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hoaxsen · 3 years

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| happy [ late ] new years to one and all <3.

| here's some Levi angst.

| word count; 1,684

I'm coming home.

" Promise me to stay alive? "

" I always do, runt. You better promise me. "

" I promise. "

Not all promises were made to be kept, either from the fact that they're broken almost instantly. Or they can't be kept at all, just empty words being said to fill the dead air created from the promise being said.

Words that people take so seriously, as if they'd truly mean something. They're supposed to mean something, right? Supposed to mean the world to the people who created this. End it off with pinkies interlocking, like a kid friendly way of signing off a piece of your soul.

A piece that you'll never get back. Discarded along with the broken seal, like as if finding a product in a store open. Needs to be thrown out.

I'm coming home.

" This expedition might get us even further in taking back for humanity. "

" Don't get your hopes up, just focus on coming back alive. . .please. "

" I promised, didn't I? "

You did, you promised Levi Ackerman an entire world in that one small and simple line.

But that universe didn't hold up for long, it collapsed along with the small space of an open heart he had. This expedition was supposed to be clean and simple, Erwin said. It was supposed to run flawlessly, as he's promised time and time again. But failed to keep, this entire mission wasn't supposed to end this way. His new formation was supposed to have fewer casualties, little to no accidents should everyone follow pursuit.

This time, that wasn't the case. The case that had opened and started it's cruel trial was the one happening here and now.

The weight of it feeling like a star going supernova inside his heart. Though since that pressure was trapped inside so tightly, there was no way for it to be let out. The captain shut down, his mind going blank and his eyes looking vacant as he drunk in the news.

Tell the world I'm coming home.

" They. . .were caught in the hands of a titan, sir. "

You weren't alive, not here to keep your end of the promise as he did with his. Not here to tell Levi that it was a mistake, they mistook you for someone else. That wasn't the ordeal, as much as he wished it was. All in his mind, playing on loop over and over was a silly little promise made before this. Of course it wouldn't have been kept, not in a world like this. A world where humanity is now at the bottom of the food chain, cornered like wounded animals.

The captain of the Survey Corps dared not to let his heart leap out of his chest. The man dared not to shed a single tear in front of his comrades. This was the norm, he'd had to chant to himself like a prayer on a broken record over and over for the silver lining to not shine through. Hold it back all the way until he was behind closed doors, locked so tight that letting it all out wouldn't be a problem. So that his regiment could probably see, that even their captain was at this game long enough to realize not every little thing was going to last.

A captain in front of everyone else, a human with emotions while being alone. That's how he wanted to treat this, tricking himself into thinking that's how he needed to treat this.

Should he have looked on that cart, pulling the fallen soldiers back to the safety of the walls. Levi knew he would have let that dam overflow with the sounds of a heart aching lover.

This expedition became the very reason why he loathed titans more. Becoming the very reason why, he started having doubts in his Commander.

I know my kingdom awaits.

The freshly dug hole waited for you alright back in Wall Rose. Somewhere maybe just outside the Krolva district, they called this place The Scouts Yard.

How this one patch of land that could have been used for anything else, soon started becoming overtaken by the bodies of his fallen companions from their ongoing war.

Now it houses your body.

The weather of the day was a stark contrast of his mood, the sun was shining with a few small thin clouds in the sky. A pity really, he thought that whatever God was out there might knew how to read a room. Levi slowly got down onto his knees to read the words on the new tombstone.

Here lies; Y/N L/N.

The ravenette couldn't bring himself to read the rest, already biting down his tongue to distract himself from the stinging of tears in his eyes. Hands clenched into fists at his side, his nails threatening to dig into his skin and draw blood. The dirt that was gathering at the knees of his uniform was going unnoticed.

' You promised me, idiot! How could you break it!? '

That broken promise lead you into a new world, a world of dirt under the earth. Was it like the hellhole he escaped from? Or was it better than the underground life? Except, there was no stairway fee. It was like your citizenship of this messed up surface world was revoked. Tarnished. Never to be used anymore. Torn away as if it were a fake and the MP's of that world came to collect you.

The grey orbs of the Ackerman were starting to itch and pulse with the amount of restraint he was using to not let himself cry. Levi's breathing changed into one of a heavy, and broken up pattern.

All he could think about was not here, not where people could see him at his weakest. Not at his lowest.

A hand being placed on his shoulder brought him out of his trance. Looking up, he saw none other than the man he promised himself to follow.

That's funny, huh? How he promised you he'd stay alive if you did, and how he promised himself to follow after your murderer. Every. Step. Of. The. Way. His life he placed in Erwin's hands, the same hands that weren't big enough to take your life into consideration. His own captain snapped at him, pushing his hand away harshly. Grey hues glaring ever so harshly at what seemed to be confused blue orbs.

Levi stood up to his full height, giving Erwin the greatest stare down of his existence. The commander taking a step back to retaliate, as if he were the victim.

" Levi- "

" This. Is your fault. "

Levi left Erwin with that, not catching how the commander suddenly got the hint, staring down at your grave.

And they've forgiven my mistakes.

Was it a mistake, to have broken a promise in this cruel and fucked up world? Was it really? You could catch Levi pacing the shared room with this thought in mind.

His side of the room was a complete and total mess. Just like his office, papers everywhere, wooden chair pieces scattered over his floor. Yet, should any piece debris get over to your side, Levi is cleaning it like a mad man. Leaving everything the way you had it before, hoping to preserve what he could of your memory.

Thinking it would bring a sense of calm to his nerves. All it brought uneasiness, abandonment, and a whole battalion of negative emotions that started attacking and swirling inside him. He almost questioned if this was how titans felt when their ends were coming to a near. A silly question, one used to try and distract himself. Not like it was helping in any shape or form, just made him feel worse. Useless even.

' Did I even say ' I love you enough ' ? Did I show them that I cared? Did I do enough before their time came!? '

A sob left him, loud and clear as day. Almost turning into another moment of pure wails and tears. The man was pretty sure he showed enough emotion, even when he tried and didn't really know how. Tried his best not to be closed off and buried in his work twenty-four/seven. He felt like screaming and sobbing this time. Was he even enough for you before death? If he wasn't so tired and dehydrated from doing the said act maybe about twenty minutes prior, Levi would have let the entirety of Wall Rose know his pain.

Eyes bloodshot from the onslaught attack of tears that kept pouring over from his once shining metallic eyes. How many cups of tea had he had? That somehow didn't end up as glass shards beneath his boots. For once, the mess didn't bother him, his promise to stay clean was broken. Just like almost everything else. One promise he made out of this shit, was to kill each and every titan. Then show Erwin that they're human, not just soldiers waiting to throw away their lives for bastard nobles.

Those were promises he couldn't break. Along with not forgetting you, a bittersweet reminder on how everyone precious leaves his life one way or another. No amount of rain in the world could wash away that pain.

Here now sat the Scouts' captain, sitting up against a heavy locked wooden door, holding what was your cloak from the expedition. Levi couldn't bring himself to clean it, the red of your blood, or maybe someone else's stained and clashed with the green. Making it a murky, dark, and odd color, Levi clutched it to his chest. His stray fallen tears turning the fabric a darker shade of its color.

" I promise you, brat. . .I'll be coming back home alive. "

Not all promises could be kept, just words to fill the dead silent air that was created. Reminders that it could always be broken in the least expected amount of time, in the most hurtful way. A stupid way to sign off a piece of your soul and hope for the better.

Tell the world that I'm coming home.

Levi Ackerman, was now no stranger to it.

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anochuu · 5 years

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I Told You So

⤷Genre: Fluff

⤷Jung Hoseok x Reader

⤷Summary: Hoseok’s naivity is just too cute to handle

"You're going to catch love-flu and infect it to us all,Hoseok.Grow some balls and ask her out already."

The mentioned member snaps from his little world and look up to see Yoongi leans against the railing just beside him.

"You're kidding right? I'm not ready to get rejected this fast yet." He snorted.

"How do you even know she's going to reject you? You never asked how she feels!" This time the oldest member piped in from the side. Impatient enough to see him again staring across the studio where her form is moving there and about doing whatever the crews told her to.

"I don’t," Answered he, "But i just know that she either likes Taehyung or Namjoon."

"I'm sorry, i didn't know you changed your name to Cupid now?" Yoongi scoffed earning a glare from him.

"Look at the way she talks and look at them. All starry eyes and ....shit." He uttered with frustration buried deep within him.

"Language." Scold Jin, "Why don't you ask her and find out?"

"Thought it's easy,huh." Hoseok mumbles,resting a palm underneath his cheek and stare at the certain (h/c) haired girl once again,her faint laughter that he could hear sounded so melodious.

"Don't even regret and come crying to us when Namjoon did ask her out first."

He shot up,eyes widening at Jin, "What?"

He shrugs his shoulders,"He can be so obvious i mean come on,who knows her longer than any of us? Him."

"And who introduced her to us?"

"..Him" Hoseok trailed off; "Ugh,damn it. I can't argue with you guys." His eyes diverted at her once more as if it always has been his habit for him to always search for her whenever they are in the same places.

Being an idol does not stop the almighty maknae to develop a crush on one of their song writer who is involved in most of their track lists every time they made a new comeback. She was there to help them get up to their feet whenever each of the members are feeling down,or ready to give up at the starter of their debut which could be called not that successful yet.

When he was still lost and absolutely new to the harsh reality of becoming a trainee to be an idol, he saw her as a supportive sister but now that they have stepped into the adultery world, there is a chance for him to like her.

"Don't squint your eyes like that,or else i won't be able to draw eyeshadows on you." (Y/n) laughs, the music bank encore show was about to start in a couple of minutes but for the young man he needed more time as long as he can spend with her being close to him like this.

"I can't help it! My eyes are getting dry because of these lenses." He complaint,couldn't help but to feel on cloud nine currently.

However his appearance, his heart beats very loud in his ears and ferociously against his ribcage. The other day he was persuaded by the older members that he MUST ask her out soon and that day is today. But how should he do it? What questions should he ask her first thing to not look dumb and nervous in front of her?

Hoseok ran his tongue over the top of his lip,watching her back who is tidying up the make-up desk.

"(Y/n)," He called,catching her attention back at him.

"Hm?" She responded,blinking her eyes with a smile which made him gulp down another lump inside his throat.

"Uhh, listen i uhm- wanted to you know...well,that is of course but—i mean,i know you are busy and all yet i'm still wondering if..well-if you have time—i mean..!"

She rose an eyebrow, "Hoseok,you're rambling again." She chuckles, "What is it though?" This time she stand straighter, "It's okay,what is it you wanted to tell?" Her voice gentle and that envelopes his heart in a warmth he has come to known since he knew her kindness.

It took him literally a couple of seconds of another fidgeting, eyes roaming around as if searching for the right words to utter yet she is willing to wait for him patiently.

"I was thinking...if you want your—Our!..day off,to have coff-"

"(Y/n)!"

Their heads in a sync looks to the side to see the leader approaching with a relieved expression as soon as his eyes laid on them.

"Namjoon? What's up?"

"I've been looking everywhere for you," He said with a sigh,grabbing her wrist where Hoseok’s eyes were burn on to.

"What-"

"The production crews needs your help with the camera by the stage—" He then starts to drag her behind him without sparring another glance on the poor boy who was left alone in the dressing room,dumbfounded.

He works extra hard for today's stage show to conceal his dejected mood from earlier and deep within he curses himself for not being able to muster enough courage to spill those words out fast enough while he had the chance to.

He gulps down a bottle of water one of the crews gave him after their stage show was done, panting heavily with sweats roll down from either side of his temples to the tip of his chin.

His eyes narrowed to the corner where he found her standing close to Namjoon once again. He frowns hard when she was wiping his sweats when all he got was another different women from the production team.

"(Y/n)." He called her out,louder this time. He needs to get her,now or never.

"Ah!" Like a bulb just lightens on top of her head,her eyes widens. Excusing herself from Namjoon and grab a hold of Hoseok’s wrist this time after making sure no one is noticing them.

She pulls the male behind her back to the dressing room where they are now alone

"I forgot you wanted to say something to me earlier,what was it again?"

He turns flustered. He didn't expect her to remember that and with bold moves to drag him here just to speak about it; probably noticing how nerves-wrecking he was earlier embedded to the back of her head means he have something important to tell her in private.

He inhales a deep breath,biting his lower lip. Here goes nothing.

“Look,(Y/n) i— no matter how i reassure myself how you felt for Namjoon or the other way around...i just couldn't seem to let go of you." He began,studying her expression who is slowly widening her eyes after digestion.

"All i am asking now from you is that—is it possible, if i wanted to take you out for a coffee..? A dinner..?" His eyes pleading,biting the inner walls of his both cheeks when all he receives right now is just a silence from her.

"..Or maybe just a take-out back to our dorm might do for a date..?"

"Jung Hoseok.." She trails off, "Are you-asking me out on a date?"

"Is that not what i just said..?"

"H-hold on,you said—you said Namjoon and i—"

"I know,i know," He sighs, "I know how you two feels for each other but please,consider one for m-"

"Hold on i said," She raise a hand up, "You," She pointed at his chest with her index finger,

"Thought that,me and Namjoon likes each other!?"

Now it is his turn to grow confuse,the wrinkles between his eyebrows are now visible, "Are you not...?"

"Oh god.." She bursted out laughing.Hoseok watching her as if she had just grew another two heads on her neck.

"Jung Hoseok, Jung Hoseok..tsk tsk.." She sang nonchalantly, "Namjoon is my cousin! Didn't the others tell you that?"

Oh to hell with it...

His cheeks easily dominated by heat,trying to hide his redness, "N-no..but Suga and Jin hyung said—"

Of course you idiot,they lied to you!

He mentally slaps a palm over his face but then again why not do it physically,and so he did.

"..Please ignore the things i said today."

Her laughter grew louder, "Of course i can't do that,Hoseok-ah." She take a step closer,

"Are you shy now,hmm?"

"Stop looking at me." He mumbles behind his hands covering his face when she tries to peer into it.

"Aww you are! So my answer to that.."

She stand tips on her toes, placing a quick chaste peck of kiss on one of his cheek,catching him off guard. Almost in an instant his hands flails open; now she can clearly sees him blushing rather madly down at her.

"Wh-what was—“

"Yes,i would love to go on a date with you."

He unconsciously place a hand over his cheek where he just felt her soft lips smacked just for a second on his skin and (Y/n) couldn't help but to giggle while watching at his very dumbstruck movements.

"..C-could you...perhaps do that again?" He murmurs.

She lets out a small giggles,feeling butterflies inside her belly.

"As much as you want,honey pie."

-Bonus-

"Look at him,all fidgety and stuffs. Have you actually seen a baby on a date?"

"Jin hyung,he's 25."

"I don't care,he is still the maknae!"

The six members stuck their heads out on one corner of a walls,spying on the day where the two couple is on their first date.

"See,i told you so he would believe in the lies we made." Yoongi uttered.

"Where is she? It's been half an hour!" Jimin hissed,looking around.

"Silly,it's Hoseok who arrives way too early!" Yoongi groans, still don't get it why he is here.

"He bought two coffees,i bet one's for her."

"Though she likes mocha better." Namjoon muttered.

"Shut up cousin-complex."

"I do not!"

"Oh oh! She's here,she's here!"

"Woah-she actually wears a dress!" Jungkook beams when they watch the (h/c) haired girl enters the café,surprising the nervous male inside who keeps on biting his lips,smiling idiotically with or yet with her in sight.

"Are they leaving? Where are they going next?" Taehyung blinks.

"Jin hyung,move! I can't see with your shoulders!"

"Holy shit!" Jimin curses loud enough than their whisperings causing the others to shush him immediately.

"Look! He is holding her hand!"

"Shit,he really is!"

Just then they saw the male stops in a halt,running back inside to the café before they can get too far from it,seeming to forget something or left behind an item leaving the (h/c) haired girl alone. They watch her took out her phone,sending a quick message as seen she is typing on the screen.

PING

Their face fell and some paled when almost simultaneously their phone rung a short notification ringtone inside their bags and pockets. Shakily,they take out each of their devices and on the screen flashes a sentence.

When their eyes looks up in fear they already saw her staring at them with a smug smirk.Scrambling to get away fast and (Y/n) only shrugs her shoulders,looping an arm around Hoseok’s as soon as he came back again.

"Go home or i'll release all your predebut selcas."

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