#I’m glad people like what I make

[stuckinapril]

A major annoying thing about being in a male dominated stem field (chemistry for me) is you basically work w guys 99% of the time & they ALL think you have a crush on them if you’re even fleetingly nice. And so far I’ve refused to water down my personality to compensate for it but it’s so annoying knowing I’m inadvertently feeding into someone’s unchecked ego

#My approach is I’ll treat my guy friends like I do my girl friends #And I guess I have a flirtatious personality from the jump so people get the wrong idea #But idk sometimes I’m literally just friendly and some dumbass guy is like yeah she wants me carnally #Getting confessed to by one of my classmates last spring while taking some of the hardest courses of my life was so traumatic #Then being hit up by his friend right after 😭😭 #Please tell me what I did to make u think I was into you enough for you to be this bold so I can never do it again #This happens to me at parties too and guys get too touchy #Why does it have to be this serious #This is why I’m so glad to be avoiding guys rn like straight cis men are literally the bane of my existence #SO bitter ab these people they’ve ruined guy friendships for me forever #So many suppressed feelings ab this too I should journal about it probably

[goldkirk]

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#everything’s fine and I’m fine I’m just saying this to say it rn #I don’t know what I would choose to do if he WAS still alive and I COULD still report officially #but a large part of me is really really glad that that mayor is dead. and I don’t ever have to hear him or see him at events or feel his #unusually long weird fingernails and iron grip while telling me to smile for pictures ever again #a part of me would love to confront him #but most of me is just glad he’s gone and can’t scare me or make life hell for my parents ever again #he never should’ve gotten away with all the things he did for so many years. but he did. #now that we’re here in the present. it’s a gift to get to move on from it knowing he’s not still out there at least #he was a gross greedy person with police and government power and never should’ve had those positions for so many decades like he did #but that being said. he can’t ever speak to or touch me again. #I’m not grateful now. I wasn’t grateful then after he stopped pretending either. but I’m glad I get to walk away and never live near #any subdivision or building or anything else with his name or picture #ever again. and he’s never able to touch another child ever. good riddance. you gross greedy poor excuse for a public servant. #now I’m gonna go try to write some of what I’ve learned into a fic to help my future self and others #who do you think came out on top at the end of the day mayor L? #I came out of this with friends and kindness and gentleness and healthy rage. you died just as greedy and fake and paranoid as you lived. #I hope you got better towards the end. for your wife and family’s sake. #I get to protect others from people like you for the rest of my life. and I’ll win. #because I deserve it and every current kid deserves it too. #shh katie

[kakavashazz]

idk man i just feel like if i knew that the guy i’m working with was actually a slave under the threat of death i just wouldn’t berate and degrade him all the time

#can you tell i can’t stand veritas ratio #it has really been bothering me that people have been mischaracterizing him because they are desperate to make him a nice person #like. listen #this guy is not a misunderstood good guy #he is a complete asshole with a generally good goal #Doing something kind after showing no compassion for like 3 updates does not change his entire character #I am VERY glad he said what he said to Aventurine in the end #he needed to hear it!! #but that simply does not negate the rest of Ratio’s behavior and i’m very tired of seeing people pretend it does #also just to clarify i think he is an INCREDIBLE character and i’m glad he exists. i just don’t think he’s a very compassionate person #anyway back to my normal tags #love of my life aventurine #love of my life kakavasha #aventurine hsr #hsr #hsr 2.1 #penacony #honkai star rail #dr ratio slander #veritas ratio slander

[angelnumber27]

My life has improved a lot since being more consistent with responding to and talking to friends and saying yes to plans instead of letting anxiety make me say no. Maintaining good relationships and having a support system is so important. I isolated myself badly for over two years just out of fear and anxiety and depression and I was REALLY suicidal not that long ago. I recently decided that I deserve to actually live and have fun and be with my friends, not just isolate and rot in bed and it was literally a life-changing decision

#:) #progress #it may sound stupid but I would literally have panic attacks #even just about the prospect of hanging out with people who were my best friends #and make up excuses every time #and when my addiction was really bad I knew I looked sick and ppl could tell so I was ashamed to see most people #I still get the impulse to just lie and say some shit bc of the anxiety but I try my best to push past it #by remembering that like 85% of stuff we worry about doesn’t ever happen and that I’ll end up being glad I went #life is precious you never know what will happen and I’m trying my best to seize every opportunity to see the people I love #and make new memories #doing these things are so beneficial for my mental health #I love my friends so much #used to be like ahh I’m so alone but I wasn’t. I was just terrified of everything and deciding to make up excuses

[reflectionsofgalaxies]

and today on The Bird App -

What a genuinely hilarious first thing to like on Twitter since 2020. I love both of these women so much 💗

#like it’s almost definitely just Alba showing support for her co-star but also #it does feel vaguely like Alba is fucking with us #like ‘y’know what would make the fans absolutely crazy?’ #not just being back online not just interacting with a post about KTY but interacting with THIS post #also KTY in the video laughing about Meena standing in the corner like 👁 #‘poor Meena’ #meanwhile Meena in interviews is like ‘I’m SO glad they weren’t filming me I was crying it was so beautiful’ 😭 #(but seriously the set up of that shot IS so beautiful I don’t blame her) #ANYWAY people don’t have to be normal about this but also I really hope they aren’t weird about it either #it would be lovely if Alba felt comfortable to come back to online spaces if that’s what she wants #no being weirdos and scaring her away with weird comments about her and her costars #Alba Baptista #Kristina Tonteri-Young #Warrior Nun #Avatrice #Twitter

[8rujaa]

i feel so happy i have the urge to get on my hands and knees and worship something

#i’m emotional because i feel like recently i’ve been actually like genuinely happy #i thought i was going to feel broken forever. i thought i was going to feel like half a person forever #i’ve made so much progress #looking back i don’t know how i got through certain things i really don’t #i was being traumatized while also being severely tortured daily by my body pain #i hadn’t talked to my family or friends in months #i lost my mobility and i lost my independence and i lost everything i worked hard for #i felt like a dog and my nightmares still make sure to remind me how terrible it was #and the healing journey afterwards was somehow even worst because i was reliving it constantly. i feel like i fought so hard for my peace #i know i thought about offing myself multiple times #i don’t know what kept me alive… #i think i stayed for all the wrong reasons/people…. but either way i’m glad i stayed #i’m struggling with letting myself be happy because life has a way of taking everything from you just as you were getting comfortable #and i know bad things can and will happen wether i worry or not so the only thing i can do it try to savor and enjoy these beautiful moment #as best as i can and maybe these moments are what will keep me alive in the future #this year i don’t ‘want’ anything per say…. i just don’t want to lose anything…. like god i don’t ask for anything else…. just don’t take #anything from me that i love please 😭😭😭😭😭 #brain vomit

[blueberryspyder]

I know my blog doesn’t have like, any followers, but I wanna make it clear that transmisogynists are not welcome here. I also know for a fact I have some people I need to unfollow for being transmisogynists. The last few months I’ve been very, very confused by wtf “transandrophobia” was, and I had only ever seen the “good” side of it, and never the side of it being used to actively hurt trans women. I’ll admit I’m still confused on certain things, but I’m not above admitting that I might be wrong and I’m willing to learn, so thank you for your patience.

To any trans women/trans fems who follow me: I support you, and I want you to feel safe here.

Edit: I’m retracting the bit about transandrophobia, since some of y’all have been really kind (genuinely) and helped explain the theory to me (as well as the antisemitism behind the “truther” term, which I apologize for).

To any fellow trans men/trans mascs that follow me: I want you to ALSO feel safe here. Even if my original message came from a good place, it was still worded poorly and painted us in a bad light. I won’t delete this post cause I don’t want to hide from my misconceptions and help others like me who are confused, and because I want to stand behind the message that transphobia of any kind is NOT welcome here. Thank you 😊

#captain's log #wanted to make it clear #since I’ve been very in the dark about what transandrophobia stood for #I never fully believed in it but I did agree with some of their comments #I saw there was… antagonistic energy towards the group to say the least #and the way they would respond put me off #so I sat outside of it and looked at it through a critical lens before diving in #and then I saw that one anon message and went ‘ah okay’ #remember: you are not immune to propaganda/cult like mentality #I’m grateful I’ve learned to be critical about what others tell me #and to look into things before I take a stance #and I can’t beat myself up for that because I thought it was just a blog dedicated to trans men! and I’m trans masc! #but after learning about it I started looking at what they were really saying and I didn’t. like a lot of what I saw #but I still saw things that I agreed with #so I was confused #it feels hard to ask about it yknow? especially since I was only seeing the ‘hate’ from people who didn’t believe it existed #so I’m really glad I found that long post from earlier it really shed some light for me

[fortheturnstiles]

had an absolute whirlwind of an afternoon in class today finding out my film professor is not only a neil young fan but a monkees fan. and like a real die hard michael nesmith guy . isn’t that wild. and i never would have known if i hadn’t brought up the monkees in a conversation that was not about them because i’m a crazy person. he also brought up chrome dreams which completely sent me into the stratosphere i just love music and i love people who love music and that we can share that together as people . isn’t it wonderful. that’s why we’re all here isn’t it

#originally prompted by a comment someone was making about the eagles being the ‘first boy band’ ie constructed by record company people/ #not an organically formed band #and i was like Well hold on. they weren’t the first one #then things went to dylan bc of man in me on the big lebowski soundtrack which was greeted with some grumbling from #my peers about dylan’s influence and importance in american music #which is. i’m sorry i know art is subjective and you can dislike bob it’s fine. but you can’t deny the truth he’s an important guy #also there might be something of his work that you may end up liking. if you tried it out #anyways he also brought up head1968 being a great movie and i was like THATS WHAT IM SAYING!!! YOU GET IT!! #this tangent pretty much concluded in the monkees are Everywhere in american music and film history and culture. there is no escaping them #which is one of my core beliefs so i’m glad to know my professor is on that wavelength #you never know who may be a monkees fan

[vroomian]

Yrz killing 115 people is fine for some people but god forbid he sleep with one terrible person

i really don’t get it

#Like even the rape angle is ??? Because Yrz clearly doesn’t consider it so and that is what matters?? We’re in his head! #I thought I made it clear that Yrz could get out if he wanted??? Like he’s a healer! He can fuck wc up pretty damn quickly!! He’s stronger! #God sex makes people so dumb I’m glad I never have to deal with it #Bfiasc #vrrm vrrm #Updated the warning and the tags anyway but still come on guys

[meepmeep19]

Yk how Dazai contributed to half of the PM’s profits during his time in the mafia? Imagine if Chuuya had been responsible for the other half. So like everyone else in the ENTIRE PM only contributed like 0.0001% in total lmao💀

And so Mori would like on the reg call meetings calling (read: scold like a high school teacher) everyone except SKK (he does NOT need to increase their ego anymore than it already is lmao) while massaging his temples like

Mori: Can you please explain how two immature CHILDREN have managed to contribute more to this organization than every single TRAINED ADULT in this room???

Ace: (because he is 100% enough of a snivelling weasel to insult two children out of pure pettiness) It’s not our fault Sir. We’re all only human after all, but those things-they’re INHUMAN!!! Demons like them obviously don’t need to take any breaks; hence the cause of the work discrepancy. If it wasn’t for this minor detail, then I can assure you Sir, that we would all prove to be FAR more competent than those freaks.

Mori: (already feeling a headache coming on) Ace, how many times do we have to go through this? They’re not actually…

Meanwhile SKK are right outside the door eavesdropping and snickering to themselves (after having just come back from playing competing in the arcade for like 7+ hours lol) Yes their egos are in fact inflating to a horrifically unhealthy degree.

#kouyou and hirotsu r just standing in the meeting proudly #like #‘I raised those kids😌’ #I would’ve included Oda in the proud parents group #but then I realized he would’ve been more proud if Dazai solved half of the ADA’s cases rather than just contribute to the PM’s profits #cuz that would’ve actually helped people #also the reason y Dazai and Chuuya r just able to laugh off what Ace said #is cuz I imagined this taking place just a year before they turned 18 #so like Dazai’s already prob used to the ‘inhuman’ stuff #And Chuuya already has like a firm grasp/faith in his own humanity cuz this is post SB #and another reason: #it’s fricking Ace; #like they’re not gonna take ANYTHING seriously coming from that low life’s mouth lmao #yk now I’m just imagining SKK going out of their way to make fun of Ace #yk they so would #And he can’t even do anything about it cuz of their high ranks lmaoo #God I hate Ace #just such a stuck up weasel #so glad Fyo killed him #anti-Ace lol #pretty sure this is kinda ooc for Mori but idc lol #bungo stray dogs #bsd #port mafia #dazai osamu #chuuya nakahara #bsd skk #soukoku #teen skk #teen SKK simultaneously being the best AND worst thing to happen to the Port Mafia😆

[connabeth]

I agree on most of your criticisms of the show but please tell me you're not one of those 'annabeth is supposed to be white and blonde' type of 'critics'.

babygirl are you new here🧍🏾‍♀️

#pjo tv show #percy jackson #pjo #asks #anon #u will never catch me fighting tooth and nail for more blondes on my screen😭 #i couldn’t care less what annabeth looks like or how people perceive her but i’m glad she’s Black in the show #they’ve just butchered her character by making her a lot more one dimensional than she is in the books #and ik leah is capable of the silly!!

[chilapis]

Last post before I crash and no-one hears from me until I return from my first final the morrow’s eve (a changed man no doubt) but there’ll never be anything funnier to me than consistently being viewed as a composed and calm saviour by peers while I’m, actively and uncontrollably losing it.

#not said sarcastically or as a vent by the way I genuinely find it so terribly amusing. you think I have it together ? aw <3 you fool. #i’ve been pacing around my room like a starving lion since the past week in whatever free time i’ve had. #and i keep getting people in my messages begging me for last minute help ? which is endearing but. i’m hanging on for dear life myself #helping isn’t foreign to me; i have 4 (?) people in my class who almost exclusively refer to me as ma’am and even refer to me as a teacher. #but helping last minute is so. deeply chaotic. #and I have this issue with me where having others around me makes me immediately drop into a ‘role’ of sorts? #i’ll be freaking out but then someone else starts freaking out around me and my immediate response is to just. #hey. we are going to make it out of this. it’s easy as pie. do you see me worried? no right? <- on the verge of hyperventilating #there’s this one guy in particular who got so excited to find out we have the exact same examination set-up tomorrow. #i gave him like basic pointers and i don’t think i’ve ever been thanked so earnestly and desperately in my life. #i remember during mocks my friends would message me what I wrote in questions and then they’d immediately go oh thank Fuck. #they’d literally just act like they’re absolutely going to pass now just because we had points ​in common. #as if i’m some sort of fucked up correct answer sheet incarnate. #it’s genuinely really sweet to me though; like i’m not posting this ranting or such. #having so much faith in another to the point that you can put yourself completely at ease says. alot i think. #and i’m glad i can be that person for so many. #and I feel like it helps me in a way too because i become so concerned with others that I forget to drown myself in my worries. #i forget that I’m worried because there are others to care about and console and help. so i suppose they help me in a way as well. #but also who is going to be that person for ME. who is going to console ME. im going fucking neurotic /jest #<- woman with ego issues & control issues who would rather die than accept help. #sigh. oh well. I’m sure we’ll do just fine. cannot wait #🥀🍷 — colloquy.

[vvitchering]

Shoutout to the soul who left this godtier comment on an almost three year old fic of mine

#you know what book IS good thank you #that was my most successful fic to date #it was meant to be continued and I never did :’) #I’m glad people got so much joy out of it and apparently still do #wish I had that kind of creative energy still #anyway this is a great example of how happy comments make writers #even something silly and short like this made me smile

[leopardom]

posting my gifs these days and seeing how they look and how they’re doing statistically-wise makes me think about ✨that anon✨ from a few days ago who said that my content doesn’t deserve any engagement

what if they were right in the end?

#to say that i don’t feel insecure about anything i post from Monday on would be an understatement #it’s not like i get zero notes and don’t get me wrong i’m glad people seem to still like my gifs #it’s just. something feels off and idk what it is #maybe i’m posting a bit too much and i indeed show up a lot in the jo hashtag and that’s annoying? idk #i mean i do need the validation from time to time maybe that’s why i post too much. there’s nothing else i can provide anyway #but yeah something feels very off and i’m super insecure about everything #this is probably my brain fucking with me big time rn but yeah the insecurity is here for good #anyway i’m still trying the “fake it til you make it” thing so i’ll keep posting gifs etc even if i feel weird about them #this is emma speaking

[anti-dazai-blog]

honestly your blog is so real

pretty well written [and enjoyable at times]; but in short he’s an asshole

[and i also really like reading through analyses(?) and i am very happy to find some sharing my opinions]

i tried to explain something like this to my sister once and i’m pretty sure she thinks i hate dazai now😭

adjghsadj THANK YOU I’m glad you’re enjoying this blog!!!

honestly 10/10 ask to get during finals, I really needed something like this to help motivate me and give me the energy to work hard and study. Finals end on the 21st for me, so I plan on continuing the Anti-Dazai Series right after that

thanks again, tumblr user Caffeiiine!!

#anti dazai asks #Thank you so much!! #You have no idea how happy it makes me to see that people enjoy what I post #Also because I’ve put entirely too many hours into creating this series #So I’m glad people like the long analyses rather than the bullet-point notes that are my first draft

[floral-hex]

hi it’s my birthday tomorrow

#had to redo this since someone left a comment that bummed me out a lot #well… didn’t HAVE to but I didn’t like seeing the notification #guess I could have just deleted their comment… shit… didn’t think about that #hey uhhhh please don’t be mean to me about my birthday. I’m just a sad lil guy 🥺 #I already dislike my birthday. I hate feeling older. like I’m wasting my life. #it’s already usually an afterthought since it’s Christmas Eve #but with my mom’s surgery it’s even more of an afterthought and I’m so stressed and I have to take care of my bros and I’m just not great 😬 #like… what do I even want to do tomorrow? #I’d love to just sleep in and eat junk and maybe go see a movie #but I have to go drive 40 minutes to see my mom and if I try to cut the visit short I’ll just feel guilty #so… I guess I’m spending my birthday watching my mom shake and cry in pain 🤷🏻‍♂️ #which can be okay! I mean not okay but I can 100%… well… 85% live with that. it’s okay. it’s just a day. #but fuck does it hurt when people just ignore it or downplay it or make jokes about my birthday this year #people don’t have to care about my birthday. strangers online don’t have to care. it’s whatever. #and I’m not even mad at anyone in particular. I just… yeah.. I just can’t take negative jokes about it right now. #I’m trying not to be specific! I don’t want to be mean! nobody is being mean to me! it’s okay! #im just a sensitive baby that just wants people to be nice to him for the next 24 hours #…. I’m sad! #I think I’ll just be mean to everyone tomorrow #…. lol like I could do that. pfffttt I’ll bend over backwards for my family and I’ll be glad to do it. mostly. #it’ll be okay #days are 24 hours. I’m sure I can squeeze some good stuff in between the bad. that’s life babyyyy #and I love you and I appreciate you to no one in particular and I’m sorry I’m so sensitive #my mutuals are great #you’re all great. unless you aren’t. but we won’t talk about that. #ok you can ignore this #text