honestly tho thank god I am romancing Lae’zel with this Tav because that’s probably the only thing keeping her from genuinely considering ceremorphosis
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hmm. had an actual conversation with nightmare coworker today that seemed mutually productive. she apologized for saying some bullshit that hurt my feelings and i clarified that my intentions are to help not to undermine her, and we both agreed that there's no competition against each other and that it's the lack of growth in our role that's the problem. it was...productive.
and further cementing for me that it is time to begin making my Exit. i will be sending out my resume to a few places this weekend.
i'm still processing the conversation, and am struggling to place myself in where i am responsible to better my behavior. because i genuinely don't want to be an ass, even though i really don't like this lady and will jump for joy the day i never have to see her again. she stated that she knows my intentions aren't to hurt her, and that she thinks i'm very kind. i apologized for if my behavior came off as undermining her, and said that my intentions are only to better my own growth—and that i know she's trying to succeed too. i validated her feelings, and complemented the effort she is putting in.
where i'm struggling with is: am i in the wrong/causing harm and needing to change if the issue is that her feelings are incongruent with what she knows of my intentions? her feelings are her responsibility (WOW i almost typed "her feelings are my responsibility". i feel like that's a freudian slip) and she states that she knows i don't mean to hurt her. i'm going to try to be more clear in wording my intentions with her (she feels like me trying to take work off her plate is to undermine her. when really, i'm caught up and see her getting overwhelmed, and i want to help and also have something to do since i'm bored).
but i'm really struggling to look at my role in this and pass judgement on myself. i can and want to do better, and i don't think i did anything wrong, but i'm always so hesitant to say it's not my fault or i didn't do something bad. like i can't trust my judgement on that. my intentions were good, her bad feelings are ones caused by her insecurities, which she more or less has expressed to be aware that they are not true—the hurtful thing she said to me, she acknowledged was said out of hurt and not what she actually thinks. so, is it fair to say i'm not the bad guy? i'm not in the wrong? i know good intentions that still result in harm don't absolve anyone, but when the things that are clashing are insufficient communication and reactive insecurities... i'm not a monster, am i?
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currently obsessed with the idea of the villain of the week kidnapping lime to try and get to mochi, except she isn't (too) worried bc she knows he can more than take care of himself, and the baddies won't know what hit them 😌
OOOOOH MY GOD THAT IS SUCH A GOOD IDEA LMFAOOO!!!!!!!!!
coco: arent you gonna.....go after them...?
mochi: i think lime would be insulted if i did
lime, half an hour later holding a box full of misc spell items he looted from them, covered in bruises and scuffs: so anyway like i was saying before we got interrupted...the giant mushroom creature in the giants thicket: pass.
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She's not saying anything, but she agrees with most of the ladies. Malzeno is quite handsome, especially with his new white & gold scales.
He's an Elder Dragon though, he's never go for someone so far down the food chain like her.
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1, 6, 7, 14!! (I think I remembered these right)
wa-ha!! thank you thank you!
1. Art programs you have but don’t use
I'm Very precious about my computer space so I kinda only have Clip Studio... which is what I use.
I bet if you root around in my laptop deep enough though you can find remnants of Photoshop somewhere....
6. Anything that might inspire you subconsciously (i.e. this horse wasn’t supposed to look like the Last Unicorn but I see it)
ohh this is.. a really interesting one..
I'm not sure if this counts because there's a degree to which it Is an active conscious influence but I feel like old classical painting sensibilities sneak in there a lot?
.......maybe not often in what I actually end up posting lmao
but in stuff that I've drafted and planned I think there's a degree to which the language of classical art kinda.. leaks in a bit. Particularly in like.. poses and composition.
even though the more Active influence is Golden Age of Illustration fairytale stuff and like whatever they had going on in the 60's/70's
Less sophisticated but I feel like you can still see that I started drawing Anime sometimes too sdfhsdf just in the way I do emotions and movement... even though stylistically I've pulled pretty far from that!
7. A medium of art you don’t work in but appreciate
w a t e r c o lo u r s 100%
like the Breadth of stuff you can make watercolours do is ridiculous! They can be light and airy and soft, or deep and solid as any oil painting.. there's so much depth to watercolour it's really remarkable!
And the brushes I use digitally mimic water colours because I just adore the texture..
But alas it's a medium that takes a great amount of skill to really master and I simply cannot wrap my ding dang little head around it...
14. Any favorite motifs?
visually?
Mirror images, hearts or other body parts used as symbols, angelic and demonic imagery, flowers.. The body as like.. a holy symbol
and like.. thematically?
the line between human and non-human, grasping for things just out of reach, romance or general implications of intimacy
do those count as motifs? I haven't been in school for a long time what the fuck is a motif....
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