Need vs. Want in TLOU
Ok I can’t get over this specific scene because it perfectly sets up Ellie and Joel before we even have an inkling of their relationship.
It’s during the breakfast scene with Sarah where Tommy walks in and says to Joel “You're still alive. You old fucker.” and Sarah responds, “Aw. He loves you.”
Joel’s answer to this captures his personal definition of love which is significant because it aligns with Ellie’s. He says, “He’s dependent on me. Not the same.” This. This.
Sarah then responds with “I think it’s the same.” And Tommy, “It’s definitely the same.”
But to Joel, it’s not. To Joel, love is not about being dependent on someone. It’s more than that to him. It’s about choice and want which can easily be confused with need. Sarah is a need. She is his biological daughter. He needs her to be safe. He needs her to live. Their base relationship is one of dependence. This is not to say it cheapens its significance or her profound impact, but Joel never had a choice when it came to loving Sarah. He just did.
Ellie is not dependent on Joel. Yes he protects her and is guiding her through this journey, but she doesn’t need him. She has proven time and time again that she is self-sufficient and can absolutely take care of herself. In fact, she takes care of him too. She has saved his ass so many times that he doesn’t get to say she needs him. She doesn’t need him. But she wants him.
When it came to choosing between Tommy and Joel for the rest of the journey in episode 6, she immediately, without hesitation, chose Joel. The smart choice would have been Tommy. He’s younger, can actually hear, and hasn’t failed her yet. Joel hasn’t failed her per say but he hasn’t lived up to the impossible standards he set for himself and she knows this. If she was choosing based on “need” she would have chosen Tommy. But Ellie chose based off of love, something she has been deprived of all her life. All Ellie knows is need. Just this once, she wants to choose love and she did.
And connecting this to the podcast, “That there’s a thread between them that is more than just “I used to have a kid and you’re also a kid.” There’s something else. That there’s the connection already between Joel and Ellie that is different from his connection with his own daughter. And perhaps potentially stronger, and certainly, potentially more dangerous.”
THIS. God I wish I was more articulate but this is the essence of Ellie and Joel. Their relationship is stronger because it is based on want. Ellie wants Joel, not just because he is a protector, but because he is Joel. She understands him and loves who he is. Joel wants Ellie, not because he is missing Sarah, but because she is Ellie. Ellie is not a replacement for Sarah. She isn’t an understudy or a second choice because he can’t have Sarah as his daughter. He wants Ellie because he sees who she is and can’t help but love her.
They both see each other, not just as father and daughter, but as people as well. The scene where Joel is beating a FEDRA soldier to death in the first episode and Joel turns around expecting to see the same horror he saw on Sarah’s face, but instead seeing a kid who is completely enraptured by this terrifying show of violence is testament to this. She looked directly into the depths of his darkness and saw her own. They don’t shy away from the bad shit to keep up pretenses.
Inferring a bit, but Sarah might have shied away from who her dad would become to keep her alive if she had survived. She might not have wanted him anymore, similar to how Tommy didn’t want Joel anymore (choosing to stay in Jackson and cutting off all contact) when he saw how low he was willing to go to keep the ones he loves alive. Both Tommy and Sarah were dependent on Joel, and to them, that was love.
Furthering this a bit, it also illuminates why Ellie and Joel are the focus, and not Sarah and Joel. Though both absolutely beautiful and important relationships, even the showrunners argue that Joel and Ellie have a stronger connection. They choose to have this connection which aligns with how they define love. And because this connection is stronger, it incites danger in a way that you’re unable to look away from. If the show had been about a dad on a journey with his biological kid, it simply wouldn’t have the same impact because we’d be like “Oh, of course he would do that for her. Of course he’d torture, maim, and kill. That’s his daughter.” Instead of “Oh, he’s choosing to torture, maim, and kill for her. That’s not his kid and he’s doing it anyway.”
Their relationship is potentially more dangerous, as we will see in the last episode and next season, and this is a choice. Love is a choice and they have already made it.
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