#LIKE BRO WHAT THE IM AFRAID

[hakkikun]

I'm terrified 😳

#i know it's not a gifset but i just caught up and this part got me sjbvjdfj #LIKE BRO WHAT THE IM AFRAID #yeah i forgot Bond OH WELL he's cute #but yeah enjoy random ass weirdly made screenshot edits because why not #i just thought this is funny heh anyway #spy x family #loid forger #anya forger #yor forger #yor briar #sxf

[anxiously-sidequesting]

I personally love and obsess over disillusioned and self-isolating protagonists which is one of the reasons why I advocate for a Young Wizard who just leans so much into their role as the Savior that they're now just this broken down individual who now genuinely shares everyone's fears and legends of them of being this Ultra Powerful, Non-Human, Above-All-The-Peasants Legend Amongst Men. Being picked apart and analyzed (INCORRECTLY might I add) by strangers and people who fear/hate/revere you, no matter where you go or what you do, over and over and OVER it just literally whittles away at who you used to be, what used to make you happy and now you're replaced with what everyone made you into. Not You, but a Hero.

But you know what's even better 😈😈😈 a wizard who cracks in a different way and is now just baaaareeely holding it together. A wizard who just is not All There anymore. A wizard who's Good Maybe, but someone who genuinely gives you a GOOD REASON to fear a switch in allegiance. Someone who reminds you that your entire life depends on their mood

Give me Harley Quinn YW, give me a YW who cackles and shrieks in joy as they batter the evil to the ground, give me a YW who pushes at the very edge of the EXTREMES even when they don't need to. I want a YW who doesn't carry around a gleaming sword, or a mystical staff, but a bat with nails studded inside or a rusty machete; I want poems and songs of not a Hero but a wolf in sheep's clothing who just barely gets by in masquerading as the Commoners. An unhinged YW is the second to best Bad Ending you could ever get from this situation and I want everyone to think about this actually

#aka: my oc JALSBDID #no but i want an Almost Villain yw so badly. like full on villain yw is transcendent dont get.me wrong but i want THIS #all that fucking PRESSURE. that nobody could even BEGIN to describe in any post and the yw has to LIVE IT #this post was also inspired by wallaru's very last line in dialogue. no spoilers but you guys Know exactly what im talking about #also funny thought: dyvim would absolutely still support us and not be afraid of us if this ever happened #just like “aww look at them go <3” nobody can tell me dyvim would not support this. Nobody. #AU WHERE DASEIN AND THE YW ARE UNHINGED TOGETHER #dasein standing up for himself is hot but dasein who knows when to reign it in but DOESN'T anyway? 🥵🥵🥵🥵 #like super confident in himself. knowing EXACTLY who he is: a menace. and he takes (misguided?) comfort and solace in that shit #and then the yw being the same way......... bro #i got off topic but anyways JALSNDOESJ #wizard101 #w101 #wiz101 #text posts

[dailyweezer]

Day 30: Midnight Crew!!!!

(Anonymous request)

#weezer #blue album #homestuck #problem sleuth #midnight crew #spades slick #clubs deuce #diamonds droog #hearts boxcars #these are my favourite characters in the comic midnight crew is so rad #i hate a moral coward one who lacks a manly spark i do detest a man afraid to go home in the dark i always spend my evening where there’s w #oman wine and song but like a man i always bring my little wife along im a member of the midnight crew im a night owl and a wise bird too h #ome with the milk in the morning singing the same old song rise with moon go to bed with the sun early to bed and youll miss all the fun br #ing your wife to trouble it will never trouble you make her a member of the midnight crew the fun it never stops till dawn on happy old bro #adway so what’s the use of going home until the break of day now something confidential whisper not above a breath i once came home at 2am a #nd scared my wife to death chorus i never will forget the night i made six robbers run although i did not have a knife a blackjack or a gun #i proved myself a hero of a very high degree i ran for home and six of them were running after me CHORUS #make her a member of the midnight crew!!!!!!!

[ra-vio]

semester is almost over. im dying

#my oc #rune #mori #i have a project due tomorrow and its finally scared me back into drawing #even though i should be working on this project but im SO SO SO TIRED #i went on an outing like 2 weeks ago the same week that i walked everywhere cause i was desperately #trying to get my taxes done but thats a different story but the point is i was walking a lot and i went on an outing where i stood all day #and then i had to go to class the very next day thinking i was fine but i wasnt. #and that same day after i walked across the city because i absolutely had to pick a thing up. i think the same week i met up with my mom #a couple of times but i was walking the whole way there. my point is that for 2 weeks straight i have been rigorously walking everywhere #and on my feet all the time with little breaks in between and my feet fucking hurt man #i need this semester to be OVER i need to sleep for a MONTH #but i cant because i have to scrape together SOME of this project and finals are next week #this class this project is for fucking sucks. all semester ive been teetering the line between pass and fail #and its not even my fucking fault. im so burnt out so i dont want to do this project. but i might fail if i dont #i need to at least demo it but i have like. one thing done and i dunno what to tell my TA about i #how do i tell my TA and prof that everything is too much for me so i absolutely could work on this project #my laptop is broken so im afraid to use it. the server kept going down last month so i was afraid to use that #so many stupid little things keep piling up and i'd sound really weird trying to explain why i cant do my work #because my desk is on the floor and it makes me really sad so no i cant do my hw. my fave candy has red40 in it so i had to stop eating it #but now i cant do my work because i was using it to help me focus on my hw. LIFE SUCKS BRO #anyway whatever happens. i cant wait to play video games again

[opens-up-4-nobody]

The thing about bbc merlin is that the dynamic that's set up between merlin and arthur is so fucking good that I can't even. What can I possibly draw that's gonna encapsulate the feelings between them?

#its so fucking good. especially when u set it up like #arthur is so so afraid of losing this one person who is is true friend. i cant lose merlin i cant lose merlin #but im too much of a bro to tell him that but also i will give him hair ruffles and light bullying bc i want to touch him #he is my little dweeb who i love. and merlin is just. i mean. hes just merlin. would protect arthur no matter what #my man would and has killed so so many ppl for his king lmao #also arthur kneeling for merlin. just. ya kno. i think thats good. good good good. #ugh but i also want stained glass and weird fucked up religious themes. #ugh. and now im just spiralling bc i dont kno what to draw 1st. god! #im distracting myself from being upset abt another thing. ill think abt that thing later. draw now. while i have thr fucking time #merliiiin DX but also i have so much to color DDXXXX #merlin rambling #see. this is what i fucking do. i have to come up with thr fucking perfect idea. and then i just never do anything bc its not perfect #its dysfunctional. stop that

[nailgunstigmata]

people being like „what happened to rob omg look at how cute he was as a twink 🥺🥺🥺“ are so funny like. girl he aged

#and one day so will you and so will i. i know i dont like it either but we would be less afraid of it if we stopped treating it as awful #and saying its the plastic surgery is a cop out. if u want to say it say it with ur whole chest #like yeah steroids etc but i dont think those made his hairline regress 😭😭😭 #i think he was cuter before too but lets not pretend like a guy getting older and less hot is some rare phenomenon #this is what twink death was coined for #i cant believe im defending rob i hate it here #i love hating on rob but lets do it right #some of u people are just doing old school mysogyny on kaitlin too ill be honest. like yea shes an awful person but criticise her for that #not for surgeries she might have gotten because of the standards placed on women in media #ur doing reddit bro mysoginy pls listen to urself. call her a bad person and stupid instead

[formula-fun]

Whenever people debate whether Charles should leave Ferrari, it's like, do you even believe in romance???

people will wax poetic about the narrative and then say he should leave in the same breath. If you want that then what's the narrative? if you don't believe in the world it would be stupid to paint it!!! if you dont believe in god, then who are you talking to ???? like

#charles leclerc #im so glad some of you guys get me on this #the day he leaves ferrari is the day ferrari lets him go and that will be devastating to me #him winning with another team? devastating to me #nobody loves ferrari more then him so if he decides someday it's not worth it? if HE decides that???? that will be literally crushing #like this is the love story of their generation girl tbh #the scuderia is limping along saying its rotten work #he said not to me not if its you #they are both insane and evil #she is an eldritch horror and she is not sure why he is not running away #people keep implying it's because he doesn't understand and its pissing me off #he understands!!! he sees it!!! he sees the blood and teeth!!! hes just not afraid of it!!!!! #he walked into it with his eyes open!! he loves it anyway!! she is not sure why he is not running away but it's because he loves it!!! god #hes our fucked up lil guy. who else would he love like that??? but also what other team would be able to handle all that?? #the frat boy energy drink team?? bro what about the NARRATIVE

[milo-is-rambling]

Me when I’m not anxious at all about anything especially not traveling or not being home or being around strangers or going to a new airport or not being in control of the schedule or not having immediate access to my safe foods or not seeing funk and I’m definitely not anxious about being in new places and meeting new people and animals and having to be a person while trying to balance my emotions out enough that I don’t bring every conversation down while simultaneously only thinking about saying the wrong thing and bringing the conversation down

#and I’m definitely not afraid at all about how I haven’t told Millie about my current shitty mental health or the plans for an intensive #program and I feel like I might not say anything and I’ll feel bad later but like gahhh I just don’t want to be a bummer for once in my #fucking life I want to shove down all the sad depressing nothingness in me and try to be bubbly happy excited the whole time #who knows how it’s gonna go AND THAT THOUGHT DOESNT MAKE ME WANT TO THROW UP #IM EXCITED FOR THIS AND I DONT FEEL GUILTY ABOUT NOT GOING YO SEE MY DADS PARENTS EVEN THOUGH MY GRANDFATHER IS DYING AND IT DOESNT MAKE ME #FEEL SICK OR HAVE A HARD TIME BREATHING OR TYPING THIS IS ALL FINE I LIVE TRAVELING I LOVE FEELING LIKE IM NOT IN CHARGE OF ANYTHING AHAHAHA #AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHHHHHHH THIS IS FINNNEEEEEE IM FINEEEEE THIS IS GREAT IM NOT GONNA FREAK OUT TO THE POINT OF NOT BEING ABLE TO SLEEP AT ALL #AND IM DEFINITELY NOT GONNA END UP AWAKE FOR TWO FULL DAYS 🫠 #screaming crying throwing up and you can’t smoke weed on a plane. fuck my life bro. #bring back smoking on planes PLEASE #stoner plane even the pilots high fuck it we all wanna smoke and and watch the world be tiny below us right that’s what google maps is for #I feel like I’m doing this life thing wrong.

[toytulini]

rename this deep sea podcast the challenger deep bc it is fucking challenging me

#toy txt post #oh my god bro ppl arent afraid of anglerfish bc its a representation of their deepest darkest most repressed desires that they dont want #to confront its cos they look fucking weird and a lil uglie (AFFECTIONATE. I LOVE UGLIE FISH) #also why did you have this physician on here talking about Freud and Dream Symbolism. come closer. come here. i just want to talk #''dreaming about diving into the sea is symbolism of diving into the subconcious'' NO oh my fucking GOD im so fucking tired #come here. look at me. listen to me. dreaming about diving into the sea means you dreamt about diving into the sea #the significance and symbolism of your dreams is only what you decide to ascribe to them. there is no fucking inherent symbolism. its #bullshit. and there is no fucking way and ANY dream imagery is going to have universally the same symbolism #if you want to personally ascribe meaning to your own personal dream about diving into the sea and say that itwas symbolic of your #diving into your own subconscious and exploring yourself in a little mind submersible. go bonkers go wild get crazy w it #dont pretend to know other people. stop that. you dont know shit stop acting like you do. stop ascribing meaning to shit like that for #others. its so fucking gross. also fuck freud to hell.

[sunsage]

🕯️ sup

send me 🕯️to hear my character's inner thoughts about your character.

He really doesn't get it.

Sun Wukong isn't new to forgiveness, having granted it many times and occasionally (though not very often) being offered it in turn. And he's not... new to the concept of forgiving someone you loved who hurt you greatly either.

(But there is a wide gap between being forgiven and having what they once had.)

But he just can't see why Macaque keeps coming back to him. Back in their world, he could always assume it was mostly because of MK, since the kid was first to make an offer of friendship. Amidst the constant threats to the realm's stability, the safest place to be is among the people you could trust to protect you.

(And if Macaque can trust MK but not him, that's fine.)

But why does he still cling to Monkey King's side here? In this place that seems to thrive on change and new experiences, where none of their (his, mostly) enemies were trying to end the world and death was temporary, why would Macaque need to trail him all over the city, spend so much time in his house and sleep in his bed?

That's what he doesn't get.

Macaque is strong, smart and capable. He is handsome and charming and, once you get used to his acerbic sense of humor, quite funny. He can dazzle any audience and get himself out of any situation, death included. He is (despite whatever image he is trying to project) a kind, brave and extremely loyal person. He doesn't need to be anyone's shadow anymore. He can be anywhere he wanted, doing anything he wanted.

So why would he want to be here? With him?..

Wukong doesn't know if Macaque wants to be friends (he doesn't even dare to wish for anything more, not in a thousand years at least). He doesn't know if he just wants to pretend none of that ever happened (they are not going to do that). He doesn't know what he can say or do or give to make things between them better.

...He does know that they need to talk about it. All of it. Except every time he opens his mouth he says something wrong and Macaque scowls at him or fires back with one of his favourite cutting remarks or leaves. So he backs down (like a coward), because Wukong would rather keep them in this weird neither here nor there place than risk actually hurting Macaque again.

(It scares him to think that maybe he just doesn't know how to not hurt him again. Sometimes he wishes Macaque would really just leave so he doesn't have this hope that maybe-)

...

It's not his place to push or to rush things, not this time. Sun Wukong is a patient man, these days. If there is one thing he can do it's to let Macaque figure it out on his own terms. And if he needs to stay close while he does that, that's fine too. He can wait for Macaque to make up his mind even if takes another five hundred years. And he will. He will be right here, always, waiting for it.

Because someone you love is always worth waiting for.

#sageshadowed #rambled a lot about nothing so im putting it all under readmore #cool introspection bro now maybe try saying some of it out loud or something #im afraid it doesnt make too much sense (m tired) but to be fair he is also very confused re: what the hell macaque is trying to do here #so 'ill just stay put and wait for him to figure it out' sounds like a good plan in theory #unfortunately macaque knows exactly what he wants he just sucks at getting it #because cuddling your crush when he's asleep and being mean to him every time he says smth at the same time is not the way to do it clearly #im tired im really tired but man

[oatbugs]

im actually becoming a littol bit annoyed by smn 😭

#we are on a camping trip and im having sm fun and i love her sm but mein gott #basically she talked abt her boyfriend a lottt like right from the start of the trip from the car #and i thought it was like. yay bonding time. shes telling us abt her loving healthy relationship #and then it kept going to the point where eveey convo literally every single convo is abt her bf and yow great he is #at first it was sweet but now its like i cannot open my mouth without her being like. yeah my bf us xyz like in legit not #exaggerating its every single convo. like it is becoming absurd atp im rly happy for her but...what abt like #hobbies and like...the convo were having #and ar first i was gen happy bc i gwt the feeling of being in a healthy relationship but some of the stuff she says is quite concerning too #like we were all talking abt our insecurities and stuff and it was quite a deep/intimate convo and one of my friends #shared how he feels bad bc hes underweight etc and she was like. since being w him i feel great abt my body #but rhis happens so often #w any other topic. i cant even bring up my own relationship without it becoming and her bf like . he does that but Better #like me being like i love cooking tgth w my gf and her being like. ive never even cooked bc he cooks for me all the time. etc etc #bro one time i shared an insecurity shared an insecurity i had abt my relationship and her immediate response was abt how they dont have #that issue bc hes so great. it gets concer ing too bc she says stuff abt . like. bc of him i dont sh bc of him im not depressed bc of him #bc of him i feel worthy etc etc...also oversharing stuff abt his ...like genetalia that im like idk if hed want us to know all this #anyway no one has said anything and im afraid im delusional..or like its acc sweet and im just not being nice etc #which yeah it is sweet but in the length of me typing this out she has made 5 (five) comments abt her bf it is non stop no other #topic of convo . i dont wanna rain on her joy either bc i get it but omg 😭 every #single conversation...

[crimmson]

between my computer deciding to rebel, and work, and life, and I feel like I have a perpetual minor cold with that kinda slightly stuffy feel and that taste in the back of my throat,

I am kindly requesting someone to just Old Yeller me at this point

#the computer one is pissibg me off particularly because i Just built this shit two years ago #then i do a driver update a couple of weeks ago and start noticing that now if i game and watch a stream at the same time #some windows process starts choking the fucking life out of my CPU after a couple of hours #and after following a chain of looking shit up i get to ghe event viewer #and there's just a nonstop parade of errors for typically one or two things #at this point i drag my dad in because im out of my depth #i do some more shit. i update and reflash the bios. i check drivers 500 times. i reformat the drive and reinstall windows from scratch. #even if it seems okay for a bit it eventually starts shitting out errors again. #they are either about DeviceGuard or complaining about the network #i look up some more things! i find some references but they tell me to turn off or on some things that are already enabled or disabled. #we begin thinking theres something wrong with the network part of the motherboard #i have an adapter we grabbed from work to try when i get home. #if that doesnt work then i am buying a new motherboard cpu memory and cpu cooler #because if im going to have to fucking replace shit then i might as well upgrade #part of me wants to keep the old stuff and set up a new computer and try troubleshooting because puzzle. and i hate not knowing WHAT PART #SPECIFICALLY is fucked #bro i am so TIRED #i JUST did the math a few weeks ago and was like YES if i live on ramen for a few pay cycles i will pay off my credit card and start saving #to put toward my student loans when those start up again. and my computer went 'lol thats cute' #like i am deathly afraid that i will replace all this shit and it'll STILL have this issue #like. it's useable. i could live with it. but it's clearly not normal behavior and that's what bothers me. something is clearly wrong. #not to sound old but remember when shit just fuckin worked #like i sat there for 5 hours yesterday trying different shit. finally thought i had fixed something. go to bed. wake up. #STREAM OF ERRORS for the network thing again every few minutes while i was asleep. #what are you DOING. what is WRONG WITH YOU. #my dad is looking over my shoulder at the event viewer like 'that looks like a SQL statement but why is it failing etc etc' #EXCELLENT QUESTION AND I ONLY UNDERSTOOD THREE OF THOSE WORDS! why is my computer sick!! #no it's not a virus. i promise. i was raised better than that #it FEELS like something fundamentally broke. it feels like a hardware thing. but how. what fucking demons did microsoft summon #in a driver update. that went into my computer and physically broke my shit

[literalfuckingfreak]

if i get another comment about how i say i cant drink regular soda but will eat a handful of candy once in a while .. goodness...

#bro was like oh youre just afraid of sugar bc ppl tell you it's unhealthy #first of all. it fucking is. idgaf what you say 😭😭 #second. i will spend the rest of my night with a massive migraine if i eat like u want me to. ik my limits. you dont. #like holy fuck. pls. and no one says that for other shit i eat 😭😭 #im sensitive to onions and vanilla but i eat that shit in small amounts or cooked in specific ways constantly and no one says shit #like. no one comments on how im going to die of horrible disease if i drink regular soda or have massive american diet amounts of sugar #but the second i drink a diet coke ppl are like youll get cancer. GIRL . A REGULAR COKE WILL FLOOR ME. LIKE I WILL BE IMMOBILE. #LAYING ON MY BATHROOM FLOOR😭😭😭 ID RATHER RUN THE NEAR ZERO CHANCE OF ME GETTING CANCER #aspartame from what ive seen does not have any link to cancer in anything but inhuman quantities of diet soda. #like i couldnt even if i wanted to amounts.

[just-rogi]

I just had the single most uncomfortable phone call of my LIFE !!! Someone run my phone over with a TRACTOR and then SHOOT it with an GUN!!

#basically I was talking to a coworker asking for advice on how to handle another coworker of ours who had said some vaguely racist shit #fairly regularly #like she’s older so her heart is in the right place but it’s…. uncomfortable yk ? #and this coworker set up a meeting with admin to talk about how I feel victimized and am afraid to speak up (I’m not) #but I had my meeting and basically said ‘I want it on paper that I talked to y’all and asked for advice but I’d rather try to approach this #on my own and solve it person to person without attacking her or having her reprimanded’ #and admin was like cool so we are actually totally gonna let you do that and also have a meeting where we do the opposite of that tehe #so I got a call from my coworker today that was like ‘UHHHH DID YOU GO TO ADMIN AND TELL THEM YOU ARE UNCOMFORTABLE IN MY CLASSROOM BECAUSE #YOU THINK IM RACIST??’ #like bro #I eat one meal a day and I get this shit during my dinner time #fuuuuuuuccccckkkk #like I was completely blindsided with this and thank god I can talk normally while crying bc I was fuckjng sobbing from anxiety #like yeah you did say some racist shit but working with you is better than working with any of the other people who don’t have their shit #together #as shitty as it sounds I’ve kinda come accept a certian level of micro aggression (and macroagressiom bc tbh Glenda girl you go too far) #like I’m always uncomfortable and always unhappy and I’m always gonna be like that but NOW I’m uncomfortable because I’m getting #a phone call during MY dinner bc admin did exactly what I did not want them to do #like I wish there was a way that I could be like ‘yo I’m formally reporting that some shady shit is happening- I wanna handle it peacefully’ #‘but if it can’t be resolved I want to cover my ass and not get my words twisted #I like working with Glenda most of the time… just not when she’s talking about white privelage or lack there of… #no Gelnda the teacher shortage isn’t caused by bps only hiring poc teachers and not giving jobs to white people #I promise reverse racism isn’t the root of why we can’t get coverage for music health or financial literacy or seventh grade ELA or math #idk idk I’m not doing it Justice #like I was uncomfortable in the classroom before but now I’m gonna be MORE uncomfortable bc all this shit blew up in my face #all this taught me is to never speak up about microaggressions and never go to administration with concerns of how to solve issues- #you know: the exact WRONG takeaway because everything is so fucking messy #fuck me I can’t wait to apply for work outside of the US #also not to have a cynic victim mentally but none of this shot would’ve happened if I was white… :/ #but yeah.. whatever … middle eastern people don’t experience racism ig

[ziracona]

Multiple people now have been like ‘are you okay? Are you sick? What’s wrong?’ like very worried today but I thought I was looking, feeling, and acting totally normally and that nothing was wrong??? I’m O_O ‘your eyes are different’ HUH?? ‘You’re gonna be okay’ HUH????? WhATS gonna pass what!!! What’s happening rn? !!

#me: I don’t know and at this point I’m too afraid to ask (myself) #I guess it must actually be something bc I don’t think one of them specifically would be wrong as well as he knows me but damn if I have a #clue. ‘you deal with things by not thinking/repressing them too much’ bro I believe you 100 but I seem to be doing a tremendous job bc if im #distraught about soemthing I’m repressing it so well I don’t even remember what it IS??? #like you know if you’re stressed by a huge event for multiple days your body hits a specific physical exhaustion where you know you pushed g #too hard in category (stress/bearing)? and you pass out? I did have that this morning but wtf am I stressed about I????

[transgaysex]

i think gym class teachers need to be taught in much more depth about physical disabilities and solutions and whatnot

#wind howls #i tell my teachers that i am afraid to get hurt while doing aerobic exercises bc a lot of them involve running a lot and i have- #flat feet and it has since fucked up my knees and spine and theyll be like 'but dont you have insoles?' Yes. I Do. They Correct My Posture. #BUT THEY DO NOT FIX THE FUCKING PAIN ! HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU FUCKERS AS MUCH #it FORCES an ARCH onto my FEET so that my knees dont droop any kore inwards than they already are !!!!!!! BUT IT HURTS ! #try being forced to walk with a fucking glass bottle strapped onto the middle of your foot for 7 hours a day !! thats what it feels like !! #and they act like im the first to tell them that they get soooo surprised =_= im sick of it bro !!!