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why-this-kolaveri-machi · 3 years

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just because you’re afraid it doesn’t mean you’re broken.

Titans 3.05

once more into the cold dark void of the internet with my stream-of-consciousness take on a superhero tv show...

spoilers ahead.

1. i cannot believe that among the first things i get to hear in this episode with my own two ears is the line 'eluded our overdudes'. why must you give me such pain along with so much joy, show?

1.5. scarecrow stringing jason along on this path to red-hood-dom is not something i would’ve ever expected, but does kind of make sense.

1.55. i don’t know all the details of the original resurrection arc in the comics but i like that jason, weirdly, has a greater role to play in his own demise and rebirth? i think it makes it easier to draw a line between his past trauma, the demonstrably shitty and terrifying responsibility of being robin, the ways bruce and the titans wronged him, his responses to that, the reasons he turns to scarecrow, and his final evolution to red hood. it makes for a smoother character arc rather than a one that was interrupted for two decades before somebody went oh hey let’s resurrect that kid that the audience once voted to kill and make him an anti-hero!

1.75. what’s crane giving him? anti fear toxin? anyway, crane is a fucking creep and i’m not sure i want to see a whole lot of him on my screen.

2. oh, um, heads up: there’s a long sequence of unsteady cam + flickering lights right after the title card upto the 3:16 mark. it’s a bit headache-inducing so if you want to skip, you can go ahead and do that.

2.45. that’s... weird... why would he dream about... donna...

ok, who am i kidding. i’m going to jump right into my theory about Why Titans Makes Sense Actually because the show itself is apparently not interested in explaining itself:

a) it makes no sense for jason to be conjuring up donna--who famously did not care much for him!--in his dreams. (he wasn’t even there when she died.) or for her to be telling him don’t go or there’s still time.

b) this leads me to think that that’s actually donna, in some sort of limbo between life and death, the kind of place where jericho used to be

c) rachel has demonstrated that she has the power to link the minds of the titans across great distances--she called jason and hank/dawn for help in 2.01, she linked up everybody later in the season, projected dick’s hallucination of his father into their brains without even realising she was doing it, and in the finale, she managed to get dick into conner’s brain. she’s in themyscira now. is this how she gets donna back to life? but reaching out to her in that non-space between life and death?

d) the next obvious question is: why isn’t donna appearing in the dreams of the other titans? she probably is, but they have better reason to be dreaming about her since they were actually close to her, unlike jason.

e) but why would she warn jason in particular? does she foresee jason entering the afterlife--however briefly? does she have an idea of what jason plans to do and what he will become?

f) anyway, more trippy mindscapes and weird psychic powers, yay!

2.5. my heart clenched when bruce comforted jason post-nightmare: clearly i’ve been reading way too much batfam fic. this is a side of bruce we haven’t really been told to expect by all the characters on the show calling him a ‘psychopath’ (*cough*unreliablenarrators*cough*) and him getting jason to speak to a professional speaks volumes about the kind of self-reflection he’s done post dick’s departure, and maybe some of the regrets he has with regards to how he dealt with dick’s traumas.

i mean, just look at him when jason dismisses his concerns! BRUCE IS TRYING JASON

anyway, i have a whole lot more i want to say about this, but i’ll save it for later.

also: LESLIE THOMPKINS!!!!

3. i really like molly--and i love that she’s a friend from before jason got taken in by bruce, the implication that they meet up regularly and that she’s a grounding influence on him (tho clearly not grounding enough to not go along with his dumbass idea about confronting a child trafficker alone).

3.5. aw, jason. robin was his armour against everything in the world that would throw him down and chew him to bits, but san francisco proved that even robin wasn’t enough to protect him. it’s really interesting how ‘disillusionment with the idea of robin’ is so integral to the traumas of both dick and jason but in such different ways.

4. LESLIE!!!!!!! i even forgive her office being so goddamn blue because leslie!

4.5. it makes so much sense for titans!verse leslie to be a therapist, because this show is so inward looking anyway, and therapist sessions are a useful tool to showcase this character work in a story. besides, at least in fanfic, leslie often seems to double up as a counsellor anyway.

4.6. oh man. i’m not terribly convinced by walters’ red hood (tho i think that may be the point--argh. i’ll come back to this thought later. have to stop getting distracted!) but he plays the asshole kid that’s trying not to let any real emotion seep through really well.

“you’d like me to punch you, wouldn’t you”

5. not sure what to think of batman’s little trophy case other than the show winking unsubtly at us and going look look - catwoman! the riddler! two face! you excited yet?! it’s like the scene from the end of amazing spiderman 2 when they were trying to drum up excitement for a sinister six spinoff by having harry osborne walk by a bunch of display cases with stuff from iconic villains in them.

... but then again, bruce does like to display a lot of shit in his batcave, including his dead robin’s bloodstained costume, so.

5.5. bruce is so soft with jason it’s killing me. beyond just trying to learn from his mistakes with dick, it speaks to his own genuine desire to balance his dedication to gotham with doing the best by his sons, although he’s often not successful with that.

i love that titans is really playing the long game with bruce wayne, with each season and character-perspective sliding in fresh pieces of a bigger puzzle. titans’ bruce has always been a phantom of other peoples’ making, but now we’re getting the idea that he’s a whole lot more complicated than other people make it seem.

5.75. it really recontextualises some of his actions from previous seasons: the fact that he locked dick out of his security systems in 1.06 is likely his way of respecting dick’s independence and his desire not to be associated with batman/gotham anymore. jason knowing about bruce’s tracker while dick doesn’t is probably bruce trying to be more honest and upfront with his charges. bruce sending jason packing off to sanfran to spend time with the titans is probably not him passing on a big responsibility to dick (as i first uncharitably thought) but him trying to get jason out of the toxic influence of gotham for a while and a sign of his trust in dick as a leader and a mentor,

5.8. i mean, bruce is a prick, but he’s also human.

6. i think leslie is doing some good work with jason here, though she may have overstepped the line with her line about robin as a construct being projected by a man with BPD. her speculations about bruce’s diagnosis have no place in her session with jason, and if bruce confides in her, an egregious violation of patient-therapist confidentiality.

(about the diagnosis itself... i don’t know. i can’t really confirm or refute this without a whole lot more information, and i’m not sure if the writer of this episode means BPD in the same way an actual professional might.)

6.5. i think a huge thing that gets missed out in a lot of recent comics as well as movies/shows is that bruce didn’t create the robin persona out of whole cloth. dick did. he’s the starting point of that legacy and to call it entirely bruce’s creation is blatant erasure of that. in fact, i’m surprised that dick doesn’t feature more in the conversations they’re having about the pressures of being robin. after all, the guy had been robin--bruce’s partner--for such a long time before jason.

6.8. (and here’s the primal part of me that resonates the deepest with dick grayson--the Eldest Daughter part--that’s sort of resentful: that jason gets the therapy and softness and the learning from mistakes when it took years and years for bruce to reach out in any meaningful way to dick.)

7. oooh that was a great scene!

it’s fun to do these stream-of-consciousness live reactions, because the moment you step down from your soapbox, the episode goes right into tackling what you were just complaining about. bruce means well, he’s learning, but he goes about exactly the wrong way to help jason: taking away robin now can’t be read by jason as anything but a devastating judgment call from bruce. and iain glen really sells the moment that bruce realises this--too late--and his helplessness in trying to get jason to see that it isn’t jason’s fault that he’s trying to do this. he loves jason enough that jason is enough.

7.5. aaaah so jason brings up the elephant in the room at last. dick got everything makes sense from his perspective, where getting to put on a costume and fight crime means approval, means being something stronger and better than you are. dick got to be robin, then nightwing, and a leader of a whole team of other costume-clad heroes.

8. ... how did jason just walk into arkham????? this is ridiculous.

8.3. i mean, clearly jason’s not thinking straight, but betraying batman like this puts his possibilities of being robin again even further away.

8.5. watching that chemistry experiment montage was strangely funny. this guy is looking for an antidote to fear? well, constantly mixing up and inhaling gases concocted by a mad-scientist supervillain is something only the very fearless--reckless to the point of foolishness!--would do. what’s to say crane’s not given you a formula for a drug that will keep you tethered to his every will and whim? hmmmm?

8.7. so he sought out the joker to... test the formula???

9. wow the “loud and clear... boss” hits different after a whole episode of them referring to each other as father and son.

9.3. waitwaitwait HOLD UP. wait a DANG MINUTE. you’re telling me that scarecrow had enough resources that he could not only have folks on the outside steal jason away and dunk him in a lazarus pit (i TOLD you that this show would bring up and dismiss ra’s al ghul in a ten second aside! I TOLD YOU) but also have his own little chemistry lab in the basement, AND have enough resources for jason to build his red hood persona???????? all of this in barely twenty four hours?

well there goes my ‘jason orchestrated his death’ theory. it was nice while it lasted. *cups hands to the sky* fly away, my baby.

9.6. a part of me is gleeful at the rushed nature of such an iconic transformation though, especially when compared to all the character work that went before it. we’re so used to getting the opposite that it’s fucking delightful to have a show that’s more interested in exploring its characters’ minds rather than battle scenes or recreating transformations from the comics. that’s taken such bold and exciting steps to fully convey all the nuances of its most recognisable character, bruce wayne, from casting an older actor to play him to unflinchingly showing just how damaging the vigilante lifestyle has been to him and the people he loves. BRILLIANT

*sporfle*

10. again, heads up: a whole lot of flashing lights between 40:28 and 42:00.

10.3. i guess it’s the super-compressed timeline that’s really throwing me off. where did he have the time to get/develop the mind control thing from? or is it something that he got from the cabal of villains that he intimidated at the beginning of 3.02? very messy.

10.5. i love molly, i hope she shows up again this season.

11. aaaand that’s it! that was a solid episode as flashback episodes go, but now i can’t wait to return to the present.

#titans #titans spoilers #meta #jason todd #bruce wayne #leslie thompkins #a tragic jalebi #robin #red hood

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lilhwahwa · 4 years

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ATEEZ Reaction: S/O is scared of needles

I don’t know if you still take requests but if you do…Can you do a reaction to you going to a doctors appointment and you have to get a shot and your really scared so they come with you and comfort you?

I take requests here and there but this seemed cute so I wanted to do it!

I will do the reactions in more of real reaction rather than scenario.

MASTERLIST

Hongjoong

★ The (kinda) calm bf

★ He doesn’t really enjoy the whole hospital scene either and prefers to spend limited time there.

★ He’d tease you when you asked him to go with. After the teasing, he’d, of course, agree, who was he to deny you?

★ Would act as a parent lol. Check you in at the front desk even though you could’ve done it yourself.

★ Rubs your knee in the waiting room to calm you down.

★ “I promise I’ll buy you something delicious after it”

★ “If I could do it instead I would you know?” he’d say with pouty lips.

★ When it was time for the shot, he’d go in with you, the nurses didn’t even protest with him.

★ Would make you look deep into his soft and caring eyes so you don’t look at the needle. Would send you a flirty wink.

★ After it’s done he’d whine about how not bad it was but be proud nevertheless.

★ “Let’s go get your reward baby”

★ 10/10 worthy bringing with.

Seonghwa

★ The soft bf

★ Would think you’re kidding or being childish for fun but when he really genuinely understood you were scared, he would coo at you.

★ “Aw my baby, I will protect you from the pain” opPa will save you all

★ Would bring a bottle of water and candies for after the shot, just in case you felt ill.

★ Would pull out his whiny aegyo for you, only because you were very nervous though.

★ Would squeeze at your cheeks and nose to keep you distracted.

★ Would be polite to the nurses and tell them to take care of his baby well in a joking way (he serious tho)

★ Since he was so polite and charming the nurses let him cling onto your hand while you were getting the shot.

★ Strokes your palms and back of your hand so so gently with his thumb like with joongs hands.

★ Plans your next date to distract you from it.

★ “What was that movie you wanted to see for our next movie night baby?”

★ Would give you a big kith as a reward and pat on the head.

★ 11/10 would bring://

Yunho

★ The distractor bf

★ Would ask you if he could come along before you had the chance to ask because he already knew you’d be nervous.

★ Would make jokes on the way, during and after to keep a light mood.

★ Pouty baby when he sees how nervous you were.

★ “Is it really that scary baby?” he’d ask worriedly as he watched your face.

★ Would stand in the door frame since the room was too small and he was, the opposite of small so he didn’t fit.

★ Reaches for your hand.

★ “Squeeze if it hurts” he’d say and encourage you to actually show your fear instead of hiding it.

★ So into distracting you that he might as well bring colorful balls to juggle next time.

★ Questions, your thoughts, plans for the day. Anything to keep you talking.

★ “Keep your eyes here though baby” he’d say, not wanting you to look at the needle.

★ Vv proud, might get some weird looks from people as he picked you up from being so energized.

★ Would give you a candy as a joke but of course, you took it.

★ 10/10 would bring

Yeosang

★ Savage (but caring) bf

★ Would be dramatic about your whining about the needle.

★ Nonetheless he just wants to lighten the mood by teasing you slightly but he cares a lot…

★ “Do you want me to go with you because you’re scared or because you just want to spend more time with me?”

★ When you’d pout and turn quiet from being nervous he’d shift into a soft bf.

★ Would draw little cheering hehetmons for you.

★ Talks a lot, thinks it will distract you well.

★ Even promises to treat you to chicken after, which motivates him to comfort you too.

★ Stands by you, stroking your shoulder as he talked on and on about chicken and the members while locking your eyes in his.

★ “Wasn’t so bad now was it?”

★ Sassy bf is back again… with chicken tho

★ 9/10 would bring, but if you don’t mind his teasing, then 10/10 tbh.

San

★ Protective bf

★ Would scrunch his face at hearing that you had to get a shot.

★ But it’s for your own health so he would be convincing you about how good it is for you with a pout tho

★ “Don’t worry baby I will be there protecting you!” from a needle lol?

★ Might tease you for 1 millisecond but only because you looked so cute to him, he wants to protecc.

★ Might be a little extra and offer to bring Shiber or some plushy…

★ Hums/sings to you gently as you wait for your turn.

★ Stands beside you while stroking your head gently, encouraging to look at his dimples instead of the nurse.

★ Will feel your pain/anxiety or sense any little discomfort you have.

★ Would be proud of both of you after it’s done.

★ Nurses would coo in secret.

★ “I protected you well right?”

★ Will be cuddly and remind you about how brave you were.

★ 10/10 would bring!!

Mingi

★ Scaredy cat bf

★ He lowhighkey kind of uncomfortable with the hospital setting and apparatus too…

★ But he’d do anything for you so wouldn’t mention it.

★ Might whine a little but hide the fact that he himself was a little anxious.

★ Would give you cute smiles and gestures while waiting.

★ If you were feeling very anxious he would admit his feelings too, saying he’s also scared but that you were brave together.

★ Would let you tease him about being a cute scaredy cat BUT ONLY FOR NOW. THIS ONCE.

★ “You’re such a brave baby”

★ Would stand close to you with intertwined, sweaty hands and staring into your eyes, mostly so that he could avoid looking at the needle too.

★ “I’ve never been scared a day in my life” he’d state too proudly.

★ Would demand a kith. pls kith.

★ 10/10 would bring, soft af.

Wooyoung

★ A hot mess bf ((literally too tho…)

★ Would forget he promised to go with you so panics to get ready quickly.

★ “Of course I knew about the appointment that’s why I’m getting ready, I just lost track of time…”

★ But takes it kind of seriously tho, the shot experience?

★ Wouldn’t make too much of a deal of it, just enough…for now tho...

★ Would change when you were in the waiting room though.

★ Loud jokes, that he’d end up laughing at himself…nerves

★ He’s not very sure on how to help so just does the first things that come to mind, he’s a mess.

★ Would give you an encouraging pep talk before the shot.

★ “This is just one shot you’ll do it, be healthy and I’ll be proud and we’ll go buy something after.” rants

�� Would stand by the door frame and look at you while pulling funny faces as if the nurses didn’t see. He doesn’t care

★ Would praise himself for being the best pep talker?

★ 10/10 would bring this cutie.

Jongho

★ Chill bf

★ Would just be like, “okay, I’ll go with you” before you even opened your mouth...

★ But would feel a warm feeling in his chest because you trust him/find comfort in him.

★ Loves feeling like he’s protecting you so…

★ Very mature about it, gives you tips on how to calm down.

★ Would squeeze your hand gently as you waited.

★ “It will be okay, I’m right close by” he’d encourage.

★ Would offer for you to bite him if it hurt or something (idk my dad used to let me bite him when I was in pain ok)

★ Would stand close by quietly but with a soft and warm look in his eyes.

★ Would coo and pinch your cheek afterwards.

★ Would hold you and sway you side to side before going back to chill for the day and baby you.

★ 10/10 whipped bf, I’d bring!!

#ateez #ateez reactions #ateez reaction #ateez fluff #ateez scenario #ateez scenarios #hongjoong #seonghwa #Yunho #yeosang #san #mingi #wooyoung #jongho #kpop reaction #kpop reactions #submission

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icecreamkink · 3 years

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so i watched cobra kai all in two days and i have so many -

this show has so many cool and smart angles to it, but the same time.... its so stupid oh my god everyone is so dumb literally mr miyagi held all of the braincells in this whole universe

like i am but at the same time i am not surprised it was made like this, bc in hindsight of course there were hordes of ppl simping over johnny lawrence .... but it still amuses me that this is like... an Actual Official Thing

ok this will get long so cut it is

how much fun this cast has is super visible and i love it

i rly enjoy how the world was expanded ! i did grow up watching the karate kid movies, so watching how they progressed the world of the movies so organically was pretty cool. it rly feels like its the same universe

i fucking LOVE stories that are largely about a Thing. dancing ,skating, sports its just so thrilling to experience this all consuming relationship people can have with this type of activity? and martial arts are just that much more intense, so yeah, grown ass men kicking each other around at the lightest provocation and a war veteran caring so much abt teen karate is Ridiculous.... but i love it all because thats the intensity i find so thrilling

was kinda surprised with how much im missing mr. miyagi. first because, like everyone is so unhinged jesus christo, it just really throws into relief how much his character grounded the narrative of the movies. but also hes just a really great character

and on that note it rly Gets Me that the show itself aknowledges that and plays that into daniels angst and all the little ways they sorta weave myiagisms into the whole show........ im not getting emotional over this dumb karate dads show OK

related - i really miss hearing ‘daniel-san’ 🥺🥺

ACE DEGENERATE oh god oh no

they really went down the down and out johnny lawrence route huh. like i was always kinda bummed we see kreese choking him and then we never see him again in the movies, and while i love dumpster fire problematic trash himbo ck johnny, its like......................... actually really sad that his life turned out like this fjngn

everytime i hear ‘babes’ and ‘pussy’ i die a little inside. i know thats the point but i am a v cringe easy person, have mercy (ehe)

loved the way they are constantly drawing parallels between johnny and mr. myiagi of all people. hes the handy man of his building that has a bullied kid asking for help and eventually steps up to teach them karate, beats up a bunch of bullies for him, creates a friendship with said kid, estranged from family, drinks his sorrows away, surprisingly one of the least quick to anger characters (which says more about everyone else really but.... Well.), no schemes or ulterior motives hes just tryna vibe here.... oh and ofc magically heals miguel of is asthma apparently. the true disciple.. meanwhile daniel is his usual messy petty self even tho he wants to be mr myiagi so bad

also interesting about that is how miguels character is a parallel of both johnny and daniel at the same time

overall the parallels in ck are done really well, drawing comparisons and also subverting them constantly. theyre well thought out

THE PARALELOGRAMS

fr tho, the angle being explicitly the cycle of trauma and its effects and how trumatized adults in turn traumatize kids, maliciously or not, is so interesting

but! on the flip side of that, it feels like the writers are getting in their own way @ letting the characters grow. especially this last season. theres only so many times you can do "johnny and daniel are getting along but 5mins later they are (literally) fighting over some dumbass random issue" or "johnny puts in 20% of effort with robby and then gives up" before it gets on your nerves yknow?

i see daniel no longer talks like macchio ingested 15 shots of espresso before every take and idk how to feel about that tbh

interesting tension in daniel, as in, in tkk mr miyagi was there and daniel was frankly, kind of a lil shit, this messy petty spitfire hot tempered sassy kid,(johnny lawrence voice: just... stop being so annoying) but now hes the adult, and he wants to be mr. miyagi... but hes just not, and never will be to his very core and it shakes him and in a way hes trying to find who he is now that he sees himself in a position to be a not! cobra kai figure. i kinda really like that

plus how that relates to his cobra kai trauma. idk if the writers thought abt it Like That, i think so, but in any case, its interesting bc it seems like daniel has told everyone whod listen about johnny lawrence his Pretty Boy Karate Rival and high school and 84 cobra kai... But. no one seems to know what went on in 85 (or 86? idk) which was just so much worse

like ye og cobras were shitheads, but tkk iii is just two hours of daniel being emotionally and physically tortured.

like, the third movie is.............chaotic, to put it nicely, and many people ignore it, but the writers clearly didnt. daniels actions are, in a way, responding so much more to the events of tkk iii than to the first movie ie. johnny himself, AND. daniel doesnt rly seem to have dealt with that trauma? he never told sam? doesnt feel like hes ever told amanda? he doesnt even say terrys name out loud? freaks Out over kreese ? the way he reacts to robbys deceit? his FACE when he walks past the new "fear does not exist in this dojo" paint or kreeses photo? hmMm i sense Pain

his fashion tho........... disappointing. where are the flower shirts daniel huh we had one (1) shirt what a tragedy STOP WEARING SUITS ALL THE TIME . also the band ts/grunge bi are a look for johnny but part of me longs for the preppy lovable 80s bully chic johnny lawrence getups

weird that they never used that last moment of karate kid where johnny kinda... snaps out of his anger and hands daniel the trophy almost in tears. like “youre alright larusso, good match” “thanks a lot” that being their last direct interection seems like itd be perfect fruit for cobra kai but... they just dont. weird.

especially when, the FIRST SCENE they see each other, suposedly in 30+ years, the first thing to come out of daniels mouth is QUOTE "u still got those golden locks huh?" WHO SAYS SHIT LIKE THAT DANIEL FUCKING SAN

also amandas immediate reaction "your pretty boy rival?" like. can we talk about the fact that daniel had to have imparted to his wife the very important information that his high school bully/karate rival was like Really Cute and Fucking Hot Actually

the writers Knew exactly what they were doing and honestly.............. power to them

tkk director voice: and billy was just so cute

also I was thinking that daniel sounded strangely fond in that first scene, and i wonder if he developed a weird affection for johnny on the grounds that of all of his Karate Rivals johnny was actually the only one who didn’t actively tried to literally kill him

i was actually delightedly surprised with how great the chemistry between them is, like from the get go i am Invested. their rl friendship totally bleeds through and its fantastic

. granted, idiots enemies to lovers friends is my Thing so i am biased

johnny lawrence: i am down in the dumps, i fucked up my whole life and my sons probably, largely in light of the trauma that the father figure sensei and the philosophy of my karate inflicted on me and all my friends. u know what i should do, as a traumatized, unreliable mess of an adult? teach that same philosophy to some other kids! what could go wrong!

but really i enjoy the setup of it. i kinda like that i watched it late because, season 1 was johnny setting himself up for failure in a way and it was exciting to watch it all go to shit sjfn

Like. his heart might be in the right place, but theres just.... not a way to teach something like ‘strike hard, no mercy’ and not have it fuck up a kid

case and point: aisha, miguel and hawk become annoying as all hell over that bullshit in the end of s1, even before shit gets truly fucked up

billys subtle panicked eyes when he sees hawk and miguel fighting dirty in the all valley was SO GOOD especially in parallel with the panic that is so visible in his face in the movie when kreese tells bobby to injure daniel and in the sweep the leg scene

seen people question wether kreese should have returned and i absolutely think he needed to. johnny needed to realize that cobra kais fundamentals are flawed, at the root, beyond kreese himself being a toxic piece of shit

also who are we kidding? we are here to see the tkk characters play on new playgrounds!

i get what they're doing abt kreeses backstory, ( also. cobra kai. pq eles caem nas cobras djjs sorry) but did it need to take up that much time? feels like they couldve done it in half the run time and developed some other stories better

martin kove has such an evil eye. i love it

love that we get a good follow up to kreese breaks johnnys trophy and tries to CHOKE HIM in the parking lot, which happened in the movie and then....................... was never mentioned again

“the gang is all back together again” aaaa u piece of SHIT

also. terry silver is definetely appearing ha ha ha PAIN i cant wait

seen ppl say kreese was too much of a cartoon villain like..........................oh......... sweetie........... u dont even Know

interested how johnny will fit into that bc kreese was simping rly hard for johnny here. like i did not expect him to be so adamant to have him with cobra kai ... under his control, sure, but he really wants johnny by his side despite already having control of the dojo and how will terry silver self appointed jon kreeses forever simp going to feel abt that?

like bitchs dropping by every episode like ‘joooooohnny ..... come bacc to me joooonny......... this ur last warning! for real this time johnny! i wont say it again! watch me ! im leaving johnny! im rly leaving ! im dragging a chair” and johnny is just like. dont let the door hit ya bitch it was so funny pls

and on that subject oof, johnny! doesnt! Know! he doesnt get that side of daniels cobra kai trauma. and i kind of.............. cannot wait for ck 2021 johnny lawrence to meet terry silver like. what a shit show i need a front row seat and popcorn (imagine terry tries some greasy charm and johnny just roundhouse kicks him in the teeth bc he just doest Not Have the Patience for This. glorious)

feels like we, as a society, should acknowledge that cobra kai will never die................ bc their sense of design is just chefs kiss. their name is COBRA KAI. they have sexie sleeveless black gis. theyve sneks. colorful leather jackets with embroided naja insignia, the get ppl thru the aesthetics. evil geniuses

the flashback cuts : masterpiece behavior

the other takes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! of the movie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the differente angles!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! of the FIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE CLOSE UP ON JOHNNYS FACE AT THE KICK

that scene of daniel and johnny vibing to 80s music in the car. just. oh my god. the fan wish fullfilment. no thoughts head empty.

the new characters! theyre .... good. but. idk. i really like miguel (save for the annoying phase mid s1 - end s2) and amanda, who is a damn riot and has some functioning braincells, but everyone else is

like dont get me wrong, i dont hate anyone,its not a jane and rafael from jtv situation, and i am interested and invested in their arcs, but i wouldnt say i like Like them, as in, personality wise

like, sams grappling with ptsd was rly gutting and i enjoyed that plus her slight rage issues,

which nicely parallel torys rage issues. torys background is all over the place tho so im pretty on the fence abt her so far

robby deserves better in every way, and i like how smart and cunning and surprisingly sweet he is

hawk............... is there i guess,

demetri is annoying in the best way possible,

carmen is sweet but. i just feel like her character is blunted to make the johnny relationship easier. like when shes furious with him after miguels injury but then forgives him like an episode later? and then convinces him to fight for the tournament bc she had a karate epiphany off screen even tho she was always against it? meh. feels like with the plot thiccening she was swallowed and now shes like a crutch for johnny mora than anything, which is disappointing.

aisha was cool and im kinda mad she wasnt in s3, especially bc a storyline with her tory and sam was like RIGHT THERE , but also... cant say i was super super fond of her... doesnt feel like we ever spent enough time on her

moon the bi icon,

overall its a good cast but the main draw for me remains the og cast

the tory/sam miguel/robby Thing. enjoy how theyre Narrative Foils and i like how their stories were so dramatically entangled but oh god give me a break with the teenage love square for the love of god. if u gonna put us through that at least have the decency to not make it so straight

and honestly some sam/tory miguel/robby romantic tension would even make more sense. just saying!

also im not sure how i feel abt the cobra kai: red miyagi do: blue theyre going with since some of daniels most iconic looks in tkk are also red. like it was a color they (johnny and him) sorta shared. i get it, opposite but complementary but idk... a little too fire nation and water tribe for me .

and like the cobra kai kids are so funny abt it bc their outifts grow progressively more ridiculously coordinated. its like do they group chat every morning before leaving their houses?

robby still sticks out like that tho. he went thru an athleisure/daniel san tsleeves phase and now hes back in the bandts grunge, but his color scheme doesnt fully blend with the other cobra kais. hmmmm.

LOVED LOVED LOVED both the okinawa episode and the cobra kais easy rider episode just such good good heart aching fun

bobby is an icon. he was in tkk and he is now ck hope appears more and more

tommy is like the most iconic background character. all his lines, freaking gold then and now. sigh :(

the framing in the okinawa trip was so good everything was so good

i stand by the fact that kumiko was the love interest daniel had the most chemistry with and shes is overall such a joy to watch, loved to see her again, idola, fashion icon

also tkk ii is good u guys are just mean

also really enjoyed chozens role in the episode, his evolution; i love that they introduced the pressure points (ty lee the blueprint) and! the honk + karate! cousins! absolutely iconic

when kumiko reads mr miyagis letters........ oh my god, my eyes FILLED with tears, it was so heart wrenching :(( tamlyns delivery was so emotional and lovely and its so obvious everyone involved in ck has so much love and respect for pat morita and mr miyagi as character, and i adore that it exists like this electric current through the show

when we were watching i told my sister i thought that ali would be miguels big shot surgeon and ngl i am so disappointed that didnt happen. hire me cobra kai writers

also the johnny ali daniel amanda chemistry? off the charts

AND the sassy retconning of daniel and alis breakup! LMAO ‘I HOPE U DIDNT TELL MR MIYAGI IT WAS MY FAULT’ HFDJJGNKFKSD

i am preeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetty sure back injuries dont work like that but oke

daniel and johnny are so good together whenever, like they never actually help the kids or get shit done and end up fighting anyway but its just so much fun when theyre hanging

JOHNNY LAWRENCE AND DANIEL LARUSSO FIGHTING TOGETHER

daniels “plan” on how to get robby to juvie was so stupid. literally were u TRYING to make him hate you. dumbass

parents at those hearing rly brave for ppl that did not do ANYTHING as their kids got involved in a karate gang war until now

“bullshit i heard u were the real bully!” i mightve screeched

this s3 ending was SO DRAMATIC omg

everyone is such a MESS go to THERAPY u unhinged motherfckers

also im sorry but uh. a richass neighborhood in california doesnt have some type of neighborhood watch? the larussos rly dont have any security at all? neighbors wont hear the sound of a damn karate brawl happening next door??? also wasnt tory all like ooo i cant go to juvie, my mom yada yada yet shes always running around town getting into fights even at the rich girls house she was kicked out of school for fighting?? ? ?? ?? ? ? ? ?? ? ? girl??

stop destroying the larussos house, its so pretty :((((

sam finding her center looking at mr miyagis picture... uwu maybe

robby yelling ‘U ARE WEAAK’@ johnny \as he is easily blocking him is like.... so funny and so sad to me. sweetheart.

also i know it was meant as ‘oh johnny pushes him and HURTS HIM’ but it just looks like robby runs himself into the lockers and IM SO SORRY I FEEL SO BAD BUT IT WAS SO FUNNY

i like that he and tory are the cobra kai kids now. we need ppl we care abt there to not revert to a good vs evil schtick, and this is the most engaging it could be... tho it hurts that these kids cant catch a break

ah yes "lets bet some real shit on the result of this teen karate tournament bc that is always a great idea" is BACK

so daniel saves johnny from kreese..... maybe johnny will save him from terry 🧐

and dojos unite ohohoho. lets SEE how that’ll work out

miguels face of Despair when the ck defectors and the md kids are bickering like 'this is never gonna work' : gold

also. Johnny Lawrence is gonna learn some myiagi-do karate AHAAHSJAKDFH

ive been waiting for this moment all my lifeeee oh lawrd

final thoughts! there are def things i hope the writers will improve on the next season, but i am very excited for it either way AND i feel like it has made me enjoy the movies even more and that is a win for a reboot/sequel to me!!

#m.#did i procrastinate watching this since it came out and only watched it now bc my sister nagged me to when i said we should #watch karate kid over the holidays?#and then binged the whole thing in two days??#mayhaps and what abt it #cobra kai #the karate kid #its funn #y bc like karate kid is a Childhood movie but i wouldnt say #it was like particularly special for me?#like i wasnt in a fandom or anything #but now.#i might be invested #maybe #talvez

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sluttysan · 5 years

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ATEEZ giving you oral for the first time

✰Seonghwa:

The first time he goes down on you will be after a makeup session that just couldn’t end at just that

His lingering hands lead to something more, and both of you had to go further

Literally his hand was already down your panties, rubbing your folds, so at that point, y’all were just like “fuck it”

He’s really gentle and caring but also horny so he’ll kind of tease you a bit a lot

And this man is big on foreplay

So he’ll take forever to get to your core

Is the type to kiss your inner thighs for a while, smirking when you shiver

Like he knows he’s taking too damn long

Leaves a few hickeys there, too

Even though he likes to be a tease, he really is also trying to ease his way into it, especially since it’s your first time

He’s considerate, so he doesn’t want you to feel uncomfortable in any way

So really it’s a win-win

And when he finally gets to it, you will learn that he’s very diligent and intense when it comes to pleasuring you

So his first time doing so, he will really work on you

Uses his lips and honestly maybe nibbles gently at your lips

Expect constant eye contact and mumbling

“Oh, so you like that”

“Fuck, you’re so wet”

He’ll watch your reaction to literally everything he does

Pauses to kiss your thighs to catch his breath because boy’s been going ham

Makes sure you cum, probably more than once

Man’s dedicated

And it’ll probably lead to something more if you’re up for it

✰Hongjoong:

This one is super energetic when he’s giving you head

Like even making out with him will be full of passion and will leave you all hot and bothered and just breathless

So imagine when he goes down on you...whew

Like he can go down on you for hours

The first time will be one to remember

He’ll be the one to suggest it and boy does he know how to pleasure you

Is one to take off your panties with his teeth

He’s a huge fucking tease

His tongue works like magic

Literally doesn't leave a single spot dry

Will leave a few kisses here and there and even suck a little on your clit

You could feel him grin against you, he’s just having too much fun with you

Probably touches himself at the same time because he’s just so impatient and hot and bothered

But is good at multitasking, so don’t think he will slack on you when he does so

Moans into you

Compliments you when he catches his breath

“You taste so good”

Nips on your inner thighs

“You like that, don’t you? Cum for me, baby”

When you cum, he’s so satisfied

And he continues to eat you out as you’re cumming

No joke, he goes all in with pleasuring you

Cums at the same time as you’re releasing yourself into his mouth

Naps with you right after because of all that energy, good lord

✰Yunho:

The first time will be a very careful one with Yunho

He’s very concerned and will ask you many times if you’re comfortable

He’d probably just stick to using his tongue the first time, so probably no fingers

He’s a little awkward about it, and doesn’t even know where to place his hands at first

"Am I doing this right?”

“Like this?”

And he’ll wrap his arms around your legs and start massaging your thighs because he knows you’re just as nervous

“Does that feel good?”

Needs a lot of reassurance because he doesn’t know if he’s doing anything right poor baby

So you’d have to guide him because it’s probably his first time going down on anybody

And although he’s inexperienced, he’ll be very generous and kind in the process

And he isn’t afraid to learn, either

He’s very patient and understands if you don’t cum until after a while

So he’ll keep at it and doesn’t give up until you cum

Because your satisfaction is what relieves him and makes him feel better about being inexperienced

Is so proud of himself when you cum

Expect him to want to do it over and over again so that he gets better at it lucky you

✰Yeosang:

It would take Yeosang quite a few months in the relationship to go down on you tbh

And when he does, he’s so reserved about it and it’s pretty clear

Undresses you really slowly

He takes it very seriously the first time

So he will watch your every reaction to him touching you

Is just very cautious at first, really doesn’t want you to be uncomfortable in any way

His heart beats super fast during the moments leading up to it

But that will subside as soon as he places his mouth on your heat

And sees how wet he’s already made you

Like once he knows he’s making you feel good, he was no longer so reserved

His eyes would close and his grip on your thighs would get firmer

Tbh enjoys it as much as you do

Doesn’t make much noise, but grunts into you every now and then

Just naturally gets into it and his licks are so thought out and slow

Hearing you get turned on by him really turns him on even more

Slips in a few fingers and holds your hips down

The louder you were, the more his ego grew

He really likes eating you out because it made him feel so accomplished

Like wow he’s the only one who could make you feel the way he does

Before you knew it, he would have your back arched and toes curled

When you came, he’d have your thighs shaking

Oral with Yeosang doesn’t happen often, but when it does, expect it to leave you lifeless lmao

✰San:

Extremely playful, but definitely tense the first time

Like he’ll try to act like he knows what he’s doing

But in reality has absolutely no clue, so he kind of wings it lol based on what he’s seen in porn lmaoo

So your first time with him going down would probably consist of the same tongue movements at the start, a few licks here and there

But then he’ll loosen up a bit when he hears that he’s somehow still pleasuring you

Pays close attention to what you like and what you don’t

He picks up on it really fast, too

So be careful because this one will turn ruthless

Before you know it, his tongue only gets deeper and he’s focused on your clit because that seems to be the spot that gets you the most aroused

He could just tell by paying close attention to your body language

But you won’t even realize that he’s picking up on everything

And he’ll definitely use that to his advantage

Probably edges you multiple times and acts like he doesn’t know what he was doing

Like he’ll be playing with your clit and when he hears your moans get louder, he stops and just blows onto your heat

And it takes you a while to notice

It’s a game with him, and he loves hearing you whine good luck

Nonetheless, oral with him is still pretty exciting, but he’ll have way too much fun with you not necessarily a bad thing tho lmao

✰Mingi:

Mingi is literally so fucking sweet when he goes down on you

Your needs are his priority, and he really isn’t afraid to ask and take note of what you like and don’t like

To him, being intimate with you meant more than just the physical things, it was the cherry on top

So he was more than happy to go above and beyond when he goes down on you for the first time

I feel like with Mingi, there has to be a deeper connection before he goes down on you

So it might have been some time before he did so

And it happened so gradually

Everything happened at your comfortability

But it’ll take some time for him to work up to going down on you, so keep that in mind

And when he does, it will be something that will leave you craving his mouth over and over again

And he is so gentle the first time

Intertwines his hand with yours

And makes sure to ask plenty of questions

“How does this feel?”

“Do you like that, baby?”

Is so smiley when he hears you moan, is so proud of himself

Works his way to stick a few fingers later on

Continues fingering you and adding pressure to your clit and watches you as you came

Asks you how he did afterwards and tells you he enjoyed every part of it, especially your moans he’s shameless at this point lol

Doesn’t ask for anything in return, but of course wouldn’t decline if you offered to return the favor and go down on him

✰Wooyoung:

Him going down on you for the first time is quite an experience to remember

Ngl he starts out really sloppily tbh

Because he is a complete dork

So of course that doesn’t end in the bedroom lol

Definitely expect him to be a giggly mess at the beginning

But giggly because of his nerves

Takes a deep breath before he starts

Because he has absolutely no idea what he’s doing

Lots of experimenting your first time

So expect to hear “ah, okay, so you don’t like that”

And “Is this better?”

After a bit, he’s more confident and lets his lips do the work

Is very animated when eating you out

Like he obviously enjoys it

Flicks his tongue every now and then on your clit, most of his attention is there

Really just follows the flow of your moans

Gets more turned on when you tug onto his hair

And when you do, he grabs your thighs and pushes them towards you for more access

Deeply strokes into your folds with his tongue

Gets so turned on, so will probably ask if he can go further

“I want to fuck you so bad, baby”

He’ll make sure you cum, but you’re going straight to fucking right after

Him going down on you probably happens often tbh, but always leads to something more now is that really a problem though

✰Jongho:

The first time Jongho went down on you, it was not planned at all

Like one second you two were playing a video game and suddenly he’s on top of you after attempting to take the controller from your hands

And you both ended up in such a weird position, with him in between your legs

But it was enough to get you both in the mood to do more than continue playing video games

So he began kissing you and promptly set down the controller, as if y’all weren’t fighting over it a second ago

He honestly gets really into kissing you, even getting carried away

It wasn’t until he was kissing down your body that he instinctively stopped himself at the hem of your pants

Like his eyes would get really big when he realized where he was

And damn this boy was blushing hard

“S-sorry, I didn’t mean--”

“No...it’s okay.”

“...You want me to keep going?”

“...Yes.”

And just like that, he didn’t waste a second and was between your legs

Fumbles a bit when taking off your panties, but when he does, it’s like he’s gotten past the hard part

He’s so serious when he’s eating you out

Like you’ll definitely notice the change in his demeanor

Is quiet for the most part, but he’s trying to be very thorough and focuses on you to forget about and mask his nerves

Watches you, but if you made eye contact, he’d probably close his eyes

He’s just really shy throughout the whole time

Stops eating you out when he sees that you’re cumming, resorts to using his thumb to rub you until you finished

Kisses you a lot afterwards and is super red and tries to act cool

He didn’t expect to get that far with you, but at the same time is glad because he feels more connected with you, intimacy like that is a huge step in your relationship with him

Thinks about it for the rest of the week, can’t believe that actually happened

He’ll feel more confident and more open to more intimate things with you

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castlehead · 6 years

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:a Not which one is right but which one is more like you Let's start now // this is a few makeshifts on the deity,

dint realize y i was gettin poor marks in college till i realized comic sans wasnt mla format for essays, but i kept on with it bc im anti establishment and my dope ass literary insights should speak for themselves.

my 'experimentation' as one nonplussed professor put it, with the font, progressively got crazier, and in the end i was doin all caps zapf wingdings mized wih herculanum

needless to say, i got my degree.. IN BEIN A BOSS.

na but yeah i got kicked out of that school. still bummin on campus actually, and probably psychotic from this ecstasy i keep taking. this guy in f comp makes his own, has a pill press nd everything.

the shoes i original got as a college present from my parents got stolen, or in any case i woke up in a snow drift next to the commons dumpster without them on, so i just wear slippers. my toes are purple. ther always feels like there is something in my teeth or throat i cannot dislodge. i am the campus transient, avoiding th. RAs and ignoring the eviction notices. like raping the willing, one cannot be evicted if one is homeless. with the help of a few friends i sold drugs to when my rents still gave me money and i was still enrolled, i alternate between various dormitory hovels, hiding out from the campus police like some ghastly dysfunctional version of anne frank.

i havent taken my pills and smell. i emaciate my already rejected body, rejected by the establishment goons, with cocaine, and remind myself of the leftover chicken carcass and neatly lined bones whose tomb was a disgusting box of dominos buffalo wings i ordred and consumed my first semester here and that remained in the same place until i abandoned that radioactive dormroom to die slowly and painfully, and metaphorically, since living quarters do not possess life. i am starting tho to wonder if i myself possess that as well or if i did once and now am but a structure, a part of the collegiate landscape, sniffed at by diligent students and attempted to get thru to by intellectual slackers, decadent addicts themselves on their way to where i am, and wooks who need someone to smoke with on a sunday 4 am and know i always keep track of what festis are goin on on campus; i receive the next round of empathy from a new stranger who maybe heard of me or has seen me around and wondered what i was still doing here.

empathy, empathy, curiosity as to the quirky insane dude fried by mdma and a shitload of adderall for no purpose bc i have no practical skills. a monotony of empathy ripping off and using for the metaphorical shit on my metaphorical ass, like swquares of toilet paper who fancy me a hobo poet in need of on top of text books i never opened, on a desk i used as a trash receptacle. and speaking of wings, i think i might be literally going into a dissociative state because all the leaves on the trees look like zapf wingdings. my clavicle is not only visible but sticks out of my body further than my chest does.

watch out for hell day today, for something godlier than god. i deliver it.

The effect I wish to give, as it always has been, is that of a truth clearly viewed, in utter horror. Gods factotum, shuffling thru abandoned files that sometime held a secret forgotten, tho no less true now, and the horror perhaps, that we forgot something so crucially, fundamentally true, and so long ago.

this work is twisted, sad, manic, strange, fluid, stilted, inappropriate, foolish, magnificent.

if god doesnt exist, neither does the version of myself with dreadlocks

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one has no choice in the end but to resign oneself, and drop their head. and yet, where do they look, if one in shrinking away for the purpose of humbling hisself afore the god of anxiety, and receiving his respite, knows nothing more than but to resign? where is the clarity here? there is no clarity 'here'. it is there, and come upon in moments of fear and trembling at the dread chaos, the doubt in a heart and split in a mind.

it is there, for one is staring at the ground, awaiting an end to the necessary aversion from the sight of a higher morsel of GOD.

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atheism should not be an opinion it is not the result of not believing in god it is simply living life without a thought as to a religious god. we are not reacting to religion we are IN reality just as the catholic is IN reality. saying "I don't believe in god" is like equating nothingness to a lack of everything. there is no reactive state to atheism at its purest. it is not an acknowledgment, in other words, of no god, but an acknowledgment of what is before one's eyes, this vast neutral space I defy you to say is different from the religious folks' apprehension of objects and desires, all before them, swimming in ghostly revelry or not, only figurations anyway. o this insanely divided world.

i have a secular conception of god based on my teleological hypotheses re the nature of a causa prima, causa sui. it's the definitions that need defining, not the thing with a name on it that needs explaining. physics already does that.

remove intent for the case of nihilism, and you will have what i am saying here. no case at all. no 'response' so to speak. atheism can be evangelical

im not an evangelical atheist because what i believe changes based on the day but is always just as real haha. belief is tenuous. i go by that

it's the definitions that need defining, not the thing that needs explaining.

my conception of god is that it is the only thing that does not exist. so in a way, yes, i am an atheist.

'God' as defined in its easiest terms, is an ultimate uniquity. like, an outstanding substance. anyway, idk. at the end of the day idk haha

Kant's own a priori notional form of perception comes to mind. in front of our eyes is what is real. the observer initiates the ocular nerve, and the thing or situation burns into the receiving blankness of the mind.

like, have we reaped all the possible benefits of fire by now? surely the wails of prometheus fall not on deaf ears!

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twisted, sad, manic, strange, fluid, stilted, inappropriate, foolish, magnificent.

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green tortilla chips my ass. he said with no attempt at disguising incredulity, wiping the tears from his brow.

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whereas god is all, i am only myself, knowledgeable of only myself; therefore, unless god is simultaneously aware of being myself alone along with being everything, and of that everything knowledgeable of each and every thing as if god were only that thing, i am then let in on an experience of individuality that god is unaware of.

this is a question of how to be the most purely omniscient, omnipotent, etc. that is the question that our conception of god is asking.

corollary: if in the case of being simultaneously the experience i have of myself, and being all, then it is quite logical to say that our experience in life is in fact a godly experience, since i, too, would be unaware of being all, as goes the route of any human perception of things.

when i say i am only aware of myself i mean it in ontological terms, fyi -and also in, i will admit, somewhat absolutist terms. of course as people, psychologically, we can put ourselves in another's shoes, step outside of our comfort zone, change an opinion [or five] and every person is an environmental sponge -we can adopt varying personality traits from the culture we is born into etc. -this argument presupposes an absolute view, kinda,- in that, IF this were how it went, it wld go such nd such -this statement of mine does not examine a phenomenological or spiritual connection between people but examines the relativity and possible logical gaps in -the idea, or notion if you prefer- of omniscience.- there is only theory haha <#

we create our gods but they exist as much as we do

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turn your back, find yourself faceless, at least, to someone.

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wondering if I got a problm w. th prostate bc sometimes when I feel a shit coming I piss n it goes away. Don't change much re bathroom routine tho since I already sit down wen I pee in the first place, and according to my second ex wife this means I am a lazy fat whore

interested in the concept of the devout as being the truest sceptics.

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Thought has the coherence of being but is not being, i.e. beginning and ending in our living heads as something not itself alive, but a mere transfer of connection willed consciously to create that inert unbreathing grand called the magnificent bullshit, the idea.

the quiet horror of the mundane dailyness.

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i think something elitist and say within, Well that was elitist wasnt it, dan. then pat myself on the back at my ability to check my arrogance, specifically when i see the thought thru the lens of something a cousin of mine with generally liberal views and empathy who fishes in alaska for money and lives off the grid would remark to himself. then, i get slightly nauseated after mentally leafing thru all the times i have been proud of mentally criticizing myself for something in the first place outwardly bad. and there goes on the circular drudge of ugliness, not evaded outright, but felt the pangs of guilt in the says within, that say me again and again in my inertial brood, of void i would hope, of searching for clarity i wish, but that is probably more like a moralizing, limited gauge, like feeling better about something ugly that is yr fault by feeling bad about it for a little so you can get that part over with without the possibility of another harder wave of guilt for not feeling bad at all about the ugly thing, and therewith reacting with doubts to doubtful reactions, until yr whole value system is a wilderness of mirrors.

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im a perfectionist when it comes to sensation. the beautiful feeling must be experienced in the proper setting that would maximize its potential. i think this is y i used to do lots of drugs, which by nature are the commodification of sensations. probably also y i was super miserable doing them and kept doing them despite that. there is a certain ring of the hoarder or magpie in this perfectionism that wants to connect physicality with ego that i see as well in the idea of paying money to literally feel specific sensations; equally, the result of this on the psyche is as tenuous here as with the futile idea of thinking the perfect setting for doing drugs is always at hand, which it rarely is, or at the least there is something to mar the perfect dream, that dragon, that pursuit of happiness, life, and liberty via thinking on how best situate the chains to, in essence, 'maximize' your mobility, but nathless remaining held in doom. the drug world, uh, is itself volatile; perfectionism and volatility dont jive so well, usually. and so on. hm. hegh.

heh.

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I only like Eminem rap and that one NWA song like hell naw the rest is garbage now let me go back to my trailer in the woods where I live in harmony with the Elves who have seemed to appear more frequently now that I have that bathtub meth dungeon set up in my basement where skynerd plays ceaselessly from an unlocatable place. My hero is Ed Gein. But I don't do the lampshade thing. I do however have a human skull I bought from my buddy who owns a war relics and parephernalia shop, he had to go in the back to get it and lock the store so nobodys would come snoop. Turns out some folks comed snoop to see if he figured any more available and he got mad at me for blabbing, an I said, Giles, ya know I ain't blabbing, but he dint believe it, an now we just kinder avoid each other at the local NA meetin. People tryn cop there and some do and theys go behind the water tower tagitit, I int do that part tho, a tad fucked up I mean, these people try n getting clean an all, why make it harder n it eyis? But if y'all wanit I get it tiya, come by and share a chaw almighty God. Gib ye a gude price too. *PATOOEY* I. Uh am sober myself. 20 yrs. but damn ye ye make a buck more n working garbage detail selling home cooked meth I reckon ye. Don't touch the stuff I don't anymore after I heard this queer fella from out a town got his arm chopped off when he mainlined eyit. Tryn I guess do some sex stuff and a days travel from the city. City folk don't know it's diffeRent strength down here's doe. I reckon. *MEDITATIVE PATOOEY* yes sirn. Huhm.

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The thing abt the Sex Pistols is, tho they engineered the punk genre immeasurably, they seem to no longer be in the cultural conversation, except within factions of grey haired aficionados. Even the more radio friendly The Clash seems notably absent in this regard. Has punk developed beyond its early stages, or is punk, being the genre that it is, dependent on whatever the moments youth zeitgeist is? punk is visceral because it is held in time this way. first gen punk, cbgbs headliners of ago and ago, do not exert these days the same walbreaking feel, bc I think there's so much virtuosic music being made today that the path of what will develop is harder to determine. Musicians in throes break down walls without batting an eye. Any musical iconoclasm expressed in the music of the past, then, especially to the contemporary ear, is bound to seem bathetic. Like microaggressions as expressions of racism, our society's opening of mind leads to a closed mind, as one can justify not being racist by simply saying they do not think they are better than marginalized peoples, have never done anything racist, think we are all equal, are not clansmen lol. what ruffles feathers is less obvious, in turn, bc expressions of the ersatz new and the real new are harder and harder to determine. The surplus of media, ideas, and opinions, I think, will lead us to a place where "cultural norm" becomes an oxymoron, hopefully. But then, what else will be left to invigorate, if so much is already so much done out, already? Does there exist a perspective, artistic or no, that is not liable to become passé? Or even some thought never thought before? I know there is, I for one know there is, because as a poet I see much to fix, and much that I work to do bc I see it nowhere else; and this most crucially is not an impression of mine based on today's lit but every days lit there has ever been, throughout history. Just I can literally not even yo, yo

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Mathsmatics can transcend thru the grandeur of its implications but not thru the means towards said implications; philo can do the same, but it's better penchant is for transcending thru means to electrify a mundane conclusion or give a system of reason to a general thought-trope such as, "reality is an illusion" or whichever flat idea u prefer to follow. Since it is pure logos, philo differs from math in being more readily universal; tho the applications of math are more readilly useful than the positives that come with mental clarity at the understanding an achieved unified system. Poetry is all means, so then must dazzle, and needs no evidence, conclusion, or even subject, but need only sway with beauty. Therein is the problem with the existential issue of selfhood. Reductive analysis of self becomes psych, and the only pure philo to be had in selfhoods exegesis is not to be found in anything like a system of proofs or syllogisms, etc. selfhood, as Kierkegaard recognized, is poetic bc it exacerbates reality, exhausts all of it. it is individual, and so copious a thing has no one forged path to what it is, or even any path at all, to what it is, since like Pascals God the self is a circle whose point is everywhere and circumference nowhere. Figuring out a reality via a teleology or thru logic is nicer to attempts at systems. But individual self is too mucky for any proof to say it exists; the murkiness shines, as it always does, when the means are prevalent, since the means, being held moment to moment, rely on nothing but expose a variety of paths to more variety. Philo then is better at least than Math for finding out something obfuscated, but nothing but poetry can so deeply probe the self, as its humility is lain in the respect for a complete dissembling of systems.

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the iconic ny jewish deli sandwich is in essence a robust mountain of roast beef held feebly between two unnecessary pieces of sad, chickenshit marble rye

the roast beef, of course, wld be kosher.

I create; I waste. Yet nothing is perfect, nothing, nothing. Not even dignity.

#prose #collage #frammenti #zibaldone #makeshift #god #god n stuff #prowse #writing

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Ohira Shunya livedoor interview english translation

Original article with the beautiful pictures intact: http://news.livedoor.com/article/detail/12825090/

Key: Pink bit = bits in italics and bold, the interviewer = bold, Shunya = normal text

And usal disclaimer that this translation may not be 100% as I suck big time at reading kanji and I had to take liberty with some of the translation or it wouldn’t of made sense in english haha (lot of going back and forth between the article and Jisho.org)

“To be able to experience the feeling of being greeted by a standing ovation again”

The stage play where we see Sendo Aichi and Kai Toshiki fight, strengthen their bonds and grow- “Cardfight Vanguard”. Last year I was surprised that a card game had been turned into a stage play and how one year has past and now we have a sequel. At the time of last year’s performance did you and the cast feel the feedback?

In the curtain call of the last performance we were greeted with a standing ovation and the vivid scene still remains with me. At that moment I thought that this piece of work had gotten through to everyone. Out of all the time I’ve been acting.it was a moment that made me thought ‘Ah, I’m really glad that I became an actor.’

A “live” reaction by the audience, then?

During rehearsal I felt that the cast bonds deepened but before the audinence it felt like our hearts had become one.

In the first place how are you meant to perform a card fight on stage? I can’t imagine it at all.

Same for us! (LOL) Before we entered rehearsal it was a constant ‘what was going through the head of the director’ or ‘how should we reproduce what he was thinking’. It was very difficult. When we entered rehearsal we were like “Ah, this is how the projection will be projected.”

When the audience saw it for the first time were they like ‘Ah, I see! This is how it’s going to be done.’

I was always thinking during rehearsal how the audience would view it from their perspective. We kept watching videos of us rehearsing and there were definietly going to be people who had never seen Cardfight Vanguard before and to those people I wondered what sort of piece of work they thought it would be like. I thought and I thought.

After all that suffering to bring it to life, a sequel has been annouonced...

I was really really happy. Also Some-san (Someya Toshiyuki/Suzukamori Ren) during curtain call was like ‘I want to do it 2, 3 more times!’. In joker-hen I want to see Narumi Asuka and Ren fight! I went and said that and now it is going to happen. I was seriously really happy.

“As leader I’ve got to be a reliable figure!”

About the main character, Sendo Aichi, that you play, what are your thoughts on the transformation into the new look with blue eyes and hair?

I feel it’s a little different from last time. Now that he has entered high school he feels slighly more adult like. Of course during the last performance I built up the character and this time I would also like to build Aichi up from zero again. When I looked at myself in the mirror I thought that I had to create a character that lives in the world on the stage.

Is there any particularly exciting and fun parts about this piece of work?

Last time Kai-kun (Kento) helped Aichi but this time it is my turn to help him. That part if really fun so please anticipate it!

You’re the same age as Kento-san, aren’t you?

We are quite close, going to fast food places toghether and playing vanguard together. So we were like ‘what are we Sendo Aichi and Kai Toshiki or something?” But now (I have a new deck of cards) everyone is too strong (at Vanguard) so cards from five years ago won’t work... is what we have been talking about. (LOL)

Seeing Aichi and Kai in unexpected places...(LOL)

From now on, I’m anticipating how Aichi-kun will get strong with his cards. I start to daydream about his future story. (LOL)

Following up from last time, you’ll be in the position of leader again.

I was concious of that all right. It would be bad if I was lazy, wouldn’t it?

I don’t think anyone thinks of you as lazy though... (LOL)

Usually we have a family-like relationship but when the time comes we do it properly. I want it to be a company like that so for that to happen I have to pull myself together! No one would want to follow a lazy leader, would they?

After all the different types of stage plays you’ve been in I bet you’ve seen loads of different types of leaders.

I’ve met many amazing leaders over the years and thought stuff like ‘this person was doing this’ or ‘I might as well do this too’. But when it came to actually doing it, of course the older people were helping and supporting the younger ones. I wanted to be a leader like that, I thought.

This time there are new members joining you.

Yeah there are. I’m really excited! There are the twins MIO-chan and YAE-san who play Jillian Chen and Sharlene Chen (this was before rehearsal started) and I couldn’t tell between the two. (LOL)

The capability of the leader is questioned there (LOL)

That’s bad, isn’t it? (LOL) Kento-kun and Some-san are friends from the last performance, and alongside the new members I think we will continue to love this piece of work!

“My school days when I stopped going to school...one meeting changed my life!”

This time we see Aichi all grown up in high school. What were you like during your middle and high school days?

Actually there was a period when I didn’t go to school...It was really painful and sad....(LOL). But a childhood friend senpei of mine said to me ‘come and play tennis’ and he invited me to play. And so everyday he came and invited me and before I know it I’m attending a tennis club and everyday slowly started to become fun and I started to want to go back to school. I feel like I’m like Aichi-kun in that respect. Because I have such a past, I feel like I can really cherish the friends and world that I have right now. I can really empathise with Aichi-kun’s life.

Aichi-kun had a time when he was withdrawn and cowardly but after meeting Kai-kun, he had loads of different meetings that helped him grow.

That’s right.I think I am blessed with all the people around me.School is another different world, different from the entertainment world, and there I met loads of different senpai that influenced me. I can now stand where I am today thanks to all the different people around me.

In the first place what made you want to be an actor?

Ever since I was young I was saying that I wanted to be an actor. Because of that I don’t remember what was the inital motive was (LOL). In my elementary school anthology I wrote ‘I will become’ as I felt a sense sense of purpose.

Sense of purpose!

I felt that ‘I had to live as an actor”. Because I had that sense of purpose I now think ‘With this job, this part is really interesting’ or ‘this senpai is really cool’ and gradually I got to understand the interesting parts of this job.(LOL)

Because you had such a strong sense of purpose, when you finally debuted were you concious of the fact that you were a ‘professional actor’?

At one point I did think that but because of Musical Touken ranbu I thought ‘Ah, there is no point to that’.

The trial performance of that started in October of 2015 which was only a few months before Vanguard it was pretty recent, wasn’t it?

To be satisfied with myself I don’t think of myself as a professional but that there are things needed to be done in order to be a professional but what they are I have no idea. It was the director Isamu Chino-san (TL note: is this his name? God knows with names haha) who tought me to hold affection and love.This meeting was sort of like a crossroad, as it pretty much meant hold those strong feelings that I’ve always held. I felt like I moved up a level.

(Does this make sense? I’m not sure myself tbh haha I’m so lost over what the hell he’s talking about here lol)

It seems right now is really fun, right?

(At a performance there is a surprising amount of loud voices) It’s really fun! I’ve had encounters strengthened bonds. Last year alone I worked with over 500 people including all events and plays. I don’t think there are many jobs where you are able to do that.

“Has a cute outward appearance but on the inside is an Japanese sake loving old man?!”

Although it may be rude, you are 163cm tall which is pretty small compared to the average male. In the world of stage plays where it is advantageous to be taller due to having to move your body around loads, do you ever feel any handicaps or complexes over it?

In all my life I’ve always had strong complexes over the tall people. I’ve been called a midget. Actually, I used to be very cute because of my height. Not that I’m boasting.

From the current you, I can imagine you being a very cute young boy.

Small and cute...I’ve always wondered ‘why won’t I grow any taller?’.But now that I’m in this world, it became my unique trait and I have my place here because of it.

Because you are now surrounded by even taller guys, do you still have a complex over it?

That’s right. Because it is my unique trait, I can use it as my weapon while working and I think that is a wonderful thing.

How do you feel when you are called cute?

Saeki Daichi who co-starred in Musical Touken ranbu with me says it a lot. That I’m the cutest. (LOL) It has become a unique trait needed to survive in this world. Right now, I have a place here and I’m thankful to my parents for that.

Compared to your outward appearance, what is your personality like?

Not at all cute. I’m basically an old man. An old man who like crab miso and Japanese sake. (LOL) When I get called cute I’m like ‘thank you so much’ but when I get called cool I get embarrassed. Really, as I’ve not been called it a lot I’m not used to it (LOL).

(Finally finished lol that was a long interview but a beautiful one at that haha and some parts I’m like really lost over what they meant so if something doesn’’t make sense it because I’m lost myself haha. If there are any major translation errors tho please point them out as this is the first time I’ve translated a long interview so there is probably a load of errors haha)

#Ohira Shunya #butai #stage play

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