#I've been guilty of it too

[transgender-catboy]

Sometimes the thing you folks call gender is really just called. Skinny.

#I'm not directing this at anyone specifically #and I'm not trying to be mean #but it's a trend I've seen a lot #I've been guilty of it too #it's like #is that really a unique expression of gender? or are they just skinny #as a fat person I've been really trying to rewrite that part of my brain #valid and unique expressions of gender dont have to always be from someone whos a size M #idk

[ripplefields]

aba: EEYIKES ! how are we going to STRIVE to be like that GUILTY GEAR !!

paracelsus: 🔑

i was gonna put this on the top but it made it look too cluttered . here's music to go with the drawing . i miss attaching songs to my art . enjoy

#guilty gear #guilty gear strive #a.b.a guilty gear #paracelsus guilty gear #digital art #straight ship so good it's yuri #they've been in my brain for like at least less than a week now and they have not left #i got my sibling fully into guilty gear bc i liked them too much #very long way to say: i like them #also listen to symphony . so freaking good #body horror cw #< jic . paras jealous rage form is scaaarryy #also sorry i've been drawing robots for so long i forgot how to draw humans #half joking

[originalartblog]

Dear new followers,

Change your avatar, put anything in your title! Did you know that when lurking here, you can just hit the reblog (two arrows) button to keep a copy of the post/art on your blog and turn your blog in a scrapbook of stuff you liked? It works a lot better than just liking a post and makes people who post stuff happy! (you can also search your blog to see those posts again later that way!)

And if you made a side blog to be active on instead, know that your main blog is the visible one in follow and like notifications, so make sure to check that too!

#hello new people! welcome and take care! #and sorry to people who have been here for a long time i know i've been making too many posts about this #this is the last one though (and i hope the ridiculousness made you smile at least) #i'm pining it and will stop worrying about blocking real people because i can't #do you know how many default empty blogs follow me on the regular? which i know for a FACT are mostly bots with real people sprinkled in #and this is my SIDE ACCOUNT. which means i have to block them MANUALLY. #and that's enough work without feeling guilty about blocking maybe people maybe spam on top of it #your destiny is in your own hands #nawy's comics #nawy's edits #nawy's art #nawy's doodles #nawy's 3d #bsd #for visibility sorry #important

[uncanny-tranny]

Genuinely, doing things "half-assed" or for a short period of time is generally better than never having done it in the first place.

Writing one sentence is better than none. A minute of brushing your teeth is better than zero minutes. Answering two questions for a homework assignment is better than answering none.

The overwhelming mountain of things can be done peacemeal. You do not have to do it all at once. It is okay to take life in whatever amount you can. The point is to allow yourself the grace to be.

#positivity #encouragement #writing this partially for myself because i have been struck with a sudden greif because i haven't written anything #and it's made me feel guilty that i've been to unwell to feel able to write anything complex #but it's like... why should i expect myself to write well or at *all* #i am allowed to feel grief that i'm not writing something special to me but that grief isn't a weapon #and bludgeoning myself with grief won't make me pick up a pen #if the mountain is too high above you then focus on the molehill in front of you <3 #somewhat inspired by the Abandoning Hobbies post #the whole 'the best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. the second best time is now' quote needs to be burnt into me #oh shit it's so late now. the first best time to be asleep was at 23:00 but i guess the second best is uhh now

[ipxakachi]

Guilty Challenge but he also got stuck

#haha radio silence only to come back with Genshin oop #Hi I love Itto #He's rly rly fun to draw and im mad at myself for not drawing enough of him #I've been going through months of burnout and demotivation when it's come to art due to various things happening in life #only now am I feeling the desire to draw again #idk or maybe it's also coping with my last sem of school lol #Anyway I wanna draw things tht interest me again #It'll be nice to get back into the ease of uploading too...but man social media's daunting and tiring hghfgf #man does drawing Itto's canon body bnring me joy #his canon body that clearly not been nuked in game #canon buff idiot that's canon to me and you cant tell me otherwise #im not in denial shut #genshin impact #arataki itto #guilty challenge #redraw #10 points and a head pat to those who know where the 2nd pose comes from #taemin guilty

[dam-bluecookies]

"no offense, but—" okay. Then don't say it?

#this needs to be said #I've been guilty of this too I'm pretty sure

[hivvernal]

The ghost in the bedmachine

#guilty gear #guilty gear bedman #bedman #romeo f neumann #bedman? #my art #these tags are ridiculous #his name makes me laugh every time #also hello long time no post I've been playing too much guilty gear #im awful at drawing human faces but how else do you learn than by becoming completely obsessed with something #I also just need to sketch and draw instead of trying to do finished pieces all the time #The Circle also kills me I love that song

[arashi-no-saxlphone]

Something funny I’ve noticed between Axl and Bridget enjoyers (or at least between me and you):

You write a lot of long thought out posts about Axl(and other characters you like) that go deep into their characterization, why they are how they are, what about them you think makes them wonderful, really going into deep discussion about why Axl is a wonderfully thought out character

And Bridget fans just kinda go “OMG SAME, I wish I could look like her and make out sloppy style with (Insert second favorite character that you ship with Bridget, normally May)”

And both of these ways of engaging with them are based and valid 🤝

Honestly all that matters is the feeling - you don't need a ton of words to articulate what's in your heart when it comes to these characters; the resonance is just there and that's why this game's good.

Frankly I feel similarly about Testament in that yeah, I could talk about then forever, but at the end of the day it can also be easily boiled down to "Wow I wish I looked like them and was confident and comfortable in the world the way they are, I wish I could just be there Like a Weed, Naturally, as a Matter of Course."

So I totally get it - whether you write a bunch of words or just go tee hee OMG SAAAME the feelings possess the same level of earnest substance to me if that makes sense haha

Thanks for the ask!

#sairambles #guilty gear #axl low #bridget #testament #we all just wanna live and be accepted and be around people who make us feel good #and gear is very much all about that #so we're all the same in that regard #that's how I feel about it anyway! #I'm a yapper - saying a lot of words and taking that time just helps things make more sense to me #but all the good connections I've had with people on here have been from all sorts #long paragraphs and short heartfelt cheers both communicate feeling to me #that's all that matters to me in the end - the feeling #see? I managed to talk too much again LOL #but I hope it makes sense

[northern-passage]

one thing i find really difficult about navigating the IF space is the direct line of contact between readers and authors. we share the same space, and i think that plays a big part in this weird blurred line we have in this community and overall lack of boundaries.

for a lot of people this is a fun hobby and while i personally try to keep it... semi-professional most of the time, it's easy to get wrapped up in having fun on tumblr (or the forums, or reddit, wherever it is that you mainly post/interact) and have a lot of personal interactions with both readers and authors alike - which is fun! i like it more often than not, but i also think that's why a lot of comments in this space can end up being really entitled, over-familiar, and inappropriate.

it's no secret that most authors get really weird messages on here, and while this is also a problem on social media at large and not just specific to IF tumblr, it is still definitely a big problem in this community.

and to be clear i'm not saying that you can't be friendly with authors or readers (i've become friends with a handful of readers myself) and i definitely don't mean to imply that there needs to be a huge divide between us; that's silly - again, most authors are readers, most readers are authors, we’re just people on the internet sharing the same space. but all of us deserve to have our boundaries respected. this is my story, and we are strangers. as a general rule of thumb: if you wouldn't say it out loud to someone you just met, you probably shouldn't be saying it to a stranger online. especially anonymously.

#i also think this is why some criticisms get so messy in this space as well #authors should not always be in the same space as the readers/reviewers #and readers shouldnt be able to directly @ authors with their extremely negative reviews esp when it's subjective #(‘’i hate this’’ as opposed to pointing out genuinely harmful content or other criticism) #for everyone's sake #& on a kinda related note: speaking as someone who has been receiving targeted harassment for *checks watch* over two years now #some people really need to reevaluate the way they interact with certain media #i think IF feels very personal due to the interactivity and the customization of the mc #but not everything is written for you. and it's fine to just not like something #without sending weird harassing anonymous messages for 2 years straight to a stranger on the internet. lol #honestly criticism is another can of worms and that's not really what i'm talking about here #but i do think that's also part of the entitlement and overfamiliarity as well #so imo it's connected a little bit. something to think about #at the end of the day my advice to other authors about this is to know your limits and know when you need to extract yourself #and know that you don't have to respond to every ask #especially if it makes you uncomfortable #and im definitely not trying to sound like the authority here this is something i've struggled with as well #like i said it is hard to navigate #and authors can be guilty of this too. wanting to defend yourself or insert yourself into conversations where you shouldn't #i've done that myself #and i've also had other authors i dont know be way overly familiar with me in the past #all of this is just an unfortunate part of online community i think. but im trying to be more mindful about it #anyways. this post brought to you by the weird messages in my and my friends' inboxes lately #i just think you should not be telling authors about pesonal bodily functions in anonymous asks #as an example. lol #personal

[soracities]

I'm 3 days late to this but I just saw that anon about being anti makeup and i want to thank you for articulating so concisely and patiently why certain women are against makeup. mostly because if i were in your place i absolutely wouldn't have the patience to deal with it lmao. mostly because I've been trying to articulate this stance to my friends irl and the most common reaction to this ime, in real life as well as online from women who disagree, is "but I like it 🥺 what about me? 🥺does that mean I'm a bad person? 🥺 but it's fun and cute and girly 🥺" and they just refuse to engage with any of those ideas because for them it's just harmless fun.

and after running up against this response enough times you just start to get sick of it. a lot of this (most of this) is my own personal exasperation talking but it's frustrating to try to make structural critiques and people are so individualistic they can't think past their own preferences.

I think some women, on some level at least, probably are aware of these things, or they have an inkling of them--if not consciously then subconsciously--but it isn't something they are willing or ready to confront, which explains why some can get incredibly defensive about it. We have this whole thing where your individual choices have become linked to, or representative of, your identity and so any comment against those choices is taken as a personal attack because in a sense, for someone living within that framework, it is. I completely understand your exasperation because I've felt it, too. But I think I'm at a point where, for me personally, I'm not trying to argue with people or convince them because trying to make people see or hear what they aren't willing to will only make them double down harder.

I agree with you and I wish there was a way to actually have these conversations in an open manner without getting stonewalled, but the best thing I can do right now is stay true to my own stance and embody that through example and hopefully I can be open enough through this that it allows others to see they can do the same--or that, at the very least, they have the option to.

#tbh i try to assume that people ask things in good faith so in those scenarios i try to be as open as possible (even though i've been guilty #of failing at that too). we have a deeply fucked up world so everyone comes away with deeply internalised ideas bc of that but i also hold #to the notion of “people do better when they know better”. and i try to add to that if i can. but i also accept that i cant take #responsibility for how people apply that knowledge or their willingness to hear it. i just stay open and sincere in my own stance #bc i dont want exhaustion to lead to bitterness #ask #anonymous

[solradguy]

What I've felt, what I've known Sick and tired, I stand alone Could you be there? 'Cause I'm the one who waits for you Or are you unforgiven, too? [x]

[prints]

#guilty gear #sol badguy #my stuff #I COLORED IT YAY #God this one's so angsty lol #I've been listening to a lot of edgy metalcore lately. The lyrics are from a Metallica song though #The 3 Unforgiven tracks are sooooooo good #Sol has three musical flavors: Queen (obviously); Metallica; and Napalm Death #He has Fight Fire With Fire written on his Xrd and Strive designs (track off Metallica's album Ride The Lightning) #and then Napalm Death was his instant kill in GGXX (probably other games too but I just know it from XX) #I've done a sad drawing with Queen lyrics already and now Metallica so maybe I should do a Napalm Death one next lol #I think I could do something cooler with the design of his head/ear wing thingies but I need to experiment with it more

[theartisticintrovert]

me before double/neoplasm: niko is innocent! mikoto is putting on a mask so people will like him!!! (righteous fury)

me after double/neoplasm: niko is innocent.... mikoto is putting on a mask so people will like him........ (sobbing incoherently)

#in conclusion: AUGH #im not fucking calling him john btw #if anything i'll call him taro #bc taro yamada is the japanese equivalent of john doe #anyway niko was so desperate to look guilty so mikoto would be forgiven #it only made him seem more innocent to me tbh #but honestly? i think i forgive mikoto too #bc like. i've been there. GOD i've been there. i too had a bunch of masking burnout + a stress breakdown or three #i was just lucky enough to have people able to help me #mikoto doesn't seem to have that #someone get this man a fucking support system STAT #ty talks #kayano mikoto #mikoto kayano #milgram #milgram project #nikoto #orekoto

[mellotronmkll]

cannot put into words how much finding out that women with autism being misdiagnosed with bpd is like a super common thing shook my entire understanding of everything I had experienced my whole life that was the real final nail in the coffin but it's crazy I somehow didn't know that until recently

#And like It Just So Happens #Anyway at this point...and now that my mother has started literally just sending me lists of all the traits that are obvious in hindsight a #things she missed and now is kicking herself I'm just like...well it's just like I'm documenting things and I really think once I just #have insurance you know . I've just been like What if I'm wrong for like a year now but to be honest #I think at this point after all the research I've done and discussions I've had it's like. There's no way bro #Like you have a multi page google doc of evidence #And like it's funny cos my mom will be sending me random texts out of the blue too like did I mention already the fact that you would #sit and study maps for hours as a kid and if anyone interrupted you you had a meltdown and I'm like well #But its like these texts constantly all day #And im like tbh you're going through the same realization process I went through but now you're also telling me things I forgot or didn't #even know that are just blasting any. Doubt of the water #But I think she feels guilty also that she never noticed and im just like shrug I don't know like #there's just many many many such cases so like #But its very helpful I was so scared to tell her about it for so long but apparently she'd been already wondering for ages too so like #And now she's also just like This makes so much sense it just makes everything make sense and I'm like see. That's what I'm thinking too

[kimbureh]

The Author is dead, and the Text is too

in today's social media landscape, not just the Author is dead, but the Text is too. Nobody has watched or read the thing, but everyone has an opinion

#i've been guilty of that too

[hissterical-nyaan]

They ask why I'm always stuck on my phone, scrolling for hours and hours reading squiggly text on my phone

But they don't know it's what keeps me alive.... imagining myself in all this pain but in this phone I have people to comfort or mourn me. It gives me a glimpse of what could be....what I lost....what was never meant to be mine in this world to begin with

#my bookmarks are filled with memories of dark nights eating me alive #I'm just being dramatic cause mom is threatening to take my phone away and I'm just so tired #there has been too much screaming around me lately #never thought I'll miss the quiet of my bare room back in hostel #I've been doing it all wrong again #idk why I'm even posting this I feel like a pathetic bitch 😇 #yknow I'm mad that I can't think of kms anymore without feeling guilty #this never used to happen before #why do people fucking love me

[pizzaqueen]

.

#Sometimes I think about how much I've let anxiety take from me and it's...a LOT #like a lot a lot #and now I can feel it taking fandom from me too #no desire to write (and most of the last few fics I’ve posted have been…not good and I’m really sorry about that) #it’s my own fault 100% #(not just with fandom but everything for not trying harder) #but it still sucks #i guess it sucks more because I know it’s my own fault #misc #tw mental health #cw mental health #cw anxiety #personal #negative #anyway still on a break for idk how long #but the break hasn’t helped at all 😞 #and now I just feel so guilty for not being around and reblogging more stuff #and I have major FOMO #ughhhhhhh #plus my health anxiety is just so so bad rn