#I’m so fucking happy I wanna stim

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AAAAAAAAA STIMMING STIMMING JUST WATCHED EPISODE 4 (I think) OF THE NEW SEASON OF DRAGONS RISING AND BOY THIS SEASON IS SUCH AN IMPROVEMENT FROM THE FIRST AND ITS SO GOOD AND ITS AMAZING AND COLE IS SO FUCKING GAY FOR THAT GUY AND THEYRE SO GAY THEYRE SO GAY, THAT GUY WHATS HIS NAME

DID YOU SEE THE WAY HE LONGINGLY LOOKED AT COLE NOT ONLY HAS THIS SEASON FIXED ALL THE CHARACTER WRITING FLAWS THAT THE PREVIOUS ITERATIONS OF NINJAGO HAD BUT IT ALSO CONFIRMED COLE GAY HE GAY FOR THIS MAN, THEYRE SO GAY, NO ONE STARES AT ONE PERSON THE WAY THIS GUY DOES AND ISNT GAY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AND ZANE WITH THE FRONICKY PLUSH AAARGHHH I CANT BELIEVE THIS THEYRE LETTING ZANE REST? WHAT HAVE I BEEN SAYING YALL EVEN IF TUMBLR HASNT EXPERIENCED ALL OF MY NINJAGO OPINIONS, YOU WILL UNDERSTAND I HAVE BEEN SAYING FOR YEARS THAT ZANE NEVER GETS A BREAK. HES ALWAYS WORKING, HES ALWAYS FORCED TO GET UP AND DO STUFF BUT THIS SEASON HES PLAYED VIDEO GAMES AND STAYED BEHIND, HES CHILLING WITH THE FROG MAN AND ITS SO GOOD AND AAAAAA I WANNNA WATCH MORE EPISODES BUT I WATCH IT WITH PEOPLE SO I HAVE TO WAIT BUT IT IS THE BEST.

I love the ninjago writers SO MUCH if anyone has like any information on the behind the scenes decisions and stuff that’s gone into the development of this season that’s changed and improved the previous issues tell me I wanna know! Argh I’m so happy, they finally gave Cole a family outside of the ninja team because let’s be real Cole was kinda sidelined for ages he needs a nice family of people who respect him and also he needs a hot purple boyfriend to look after him!

Lloyd isn’t an npc, he’s a human being with flaws?? Like actual? Logical? Flaws? He’s not just a main character anymore?? His flaws aren’t even super annoying either. And like CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW FUNNY IT IS THAT TIKTOK AND YOUTUBE CANONICALLY EXIST? THE NINJA ARE LIKE, TUMBLR SEXYMEN??? IN THE LEGO UNIVERSE?? THATS SO FUNNY, WHAT?

all the jokes feel like actual people talking, the writing feels natural for the first time in years! Zane isn’t constantly abused, he’s happy and frog man is the best character and if Lego doesn’t immediately release mini figures for frohicky and all the other minor characters that are pretty important I’m going to Sue.

also I haven’t watched the next episode but if it doesn’t explain what happened with Zane to end up with a frohicky plushie I’m going to go ballistic, alright?

Hot take but I’m glad Jay isn’t there anymore ik he’s probably going to come back but he’s honestly the worst ninja nowadays. And also, KAI CHARACTER ARC FIXED??

KAI ISNT INSUFFERABLE UNLEARNING AND RUDE ANYMORE HES AN ACTUAL GROWING CHANGING PERSON NOW, AND LIKE I USED TO HATE THE SELF INSERT NEW GUYS BUT THEYRE SO WELL WRITTEN NOW IT JUST MAKES ME LIKE EM’ and sure Aaron can get a little annoying but he’s so autistic coded like openly autistic coded he’s like “is there a social cue I’m not picking up on?” COME ON, MAN. COME ON!!

also like I said, girlie, baby, Sora, honey, you are the GOAT. WE STAN!

also if something ever happened to Zane couldnt sora just like, fix him on the spot?

my only complaint is the fact the ninja haven’t just taken off the masks before the wolf people turn all magic-y like bbg just take it off.

one last thing, JUST SAY CHIMA, WE ALL KNOW THAT GUY IS FROM LEGO CHIMA DONT HIDE IT EMBRACE IT. AAAAA

also that skeleton lady kinda..

Look I’m an undertale fan I have skeleton brainrot, ok? Don’t judge me

#lego ninjago #ninjago #ninjago dragons rising #ninjago dr spoilers #ninjago dr s2 #dragons rising spoilers #dragons rising ninjago #dragons rising

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15 and 19 ?

15. What do you love about the lees you know? I would love to tell you. Call out time!!

@magicaltickles who I’m so so so glad I met and whom I love dearly. They won’t admit it, till the day they die probably, but they’re actually such a cute lee. They’re very bratty and dealing with that is fun as hell as well as right up until they crumble to a blushy giggly mess. When you know just how to get them it’s a treat actually. Love it~ . They’re very soft. Giggly Em is best Em and also because I’ll never shut up about it, cutest fucking laugh and smile ever. I can’t wait to get you my silly <3

@redderthanatomato the other half of the sunmoon couple that I’m also so fucking glad I met and who I also love dearly. Actually so fucking adorable hello? Their reactions. The fact that I made them squeal. Once to my knowledge at least. Or curl up X3. Just aa aa aaaaa. But yeah I’m the one that gets flustered easily, huh?~ You did in fact pick the perfect name. Also don’t listen to her when she says she’s bratty. It won’t take long to get rid of that <3. Also girly’s laugh and smile as well? You best believe it. Adorable. I can’t wait to get you too silly girl <3

@faleesia My shawty bae!! One of my first true friends here that I honestly can’t imagine my life without them either. While I haven’t had many lering experiences with her because she’s usually the one murdering me, I caught a slither of it when they easily folded from the mention of scribbles under their chin. That was absolutely positively adorable and I smile about it every time I remember. Also her giggles are so so cute and I cannot wait to get my hands on them either and get rewarded by hearing them from my own doing <3

@anothertickleblog My sweet boi!! Another beloved sweetheart. I don’t have much lering experiences with them either. Buttt there was a time before I actually discovered I was a switch where I told him if I ever met them even though I’m not a switch I would get them anyway because of how cute they are which they were denying at the time. That reaction after that I got was oh so adorable <3. Also there were times when they got quickly flustered at the mention of a poke and those were great too. Also has an adorable laugh ugh.

@oceanic-vampire my favorite goth🥺. Love youuuu. Never teased them for long(usually because they turn the tables and I crumble wayyy too easily <3) but when I did? Ugh adorable adorable wanna squeeze them. Never forgetting when they made me laugh really hard telling me that they actually don’t have knees. Also very adorable beautiful laughter. You’re too kind being amused at my goofy stupidity <3

@shyleereading my dear!! Love her enjoy her company can’t wait to meet her🥺. And find a way to get overwatch so we can actually play🙄. She’s actually adorably easy because she can’t take compliments and watching her short circuit and deny and deny is so so fun and cute. You deserve them dear. But yknow I find that I have to beware 👀.

And last but certainly not least @thecutestler as I’ve always said is actually just the cutest lee. So stoked we’re friends X3!! Just adorable adorable! I actually can’t take it. She gives me cute aggression actually. Her reactions make me giggle /pos. Saying my name if a tease especially got to you is too fucking cute. <3

In conclusion everytime I have teased all of you the happy stims went crazyyyyy. Cough n e ways-

19. Already answered dear

#gracefully grey #I hope you don’t mind me tagging and talking about you despite the fact you’re on hiatus 👉🏾👈🏾 #90% of ​this post is just me talking about how cute my mutuals are LMAO #and it would be longer if I really talked about much I love these people <3 #endearing em #remarkable red #funny fal #extraordinary ess #sparkling serena #kawaii keke #tickle ask game #tickle asks #I got an ask!! #tickle blog #tickle community #tickle fluff

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Actual things said between me and my brothers as TMNT quotes Pt2: TMNT bois see Across the Spiderverse!

((SPOILERS AHEAD AFTER THE LINE BREAK!!! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!!))

Part 1

Rise!Mikey: *excited stimming and screaming* I WANT THIS MOVIE INJECTED INTO MY VEINS! THE ART WAS SO FUCKING COOL!

Rise!Donnie: *excited stimming but in a monotone voice* I apologize for the person I’m going to become now because this sound track is now my entire personality.

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12!Mikey: See Across the Spiderverse is so good and is also a huge middle finger to Marvel comics for all the shit they’re putting my boi Spidey through!

12!Leo: Oh yeah, one hundred percent! This movie feels more like how Spiderman is then the actual comics as of late!

12!Mikey: See Marvel! Spiderman can be fucking happy for once!

12!Leo: *chuckling* You got beef with Marvel?

12!Mikey: *riled up* Oh I got so much fucking beef with Marvel! Talking bout how “either Peter Parker’s happy or Spiderman is happy. One always has to be fucked over.” Like get out of here with that bullshit! You saw how happy Peter B. Parker was with Mayday and he’s still Spiderman? FUCK YOU MARVEL IT CAN WORK! PUT ME IN THE GODDAMN WRITTERS ROOM!

12!Leo: *laughing* You think you can write better?

12!Mikey: My 10k word Spiderman fanfic on ao3 with over six thousands kudos begs to differ! SQUARE THE FUCK UP MARVEL!

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03!Raph: I am so fucking glad they didn’t have a love triangle in this movie. Honest to god I was like lowkey worried about that.

03!Mikey: Oh yeah, for sure. Thank god Hobie was actually cool.

03!Raph: He was so FUCKING cool! Oh my god! Like I know everyone and their mother was fawning over Miguel but honestly I could give less of a shit about him cuz FUCKING SPIDER PUNK! HOLY SHIT!

03!Mikey: *laughing* Is this a “I don’t know if I wanna date him or be him” kind of situation?

03!Raph: It’s a: “I don’t know if I want to slow dance with him at prom or steal his entire gender” type of situation!

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Bay!Mikey: You guys been hearing this bull shit some people are saying about Spiderverse?

Bay!Donnie: *groaning* Don’t fucking remind me. People are stupid and it’s all over my fucking TikTok and Twitter!

Bay!Leo: Which one? The pissy conservatives complaining about “forced diversity” and “woke” culture? The extreme leftists making it about racism when that literally was NOT the point of the fucking movie? Or is it the transphobes bitching at the mere INSINUATION that Gwen Stacy could actually be trans? LIKE AND IF SHE FUCKING IS?! WHAT THEN CUNT?!

Bay!Raph: You know what? Fuck it! Piss them off even more and in the next movie just full on fucking say it! They can’t handle subtlety so might as well throw it in their faces since they’re complaining about it so much!

Bay!Mikey: Shit, I mean Miles is bi in the comics, he can come out as well!

Bay!Donnie: *super serious voice* Hello Miles Morales, who is bisexual and my love interest, I, Gwen Stacey, am a transgender woman!

Bay!Mikey: *T posing* Omg, Gwen Stacey, who is a transgender woman and my love interest, I, Miles Morales, who is bisexual, appreciate your willingness to trust me enough to share these private conversations with me even though you have absolutely no obligation to do so!

Bay!Leo: *absolutely losing his shit* Oh god it’s like it’s being written by a fucking AI!

Bay!Raph: The first 10 minutes of the movie are them fixing up the dimensional bull shit, then the rest of it is group therapy and coming out stories!

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87!Leo: *crying, sobbing, screaming*

87!Mikey: How did you NOT know it was a two parter? It said it at the beginning of the movie!

87!Leo: EXCUSE ME FOR GETTING ENGROSSED IN THE SPECTICAL OF EVERYTHING!!!

#tmnt #rottmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt 2003 #tmnt 2012 #tmnt 87 #bayverse tmnt #tmnt leonardo #tmnt leo #tmnt raphael #tmnt raph #tmnt donnatello #tmnt donnie #tmnt michelangelo #tmnt mikey #sibling banter #bunny talks #bunny writes #atsv spoilers

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The concert has wrapped up and I’m omw home so here’s my highlights:

- Everything was vibrating so much. It was a learning curve. It made my poor little sister nauseous but at least she managed to get thru TX2’s set! She sat in the back and had a good view

- I got thrown around a bit in the mosh pit. I also was super close to the stage I swear Evan looked directly at me which is like. The most normal thing ever but it still made me so giddy

- I made some buddies kinda! Some boys were handing out necklaces and glow sticks and I got 2 noise makers. I hung out with them for a while and they enlisted me to go give them out and so I just stuck a noise maker in my mouth and would go up to ppl hold things out and blow the noise maker at them awkwardly. No one knew what to do with that interaction so they’d just take it and start laughing. It did entertain people quite a bit. Except I did wreak havoc with the noise makers. All through Teenage Joans’ set ppl would blow their noise makers instead of cheering

- I got a picture with those boys. They also had an autism creature plushie.

- TX2 was handing out the shirts ppl were buying and one kid with TX2 written on their face in eyeliner wearing a button up and tie like he used to in all his videos got their shirt from him and they were shaking and grinning so much stimming excitedly with these big shiny eyes and I felt so much joy on their behalf. I hope they can look back on this part of the night as one of the coolest things to happen to them

- Teenage Joans had a chill presence but the audience loved them. We were all so happy to be playing along and singing with them and stuff. TX2 riled everyone up a TON there was screaming jumping moshing everyone was yelling along it was INTENSE. NOAHFINNCE was super exciting and kept up the crowd’s energy but in a distinctly different way from TX2.

- The bands hyping each other up was so cute. Definitely was in part just etiquette, but it felt like they were like. So happy for each other and Noah especially kept talking about how awesome the other bands were. Probably in part bc they rlly hyped him up for being the headliner. Literally during their set Teenage Joans had everybody chanting his name.

- Someone shouted to Tahlia, the lead singer of Teenage Joans to adopt them. They said “legally I can’t do that, but in spirit I’m adopting you”

- Actual interaction between Tahlia and the audience: “how’s everyone feeling? Everyone feeling good? Everyone feeling safe? Anyone feeling unsafe?” “I’m feeling gay!” “You’re feeling gay? We love to see it! We love to hear it.”

- Noah: I recently got diagnosed with autism-

*The crowd erupts into cheering*

Noah, slightly taken aback as this obviously wasn’t the intended segue into his song about autism: “fuck yeah autism!”

- My sister and I got a picture with Evan and Cam and their drummer photobombing in the back. We also got shirts :]

- “You guys look like you wanna throw shit at me. Okay, I’m gonna get off the stage so you can throw shit at me because yesterday I got hit in the head. So I’m gonna count down from three and then on… zero… whatever comes after one…” -Noah

- Noah opened and closed with 2 of his most popular songs, GROWING UP ON THE INTERNET and Life’s a Bit

- I have awful taste I think bc I’m so attracted to Evan. When he came to handle shirt sales I just stood and watched him and took a photo of him bc I can’t ever be normal about boys I have a crush on

- My sister said that it was a little weird being right next to Evan bc she could “feel his back and it was weird.” His hair was literally dripping with sweat so I don’t blame her tho LMAO 😭

- Noah’s guitar got messed up during the beginning of one song and he had to start over

- Cam was wearing a vest that said “SERVICE DOG DO NOT PET”. At one point during an instrumental part of one of the songs Evan pointed to him and yelled “Give it up for my best friend! Make some noise!” which was adorable-

- NOAHFINNCE played two trans rage songs which is so real. They both absolutely slapped if you were curious.

- Noah, at the beginning of SCUMBAG (one such trans rage song): “This song is not about JK Rowling! Legally!”

- Compare to TX2, who I guess got legally cleared to name drop US senators in Randy McNally because he not only did that but also told us it was about them before playing the song. Which he did play btw and it was AWESOME.

- Everyone was dressed so cool this was obviously such an event for everyone and like. The joy everyone felt was palpable every set. Everyone was excited to hear from and get along with Teenage Joans, admiring them, TX2 channeled that into aggression and encouraged everyone to go fucking nuts, and you could just FEEL how much everyone loved NOAHFINNCE. I was almost overwhelmed by the happy energy in the air. I think I love live music more than I thought by a very large margin

- My mom posted our pics on Facebook with a joke about how she never expected to be in another standing-room-only mosh pit concert again. After she and my sister left she also periodically texted me to ensure I was still doing ok and every time I had just gotten done screaming my lungs out cheering.

- They were serving free cups of water (it was at a bar) and at one point I grabbed one and started drinking and then I was like “oh someone could’ve EASILY drugged this” so I started making my way toward a middle aged lady with a kid and like three teens wearing pride flag capes and studded belts and chokers cuz I figured in case someone HAD drugged it they would be the safest people to assume would care about my wellbeing and not allow me to be harmed.

- Unsurprisingly, no one had drugged the cup of water. But I did feel pretty safe around the middle aged lady and her kid and all the teens wearing pride flag capes and studded belts and chokers

- Everyone had a different way of ordering the audience. Tahlia would tell us “ok now I’m gonna sing this and you sing it back to me! Can you do that? Let’s go!” And Evan was more like “You bitches ready to FUCKIN MOSH?!” and Noah was kind of in between like “now you’re gonna jump! I want you to make the fucking floor shake!”

- I hurt my elbow somehow. That connective tissue do be disordered 😔 (<- hypermobile ehlers danlos syndrome)

- Apparently in August Teenage Joans are gonna be back in Minnesota where they were tonight with sleeping with sirens which is INSANE. Their merch guy (who has also been transporting them, and who they had us cheer for during their set) told me that they were “very excited” for it and I was like yeah no shit?? It’s sleeping with sirens?? Who WOULDN’T be excited that’s mfing HUGE (<- I did not say this. I said “yeah, I bet! I’d be excited too”)

- All around an amazing time!! I had a lot of fun and I’m very glad I got to go and now and am familiar with 2 new punk artists

BRO THIS ALL SOUNDS AWESOME, I’M SO FUCKIN’ JEALOUS I WISH I COULD’VE GONE TOO EVEN THOUGH I PROBS WOULD’VE ENDED UP DEAD OR PASSED OUT BY THE END OF THE NIGHT-

#i wish i could’ve been there especially for when they played randy mcnally- #asks #answered #valleyfthdolls

[girisstuxxd]

WHAT NEEDS TO HAPPEN IN SOLAR OPPOSITES SEASON 4

*terry and korvo to resolve their dispute from the little mountain lake episode*

*the replicants (or pupa) to call terry and korvo “dad” or “dads”

*The valentines special to LIVE UP TO ITS NAME JESUS CHRIST DONT DO THIS TO ME, PLEASE LET THEM BE ROMANTIC PWEEEASE I BEG*

More yumyalack moments! Poor emo boy:((

Jesse focused episode

TERVO WEDDING TERVO WEDDING TERVO WEDDING

What will probably happen in solar opposites season 4

The dispute will be brushed off but then later on they come back to it and make up/ just burry it

The pupa will mistakenly call them dad or dads and then terry starts crying

Mayhaps ONE ounce of romance….pwease 🥺

Yumyalack does his own thing/ side mission

More screetime dedicated to the wall (which I’ll happily take as well)

(Might come back to this post when the episodes actually release to see what I got right, lawl xD)

Solar opposites season 4 ‼️SPOILERS‼️

*typing on August 14th, 11pm*

Okay so…I was only right about a few things XD

Their specific dispute that we saw last season (little mountain lake) WAS actually talked about/ mentioned? But mostly through the red goobler (Chris) explaining it to Jesse when she had her own goobler. I actually liked that him and korvo actually met again so it could be explained that for korvos goobler to disappear he has to get over that specific issue he has (like Jesse did).

Pupa hasn’t called them dads yet, but he acts more of a toddler (and they acknowledge that what their family needs to do is important for the pupa and I like that structure they had) which is AMAZING, because holy shit they act like a family so many times this season 😫💝💕💕 (and call each other a family and it’s amazing 🥺💕💕)

ONE OUNCE OF ROMACE?!?!!?! ERmMMMM more like 10 cups of it 0//////0 we were FED a BOUNTIFUL this season and the village is thriving.

Cough cough pinroll

Yumyalack does do his own thing and gets a bit of characterization but nothing else really. The birth a day episode was like a little glimpse of it, however it was very nice :3 and I like the way they’re taking his character.

More screen time DEFINITELY, and FINALLY A MOMENT OF FUCKING PEACE AND TRANQUILITY IN THE WALL THANK FUCKING CHRIST IT WAS A RELIEF. The silvercops also got alot of attention here as well! And it was pretty good; the world that was created by symbolically establishing anti-cop messages (which I LOVE) was amazingly done and I appreciate that they didn’t shy away from showing the ugly side of things (ie. discrimination, violence, gentrification, etc).

The ending of the silvercops plot kinda confused me though like wtf? Uhhhhh what’s happening….?

❤️ 💕bonus stuff!! 💝💞

Canonical terry dyscalculia? FUCK YES YESSS

WE GOT MORE SHLORP WORLD BUILDING YESS

Aisha characterization yayyyyy!!! I love her so much 🥺

Jesse and yumyalack sibling bonding!!!! Yippie yippie yippie

Not gonna lie the way korvo acts this season makes me wanna punch him, like why is he a dick?? Sure his character in early seasons was grumpy but he never really went out of his way to be an ass, just controlling or salty, but no! The whole goobler thing with him and Jesse and him roasting yumyalack went way too far (in my opinion) and it also just made me uncomfortable like dude, that’s ur kids SHUT THE FUCK UPPP rahhhhhh.

Terry and korvos relationship definitely improves though.

The ending of the season…..*deep breath* I’m mixed about it, like I know it’ll be solved in the upcoming valentines special but a little part of me is worried that it’s just gonna be a “hahah we got you, they’re actually gonna be humans and get discriminated against again” and that makes me scream.

I’m mixed about it because I’m curious about how this’ll work yet I fucking hate how they couldn’t just talk it out at home (like they usually do)

I just *hhHHYGYGYGYgy* I..I’m scared, but also excited.

Overall, I did really like this season, a lot of the parts made me happy stim and about make my heart skip beats. I’m so ecstatic for what’s next 🥺💕💕

#solar opposites #solar opposites korvo #solar opposites terry #solar opposites pupa #solar opposites yumyulack #solar opposites jesse #solar opposites season 4 #if at least ONE thing happens #I’ll shit myself #tervo wedding needs to happen I swear #i’ll cry #no wedding :(…..yet #the gays really gayed this season #just take them to therapy for fucks sake

[sadnignored]

I had the craziest sex dream last night of my friend who I was hanging out with! (Skip to the bottom if you just wanna read the dream)

I think the motivation for the dream started when we were on the couch. I was laying on my side and I moved their hand to touch my hair and face hoping they would play with my hair and give me soft touches on my cheek. Sadly they’re….odd so they ended up stimming on my cheek and head. Tapping and tapping until my face was slightly numb. Oddly enough I didn’t hate it.

But eventually as the night got along I flattened their hand on my cheek and they seemed to get the message. Their fingers stroked my cheek and slid down towards my neck every so often. I was so close to moaning when they lightly gripped my chin. All I wanted was for them to wrap their hand around my neck and squeeze ever so slightly, but honestly I would’ve been happy if they just rested their hand on my neck.

Fast forward to my dream. I don’t remember all of it but I remember sleeping. I was sleeping in my own dream 😂, I feel like I might’ve been in and out of sleep with how the dream felt. But anyway I was sleeping and as I’m tossing and turning i feel this heat pooling in my stomach. I brush it off cause I’m so fucking tired, but it keeps growing and growing until I’m literally moaning in my sleep.

The noises coming out of me start to wake me up out of this sleep, as I do I realize that someone is between my legs. The heat I felt was lips and tongue teasing me until I woke up. I was so delirious from sleep that I didn’t notice a second person above me holding my shoulders down until they spoke. It was odd because the voice was of my friend and when I looked down that same friend was eating me out.

So two of the same person were playing with me. I opened my mouth to ask what was going on but all I could do was moan as something was inserted into me. My back arched and my mouth that was open was now filled with a warm thick cock. I was confused because my friend didn’t have a dick yet nor were they dominant in the slightest. But that smirk they had plastered on their face as they fucked my mouth was enough to tell me that this clearly wasn’t the person I hung out with earlier in the night.

As the two fucked me from both ends they conversed like a normal conversation, like I wasn’t even there!! They called me dirty names and spoke about what to do with me but didn’t do anything. They were taking their sweet time fucking me until they had enough. And despite all my moaning and whining underneath them they continued an agonizingly slow pace. As my orgasm neared closer and closer.

My goddamn dog woke me up to tell me it was time for breakfast!!! It was 5:39 am and I was about to cum from a dream!!! And now I’m horny and upset that I didn’t just go upstairs to where my friend was sleeping and ask them to fuck me anyway. Ugh!!!! I’m pathetic

#little piggy #piggy girl #bd/sm kink #pussyeaten #cnc somno #im pathetic #somno fantasy #please fuck me

[drill-teeth-art]

not sure how well I can articulate my thoughts rn but your artstyle fucking slaps & your colors are so vibrant & all around your character designs are so nice to look at. also your stuff & designs about the cassettes, about tfa starscream w the allspark, about the constructicons, about the insecticons just. yes god. the stims the pronouns your hcs & aus are so GOOD!! you inspire me to think outside the box & get creative when handling g1's artstyle & make me confident about having my own characters be neurodivergent, I get a lot of inspiration from your stuff & it makes me so happy all the time. thank you so much for doing what you do /gen (all of this is /gen)

GOT DAMN !!! Thank you so much for this omg… It’s really so amazing every time I hear how my work inspires others. Honestly, I think every Transformer who enters my Field Of Interest gets blasted with my “Gender Non Conforming + Neurodivergent” beam. It’s super fun to work with and expand on the canon materials in wacky ways, and I’m so happy it’s something I do that’s giving you confidence and inspiration! Keep making art! Draw and write what you want to see! That’s some advice that’s always helped me. Like. Do I wanna see this character explored in a certain way? I do it. My art is first and foremost for me. And I’m glad my work is something that gives others a similar confidence. Keep making out there! Stay epic!

#ask #oc: drill teeth

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Ooc / I thought I had cancer last April (2022)

So I went to the gynecologist today, and the doctor said my cervix is normal and there’s no worry for cancer! (I got HPV, my stomach used to hurt)

I know people would have been happy. I do feel a relief. But there’s also anger, I really thought this was gonna be the death of me. I’ve wanted to d1e for so many years, I thought this was gonna be my ticket out of here.

I almost wished I had heart problems and cervix problems. I didn’t. I’m healthy.

i am so used to being in battle. but I’ve moved countries, I’m away from my family, I’m physically healthy. I am in a healthy working environment. I am not worried financially. I am not in toxic relationships. I am still in my battle mode but there’s nothing to fight anymore. I don’t know how to live in peace.

I find it hard to love life.

I watched The Black Parade Is Dead! and stimmed the fuck out. Very timely. I don’t have cancer, and Famous Last Words became very suiting mantras. “I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone, nothing you can say can stop me going home”.

I didn’t expect a gynecologist appointment would turn out to be so emotional. I would be getting my second HPV shot three months later and I should be done with this chapter. I’ll keep doing cervix exams once every three months for a year. Then every year. I’m still having a medical burnout 😭

how am I supposed to just love life. How am I supposed to just love life. How am I supposed to just love myself. Fuck this.

I’m a very capable person and I’m sure I’ll get it, maybe in a year. I’m just starting out and it feels weird, hollowing and I feel inadequate. It’s all part of the journey.

I don’t wanna get dinner tonight. And maybe that’s okay. It’s 9:23pm and life feels weird.

[thefandom-casserole]

Episode Ten- Dads Don’t Do Other Dads Dirty

My relisten notes

DadFact: Glenn Close Trio is the Jazz-mix Christmas cover band!!!! Betrayal >:c

Aww after Morgan died I’m betting Nick was alone for Christmas every. single. year. That’s sad

DadFact: Darryl was on DILFs of Disney Land (got his 15 minutes of fame) (Dad. Is. Little. Fat.)

DadFact: Henry’s second favorite drink is ROOM TEMPERATURE water

DadFact: Ron’s middle name is ‘F’

DaddyFact: Anthony recommends RPG (The Witch’s Gambit) things if you wanna get into rp games but dnd seems like a lot

AHHH PAEDEN’S INTRODUCTION SOON IM SO FUCKING EXCITED YOU HAVE NO IDEA IM SO STOKED HE’S MY FAVORITE CHARACTER IN THE WHOLE SERIES IM SO EXCITED AHHHHH

Paeden

Paeden

Paeden

Ahhhhhhh

Thank you Ben. 

UNFORTUNATE FOSTER CHILDREN

:D :D :D :D

I love how most of these kids are using magic but Paeden literally NEVER uses magic except for his final scene

I’m stimming so hard I missed Paeden so much

Gunan Duckworth is 13

Paeden is 8

“He fights with vigor of someone who’s trying to get back at someone who’s died” OH GOODNESS

EYE OF THE TIGER 

HE HAS THE EYE OF THE TIGER

GOD HES MY FAVORITE CHARACTER I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

Darryl you will love him later, you get your dad and you get your second son!!!!!!!!

“Would it impress you?” Nick 💔 

PAEDEN AND NICK (I miss Nickolas FOSTER and Paeden’s dynamic)

Nick did Taekwondo 

“It has been several hours since we’ve had a kid death” People (me) need to do more angst involving the UFC and Paeden

I LOVE PAEDEN SO MUCH THIS IS INSANE IM SO UNWELL ABOUT HIM OMG OMG IM SO INSANE

AHHHH HIS FIRST INTERACTION OKAY OKAY I CAN BE NORMAL *starts shaking whoever is reading this and gets louder* I CAN BE NORMAL

GAHAJSJSJDJNDKDK

In real life it has been five minutes

I cannot be normal

“Sorry Paeden that this is the character I used your name for” IF I WAS PAEDEN I WOULD BE SO HAPPY. PAEDEN. WHOEVER YOU ARE. YOU ARE MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE PERSON EVER IM SO SORRY YOU’VE NOW GOT AN AUTISTIC ATTACHED TO YOU. I OWE YOU A WOOKIE LIFE DEBT LIKE CERN

Glenn is offering an eight year old to join his drug empire 💀 

🎵The eye of the tiger 🎵 

“You have a plus seven in persuasion!?” Just wait. It gets worse (better)

“I don’t like to fight before a fight, put them away” Paeden you actually have the best quotes

Henry’s kids WOULD love the UFC. We needed more Paeden-Twins interactions 

I took a break and now I’m listening on the bus next to my busmate. Oh boy

Awwww poor Gunnar

Still hate him he’s still a jerk with Paeden

AGAHJSJDJ I ADORE PAEDEN GOOD GOD

My ultimate favorite character ever !!!!!!! 

I STILL ADORE PAEDEN AND NICK/NICHOLAS DYNAMIC THEY ARE SO SIBLING CODED

PAEDEN IMMEDIATELY JOINING THEIR CREW HE REALLY IS THE GUY EVER

Oooh Henry’s going off on Glenn

Party of eight? Henry, Glenn, Darryl, Ron, Nick, Paeden, and Cern…? Hmmm. (I’m joking I’m joking)

Glenn canonically goes to a therapist!!!!!!!!!!!

Wellllll Glenn betting on children gets us Paeden which is evennnnn betttttter

“I feel statements” 

These things actually work so poorly. It ends up in hilarious fights 

NICK KNOWS THAT THEY HAVE TO EAT GRANT’S SKIN OMG

What was he thinking at that moment?

“Dad I’m sorry!” NICK NO OMG I LOVE NICK SO MUCH

“CHECK PLEASE” best ending ever

#Dndads #dndads spoilers #dndads s1 #dungeons and daddies #walruses8me relisten notes

[stinkyme]

ASHDHCHGEHAUDHSGHA OMG I LOVE YOU!!!

Thank god I’m not the only one who thinks abt stuff like this…

Also, desperate, horny, subby men? FUCK YES I LOVE THAT (I love love looooove the idea of topping and making guys, especially those who are actually doms *cough cough…jouno…cough…* beg and squirm…)

Also, you are so sweet too, I’m literally happy stimming so hard right now I wanna pepper lil smooches all over your face and AHDHSHSG I’m so exited every time I see any of your posts on my dashboard!

I don’t wanna pressure you to write tho, take your time, I just had to share this thought, but I’d be literally freaking out, and BARKING violently if you’d do this…

Here, a kith ^^ <3

Love, Anon who requested subby, horny Nikolai

JSHSJS I LOVE YOU EVEN MORE!!!!

not at all....not at all. I think about it a lot as well, looking for new ideas and ways to filth them all out JSJSJS

OHHHHH YES, I LOVE SUBMISSIVE, PATHETIC, WHINY MEN TOO <3

listen about jouno, he is a submissive slut, i can see him being so twisted about it in a sense where he would pick up on your excitement with his senses and hear your heartbeat grows fast and quick from dominating and humiliating him to the point where he could cum only from listening to those sensations that happen inside your body when you do it yk what i mean :33

AHH YOU ARE SO LOVELY PLEASE!! THANK YOU FOR ALL LITTLE KISSES!!! I AM GIVING YOU SO MANY MORE BACK!! MWAH MWAH MWAH <3

YOU ARE MAKING ME MELT RN SNSNSN I AM SO HAPPY YOU GET EXCITED :") THAT'S TOO SWEET. PLEASE.

No, no, don't worry at all my sweet Niko!! No pressure at all, I planed on doing submissive Nikolai after I finish this request and your ask really encouraged me and I absolutely love how your mind works! hehehe huge kiss for you my darling :D <3 i hope i will be able do it really soon, i need submissive Nikolai asap hehe :3 <3

Love, Stinky who loves Nikolai in all shapes and forms and absolutely adores your brain, m w a h <3

#stinkyanswers #niko anon <3 #YOU ARE SO CUTE!!!!! #I WANNA KISS YOU ALL OVER #I AM SO EXCITED TO WRITE THIS FIC HEJDJSJSJS #I CAN'T WAIT LITERALLY #I JUST HOPE I DO IT WELL #HUGE KISS FOR YOU MY DARLING!!! <3

[vampirebutterflies]

15 Questions!

tagged by the shrimply fantastic @not-nervous-jester (ꈍᴗꈍ)ε｀*)

1. Were you named after anyone?

…my first name is partially after a dog. yeah.

A show dog that my paternal grandparents bred and showed, so not just some random pet, but still. A dog. At least my full first name slaps so it’s not that bad.

I share a middle name with my paternal grandma not the biggest fan but I digress and I’ll be changing that to one of my chosen names (Asteroid) to keep the initial but also make it Mine yk? Orig just is Not the vibe for me. And also I keep forgetting if it’s spelled with or without an e (it’s without lmao)

2. When was the last time you cried?

Two days ago! I absolutely fucking hate crying and it’s taken me until the last few months to really. Be able to more freely. ‘Cause I’d repressed it all so heavily that I just straight up couldn’t 😌 My beloved beef is very patient and very kind in helping me though

3. Do you have kids?

Nope and absolutely never thanku very much

4. Do you use sarcasm?

Me? Sarcastic? Never! Can’t believe you’d ever think that

(……/s)

5. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

Honestly? Visual appearance, I’m very quick to pick up on anything interesting like tattoos or piercings or what they’re wearing or their hair or eyes / mouth / makeup or jewellery etc etc. Not in a judgemental way at all, I just really like looking at people ??? that sounds weird. it is a lil weird. that’s fine it’s not mean or gross weird. I’m very much a complimenter too so if there’s something I like about you or what you’re wearing or if you’re just. really really pretty etc I’ll just. Say it

Online is probably things like your own lil spelling and grammar things (like u or you or if you capitalise stuff) and if you come across as kind / kinda dickish. Also your ✨aesthetic✨ if there’s one available to be perceived

6. What’s your eye colour?

Dark green?? Green-hazel?? Not to be that annoying person but truly struggled answering this for my photo ID card— asking four people got four different responses from dark blue to brown and they’re absolutely Neither of those so like. Shrug. Whatever you wanna call this one

7. Scary movies or happy endings?

I’m an absolute lily livered pussy assed lil baby WIMP so scary things can be very very good and very fun HOWEVER I’ll be making distressed noises and hiding behind a pillow and jumping and flap stimming when it gets even a lil too much

8. Any special talents?

god I wish uhhhhh floristry maybe? Not to toot my own doot but some of the pieces I turned out were fucking BANGERS

9. Where were you born?

I fell to this planet during a meteor shower, I was barely formed with no one but the worms and beetles for company until my parents unearthed me from the dirt after the fae requested their assistance in finding me

jk I was evicted in a hospital about half an hour away from here

10. What are your hobbies?

uhhhhhh running my damn mouth, thrifting and upcycling, amateur photography, silly lil outfits and makeup looks(? Does that count?) I’m trying to get back into art as well??

11. Do you have any pets?

Yes!! Technically Diva’s the only one who’s Mine tm everyone else is family owned but two cats (Brave— 3yo rescue fluff, and Diva— 11yo Burmese), two dogs (Tripp and Chia) and a yellow budgerigar called Chicken or Special Budgie

12. What sports do you play / have you played?

*horrified noises*

I played volleyball and netball in school though that wasn’t the worst

13. How tall are you?

5’2. on a good day. 🥺

14. Favourite subject in school?

English, science and art (specifically visual art and wearable art in highschool)

15. Dream job?

Is “pretty twunky femboy faggot living the dream with lots of people adoring me and giving me lots and lots of money just for looking pretty and being fun” an option? If so how do I get there and where do I sign up

That aside. I’d absolutely fucking love to work at the museum doing science communication and conservation work!!!! Particularly I’d love to specialise in the space / minerals / animals / plants / natural sciences sections. Absolute dream absolute goal

also because I’m not necessarily like smart enough to actually Work In Those Research Fields and that’s fine!! I’m glad about that because it means far less Huge Gigantic Super Smart Studying but there’ll always be a need for conserving and protecting materials and communicating all the super smart shit into Normal People Understanding yk??

Tagging: @chupacactus @nofeelingisfinall @turtles-on-turts @eye-scream-girls @blackbeardskneebrace @cononeills @ipomoea-batatas @enbiosaur no obligation as always 💕💕

#this was fun!!!!! kissing u jams #if y’all wanna see my flower shit or anything lemme know #should I make a pinned post bio?? maybe #idk if I’m popular enough for that KDHDKDBFKFB #I rambled so much I’m sorry if this took up like ur whole dash #well. half sorry y’all following me should know by now that I talk so much when I’m feelin chatty #mercury moments #tag game

[untraceable-ace]

Thoughts on “In case I make It” as I listen:

Gonna be a long one folks, I’ll put it under the cut

Tomcat Disposables: Tomcat Disposables my beloved you make me cry every time “What’s the moon made of?/Meet me there after I’m gone” SOBBING

Becoming the Lastnames: The piano gives me the same vibes as the piano in the Camp Here and There full songs (like MBYT and Venetian Blind Man) I love it

Cicada Days: Tied w Tomcat Disposables as my favorite single, literally so in love, forever happy that the intro is just kinda white noise mimicking cicadas and not actual cicada buzzing my spd is happy “and then my sponsor said do nothing, nothing works/and then my doctor said dont do that if it hurts” feels like a weighted blanket directly on my chest it’s wonderful

Euthanasia: Instrumental intro reminds me of a Days n Daze song; main verse melody is literally so haunting I love it

Falling Up: WOAH that felt like a curveball after Euthanasia oh DAMN the chorus slaps the acoustic makes the song feel really like, full bodied? Oh god after the falling up lyric it temporarily becomes a country song I’m not sure how I feel about that I just kinda had the mental image of a dude falling up the stairs the whole time during the chorus and tbh it’s a good one to have

That’s Enough, Let’s Get You Home.:  Oooh, I have a feeling I’m gonna love stim singing to this one once I get a chance to listen to it a lot more; OH I KNOW WHAT THIS REMINDS ME OF it reminds me of Cecily Smith from Fly By Night!!!

Um, it’s Kind of a Lot: I’d been thinking this one might have some sampling from Everything is a Lot (the song, not the album), but from what I’ve heard, there’s not any sampling from the song, but I think the piano parts are inspired by the album? Or at least it feels that way The piano def reminds me of the album piano vibes. Damn, Mr Wood has an obsession w tourniquets oh SHIT bridge/breakdown hits HARD hell yeah. Also, first appearance of brass so far on the album I think?

Half-Decade Hangover: omg guys he said the name of the song that’s the name of the song!!!/j OH SHIT SELF-ish REFERENCE This feels like something you’d hear at a bar w a piano on the stage for people to go up and play on

Vampire Reference in a Minor Key: Same thought process as Um, it’s Kind of a Lot; the title got me thinkin “o shit vampire culture reference?” But again I think I was wrong; Guitar do be bangin tho OOH he just did like a lil riff that reminded me of 6up 5Oh I wanna do a tango in a tight fitting red dress to this song

You Liked This (Okay, Computer!): it’s.....it says things??? Uhhh good commentary on society ig?? LMAO its not a song sorry yall

The Main Character: JAZZY AS FUCK WOAH I already wanna dance to this I think this might be my favorite song from the album “So god forbid I’m seen as an average human being” fuck man r you coming for me or what

Against the Kitchen Floor: FUNKNY ASS BASSLINE OH DAMN this one is literally so fun? I wanna swing dance w someone to this LMAO the end spoken bit I love when songs do that

Sex, Drugs, and Rock ‘n’ Roll: I feel like I’d listen to this one when I’m sad, feels like a good one to listen to when I’m crying

Big Fat Bitchie’s Blueberry Pie, Christmas Tree, and Recreational Jell-o Emporium a.k.a. “Mr. Boy is on the Roof Again” (Feat. Pasta by Sneakers McSqueakers) [From the Motion Picture ”B.F.B.’s B-Sides: Bagel Batches, Marshmallows, and Barsh-mallows]: LMAO we’ve made a brief return to 30-word long song titles for this one fellas okay wait what the fuck is this LMAO wait okay okay vibing vibing 48 seconds of song for a 34 word long song title lets mcfucking go LMAO

Willard!: Feels like the main character’s power ballad in a musical; Wow yeah actually this is like- SUPER musical theater vibes damn oooh and I love the piano version of the Tomcat Disposables melody at the end

White Noise: The vocal melody on the chorus is muah muah chefs kiss This was a really good one to be the closer tbh AND OH OH the build up to the second chorus?? GOD that goes hard

Don’t worry everyone I’m sure I’ll be shitposting about at least one of the new songs later this week when I get a chance to hyperfixate on one or two

#my posts #Will Wood #wwattw #someone on the genius lyrics page made a comment about how excited they were to listen to big fat bitchie's blueberry pie like #8 minutes before album drop like #rip random genius lyrics user

[starstruckghost]

Idk if I’ll stick around but I’ve been questioning if I did have a past life recently, I have no memories only hints?

I think I may have had a life before this in which I was a dog, not sure what type, I’m naturally drawn to working breeds from the arctic, like samoyeds/huskies/etc but that may just be my bias from this life lol

Ever sense I was a kid I’ve been OBSESSED with dogs, like obsessed, I saw a dog and holy shit my life was made. Like hhholy fuck! and I’ve been that way ever sense, I love dogs so much I don’t think I could live without one in my life. They’re such wonderful creatures. If it didn’t have anything to do with a dog I refused to even take part in it, I was so upset when anyone got me baby dolls bc all I ever wanted were stuffed animals.

I’ve also pretty much always had a phantom tail/ears, I used to role play as a dog all the time as a kid with some friends of mine. my brother and I when I was younger would also play as a dog and an owner, one would be the owner and the other would well be a dog pretty self explanatory, we took turns being dogs n such lol.

When I got a little older and discovered furries it was like OVER for me instantly I was a walking ball of cringe (i mean I was having a blast soooo) I would wear a blue tail I made around and I’d feel so happy and just sort of connected with myself but of course I was like, 11, so I didn’t really realize.

I’ve also always loved food and always had issues controlling my intake of it, I was overweight for awhile as a kid but I’ve sense gained healthier eating habits and lost some weight. I still stim by chewing on things/gum. My love language has always been physical touch and quality time. somewhat acts of service/gift giving as a secondary one, but If I like someone I always just wanna be close to them. Having online friends can be difficult bc all I wanna do is give them a hug but I can’t bc they literally live across the planet lmaoo

I still wanna get ears and a tail bc holy shit that was so much fun I miss that (also the level of confidence I had when I was a kid I could never now SMH)

Just wish I were a dog sometimes, no think, no work, no taxes, just woof woof and chase ball

#therian #other kin #kin help #I’m descending into insanity #dogboy #woof woof idk

[grimsneverendingfuneral]

Grim, hi! I’ve missed you! I’ve been busy with some sucky real life stuff, but I promise I have not forgotten about you!

I shattered my left wrist which is already annoying as is, but it happened HOURS after I got my cast off on my right arm which was broken. It’s just so annoying ugh. Like, I’m fine of course, just so annoying. Seriously it’s only the kind of luck I could have.

Anyways! You know what time it is, obviously. What was your favourite song this week? Do you wear glasses? And a Rosekiller relation question for ya, what are some of their quirks/bad habits? (e.g.: biting nails, picking at skin, etc. etc. you get the idea) 🎤

OH MY GOOODDDDDDDD MIC ANON !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fuck i was so happy to get this message in my inbox but as i read it my face kinda fell. fuckin hell its been a rough couple of weeks for you. what the hell man. oooohhh i wish i could draw doodles on your cast and tuck you in and give your forehead a kiss. that is an substantial amount of bad luck, for sure, but the way you're going about it says a lot about who you are as a person, which is probably super brave and resilient. i remember when i broke my foot how absolutely simultaneously depressed and delirious i was cause its just so absurd in a way. you find ways to live your life differently, its a whole experience, yknow, living with a cast on or not being able to use one of your limbs. im glad youre okay though but be gentle with yourself cause it does affect our mental health more than we think. give yourself that time to just heal and try not to get too frustrated with yourself. you need time and rest

i hope you're well surrounded or at least i hope you have some support, and im here if you wanna chat. also, im genuinely so shocked and flattered and a little emotional that you would still send me an ask when you just shattered your wrist???? wow. fuck im giving you smooches on the arm. im making you soup im getting things from high places you cant reach im fussing over you like a motherly figure

also im kinda curious (you dont have to answer) but how did this happen?

ok questions. yes. my favourite song this week was this black metal song (im in my winterly black metal phase. happens every january or so) called I Am The Black Wizards by Emperor. its just.... crazy orchestral folkloric screeching overlapping rumbling drums and insane distorted guitars. i just listened to it on repeat while writing and it really inspired the madness in this chapter i just finished. also love listening to it in public with a straight face

i do not wear glasses, no! i have a pair of blue light glasses though that i wear when i write cause im on the computer a lot and i look super sexy in them. i was blessed with very good vision for some reason

and rosekiller quirks!! huh. theres probably a lot. for sure barty vocally stims a lot. i picture him as the guy at the back of the class who makes like annoying ass popping sounds with his mouth or will screech for no reason. he's gotta be humming or inventing new noises at all times. and the thing is about that is that his friends usually like catch onto those noises and will begin to make them as well and it becomes this thing like. his noises make sense and they feel good to make once you start mimicking them. i think he also has an excellent long term memory to the point its scary but his short term memory is fucking ass. like you HAVE to text him to remind him of things or he'll forget. he puts a mug somewhere? forgets it for weeks. has no object permanence so when hes been on his phone for too long he just hides it in a cupboard and completely forgets about it. he's also messy but not dirty. like theres socks everywhere but he scrubs his bathroom for three hours with Pinesol. i could go on and on and on

evan's bad habits are more mental than physical but for some reason i feel like his waking self is completely different from his sleeping self. waking self is very aware of his body language, his posture, the way his face moves, but sleeping him is kicking at your calves, thrashing around, sheets twisted around his legs, his hand finds itself directly in your face and he definitely sleeps in that position where youre on your belly and your leg is up yknow. i think evan is also prone to sighing a lot. he sighs so much and he doesnt notice and its like are you fucking okay?? can you stop sighing like youre a poor victorian woman withering away from broken heart? lastly i think evan does pick at his lip skin but only in private. he doesnt really do stuff in front of others like that. but he will pick it until it feels smooth and its bleeding in three places but at least it feels smooth (i do this)

thank you so much for keeping me updated on your life mic anon i feel very honoured. hope you have a good recovery

#mic anon #ily #im so glad youre back

[toonjazzy]

Rambling bout PORTALS cause I can-

Ramble time!

DEATH- I get emotional every time. Those lines are perfect! Reminds me of my Legion. The video makes me cry when it gets to the second time she says “I’ll be meeting you here every time”, similar to how I cry when Rosalina says “I’ll be watching you from beyond the stars”. This song also reminds me how I feel being away from y’all. I remember when I found out I couldn’t come on here everyday any hour and felt like I literally died. That line “We’re screaming and pleading this separation ends” is literally how I feel

VOID- WHY IS THE BEAT SO FAMILIAR- LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS SONG. It reminds me of Lia. ALSO HOW DID THE VIDEO END UP BEING 90% OF WHAT I IMAGINED- But yeah, I also feel trapped in a void being away from you guys...

TUNNEL VISION- I know this is everyone’s fave and I love the message. But I don’t really get hyped, it’s still amazing and I love the vocal part at the end. But I just don’t see why everyone is so hyped bout it. I wanna make an inspired drawing using Reese

FAERIE SOIRÉE- Very happy song, TOO SHORT THOUGH. But I really love the outro, the melody is just amazing

LIGHT SHOWER- At first I skipped over it sometimes cause it’s a love song. But now I get emotional cause I paid more attention to her lyrics and realized what Mel went through and how she’s okay now. I also imagine StapCils as a little video and cry every time. I wish I could animate...

SPIDER WEB- HI I THINK IT’S OBVIOUS THIS IS MY FAVE- Ironic since I have bad arachnophobia. THE BEAT I LOVE IT, THE LYRICS MY GOD- The chorus reminds me of the Addams Family theme

LEECHES- At first I found it boring, now I enjoy it and know all the words. Very great message

BATTLE OF THE LARYNX- I FUCKING LOVE IT, THERE ARE NO WORDS TO DESCRIBE IT. I imagine Lia fighting someone yelling “DON’T YOU BATTLE WITH MY LARYINX TONIGHT!” Again, wish I could animate

THE CONTORTIONIST- THE TRANSITION, IT REMINDS ME OF ELASTIC ENTERTAINER ENTERS, I NEARLY CRY FOR SOME ODD REASON- I made a drawing with Lia doing all these contortionist poses, so proud of myself

MOON CYCLE- WAS NOT DISAPPOINTED AT ALL, I FUCKING LOVE IT. I CAN’T BELIEVE PEOPLE HATE IT??? CAUSE PERIODS??? GROW UP, GUYS, IT’S A NORMAL THING. I love how silly the lyrics are! “I could win a fight on my period!” YES GIRL!

NYMPHOLOGY- I FUCKING LOVE THIS SONG, THE VOCALS, THE BEAT, THE BRATTINESS, THE BRIDGE, AMULET OUTRO, AND THE BEST TRANSITION TO EVIL

EVIL- OKAY, THIS HIT HARD. FIRST, ROCK MUSIC YES!!!!! SECOND, THIS IS LITERALLY HOW I FEEL WITH MY FAMILY SOMETIMES. AND WITH A CERTAIN PERSON WHO USED TO MAKE MY DEPRESSION WORSE, FUCK THEM. ALL MY ANGER GETS OUT WHEN I LISTEN TO THIS. THANK YOU MEL

WOMB- Reminds me of her old music, that second verse especially. Feel like I’m back in 2009. I fucking love it, ending makes me emotional

POWDER- Once I could understand her, I loved it so much. That pan flute makes me emotional as well. Great song

PLUTO- CLOWN MUSIC LET’S GOOOOO!!!!! The lyrics hit hard again. “Some of the friends I thought were forever, I now wanna sever the ties” “Pluto destroy me kill me all slowly” “Turn off my lonely” “Once was a home is a Hell I can’t manage” THEN THE ENDING, I LOVE WHEN MUSIC FUCKING-

MILK OF THE SIIREN- SIREN MELODY NO WAY, THE VOCALS, THE MESSAGE, THE ATTITUDE, VENGENCE! I LOVE IT! CAN’T DESCRIBE IT, NEED TO STIM!

[anotherghoul666]

Owlish is back, Heh!

(Also reminding you on maybe tagging stuff as owlish again, but like, it's not supposed to come off as annoyed or mean cause I would've forgotten as well!)

Neutral and stable sounds good compared to before!

Also not having cried for 2 days.

I'm really sorry for you but glad that it sounds like it's getting at least a little better (also I'm very sorry cause while I love listening to people (I care about) talking about how they are feeling and why, I'm super awkward when it comes to responding)

Thank you ❤️ I‘ll gladly tell you as well!

Yesterday, I had a very positive therapy session which let me leave with a positive feeling instead of annoyed or hurt as usually (I dislike my therapist but if I’ll state that I can‘t work with her, I have to leave the psych ward and I definitely can’t do that right now. She‘s not very understanding of my problems and also there‘s quite a few things she said that made me feel unsafe so I can barely open up at all)

Also, on the way back with two friends from another therapy today we talked about owls (they’re my special interest) and they were super positive and we talked about how a few owls look like you walked in on them doing something (Micrathene whitneyi) or they look mad/judging (Athene cunicularia) and we laughed about it. It just made me feel great cause usually people dislike me talking about stuff I love and especially when it’s about owls for some reason, but they were just so positive. It was awesome!

Now I’m just super tired cause I had to take additional meds today due to being very antsy and not being able to calm down at all, I‘m cold cause my body has trouble to regulate its own heat and breathing is a bit hard due to me wearing my binder for probably a little way too long by now (but I don‘t have the energy to undress to take the thing off either)

Also I’m looking forwards to meeting the person I’m closest with here (she‘s on another ward) this evening (she constantly has to listen to me talk about Ghost but she‘s so sweet about it XD (she can’t remember anything but tries her best and she thinks I’m cute when I get excited about stuff (I‘m insecure about excitement due to expressing it through stimming, you know, but she‘s making me feel good about it))

So it‘s overall a feeling rather on the positive side which is strange but nice!

Wishing you the best too :D

~owlish anon

(omg yes I'm so sorry!! I noticed it today cause there was a like that came in on it and I went "oh, right, did I tag that correctly?" once I saw the aks in my notifications again, and lo and behold nope I had not XD So I tagged it right away but it was too late uh. Dude I'm so sorry, I'm such a creature of habit I have a hard time remembering new tags and stuff. I have someone else who came on the blog asking me to tag unmasked ghoul content and I feel it's sure some slipped by me despite trying and like XD I'll try more hahahaha thank you for the reminder dear, I appreciate it!)

Fuck yeah dude!! I'm at 4 days without crying now, beginning my 5th! It is Going! I appreciate your support ❤️

I'm so glad to hear you were able to benefit from a positive therapy session despite a having a therapist that's not a good fit for you. That's so hard. I've been in situations before when I put up with therapists that clearly were not right for me because I knew if I didn't take these sessions I'd be pushed back on the waiting list for 8, 10, 12 months, and I didn't know how to make it 12 months on my own you know. I knew session 1 there would be no theraputic alliance or trust from me whatsoever, but I figured I could at least gather tools and information to apply by myself at home. There can always be small things you take from crappy sessions that can stay in your brain and be a tool you have in your arsenal for the future.

Awww dude owls are so cool! I'm so happy you got a positive interaction where you could share about them! But hey! Hey dude! If you wanna share your favorite facts about owls or species or pictures in the future or something? I'm here! I love birds. I got super interested in the birds I could observe at my parent's house back in the day, the backyard / edge of the woods birds. I'd listen to cries and identify new ones I didn't recognize and photograph the bird feeders and stuff. So I know lots about, like, 15 birds species maybe xD Which is not much but that's what I would see daily. I know we have owls locally but I've not seen them so I didn't research them. Then again with a lot of them being super well camouflaged, it makes sense I didn't see any. So yeah, I'd love to learn more! Feel free to come to my ask box if it feels like a safe space to share, I'm interested in what you know and have to teach! :D

I hope you can get some rest, get warm and get comfortable dear. That's important.

And I'm thrilled to hear you've had someone to chat about Ghost with after that! Believe me I know a thing or two about being shut down for showing excitment or talking about a special interest. I was told all my childhood and teen years I was too loud or I talked too much or to lower my voice. Even now as an adult with a long time partner, I still apologize to her when there's something I love I inadvertedly talked about without asking for permission first. Its trauma dude. I get it. It's hard to get rid of. I hope you can find someone who will be genuenly invested in your interests in the future like I did. My partner doesn't give much of a fuck about metal or Ghost for instance, she's not a metalhead, but she happily lets me talk her ear off whenever something happens with the band or about the lore and the ghouls and she reads my fics even if she doesn't know the context and that makes a world of difference in terms of learning that your interests matter too. Cause they do. Owls are cool as fuck, Ghost is cool as fuck, and those subjects deserve respect by the sheer value of them being something you love. I see you.

Take care out there ok! Talk soon!

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