#Please understand why they put this in the movie! XD
Text
Results of "Wake Up, Tword Asks"
From @softleesam's post!
As expected, MOST OF YOU ARE LEEESSSSS HEEHEEHEE
Neck won first as the spot most people enjoy for giggles, then sides, then tummy!
This is fascinating! Lotta people love tummies heehee
Congratulations to @sleepysheepytea, @fluffomatic, and @bigdumbtickler03 for collectively getting first place!! According to (my audience at least), you are the most flustering content creators! In second place, there's @mushiewrites and @made-by-jade-222, who are both so awesome!! And finally, congrats to our runner-ups: @ticklepinions, @lovelymessybubbly, @altheadajoysoul, @sweettallahassee, @coy-lee, @otomiya-tickles, @wormonastriing, @fluffystuffies, @twordish-ler, @parker-fluff, @obsessedwithseb, @touched-starved-switch, (myself! yay!), @massive-uwu-energy, and @shyticklemonster!!!! Each of you were mentioned by name at least once as being the most flustering!!! Congratulations, mwah mwah heehee
Yeah, this is about what I expected heh- If there's anything everyone agreed on, it was that YOU MUST RESPECT PEOPLE'S BOUNDARIES. NO IFS ANDS OR BUTS. Some people like tickling as a fun sfw activity that makes them happy, and for others, it's a kink. THAT IS OKAY!!!!!!!! Please just be kind, be understanding, and be respectful of people's boundaries.
Again, as expected, since most of you are lees xD
I would like to take this opportunity to shout out the people who don't get enough attention!! Teasy Lees (*biiiiiig stretch, showing midriff to ler and smirking* "whatcha lookin at~?"), Shy Lers ("u-u-uhm,, c-can i tword you pleaseee? its okay if not but you look really twordish and i wanna tword you!!"), Stoic Lers ("Why are you laughing?" *as they poke*), and Gentle Lees ("You're doing great!! I love the way you're tickling me!" *through laughter and giggles*)
But if there's one thing we love here, it's playfulness, and I wholeheartedly agree!!
Once again, you're all mostly lees, so the gravitation towards the 'very easily' side of the chart makes sense heehee
(gosh i love trendlines look at that awesome trendline)
Wow! Almost a 3/4 split! That's pretty neat heehee
Interesting!!! Most people wanted to watch an animated movie (Disney, DreamWorks, Studio Ghibli, etc.), but a lot of people wanted to watch horror movies so that the tickles could help them relax!!
okay i know this is ugly but this question produced so many hecking characters i just wanted to include a lot of themmm
(im sorry if i didnt get yours on theree)
also Featuring: The Marvel Corner in the bottom right cuz you guys love marvel characters heehee
checks out!!! i wish i saw more back tickles in art and fics cuz they need more attentionnnnnnn
its getting very late and i had a lot of trouble trying to adapt this question into a chart but i did my besttttt
(gosh im so tired im almost to the enddd)
(for context, the question is if you could choose one spot to tickle/be tickled in, which would it be)
ooooo it's a tie between Sides and Tummy! and neck not far behind! interesting!!!
This was very flusteringg heehee
you guys sure are creative with all the variationssss >/////////////<
the "how does tickling make you feel" question has a lot of really personal responses, and i dont feel comfy sharing them, even if they are anonymous
and the last question is sorta vague so everyone answered it however they chose, so I couldn't really make a chart out of it
WHICH MEANS IM DONE YAYYYY TIME FOR BEDDY BYE
so uhm I don't usually beg for people to reblog stuff but I put so much time and effort into this so if you'd be so kind as to, y'know ahem ahem, I'd really appreciate that, thank youuuu~!!!!!!!!
233 notes
·
View notes
Text
I started seeing "Jennifer's body" for the first time Because I had seen many videos talking about how iconic it was and even I who haven't seen it know how impactfull it was, I think that anyone who watches a bit of pop culture in recent years has heard at least once the phrase "I'm going to eat your soul and shit it out" Or have seen Megan Fox walking down the hallway with a smile in slow motion...
Anyway, the point is that I started to see it and the truth was I had A very vague idea (Which is making the experience much more interesting because I don't know anything) of what it was about:
Girl kills boys for some reason, girl is spiraling towards madness and that Amanda Seyfried was in the middle This is based purely on clips from the film and videos analyzing it (From which I also learned that the plot was symbolic of something else) xd, so what a surprise was when the film began with Amanda Seyfried in an asylum kicking people As if it were an anime movie and seeing that she was crazy LMAO.
Among other impressions:
-My friend pushes me against the door like that and laughter is not going to be my reaction
-I was under the impression that Needy's boyfriend (I already forgot his name, I apologize) would be a jerk but the truth is that he looks very cute and decent, (I might have to eat my words)
-Wtf Chris Pratt is here.
-Those band dudes are the ones you always try to get away from, they are my worst nightmare of social anxiety made person. No Jennifer, please no
-GIRL THE PLACE IS ON FIRE SAY OR DO SOMETHING For a moment I seriously thought she was hallucinating him because of how absolutely still she stayed And because of how unbothered people remained in the bar until the fire literally fell on their tables
-In the wise words of the principal of mean girls: SIR TAKE YOUR HANDS OFF THE UNDERAGE GIRL
-Needy there's people that are dying. Sorry, I had to say it lol, speaking seriously I completely understand her concern, and I like how they captured that 'I can't follow her Because I put myself in danger, but I can't stop her either because she doesn't want to come with me' It's a real dilemma
-Amanda acts incredible here, as does Megan, I felt disturbed when I saw the crazy face she had when she showed up at Needy's house. How she appeared out of nowhere in that state made me feel super bad for her because it is quite clear what they want to prove and it is very sad, I repeat GREAT ACTING
-Wtf J.K. Simmons is here.
-My girl killed and her spirit went up lmao.
-I still like the guy. (I imagine he's going to die, right?)
-Needy honey, you're not crazy.
-I understand why they are friends, despite Jennifer's strange and very wtf behavior And leaving out killing people, she seems like a good person, still not such a good friendship, i still don't forget that push.
Anyway, that's all for now, I'll keep saying as I watch
15 notes
·
View notes
Text
Okay now from the POV of STANNING CHARACTERS… (kfp4 spoilers)
-
So first off. My condolences to Tigress fans + people who are big fans of the Furious Five. And I mean – the Furious Five are were (?! 😭) core cast members, they’re great and fun characters, so I can absolutely understand the outrage of them just not being there AT ALL. In fact… idk their absence is weird in that it does feel less like kung fu panda without them. I take the view that what Matters is the movie being good, so if you have a movie that’s good, you can get away with certain characters* not being there if they wouldn’t serve an otherwise good plot. You can’t really say that’s the case with this movie though, because its pacing etc had much to be desired. So… yeah. You kicked them out but then the movie still wasn’t even good?? 😭And they didn’t even get a little scene they got nothing!! 😭No speaking scene I mean!
*Certain characters when I’m not completely obsessed with them (LOL). Because I, like anyone, am BIASED, my point here is that’s the “objective” take, but subjectively it absolutely sucks when your personal fave isn’t there so I really do sympathise. If shifu wasn’t in the fourth movie at all, I, too, would be extremely upset and furious. So fans of the Five have every right to be personally unhappy with their absence. For example if Shifu was absent from a Good kfp movie because he wouldn’t contribute to the Good plot, “objectively” that makes sense from a writing pov. Subjectively, I would still be personally unhappy with it.
ANYWAY. So now for analysis/discussion from a more character-focused pov/being biased in terms of my focus!
I mean, Shifu’s my fave, put him onscreen and don’t completely mess it up and there’s a good chance I’m just happy to see him again. And I was pleased to see him again. Ahah… What can I say? I’m a shifu fan… XD
Anyway. He’s SO not having a fun time dhsdjhsdsd I’m. god. Still getting my thoughts together about this. I have sorrrrt of mixed feelings/am of two worlds.
I did really enjoy his scenes. He’s actually kind of a mess honestly omggg. It kinda took me by surprise and I was actually very amused. I can’t help it he’s why I’m here LOL.
So like yes on the one hand I absolutely did accept and enjoy his scenes. On the other hand I was a bit surprised because… Well. Movies 1-3 did seem to have him on a clear trajectory of getting better and becoming more chill. He’s very Not Chill in this. You could make an argument that the whole “Oogway choosing Po as his spiritual successor” is a/the major issue that’s set back his progress in this movie, is why he’s clearly Not Fine (however much he might claim otherwise ckjdjkdsjk), etc. Because he only gets hit with that knowledge/information at the end of movie 3. The whole fact that he’s been kind of “overlooked” by Oogway (or at least, kind of skipped over technically…) and is now technically “surpassed” by Po, etc etc.
However, the above is all Watsonian analysis. From a Doylist point of view, I doooo think he has been Flanderised a bit. Feels like he’s just kind of been stuck/shoved into the box/role of grumpy “least-zen zen master” without much room to move about. It does feel like he had a lot more room/leeway before with his character/characterisation than he seems to have now…? And idk how to feel about it. Because like… I still really enjoyed his scenes in this movie, I loved it. So I don’t actually have any personal issues/complaints with it, I guess I do just feel like it can be “overdone”, if he really is thoroughly boxed-in like this. If his character has been simplified down/exaggerated… There are potential concerns with that but like, again. I loved him in this movie.
I mean I guess it just comes down to some mixed feelings on my end. Because I was getting this sense of “okay this kind of seems like… a bit overdone on the characterisation. But at the same time… I still love this characterisation” dhsdhjas? Hmmm. Still mulling over it. But I had fun! On an analytical level, I recognised that this movie had flaws, and that Shifu’s characterisation can be symptomatic of an overall downgrading of writing quality/handling of the characters in general. On the level of Being A Fan, I am a little baby being mesmerised by car keys being jangled in front of me.
It's also just kind of Funny to learn just how badly he’s doing. I thought he was Fine I really overestimated how well-adjusted he was at this point sdhsajksdakjsad god I. Mixed thoughts but I truly did love his scenes for the most part. Oughhh.
The fact that he’s now officially confirmed/clarified In Canon that he’s a red panda is hilarious. It took them four movies to do it. It’s been MANY years. But people having no clue what kind of animal he is over and over again, piggybacking off that… Man I loved it.
Hhhhhh yeah. Gonna keep mulling it over.
& I did feel catered to as a Shifu fan, by virtue of the fact that He Was There (I am the baby looking at the jangling car keys). So like, that would have affected my overall experience of the movie As A Whole in ways too! Because you can’t completely separate subjective from "objective". The movie itself could be lackluster but I could still be like “yesss Shifu” if I enjoy his individual scenes, etc. So tbh I had a great time, if only for that. I wanted to see him again and I did, LOL.
And like idk, if I fine-tooth-comb comparison his characterisation in previous installments vs this one, maybe I will come up with discrepancies or whatnot, and I guess one of my concerns is like, even if I was totally fine with how he was written in this movie, it raises concerns about how he might be portrayed in any future media, etc, so I’m just kinda wary? Idk. But tbh I had fun. That’s what matters.
#decided to write it as a separate post lol#kfp4 spoilers#kung fu panda 4 spoilers#I feel like I kinda gotta issue an Obligatory Statement#because I do kind of have something of a reputation preceding me as The Shifu Fan (LOLLL)#so it's like 'say the line Bart' dshsdhjsdhjsd
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
Thoughts on The Bad Guys: A Very Bad Holiday Part 2
“Christmas is officially back on!” And apparently, a city news reporter like yourself has the power to declare a holiday uncanceled. Why is Diane not in this again?
The others’ reactions to Snake getting all touchy-feely 🥹. OMG I WANNA HUG HIM SO BAD!!! (At the same time though, the close-ups on his face during this scene are so off-putting that it kinda ruins the moment for me.)
“That vortex is about to suck in the whole city, we don’t have time to be mad at me.” Sure, Wolf. Act like endangering your only friends isn’t worth getting angry over. You’ve really disappointed me this time. 😔
In all fairness though, at least he does apologize and admits how much the others mean to him. And I love how the other guys pretend to be disgusted but at the same time are moved to tears, while Snake is just like, “Yeah, whatever 😒.” (Even though we all know he’s bawling on the inside.)
The scene right after Shark is tossed out of the vortex without his shirt…the characters look like they’re literally floating off the ground…
That one random guy getting sucked into the vortex is actually pretty funny…in a “WTF is this animation?” kind of way.
“Are you seeing this?” No, Tiffany, all I see is your badly-animated face. Now please get it out of mine. XD
Aww, that’s adorable how the Bad Guys try to save each other from the vortex 😊…Now can we talk about the fact that the animators clearly just took still images of Piranha and Tarantula and moved them around?
How did Shark get his shirt back after all that?
Wolf’s motions as he’s falling out of the Santa bot…again, what is this, the Looney Tunes? Oh and nice dust effect when he lands by the way. I feel like this was made for a PlayStation 2 game, not Netflix.
Wait…so, the promo for this special clearly showed Shark in a Santa suit…but the closest we get to him cosplaying as Santa is him doing a voice. What. 😐
Oh, and since the Bad Guys were exposed to potentially-lethal, freezing temperatures, they all end up sick on Christmas. And Wolf has the gall to complain despite being the reason it happened. Just be thankful it’s only a cold and not frostbite, buddy.
In all seriousness though, I feel bad for them. Like, I wanna make them all better, but mostly Snake. He looks soooo miserable and I can only imagine how as a kid he must have had no one to take care of him when he was sick. That is so heartbreaking. And when he says “Bah humbug” in the middle of sneezing? Awww, poor baby! 🥺
Apparently, Santa really does exist in this universe and the Bad Guys are miffed that they ended up on his Nice List. Which…kinda seems out of character in all honesty. Like…wasn’t them being treated as something other than criminals the reason they turned good in the movie? They’re not disgusted by the concept of good (except maybe Snake); They just don’t understand it. Now I see why people had a problem with this being set before the movie.
And we end with the Bad Guys planning to heist the North Pole…which would have made a much better, much more interesting holiday special. If this does become a series, I hope they make an episode out of that.
And before we get to my final thoughts, let’s see which of my predictions for the special came true:
There will be at least one reference to the Grinch-✅ Yep! And a Die Hard reference, too, surprisingly.
The gang will have a Christmas tree with stolen jewels for ornaments-❌ Nope. I don’t think they had any decorations in their hideout or at least none I could see.
Wolf will get a good tingle from saving everyone’s Christmas-❌ Nope. The opposite happened. He apparently hates the idea of being seen as good now. 🤨
Shark will be a mall Santa-❌ We don’t see him in a mall and the only likeness to the man in red he gives is his voice, so I’m gonna say no.
Piranha will have a holiday-themed musical number-✅ Got that one!
Someone will call Snake a “Scrooge”-❌ Nope. He acts like him and even says “Bah humbug,” but no one outright calls him that.
Also, Snake will secretly hate Christmas because of some past trauma-❌ They don’t say or even imply it, but let’s be honest: we know he has some form of trauma from Christmas.
Diane will only have a cameo-❌ Sadly, no. They were determined to keep her out of this special, apparently.
Luggins and Tiffany will return-Well, this one is half right.
The Bad Guys will have a gift exchange with stolen goods-❌ Nope. Go to luonnonvalinnat for that one ‘cause you ain’t gonna find it here.
Final score: 2.5/10. Wow. Either I don’t know the Bad Guys as well as I thought, or the creators of this potential series don’t know how to write them. Eh. I’m going with the latter.
As for the special itself? It's a 5/10 for me.
Don't get me wrong, I'm glad we got to see the gang again and I'm even more glad we might get to see their shenanigans in a spinoff series some day. And even though it was kinda dumb and there was potential for it to be even better, I didn't mind the story that much. The voice acting is good enough, even if I don't recognize anyone's name except Grey DeLisle. It's the ANIMATION that really kills this thing for me. My god, what a trainwreck. Like, no joke, there were several times throughout this thing where I just wanted to look away because the characters were just...so ugly! I get that this is the result of a low budget, and they couldn't make it as fluid as the movie's animation. The problem, of course, is that the animation in the Bad Guys movie is SO beautifully fluid, even removing like 1% of its fluidity makes it look terrible. They probably should have done what Captain Underpants did and just made the whole thing 2D. At least then it would have looked somewhat appealing.
I don't know, if you haven't seen this special yet and are curious about it, I say just buy the novelization instead, because this alone is not worth a subscription to Netflix. Plus, the novelization includes a bonus chapter of the Bad Guys on New Year's, so there's that. And if you have seen the special, let me know what you guys thought about it. Did you agree with my points? Is there anything I didn't comment on? Let me know that, too.
#the bad guys#dreamworks#mr shark#mr piranha#mr snake#mr wolf#ms tarantula#tiffany fluffit#netflix#netflix series#holiday special#a very bad holiday
5 notes
·
View notes
Note
Heyy, how/when you realised you were aro and ace? It is always interesting for me to listen to how people found themselves. (I still haven't xD)
Alright it's time !
Ok so I actually got lot to say and could talk about that subject for hours lol but the more I thought about it the more I have to say and the more some specifics things exhaust me and remind me of not really great stuff so let's keep it simple ! (+ there's a few personal stuff I don't wanna discuss publicly
Process to do a whole explanation on aromantism and asexuality in the first part...
First should i explain simply what is asexuality and aromantism are 🤔 ? I can understand it can be a bit complex for people who don't know what it is. Even I got confused at times XD
I will try to explain really simply here and I'm not the best at explaining stuff. So for more info there's the Aven website for exemple and there's many other cool sources online 👍
So to put it really really simply someone asexual is someone who don't feel or experience sexual attraction ((like most people.)) (Most of the time it don't ever happened at all but it can be extremely rare (gray ace) or it happened only get it if you're really close to someone (Demi ace).
The way I personally saw it is that I'm not going to go somewhere and want to hook up with the first nice/pretty person I meet in a bar and is interest in me or smt for exemple XD. (I know it's really cliché sorry, glad to know not everyone actually do that too lol but you get the idea. It happened to some people and it's ok I hope they have lots of fun everyone ! 👍 Really when I was a kid it got me super confused to see that in movies and still today I'm like ?????? ok sure ??? have fun ??? like theoricaly I know it work but I can't experience it .I can't relate, that would be just forcing myself do something I don't wanna do.)
Asexual can still experience romantic attraction and want to do normal dating stuff too. Like it's just there's not that super interest in the other thing you know XD they're not after you're booty (I can't believe I'm writing this)
And aromantic is really similar, it's when someone who don't experience romantic attraction ((like most people)). Or some do experience it really rarely or after a really close bond with smn. Still they can experience sexual attraction.
Personally I found hard to understand why people would date smn when they don't know each other very well? And then learn to really know each other when they date? That's completely ok but I really can't imagine myself with someone who's not a close friend of mine that & I knew for a while at the very least. Like what if you find out they're not a good person or an absolute idiot or you realize your life projects are incompatibles?? That's too scary for me💀
Like I understand how that work theorically but if a friend tell me they had a crush on smn we saw like just a few times I would bet so confuse.
Then aroace is well both things XD
Disclaimer : yes an aromantic person can still enjoy/want to date someone and an asexual person can still have/want and enjoy being intimate with someone. Some on the contrary are completely revulsed by it that and will never want to do that. And for some it depends. It's kinda a spectrum and depends what the person is comfortable with and might depends a bit of the other partner too. + people grow and a few things might fluctuate or not.
It's all about feeling ATTRACTION. Like for exemple a hetero girl (normally) is not going to be attracted to like another girl. And a gay man will be well attracted to men. What people don't always equal what they're attract too.
Still you know you can have aesthetic attention and stuff like that. Like : oh that person look pretty or pleasing to look at #stantardbeauty stuff made by society. But I don't find them hot💀 dafuq does that even mean XD (now I think I might get it. I'm unsure lol) More likely that I would very much prefer to be friends with smn really out of the standard look for exemple.
I won't see a person (ok more a picture or smt) with less clothes on for exemple and be like "oh" 😳. Like that's just a person WHAT DO YOU MEAN ???????
The closet I get too is : oh this characters (maybe work for people too) look super cool ! 👀🥺idk how to explain they look so cool and nice and pretty. Hm
+omg teenager (pre teens especially) talking about s3x all the time omg 💀 why?! Like it annoyed me so much I just wanted to talk about manga, books, movies and video games XD when it's serious convo it's cool but I didn't get it and those dumb jokes 😂 (some ace do many jokes too depends of the person). I really didn't like the subject at all (especially in not fiction) but now I'm way more ok with it in fiction now 👍 and with it in general I I think? (the jokes I mean)
I know my ideas of romance and all (in fiction hm) is the most vanilla and fluff things ever too (ok I imagined angst in my head smt) XD but I also need moments to compensate you know ^^' ?
OK now that the presentation is done. let's answer to the main question XD. I hope I explain correctly ahaha 😅 (I can't even do that easily in real life...)
Well, I think I kinda knew something was up when I was a pre teenager but I didn't knew the right terms at the time. I didn't knew/understood that most people were well allo sexual/romantic (who experience romantic and sexual attraction easly👍 the opposite of ace and aro)
So I fully realized I was ace then aro (some times after) and came across the terms in hm 2017 if I remember correctly ? Or wait maybe in 2018? (thank you teenager crisis and depressed state I can't remember this period well !) So when I was 16+ after my first year of high school. (But like first and last time I had a boyfriend I was like 10 years old lmao. I liked him but I was happy because everyone was happy you. Almost got with a friend at 12 but didn't work out. )
So hm high school happen and some of my friends and I got new cool friends and we become a super group of friends ! (only like a fw couples formed and it's cute <3 and I thought I had a crush and 1 if not 2 of my new friends 💀 that was a platonic crush Fantomette you didn't wanted do to anything with them pat pat
Then months later I come across the sacred word ! 🙏 : asexual
"Oh wait that's me" -big aro and ace moment (and much later aromantic)
Still figuring things out today because it's quite complex but yeah 100% sure I'm on the acespec spectrum. And well I don't really experience this types of attraction for what I'm aware of. But who knows it is possible I found someone I feel comfortable and close enough with to be in a relationship (even a queer platonic relation ship hehe) but well I don't wanna bet on thet so who knows.
I think I have friends on the spectrum (irl) too but sadly we didn't really talked about it that much.. only with a few non close friend from high school and we kinda loose touch. But I'm happy I know more people who well understand. My friends we really acceptant but some didn't all really fully understand and I can understand that but somedays were not fun XD but well they're great friends (+ with well a few people who are themself queer or really understanding of that it help. But it's nothing compared to the dumbasses who were really not nice (the worst if that some saying the most mean thing were even lgbt+ themself 😭and I could say nothing like I couldn't just came out to them not a good idea I hate most of my classmates from 2020-2022 sorry guys <;/3 and I can't really blame my relatives who didn't understand well, they might try their but it's complicated
+ I can count the people who show interest in me (that I'm aware of) since high school on my fingers. Like some days I really wanna have a soulsmate or smt (or maybe someone I will be close to but at our rhythm) because yes having someone to share your life with can be cool and sounds nice? but the second someone (I don't know well) show interest in me I'm like :
NO THANK YOU I'M NOT INTEREST HELP WHAT DO I DO
Somedays I think meh maybe I could try ??? but idk.
So well if that happened that happened cool ! if that don't happened that don't happened ! I just wish people just weren't annoying about it. The "have you a boyfriend ?" question traumatized me I think XD I mean it's not like the first question I would ask smn, but when it's been a while you saw a friend or relatives or are knowing someone slowly it can be important to know if they share they're life with smn, normal. So in normal circumstance I wouldn't mind but hm... the commentaries after 🙄, when I answer "no" sometimes it's gold ! Like don't ask me why ! bruh do I ask why you don't have/have a boyfriend/girlfriend or why you're married or why you have children???? or how don't worry you will find the right one later ! LIKE please don't. I understood super late it's actually reassuring for allo but it's not for me 😅 Like I wish too smt lol but there's lot of chance it don't happened too so pls. Can people just say it's ok if that don't happened more ;-; that you can be happy and accomplish great things on while living on your own (or not the usual family definition) and it's ok ?
Sorry for the rant just don't do that to people whatever their orientation are you don't know know what they have going on in life. Just a "ok" and move on. Or I guess you could ask more but only if the person wanna talk about it you know. So yeah when someone ask me the question (more when it's relatives I know well) it really really annoy me all the time. But well I was lucky it could been worse. Still not cool but I wish everyone didn't had go through more awful things.
(Also strangely maybe I dodge huge bullets because I just wasn't interest to the first person who came so... fair enough. And damn how do you know smn crush on you or smn else ?? I am so bad to saw that thing XD)
Ok that was long I ramble a bit XD I just needed to express myself x) I will stop here.
I have a lot on the heart and not lying some days it's hard I wish it was simpler but I don't see how I could be happy otherwise. (SO goal n°1 in my life : finish study, have a job, a house & adopt cats or smt. Optional goal : maybe found a fellow person to hang hung with me ! Or at least cool friends x)
And I'm so happy to knew otherace and aro and aroace persons online 🥺❤️ and really supportive person in general.
So yes I'm glad I learned about this and hope I can help people to learn a bit about it as well. It's really important for many. And I wish there were more stuff about it. It's complicated to understand what you cannot fully understand and ever experiment but it's important to just be kind and open and to accepted.
So love you everyone bye bye~
#warning vague mention of acephobia and arophobia but nothing too harmful. It's more misunderstanding of it#asexual#aroace#aromanitc#aromantism#asexuality#so I actually did smt way too long lol#yetting this bye idk what I'm saying anymore I'm tired#won't talk about too much personal stuff either here It's more a share cool fandom stuff blog. but it's good to do so at times#it's my view on things too it's differents for many persons#lots of things I didn't talk about too but goos enough#also it’s ok to take the time to figure things out 👍
8 notes
·
View notes
Note
This is BL challenge for you (if you choose to accept them).
1.a) Please write your top 3 or top 5 favorite tropes in BL.
b) From each trope, write at least 3 BL that you love.
(Feel free if you want to write the reasons or not of why you love them).
2. a) What is the first BL that make you want to know more about and eventually love BL?
b) What is that one BL that have a special place in your heart (for whatever reason)?
The BL can be in in the form of manga, manhwa, manhua, books, tv series or movies.
Thanks so much if you want to answer this long ask.
This looks like fun :) I accept!
Sorry for the late reply this took a while to answer properly ❤ It' so hard to choose
1. Top 5 Favorite Tropes in BL and corresponding shows (in no particular order)
Arragended relationship:
- Seven Days (manga) - Now this is one of my favorite manga of all time. So simple yet so good. How you end up falling in love with someone as a result of an experiment
- Ookami e no Yomeiri (series/manhwa) - This one is beautiful to look at. Not for the people that cringe at furry stuff. It's an arranged marriage, and how by observing/looking at the other person you like what you discover.
- Kieta Hatsukoi (series/manga) - This one is probably known by all. Cute, simple, funny and light hearted. Honestly the more time goes by, the more I think of it fondly ❤
Enemies to lovers:
- We Best Love (series) - It's not everyday that a show manages to do an enemies to lovers twice with the same couple. I particularly love S2. And how the love is clearly still there but the hurt is still hurting.
- Bad Buddy (series) - Not perfect but with perfect moments. Some amazing scenes that will forever be my favorite. The rooftop scene particularly makes me put it here ;)
- Semantic Error (series/manhwa) - The best kbl out there. Proper enemies to lovers, with an adorable height difference. Amazing. 10/10
Miscomunication (done right)
- My Personal Weatherman (series) - I am currently losing my mind over this show because of how many of my favorite tropes are happening in it. They miscommunications on this show feel very true and understandable. And despite them they sometimes do manage to communicate well :)
- Escape Journey (manga) - Ogeretsu Tanaka is one of my favorite mangaka. And in Escape Journey she manages to make a very realistic depiction of a relationships between flawed people who's happiness is stopped by their lack of communication
- Cupid's Last Wish (series) - This is one of those underrated gems that not a lot of people have watched. But let me tell you I loved it, so much. Especially when you have complex relationships, made complex because of unresolved feelings and lack of understanding of the complexities of other people. I love it when characters fuck up and then have to learn to fixs thing properly
Opposites attract
- Doukyuusei (manga/movie) - I feel like I talk about this one all the time, but I love it so much. It's such a good story. The pace, the build up, the characters, the love, the everything. I just love it very much. Sunshine x Glasses guy basically xD
- King's Maker (manhwa) - What's with me and blond action mains and calculating dark haired with glasses smart guys? In any case, one of the only manhwa's I've read. And I love it. It's got politics, angst and pinning. What else do you need?
Kabe Koji (series) - Guess who's also a sunshine boy in love with a dark broody guy? This is the epitome of opposites attract, and japan knows how to do them. Another little hidden gem that maybe not a lot of people know
Hurt/comfort
- Mou Ichido Nandodemo (manga) - This is one of my favorite use of the anmesia trope. It's a short manga, where amnesia comes to fuck us around but then it gets overcome in a really cool way. One of my favorite mangas :)
- Mainichi Seiten series (manga) - This was one of the first long series of various volumes that I read. It starts very lightheartedly and then goes to sorta dark places. I really liked it because of how bittersweet it was
- Oni to Tengoku (manga) - This one is a comedy. With an age gap and questionable behavior older men manage to have a very sweet love story while healing from past trauma. Isn't it neat? Also I love when sex is used as a healing tool, it resonates with me
2. a) The first BL that made me interested in BL
My gosh this one is hard. I don't really remember cause it's been forever. And I was always into "unusual romances". I really liked the strong "bromance" between Zoisite and Kunsite in Sailor Moon, back when I was a kid. I think the first BL coulpe I consciously liked was Touya and Yukito from CardCaptor Sakura. So I always had a penchant for liking those secondary couples. I guess there was no proper first BL that made me interested in BL. I just ended up finding the genre because I had a prior interest.
However, probably my first proper BL was Junjou Romantica. It was the first long length BL anime that I saw. I was blown away. Up until then it had only been crumbs and soap opera side couples. Oh, how things have changed since then :)
b) A BL with a special place in my heart
So many. And it always changes. But I guess one that will always have a space in my heart is the combo Tokyo Babylon and X/1999. CLAMP's golden age of mangas are some of my favorite of all times. And X was so good (but forever in hiatus). The characters, the conflicts, the angst, the everything. Subaru and Seishirou's love story. The fate of the world depending on Kamui's love. Where else are you gonna find a story where the choice that might save the world is the selfish one? Where realizing that you're in love with your childhood friend is what might stop the fighting? And also this moment:
source
If you know, you know. I wonder what I would think if I read it now, but still forever in my heart.
This was a lot of fun! Thank you so much for the ask ❤
4 notes
·
View notes
Note
here to talk about fanfic with you, friend!
what's your favorite thing that you've written for Peter? I know you've written a lot of different standalone ideas and plots, is there one that you like more than the others, or is your "default" when you think about Peter?
Besides Peter, who's your favorite character to write for? Do you prefer writing for heroes or villains? Soft plots/fluff, or drama and angst? Happy endings or sad endings?
How do you feel about the whole "Ralph" situation? How do you feel about Aaron Taylor-Johnson's Quicksilver? If you could cast any other actor to play Quicksilver, who would you want to see?
thank you for this list of questions so that I can do my favorite thing: rambling about quicksilver!
1 - my favorite fic I've written for Peter and posted is probably Vilomah, partly because I just enjoyed writing it and partly because the response was so good. My favorite thing across everything I've written (posted and unposted works) is probably Nobody, which I like because it feels very personal to me. Usually when I think of Peter fics I've written that's the first one I think of.
2 - I think Erik is really interesting to write, although I don't do much from his perspective (I'd like to branch out more though and do more fics from other characters POVs, not just Peter). I'd really like to write more for Matt Murdock, Peter Parker (who I don't think I've posted anything for?), and Charles Xavier. Wanda is fun to write and I'd like to write her more, but because anything involving her usually also involves Peter (since it's usually xmen!Wanda), I tend to gravitate more towards Peter.
I actually don't think I prefer heroes or villains (maybe slight preference towards villains?); I like reading/writing about antiheroes which are kind of a mix, though I don't do it much since so much of what I write is Peter-centric and he's a hero. I've wanted to try writing him as a villain for a while now, I just don't know how to do it in a way that a) is realistic for someone as sacrificial as him to be a villain and b) avoids him winning in half a second because of his superspeed. I do have an idea started for villain!Charles though, so maybe I can get Peter involved somehow....
I love fluff/lighthearted stuff, but I almost always end up writing angst. Not sure what that says about me and my mental health, but I do love putting characters in less-than-ideal scenarios xD I think in general I prefer happy (or even bittersweet) over a sad ending. It kind of just depends on what fits the story best.
3 - Oh, Ralph. Light of my life, bane of my existence, the worst plot twist that has given me the best fanfic fuel. I (still) do not understand the rationale behind Ralph--like, it was so easy to just have him be Peter. If he isn't Peter, it seems like really sloppy writing in an otherwise very well-written show. If he is Peter, why has it been two years of radio silence? Why make fans wait this long for that payoff when it would have made more sense and been more impactful to have the reveal happen two years ago? Sigh. I will never understand.
ATJ's Quicksilver isn't my favorite of the two, but his death made zero sense (especially after seeing a different version of Quicksilver move bullets in the air) and he was really done wrong by the writers (or whoever decided to kill him off). I wish Pietro hadn't died, especially in light of the whole the-xmen-movies-aren't-being-made-anymore-and-we'll-probably-never-see-peter-get-closure-with-erik thing. It's such a bummer that we once had two Quicksilvers and now have none. Like, please let the Quicksilver fandom have some crumbs of content.
If I could cast any other actor? hmm. For some reason Logan Lerman is coming to mind, but that may just be because he played Percy Jackson, and Percy and Peter are really similar (heroes with superpowers, both have daddy issues and questionable self-esteem, both adhd). I feel like Andrew Garfield ten years ago might have worked too if he wasn't already Spider-man. So as far as casting anyone other than Evan goes, I'm really not sure.
4 notes
·
View notes
Note
hello! your comment on the lost silver post, ( 'It's the OG representation of disabled people in online media XD /j', aswell as tagging missing limbs ) while i understand is meant to be a joke, but it may come across as ableist to some. disabled people are not a trigger and shouldn't be represented as such. in the future, please reconsider how you word things revolving around the topic, or learn to phrase them better. much appreciated! -friendly anon
i did not mean to put disabled people as a trigger. my first thought was that it can look scary in the context of horror (like if a horror movie included someone ripping off limbs and stuff), that's why i tagged it.
and yeah, the joke could've been worded better hahah.
i am myself disabled and did not mean any harm with those comments. if you want, i can delete the tag and the joke, if that'll make it better.
sorry!
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
Finally saw Ant-Man & the Wasp: Quantumania last night and now clicking through the general reviews... well... I do get the overall “why is everything CG in blockbusters, especially Marvel”. Oh, I want more shots on set and more practical effects. But this film is set in the quantum realm. Yes, it did not have to look so Star Wars-y (somebody better put the Mos Eisley Cantina music over that bar scene), but of all the things to bemoan that isn’t such a big deal in this film particularly?!
One reason the second Ant-Man is one of my absolute fav MCU films is the fact it’s not about saving the entire planet. Kinda low stakes and all, very character focused. And in lots of ways Quantumania (sadly) is the opposite of that. But also Kang is among my least cared about villains, I loathe so many times I would read Avengers and boom who shows up... ugh. Do. Not. Care. I already feared Kang would come after Thanos before Phase 2 was over. And here we are. But I think this version, for this movieverse, could overall be very entertaining. So hooray for that. It absolutely IS weird to set him up within an Ant-Man movie though. Then again breaking formula in a way?? Everybody else on these soulcrushing rides, adventures about personal grief and changes, but Scott Lang and family end up with this big threat looming. Hmm, okay.
I am upset that we didn’t get to see any of the non-suit-wearing characters we love. I especially don’t get why Maggie wasn’t at the fake birthday party in the end. I get why Luis isn’t in the big story, but a quick shot in the beginning - just like with Jimmy - would have been nice. I don’t think this film tells us that Scott doesn’t care about them and is only here for the Pym-van-Dyne family, but it’s a bit sad to get NOTHING.
What I wanted most of all was seeing Michelle Pfeiffer kick some ass. Expectation met. Thank you. I think Hope was a bit pushed too far back, but the way she comes back for Scott (always), is nice. I can get behind their relationship, their love, their commitment to each other 100%.
Also Hank and Janet? Amazing. She kept so much for herself, but is he mad? Do they have to have long drawn out fights for D~rama?? Nope. Some irritation and frustration, sure, that’s more than allowed. But in the end there is only trust and love and unquestionable support. Also please, Hank is there to show some love for ants and that’s wonderful. Really glad his ant farm got sucked in. XD
Also watching this, my one wish is now stronger than ever. Seeing the absolute ridiculous M.O.D.O.K. (and I am not sorry they evolved this from Yellowjacket), I neeeeeeeeeeeeeee~d an X-Men film set in MojoWorld. So much. Ridiculous, over the top, non-sensical absurdity, that has zero consequences when the end credits roll. PLEASE! I need that.
Is this a cinematic masterpiece? lol no, why would I expect that from an MCU movie (so far down the line)? This is about characters I already love and adore (Scott Lang is the best), who end up in unfortunate circumstances and pew-pew their way out of it. For deeper feelings I watch other stuff. (While I’d still change things, I feel like the writers understand Ant-Man & Co better than whatever is happening with Thor. I think the tonal inconsistency of Love & Thunder drags that film down for me and Quantumania felt pretty solid in that regard.)
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
Heyya!
There are some things I want to write (specifically: another Field Museum field trip (featuring stuff I got to see on member’s night) and CG headcanons for Father from the show “Raised By Wolves” - he’s such a freaking good dad!) but I’m probably not gonna get those written until at least June. (I work in a school and I’ve got some end-of-year burnout keeping me from writing.)
But I’ve been feeling smallish, so I thought maybe I’d rave about some of my favorite childhood movies (in no particular order). :)
A Troll in Central Park I swear, every single time we went to Blockbuster, I wanted to rent this movie. I just adored it, and I really still do. It just makes me really happy.
Lady and the Tramp This is one of my favorite Disney movies. It’s so pretty, and I love the characters.
Cats (1998) Is it a “kids movie”? No. Did I understand the plot? Barely. But by gosh, I’d put on a leotard and paint whiskers on my face, and I would dance around the living room like I’d been raised to play one of the characters. 😸
The Rescuers Down Under I actually wasn’t allowed to watch this for most of my childhood because my mom felt like the bad guy was “too evil” - she tried to be careful about the things me and my siblings watched when we were really young. (Although, kinda funny, “The Hunchback of Notre Dame” was never restricted. 🤣) But I was able to watch it a few times, and I really liked it.
The Prince of Egypt The MUSIC! My gosh, even when I was too young to really appreciate the visuals, I knew the music was great.
The Muppet Christmas Carol We still watch this movie every Christmas. One year my dad was on the phone with my grandparents while we were watching, and he couldn’t stop laughing at “Jacob and Robert Marley”.
Pollyanna I don’t really know WHY I loved this movie so much - it’s so dialog-heavy and I had (and still kind of have) a pretty short attention span. Still, basically every time I was at my grandparents house I wanted to watch their copy of it.
Bedknobs and Broomsticks I guess some people say this movie was a “Mary Poppins” knockoff? Honestly, as much as I do enjoy “Mary Poppins”, I personally like this more. Maybe ‘cause I like witches.
Kiki’s Delivery Service (1997 English Dub) The characters! The story! The music! AAAAHHH! This is still one of my all-time favorite movies, and it bums me out so much that the 97’ version is so hard to find. (I may or may not have found it online and saved it to my computer so I’ll always have it. XD) I still have the VHS copy I got for Christmas when I was really little.
Homeward Bound & Homeward Bound 2: Lost in San Francisco Everytime I hear the theme music I feel giddy. I like the first one a little more, but they’re both such nice, feel-good movies.
The Lion King 2 - Simba’s Pride … I like this movie more than the first one. 😱😂 The original “Lion King” is great, but I just alway liked this one more. The colors, the songs, the characters (good gosh, Zira is one of my favorite villains ever, don’t even get me started). It’s just really good!
Oliver and Company As a kid this was probably one of my top five Disney movies. It’s not quite so high on the list now, but I still really love it.
Hap Palmer’s Baby Songs This is technically a series and not a “movie”, but this is my list so I’m gonna count it. 😆 They’re mostly original songs, they’re super catchy, and the accompanying videos are a lot of fun. Most of the songs are on Hap Palmer’s YouTube channel; I highly recommend checking it out. (Also: I did not grow up watching “Turn on the Music”, but it’s also really good.)
The Ruby Princess Runs Away This movie is available on YouTube, but please tell me if you ever saw it as a kid - none of my friends had and I couldn’t believe it. This was one of my favorite movies and I watched it so much I can still recite segments of it; a few years ago my sister picked a random scene, played a few seconds, and I gave her the next lines of dialogue. That’s how wild I was about it. 🤣 It’s honestly not a great movie, pretty average and without much of a budget, but I still love it.
3 notes
·
View notes
Note
1, 2, and 3 for the ask game please!
Thanks for the ask, @solarsavoy!
1) Who is your favorite character to write for and is this the character you find easiest to write for?
Hmm… so I’ve written 16 fics for Assassination Classroom, and 13 of them are about Gakushuu. So, yeah, I think it’s safe to say he holds that position right now. ^^ And yeah, I think he’s pretty easy to write, too. The easiest? Maybe. Some other characters I struggle with much more (like Nagisa, for example) but Gakushuu’s voice just… comes to me without much thinking at all. I don’t know… maybe it’s just that I’ve always enjoyed his kind of characters. Reserved characters with misleading exterior (as solarsavoy put it ^^) who are not simply black or white.
2) What is your favorite fic of yours?
Oh boy. What a question. May I cheat and choose one for all of my main fandoms? ^^;
1) I’ll start with the oldest fandom, which is Yugioh (which, I bet, many didn’t even know. xD most of those fics are only on ff.net). I think the last one I wrote for that fandom is the one I liked best: the crossover with Solaris, which I’ve simply named Solaris, cause I suck with titles. ^^;; (Solaris the movie, as at the time I hadn’t read Stanislav Lem’s book, tho it doesn’t really make any big difference here.)
I don’t know, I just a) love weird crossovers, and b) remember I was very invested in this story when I was writing it. Which you might not believe, given that it took me over 4 years to finish a fic with 5 chapters. The thing is, when I started writing it I was already falling out of YGO fandom and fic writing in general. The fact that the fic wasn’t left unfinished is in fact the proof of how much I liked it. I had to finish it, no matter how long it took.
2) Then, my next big fandom was Hikaru no Go. I think my favorite of these fics (32 in total btw) must be the newest that’s still a WIP, Caught Between. It’s been such a huge project for me. Never before have I literally read entire books for fic research. It’s just that it deals with a delicate subject, intersex, and I (as a cis female) really wanted to do my absolute best not get things wrong. I’m so happy I finally started posting it after sitting on it nearly a decade, and I’m really relieved that the reception has been so positive. In a world of black and white, be 💜 ^^
3) And then it’s AssClass’s turn. Hmm. This is the hardest, by far. Maybe Blind Alley. That fic simply has a place in my heart, and I can’t even exactly explain why. Maybe because I’m a sucker for sad things? I don’t know. (All the Gifts might yet steal it’s place, depending on how well I manage to wrap it up, one of these days.)
3) What fic of yours do you think is underrated?
Looking at the ones I just named as my favorites, I got to say Solaris. It’s understandable, I guess, given how long I took to finish it. I’m afraid I lost a lot of readers then. On the other hand, it’s really not been popular at all on AO3 either (the only YGO fic I’ve posted there), tho maybe that is cause I just posted it all in one go there.
Also, of the AssClass fics, the prequel to All the Gifts, which goes by The Fall cause, like I said, I’m bad at naming stuff. I like that ficlet a lot, but it’s not got any big audience.
(And just so Hikago won't feel left out, cause I mentioned now something for the other two fandoms: The Sun Prince and the Frog. XD It's such a stupid story, but I like it. And even tho The Eve of the Battle is short and weird, I think it'd deserve more than 3 kudos.)
3 notes
·
View notes
Note
honestly i think unless the summary of the book gives the cw away (movie comparison but like idk you don't go watch 1917 and get surprised because it's about ww1 yk), no one should give them, like idk maybe it's just my country but i don't buy a book and have a list of cw before the table of contents yk, the author isn't giving it for a reason in my mind
then again i also understand why some people want/need them, so i can't really speak that much since i personally have no tw .-. i don't think i'm the main demographic LOLOL but yea i just skip cw usually on tumblr, like i think as long as it's visible (like you put "CONTENT WARNING" blah blah and you have line breaks yk) it's okay cause i can just skip it xD
tldr i'm not the main demographic anyway so don't listen to me <3 i do think the private post thingy would please all sides tho
Sorry for replying so late to this one LOL but I think what I’m gonna do is go with more vague tags? Like recently I was practically describing the whole fic in the content warnings and from my pov it’s kinda lame ☹️ so imma try and be more concise!
I kinda skim the content warnings for stuff I don’t like but otherwise don’t really pay too much attention to them LOL I wish there was a way to spoiler tag them like you can do on reddit/discord..
1 note
·
View note
Text
9 People Tag
Thank you to @angie-j-kay for the tag!
Tagging: Yeeeeah... anyone who wants to do this is fine, I can’t think of 9 people haha. XD
LAST SONG: The Unicorn from the Legend OST. Especially from 4:00 at onward. Okay. *steeple fingers* Come in close for a second, folks. Listen... say what you will about this movie, I understand how stupid, silly, campy, ridiculous, etc. it seems to younger people nowadays. But. 80s fantasy shaped me as a writer and I have such an affectionate place in my heart for movies like this. Legend will forever be a dear, dear favorite of mine, and the music takes me places, seriously. The Tangerine Dream OST, not... not... whatever the fuck they did to it when they re-released it. They made a completely different orchestral OST and. It. Does not. Have the energy of the original. The original music makes me so happy, to the point I sometimes just start crying when I listen to it because the sheer affectionate nostalgic smacks me in the face, heh. I used to write LotR-style epic fantasies when I was younger (not quality-wise, but just in the sense of books that were thousands of pages with hundreds of characters and sprawling stories), and Legend was one of the movies that opened up my imagination as a child enough for me to be capable of that. Legend, Krull, Labyrinth, Willow, Ladyhawke... there are several that I will forever love. Anyway please give Legend a chance, but watch it uncut and with the Tangerine Dream OST, for the love of all that’s good and holy. Thank you for coming to my talk.*gets down off my soapbox*
LAST MOVIE: The Huntsman: Winter’s War. For... oh... probably the 8th time? About? I lost count, heh, but I’ve seen it several times. It helps me get in a mindset to write a few of my muses, plus it puts me in a high fantasy mood, which for me equates to creativity in general, heh. Fantasy has always been my go-to genre. It and it’s predecessor, Snow White and the Huntsman, are currently on Netflix if anyone’s interested. I’d say watch them in order (SW first then WW), because Winter’s War is both a prequel and a sequel to Snow White, but to me WW is by far the superior one for a million reasons.
CURRENTLY WATCHING: Right at this moment, true crime documentaries, heh. I put them on in the background while I write. There was a time when I wanted to be a forensic psychologist, so I find them really interesting. But lately in general I’ve been binging the Tales From the Crypt and The Ray Bradbury Theater shows because they’re both pure childhood nostalgia for me.
CURRENTLY READING: Sadly, nothing. I just don’t have enough free time to read books right now, unfortunately. I haven’t for a while and that’s... that’s just terrible. I really should try to read more. =(
CURRENTLY CRAVING: Fried foods. Mostly because I can’t eat them due to a dietary restriction. Onion rings, calamari, fried fish sandwiches... *sigh* Bacon, my love... someday we will meet again. *sobs*
LAST THING YOU SEARCHED FOR WRITING PURPOSES: I actually just looked up Pascal from Vincent’s show for a thread because for some reason I keep thinking his name is Pasqual instead? I have no idea why? So yeah, I had to confirm the spelling of his name haha.
0 notes
Text
3/24/23
I just accidentally titled this "3/24/56" and had the eerie thought that... hopefully... at some point in my life I actually will date a document with that date. That's a weird goddamn thought. Best not to linger on it too long... XD
I had my first human contact in several days today. My therapist, of course. It was good. He kept sorta... correcting me on my extrapolations that the shit I was dealing with the other day skating... where I was convinced I was pissing people off and something bad would happen because of it... I was trying to kinda... connect the dots that it was trauma related. He made a big point to emphasize that it was anxiety, and really hammered into that point. He clarified a few times with me to check whether it was panic or anxiety. And... well... I guess I can call myself lucky.
I'm starting to discern the difference between anxiety and panic. Again. For the millionth time. Because apparently it's my fate to just... keep forgetting shit. So... I made a point to share with him the parallel that I found recently to remember the difference. Phobos and Deimos. Terror and Dread. There's a distinct difference, and... from my understanding... they're actually different parts of the brain that are lit up? Maybe I'm off on that, I'm clearly not an expert in that field. But yeah, I'm definitely dealing much more with Dread than Terror.
But... Terror is what's unleashed when I smoke weed. Terror can come out in nightmares. Terror came out when I watched Bo Burnham's "Inside" with some random chick I met on Bumble who put her head on me when a song was playing that sounded like it was literally talking directly to me and I had one of those Truman Show moments. Those moments, those are fucking Terror. Like my life is a big fucking lie, this is just an experiment, we've been fucking with you for 20 years, see? Look, here's the cameras! Haha! Or the fun classic that I'm guessing sourced from my extensive history watching psychological horror movies - you're actually dead and you don't know it! Like Bruce Willis in The Sixth Sense (sorry for the spoiler but like... come on, you have to have seen it by now).
Those are fucking panic attacks. Like... something bad is actively, imminently happening. A meteor is crashing towards Earth. You're having a heart attack and are going to die. The world is actually ending, and you're just being notified, and now you need to figure out what to do. And moments like that? Those are horrific to go through alone. Trust me.
What I'm going through are anxiety, he's been reminding me. And I was trying to push a bit deeper with it, saying this is... trauma reinforced. That's why I was saying it was kind of a PTSD thing, mostly because of the sense of... lack of safety that I felt. That was a big resonant thing that I associate with PTSD, not feeling safe when you are safe. And a cohesive theme behind that, that tracks to traumatic events. But again, I'm not the professional here. Either way, it's anxiety, and it's clearly "inspired by" past experiences. So... I'm guessing the miscommunication there was just... nomenclature.
He gave me the same kind of advice I usually get, to challenge the thoughts and seek evidence. And... I kinda automatically do that. I just... didn't really dismantle his argument because I wanted to hear what tools he was going to offer at the end of it. Finite time, you know?
He said "do you have any evidence that you were upsetting people?" Well, I had headphones in, but someone did yell at me at one point, didn't hear what they said. And when riding by people, they very obviously don't seem... pleased... They're not excited, they're not stoked, they're not curious, they're not "oh wow, what's that, it's like a skateboard but it's moving on its own... weird..." I get "annoyed" vibes from them. I don't have clear confirmation of it because... you know... I'm not in their heads... but it lingers. And I try to shrug it off, right? Because... it's like... I could be jumping to conclusions. I get what he was getting at, and again... I do that! I do challenge the thoughts! But what really set me off that day was... evidence. Evidence to prove the anxiety right. The no-skateboarding sign, with the big fine on it. Then looking up the bylaws. I can keep that "I might be pissing people off" stuff at bay, it's hard but I have the tools. What gets me... and again, this is where I really think he started to understand the challenge I was dealing with... what gets me is when that anxiety gets one fucking morsel of concrete evidence. "You are clearly pissing people off, because what you're doing is illegal." "Of course your landlords are going to be pissed at you, there's a giant hole in the wall" "Duh your retired neighbors are judging you, you're smoking weed on your porch at 1PM on a Monday afternoon when everyone else is at work."
It makes me insecure about like... snowskating at the park and making a bunch of noise on the maintenance door. It makes me go back to when I was skating on the sidewalks in that blizzard and the cop was watching me, because what I was doing was technically illegal and I could be fined for it... And after sharing this with him, I'm just like... I think he started to get it a bit. That this is actually a pretty reasonable fear. And not quite as simple as just... dismantle the anxiety and it goes away. In this case... the law had been clearly crafted to (in case of snowskating) combat people unsafely sledding on the sidewalks of steep hills, and (in the case of skateboarding) grinding the curbs, ollieing into traffic, bombing hills, shit like that. But the laws are very general and prejudiced against all forms of riding period, not just the specific types of dangerous riding they want to prohibit. It's not "no smoking within 20 feet of the establishment" it's "no smoking at any time, ever, anywhere". So... it kinda just... fucks me over when I try to use my board practically. Or when I have 15+ years experience riding my snowskate and want to practice or even film some tricks in my neighborhood.
Professional skateboarders still deal with this when they film their parts for their actual full-time fucking job. It's been over 30 fucking years of this bullshit.
Like... I went to get pizza delivery and a package from the package room today in my yoga pants and a hoodie, no shirt underneath, no socks, haven't showered all day. And I used to be super self conscious about smelling bad. And yeah, it can take a push sometimes, but today I really didn't give too much of a shit. I can dismantle that mental argument pretty quick - "who fucking cares?" "So what, someone thinks I smell, they're being judgmental, they don't know what kind of day I'm having, let them fucking judge."
But when it comes to me... albeit negligently... breaking the law? It puts me in a bit of a quandary. I guess this is where I bring out the DnD alignment sheet and explain my shift.
So DnD alignments are personality spectrums. Chaotic -> Lawful. Evil -> Good. With neutrals in between. I have never been in the Evil camp, honestly. It's just not in my nature, it's very repulsive to me. But in my past, I had definitely willfully been more in the Chaotic Neutral camp. I loved the spontaneity and excitement of Chaos, I found it more exciting than boring old Order. The Joker is just funnier, cooler and more entertaining than Batman. Sorry, Batman. But... Chaos just brought me to Evil people. And often planted the idea in the heads of others that I was... innately self-interested and potentially Evil.
In my reformation, after my life collapsed and I grew a ton and really woke up to who I am and what I wanted to be in life... I started leaning much heavier towards actively pursuing Good rather than being on the Neutral fence. Meh, the more I think about it, I was more on the side of Good than Neutral... I've just stayed Neutral because I just don't want to be actively involved in the fight, honestly. My heart has always been aligned with Good. But I started to drift much further away from Chaos the past several years. And now, I'm probably getting closer to Lawful Good. Which is... not what I ever expected. Going from a Han Solo kinda character to more of an Obi Wan.
Lawful, in this case, not just meaning loyalty to social policies or a faction, but... orderly, structured, disciplined, predictable. And god knows a lot of that is being socially pressured. It's really weird, because... I mean... it's 4:30 AM. Literally no one else in my gigantic apartment building is awake, I guarantee it. I have barely any structure, I live on the fringe and have for a very long time. I prefer spontaneity and my career and daily life are built around pursuing creative impulses as they occur. I have deliberately shaped my life around this, which is like... literally Chaos! XD And yet... I'm more orderly than I have been in the past. I do yoga daily, I do chores, I do weekly takeout? Kinda? When I know what day it is? XD Can you tell how confusing this is for me?!
This is really my first time putting myself and my older self on the alignment grid. And... I'm really not sure where I'm at. Maybe I'm more around Neutral Good. Or even Chaotic Good. I'm clearly not Evil inclined, and clearly have a serious problem with Evil... I just... don't want to combat Evil... so I have never seen myself aligned with Good because of that. Like... I'm a pacifist... I refuse to cause harm even to Evil... And that character quality is kinda why I've gotten chewed up and spit out so much by less-than-Good people...
So, honestly... I'm pretty Chaotic. My orderly habits keep me sane and keep me in tune, but I really can't say I'm structured just because I do yoga first thing every day. And that, in itself, is not a slight against me. And fighting my Chaotic nature... has historically caused more problems than good. My Chaos is not bad. It's just... randomness. Quirkiness. My typing right now is Chaos. It's just thoughts coming straight out of my head with no editing at all. But... there's this stigma I've been around in my life. Maybe it's cultural, maybe it's my family, I don't know. They feel like if you're not "structured" and "disciplined" and all that blah blah boring bullshit... you're a bad person. You're doing it wrong. And often, you're unpredictable and dangerous.
When I last lived in this city - a few lifetimes ago - I wanted to do some kind of project (which I would consider at this stage in my life a performance art piece) where me and my friend would go undercover as homeless people for a day or two. See what life looked like from that side of society, as like... a method acting experiment. And, at the naive age of 21, I would've gladly done it if my friend agreed. I really just didn't fully process how fucking dangerous that was, and how fleeting and fragile life really is. But, there are artists that have done that kind of thing and been fine. And maybe I'm being super paranoid by even thinking that if I were homeless, I would be murdered within 24 hours. Right? I mean... isn't that... anxiety?
That switch got thrown. Whatever that is. The self-preserver. The "yeah, you better be cautious, you could die at any second." "You know what, let's go to the store tomorrow, wouldn't wanna risk... something..." "Yeah, let's not call the vet when we only got 6 hours of sleep, we might 'fuck it up'... somehow..." THAT shit. That was a big shift in me. And... I thought it was PTSD. It's definitely trauma-sourced. My therapist told me today it's anxiety. He directed me towards "Polyvagal Theory" again. Here:
Makes sense in a lot of ways. And I rarely cross that line into "I can't" anymore. I just go into evasion, procrastination, shit like that (with going to the store, or the skatepark, or calling a place because I'm nervous or something). Like... it rarely even gets to panic anymore. Anxiety and Irritation, yeah, I get that a ton. And it lingers. So... I'd see that as really good improvement. I just see all that shit on the other side way down below... and I fucking miss it, man. Connection. Safety. Social Engagement. I miss that shit.
Ugh... well, I've got tons of "homework". Affirmations for myself. Kind reminders of who I am, where I am, and what I choose to be. And I'm reading them for the first time, and they're actually really nice, and really helpful. I remember times when I was younger when I would be the "cool" kid who would scoff and turn his nose up at this kinda shit without a moment's consideration... god, that's so embarrassing... Like being judgmental is cool or something. Like fucking Roger Klotz or something, ugh. Here are the mantras:
This feeling is only temporary.
I inhale peace and exhale worry.
I am safe and in control.
I feel like those are going to be helpful. And the first thing that ran through my head when he told me about this was to make a piece of jewelry for myself around this. Something I wear every day, I referred to it as the "tattoo method", which he... didn't seem to connect with. I guess it's a cultural thing. Meaning... something on your person that is symbolic of a very important reminder to yourself, so that when you need it, it's always there. Like my tattoo on my chest that I can read in the mirror that reminds me that when I feel chest pains in that location, I'm not dying, it's just anxiety, and it's caused... by me. It really does help.
It's getting late. I got most of the line work done on the hoodie, there's only shading left now, then the outer ring... whenever I decide what to do with it. No rush on that. Big victory there.
And I decided to play music tonight, first time in a while. I actually recorded. Two guitar parts and a bass part. Very brief, one riff, a harmony riff and underlying bass to kinda... camouflage the hum of incredibly old pickups. It was a really cool riff, I'm very proud of myself for writing it on the fly, and without any paper or anything. Just me and my guitar, Elisha. Like the old days.
I'm inspired to keep going with that and see where it leads me. Listening to Baroness always makes me want to record 20 albums worth of guitar music, I swear! XD
Bed time, be well.
0 notes
Text
Thoughts on The Bad Guys: A Very Bad Holiday Part 1
I finally got around to watching this for the first time on Christmas Day, and since then have rewatched it twice. It’s long overdue, but after my third viewing, here are my extensive thoughts on my favorite criminal gang’s newest misadventure:
(Also, stick around til the end where I go through my predictions for the special and see how many things I got right.)
Wait…hold the phone… “A Netflix SERIES”? Holy crap, did they just confirm a “Bad Guys Animated Series” for Netflix?! 🤩🤩🤩
Ok, I know this is just the opening credits and I shouldn’t take it too seriously, but how is Webs able to support the other guys’ weights without collapsing?
Also, she’s a tarantula. She shouldn’t be able to create string (Normally this wouldn’t bother me, except she explicitly states tarantulas can’t make webs in a deleted scene for the movie. Kinda makes her nickname ironic, huh?)
OMG GUYS, I think this is going to become its own series! They even put the title and credits at the bottom of the first scene as if it’s just a regular episode!
Ok, let’s go ahead and get the obvious out of the way: the animation is godawful. I understand they’re on a budget, but c’mon, was it that hard to give us some inbetweens here and there? And don’t get me started on those uncanny facial expressions. (I’ll give more specific examples on how terrible this thing is animated later on.)
The special starts with Wolf directly telling the audience that the story takes place before the Bad Guys turned good…like, he actually looks at the camera and tells us this while he’s driving in the first scene…I know one of Wolf’s abilities is breaking the fourth wall, but as far as I can tell, he can’t predict the future. Why didn’t they just do a voiceover?
Speaking of voices, I’m probably the only one who doesn’t have a problem with the new voice actors (the only one I don’t like is Tarantula’s. IDK, she just sounds off to me. Also, my reaction when I learned Snake’s voice actor played Mickey Mouse: 🤯)
They really should’ve put Shark in the seat behind Wolf instead of Piranha. The little dude is barely visible. XD
Speaking of which, what happened to their car? It looks nothing like the one they use in the movie. Do they have multiple cars or something? I mean, I guess that shouldn’t surprise me because of everything else they “own.”
And while we’re on the topic of “things looking different,” why is Wolf the only one who didn’t receive a new holiday getup?
The Bad Guys (or Webs specifically) now use the term “normies” to describe the citizens of L.A. Ok then…
Of course Piranha likes stinky cheeses 😂. My question is, why’d he try to lie about it? And more importantly, why did he not fart when he did? (They actually bring this up in the special’s novelization.)
It’s a shame we don’t get to see Diane or the chief, but at least my girl Tiffany is back 😁! Now please don’t ever have her do that ridiculous arm-waving motion again. (BTW, Lyoko Comic Dubs, if you’re reading this and need me to do more lines, hit me up 😉).
“IT’S THE BAD GUYS!!!” Um…yeah, lady. They’ve been driving around the city this whole time and weren’t trying to hide it. How are you the first one to notice them?
This special marks the first time movie-verse Snake addresses Wolf as “Wolfie.” It probably shouldn’t be a big deal to me since Webs calls him that all the time, buuuuuuut…🥰🥰🥰🥰
“That’s very not good.” Who said that? It couldn’t have been Wolf ‘cause his lips weren’t moving! 😂
Speaking of animation errors, Snake manages to teleport from the passenger seat to the back in just one shot.
“This isn’t that famous balloon everybody’s freakishly emotionally attached to, is it?” “No, no, no. This is a different giant Santa-shaped balloon.” …I adore this cynical reptile so much. 🥰
And now the Santa balloon is on fire…sure, why not?
Wow, Santa burning up is so tragic, we can even hear Lola Loud crying all the way from Michigan!
And now we get the special’s official title screen. So…what was the point of dropping its name in the beginning then?
What do you know? It turns out that wasn’t Lola Loud crying, but the same woman who warned the citizens about the Bad Guys…even though she never sounded like that before. Gal does great impressions, I gotta say!
“He was like a father to me.” What is it with “The Bad Guys” and daddy issues? XD
They canceled Christmas…because of a balloon…can’t they just…I don’t know, buy another one?
Furthermore, why do the Bad Guys feel the need to cancel their heist because of some guards? They seemed perfectly capable of bypassing security at the Golden Dolphin award ceremony. Was it against their moral standards at this point? Did they just randomly decide one day: “Eh, you know what? We’re criminals, we can do whatever we want to guards. Screw our morality.”
Piranha goes from fake sleeping on a pillow…to Shark’s arm. Animation error aside, that’s actually kind of adorable.
Good lord, that “jumping animation.” 😩 What is this, the Looney Tunes?
It’s sad that the Bad Guys’ attempt at recreating the Santa balloon is more pleasant to look at than some of the close-up shots in this special (We’ll get to those soon, trust me.)
They made a Die Hard reference…in a children’s cartoon…That. Is. Awesome! 🤩
“That guy’s a legend! He parties with ghosts and wears a dress to bed!” Methinks Piranha may be suppressing some hidden desires. 😆
In all seriousness, I would love to see the Bad Guys’ rendition of “A Christmas Carol.” But, sorry Shark ol’ buddy; as great of an actor you are, no one fits the role of Scrooge better than a certain grouchy serpent. 😊
“That sounds a lot like Robin Hood, who is notoriously good.” Spoken like a true Sir Hiss, Snakey my boy 👍. (You know what, screw the last point. I wanna see the “Bad Guys” version of Robin Hood now.)
“He ruined tights for me.” Oh, is that the reason Webs doesn’t wear pants? 😆
Maybe I’m just out of touch with reality, but why does the stereo have two slots for MP3s?
The Bad Guys explicitly state they find most Christmas things to be awful…yet Webs has a holiday playlist? 🤔
“Piranha will help Webs get to the antenna.” Why? Can’t she crawl her way up? Why does Piranha need to be there? Did they just need to give him something to do? Because if that’s the case, can’t he help Wolf and Snake deliver presents? Unless…Wolf wants some one-on-one time with his “best bud.” 🥰🥰🤫🤫
“Buddy, I don’t work with sidekicks.” Scrooge? A sidekick? This lady’s obviously never read the book. Or watched DuckTales.
Did anyone else see Snake’s face before he delivered the first present? It’s almost as if he was saying: “Only for you, Wolfie. Only for you.” 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
“What? You’ve never seen an ab before?” Why Snake, are you showing off for Wolf right now? 😉
It’s honestly adorable that these two know each other so well, they automatically guess when the other is hiding something.
Wait a minute…I’m confused. Normally, Shark’s paper-thin disguises always work no matter how minimal they are. But the second he loses just one piece of the disguise, it doesn’t work anymore? What? (In case you’re wondering, his hat falls off and even though he still has the mutton chops, he’s nearly recognized. Then later on, all he has on is a mustache and that’s enough to fool the shaved ice vendor. Again, what? 🤨)
Yes, Shark. Go ahead and keep talking into your earpiece OUT LOUD while the radio lady is beating you up. That won’t make her suspicious at all. *sigh*
I love Webs’ face after Piranha’s song.
Shark and Piranha refer to each other as “fin bros.” Not gonna lie, that’s really cute 😊.
Good thinking, Wolf. Making it snow when 3/5 of your team is cold-blooded. I can’t see this ending badly at all. 🙄
Ok, as stupid as it is, I love the interaction between Shark and the shaved ice vendor. It’s probably the funniest part of the whole thing.
Of course Wolf doesn’t listen to Webs and turns the machine up to 11 (oops, I mean 10). Again, does he not realize how fatal this could be for the others?
#the bad guys#mr wolf#mr snake#mr piranha#ms tarantula#mr shark#tiffany fluffit#a very bad holiday#dreamworks#netflix#netflix series#holiday special
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
i just watched Con Air for the first time and basically live texted my reactions to my husband so here are some highlights from that
John Cusack is a mess in this movie
no really why is he like a soggy kitten
Colm Meany's accent really came on strong in the first scene he's in and then pretty much disappeared entirely which tbh im thankful for
Nick Cage's has been a nightmare all the way through
BUT HERE'S MY BABY STEVE BUSCEMI TO SAVE THE WHOLE FILM!!!!
like why the fuck is John Cusack wearing socks and fucking sandals and a nice linen suit
John Malkovich is great though as usual
Was not expecting Dave Chappelle, but then was not surprised when he was playing a crack head
96% of the things coming out of Cage's mouth are pure memes(tm)
also apparently im watching the edited for tv version which is making it even funnier
literally every person in this movie is in a billion other things
its like a smorgasboard of awesome b-list actors and i am feasting happily
"i SAID put the bunny back in the box!"
"Now you're talking semantics. What if I told you insane was working fifty hours a week in some office for fifty years at the end of which they tell you to fuck off? Ending up in some retirement village, hoping to die before suffering the indignity of trying to make it to the toilet in time?"
now they're in an airplane graveyard
literally why are some of these old planes that have clearly been sitting here dead for years smoking?
here we have a fight sequence between John Cusack and a plane
"Of course we're having trouble finding him! He's off saving the rainforest, or recycling his sandals or some shit!"
thank you for that Chief O'Brien
recycling his sandals
that's the worst insult he can come up with for a guy who he hates simply because he dares to think that prisoners are human beings and its valuable to try to understand them psychologically
lord they found the ugliest little girl that was currently living in 1997 to play the girl that Steve is gonna try to eat or whatever
(my husband replied 'he's not gonna eat her, they're friends" XD)
"Whaddaya think I'm gonna do? I'm gonna save the friggin day."
the little girl looks like handsome squidward
Guy to Cyrus: "Please, Cy--" Cyrus: "Anora." **tosses cigarette*
I AM FUCKING CACKLING
god damn John Cusack in his sandals and fine linen suit hotwiring a truck
dont-SLAM-treat-SLAM-women-SLAM-like that-SLAM!
omgomgomgomg the whole last like, twenty minutes of the movie i was going "is it bad that i kind of want Steve to escape" and then he DOES
just livin his best serial killer life in vegas, as he should
that was a fuckin ROMP
#con air#nicholas cage#cant believe it took me 34 years to watch this movie#well actually no i was 9 when it came out so 25 years#still
0 notes
Last Seen Blogs
jud193
Untitled
yukihiraq
╰ ♥ Yukihira ♥ ╮
my-3xodus-blog
WHAT DO WE CALL EXO?!?!?!
evanbuckleys
to be lost, to be found
