#SHE LEFT WHEN SHE WAS 15

[kellyinawheeliebin]

I hate Ahsoka I hate Ahsoka I hate Ahsoka I hate Ahsoka

EDIT: THIS POST IS ABOUT TALES OF THE JEDI “RESOLVE”. THIS IS NOT ABOUT REBELS OR THE TITULAR SHOW.

#i’m sorry this is gonna show up in tags #but I HATE AHSOKA I HATE HER I HATE HER #they’ve made her this unstoppable badass with fucking starkiller powers basically #but NOOO starkiller is too powerful to be canon #like girlies i just watched ahsoka dodge that inquisitor and then take his lightsaber and cut him down in one stroke #as if a) that’s not something super darkside to do #and b) LIKE THAT’S SOMETHING SHE COULD DO #SHE’S LITERALLY KANAN’S LEVEL #SHE LEFT WHEN SHE WAS 15 #and everyone’s like oh well she had anakin and obi wan!! #kanan had DEPA FUCKING BILABA #padawan to MACE WINDU who TOOK DOWN THE EMPEROR and only didn’t win because anakin ambushed him #it’s because she’s a she and marketing and that’s literally it fucking eat my asshole #someone tell me it’s a dream or something fake or someone fucking dies #it’s bad enough they’re trying to give me a good reason for ahsoka to not be completely fucked by like 50 clones firing at her #also her being at padme’s funeral makes no fucking sense and i’m going to kill someone for it

[petscoboba]

I always like imagining Deltarune if it had animated trailers or cinematics, so I wanted to make a run of Noelle's design trying to stick more closely to the coloring and style of Deltarune!

#deltarune #noelle holiday #utdr #it still very is in my style #but i would kill! for an animated trailer one day #the ages i drew her at from left to right are #9-10) when kris and her were still pretty close/before dess left #12-13) after dess left/a year or two after which noelle and kris began to fall out #and junior year-- 16 going on 17) present day deltarune! she's tired #this is tangential but my ages for the fun gang i imagine are around junior year-- with susie having turned 17 already and everyone else 16 #ralsei is 15. he's trying his best. he would be homeschooled if he were a lightner. sorry

[koetjingwarrd]

You're my baby, say it to me...

#gundam witch from mercury #gwitch #wfm #sulemio #suletta mercury #miorine rembran #i bet on losing dogs as per gwitch current story progression aka ep17 do you see my vision... #i have particular mixed feelings on ep 17 most of which i feel that the story is done a bit sloppy i think it started around ep 16 or 15 #i really need to get this out so i could study damn it !! #first of all with miorine with the one who's losing a lot by being complicit with prospera's quiet zero significantly trapping herself furt #er in the cycle of revenge and also losing the friends she has come to cherish and also... at the same time knowing hal truths of what real #ly happened prospera true plan. vanadis. aerial and suletta true nature. earth as a spacian battleground. and the whole lot #i feel like she's rushing thru her birthday to eject sul asap from prosperas plan and now whats done is done i feel like she underestimate #what conviction on how suletta values what family means to her. prospera lines where she wonders whether sul will give aerial up #easily is giving vibes that its possible for suletta to take drastic measures to get her family back. miorine grows up on a world that #is defined by strict rules but suletta does not... that is after she's starting to get over her heartbreak i think... #whats interesting about gwitch is that although it considered utena as one of its base material it mixes said materials with how gundam sto #ryline works while simultaneously keeping up with today's themes. so honestly... when this happened today im a bit pissed #another thing that even though on a surface level suletta plays the role of utena with miorine as anthy they are also anthy and utena #respectively. suletta and utena with their kind hearted and naive self with a sense of justice left behind the insidious plot of the school #anthy and miorine titled the bride who adored their respective partner up to the point of deception and betrayal for their own good #SULETTA AND ANTHY GOD THE WITCh. red motifs. i find it funny they both have siblings okay this is messed up. the character shrouded in myst #ery. SCREAMS AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS THE CHICK WHO IS YET TO HATCHH !!!! RAHHH #insert utena student council theme somewhere around here #and lastly utena and miorine. the “princess”that is ready to take on a world that is threatening her loved one. both are only child god no. #this is my personal feelings but i will find it heartbreaking that despite everthing suletta will runs to miorine no matter how much she #push her away... but i also want and find it interesting where despite loving and believing in her suletta will slowly will ALSO despise #her for letting them drift apart kind of like anthy and utena on the akio apocalypse arc....... do i want this to happen...? do i....? >yes #regardless augh what a heartwrenching lovely episode despite me knowing it will happen at some point during the show #im like the surprised pikachu meme with tears in my eyes

[laurearte]

Ils ont TRAÎNÉ le pote qui aime pas se voir sur les photos par le COLBACK

#they make sure wallflower shoot’s NEVER left alone when they drag him to a party #not really feeling himself so hiding underneath 15 layers of clothing #half of the campus’ population is thirsting over palm cause she’s a baddie #the other half over knuckle cause he’s a nice buff himbo with nice hair and a cute dog #discount Elvis Presley ass #they’re BESTIES #college au #hunter x hunter #hunter x hunter fanart #hxh #aimé leon dore #yohji yamamoto #versace #mermaidcore #knuckle bine #shoot mcmahon #palm siberia #potclean

[strawberryteabunny]

went to a vinyl record sale from the library today 🥀🎼

There was also a poetry fest happening at the library and you could request typewritten poems!

Of course I requested one about rabbits-

tulips outside the library 🌷

Coord rundown:

JSK: BTSSB Rosellina Fleur

OP: Victorian Maiden Rococo Bouquet Blouse OP

OTK’s: Metamorphose

Blouse: Gunne Sax

#lolita fashion #classic lolita #egl fashion #baby the stars shine bright #victorian maiden #egl community #records were $1 each and I got 15! mostly classical music #they were selling 9000 from their collection #but it started on Thursday so I missed most of it bc I had to work #still a good amount left today though ofc and I’m happy with what I got!! #will be less happy when I have to move my records collection lol they are so heavy #I read the bunny poem to strawberry and she did not like it very much :( #I think it’s cute though she IS a shameless libertine #mine

[samgiddings]

since I’ve been on tumblr over 10 years now, here’s one of my earliest selfies here vs a kinda recent one

#she’s old and tired #one on the left is from when I was 15 LOL #med mumbles

[insane-weasel]

I think as writers we should hold funerals for our WIPs more often.

Dearly beloved, gather us here today where this fic of some middle-aged man getting rawdogged and this other fanfic about the importance of friendship are laid to rest, because the author got really distracted playing that new video game.

We celebrate what could have been, cut-and-recycle those really good lines or ideas, because I swear I'm going to use them, I swear! And drag this poor document not to the great recycling bin or trash, but to the "graveyard" folder because sometimes I like to commune with the dead.

#fanfic #Writing #I just had to throw out 5k words of a one shot over something I can't change/control but I never delete old WIPs #I do just put them in a folder and still backup that folder with my other files #Yes some of my earlier ideas were horrendous but also there's a part of me still there in each of them #Sometimes it's less about the writing and more about who I was I want to sometimes revisit #Who was the teen girl writing gore at 15 and what would she think of today's writing #Who was the insecure fearful loveless boy who over expressed his masculinity online and wrote tough lonely guy characters #I don't want to be them anymore but when I hate myself sometimes it's nice to read what I've written #You hear the problems you never thought youd overcome in the author notes or in the subject and those fears and pain #You also see the first time you wrote a subject #I wish I hadn't deleted lots of my writing from when I was very young #Some I did because it legitimately could cause or encourage harm if left online #But I think I always smile when I see the old “this year is 8th grade” because by golly #Still think it's hilarious I got really into writing in middle school because I was jealous of someone else's writing ability in 6th grade #I can remember the exact moment I looked at my 2 page story and was filled with jealousy because they wrote 12 pages and my story felt so.. #I remember going home and going 'i know I can write something good!' and people will like it! #And then like while looking for some place to upload writing I found fanfic

[cannivalisms]

writing some more good intentions ch 1. this is so fucked up. did you guys know hess was like this. did you know she probably tried to be 'good' at a younger age but then realized all of that progress got erased at the slightest misstep, and everyone only ever saw her for What she was and not Who anyway. and why would she work twice as hard for half the love? did you know hess has ultimately decided to cope with the world hating her by making herself sooo hateable in turn, embodying the difference ascribed to her, and deep down feeling pleased she gets to be the director's #1 problem child because it's the only way she knows how to belong <3

#writeblr #original writing #writers on tumblr #hess tiamaret #good intentions #she writes #did you know hess <3s being different and is about to flip her shit being put in a school where everyone is technically just like her #because she doesnt know what to do when people will move from seeing her as a core to seeing her as a person #because shes so used to just being hated. the eternal other. literally what the fuck is left if you strip all that away #did you know in this excerpt hess is like 15/16 and the flashback is her even younger. fucked up #tw abuse

[hella1975]

i can’t believe not even 24 hours ago i was in an exam like that still feels like something i hallucinated

#bc i have accommodations me and all the other academic silly guys go in a little room so it means there’s several different exams happening #and I have EXTRA TIME but the invigilator was like ‘you have reading time right?’ (different things entirely) #and my dumbass as we know can’t refuse a free thing regardless of the context so without hesitation I went ‘yep!’ #like I’ll take it if ur offering babe! #which turned out to be such a pain bc in the 15 mins of reading time ur NOT ALLOWED to start the exam u just have to look at it #and my exam was stupidly short bc my lecturer is a lazy gimp so I was just sat there like 🧍🏻‍♀️ #FOR FIFTEEN MINUTES #and the invigilator was really condescending? like defo got told she was in the room with all the neurodivergent and learning disabilities #and took it to HEART like she came over at one point and went to tell me where to write my name??? but obvs I’d already done it??? #and I left early and before everyone else and when I put my hand up and said i was finished #she went ‘you’re finished???’ really shocked like #odd. very odd. also I had it’s been so long by the living tombstone stuck in my head the entire exam #THAT was not peak #it’s been so long…. since I last have seen my son lost to this monster… to the man behind the slaughter… 🤪🤪🤪 #MY DAUGHTER IF YOU CAN HEAR ME I KNEW YOU WOULD RETURN AS WELL IT’S IN YOUR NATURE TO PROTECT THE INNOCENT IM SORRY THAT ON THAT DAY #THE DAY YOU WERE SHUT OUT AND LEFT TO DIE NO ONE WAS THERE TO LIFT YOU UP INTO THEIR ARMS THE WAY YOU LIFTED OTHERS INTO YOURS #girls will unknowingly memorise the fnaf speech. watch out josh hutcherson #hella goes to uni

[autism-swagger]

Girl help I'm having young Sam and Tara thoughts

#the first one is ~15 year old Sam and ~9 year old Tara #and the second one is ~17 year old Sam and ~12 year old Tara #so yknow how I almost always draw Tara with her hair up #well when I was drawing this the cogs started turning #and I decided that pre Sam leaving she always kept it down #and after she left she started tying it back #because it reminded her of Sam #my art #Tara tag #horror tag

[heavenlydreamangelflyhigh]

moms getting competitive w her eating disorder again

#she keeps mimicking how ive been living and now that ive been sliding back and restricting again due to stress #she's been body checking around me more talking about how much she works out how 'toned' she looks #and dishing up smaller portions than me only eating half and then saying 'oh i'm so full...marie #if you can't finish yours just throw the rest out...' #she had her friend over yesterday and the poor woman made the mistake of confiding in my mother and i about her ed #and i gave her some advice for recovery & let her know that anorexia is hard to tackle esp when you're taking care of someone else at the #same time but its doable..and she was asking about what i do when i relapse #and obv i didnt go into detail so as not to like. give any ideas. but it was nice to have someone Nice to relate to on that front #immediately my mom jumps in with 'oh i restrict too! thats what i do! i go days without eating and count my calories. #marie doesnt work out like i do because their therapist said not to..but i work out so i can stay toned and confident.' like no you dont #it hurts me that shes doing this shit to herself but i know shes doing it in front of me to feel superior because she Always Has #its CYCLICAL with her. as soon as my gf left the mask came back off and she was right back to the mama i know #using MY CLOTHES to body check using MY MIRROR infront of me i feel insane. #like i told her i feel disgusting because i gained two pounds and im at 114 now and she immediately started talking about her weight and #that we need to stop buying 'junk food' #MOMM....OH MY GOOOD... #whatever whatever . i'll get over it in a few mins im just pissy in general and i feel like i live with a 15 yr old sometimes. #ed ment #i will say it uswd to be worse when she wasnt in therapy n shit but hhghhthtnf even my dad who is Never Home has picked up pn it and has #started checking her and telling her to keep it between yhem bc i dont. i canr handle that rn dude

[themyscirah]

Thinking abt Jessica Cruz and the ability to overcome great fear again

#everybody including canon: omg hal is the greatest lantern kyle is the best etc. etc. #HOWEVER OKAY. my vision..... #with like 15 to 20 years of our time i could expand on stuff and give her THE character arc okay #like im just saying yellow lantern jess arc could ACTUALLY be so good bc i would do it as a way to bring her back to the corps stronger and #better and more assured #in herself because like its not about NOT being afraid is about OVERCOMING it and bravery isnt the absence of fear but action in spite of it #et cetera et cetera #like okay i was kidding when i said i think shed be more powerful than kyle or hal #because theyre both totally overpowered in their own way ofc with hal's willpower abilities at like insane levels and kyle's command of the #emotional spectrum being what it is et cetera #BUT. jess has such an interesting relationship with the ring and BEING a green lantern and its like i want to go deeper with that. like down #to the center of the earth deeper. because i feel like shes a character that would have such a great connection to being a lantern and would #especially be the one to embody the 'overcome great fear' phrase at its core #also like THE RELATIONSHIP SHE HAS TO BEING A LANTERN- #all the lanterns have interesting relationships to the corps or what it means to be a gl but for me jess's is just SOOOOOO compelling and #rich and just. being a lantern saved her life. becoming a lantern GAVE her her life BACK. on multiple levels!!! #like quite literally bc of the fact that volthoom died in her body before she got the ring but like before she became a gl she wasn’t living #a life at least not socially. even when she was power ring i still doubt HIGHLY that she even really left the watchtower when not on mission #because like. they glossed over it but the power ring doesnt come off. she was always like that and even with her control over it always a #little primed to blow and i think that's something jess was aware of even if the rest of the jl wasn't as much #bc she like was always reminded of how precarious her power over the power ring could be like it said HORRIBLE things to her all the time!!! #like on power it would be just calling her names like verbal abuse #so even while she had control over the ring it was a tenuous sort of precarious state and she was very aware of that!!! #and i feel like thats what it often comes down to for jess: control. i think its a key part of her character that she desires that sort of #control over herself and her fear due to feeling a lack of it for so long. and THATS why i think that yellow lantern jess has SO much #potential bc it has a huge chance to explore her relationship with the concept of control and harken back to her origin and early days as a #hero. #gosh i went on a tangent here but yeah. LOTS of feelings abt jess #basically a whole meta in the tags tbh #jessica cruz

[satans-knitwear]

baby belle needing a new collar! i love browsing for cute new doggo items. only the best for my baby.

#big baby rosie has taken a few chomps out of this one. and it only has one little jingle bell left attached. very sad. #gotta upgrade the tag as well bc thats an old one #shes a model already tho. even without the worthy accessories #crying about how precious my little munchkin is hours!!!! (all of the hours) #my budget is £15 tho sorry baby. i cannot justify any more than that 😂 #much creature spending. just had to replace the big baby's harness again bc she chewed through it when my brother left it out 😂😂

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I got paid real adult money to watch Spider-Man, play solitaire, and compete against my boss in Tetris today

#slow days at the axe throwing bar! #we have a huge projector for sports but there werent any sports today so my boss said 'what do we want to watch?' #and the bartender narrowed it down to spiderman and something else #and when i heard spiderman i demanded we watch that. its my favorite movie #omg wait let me tell you something. so i was standing against the front desk and watching the movie #and a woman walked in. i turned around to greet her and she said 'i just wanted to see what you were watching' #she glanced at the screen and said 'oh okay!' and then just. left #iconic. and we have solitaire on our computer (i work the front desk) so ive been playing it a lot lately #but today i was getting bored of it so i played tetris on the computer and my boss saw #so next time i got up to watch the movie he hopped on tetris and beat my high score. and then i hopped on and beat him #now we have a tetris war going on #i got paid $15 an hour for that

[wakinguponsaturday]

me @ me: stop thinking about your 'permanently on hiatus' teen Inquisitor fic. it's been 7 years. you are so busy right now you don't have time to pick this back up

me @ me: she was ELEVEN when the mage rebellion started. she was sent to the Templars as a political maneuver to bolster her family's reputation when she was EIGHT. her sister died in her arms days before they received word of the conclave. and you're just going to abandon her. wow

#dragon age #dai #im sorry i ever left you lil baby trevelyan #and i want to rewrite the first 8 chapters SO bad. i was apparently addicted to sentences with minimum 3 clauses at 17 #i have ideas again! fuck! #the newest one is that shes actually only 15 when the conclave happens but she lies and tells josie that shes 16 #because thats a 15yo thing to do and then she would be too anxious to admit she lied #and then when everyone goes to celebrate her 18th birthday in the time bw the endgame and trespasser #shes like okay i have to come clean about this. im so sorry. and everyone goes why??? did you do this?????? why not just say 18 then?? #and she goes i honestly dont know what to tell you i was more panicked than ive ever been in my entire life and then i ran with it #god. i missed my anxiety ridden child #emery #em.chats

[minglana]

maybe i exaggerated a bit by bringing my coat w me😩

#i havent been able to update yaaallll on my life today!!! #basically i had an exam (failed both parts) then i met w a friend #who organized a kind of meet-up w ppl from the dorms (from when she was there. kinda like the 'main' friendgroup #ive had in the dorms tbh). it got cut short bc most ppl couldnt come (work) bc they were gonna be late #so i left on the bus back home. which she took w me. and then i basically sprinted to catch my (city) bus to my house #i literally wen 'hi. bye' to my dad. bc now i have to meet w another friend for her bday dinner #and i wasnt sure i was gonna make it at the time she said to meet #but it seems i actually might???? idk #but anyways i grabbed a jacket in case it got chilly tonight and rn im in the bus and im fine #but when i stepped outside my house w the jacket i thought maybe i had overdone it #ok no im definitely gonna be (a bit) late lmao #ive had 4 hrs (i think) of sleep today plus the maybe 10-15 minutes on the bus. idk how im still standing tbh #z xarre