#I’m so calm right now

[bluberrie-hedgehog]

Hey, who left this bowl of onions here?

#I’m so calm right now #IM SOO CALM #HELP #sonic the hedgehog #project: shadow fan film #shadow the hedgehog

[kinokoshoujoart]

oops all rock (springtime edition)

i’ll be able to draw digitally again soon! ;w; in the meantime i’ve been scribbling a lot on paper…

could not wait for Soon, so i resorted to coloring it using the markup tool in default iphone photos app (don’t do that ever again)

#my art #sos awl #debating whether to just dump my sketches from my soujourn to hell or save them to be transferred and finished as digital stuff #or like both idk. i don’t know how ppl feel about WIPs #i’m happy to post art again ;w; thank you everyone who welcomed me back i’m slowly getting through everything i missed while i was y’know #and thank you for the sweet messages while i was gone i am bbghkjh i need to calm myself and respond !!!! love #rock tumbling (sos) #story of seasons a wonderful life #bokumono #story of seasons #harvest moon #hm awl #harvest moon a wonderful life #bunny sighting 😳 i still have THOSE wips too #there’s certain things i wanna prioritize once i can use my tablet again and those are one of them #but i will also probably post new stuff alongside finishing old unfinished stuff….. i hope that is OK…… #idk i’ll have to talk more later! right now i am nervous!!! i love you all!!!! #fanart #awl rock #bokujou monogatari #hm anwl #unfortunately this scum neet still has my entire heart so. most of the notebook is just him pulling goofy faces… sorry…….. #also a lot of lumina and nami…. and molly…. they r really cool… #ceci is also cool and i’ve drawn a collage of her that i just. never posted #mostly drawing HMDS related stuff about the descendant characters #OK I’LL STOP TAGBLOGGING #i am once again back in DS for girl hell. i want to make a series of posts about differences in the English vs the Japanese version #and also fun secret things related to DS #this is all in the future i gotta finish all my unfinished stuff…. uuuu…. #i love you all mmmmmwah (i cast sleepy time blanket and sleep forever)

[sciderman]

You said that if you dated Peter or Wade it would make you miserable. Which– Okay fair, Wade does have a history of purposely hurting the people he loves.

But what about Peter? Why do you think dating him would make you miserable?

because I’ll always know I had the option to climb a 6’8 cyborg and I passed that up for a sweaty little twunk that I perpetually have to remind to bathe (sorry peter)

#I don’t know. I don’t think peter is good boyfriend material. I think his insecurities would get exhausting. #Wade has bottomless patience. me… I don’t know. I don’t think I could. I’ve got my own stuff going on. I don’t want a Project. #peter is definitely a project. and he needs someone with shed loads of patience and perseverance. #me I just. I wanna have a good time. so. come to me my big beautiful time traveller. whisk me away. #take me to the beach. you can disappear after I don’t mind I’m not needy. just spend a beautiful romantic week with me. #sci speaks #I don’t really know what kind of person I’m compatible with really actually. #all my relationships have been. pretty short. #and I don’t think it’s any fault of my own really. and I don’t feel any loss over them at all. like at all. I wish I did. but I don’t. #a sci has so very thankfully never felt heartbreak. #but it makes me kind of question what kind of person I am when it comes to this sort of thing. #because I really don’t know. #I don’t know if I want commitment. I don’t even know if I want sex these days. #I … weirdly… am so devoid of yearning these days. like I feel content right now on my own. I don’t even feel lonely. #I used to yearn but I think I’ve moved past it. and I kind of just want to have a good time. #and that doesn’t even . involve a relationship or anything anymore. like I don’t think I want one actually. it feels like I’m Over it. #it’s kind of great because I’ve never felt so calm in a long time. all because I decided that I don’t. actually Need anything. #I don’t need anything more than what I have. and that’s brought me rest after So Long being restless. #but if a massive time traveller came and whisked me away on sexy adventures how could I say no

[try-set-me-on-fire]

Me: this one will be a slow burn I think

Eddie Diaz: no actually i need to tell him i love him immediately

#calm down sir #i was driving home thinking about how to continue the scene i just posted and was like well what if Eddie’s like. #we’re partners in every other way why not try romantically. haha. (so nervous he’s about to vomit) #you dont have to raise this kid alone because i didnt have to raise my kid alone. i had you. #and buck is like Eddie. Eddie…….. #you have to know I love you but i dont know if i can do that right now #if I’m about to adopt a child- #i mean first i haven’t even been approved yet and I don’t know what a new relationship does to my chances #second everything’s going to a mess for awhile i dont want Us to immediately be put under so much pressure #and they;re just like :( at each other #and buck’s like is it awful to ask you to wait for me #and Eddie’s like of course not. of course i will. #and you’re still not going to be alone. I’ll be here for you however you want me. #and then they have to go back in to the dinner party and try to be normal! good luck!

[37crowsinadress]

#critical role cast #roe vs. wade #abortion is not a crime #this is why i love them #they honestly have provided such a safe space for me #actually shaking right now so I’m going to go calm down #just thought i’d share #critical role

[ghosts-and-blue-sweaters]

Sometimes I see such horrible takes on Ghostbur that I have to go very still, and stare at the post, and take in every detail of it, and then I take a deep breath and keep scrolling and I cannot scream or do anything I just have to try and forget but I won’t.

#I am so angry right now #I don’t even… how #how do people come to THAT conclusion out of all the things... #it’s not a matter of me and OP having different opinions it’s a matter of THEIR IDEA LITERALLY IS NOT CANON AT ALL #AND ACTUALLY VERY MUCH GOES AGAINST CANON #AND OP ACTS LIKE IT IS CANON #AND ALL THESE OTHER PEOPLE THINK IT IS CANON #SIMPLY- *SCREAMS* #sorry I’m SORRY #just. Ghostbur fills me up with so many emotions man #I get protective #I made this post earlier and had to draft it until I calmed down 😭 #Ghostbur #ghostposting #my post

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Nothing pisses me off more than when people talk about my friendships with mid-support needs autistics and other people with differently-wired brains as if I am descending to help them because I’ve taken them on as a charity case. That is NOT true. Oh they’re a burden because they’re neurodivergent? WELL GUESS FUCKING WHAT: SO AM I! THE REASON I HAVE SO MANY FRIENDS WITH SO MUCH SHIT WRONG WITH THEM IS BECAUSE I HAVE A LOT OF SHIT WRONG WITH ME. WE ATTRACT EACH OTHER! WE LIKE EACH OTHER! IT’S NOT THAT FUCKING HARD TO UNDERSTAND!

#How about I just start strangling ableists from now on? #Would THAT convince them I’m actually this person’s real friend? #Literally nothing I say to them is able to get through their dense fucking skulls— #as if it’s sooooo hard for them to believe I actually enjoy their company #Also (halfway unrelated): if I hear “It takes a special person to work with special children” one more time I am going to SCREAM #Tell me I’m calm; tell me I’m patient; tell me I’m creative— do NOT tell me I’m “special” for doing a job I LOVE #Can you imagine telling a quantum physics major “It takes a special person to solve special math problems?” #😂💀 WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. I’m gonna start saying that to people from other professions. To see how they like it. #The children are not a burden to me; the children are very enjoyable to be around #and I enjoy troubleshooting what is preventing them from learning and coming up with workarounds for them #I made a glued roll of paper for a kid who constantly peels their skin because I saw them peeling crayons #It works! #I made math problems into a Skibidi Toilet role playing game for another kid who hides under tables when it’s time to work. It works! #You know why I was able to come up with either of these inventions? Huh? You wanna fucking know? #1.) I peel my lips and mouth and palms of my hands and calluses and cuticles and scabs; and #2.) I have awful executive dysfunction and have to do weird stuff to engage myself #People talk to me like I’m one of the “normal” ones; little do they know I’m getting assessed for ADHD and score 142 on the RAADS-R #and I essentially self-destruct when I get mad so I don’t break valuable items or punch through drywall and oak doors #I give myself bruises that swell a half inch high and form hematomas under the skin #I think I’ve permanently weakened the blood vessels and a vein in my right thigh from beating it so much #because it only takes one well-placed blow on my right; but several blows to my left #And I can see the bruise pooling towards my heart along the path of that vein from day to day after the initial beating #and sometimes it just randomly aches when it’s not injured; so I have to shift my weight when the kids sit in my lap wrong #so with that and something else I did to it not super recently that I should have gone to urgent care for… I probably have nerve damage lol #so it’s gross when people say such things about other NDs to me as if I am above them #Just fuck off already

[kiki-strike]

PTSD is so stupid saw a jar of biscoff cookie butter at the store and went ha that’s the brand they had in res. (Completely unaffected). Then went home and had a panic attack about it (????)

#first of all. how is a jar on a shelf that you didn’t even touch harming you at all??? #second of all. now that I know that chain Carrie’s bidcoff cookie butter I’m never going there again. let’s leave those worms in their can. #(sees a food) huh. cookie butter. (the ptsd gremlin cooking up a nice panic sequence for me) well probably staff are trailing you right now #and they just left that there on accident because obv they keep cookie butter with them. and they’re going to restrain and sedate you and to #you’ll wake up tubed xoxo #<- INSANE ITS A JAR OF BISCOFF COOKIE BUTTER CALM THE SHIT DOWN #I only slept an hour last night and didn’t sleep at all the night before so like that might have something to do with it but I feel like we’ #were gunning for day 3 here with the cookie induced paranoia #don’t buy belsomra guys belsomra is a ripoff that I’m pretty sure is just sugar pills #although I am abnormally resistant to pretty much every sleep med like iv ambien just makes me a bit lethargic the doctor who gave me it sai #said that was really weird and then ordered another piss test bc he thought I was on speed LMAO #nope just my brain. rotten. gone. #day 3 is usually when the insomnia hallucinations come out so like pray for me if you see this #though I did get an hour last night so maybe that counts

[courtofparrots]

As a general rule I usually only write fics that are like, for the sole purpose of getting me emotionally (or physically lol) bricked up that way I’m not vulnerable if people don’t like it because I wrote it for myself

But this fic I’m working on rn I’m so invested in like I want it to be so good I’ve been ASKING FOR ADVICE on the plot and things which I’ve NEVER done before I’m so attached to this story 😭 god I hope I can do it justice

#ignore me I’m just using this to scream into the void #I CARE A LOT RIGHT NOW #if even one person is into it I’ll be satisfied #and it’s like statistically impossible that NO ONE will like it so #calm down

[salsflore]

⠀

#left the room because my mother was sobbing — her brother (the one she was closest to) passed away #this is very horrifying and i’m aware its not about me right now but i do feel like an awful daughter. not sure how to comfort her or what #to do right now. shes calmed down a bit‚ now talking about plans but it still feels very. ahhh #i feel bad for her i don’t know what to do or say. i’m not good at comforting people in real life at all!! though i wish i was #💭 #cw death #life is so unpredictable & unfair

[riverc1an]

man i want to cry right now ngl

#i feel overwhelmed right now and i just feel so tired #i just want my mind to be calm right now i’m going to try to stop feeling overwhelmed

[hella1975]

‘you don’t seem too happy tho :(’ cunt I’ll bite you

#THE ACTUAL CHEEK OF HER LET ME CALM DOWN BEFORE I RANT FUCK MEEEEE THIS GIRL THIS GIRLYPOP EVEN #right so I’ve got a mate that I fell out with a couple weeks ago and she’s not confrontational but she IS the type to hold grudges #and express them in like. really petty ways. so like we settled our argument ages ago and I moved on bc i have a life #BUT IT’S OUR OTHER MATE’S BDAY PARTY TODAY AND IM NOT THAT CLOSE WITH THIS MATE BUT THIS GIRL IS HER FLATMATE YEAH #SO EVEN IF THAT MATE DIDNT INVITE ME DIRECTLY THEN THIS OTHER MATE THAT I AM CLOSER WITH WOULD HAVE #bc basically me her and another girl make a trip like we’re very close and it’s a very rigid trio set up #like you CANNOT invite two and not the other yk? guess what she fucking did #i only FOUND OUT ABOUT THIS PARTY BC THE THIRD GIRL IN OUR TRIO VERY CASUALLY WAS LIKE OH WHAT R U GONNA WEAR #AND I WAS LIKE??? TO WHAT??? AND SHE WAS SO BAMBOOZLED BC THATS HOW MUCH OF A GIVEN IT WAS THAT ID BE INVITED #BC MY MATE INVITED HER BUT NOT ME #and I’ve known that since yesterday morning but I was like okayyy okay im saying nothing am I fuck getting aggy bc I didn’t get INVITED #like that’s embarassing I’m staying silent. which I stick to until suddenly 5pm today #my mate that invited the other girl but not me messages me going #‘are you coming?’ GIRL??? AND THEN PROCEEDS TO TRY GASLIGHT ME LIKE ‘I MESSAGED YOU ABOUT IT’ #YOU DID IN FACT NOT #AND I CANT PROVE SHES BEING INNOCENT AND PETTY BC WE FELL OUT AGES AGO BUT IT CERTAINLY FUCKING FEES LIKE IT #and even tho id acc like to have gone to that party I cut my nose off and was like nah im gonna sit this one out it’s just awkward now innit #and she was backtracking by that point bc i think she thought she’d just make me feel marginally uncomfortable and then I’d crawl over #like no bitch!!! and yeah I was a bit mardy on text and she HITS ME WITH THIS #‘are you okay’ ‘yeah you two have fun’ ‘you don’t seem too happy tho?’ YOU FUCKING RECKON??? #furious tbh im scheming over how to retaliate even though i KNOW i shouldnt #petty petty girls grow up pls #hella goes to uni

[sallytwo]

that was a category 5 sam bitch monebt that was not even funny

#i’m normally very very coolheaded and calm during emergencies. it’s my thing #but if you’re gonna give me two fucking injured kids you’re gonna give them to ME and not any of the TRAINED STAFF #AND LIKE EMS DROVE RIGHT BY. THEY DROVE BY. I WAS LIKE THIS KID POPPED HIS ANKLE HES IN INTENSE PAIN THEY WERE LIKE #ONE SECOND . AND THEN TOOK 20 MINUTES!!!! #and then i was desperatly trying to find ice and EVERY EINGLE FIRST AID KIT WAS OUT. #and i ran into some swuad leaders and just started YELLING like WHY DO WE HAVE FIRST AID KITS IF THEY CANT EVEN BASICALLY STOCK THEM WITH I #AND OFC MY FIRST AID KIT HAS ICE BUT I HAD TO GIVE THAT AWAY TO **ANOTHER** INJURED KID #and then ems finally showed up. after 20 minutes. and i was like abojt to kill somone #my blood pressure is so high right now that wasn’t even funny #IDK WHY. they keep having me deal with medical/mental health emergencies. JUST BECAUSE. IM GOOD AT HNDLING IT #DOES NOT MEAN IM THE SAME AD A TRAINED SQUAD LEADER WHOS PREPARED TO DEAL WITH THIS!!! #IM HERE TO TAKE PICTURES AND RUN A BLOG. STOP MAKING ME YOUR FUCKING AMBULABCE DRIVEREERRR

[fallenfawnn]

i have lost count of how many times i have cried today, i have yelled and screamed more than 10 times, collapsed to the floor more than 5 … im so exhausted now .. and slightly more stable.. but still the tears won’t stop. im a little glad they won’t.. i haven’t *felt* so much in a while. and maybe it is a little bit nice after months of dissociated autopilot.

#insane work expectations and deadlines put me in such a dissociated survival mode for the past few months #it calmed down at the beginning of this week #and suddenly i am so emotional and so exhausted #and i feel so much less capable #everything is more difficult and more exhausting #i spent months being insanely high performance at work and now i’m crying bc i feel overwhelmed making a ppt slide #i worked 14 hours one day last week making like 20 ppt slides #and so it feeling overwhelming to make 1 now makes me feel so stupid and guilty #even tho i know i shouldn’t.. i do #brains are so.. confusing #i know i am crashing from how unsustainable work has been and i know that’s a reasonable thing to be happening #but my body feels guilt about every little thing it can possibly twist into being guilt inducing #and right now there are soo many things it can guilt me with

[lady-grace-pens]

Hey writers

Has anyone else ever had this thing when they’ve been between projects for a while and haven’t been writing much, and they’re getting antsy for something new? And they have ideas they like, but they like. Literally just got them. Like a week ago. Or just yesterday.

And planning take a while. A lot of time and energy. You can’t really force it even though you try. So now you’re in this weird messed up grey area where you’re excited but absolutely terrified of starting something new. And you’re also being extra hard on yourself because you have to make it perfect, it has to click immediately, otherwise you feel useless simply resting and not being creative/productive. So you tend to obsess over planning to the point of anxiety, which only makes you stress out more and feeds this negative cycle. But you have passion for the ideas, you do, and you want to work on them. But you stress yourself out so easily because you’re so antsy and you haven’t had a project in a while.

Anyone else get that?

#kaitlyn talks for once #writeblr #writing #whoops didn’t intend for this to be this long #i can’t tell what to do #do I embrace the rest? embrace the slow nature of planning? #plannin usually takes a little while for me anyway. I’m that kinda person #how can I do that while taking care of the Antsy and The Pressure? #above all I just need to know that this won’t last forever like I’m scared it might #i mean. I’m glad this is a sign I’m a legit writer and creative person who cares about writing and the ideas she gets #I’m grateful for that. but it would be great to stop feeling useless and so stressed #ugh #writing is hard #In any case I should probably take a day to chill out. i think? maybe? idk #right now I should get dinner #haven’t eaten all day #bleh #friend of mine said I should focus on writing snippets for now #probably #i can’t with The Stress tho. maybe I just need to force myself. or should I calm down and like. take my time? both? idk #I haven’t been in this situation before #i don’t like it very much #does this make any sense to anyone? i Hope so

[ssreeder]

Zuko: was in the same torture camp as the other. Was found fighting against the rough rhinos and saved both Sokka and Jet's life and then was in such a bad state he could barely wake or move for days.

Jet: But he's Fire Nation and their prince at that!

Without wondering why they'd put their prince in such a state...

Like. I get anger and hatred can destroy so much but Jet's not even trying to be rational.

Which is saying a lot 'cause Sokka's also not very rational but he generally manages to keep it to the actual ppl who directly hurt him.

Canon:

Jet meets Zuko and says “he didn’t get that scar form a water bender…”

Then decides he thinks Zuko is a fire bender and IMMEDIATELY doesn’t give a fuck that he has a huge scar across his face and is seeking refuge in BSS and makes it his mission to fuck up his life and expose him.

I don’t think Jet knows what rational is…

At least Sokka seems to know, he is just unable to be rational sometimes. He is slowly getting better though!

& Jet is getting worse…

:(

#I love Jet #but he is FLAWED #Sokka is struggling right now as well #but now that he is actively being hunted for sport he seems to be calming down #Zuko isn’t dying at the moment #so things are calming down for Sokka #while on the other side of camp #they are riling up for Jet #he is getting less rational and more reckless each day #haaaaa I’m sure it’ll be fine :D #:D #liab #ria #ask