#Like i knew vaguely what happens

[bumblyburg]

just finished gomens & wasnt really feeling it (i mostly half-watched it while painting) but “i forgive you” is insane. devastating even

#both because. jesus christ. & also it just came out of left field #Like i knew vaguely what happens #but i didnt expect to actually feel much lol bc the conflicts were falling pretty flat for me #I still think its a mid tier show at best but it got me there for sure

[inkskinned]

so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.

first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.

it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.

and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.

you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.

and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.

your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.

in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.

in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.

so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.

you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.

once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.

and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"

you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?

hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!

you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.

we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?

#where's the word woman in this u might wonder if u suck #good news i am nonbinary and have a uterus so that is something that can happen #im also gender fluid tho which means im immune to certain psychic damage bc if u call me a woman i'll be like <3 okay <3 #writeblr #the tightrope of ''ppl need access to this'' #and like also #''what the fuck is going on over there'' is like. so difficult as an activist #i was <3 punctured <3 during mine #and almost bled out on the table :) they didn't have anyone standing by bc it's ''just a little insertion'' #so i started crashing and i vaguely remember apologizing for the fuss as i heard my heart rate monitor start going <3 tachycardic <3 #she wasn't even a bad doctor tbh #ps btw the reason i even HAD a heart monitor is that i have a genuine heart condition and they knew GOING IN that there was a chance #i'd crash on the table #like my heart just likes to do fun little tricks and <3 stop working <3 (i do not want to discuss the specifics ty i am okay im ontop of it #and they were like 'oh u will be fine' and then she did do a puncture thru my uterus . pop! #and im sitting there dizzy and feeling my heartrate start to drop bc it feels almost. beautiful. like. the whole ground just #woosh! out from under you. and shit is like grey's anatomy. i'm looking up at her grey eyes #she's old she wears this nice shawl she's like got Cool Lesbian vibes and people are sprinting into the room #from other parts of the clinic unrelated to me. while the monitor is like a little aria singing #and shes like hey youre okay stay awake stay with me something went wrong we have to keep trying #and i remember thinking - i was trying to think of nice things. i have so many beautiful places that now overlap #with this terrible memory #i became dimly aware that there was too much on her wrists and hands. like #that was too many liters #and then when they had finished all this. i packed up and drove myself home #i have had (bad thing) happen to me. and the same feeling happened after #that numb almost lamblike bleating. you cry without noise. like. ur body is so shocked and ur mind so empty #you just stare at the road and everything everything is happening behind glass and static and you are standing so far away from it #while you hold ur hands at 10 and 2. and something in ur brain is SCREAMING at you - IT WAS BAD AND IT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED #and ur just watching the alarms in your body going off and youre thinking. a little pinch! ha. i think i just lost something important.

[sinquisition]

I love how Howe is like. Just some guy who works for Loghain if you play most routes.

Like if you're a Cousland, absolutely fuck that guy he killed your family, etc etc. But if you're an Amell or a Surana in particular (who are more isolated from regular Fereldan politics in my brain, but I suppose that depends on how you imagine the Circle and how interested in politics your character is) you might have zero idea about who this tool is other than "he's the acting arl of Denerim and he works for the dude who's tried to kill us a few times". Which admittedly is a perfectly valid reason to dislike him, and that is added to once you see the torture stuff while rescuing Anora, but like. At this point you've fought so many people and dealt with so many nobles and you've got the landsmeet looming over your head quite imminently, not to mention the Archdemon. So it's very plausible that your non-Cousland Warden can just kinda forget about him in all but the vaguest sense.

And then Nathaniel breaks into your new castle (his old castle so it stings more for him) to kill you but you barely remember killing his dad in the first place so you're just like oh. Sorry bout that. Wanna join my blood club?

#dragon age #dragon age origins #rendon howe #nathaniel howe #this is just how i imagine it went for my amell in particular ajdkfl #rodaine vaguely knew who rendon howe was bc he was obsessed with maric as a kid and then ofc he heard the news during the blight #but like hed never met the man and there were more pressing issues for him until he did actually meet him #and then he killed him and it was kind of anticlimactic #and IMMEDIATELY AFTER killing howe he got locked up in fort drakon #so i feel like a lot of what happened while saving anora got overwritten by the sheer panic of being imprisoned *again* #so by the time he gets to vigils keep hes like oh. uh. sorry? i genuinely barely remember or care about rendon tbh? #but nathaniel... youd make a damn good warden 👀

[typecastwritesssss]

okay but like the wind waker man. that intro. so many questions. we all know ocarina is dark but man wind waker just straight up said "and then they all drowned and the gods never came to help" hello??? how many years. how many decades. how much time did the adult hero of time buy for them? which child of zelda’s was daphnes? her son? grandchild? great-grandchild? when he stared at the rising waters and realized nothing was going to save them, his kingdom, did he think it was retribution for all the war? 

has it really been all that long? yes and also no. the lines are so blurred. the zora are birds and the kokiri are koroks and they had time to Get That Way but everywhere you look the old Hyrule, the Hero of Time himself, they're both all over the place. the deku tree is implied to be the sprout from the adult timeline but honestly who knows. the golden goddesses are statues on islands somewhere and there was a tower built to test who came after but…who and how and why? what was the tower of the gods even for? how did they know they’d need it? at what point did they accept the hero of time was never coming back so they’d probably need to train a new one? 

and oh my god, that outset island tradition. “dress your kids in green and give ‘em a sword and pray to the gods they’ll have the courage to cast down evil.” link rolls his eyes at it but he wears them to appease grandma. the revered clothes of the hero have had time to pass into “stupid traditional getup” territory. how many “failed Links” were there before Aryll’s brother? what evil could those children have possibly stricken down? the monsters in the woods?

“what became of that kingdom? none remain who know” like goddamn. say what you want about the hero’s shade in twilight princess. but at least the traumatized ghost got to meet one of his descendants and pass on his songs and his knowledge, even if that knowledge was only of war and death and combat. in the wind waker he’s a statue. an element of a legend mentioned once or twice by the last remaining holdouts of the past—holdouts who so badly want him to return, view him as the solution over all else, that they never pause to consider any other option. there are stained glass windows of the seven sages in the master sword’s chamber that are never mentioned. there is so much that is never mentioned.

nobody knows what the fuck anybody is talking about. link doesn’t know old hylian. tetra is running around the high seas (as a pirate. she and her retainers are now pirates. how did things get that way) with a piece of the damn triforce around her neck and she doesn’t know who ‘princess zelda’ even is. the juxtaposition between ganondorf, older and tired and wiser but still hell-bent on ruling hyrule even if it is a dead land full of nothing and no one, and tetra, a zelda that knows nothing, asking why he’s laughing and calling him insane. because hyrule’s dead. she has no frame of reference for his longing, or what he found so great about this sunken kingdom.

and this is framed as a good thing. the king of red lions thinks it’s better not to let either of the kids in on the loop until tetra nearly dies for lack of knowledge. daphnes nolhansen hyrule brought “the hero” back just to end ganon, and hyrule with him. was the plan always to let the sea fall in on him? maybe. i don’t know. but he rejects zelda’s plea with him to take him with them to the land that will be the new hyrule, because “it will not be hyrule. it will be your land” and that still gets me. he thinks the best thing to do with his kingdom, Hyrule, the kingdom of a whole hell of a lot of irl people’s childhoods, is for it to wash away. he wants the kids to live for the future and they do and they will and they name it hyrule anyway in his honor but he never gets to see it.

anyways i’m still mad everybody got butthurt over “trains in a zelda game” like come on now

#apparently i'm wind waker posting now #zelda thoughts #vaguely inspired by that tp post i saw where it was like “something terrible happened here” #wind waker is the most cheerful post-apocalypse i’ve ever seen #genuinely #because *nobody knows* what happened #a bit meta because wind waker was technically one of my first zelda games and i knew nothing about anything i just knew link was the hero #and then i l e a r n e d #i just really want daphnes and tp zelda to compare notes about their depression #the legend of zelda #lozww #wind waker #the wind waker #tloz #loz #spirit tracks #the legend of zelda the wind waker #triumph forks

[nonoqy]

sometimes i ask myself is this how it felt to be on swiftietwt in 2016 and every time my answer is Probably yes. and it calms me down tremendously like the internet hated taylor so fucking bad and now she's the world's sweetheart DREAM IS SO NEXT

#i tweeted this on my priv but yeah like. #i was deep in armytwt in 2016-2017 so i didnt really keep up with taylor back then i just vaguely knew what was happening #and it seemed so insane to me im sure there are people who are watching what the internet is doing to dream rn and thinking the same thing #its so over right now but we will be SO back i_believe

[queencaramilflinda]

Everyone during neverafter 15: oh my god these social interactions are going horribly they’re all doing so bad!

Me, neurodivergent and cannot read social cues: idk mostly these seem fine

#like… Pinocchio overshared for sure #but I didn’t think the rest of them were too bad? like they rolled poorly yes but the actual conversations went fine? I thought? #i at least didn’t think they were as bad as everyone else seems to think #like… with ylfa. when you are a young girl and you meet an older woman who is Like You and successful you are drawn to that #her questions didn’t seem invalid if a bit personal #like ‘how did this happen to u? how do u find the answers and the strength to be successful when your like this the way we are now?’ #that was fair to ask! there was a moment before that where they even clocked eachother as beasts! and then ylfa asked about Pib #which seemed fine to me. like she was genuinely asking advice and she got shutdown with like a one word answer #I feel like la bête did worse in that interaction than ylfa did #none of the stuff with gerard was really his fault within that interaction. Brennan surprised Murph with the read the cards outloud thing #he handled it the best he could under the circumstances #Pib did great. Pinocchio overshared but his intentions and actual words were sweet! traumabonding! #Rosamund did great! she was kind and she said what she wanted like yeah! not too bad! #i don’t think Ally intended to actually put dirt in the cookies Brennan kind of pushed that and I don’t think a lot of what he said was bad #I think ally could’ve handled it better in the sense that they could’ve just told the truth and been vague abt the questions being abt #the book but the stuff about being so overly nice and a bit unnerving seemed like an accurate and not very offensive way of putting it #even before they knew about the nihilistic princess cabal stuff they thought rapunzel was creepy #cienna talks #neverafter

[gh-0-stcup]

My thing is that I just do not trust a single person who was involved in the show. It just seems like a lot of PR to fix their image and foster sympathy/goodwill/interest.

#i haven't seen compelling evidence that anybody actually tried to fight for canon (and reciprocated) destiel #just admissions that they played into the subtext #(which we already knew - that's why spn's been considered a prime example of queerbaiting since like 2011) #and non-committal statements about the pairing being compelling #edlund seemed to specifically say he wasn't censored/forced to rework due to the gay #yeah misha said the cw's homophobic and suggested the network was the barrier #but at least half of what comes out of misha's mouth is bullshit #like he also said they tried to pay him to stay bisexual #and as a result there's now a bunch of support being tossed out to the writers and some fans are talking about them like they're heroes #who valliantly fought against a homophobic network and were totally going to make dean and cas a couple #but were foiled by said network which is why the show ended with the gays being buried yet again #you see in the secret unreleased version... #and if we just let jensen make another season he won't let us down because of xyz vague statements #nevermind that he made a new show where cas was also never mentioned - cw censorship #nevermind the straightwashed version of soldier boy he's playing - that's kripke's fault #nevermind the statements he's made in the past about destiel and dean's sexuality - he's changed his mind #you can tell because he's said it's okay for fans to have their own interpretations about the series #idk maybe i'm too cynical and i'm being unfair #there's just too much vagueness from pretty much everybody for me to put faith in their intentions #especially if they are seriously considering attempting to revive the series - this sort of thing is great for drumming up interest #the writers being censored by homophobic execs is a familiar narrative ofc - but i don't see anything solid to suggest this is what happened #and it's not like there weren't queer relationships on tv when spn was airing - the show ended in 2020 #it isn't even like there weren't queer relationships shown on the cw during spn's run - there were more than a few #i just have so many questions #spn #destiel

[thedrotter]

sweet sweet re:kinder community... I would like to ask y'all how you came upon the game and your experiences with it because i wanna know. im genuinely so curious to hear about other people's experiences and little opinions about this game because of how wild the game is (/pos) I'd love to hear it. do ramble to me about it

#re:kinder #not art #so in my case i once saw someone talk about it in a video and some scenes with the very vague context really struck with me #i was like wow...that is so sad... i wonder what goes on #but the thing is i watch videos talking about games like that ALLL THE TIME while im multi-tasking so i FORGOT FOR A YEAR?!?!? #until one day i was sick in pain on my bed could not move. and then it came to me. yes. “RE:KINDER. I SHOULD PLAY IT.” LIKE OUT OF NOWHERE #i will never understand how i dying of pain remembered a game i saw once BY NAME AT LEAST A YEAR LATER when jve heard of so many games #and you wanna know why it stuck with me. i saw in the video an image of the “as if id be reborn as a princess” line #i did not know the context but it was devastating #AND WHEN I PLAYED THE GAME when that scene game i was shocked to silence😭😭 BECAUSE I BASICALLY WENT COMPLETELY BLIND?? #I DID NOT KNOW THE LITTLE KID WOULD BE THE ANTAGONIST???? AND THAT HE WOULD HAVE SUCH A SAD STORY?? #like. i saw the sad coming i knew it was bound to happen yet i could have never been prepared for how hard it would hit me #I HAD TONS OF FUN but at first when i finished it i was so confused and so lost i was like welll.....what a game... TOO STUNNED FOR WORDS #then i thoughr of it for 20 minutes and bawled my eyes out and realized it was art #so when i got to my second playthrough i CRIED LIKE CRAZYYY😭😭 I WAS BLOWN AWAY IT REALLY HITS YOU #personally it admittedly hit close to home and while it made me bawl my eyes out it was also very comforting i felt very understood #AND IT WAS CRAZY FUN TOO i was not bored once the first time i played through it i was sleepy but i was so excited to keep playing😭😭 #its funnt becayse i was initially apprehensive about playing cuz im sensitive to stories where sad things happen to kids #but i played it regardless because i was like “but what if its one of those scary media that hit close to home and i enjoy” #AND I WAS RIGHT. BUT NOT ENTIRELY BECAUSE I DID NOT THINK IT WOULD HIT AS INTENSELY AS IT DID😭😭 IT WAS MYCH MORE THAN EXPEVTED #many ways in which it impacted me but if i started listing them i would not shut up . so for now it is enough #IN SUMMARY WOW.. WHAY A GOOD GAME!! PLAY RE:KINDER!!! #i rambled more than i intended to i do apologize

[every-eye-evermore]

Light reading before bed did not work

#I’ll just do a chapter #ITS BEEN A FUCKING CHAPTER GIRL #chapter 4 of network effect murderbot diaries is the worst experience I’ve ever had and I am thrilled #girl……. #they didn’t have to………. #the entire time I was just what the fuck what the fuck #I knew something like this would probably happen. and I was delighted by the possiblity. I am no longer delighted #vague because I have friends following me reading this series but aren’t as far ahead #mine #not music

[parksanddownton603]

Seriously they better do a season 3 of Good Omens because that was just brutal.

#I only just got to finish it but like Jesus Christ #I knew vaguely what was going to happen but like a knife in the heart right there #good omens #good omens 2

[crazyw3irdo]

saw jaws for the first time today and i can’t believe despite knowing so much about it through cultural osmosis i had no clue matt hooper existed and i love that funky little guy

#he’s just autistic about sharks and i love him for it. i forgive him for his crimes (being rich) #also his line about ‘having enough of these working class heroes’ or whatever. i was ready to fight him for that one #i knew about concerned police officer and weird old vaguely threatening fisherman but no one ever mentioned the silly little guy who just. #i knew when every jumpscare happened but i didn’t know one of the three main characters existed #he just loves sharks man. man was so funny. ‘hey i was told to tell you guys that you shouldnt all get in that boat’ ‘we’ll do it anyway’ #‘okay! they’re going to die :)’ #crazwaz posted #id seen the clip of matt discovering the body and the clip of them paddling to shore at the end!!! #but i’d never seen any clip of quint so i figured the one at the end was him and the body discoverer was a random character #he was wearing a wetsuit in the body scene and is seen from far away in behind in the final one so i have the right to not have realized ok #also weirdly enough my submechanophobia was not really triggered at all? which is wild. like one or two times it happened but like. that was #so weird to just. know that normally i’m scared of that kind of thing but it just. didn’t happen? like i’m scared of the jaws animatronic on #the universal ride! it scared me in pics and it scared me when i saw it irl! but bruce? nah she was just fine #that’s another thing i always think of bruce as she/her like. them all using he/him for the shark confused me #my brother mentioned she’s a girl in jaws 3d + in the wild girl sharks are bigger than boys so that’s probably what caused it #but i still think of godzilla as she/her and that one has like no evidence so maybe my brain just does that to them or smth

[capaldiera]

i think it would be great fun if clara showed up again and made thasmin worse

#making thirteen worse is a fun idea in itself but making thasmin worse sounds better #partly bc thasmin needs to be more insane (tho that could happen on theirown if the show wasnt so busy with 10 otherrelationships and plots) #but mostly bc i want to see what would happen if you add clara to the mix. #yaz would not understand what was coming bc thirteen doesnt talk about anything ever #if she knew what clara was like ahead of time she would probably be wary and not really like the idea of her but she would not know. #i think it would be so interesting to see clara and yaz together bc of their very different relationships to their own attraction to women? #the trio would be so fucked up as well bc clara knows sooo muchaboit the doctor (possibly incuding vague memories sometimes from those other #claras?) whereas yaz kind of knows fuckall. idk what would happen with that or if it would improve things or make them worse. #but it would be interesting #me.txt

[aparticularbandit]

also, yes, i still like this group of kiddos better than the group in the first game. maybe because they mostly treat each other like friends and are actively trying to treat each other like friends (nagito...is a different story, but he's doing his best in his own way) - it's not just makoto running around like we're all friends while everyone else is super suspicious of each other - the fragments are actually friends trying to make each other feel better while they deal with everything - and like. i like them so much better for that.

which is probably supposed to play into the twist re: fragments of despair because then it hurts more when you know that these people were basically junko's peeps, which should be effective! but i already know they're that, and i'm still attached to them.

honestly, other than the teru teru stuff and the compromising mikan stuff in the first case and monokuma consistently and constantly beating up on monomi for shits and giggles. i overall like these parts of the game better.

....

i don't like the mechanics better (i hate the class trials now, and i hate that they're so much longer, and i hate the changes they made to the mechanics, and i'm so glad i finished nagito's ftes because his ability might actually help me in the trials, and i don't like how the monomono machine stuff has been changed ish but it's still usually better to throw one coin in at a time instead of putting a bunch of coins in all at once. mostly).

but i like the characters better, which gets me more invested in the story.

#musings #bandit liveblogs #bandit liveblogs danganronpa #i don't know if that is related to how i'm experiencing this game vs. how i experienced the first game #re: i saw the anime of the first game and then played it #so went in with a bunch of spoilers and already basically knew what happened #so already had opinions on the characters /ish/ #as opposed to this game where i only vaguely remember some of the spoilers but hadn't really connected to the characters or not before #playing it through #i guess the third game will test that maybe? #but like #that's my thoughts i guess #/i wasn't attached to anyone in the first game the way i'm currently attached to mikan/ #or even mahiru! #like i'm not sure i actually /liked/ most of the characters! #(aoi was cute and i liked her. and probably sakura i liked. and kyoko had a super cool aesthetic and i kind of liked her. #but not on the same /scale/ as these characters? #aoi is close to mahiru but like. #you know?) #and while i don't like hiyoko or teru teru - teru teru died really quick and like #i loathed byakuya the ENTIRE last game and didn't like toko much (and jack was annoying) and like. #idk how to word it

[henreyettah]

Life is so crazy because I’ll be over in my own corner of existence working on getting my teaching degree and then I’ll look over at my brother and he’s just like. becoming a household name in the sonic fandom I guess??

#like what?. #first of all he’s supposed to be like 3 years old #second how did I not notice this happening #like I’ve been vaguely aware but I checked his blog today and hes so good?? #and his posts make it fairly big???? #(yes brother I knew you were good at drawing but it’s different seeing other people express it. I assume I’m biased you see) #he’s so crazy. best boy #goog tag

[ajdrawshq]

WHAT. THE FUCK J7ST HAPPENED. WHAT IS HAPPENING .?

#PERSONA 5 ENDGAME IS UH. NOT QUITE WHAT I EXPECTED ILL TELL U THAT MUCH #this plotline is............. hilariously and horrifyingly familiar #ive seen like. literally none of this. i knew vaguely that the twins were one but the rest of this ?????????????????. #p5 #....................... lots of things just happened #wasnt expecting this direction but they made joker look cool as fuck for it tho #WAIT BITTERSWEET ENDING CANCELLED I JUST HEARD JUNPEI ZEROESCAPES VOICE ????? HEY BUDDY WHATS UP #oh shit its christmas when they do this . i wasnt even looking at the date #what is akira so funny for. love this guy #him n Futaba teaming up on Sojiro is so good i love this family .......... #oh shit we skipped some days now. somethin bigs coming aint it #aww mishima :') #holy shit we skipped a LOT of days now #ok valentines day just shoots right at u huh. hi ryuji #ty for the cheap chocolate king 👍 #woahhh even more days going by. fuck that whole month i guess goddamn #YUSUKE GAVE ME HIS PAINTING?? #bro........... :') #'keep that smile of yours. i'll capture it in my artwork someday' bro .............................. 0(-( #god these kids. yall are just gonna drive him out there huh #ohmuyvdkdjbsjxhs couldnt leave without one last solid fuck u to the cops. sobbing i love them #ouhgh. #akira u silly that is Not how u sit safely in a moving vehicle. #so um. how do i do the third semester or whatever that is ? #new game + time i guess!!!!! #lmao ok yea the requirements are exactly what i thought theyd be . rip i kinda forgot maruki existed half the time so he was like rank 3 #shouldnt be too hard to get all that now that i dont need to worry abt social stats. OH AND I GET TO TALK BACK BC OF THAT TOO #oh this rules i love when ng+ keeps almost literally everything

[bunnyb34r]

Really wish this brain fog would pass bc I have a shitload of posts in my drafts i saved bc i wanted to read them but my brain said no. And it's tax season so I'm getting important papers in the mail and I cant fucking read them. Well I can read them but it's just words. Nothing is connecting up there. Thank god mom is here to help read that shit and translate but fuck do I hate this shit

Why can't my brain fucking WORK

#it feels like when i kept getting concussions in 9th grade (had 4) and i couldnt fucking focus and my reaction time dropped significantly #like we were doing a basic reaction time experiment in science and i said oh lets not use mine when we submit it (group of 3 pick best #result) and my friends were like pfft whatever go. and i did and they got real quiet and were like oh... #bc they didnt realize i was concussed concussed like bitch my ability to vaguely see in the dark is GONE i cannot see my rt is SLOWED #my brain cannot WORK RIGHT #it's recovered since then (yay neuroplasticity) but i still have bad brain fog from fibro and it's like god at least when I was concussed i #could easily be like listen i had 4 concussions i need help. no problem. but with brain fog it feels like give me a min im stupid today #i hate it!! i hate feeling broken i hate feeling like my brain is half working! it sucks!! #i got insurance shit the other day and had to ask my mom to make sure it was just a basic 'yeah youre covered heres more access' and not #something i needed to act on and it was so frustrating #marquilla #and whats worse is sometimes ill be talking or typing and think im making sense and then ill look back at it later or someone will ask me ab #it and its like oh... im sorry my brain is not working atm and i cannot get out what im trying to and what is getting out is jumbled #the absolute worst is when it hits when im driving and it's like hey you're 2 hours away from home snd now LOST get home bitch :) #luckily it only happened when i was 40 min from home and in a familiar enough area but my brain couldnt find the right 'path' #sucked but i actually knew i was actually on the right path when i saw this house with a lesbian flag sgsgdgdgdgdgdgd like oh! here!!