#I’m in love with Cordelia

[elantedronai]

That’s it, being orphaned or having abusive parents is out in fiction

Having loving, living parents who are constantly fondly exasperated by their child and whom their child wants to make proud in a healthy way is in

#vorkosigan saga #I’m in love with Cordelia #aral as well #their relationship with each other and miles is #CHEFS KISS #need more healthy parent-child relationships in my life #it’s so funny to see them deal with their hellspawn of a child and try to not be amused every time he #accidentally upsets the entire political structure of barrayar #it lends so much warmth to the books tbh #feels homey #no matter what terrible shit happens miles can come home to them

[fairdale]

okay, i’ve been thinking and i actually believe alastair is my fave tlh character. don’t get me wrong, i adore all of them but alastair?! his growth?! he’s just so lovable, ok? he thinks he’s not, but he is.

i love how he broke out of his shell, how he bloomed.

how his relationship with cordelia became stronger (he’s so soft for her i’m gonna cry), how he admitted that he never wanted cortana, he was just worried for his sister.

how he adores his baby brother so much he always brings him toys and sings for him.

how he became more confident with himself (you don’t understand what him going back to his original hair color did to me, that statement…).

how he went from treating the rest badly, to ignoring them, to helping them, to caring for them…

he has grown so much and he has finally let the people see how good he is. the kind alastair, as his mother said, the one that didn’t have to be on his guard constantly because of his father and because of who he loved.

and with thomas… oh, i love those two SO much. i just wanted to shake alastair and tell him he’s worthy of love too (just like thomas tried multiple times). from those moments in paris i knew they had a special bond.

alastair is devastatingly in love with thomas. he feels so much, cares so much. he just wants the best for him, even when that meant hurting him because he thought he deserved something better than a life with him.

and, ugh, can we please talk about how during the christmas party in chot he was so sure about kissing thomas in front of everyone? he would never let anyone make him feel ashamed anymore, not of his feelings, not of his thomas.

i just love alastair so much. i love how he grew on me because he’s not perfect, but he tries. because he’s scared, but he tries. because he’s been hurt, but he tries.

i didn’t expect him to become someone that i would hold so close to my heart, but here we are. thank you, alastair, for being there for all of us who are growing, who want to be better, who are trying. thank you.

#tsc #the shadowhunter chronicles #shadowhunters #tlh #the last hours #alastair carstairs #i’m in love guys #I LOVE HIM #HE’S MY BABY #i’m sensitive okay #reading chot has done things to me #cordelia carstairs #thomas lightwood #thomastair

[daisymydaisycarstairs]

I can’t wait to see Matthew Fairchild fall in love bc it’s too incredibly beautiful to contemplate

Like really in love and not “wants what he can’t have” love.

In my head he’s in his travels and he meets this shadowhunter who’s on a mission and they have to work together but they’re always bickering, annoying each other, disagreeing, arguing but he also cannot stop noticing things about this person, is secretly pleased when they’re there, cannot stop thinking about them when they’re not there, all the while they’re bickering as usual, being mad at each other

and then suddenly Matthew has to go home quickly for a family thing and come back again soon so he portals to London and when he visits james and Cordelia he can’t stop talking about this new shadowhunter like “thinks he/she is so smart” “easily the most annoying person to ever exist” “as if it’s so satisfying to prove me wrong” “I cannot stand him/her” and James and Cordelia exchange looks and smiles every so often when math is talking and finally math asks irritated, “what?” And they say “you’re in love, Matthew” to which he stares at both of them then:

“marriage”, he declared, “has made both of your brains muddled, and now neither of you are of any use to me”

and math storms off and he portals back to that place for the mission and the minute he sees the shadowhunter again, he can’t stop staring like he’s seeing them for the first time but that person hasn’t seen him yet and Matthew is frozen in place and the person turns to look at him and almost starts to say something childish as always before being silenced on registering the look on his face because it’s new and the person is rooted to the spot as Matthew makes his way to them, eyes fixed on theirs like he’s gazing upon a miracle, and he sweeps them into his arms because he cannot stop himself from doing that and he says, “I missed you”, expecting an irritated reply but is surprised when they say, in a way he’s never heard from them before, holding him tighter “well, I could’ve missed you some more” to which Matthew lets out a choked laugh and he lets them go and smiles at them, a smile full of Matthew, of strength and love and softness and faith and loyalty and promise.

because this would be the Matthew-est way of falling in love

and he’s so pure it breaks my heart

#matthew being healthily in love would be too precious and pure and ethereal for us to handle I’m afraid #matthew fairchild #james herondale #cordelia carstairs #tlh

[ivywalkers]

God I just can’t get over how fucking good this chapter of Candela is. The storytelling is top notch and the entire cast has completely blown me away and it’s only the first episode. I thought I fell hard for last chapters characters. Little did I know what I was in for

#aabria’s DMing style fits this genre SO WELL like I’m literally on the edge of my seat most of the episode #the whole cast is amazing #Noshir especially has been such a treat to watch #his eyes are so expressive and his smile is GORGEOUS it literally radiates his whole face #and that VOICE! #fell in love with Rajan immediately lol #makes me want to play Red Dead again #also I need to see art of Elsie’s creature form #it sounds so horrifically beautiful and cool #and I can’t wait to learn more about Cordelia I LOVE her already #ball gown wearing icon #and Liam and Sam are knocking it out of the park with Oscar and Cosmo too #Cosmo’s acting in grey slate was so great 😆 #and whatever Oscar and Raj have going on is delicious I’m living for the drama haha #candela obscura #critical role #candela obscura spoilers #critrole spoilers #aabria iyengar #noshir dalal #gina darling #ashly burch #liam o'brien #sam riegel

[brightwoods]

Does anyone else feel like almost all of the conflicts that had to do with the various character dynamics in Chain of Thorns didn’t actually get resolved, they just unexplainably ceased to exist after two books of building them up because CC didn’t feel like writing them anymore and she didn’t know how to resolve it naturally after how she’d built the issues up so much?

Like how none of the characters but Cordelia and Thomas had any clue about the Alastair and Charles situation and then suddenly in CoT it was like who doesn’t know? Of course Matthew knew and didn’t say anything before and then randomly brought it up to Cordelia in Paris while assuming she knew too

Or how Alastair and Thomas went from how things were at the end of CoI with Alastair thinking it could never work because Thomas’s friends hate him to oh look everyone suddenly is friends with Alastair with no grudge with no development of that in this book at all, just an abrupt shift

Especially the Alastair and Matthew dynamic where Matthew hated Alastair and wanted him to have nothing to do with any of their friends and he spent CoI ranting about him to Cordelia. And then suddenly in CoT it’s like of course Matthew is supportive of Thomas and Alastair and oh look Matthew and Alastair are suddenly not just tolerating each other for Thomas’s sake but friends despite barely interacting and no development actually showing and never getting any mention of the other in their own POVs, just having Cordelia be like Alastair stop being dumb, you’re literally friends with him now

Or like everyone other than Christopher and Grace where it was like oh we don’t like her for how she’s treated us and her friends straight to anyway she’s one of us. Like yes Grace was useful and yes Tatiana manipulated her whole life, but none of that was why anyone changed their minds or opinions? It was just suddenly the flip of a switch when it was convenient for CC

Or Anna and Ariadne where it didn’t so much develop as Anna just acted mean to Ariadne on and off throughout the series and at the end of CoI she wanted nothing to do with a relationship and then in CoT she was just suddenly like sure I guess I do. Also, slightly different note, but I did not like that Anna barely interacted with anyone else for the entire book and she was just off in the corner being an irrelevant romantic subplot for almost all of the book except when she showed up to barely even be shown in the background being sad about her brother being dead

(Although Anna still got more of a reaction than everyone else and his death was poorly executed all around in the sense of how did you write this so predictably and poorly that no one even knows when he died and it’s so background and 99% of the characters don’t care at all and we don’t see his parents finding out or much of Thomas’s reaction or anything and it’s just as if he wasn’t a character anymore 2 seconds later which is a different genre of issue with CoT but similar problem in the sense that both issues made the book feel a lot more emotionless to read)

And how the issues of Thomas and Alastair being together as two men and Anna and Ariadne being together as two women in this time and the issues of what would happen if the fact that Charles and Alastair were gay got out to the entire Clave just disappeared and never got addressed at all. We know how the ClVe reacted to Alec Lightwood YEARS later. We know society was homophobic at the time TLH is set and that it seems like shadowhunter society was a lot less open-minded than mundanes a century later

I understand that Charles being blackmailed and making shitty decisions was annoying but it was like suddenly everyone finding out wouldn’t have consequences and all the other queer men characters were like how could you possibly be worried about this :/ as if they haven’t spent the whole series knowing they have to be careful about who they tell. And then suddenly it was just of course it’s totally fine and safe to have everyone find out and why wouldn’t you be fine with that. And it was really written in a way that had other queer characters like oh Charles is such a coward for not being ready to publicly tell a bunch of homophobic people his sexuality and it just wasn’t it??? And super weird after Thomas was terrified of telling even Anna and Matthew for years. And also, I did not care for the fact that when Charles did go risk getting outed to finally do the right thing, we didn’t even get to see it through any character’s perspective or how that important meeting went, we just got one line of dialogue from somebody else saying that it happened with no details at all. And I can’t think of other examples right now but there were quite a few moments like that where we got one line saying that something had happened that was important to the plot and to characters’ development that seemed like it would have been more interesting than some of what we did get to see where it was just totally breezed over and way too easy and totally background to less important stuff

And then there was the whole no one reacting to Ariadne and Anna dancing together publicly thing was like yeah that’s nice I guess but not realistic and it doesn’t go with the way things have been presented up to that point, it also just feels like a situation where CC was like well this would be easier for me so there just won’t be consequences and then they can easily end up happily together

And then there was the whole Thomas and Alastair thinking they couldn’t realistically be together thing and knowing they couldn’t get married or be known to be together by anyone they’re not close to and then at the end it’s still not really addressed how they’re going to be together? Like there was the laziest write off of the family tree being wrong and then we still are just left to assume that eventually they move in together and suddenly it’s not a problem and everyone’s fine with it? And then I also feel like we don’t actually know if everyone found out about Alastair and Charles’ sexualities after the blackmail or if people are going to assume about Thomas and Alastair or if that’ll cause issues or if no one knows outside of who they’ve told and they have to be careful or what. Which like wouldn’t necessarily need to be addressed if it wasn’t for the logistics of being together as two men in that time being part of the obstacle that they were struggling with being in their way and then it felt like it was totally forgotten to even be one at the end by CC

Idk like I’d love to think they just lived in a world where homophobia didn’t exist but it felt like homophobia was a plot point when CC wanted it to be an inconvenience and then suddenly disappeared just to make her writing easier the moment she didn’t want it there anymore instead of actually addressing the plots she raised with it if that makes sense?

And sorry, I really did not mean to go on a rant this long. And maybe everyone else had a very different reading experience than I did and other people don’t agree with some or all of this. I personally am just very confused about how the book was almost 800 pages long and it felt like so much of the development in it was us abruptly being told that development had happened rather than actually getting to see it and how so many of the issues were abruptly solved in an I don’t want to write this issue anymore kind of way rather than anything actually needing to be worked at outside of the Belial situation

Edit: You know what, I mentioned it in my tags but I feel like it’s annoying enough to put in the body of the post and make it even longer. What the fuck was with everyone outing or potentially outing everyone else just so that characters could openly talk about the queer characters and tell them to do what they want them to? Why did Matthew out his brother multiple times? Like yes, the people he said it to coincidentally already knew, but he didn’t know that. And why was Thomas outing Alastair? The straights got to keep their secrets as long as they wanted and fix their problems more naturally. Why did I have to sit through queer characters constantly having their sexualities and romantic histories to everyone else when they clearly had not okayed it? Why were the queer characters doing so much of the outing? Why were people who cared about them and knew what it felt like to be afraid of the wrong person finding out just broadcasting their sexualities to make it easier for CC to breeze past development to have their things get resolved fast? Why did no character have an issue with it at all?

#As a queer person the whole using homophobia against her characters as plot just to pretend homophobia doesn’t exist and call her characters #cowards for worrying about it as soon as she’s decided writing it doesn’t serve her plot agenda anymore really icks me right out #Like yeah I’d love homophobia to not exist but girl what are you doing that’s so gross to go about it that way #ALSO everyone outing or potentially outing everyone else to other characters to make it easier to get the queer characters to do what she #wanted them to was a HORRIBLE vibe. Why is Matthew outing his brother? Why is Thomas outing Alastair? Why is everyone telling everyone else #people’s sexualities as if it’s nothing and everyone has a right to know when that character clearly did not feel that way #And it’s so out of nowhere every time too #Hot take: Charles protecting Alastair’s privacy instead of outing him was more valid than anything any of the other queer characters said #about Charles or Alastair’s sexualities even if I hate Charles and his going along with the blackmail was bullshit #Also now that I’ve written all of this down and 99% of what I wrote about in here has to do with the canon queer characters that’s not #a great look either that she did breeze over some of the stuff with the other characters for sure but she was way more likely to skip depth #and development with the queer characters in CoT #CC said no slow burn gradual changes in this book… there’s only room for abrupt 180s and Cordelia running 🏃‍♀️ #Sorry if this has weird typos and other mistakes in it. I typed on my phone and didn’t check for autocorrect nonsense and I’m too lazy to #reread this all rn at my current brainpower level #CoT #Chain of Thorns spoilers #Chain of Thorns #The Last Hours #The Shadowhunter Chronicles #Cassandra Clare #My Posts

[thepunkmuppet]

society if the angel writers had committed to the part demon storyline:

#yes I made this in my own time when I should’ve been revising no I’m not a monsterfucker #truly honestly thinking about writing a cordy aspect of the demon fic where she gets horns and shit #I just love the idea so much and the writers absolutely wasted it I swear she just like floats and makes connor glow or something. cowards #cordelia chase #angel the series #ats #buffy the vampire slayer #btvs

[nohomomilo]

Wife

#I’m so in love with her you don’t understand bro #underrated ass game btw pls play dead estate #my art #fanart #dead estate #dead estate fanart #Cordelia dead estate

[moonbreezes]

Honest to god i still have not recovered from chain of thorns, but with each passing hour i dislike certain parts of it more. 🧍

#chain of thorns #chain of thorns spoilers #chot spoilers #alastair carstairs #thomas lightwood #christopher lightwood #cordelia herondale #anna lightwood #ari bridgestock #matthew fairchild #james herondale #lucie herondale #jesse blackthorn #grace blackthorn #I’m getting a bit angry at this book and certain plot points and decisions that were made #groans in despair #I love them buTT

[alphacrone]

my father: it wasn’t until i met your mother that i realized friends can be your real family and you don’t have to be so tied to and dragged down by your bio family if they aren’t good for you

me having watched him do everything for his bio family for years without thanks and keep trying to rekindle friendships with estranged siblings despite having told him since i was a child that he should just cut them out of his life: …

#he once jokingly said that i reminded him of cordelia from king lear because i was A Good Daughter #(i’m his only child) #but HE is the cordelia of his family #my mother and i suspected he loved arrested development so much #bc he was such his family’s michael bluth

[dyke-ulaura]

Cordelia is a beer-guzzling backwards hat wearing obnoxious loud dyke.

Fucking look at her

#I love her so much #I want her gender but I’m a dumb femme #falsettos obc #cordelia falsettos #falsettos

[caterpillarinacave]

Honestly, knowing Cassandra Clare was planning to kill off Christopher the whole time just makes me feel even more let down in the way it was handled.

Christopher’s death feels like the writing equivalent of relying on jump scares in a horror movie. It’s not a hard hitting death because it’s set up to be a hard hitting death. It’s not a plot twist that tears you up in side and while the little voice in your head points out all the little things leading up to to that event. Not necessarily direct foreshadowing either, just those moments that make a scene hit harder.

But Cassandra Clare didn’t do any of that! She was so obsessed with making his death shocking that she just didn’t set it up. It is shocking, yeah, but not in a good way. And it’s not like she picks up the ball after his death making it work. She has the whole world move on, barely fazed! Frankly it’s just… really disappointing?

#It really really feels like a jump scare #It’s not set up it’s not creative it’s just something she did for shock value #I love Kit. We all love kit. But I’m kinda wondering if CC does #does this sound to mean? #Christopher Lightwood #cot #tlh #cot spoilers #cassandra clare #the last hours #Matthew fairchild #james herondale #thomas lightwood #alastair carstairs #cordelia carstairs #anna lightwood #lightwood #lucie herondale #Tsc

[adanseydivorce]

Sleeping Beauty metaphors in TSC - Tessa - Clockwork Angel, Lucie - Chain of Gold, Julian - Lord of Shadows

#tid #tlh #tda #tsc #s speaks #web weaving #kinda #tessa gray #lucie herondale #julian blackthorn #Jules get’s the most obviously. And I love how emo/melodramatic he is about adopting the motif lmao #sadly the Tessa line was probably a throwaway / cc repeats stylistic choices. But I’m into it as something passed down #and Cordelia and Lucie having that convo vs Emma and Jules and Lucie and Jules both want to create something because of it idk. I think it’ #neat I like how it worked out. #blackstairs #luciecordelia #emma carstairs #cordelia carstairs #the dark artifices #the infernal devices #the last hours #rereading CA so soon after rereading LoS it stood out to me #Mine*

[im-out-of-it]

“James shot Lucie a dark older brother glare that almost made Cordelia giggle. She had always been a little jealous of the closeness Lucie and James shared, something she always wanted with Alastair but never had. It was nice that some moments they were perfectly ordinary.”

BITCH EXCUSE ME????? AFTER YOU SPIED ON HIS INTIMATE MOMENT WITH CHARLES????? THE FUCK YOU EXPECT? I know this section Cordelia doesn’t know what Alastair has done for her but what the fuck!!!!! if there’s anything Alastair loves in the world, it’s you girl!!! and he admires Thomas but he doesn’t really know it so let’s just put that away for now.

the reasons why Alastair has attitude is all of the things he has done to protect your childhood. the childhood he didn’t have. and honestly this is why I’ll forever be mad that the books aren’t in Alastair’s pov.

I think he, Matthew, (and Thomas but we do get his side more.), Christopher, and Ariadne are some of the most interesting characters in the series. I love more but I think these ones mainly Alastair and Matthew have these dark moments and those are the pov I want.

makes me roll my eyes when Cordelia is like “I wish my brother and I were closer.” hmmmm maybe don’t spy on him? if you should trust anyone, it’s your brother. I know I know, she doesn’t really know all he has done for her but the person who has protected you the most is Alastair. without a doubt, he’s always been there for you 🥹

#anti cassandra clare #thomas lightwood #alastair carstairs #cordelia carstairs #I’m really just sitting here crying thinking about everything Alastair has done to protect his sister #he just really loves her so much #I think Alastair doesn’t mind being the villain but he does mind his sister and mother being protected and cared for #I’m done but let me cry in peace please #he’s just so fucking sweet omg

[admiraldora]

I was tagged by @chimchiri (thank you!! It was so nice!!)

9 favorite characters

Tagging @mcrololo @antagonistenthusiast @bensoloshotfirst ✨

#this are the characters i am rotating inside my mind every day these days #yes both spike and cordelia are here #i’m on season 4 of angel the series and i caught Major Cangel Disease #‘were we in love’ ‘we were’ well here’s the knife kill me already!!! #joss whedon is my arch nemesis for not giving me spuffu and cangel endgame #i didn’t even like angel much in buffy but in angel he really shines and him and cordelia… #god! give me help #tagged

[gracecarstairss]

@lyrnaalnieren said: let’s start with how the original love triangle is cordelia x james x grace i’ll fight anyone who disagrees

SO MUCH TO SAY ABOUT THIS!!!!!

hot take but the only reason that the gracelet (and Grace’s power in general) exists is to cause salvageable relationship drama between James and Cordelia that ends in the fact that James only ever truly loved Cordelia. It was the cheap way out instead of the bold move which would be to have James actually love Grace and then grow out of that love and then fall in love with Cordelia and not perpetuate “Herondales only love once” because that’s BS and unhealthy imo

#i came out swinging damn #and now all that’s left is Matthew randomly obsessing over cordelia for no reason #Grace did not originally have any power!!! James truly loved her and she was just a cruel person! #all of this is my personal opinion of course lmao #thank you for starting this discussion because the former love triangle was so real #this is a side blog so anytime I respond in comments it is from my original blog so I’m making a whole new post SORRY LMAOOO #i am horrible at using tumblr #the last hours #og tlh #grace blackthorn #james herondale #the midnight heir #tlh

[bisexualbuckleyy]

James/Cordelia + heartbreak

Chain of Gold - Cassandra Clare // “champagne problems” - Taylor Swift // “cardigan” - Taylor Swift // Chain of Iron - Cassandra Clare // “Cornelia Street” - Taylor Swift

#listen i don’t know anymore i’m having a breakdown #i have so many thoughts about them i love them so much #and taylor swift has a death grip on me at all times #so yeah enjoy whatever the fuck this is #jordelia #james herondale #cordelia carstairs #the last hours #chain of gold #chain of iron #taylor swift #web weaving