest in the town even as a toddler, but even after being bullied his future wife would stand up for him. Growing up together, he’d help around the hive with the heavy lifting while she help her mum with the larvae.
it was only when they were finally married, had two beautiful daughters did everything fall apart.
Andy left the ant nest to get his wife some red berries, a rarity that the nest couldn’t get since they grew outside. So when he came back with his arms full of berries walking over the little hill he as met with the blazing view of fire.
Screams were so loud that it made his body rattle, standing there uselessly before amongst the screams and yells of the fire ants attacking his home he heard his family’s screams the most.
Dropping the berries he ran on heavy legs to his house, busting in through the door in a panicked frenzy. He snatched a blanket from his bed on the way to the kids bedroom where he could hear his little family hiding in, trapped from the collapsed room.
he wrapped the blanket around them and carried them out with ease, even as he felt his lungs be drowned in toxic smoke. He ran out the house and to the exit of the nest where the survivors of other ants were rushing towards like a stampede.
he unbundled them from the torn fabric, eyes pooling with tears of pure relief when he was able to save them from the fire. But it was short lived when the loud bang sounded out, sounding like nothing he’s ever heard of before.
he watched the world tilt as he fell like a oak tree, falling heavily to the ground as he sputtered. A explosion of mind numbing pain in his left arm, or at-least where it once was.
he heard his family cry out faintly, but the ringing in his ears was too much. He could barely make out the colours of a fire ant approach, some.. gun in there hand. How’d they get it? He didn’t know, no bug, especially ants could ever get their claws on them. And not on one that’d blow his damn arm off
his yellow eyes widened when he could only weakly reach out with his remaining arm to his family, a futile attempt to protect them like he’s always been best at. But it was useless when he watched that vile fire ant use a gun he couldn’t even begin to imagine they got from, shoot right at his family.
and he watched as his children got obliterated in a burst of fire, air feeling too hard to breathe, more so then the smoke.
a wail left his sharp teeth as he leaned on his remaining arm, turning to all he had left, his wife.
but before he could even cry out her name she was shot through the chest, the beam didn’t stop there though. Gone right through her chest and into his eye, a burning bright light of flame the last thing he saw before the second most painful thing happened to him that day. Second to losing everything he loved
and they left him there, assuming he was just another corpse amongst many. And the fire ants left to destroy the next hive.
Andy recovered, physically at least. He kept the blanket he used to save his family all those years ago, the only thing that survived thr attack aside from himself. Even if it was tattered and faded, much like himself.
he knew the fire ants got their fire arms from humans, filthy humans. The fact another ant species would go against their own kind to side with humans all for greed is what mad something ugly spew from Andy’s heart.
he now roams foreign lands and cities, working as a bounty Hunter to keep himself afloat and to have a easy outlet for his rage. Wearing a hat to hide the nasty burn scar over his eye, and the blanket that once gave him comfort as a cape to hide what was left of his missing arm
he wasn’t the same man, vowing to kill any stupid bug, ant or human that got in his way. Of what? He didn’t know. Vengeance was the only thing keeping him going.
until… he met his new friends, or something like that. They don’t stop the grieving he’s been dealing with for years all alone, but they help him heal.
like the pop rocks his kids would give him when he was sick, or when his wife would kiss his cheek whenever he’d come back from a tussle with the bull, Or when his mother would untangle his antennae from the bushes he’d trip into.
so he’d protect this weird as hell group of mismatch bugs even if they make very morally grey decisions.
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gunsatthaphan · 1 year
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I’m genuinely worried about them lmao??
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hybrix-hijinx · 2 years
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This is related to absolutely nothing. Absolutely nothing whatsoever.
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brookheimer · 1 year
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……starting to think a lot of you do not know what the word empathetic means
#i have a lot to say about this but it is going to have to wait a few days until i’m no longer up to my ears in work#but here’s a little thing to tide you over: empathy does not a good person make#a capacity for empathy is in no way a capacity let alone willingness for good#empathy and intense horrendous cruelty are not mutually exclusive#if you think that evil comes in a single form if you think evil is just pure callousness coldness spot-it-a-mile-away inability to love#then no fucking wonder people keep doing evil terrible things like in real life and your response is always ?! W hat ?!#shocking: terrible evil people are still people. they are not robots of pure malice. they were once babies with coloring books#that’s not saying we should feel bad for them or anything at all!!! just that you guys seem allergic to acknowledging that it doesn’t take a#category 5 sociopath to commit an atrocity#everyone go read arendt’s banality of evil and go watch act of killing by joshua oppenheimer#no wonder trump keeps winning. y’all don’t view his supporters as people with any qualities other than Racism#like i know this is a fictional character but the response here is so indicative of this much broader issue that makes me want to scream#i get it. you’ve lived in a bubble your whole life and never interacted with people vastly different from yourself and had to acknowledge#their personhood as much as their viewpoints disgusted you. talk to a conservative once in your life it might be mind blowing#not bc you’ll be like WOAH :o THEYRE NOT SO BAD AFTER ALL! no!!!!! because they ARE that bad and they are also regular normal people!!!!!#you are all so incapable of viewing anyone you dislike as having internal lives! christ!#this is how trump won! how do you not see this!#seriously go watch act of killing go watch anwar who murdered hundreds of people in cold blood warmly scold his grandchild for poking a duck#too hard. like the most horrifying part of horrible ppl who commit atrocities is that they aren’t caricatures of evil#we wish they were it would make it easier to understand#agh i’m rambling i’ll shut up#god watch ppl be like Uh why are you defending trump/genocide/fascists etc#dumb fucks i’m telling you the most terrifying part about those people is that they are actually people that’s what makes it so hard to#comprehend bc atrocities are so much easier to swallow when you can pretend a force of pure evil is behind it#okokokok good night lol
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thehecklingmouse · 8 months
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some fun guys *gets shot*
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lonewolflink · 5 months
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What do you think of Legend being one of the bunnies in the trench coat?
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Oh that sounds kinda cute actually
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welcometoteyvat · 9 months
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FUCK????? LION DANCE BOY??????? (IMAGE LEAKS UTC)
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HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE BE REAL PLEASE BE FINAL-ISH DESIGN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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senotsuri · 2 years
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What kinds of religions are there in Gundalia? Let's put in Vestals too come on, since it seems to be famous in your blog ahaha.
Vestal religion is, to me at least, an exaggerated version of what happened with early NV, where it's revealed the Vestals know about humans and Earth, and especially what happened with Naga.
Gundalians are more "our saints are alive, able to speak with us", but they do have a "god", if you can call them that.
Under the cut there are headings for each section, but this will get long
Vestal
Necessary context; I do headcanon two things. 1. the vestals are not the only natives to Vestal (kind of? they came from Darkus an uncountable amount of time ago), and 2. the other natives are able to see the future a little, and write down what they can perceive from elsewhere. As a result, these darkus aligned vestal vampires that eat dreams wrote down visions of a future from elsewhere. This then resulted in Vestal's knowledge of Earth, of humans, and of Naga. These visions really only worked if bakugan were present to see through, and it didn't matter which Earth was being looked at.
The creation of the Interspace, and Vestroia in BB is like this to begin with, essentially creates a multiverse by being a place between spaces; this essentially means the canon is canon, but so are OCs and fanon interpretations, but only to the Vestals unless proven otherwise (case in point for that; Shun showing up in the Alpha City Doubles Tournament proves he, at least, exists for that universe's vestals.)
Some Vestal denizens are likely to exaggerate this, and given that they were written down fragments of future visions (though they could be extrapolated to be of the past, if anyone wants to say that vestals are the successors of humanity), it's understandable that this would inadvertently create a pantheon of brawlers. Major players in canon and fandom pieces are at the top of the pile, no doubt.
Without the two pieces of context, I'd argue vestals are not religious until given something to devote themselves to (see: whatever the hell Gus has going on for Spectra.)
Gundalia
Gundalia has bakugan on it, and these bakugan are part of the half that know about the Sacred Orb. Unclear, but it is likely, if they know about their greatest grandmother (and child playing with their dolls) Code Eve.
And then there's the Dark Tribe. The Dark Tribe are defined as generally having a secret, evil power within them; they can destroy a planet using this power (or as Linehalt lets us find out, reverse that and heal a whole planet, including some newly dead, which happens to be everyone that isn't Dan.)
Because of this, and given their sheer proximity to their bakugan, I think Gundalians worship Dark Tribe bakugan similarly to how saints are worshipped, but with added fear of what they're apparently capable of. It's also likely they worship the mother of the original bakugan (though it is a plot point I wish wasn't a thing, because it screws up Dan's trial's sheer existence by making him the chosen one. What a way to waste a trial.)
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meowthiroth · 1 year
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I wish I knew how to knit gloves or smth. I just got a shitload of this really nice soft rainbow yarn for cheap when I was out thrifting the other week but now I don't really know what to do with it
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andromedasummer · 1 year
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listen i need u people to understand that when i say i find your white man unattractive specifically to me and my tastes/say i am surprised they are found conventionally attractive, it is 99% because their style of facial hair is giving me such a bad sensory reaction i cannot look at them. i am sure your man is normal under there. if i look at his patchy beard any longer i am going to have to lock myself in a room and stim or i'll bite something and tear out my fingernails and not in a good way.
#i dont get it either okay#its like. specifically dark patchy beards#where its more stubble than a beard#i cannot stand it#the only way i can describe it is like.#i look at it and i feel a sense of tenseness in my chest/throat. im itchy under the fingernails and feel the need to scratch#my body and brain are telling me to run and i will need to get something soft to relax#few things for my sense trigger this and ive been trying to acclimate to them cos. cant go through life like that#first and in the past. the worst. is cordouroy. screamed when put on it or wearing it as a toddler. taught myself to not feel the urge#to rip and tear and meltdown when simply touching/seeing it. can now wear cordouroy pants and hats#if i bite down into a mushroom the feeling in my mouth makes me want to shut down and cry#and then. theres whatever the fuck is going on with the beards#its entirely visual i dont mind how beards/stubble feel i got used to them cos my dad would hug me when i was little#and it would rub against my cheek#its so bad i have actively stopped liking people i once found attractive because of that specific style of facial hair#idk what it is it just makes their face cause an internal aggressive fuzz inside of me#and i have to look away#i thought it was personal taste but then lime confirmed they experience the same thing#when looking at a guy i was talking about who sends me to sensory hell#so its an autism thing i guess#which means. acclimation time. so i have to get used to seeing dark haired dudes with weird spotty short patchy facial hair eugh
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whydthathappen · 8 months
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i have decided i do not enjoy jealousy
or envy
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