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krystalficloverdh · 3 years

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My hero - HE’S DEAD!!!!

Chapter 11

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I’m back.

“You’ve got to be kidding me!” All Might shouted as he received a call from the magical device of the guild making the other teachers jump in surprise except Aizawa, he just yawned.

The hero trembled as he saw the name of Gran Torino over the screen of the device.

“Seriously that was too much.” Izuku pouted as she looked at herself in the mirror of her bedroom and covered her face in shame as she remembered that after her make out session with Katsuki, her friends wouldn’t stop making jokes about them all night long. They didn’t do much, just kisses over there and there, some hickies maybe a possible marriage proposal and nothing more. She touched one of the many marks that covered her neck and shoulders as she remembered the feeling of his lips and teeth on her skin last night.

He really likes to bite.

Her thoughts wandered to how it would feel like if they actually do the real thing, she was a virgin but she wasn’t totally clueless, in her previous life she used to read romance novels all the time but what you read between letters can’t be compared to experience. She widened her eyes as she remembered again and had to slap her cheeks to stop herself from going that path, she just needed to get dressed.

She wandered around her room looking for her favorite vest and stopped in front of a small bureau next to her bed where some flowers rested on a vase that Momo offered to make, they were blood-colored amaryllis black pearls. Since the festival ended, a messenger brought her these flowers but he didn’t tell her who sent them and there wasn’t any note attached to them. Every time she looked at them she felt a strange feeling building up in her stomach and when she tried to think about it, her head always ached so she decided to forget about it.

She opened the kitchen’s door a few minutes later to find Katsuki sitting over a table eating an apple and with his typical scowl on his face that turned more soft the moment he saw her enter. “Good morning Kacchan.” She smiled as she took a piece of bread in front of him at a safe distance and stretched her arms after finishing the bread.

“Morning…” He propped his head up on his hand and watched as the cool air and her stretch made her nipples poked out against her shirt. His gaze dropped lower down to her waist, she signed and crossed her arms over her head.

“Uhm, do you have any idea of what our next mission will be?…” She turned to him but trailed off as she found him staring at her intently, she followed his gaze and blushed. She realized that he was unashamedly staring at her exposed stomach now with his arms crossed over his chest. “Oops!” She adjusted her shirt and remembered that she didn’t button her green vest, it was wide open while her shirt was white and her friends could be seen. She bit her lip nervously as she felt how his gaze was like a physical touch, she could feel it on her skin. “So serious.” She teased after a moment.

“Deku.” Katsuki beckoned her closer with a crooked finger. “C’mere.”

“...What?”

“Are you deaf or something?! Come here!”

“Suspicious.”Izuku eyed him somewhat warily and stepped up to him cautiously, she stopped when she was just inches away and squeaked as a pair of legs hooked behind her to push her up against him while a pair of arms hugged her neck. “If you wanted a hug that much you could’ve just said so.” She muttered against his chest after some minutes of silence as he buried his face over her curls. “Repeat after me... Izuku, I want a hug, who would’ve thought that you were such a closeted lowkey hugger.” She smirked.

“You..” He raised his head at that and I smashed her cheeks with one hand.

“Padffn ffm inffolenff.” She mustered between his hand which meant: Pardon my insolence. She pressed her palm over his hand, she slapped it away before placing her hands over his chest and stood on her tiptoes to give him a chaste kiss. “Have I already told you how much I love you?” That made his angry face disappear and his eyes heat. He rolled them over until he was towering over her and with her back pressed against the table, he kissed her with a fisted a hand in her hair. He used the grip to tilt her head to kiss her deeply, she wrenched her mouth away with a gasp and grabbed his shoulders. “Wait! Time out!”

“Argh! What do you mean time out when you’re here seducing me?!” He bit her jawline. “Take responsibility.”

“S-Seducing…What?!” She blushed and looked around, they were the only ones in the entire common floor.

“Shut up.” He groaned as he leaned down and rubbed his nose against hers before pressing his lips tenderly against hers, she raised her hands and curved them around the back of his neck.

“MY EYES!” Everyone’s thoughts rang at the same time as they watched the scene.

“Sorry to interrupt this lovely moment but some of us need that table to eat.” A teasing voice was heard from behind them and the pair raised their middle fingers at the same time while kissing before parting.

“Hosu City?” The group asked as they heard Aizawa explaining the next mission that includes all the class. There have been cases of murders in that city and they are calling for reinforcements to help investigate and patrol the city. They will be distributed in groups headed by teachers and should leave the next day because it is a two days trip, they decided to take the dragons to get there faster.

“It’s good to see you back without those bandages wrapped around your body Mr. Aizawa, Kero.” Tsuyu said and the teacher smiled softly for a second before returning to his bored expression.

“I’m kinda nervous with the murderer thing Izuku-chan.” Ochako whispered to Izuku.

“Don’t worry I’ll protect you.” Izuku winked at her, trying to ease her friend's fear.

“Like a prince, I’ve fallen again.” Ochako teared up and tried to hug her but Katsuki was faster and snatched her away.

“Oh my god! Stop it.” Izuku slapped his hand away and laughed at his face, she looked around her friends and noticed that her knight friend was different than usual, he seemed troubled. “Iida-kun…” She stepped up to him with a worried expression. “You know, if you need someone to talk to...I’m always here, we’re friends, right?” She smiled at him.

“Thank you Midoroya, but I think I’ll be fine.” Iida gave her a fake smile. “See you tomorrow morning!” He said cheerfully and she smiled before taking Katsuki’s hand so they could go to the stables.

Something is up, maybe something to do with his brother…?

Izuku was really worried about her friend, she heard from Ochako before the ball about his brother’s situation with the Hero Killer, after his encounter with the criminal he had to be admitted to the hospital for horrible injuries that almost made him lose his life.

“You’re worried about him too?” Todoroki asked beside Izuku and she jumped.

“...Yeah, he seems off.” She crossed her arms and felt her friends hand over her head.

“Don’t worry too much, he’s a smart guy.” He smiled softly and gave her a side glance. “But, I’ll keep an eye on him just in case.”

“Me too.” They gave each other the thumbs before she reached Katsuki again and took his hand.

“I AM HERE IN A BIZARRE POSITION!” All Might appeared in front of the pair with his head bowed down.

“ALL MIGHT?!/ WHAT THE FUCK?! Izuku and Katsuki jumped back.

“Why such a hurry?” Izuku asked more calmly.

“Come with me for a sec.” He waved at her.

“See you at the stables, Kacchan.” Izuku nodded at Katsuki and followed the hero into a deserted corridor, she frowned as she looked how he was shaking uncontrollably.

“I’ll get straight to the point, I got a call from my late teacher who also knows about One For All.” He turned away from her and placed both hands over the wall.

“Really? Someone that great? Who is it?” She beamed happily, she was actually curious about her mentor’s student years.

“His hero’s name is Gran Torino...Ugh!” He said while his legs started to shake. “He watched the festival and mabe thought that my teaching was inadequate, he went so far by using his hero name…Scary!” He slapped his legs over and over. “Dammit! Stop shaking!”

All Might is seriously freaking out right now, just how scary is this guy?

“Anyways...as your mentor, it’s my duty to train you but if he’s calling, there must be something important for you to see...You should give it a thought considering he knows about you know…” The hero said while slapping his legs again.

“I can pay him a visit before I arrive Hosu City…” She said softly and the hero turned to her with a crooked smile which shocked her.

“A VISIT! THAT WOULD DO!” He handed her a piece of paper. “H-Here is the address.”

“I suppose you’re not going, right?” She raised an eyebrow as she took the paper and read it to discover that it was in Hosu City.

“NO!” He gave her thumbs but was still shaking.

“I’ll go pack.” She snorted and waved at her mentor as she turned around before feeling a hand gripping her shoulder.

“Midoriya, my girl.” All Might whispered to her in a way that gave her chills. “Are you and young Bakugou dating?”

Crap.

“Tell me why we are here again.” Katsuki asked as he looked down at the old house outside Hosu City from Inna’s back, it looked suspicious.

Izuku turned sideways over Inna’s back prepared to jump down. “All Might told me he could help me train my telekinesis abilities.” She reassured him but his snarl didn’t falter, she didn’t like to lie to him but that was the only way for now. “I’ll be finished by night.” She gave him a chaste kiss before jumping down.

“I’ll come back for you after finishing the patrol.” He said and took flight.

Izuku stepped up in front of a cabin, she knocked twice before opening the door.“My name is Izuku Midoriya from UA Guild, nice to meet…” She frozed a she opened the door when she saw a little body over some strange red substance. “AAAAAAAAAAH! HE’S DEAD!” She cried in horror before the man lifted his head with a grin.

“I’M NOT DEAD!” He yelled at her.

“AAAAAAAH! HE’S ALIVE!” She yelled back in shock.

“I was doing my dinner before I fell and made a mess all over the place.” The man stood with the help of a cane. “Who are you?” He scratched his head and she paled.

“I’m Izuku Midoriya.”

“Wanna eat something?” He asked with a cute face.

“Uhm, I think I got the wrong address...Sorry to bother you sir.” She turned around before hearing a sword being sleashed behind her.

“Come at me with One For All with all you have.” A deep voice came from the old man and Izuku widened her eyes as she saw that the semblance of the man changed completely. “I want to see for myself.” The man smirked at her.

“Ohooo!” She smirked back and took out her sword.“I was called along with my friends to help in Hosu City but All Might told me to pay you a visit before that.” She explained as she took a fighting stance. “Even though I’ll be here just for today, I’d like to hear what you have for me...I’ll be in your care!”

The man took a leap and moved around the room before standing over a table. “Let’s get started, you have great control over your swordsmanship so I don’t have to teach you what I know. You still have a loong way to go, I could see the struggle in your body and how it destroyed your hands from the inside.” He looked at her hands and began to roam all over the room.

Izuku’s head was spinning as she saw the little man jumping from different places, she groaned as she felt a jab on her back from the handle of his sword.

“Come on! Just a hit! I can’t believe the ninth holder of One For All is such a wet blanket...All Might is a novice.”

She had to make him stop moving, after some seconds she noticed that he’d jumped behind her twice so she turned on her back to block.

“Analysis and deduction, huh?” He smiled at her and dodged her blow. “But, you’re stiff and you’re thinking too much.” He grabbed her head to smash and kicked her legs so she fell into the ground.

“I thought I had you.” She groaned and gripped her sword handle tightly.

“Your admiration for All Might and your sense of duty are shackles...Villains won’t wait until you get stronger.” He lets go of her and stands up. “Think about it while I get something to eat.” He said and got out of the house.

“A shackle…?” She asked herself as she got out of the house as well and looked up the small market near the house where the hero was buying some food.

How to use this sword like part of her? Like breathing...she has to catch up to the feeling everyone had for sixteen years, after all, just a year ago she came to this world.

“That’s it! Up until now, I have always used it only with my arms...who says I can only use my arms?” She told herself, she looked around and spotted a big rock near her. “I’ve always used my telekinesis with the rest of my body.” She stepped in front of the big rock until she was some a few steps back and swung One For All towards the rock. The rock broke in two pieces, one piece flew into the air, she crouched down, familiar lightning cracked all over her body and jumped. “YES!” She kicked the rock and watched as the rock became small peebles.

“You made me dodge seriously for the first time a while ago.” Gran Torino smirked as he saw her destroying that rock and he wiped the blood that flowed from a cut on his cheek. “This kid might become a monster.”

After a while, Gran Torino entered his house and called Izuku so she could help him with lunch, while they were finishing he asked her about her mission as they sat around the table.

“Yeah! This is it! Get it while it’s hot!” Gran Torino beamed happily as he patted the table and looked at the food.

“Cute.” Izuku’s thought rang as she saw the scene and couldn’t help but to giggle at the gesture before covering her mouth.

“What’s so funny?”

“Nothing! It’s just…” She looked to the side embarrassed. “Uhm, that was cute.” She said softly before turning back again and she was nice enough not to giggle again at the redness of the man’s ears. “...Sorry.”

He recovered quickly and cleared his throat. “Let’s eat.”

“Oooh! Now that I remember...How was All Might when he was a student?” She asked with curiosity in her eyes that turned into shock as Gran Torino explained the rough training All Might received in his years of being a student.

No wonder he was so scared of you!

Izuku blocked a blow from a sword that slashed at her and again, blow after blow. She looked around and spotted a couch. She rolled into the ground before hiding down the couch, the man stopped in mid air above the sofa and she pushed it against him.

“You got me.” He dodged a swing from her, he moved behind her and lunged at her before she jumped into the ceiling.

“S-SMASH!” She swung her sword at him and he dodged, he pushed her into the wall and she rubbed her back. “Dammit, I’m still lacking.”

“No, you were able to attack me when I was unguarded.” He turned to the window, it was already night and noticed a big dragon outside of his house. “Let’s end this, it seems they came to pick you up.”

“Yes! Thank you so much for today!” She got on her feet and bowed down her head, she got out of the house and noticed that Katsuki was looking behind her. She followed his gaze and found out that Gran Torino was behind her with a suitcase.

“I’ll come with you.”

“Aaaw! Are you worried about me?” Izuku teased the hero.

“I have some business to discuss with Best Jeanist.” Gran Torino ignored her and climbed the dragon.

Cute.

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riotfuckery · 4 years

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Shattered hearts and clean shirts

Pining!Sero Hanta x f!reader (slight Cheater!Bakugo Katsuki x reader)

A/N: Hello beautiful readers! It’s your friendly neighborhood big tiddy goth gf and lowkey weeb 💖I’m here with an extra long angst/comfort fic featuring best boy Sero! Best boy doesn’t get the love he deserves sometimes so I’m here to change that! Also shoutout to my writing senpais who were so incredibly kind and sweet to me as to show my Shinso fic love. I’m sending lots of love your way! I also hope you don’t mind me tagging you 💖💖💖 @queensynderella @kingtamakimurder @ikinabi @trafalgar-temptress Extra A/N: Another writing senpai gave me permission to tag them so here they are @quirkless-fics @thedreadthread Thank you again senpais 💖🥺💖

Sero always considered himself a plain looking guy. He thought he was nothing special with a plain quirk and weird elbows. You always made him feel special, beautiful and loved. You tended to do that with everyone you met apparently cause you scored yourself a relationship with the angriest and most volatile student of UA along with a school wide reputation of being the kind cutie who you could get patched up by without any embarrassment. You were gentle, kind, and patient with a strong quirk to go with it.

You were blessed with a quirk that made any living thing grow or heal at the expense of your own energy. Gently touching a broken arm would heal it within a few seconds, whispering sweet words to a dying flower made it spring to life and bloom brighter than ever. The plants you spring to life heeding your commands, forming walls and giant thorns seemingly out of nowhere. Your undying need to want to heal and make things better earned you a spot in class 1-A.

Apparently he wasn’t the only one who thought that, noticing his ash blonde friend take a liking to you because he was too prideful to go to recovery girl at times. You made your way to the bakusquad. Befriending the energetic redhead and blonde first. Eventually you made your way around the whole crew.

Mina was overjoyed to have another girl in the squad. Always having sleepovers and girls nights, wasting away the hours filling your faces with junk food and talk of boys. So when she learned you had a small thing for the ash blonde she immediately went to work. Soon enough he saw you chatting with the blonde and saw that something was happening much to his own dismay.

His heart would squeeze in his chest, making it almost impossible to breathe when he saw how Bakugo was treating you. He always called you “bandaid” and “shitty girl”. You always brushed it off with a smile and always helped him along with every student in the school. When he heard Bakugo loudly announce to the class that both of you were dating along with the threats to kill whoever came too close, he thought his heart would fall to the pit of his stomach.

He was pining after you almost painfully, he saw how Bakugo should shake off your hugs and call you clingy when you tried to hold his hand. His heart ached at the thought that you would be okay being treated like that. You were always brushing it off as the excuse that he was shy and saying he would open up soon enough but he was always observant. He saw the way couples would hold hands and give small kisses in public, he noticed the hurt in your eyes at the thought of never having that feeling. He saw the flashes of sadness in your eyes and the small sighs when you were particularly upset one day.

Sero did what any good friend would do and talked you about it, knowing keeping feelings bottled up would only leave them to explode. He pushed aside his feelings and gave a chance to let out your feelings without being judged. He caught you after class one day, saying he needed to talk to you about an assignment. Bakugo was nowhere in sight and that made him sigh in disappointment. How could he just leave such a beautiful girl by herself and call her horrible nicknames? He couldn’t fathom it.

“Hey Sero, what’s up? You need help with anything?” You smiled brightly at him, he thought he would be blinded by it. He stopped himself before he could get too lost in his one sided love for you (ouch). He grinned back immediately “Actually, I’m fine for right now. Maybe I could use your help later with some home work. But I just wanted to ask are you okay? Ya know like emotionally? I promise I won’t tell anyone. You just seem to be upset a lot more and I was wondering if I could help you with that” he spoke nervously. You on the other hand were caught off guard. Your eyes widened a bit and your lips parted for a split second before you smiled shyly at him.

“Oh geez am I that obvious?” You looked him shyly, your hand covering the side of your neck. He thought it was cute you picked that habit up from Kirishima while also wondering what other habits you picked up from the rest of the squad. “Well yeah I’ve been upset, I’m just really sad and frustrated right now. But let’s go somewhere more private yeah?” You moved your hand to wave at him to follow you. You both headed straight for your dorm and gently ushered him in. You locked the door before taking off your shoes and tie.

He took off his shoes and left them next to yours and gently put his bag down by the entrance. He saw you make your way over to your bed and plop down on it. A small blush made its way to his face as he was hit with a tsunami of nervousness. He was here, in your ROOM, ALONE, WITH THE DOOR LOCKED. If he muscles got anymore stiff, he thought he would pass out.

Your light giggle made him relax and look over at you. You were still sitting on your bed and looked up at him with amusement, you smiled at him cheekily. “No need to be nervous Sero, I just wanted to talk to you. Nothing more, I don’t bite unless ya ask ya know?” He blushed and did the kiri embarrassed move. “No I know” he chuckled and moved to sit backwards on your desk chair across from the bed. He gave you a friendly smile and small nod as if pushing you to continue.

You took a deep breath and flopped down on the bed while staring at the ceiling poster you have of your fav band. “Well I’m just really frustrated and sad, it’s all about dating Katsuki. Like yes he’s nice to me in his own way but how hard is it to hold hands in public? Show me he’s interested? It feels like all I’m doing is annoying him” you sighed and propped yourself up to look at him. His black eyes never leaving yours and giving you another minuscule nod to tell you to continue.

“People ask questions you know, and it just makes me sad because I keep making excuses for him. Like how many times do I have to come up with some random line? Why do I feel like I’m always giving and I’m never getting anything back? Am I asking for too much Sero?” You ranted in frustration, looking at him for answers. He blinked slowly and inhaled slowly before exhaling and loosening his tie.

“I don’t personally think you’re asking too much, I agree with you actually. Like how hard is it hold hands? Yeah maybe he’s too pussy to buck up and show the world he’s dating you. But not even in private he’s sweet to you?” He asked. You shook your head slightly. “Well I guess he’s nicer and calls me babe. But still doesn’t hold my hand or anything. He gets angry at me when I talk to any other guy outside of him.” You sighed again, he noticed you seemed to do that a lot today.

You and Bakugo were still new, only a few months in. You wouldn’t say it was love but you liked him quite a bit. Your patience with the explosive blonde was never ending it seemed. Until one day you were avoiding Bakugo and the rest of the squad like the plague. He found you sitting underneath the trees in the courtyard, just looking up at the trees during lunch. Your slumped shoulders and dull puffy eyes and tears threatening to leak out immediately putting him in a state of alarm but decided to leave you for the time being. You’ve grown quite close to the ravenette, now you considered each other close friends. He hoped for more from you but he never got his hopes too high, just keeping it to daydreaming in class and free periods.

He noticed you were off today. During training with the class, you were being harsher than usual. Sending small spikes into your unlucky training partner and much larger precisely aimed thorns into their clothes to pin them to the ground. Whispering into the air and summoning bright green vines to shield you if someone ever got close enough to you. If they bursted through your vine wall, you came at them with thorns the size of large hunting knives and slashed them up almost ruthlessly. You didn’t talk much and your eyes held regret everytime you healed small pinpricks and cuts on your opponent after your sparring. Just muttering a small sorry and you were off to your next sparring partner.

Once the end of the school day arrived he immediately looked for you, the rest of the squad going off and finding Bakugo to question what he did to make you this upset. He found you in the same spot you were at during lunch and quickly sat down next to you, putting an arm around your shoulders and pulled you close to him, placing your head on his chest and your legs on his lap while resting his chin on top of your head. He could feel the shaking in your entire body before he heard the muffled sobs in chest. He ran one hand on your lower back and the other rubbing comforting circles with his thumb on your calf.

He didn’t say anything and he didn’t need to yet. He just pulled you closer and held you tighter while your muffled sobs continued to soak his shirt. He didn’t care that you ugly sobbed all over him, the only thing he cared about was making you feel better. Your sobs turned to hiccups and that turned to semi even breathing.

You couldn’t bring yourself to look at him but he sure as hell looked at you. He couldn’t help but think you look adorable, wiping your red eyes and pink nose with your sleeve. You thought and felt like you looked disgusting so you still refused to look at him. He sighed in defeat, not wanting you push you any further cause the last thing he wanted was to make you cry again.

He rested his chin on your head once again, never removing his hold. You found comfort in it as a bit awkward as it was. His heart was beating steadily and a bit faster due to worry. He was hoping you didn’t notice. All he wanted was for you to be happy and feel loved, even if it wasn’t with him. In his perfect fantasy world, you two would have dated from the start. But this world isn’t perfect.

“H-he was cheating on me, the entire time. I caught him in the act with another girl. And when I asked him how long, he looked at me like I was dumb and said ‘the entire time, you thought you meant something to me huh? You were just a prize to be won, another achievement over stupid Deku’ and I left. Is there something wrong with me? Is that why he cheated? I did all that I could to make him happy but my best just wasn’t enough” you cried. Sero’s eyes widened and his body tensed, you could almost see the words slap him in the face. He knew Bakugo wasn’t the gonna win any awards for ‘person of the year’ but he didn’t know the ash blonde could be this cruel.

He held you close and moved his hand to softly pet your hair, trying all his might to soothe you without revealing his true intentions for you. He was still hopelessly in love with you so seeing you sobbing almost made him confess. Although he wasn’t the most book smart, he knew how to read people and socialize like a pro. He held the almost painful flowering of the love he had for you.

“Oh sunflower, I’m so sorry. I’m so so sorry. I had no idea that this was even happening. The rest of the squad went to go after him after I went to find you. They must be beating the shit out of him right now and he definitely deserves every hit he takes.” He spoke softly to you, almost afraid of you bursting into tears again. Almost on cue, your sobbing continued but harder this time. All the times you had hope for the blonde and for the patience you had for him wasted, reality harshly scattering your romantic dreams to the wind like ash. You cried for the you a few weeks ago when you were so stupid and blind.

He just kept holding you, reassuring you that you were a good person who tried your best and that Bakugo was in the wrong here. Your sobs turned to sniffles soon enough and he decided that he needed to take care of you. He gently moved you off his lap and stood up, holding a hand out to you. The beating of his heart against his rib cage felt painful. He hurt because it hurt him seeing you so sad and his heart ached at the thought that you thought you were never good enough for anyone.

He put on a small comforting smile as he spoke. “Hey sunflower, lets go somewhere more comfortable okay? How does my room in the dorms sound? We could watch movies and you can let out everything judgment free.” He gave you the cute nickname one day when you sprouted the flower and handed it to him after he a particularly rough day. You presented it to him with a smile that rivals the sun and ironically told him that his own smile lit up a room better than said flower. His heart leapt in joy and soar at the memory but he hoped he would never have to use it in such a terrible situation.

You took his hand and he helped you to stand up. A small wavering smile on your soft lips while you held his hand tightly. “That sounds good Sero, I’m so sorry about ruining your shirt. I’ll wash it and return to you tomorrow after you change.” Your voice was heavy with sadness. He was walking the both of you with your fingers intertwined to the UA dorms while you spoke. The distant sounds of shouting from the bakusqaud and explosions filled the air and your wavering smile steadied for a bit after thinking about how hard everyone was chewing him out, especially your ‘sister from another mister’ Mina.

You both arrived at his room, immediately taking off your shoes and making yourself comfy in his hammock while he went to the bathroom to change his clothes. You didn’t even think about leaving or changing until Sero spoke. “I left extra clean clothes in the bathroom incase you wanna change out of your uniform. I know how hard today has been on you so feel free to go in and change if you want to. You also don’t have to worry about cleaning my clothes by the way, I’m doing laundry tomorrow.” His normal friendly tone sending a small spark comfort to your broken heart.

You nodded and said a small thanks as you went to the bathroom and changed into the pair of grey sweatpants and random band tee he set out for you. As you slipped them on, the smell of laundry detergent mixed with his natural scent of earth after a heavy rain shot a nice warmth through your entire body. His clothes were big and so incredibly comfortable that you couldn’t help the small smile that made its way to your face.

You exited the bathroom with a small smile and Sero immediately noticed how cute you were dressed in his clothes. He fought the heat that tried to make its way to his cheeks and ears with the clearing of his throat. He made his way to the beanbag next to his hammock that was facing the tv. He looked at you once again with his signature grin. “So what do you wanna watch?”

You didn’t get a chance to answer his question when the rest of bakusquad burst into his dorm, all scuffed up and dirty. Kiri and Mina immediately crying and tackling you in a bone crushing hug, apologizing and saying you didn’t deserve it. You smiled and squeezed them back and let them cry on your shoulders, you laughed internally when they seemed more upset than you were at moment. They were such good people. Kaminari was in idiot mode so Sero took care of him.

You and the squad spent the rest of night having a sleepover and watching movies, their cheery and energetic attitudes distracted you and you found yourself feeling better. Mina and you had everyone do face masks at one point. The love they all had for you was almost touchable. The warmth in your heart spread throughout your entire being, you forgot about Bakugo for that night.

Sero decided to confess at a later date, once your heart healed along with the help of him and his friends. A loving smile suddenly plastered on his face during a movie roast session going on between you, Kami, and Mina. Kiri patted him on the shoulder and gave him a thumbs up and a bright sharp toothed smile. He smiled back at his red headed friend and gave a small shake of his head.

He was happy for now. Just knowing you were on your way to mending your own heart, and not being alone while doing that. If he was the one to tape together the final pieces, he would be more than happy to do so.

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myaekingheart · 7 years

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I've honestly been in such a shit mood today, I swear. Like I was alright when I woke up, I guess, except every limb on my body ached. My legs have been really sore these days and so have my arms/hands and for absolutely no good goddamn reason. It's not like I exercise. Maybe that's why I'm sore, because of what I don't do versus what I actually do. I just...I don't know, all day I've just been feeling like I'm not a functional human being, that I can't do anything right. My boyfriend was getting on my case because there were all these wires on the floor and he kept telling me not to step on them yet there was hardly anywhere else to step, and then we were playing TERA all day, a game I had never played before, and turns out I accidentally chose the most complex class possible which was making literally everything impossible. I was getting so stressed out because everything was coming at me at once, I was like a magnet for enemies and they just kept slamming me and every time I leveled up, a million pop-ups would come up and I never had time to read them all or even read the dialogue with other characters important to the storyline because people kept coming up and attacking me. And of course my boyfriend inadvertently chooses the easiest and most powerful class to play as so all of this is just a piece of cake for him meanwhile I'm over here getting pounded. It also doesn't help that the camera would move every time I moved my mouse, which I am not used to at all, and it was stressing me out, I hate it. We played for nearly seven hours and I levelled up and everything but by the end of it I was so fucking overwhelmed, I had such sensory overload from everything coming at me at once. That's why I never play video games in the first place, because they just stress me out way too fucking much. I can only handle casual games like The Sims (that pause button is a godsend, I can't even tell you how many times I pause the game every time I play) or Solitaire (not that that's a video game so much as it's something old people play on the computer. I guess I am an old person). Single player, low stress shit. I was hoping to get a break after I signed off but instead, I got an email from my college that made me want to check my school account but when I tried to log in, it kept telling me the username and password I was entering was wrong even though I was positive it was right. I ended up calling my dad, who was the last one to log in to my school account, thinking it was his fault and that he had locked me out of my own account by being logged into it on his own computer or something but then he was getting locked out, the website suggested calling IT but it was after 6pm and IT was closed for the night so there went that idea, I was frustrated which was getting my dad frustrated and we were shouting at each other, it was just lovely. I ended up finally getting it fixed-- turns out the password I was so certain was right was actually wrong-- but things just didn't seem to end there. We've let the dishes pile up considerably over the last week or so, so as my boyfriend was cooking dinner he asked me to take care of the dishes. It should've been done days ago, honestly, but he works and goes to school and when he's not doing that, he's playing video games. I have no job and am out of school so I really have no excuse but if we're going to make one, I just never have the will to care. It's like that post I reblogged earlier today: I know I need to do this and my quality of life will decrease the more I let it sit there but I don't have the will to care, to get up and take care of it. That's pretty much me. I just don't have to motivation or will to do it. I know it needs to be done and that I should do it because my boyfriend has more to deal with than I do, I am literally a housewife, but I just...I wake up every morning and the only thing that gets me out of bed is my growling stomach and knowing that if i don't eat something, I'm going to make myself sick. But anyways, so he asked me to take care of the dishes while he cooked dinner which I obliged to because I mean, I should take care of it anyways. Apparently I am completely incapable of being a functional human being with the ability to do simple tasks because even doing dishes was a hardcore chore. Let the records show that I really hate doing dishes anyways (we don't have a dishwasher at our place and holy mother of fuck do I wish we did, doing the dishes is disgusting and just makes me not want to eat even more because who would keep their appetite scraping rotten, waterlogged food off of plates? Disgusting. I have to fight a gag reflex every time I'm subjected to it) but today things just went through the roof. Last time my boyfriend's mother was up, she did us a favor and bought us a new bottle of dish detergent which was great because we had ran out. She bought the jumbo size bottle which I mean, I get it, it's worth it because there's more and that's great. We won't have to buy detergent as frequently. The only issue is that I can't pick up the damn thing. It's too heavy and I can't fit my hand around it and when my hands are wet, say goodbye to every ounce of grip possible. This was the exact problem I was having tonight: I could not for the life of me pick up the damn bottle. I tried but I was not successful. I could lift it for a few seconds to try and squirt some detergent out but I had such a poor grip on the bottle that my aim was off and I was making a mess and the thing was slipping out of my hands all over the place and our sink is so tiny (and our kitchen for that matter) that water always drips over the side of the counter and onto the floor so I have to wipe that up or else it'll just be a nuisance and it's just so absolutely frustrating, I hate that something so motherfucking mundane aggravates me so fucking much. I was so stressed about it today, though, that I nearly broke down in tears. My boyfriend had to take an empty soap bottle from the bathroom and pour the detergent into there just to try and make things easier for myself. I never did finish. Half the dirty dishes are still just sitting there in the sink or on the counter probably collecting ants as they wait to be cleaned. I was going to do it after dinner but here we are almost four hours later and I never got around to it. Not like my boyfriend hounded me about it or anything, nor did he take care of it. Which is fine, whatever, I'll probably do it tomorrow or something. If I care enough. On top of all of this, we found out the cat has fleas so we had to order a flea collar and as we were talking about it briefly, trying to figure out how he got them (considering he's an indoor cat and is the only one in the house), I mentioned that maybe he picked them up at that hotel we all had to stay at for the hurricane. I started elaborating on it saying because that was the only time the cat had been outside since he and my boyfriend moved into the apartment and that the place is a pet friendly hotel anyways and even though the cat didn't interact with any other animals, that doesn't mean that the fleas couldn't have crossed over from another pet that was staying in the room before us or something. Before I got the chance to explain everything, however, my boyfriend stopped me not unkindly and said I didn't need to list everything off, that he already knew what I meant. Which was fine, I don't even know why I did it in the first place, but it just kind of bugged me that he stepped in and kind of cut me off. It probably would've bugged me regardless but it didn't help that I was already in a pretty iffy mood and feeling lowkey vulnerable from the rest of the day, so it only made matters worse. Since then, I've kind of just been sitting here quietly doing whatever in a sulky mood because why the fuck not? I feel sulky so I have the right to be sulky. It's only human anyways. He knows something is up but I never went into detail when he asked if I was okay, I just told him I was in a mood and felt like all day I've been doing everything wrong and like I'm not a functional human being and he just said something about "Well, I don't think you're useless and I love you" or whatever and got back to his video games. Not that he's been ignoring me or anything, like every so often he'll look over at me and make sure I'm doing alright, ask me what I'm up to (to which I reply "stupid bullshit"), and just a few minutes ago during a load screen he basically stared at me and rubbed my leg for a solid three minutes so there's that. To be completely honest, though, I don't even know why all of this is bugging me so much in the first place. I mean, I'm already a moody bitch as it is but I just feel like all of this is completely unwarranted, escalated bullshit. I feel like I freak out or get stressed at the most insignificant little things (like the other day I lost it because we bought two boxes of donuts at the store and my boyfriend left them on top of the microwave and when I opened the one the other morning, despite it having been sealed, there were still ants crawling all inside of it) and it pisses me off. I don't want to be this touchy yet here I am, the moody little bitch that I am. I don't know, maybe it's just the stress of living on my own that's really starting to weigh on me. Realizing that I have all of these adult responsibilities to deal with now like taking care of my own place and paying bills and eventually actually learning to drive and finding a job. Like okay, yeah, that should probably all be taken care of. It should've been taken care of years ago but look who procrastinates on literally every fucking thing? This bitch right here. I still have a hard time reminding myself that this isn't some little long distance visit like my boyfriend and I used to do, either. For a little over a year we were long distance and I'd travel back and forth about once a month to spend at least the weekend with him. I'd get a couple days to a week of no parental supervision, happy fun times worked around his work or school schedule, and it was all fine and dandy, you know, whatever. Then at the end of it all, my parents would pick me back up and take me home and I'd go back to mom's homecooked meals and sitting outside with the dog and watching Jeopardy during dinner, the whole family experience. Nearly two months later and I still don't think it's sunk in that all of that is gone now. There are little things that set off these default thoughts about going back home, like if my boyfriend and I are watching a show together on Hulu or something, I'll think to myself "Oh, we better binge on as much as possible because I won't be able to watch this when I get home!" or something. The thought of potentially going back home, like to visit or whatever, makes my stomach churn, too. I don't know when I'll get back down there next but I'm so conflicted. I want to go back to see my parents and my dog and my old house again and everything but then on the other hand, I want to keep my distance just because I know that's not mine anymore. I almost had to make plans to go back for a doctor's appointment in order to get some papers signed off for registering with the university I'm going to but [un]fortunately we found a way to make that not happen. I think my biggest thing is staying in my old bedroom and what's going to come of it. That bedroom was my sanctuary. I had spent so much time there, it had become so overrun with my things and my personality. It felt like crawling into a cozy little space in my mind at the end of every day where I'd sit up on my laptop til 4am relaxing and playing Friends or Fresh Prince reruns on mute in the background. It was cozy and warm and it looked like me and smelled like me and felt like me. It was my space. Now that I've moved out, 1) I don't have a "my space" anymore. Every space is an "our space" now. 2) That space in my parent's house has pretty much been gutted and generalized into just another room in a building I once occupied. It's not mine anymore. It's a free space open to any and all guests who come to that house. I hope they know that when they lay their head down at night, they're falling asleep in a room full of tears and memories. I don't know how I'm going to handle being that guest when I eventually go back, sleeping in a room that once belonged to me but isn't mine anymore. It haunts me. I don't want to think about it. I don't want to think about how weird going back to that house in general will be. None of those things in that place are mine anymore. It's not my home anymore to come back to. It's just a place where I used to live. I realize now that this has practically nothing to do with my crappy day but then again, if I'm talking about it, maybe it does? Every time I vent, that always seems to be what everything comes back to these days, my struggle to adjust to this new way of life. Maybe that's the foundation of everything after all. I know I was a being never meant for change, a plant who takes root in one space and refuses to leave without a lot of tugging and struggle. Hell, even going to that goddamn hotel for the hurricane was a struggle because I had to pack up and leave. I've said it before and I'll say it again: I am a plant and I was meant to be stationary. I used to think astrology and zodiac signs indicating hallmark aspects of people's personalities was just a bunch of bullshit but now I'm beginning to think maybe it's not such bogus after all. I don't know, seems like things are telling pretty accurately to me so far (I'm a Taurus, which means I'm an Earth sign, which I'm pretty sure correlates with the earth element which has to do with plants which is what I am pretty sure I am at this point because oh my god). Or maybe that's just stupid, I don't fucking know. Sometimes I feel like I don't know anything anymore and I don't really know how to feel about that. I don't like not knowing things. I don't like feeling stupid and uneducated, and yet somehow I always seem to label myself as such in an act of belittlement and low self esteem. I think very little of myself all the time always. I wish I could say I was humble but instead, I'm just cynical and probably a little depressed or whatever. I don't know, man. I don't know anymore. I just really don't know.

#ramblings #delete later #probably

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