#LIKE i have a placement test to take

[sscrambledmeggss]

me when i repeatedly cry about being a cringefail girl

#LIKE i have a placement test to take #and like it’s literally community college like they can’t kick me out #but i was homeschooled all my life and i immediately panic and forget everything when put into a stressful situation LMAO #like if i’m put into a unfamiliar setting i notice how loud it is and how weird it smells #etc etc and i get so overwhelmed like a loser 😫 #and like i also have an ego so i don’t want to get a bad placement #so i keep giving myself anxiety attacks lol which obviously does not help #anyways the test is in like 3 days so i will either comeback pleasantly surprised or defeated #god gives his toughest battles to his silliest clowns or something idk #meg’s incoherent thoughts #tw vent

[ihaventsleptinweekz]

Sometimes I think I'm a normal person then the 11 pm thought kicks in and suddenly I'm insane

#Going to mildly and vaugly vent in the tags to buckle up ^_^ #Will not clarify on any of this because it's more fun not to. Hope that helps #Anyway I'm kind of just. Weirded out by myself rn. Like I'm fine but I'm side-eyeing myself a little bit #And recently I've been believing thay I think really I was more immature a year ago #and while I do think back at her (year ago me) and kinda laugh at her for being overdramatic I feel kinda bad about it because yknow I was #But then I got kind of weirdly slowed down? In my being less freaked out process #Mostly because of Hellenite everyone say thank you hellenite (sarcastic love those fics so much) #But reading the fic kind of reminded me of the emotions that were going on at that time #And while I don't really miss or regret what happened too much anymore I think the general emotions of it started popping up again #Like idk how to say this but I'm over IT as a whole- but the emotions are still kinda left over? #Man really do NOT know how to put this #Cause it's kinda old news and frankly I am wildly happy with where I am right now #And I'm kind of thankful?? But also just a little :I about the whole thing. Which is making me inwardly side-eyeish #And I do think that I probably wouldn't change much if I could- and honestly I'm a little more embarrassed than anything else #Sorry for the weird long rambling tags just didn't want to call either of the like- maybe 3 friends I'd consider bringing this up with #I probably should check in with them though #Ough and I have work to do tmrw #Ew ew ew ew #Feel like this week has gone too damn fast and also not fast enough lmao #I'm also kinda nervous because I might have to take the ASL placement test soon to see if I qualify for skipping a couple ASL classes #Which would be nice cause I would LOVE to graduate quicker #And with all the AP classes I took in high-school it'd be nice to knock a bit of time off my college thing #Although admittedly I DID get that scholarship so it couldn't hurt??? #It might actually give me more time to get EIPA certified and check out some internships?? #Which would make getting jobs out of college WAY easier #Although maybe it'd be easier to get NIC certified if I retook a couple classes instead of trying to skip them??? God maybe I'd be behind #Ofc that wouldn't be a thing until after college #I'll probably have to save up money soon to start thinking about taking the test since it's so damn hard and so damn expensive #At least from what other interpreters have told me #Which is good!!! The it being hard thing anyways. Makes sure Deaf people get GOOD interpreters thst they deserve!!

[askdoeleaf]

I’m a bit behind on asks rn shcool is just a lot rn and I didn’t have time on the weekend to catch up so it might take a bit longer then usal! Im Not ingoring anyone I just don’t wanna burn myself out!!! I will get to them by the end of the week.

#mommyclan #ooc #I mean like #by Sundayish #100% just wanna make sure people know im not annoyed by them I just have to get some shcool shit in by the end of the grading period or #bad boy grades and that’s kinda draining #I don’t wanna turn this into a shcool vent but you know #I also had to do adult things™️ like paperwork and getting ready to vote for the first time so yea #it’s not like hard but it did take a lot of effort becuz mailing things is dumb #plus I’ve got some longer content coming WAY down the line do I planned that out. #okay ima just rant about shcool #none of this is BAD inherently just time consuming #I am SLEEPY #I had a placement test today too #it was in math and I have a math related learning disability #also I didn’t actually end up sleeping last night. #also also I had to talk to my shcool counselor #which wasn’t BAD it was just a lot of information at once and made me more tired and stressed #about collage #my dumbass was like 10 mintues late to shcool because I fucking missed the BUS #also I found out my gpa is like 2.5 so I’m fucking doomed #this was all today btw #okay at this point this has just turned into me being like:man why am I so tired #and then me being like: oh yeah because today sucked #turns out cause and effect exists #okay sorry I just needed to get that out of my system #on a brighter note I made a new oc #might see a bit of her on my main idk their for an rp

[that-was-anticlimactic]

edtpa makes me want to tear my hair out and drop out of school

#ya girl isn't smart enough for this ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #normally i could do this stuff but in this context like trying to hype myself up and be like 'look at all the things i did right' when i'm #just a practicum student and it feels like nothing i did Was right because it's not because i'M A PRACTICUM STUDENT is like pulling teeth #and i'm so worried that they'll think i'm incompetent and fail me but i don't want to do well i just want to pass and i feel so stupid when #look at the example provided because it's all worded SO WELL and ik i need to stop looking at it but some of the questions are worded in #ways that confuse me because i swear this is something wrong with my brain and they're like fancy test questions meant to sound more #challenging than they are and i just want to bang my head against the wall and curl in a ball and cry but i don't wanna do that but i do and #ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #sorry i'm stressed lol #this determined whether or not i graduate and costs three hundred dollars to submit and i still don't even have my student teaching #placement yet and i start in almost a little over a month and idk idk idk #sorry for the breakdown do y'all still think i'm hot #imma go take a break and watch dance moms or something and dip goldfish in salsa #s/o to my boss for being very nice <3

[goldensunset]

i have to do something today other than play legends arceus for 12 hours straight again

#it’s the middle of the semester i have work to do #tests to study for projects to work on #advisor meetings to schedule and attend… #so that i can sign up for courses next semester… #but then i want to switch my major but that’s such an ordeal idk how tough the process will be #and i can only hope i’ll actually like the major i switch into (communication) #they always say it’s ok to go to college even if you don’t know what you wanna do yet and you have plenty of time #but i’m starting to think that’s not smart and i should really get on that ASAP #but like if it takes a while to process the major switch then #see advisor meetings start tomorrow (you literally have to attend one to be able to register for courses next semester) #but switching my major means switching my advisor #so is it a bad idea to try switching advisors when we’re supposed to be meeting with them #basically will i have a wide enough window for all this #pain and suffering #once again this is just me writing out my problems and responsibilities in words so i feel more capable of handling them #peach rambles #and this isn’t even covering the whole language requirement thing and i have to take a language placement test #they literally won’t let me just sign up for the easier class they are forcing me to take a test before i can sign up for anything #but the test is a timed speaking test where i have to listen to something and respond like it’s a real conversation and record myself and #yeah this sucks i don’t wanna do it idk how hard it’ll be…

[werebutch]

Eating giant salad

#btw guys I did my first placement test and I did really bad but not as bad as I thought I would.. I will have to take 101 and 86 or #something like that. 80 something #for math

[ilikeshitmmm]

I have for almost every weekend the past month and a half gotten sick and I'm really fucking done with it, I have no clue why this keeps happening but I would rather just about anything else to having to spend all day (or a couple days) in bed watching tiktok because everything hurts or it hurts to get up and I can't sleep

#like this is a new development #and while getting to miss school is nice #i really can't afford to be sick tomorrow because i have to do my CCP placement tests #and there will no other day where my mom will be able to take me #and it only happens between 9am and 2pm #so i have no choice but to go tomorrow since my mom already scheduled the time off for a doctor's appointment she has #also while I'm passing all my classes at the moment missing so much school like i am is taking a toll #and i have to be careful because I don't want truancy #i just want to go more than a week and a half without getting sick again #i have been sick more this school year than i have been in over 5 years #actually before transferring to ny current school i hadn't been sick at all for 4/5 years #the closes i got to beung sick was a light fever before goong to bed that was gone when i woke up #and before that i got sick at most 2 to 4 times a year since i had a good immune system #apparently i lost my strong immune system sometime between 6th and 9th grade

[readingloveswounds]

absolute wailing and gnashing of teeth at my school's academic progress report

#how can you POSSIBLY say im 8 credits under when i was REFUSED a consortium class enrollment due to NOT HAVING ANY CREDITS LEFT #also when do i get my MPhil #sophies ramblings #i should email the dept assistant now instead of in a year or two abt that tho #also i can't believe what they did to the language proficiency exam that's so stupid lmao #(now you take the placement or exemption test that the undergrads do instead of taking an actual test which i did #it's definitely easier to do but also like??? hello??? #definitely glad i got the translation exam instead

[dirkxcaliborn]

bro I hate geometry. I hate memorizing formulas. I hate calculating the dimensions of circles. Graphed lines are on thin fucking ice. The moment it stops feeling like logic puzzles and starts taking on a complex physical world relevance I can't stand that shit.

#wasting #also why I don't like physics #I don't want to calculate the size or movement of an object #I only like math as it applies to abstract concepts #mainly bc the abstract concepts are generally more about understanding the process #while more physical based math revolves around complex processes that get simplified into a standard formula #at that point it's on par with memorizing names and dates #none of them mean anything or connect to existing concepts in a meaningful way #but without wasting brain space on committing the exact name/formula to memory then you're shit out of luck for getting an answer #at this point Id rather learn the long way around #like the difference between just memorizing 9x9=81 and knowing that you can add 9 to itself 9 times to get the answer #the second one feels a lot more useful and takes up less memory because it's a concept that applies to the multiplication of all numbers #so instead of memorizing every multiplication answer #you can fall back on simply adding up all the numbers #the latest shorthand I've picked up for multiplying large numbers is to add up smaller/easier multiplications of it #so like.... 9x17? well that's (9x10)+(9x5)+(9x2) aka 90+45+18 #I just have to be careful bc I have a tendency to move too quickly through basic math and make mistakes lmao #coyo speaks #anyway I'm just whining bc I'm trying to pass a placement test so I don't waste time and money taking below college level math classes #or rather I should say waste MORE time and money doing that #I don't think the concepts are difficult... there's just a lot of stuff I didn't bother to remember #or straight up didn't bother learning hdbdbskshs #but I kinda screwed myself over here #there's no reason I should have gone from taking calculus in high school to fucking around with non-college level classes in college #I don't generally regret my time on stuff bc I'm fine going at my own place #but this really was a waste #it wasn't because I wasn't ready for it. I just didn't take it seriously and fix the issue earlier #so now there's no recorded proof that I'm capable of higher level math and I have to take all this time and money #just to get a stupid check mark for my degree

[diveinyouastro]

🌡~My take on scorpio placements ~

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☆ scorpio in the 7th house- usually get cheated on by their partners. Go through Toxic/ narcissistic partners at some point in their lives. 3rd party situations. Partners lying and deceiving you.

☆ scorpio mars- usually center of attention (attention grabber not seeker). Females with this placement tend to attract jealously from their so called friends or just other people in general. Men tends to sexualize them alot, Might have spread rumors about them at some point.

Men with this placement, if underdeveloped, tends to be toxic af. The need to control everyone and everything around them is just awful. Fuck around a lot. Sleeping with different different people.

If developed, good achievers. Very strategic mindset. Usually get what they want in life. Bulletproof mindset. Very good at talking to people but still maintaining boundaries. Loyal.

☆scorpio suns- idk why and how, but when people get to know that someone is a scorpio, they get weirdly attracted to them??? Like staring at them, wanting to know them. Intimidated by them.

☆scorpio sun/moons- have a good sense of humour. They can make anyone laugh. And with this, they tend to attract alot of people who wants to be in a relationship with them.

☆ scorpio venus- won't say a loyal lover HOWEVER when they love love, they are loyal 100%. Underdeveloped can lie about being in love.

☆retrograde scorpio venus- feels unlovable. Extreme trust issues. Highly sensitive. Very very very high on trust. You know how they say scorpios take tests? With this placement? Tests x 100. Don't give 2nd chances. It's very very difficult for them to be vulnerable. People have rejected them alot. Might have been body shamed or criticised for looks. They feel like they don't deserve to be loved.

☆scorpio stellium in the natal chart- highly intuitive. Usually sees things beforehand. POWER. THE DARKNESS. THE EYES!!! Very beautiful people inside out. However they don't trust easily but if they do, for the love of lord, don't break it cuz you'll be coming back again and again to win them over.

☆scorpio moon- been through some serious shit. Been through hell and back with themselves. They understand people very well. However, they don't get the same understanding in return. They can see right through you so don't f with them. Hate mind games.

☆scorpio rising- very very intimidating. Females with this placement tends to attract jealousy in any form. People want to dominate you so bad. People telling them to tone it down. Basically people don't like your mindset, it triggers them cuz they can't have power over you. Hates 2 faced people. And the irony is, they usually deal with 2 faced people.

☆scorpio lilith- highly seductive. Very attractive. Sex appeal. Feelings run deep for them. Had people who wanted them only for sexual pleasures, wanted to touch them in any way. High vibration scorpio lilith is THE HEALER. also I've seen yall had some near death experiences?? Or witnessed someone dying in front of you.

☆ scorpio mercury- moves in silence. Very strategic and careful. Committed to anything they put their mind into. Always ready to be one on one while fighting. Their way of talking is very intense and mysterious which makes people wanna know how do you think like that. When they say something they really mean it. They take their time. Expects the worst. They figure things out so fast so don't even think of gaslighting them.

☆Scorpio in the 10th house- achievers. From a young age they had an insight of what they will become. Hold power in their work environment. If your a student, your classmates want to steal your notes, they feel envious that you make pretty good notes of whatever you're studying cuz yall go in depth and make pretty good observations of the topics. Authority figures.

☆scorpio in the 5th- gets extreme reactions from people. Ofcourse with any other placements, attracts jealousy. (Bruh I don't get it, what's with the scorpios dealing with alot of jealousy???? Like that's tiring) Grabs attention in parties, get togethers or any form of social gatherings. Might have dealt with people wanting to take your partners. Might have overly strict parents or very fucked up family issues.

That's it for now🫶🏻

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[linogram]

got put on the schedule for 4:30pm to 12am and its like, thats cute and all, ill be there at 6pm like it says i can do on my availability

#🍯 talks #technically rn i could do 4:30 since my class is over #but like im not doing that #bc i dont want to #also u can survive w out a host for an hour on tuesdays #also im probably gonna fail my math class #but im taking the placement test again #so i could place into the class im signed up to take next semester #which is the plan #well originally it was to place into the next one #but like this is a good plan too #also sub 0 step is to see if i cant get counseling set up for next semester #bc uhh i keep having the same issues every semester and idk what to do to fix them or even describe them #and me thinks counseling would be a good step #other step is to look more into excersing at the school gym #but like i dont wanna go when theres ppl around #so that means going in the mornign ig #on second thought i dont wanna have to wake up at 6am #i wish i had friends at gsu #two ppl i work w go there #ones even in the same major #but like im not friends w either of them #i have a shift w one of them this sunday

[libraincarnate]

astrology notes: 17 (mature edition pt. 2) ♡✨

quick note: i'm absolutely not an astrologer. these are just a collection of some observations, thoughts, theories, and personal experiences based on astrology. above all this is just for fun. you can apply the astrology notes below to your mars, venus, pluto, lilith, and eros placements since they relate to sex, desire, seduction, and attraction. and for those same reasons, those planets, points, and asteroids may be mentioned repeatedly throughout this post in addition to aries, scorpio, and the 8th house. so, apply it how it fits according to your chart. keep in mind that i’m not reading your birth chart and i know nothing about you. these are just some possibilities that may or may not apply to you. lastly, minors do not interact - sexual content - mature readers only! enjoy 👄

🌷lilith in the 5th house: could be into provocative or sexual ways of performing like being a stripper or burlesque dancer. if they’re not the one’s doing the dancing then they may like going to strip clubs or burlesque shows. regardless, 5th house placements might like to dance on their partner, like giving them a lap dance. or they like playing strip games that lead to sex such as strip poker, beer pong, twister, etc. and like gemini, those with mars in the 5th house are most likely a big tease.

🌷sag is considered the type to go from person to person, but for the right person they’ll be willing to wait for marriage if that’s something sag and their partner wants. that could also be something that attracts sag to that person - their unwillingness to compromise their faith in God or their observance of their religious principles such as not having sex before marriage, but also the fact that their person isn’t quick to give in to what sag wants or to fall for sag’s charm.

🌷 leo may prefer to have the lights on rather than off. they want to see theirs and their partner’s body, but they also want their partner to see theirs. how else is their partner supposed to compliment them on how good they look naked? and like 2nd house placements, they may like to watch themselves having sex in the mirror. they could even want a mirror on the ceiling above their bed.

🌷 virgo risings may come off as innocent but with aries in their 8th house, not only do they prefer a partner who is dominant because they're typically the submissive types, but they also have their moments where they want to take over and express a little bit of their dominant side. they can take it but they can also give some of that same energy back. in this case, their looks may be deceiving and their sexual side may come as a surprise. this individual, including those with mars in virgo, can be quite picky with their sexual partners. and if you’re going to have sex with them, they’ll most likely make sure you’re clean first. this can mean taking a shower first or at least having clean hands/nails and no body odor. in addition, they could be the type to want you to get tested first to make sure you’re clean from STDs, and for these reasons they might not be interested in one night stands. 

🌷 asteroid eros (433) in aries and even other aries placements may like their head held and caressed or having fingers running through their hair, and they might like pulling on their partner’s hair. they’re also the types to want to see and stare at your face during sex because they want to see you moan and react to the things they’re doing to you. it boosts their ego & turns them on knowing that they’re the cause of the pleasure that you're feeling.

🌷mercury in the 8th house, pluto in 3rd house, and gemini mars: might c*m quick via masturbation, but they're also talented with their hands in general when it comes to sex. so handjobs and the like may be their area of expertise. their words are powerful and can be used effortlessly in order to arouse you. they’re the type to guide their partners, whispering sexy things in their ears, giving them instructions and talking them through to an orgasm (for themselves and their partner).

🌷 mars-saturn aspects: it might take some time for them to c*m but they usually have a high libido and can easily go several rounds. however, they could also go without sex for years and years, so being celibate probably isn’t difficult for them. 

🌷mars-venus aspects: may enjoy some degree of pain during sex so they may be a bit of a sadist or masochist. for example, whipping or performing actions that leave a visual representation of pain like bruises or red hand prints from spanking. if it’s not to that extent then a little bit of biting could really turn them on. this can apply to aries/scorpio placements too.

🌷 aquarius: some of them probably like to kiss their friends on the lips - not even in a sexual way but just because. they could have an array of sex toys and may prefer a solo session because they feel like they know their body and can please themselves best. even if they’re having sex, they might want to include the use of a toy. probably have some interesting or uncommon kinks. could prefer friends with benefits and it may work out for them since they’re good at not getting attached. they can also invent new ways to keep things exciting in the bedroom. the type to surprise their partner and make them c*m unexpectedly because they did something to catch them off guard.

🌷 scorpio & pisces: i feel like these two would have such a profound sexual experience together and i think their similarities would play a big role in that. they’re both water signs making them both emotional and those emotions would definitely come out to play during the act. and sex could even be a means of catharsis for them. 

pisces relates to all things spiritual and scorpio is familiar with the occult side of spirituality, but this isn’t outside of the realm of pisces either because as the ruler of the 12th house, they’re no stranger to the deep & dark mysteries of life. 

and i definitely believe that sex has a spiritual aspect to it. they might try Tantric sex or Kama Sutra positions, or they just have some form of a spiritual experience. maybe sex between the two of them feels like an out of body experience. or they experience la petite mort, the little death in english, which is an expression that describes an orgasm that feels like death - but a pleasant death. in addition to this, pisces and scorpio both have this desire to merge their souls with the person they love and sex is definitely one of the ways of doing so. 

all in all, the both of them together could have some of the most spiritual and emotional sex & since scorpio and pisces are both prone to addictions, sex between these two could be very addicting.

🌷 if you have libra 8th house synastry with your partner, you may have the thought or desire to partake in anilingus with each other. this could be something that you are totally against and cannot imagine doing, but with that person it could be something you are willing to consider. this could catch you by surprise and make you think, “omg who am i?” lol. 

🌷 i’ve noticed that a lot of celebrities that have genital piercings (whether it be something they’ve willingly revealed themselves or something that was revealed due to a wardrobe malfunction) have a combination of sag or scorpio in uranus, neptune, and/or as their moon sign. and to my surprise, they also have their mars in an earth sign. so, some you who have or want genital piercings may also have these placements. if these placements fall in your or 8th or 12th house, that would also make sense since those houses have to do with things that are hidden.

🌷 eros in the 10th house: i’d say this placement definitely desires a dom/sub dynamic. if they like playing the dominant role then they could like being called master, sir, or daddy. if they’d rather play the submissive role because they desire a dominant partner then they may like being called babygirl, my girl, or princess. they like having their partner telling them what to do & how to do it. in return, it pleases them to please their dom. they might also like sitting on their partners lap because it feels like their personal throne but it also makes them feel protected which this placement finds attractive. they like that protective energy in a partner since it gives them a sense of safety and comfort. if eros is aspecting neptune then they might fantasize about messing around with their boss or supervisor, even more exciting if it actually ends up happening at their place of work. oh, and they may like reading episode or wattpad stories with this kind of plot.

if you read this until the end, go rinse your eyes lol but i hope you enjoyed this post & thank you so much for reading. ♥︎♥︎♥︎, those hearts are for you.

#astrology #astrology notes #astro notes #astro observations #astrology observations #libraincarnate

[rosesnbooks]

Astrology observations #4

🧡if your moon is in the same sign as someone's rising sign, this is visible at first meeting. you just feel a certain pull when you see them, and they stand out from others in the room

🧡i have noticed that capricorn moons and/or mercuries like dark humor, it's not for the sensitive ones. that's why they also appreciate shows like the office and seinfeld. not to mention their interest for darker shows in general. developed capricorns are funny, but underdeveloped ones hurt people with their mockery

🧡aquarius/11th house and gemini/3rd house placements love personality tests. curiosity and the desire to understand themselves is strong. the former also want to feel more connected to others because they often feel vastly different than the people around them...these tests help them connect. honorable mentions to pisces placements as well

🧡i have yet to meet someone with virgo placements who doesn't appreciate cleanliness and/or organization. funnily enough, not all of them actually follow these values themselves. they are also good with arts and crafts

🧡virgo moons and gemini moons both have issues with silencing their minds at times, but virgos are definitely stricter with themselves. both placements need to talk with their closest people to process their feelings. they just need to let it out somehow or else, they will feel overwhelmed

🧡water signs are connected to water obviously, but there is something about cancer placements and their love for the sea. it's adorable, and they find comfort in it

🧡i think it's true that opposites attract but i think that there needs to be one point where both sides can meet. for example, if you lack earth placements, you probably benefit from having an earth placement in your life but it works best if they share an element that you have. this way, they they can understand where you're coming from.

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🧡a person with scorpio mars cannot hide their intensity from everyone. especially when it comes to things/people that they deeply care about or things that fuel their rage. they can have the most sensitive and peaceful chart, but then that scorpio arrives and stirs the waters.

🧡mars in gemini can go through many difficult trials in life and adapt to anything. it's truly admirable

🧡moon in the 12th find comfort in spirtuality and/or religion. however, they need to be careful not to become fanatics and vulnerable to bad intentions from the people in these fields

🧡3rd house stelliums observe people a lot and, over time, learn how to read them very well

🧡i think parents can learn from their children as well and sometimes their chart confirms that. for example, a parent can have their north node in scorpio, and their kid ends up having one or several scorpio placements. it's up to the parent whether they'll learn from them or emphasize the differences between them

🧡jupiter in sagittarius/jupiter in the 9th house find tremendous joy in travelling. once they try it out, the urge to continue travelling is strong. staying put in one place too long is bad for their spirit

🧡i have noticed that those with earth venus (virgo, capricorn, taurus) don't rush into love as others. i think they just want to find the right person first. they're sensitive souls that want someone to trust and rely on

🧡people with north node in leo notice that they feel alive when they pursue different adventures and when they don't dim their light in front of others. they care a lot about the world and humanity, and they need to let others take care of them sometimes too

🧡it's not easy when your jupiter and saturn share the same house. i think it means you need to find balance somehow. for example, someone with jupiter in the 9th house can find happiness and luck in travel, spirituality, and having an optimistic and open-minded mindset. but also, they may fear pursuing these things either because it seems scary or because they experienced some setbacks in the past. moreover someone with jupiter and saturn in the 11th house has had meaningful friendships that brought them lots of luck, as well as some intense friendships that caused them a lot of pain

🧡pisces placements can adore libra placements because they want someone who'll give them a fair chance and some peace in their lives. pisces people are a bit weary of intense placements because they don't feel 100% safe with them, and libras are comforting. honorable mentions to taurus as well, since they can make pisces feel like they're at home with them

#astrology #astro observations #astrology observations #rosesnbooks

[turtleneckshiv]

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#b rambles #alright so the person i’m on placement with right now used to teach at my school #and designed the syllabus and tests for the online class i’m taking now #we have online quizzes and in the syllabus she wrote basically since it’s a board exam course we wouldn’t be helping ourselves cheating #*​board exam prep course #we were going over the syllabus yesterday so she could me how to interpret what to focus most on #and she saw the note about cheating and said “haha you can tell i wrote this syllabus hey?” #then TODAY i was saying i have to do the quiz when i get home and she said i could do it there so she can help me #and i was like *tone that hopefully could be serious or joking depending on what she expects from me* #haha what happened to cheating doesn’t help anyone? #and she was like yeah but everyone does it anyways #anyways we didn’t end up doing it together but i did cheat by looking at notes because ‘everyone cheats anyways’ #but i’m still gonna feel super guilty i think #and i’m lying to my friend saying that i didn’t cheat bc i don’t know if actually everyone is or not #also we’re getting along well and have like jokes and stuff now so i just texted her a funny questions she had written on the test #but at the same time i’m texting my friend about how annoyed we were at how hard the quiz was #i’m realizing i’m using test and quiz interchangeably but who’s reading this anyways #ANYWAYS idk if this is a very weird social situation or if i’m just incredibly bad at picking up social cues #like my biggest fear in the world everyone around me knows something that i am fundamentally missing out on and just interacting on a whole #different level than me and i’m oblivious #tell me i’m okay patrick dot mp4 was i sick the day in school they taught you how to be normal it just feels like there’s something #fundamental i’m missiong out on like is there an instruction manual you get what i’m saying patrick it just feels like everyone is in this #cabal of normal people and they’re all laughing at me like i’m the jester in my own truman show patrick tell me what the secret is is there #a manual do you have the manual i know you have the manual patrick i know it’s in your truck patrick! #this is why sometimes i feel like maybe i’m not completely nt but even thinking that let alone saying it feels like i’m trying to #take something i don’t deserve idk #b literally has a whole thought spiral in tumblr tags #and i very much do not expect anyone to have read this far but insight would not be unwelcome #also like since i’ve known that she picked which students would come to her site i’ve been so stressed like i hate when ppl like me #bc then i have to work so hard to prevent them from changing their mind which will inevitable happen anyways

[disneyprincemuke]

for the girls * fem!driver

she isn't worrying about being on track for the first time - she worries about the media.

pairings: sebastian vettel x fem!driver, f1 grid x reader

warnings: literally a piece of garbage, SO inaccurate, no idea what i’m doing…

notes: this is sOOO BAD PLS I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO WRITE THIs man

also, please feel free to send it some scenarios for this series! you can send them in here freeflow~ none of these will be posted in chronological order so don’t worry about it

(series masterlist) | (📂 the rookie season)

"here is sebastian vettel's personal addition to the grid, (y/n)," the interviewer grins, turning to face the girl. "welcome to the 2023 formula 1 season. thank you for coming in."

"thank you for having me," she smiles, hands clasped together in front of her. she's been following sebastian around all day - she doesn't want to be left alone in such a tough crowd.

"how does it feel to be the first woman in formula 1 in almost 2 decades?"

"i'm very thankful for the opportunity given to me to achieve this spot on the grid. i hope i'll be good enough to create a difference and be the stepping stone towards more women in the sport," she answers cordially, moving her arms slightly.

interviews, unfortunately, were also a very big part of the job. she didn't really mind it, but she knew the controversy of her being in the sport, and it's been driving her insane since the pre-season testing.

"and of course congratulations on your move from formula 2 to the main league. how do you feel about the doubters or naysayers who are saying you don't belong here?"

"i think it's unfair to assume my placement in the season before it has even started. i have worked as hard as everybody else to get where i am today, so i'm just really hoping that the fact that i am a woman does not overshadow all my achievements."

she's seen all that's said about her. the news articles, the videos criticising sebastian's choice to vouch for her, and the comments under her posts and announcements - it's very disheartening.

sebastian has tried his best to tell her otherwise, telling her time and time again that he wouldn't have vouched for her if he didn't think she had the potential to be here.

"and how are you getting along with everybody else on the grid?"

"very good. i mean, we've already been acquainted for years and that really helped me out a lot," she laughs, locking eyes with sebastian doing an interview right next to her. "but it is still a competitive sport. it's going to be a climb out there from my starting position at 18th. hopefully it will be a good race."

"of course, good luck out there."

"thank you so much."

"just like we talked about. you'll be fine," sebastian folds his arms over his chest, leaning back into the wall.

she's pulling the sleeves of her race suit over her shoulders. "why don't i believe you," she mutters, looking down at her shoes to avoid his eyes. "think about what the media would say if i don't finish in the points today."

"who cares about what the media has to say? just do your best out there today," sebastian repeats, patting her shoulder lightly to get her attention.

he flashes her a grin when she looks up, only to have her roll her eyes as she zips up. "me. i have to face the interviewers later, remember? not you."

"just race like you always have. you're doing this for yourself. not the media, not the insecure guys hiding behind a screen, and definitely not the interviewers." he grabs her shoulders, shaking her just slightly to lighten up the mood. "i'll be in your ears to help you out, okay?"

she sighs, leaning slightly to the side to grab her balaclava off the table. "promise to tell me when i'm being reckless?"

"i'm your race engineer. i've got you."

he turns her around, towards the track where the cars have lined up. "get out there and shut them all up. you're doing this for the girls, remember that."

"right. for the girls," she huffs, wiping her hands on her race suit. she takes the helmet that sebastian is holding out to her and gives him a smile. "okay. i'll talk to you through the radio."

and she does everything she has to do. she’s in the race car, anticipating the formation lap that’s about to start.

days leading up to this moment, she didn’t think she would be so nervous to be behind a wheel. she doesn’t typically let the feeling get to her so much.

but it’s different now that it’s being broadcasted to the entire world. she’s now watched by ten times her normal viewership.

“radio check,” sebastian’s voice comes into her ears. his voice has become a significant point to calming her down behind the wheel. you would be surprised how well he can calm her down just by his voice.

“copy.” she breathes into the mic unknowingly as she exhales, looking up and taking in her view.

her car was surrounded by the engineers, making the final touches on the car and triple checking all the components.

within a few seconds, she can see the sky as they disperse — the sun is shining bright and there are barely any clouds. to her right is yuki, also looking around the grid and the grandstand.

she locks eyes with him as he looks around, her eyes crinkling at the corners to acknowledge him. he returns the gesture with a smile through his eyes then a thumbs up to wish her luck.

she lifts her hand above the halo and returns the thumbs up.

“okay, the first car has taken off for the lap. i’ll check in on you again in a while.”

her grip on the steering wheel is tight despite the engine being turned off. she’s proud of herself for making it through her first race in the league, even parking the car neatly in parc ferme.

“you did amazing.”

“you’re only saying that. i didn’t even finish in the points,” she answers dejectedly, rolling her eyes to herself.

sebastian tries to make light of every situation, even if the normal person would not be able to find that in a frustrating position. but he was also a rookie once. the least he could do is empathise and try to make this experience less daunting for her.

he’s investing in her — her talent is impeccable, but he has to make sure that he fosters and encourages her into the best version of herself. the racer that he knows she is, she just needed someone to actively believe in her.

“the climb from p18 to p11 is good progress. the season just started, kid. the only way is up.”

“sure,” she chuckles. “i’m getting out of the car. see you in a bit, seb.”

taglist: @wcnorris @treehouse-mouse (comment to be added)

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[biohazrd]

bro i am fucking struggling bro im so close to giving up on my hiset bc how am i supposed to fucking learn algebra while my body feels like it's shutting down bro.

#like i dont wanna give up completely bc ill just have to do it again in the future #and take another 4 hour placement test #but the sheer energy it takes just to get out of bed. #and like my stomach is so fucked up i dont wanna eat but i have to bc my brain needs calories to think. #and if i dont eat I cant think all day and im just soooo sososososo tired i feel so stupid and overwhelemed #and nobody in my life who said theyd help me is #like. okay. #how am i supposed to grasp algebra for the first time when all of my focus is on how shitty i feel!!! #and i need to do this so i can get a fucking job but also how am i supposed to do that either!!!!!!!! #like this might just be permanent i might be like this forever. so. #im just so tired. #like im not improving i am steadily getting worse #and none of my doctors can fucking help until i see the specialist AT THE END OF NEXT MONTH #like yeah u suspect one of my major organs is failing? make me wait 6 months to find out that's fine! #like if it is that means none of my meds are absorbing. #so. #that means my blood sugars n insulin r unmanaged and my thyroid is too and my blood pressure #and also my fucking BIRTH CONTROL. SO MY PERIODS HAVE BEEN FUCKED UP AGAIN.