#I talk SO MUCH lmao I'm sorry friends

[spookygibberish]

Dogstock are typical of what are often deemed the ‘evil’ races in many other fantasy works. They were created by some higher force to be slaves, they are carnivorous by nature, they resemble animals other than human in dentition and build. They growl and bite and walk behind.

The Uhasr (a dogstock culture) are descendants of such slave-infantry that was abandoned when the empire that used them to capture the steppes decided the land wasn’t so profitable after all, and more pressing matters drew their attention elsewhere. Like tools left spent on the ground, the unneeded, excess dogstock were left to survive on their own in Hochkiskuph. The native peoples, of course, did not welcome them any more, or see them any less as oppressors when the hand released the lead. To the Hochkiskuph peoples, the Uhasr are a predatory ghost, an echo that consumes them even in absentia. To the Uhasr, one human is much like another, differing in number and equipment, but never in essence. Uhasr are a species of wild animal with a human face. Humans are prey on two legs. Humans smoke and poison uncovered dens on principle, Uhasr abduct and consume men and women and children all the same.

A common trend I have noticed in media which aims to humanize monsters, is that it often relies on passivity. Humanity is contingent upon kindness. The monster that is A Person only so long as they are a harmless thing at heart, something which can be understood and befriended. Their violence is reluctant, their hearts noble. Grace is a concession to the dominated. Only the toothless beast, declawed and pinioned and caged, is one which has earned its personhood. The ontological enemy supersedes the ontological man.

#haven't posted them much (all wips) but been thinking about the sphinxish people in my setting. same world as thrones #different part of the continent like 2 whole seas away #this is inspired by a shitty comic a friend is reading and also thinking some of the writing in the long way to a small angry planet re #hostile aliens really really sucked. #i want to talk abt this more so im posting it if you have thoughts i would like to hear themmmmm #i'm very cynical about this kind of stuff lmao #dogstock #im also reading tollkien rn so im thinking about ORCS #i dont actually like the lotr trilogy all that much but not even bc i think the writing is bad i just think its kinda boring. sorry. #thats not a very interesting reason to not like something i dont even think its not good im just not super entertained. rip #like not saying there is no issue with it at all writing wise there is very much to say abt how it is utterly and uncritically #white good black bad fair elves and dark orcs and shit like that #but i've liked things more that have bigger issues. hi pern. maybe i just like shlock! idk! #rambling. im keyed up hi #the gibberish in spookygibberish

[kyouka-supremacy]

:O

#Wow. Mr Ayatsuji was right #I think it's the first chapter in the entirety of bsd that ever had me go “oh” and “wow” out loud #This is so cool. I mean not much to see yet but these were all such cool plot twists #For a moment I really feared Dostoyevsky had taken over Gogol? I'm a little glad that wasn't the case poor Gogol #I suppose Bram is now like‚ dead-dead? I'm sorry. Not overly sorry but still sorry. I liked him. #Today I took lunch with a friend and she's a big jj/k fan and was talking about how everyone dies and I was like #“lmao. No one in bsd ever dies. ever” #How to be proved wrong in the span of 2 hours pfftttttt #Anyways I'm SO SO SO SO SO ////////////SO//////////// GLAD THE ACTION IS BACK AT THE AIRPORT. Ss/kk for pride month 2024 I can FEEL it #I think... Maybe? The new mega three sided singularity will create a new ability-entity. It makes sense doesn't it? #Something so powerful to create a new being. Spawning from Fukuchi's body. The dude from the season 5 finale #You know. You saw the similarities with Fukuchi. Yeah It makes sense #Next chapter is going to introduce them then show everyone at loss and desperation– #and then in the last page Akutagawa's grand entrance as being alive #I'm not even joking btw. It sounds reasonable enough. Akutagawa kinda has a thing with last pages entrances #Gotta explain the new outfit though. Something something and magical girl tranformations #Anywayssssssss good chapter. Hope the next one is going to be even better <3 (sskk 🙏) (sskk 🙏) (sskk 🙏) (sskk 🙏) (sskk 🙏) (sskk 🙏) #random rambles

[cheekblush]

i'd rather be friendless than to constantly have my boundaries disrespected

#i am so frustrated and annoyed rn #at the beginning of this year my ex best friend reached out to me and i cautiously let her back into my life #things were going great but now she turned a harmless topic into a full blown discussion even though i told her multiple times that i no.. #.. longer want to discuss this matter but she kept going & then accusing me of continuing the discussion as well #and tbh i really should've stopped engaging with her messages much sooner but it's so annoying when someone sends you lots of messages with #their opinion although i mentioned several times that i want to drop the topic & then i'm just expected to shut up lol #she didn't respect my wish to move and made a huge fuss about nothing #i stopped replying to her since yesterday bc i really had enough & i should've just left her on read much sooner #but her messages were truly annoying me #her last message now says that we often have different opinions & she thinks she's more optimistic than me & that makes it hard for her to.. #talk to me..... i was so dumbfounded when i read that this morning #our initial conversation was about whether a song is more pop or rnb....... & she twisted that into me being negative lmao #she was so obsessed with being right that she couldn't drop the topic even though i told her how exhausting the convo was for me #and like it's such an irrelevant topic... imagine being that obsessed with always being right 😭 #idc anymore i'd rather be a negative bitch than someone who disrespects others' boundaries <3 #i thought she changed for the better but she's so self-righteous opinionated & stubborn it's awful #i calmly told her that her behavior is bothering me & we easily could've just moved on but she kept going on and on #and she herself admitted that it's one of her flaws that she always has to be right & she's being petty & yet she didn't stop 🤡 #even writing all this down feels so silly to me bc the initial topic was sooooo trivial #am i supposed to feel sorry for thinking a song was rnb rather than pop???? like go touch some grass please #she even sent me a screenshot of the wikipedia page of the song to prove that it's rnb & it literally said synth pop & rnb lol #but i wasn't even mad about that her not respecting my wish to drop the topic & move on even though i said it multiple times really pissed.. #me off though.... like girl just let it go it's not that deep!!! #but apparently i'm negative & pessimistic for having a different opinion than her 🤷🏼‍♀️ #like imagine starting a fight over smth SO IRRELEVANT but i'm the negative one sure lmao #okay i just needed to get this off my chest bc i don't have anyone to talk to about this & it's just ridiculous to me #☁️

[lloydfrontera]

have i already talked about alicia knowing damn well the frontera family is actually stronger and more powerful than the royal family and the only thing stopping them from being a national threat is that lloyd has zero political ambition? if i have im sorry but i need to talk about it again like imagine the frustration. like this guy who came apparently from the middle of nowhere has at his disposal what seems to be the world's most powerful knight, a fucking bone dragon that acts like a puppy around him, has made friends with elves and orcs and even dwarves, has apparently swallowed an ancient divine artifact and who keeps doing stuff that by all means should be absolutely impossible. and he just wants to chill. he doesn’t even want to work for the royal family he wants to go back to his home and live with his parents and his knight and maybe go visit his little brother sometimes. it apparently doesn’t even occur to him that he’s probably the most dangerous person on the continent and that he could probably defeat entire armies and conquer a few kingdoms if he so wanted. he just wants to relax. i would be murderous.

#i talk a lot <3 #the greatest estate developer #the greatest estate developer spoilers #lloyd frontera #alicia magentano #this isn't even touching how. well. popular lloyd is. #the people of the frontera estate believe in him so much they don't even blink when they hear he can stop time #like that's the level of trust they have on him #plus he's saved two different cities #plus the whole deal with. god what was the name of the other kingdom. #kandahar? the place serazad is from i'm sorry i forgot i need to reread those chapters #OH YEAH I FORGOT THAT THE SULTAN ALSO WANTED HIM FOR SON-IN-LAW LMAO #like my dude could totally topple an empire if he wanted #but he doesn't #he just wants to take a nap. eat whatever he wants. maybe take a day off. #he's a simple creature it's not his fault life keeps making him escalate his projects ajshdjka #also i dont think alicia knows about this but he also made friends with an angel and has several dragons living near/at his house #oh god is lloyd gonna win thanks to the power of friendship?? #tged

[starheirxero]

btw for the record if we have ever been in a situation where we had to stop being friends for whatever reason, i will still always hold you fondly in my heart. i will still think of every kind and small moment we had and i will miss you with every atom in my body. i will wait for you to come back and if you return, you will be no less of a friend to me than the day you left. i have no friendship decay

#xero says things #SORRY. SORRY. i know being suddenly emotional on main when i'm usually being silly is ridiculous but i felt the need to say it #i know this seems like a weird scenario but genuinely i have been in so many situations now where parents or peer pressure has made me- #-lose friends and mutuals #and sometimes i know we can still keep contact—just without the parents or the other person's followers knowing #but sometimes i visit their blogs using incognito browsers and i know they aren't coming back #and maybe i'll getvover it soon! maybe this feeling will pass quickly #but for the past 2 weeks i've just been missing my friends. i've been missing them a lot #so. uh. to make a sad post a little more cheerful #to all the friends who still talk to me or ignored what other ppl said about me #thank you #thank you so so much #you mean more to me than i can really express via words rn #vent #< for blacklisting bc i ended up getting more emotional in this than i intended LMAO

[mushroom-for-art]

@distortionmewtwo Lucifer@Vector:

The big horned mew hovered in the air, gazing down at Vector with undisguised judgement. "Just what are you supposed ta be? Mew? Mewtwo? Some Meowth's hairball? You look like what you'd get if someone threw an algae-choked fishtank and moldy bread into a blender! Hah!" He did a lazy little roll in the air, sneering down at Vector. An eager, evil dare in his eyes for them to retaliate.

The strange creature hunched over watching the horned other with expression and body language that clearly read as pure terror and uncertainty her eyes glued to the floating individual as he loomed over her sneering and mocking.

However when he didn't strike nor more too quickly her ear like horns straightened slowly no longer back in fright turning if anything to inquisitiveness as she shifted her body slowly though still watching him to crouch using one hand to stabilise herself as her head slowly tilted to one side.

She blinked slowly in a manner that indicated she may not have even understood what he had been saying, or was choosing to not acknowledge it her tail moving and swaying lifting to rest on the top of her head two of the spikes sticking up while the third morphed back into the jelly like substance of her tail as she curiously mimicked his horns, at least the best she could.

Imitation is the most sincere form of flattery or so they say, though it could've been read otherwise. Foolishly perhaps, she seemed a bit fascinated by him now as her tail fell back down to resting on the floor, she lifted her body just enough from her crouch to curiously tap at one of his hooves as though seeing if it was real and not just a unique shaped paw, idly grabbing one of the points between her digits making little curious chirps and cooes in her throat.

#my art #Vector the mew/two #@distortionmewtwo Lucifer #Lucifer really came to mock my biggest weirdo character ever XD #Me watching Vector probably set herself up for a swift kick in the face like: baby girl are you SURE you wanna do that maybe don't?? #Vector is lmao a bit of a fool really sees a mew that's different and strange looking and goes oh kinda like me! #He is not ur friend he is being mean to youuuu!!!! #Can vector speak? Eehhhh??? Unclear?? Can she understand him?? Probably?? I don't know probably I think she's just choosing to not speak XD #Really just not giving him the satisfaction of words because she doesn't talk much anyways lmao too distracted by his horns hooves and tail #I'm not sure how big lucifer is?? So I made him kinda big and threatening and she's probably kinda trying to look small #But she's probably about 4'5 head to feet so like she is choosing to make herself look small compared to him she could maybe tower over him #Weird little creature I love her but she is so so stupid XD #Sorry it's a rough sketch! Was meant to get this done friday and oops didn't so quickly sketched this out to answer #And sorry for forgetting his ear crimes XD sorry Lucy <- fun fact the file name was saved as VectorLucy because I thought it'd annoy him XD #my oc #pokemon #mewtwo #my writing

[chipistrate]

You see that theory going around on Twitter about Gregory being innocent in the main ending?

@/TheJ_Pro on there has a pretty detailed thread about it if you haven't heard it.

YEAHYEAHYEAHYEAHYEAH I SAW!! MY SON!!! MY SON IS INNOCENT!!!!

Honestly I think he's valid in his actions whether he did it or not considering the situation he was in at that moment- but after hearing the evidence of him not doing it, even outside of that thread, I'm definitely leaning more on the side that it wasn't him.

#Chip Chatter #ruin spoilers #fnaf ruin spoilers #fnaf sb ruin spoilers #security breach ruin spoilers #my son is my son no matter WHAT he does #he's already killed one of his friends before (although not of his own free will) I can forgive him for doing it again. #HE WAS IN A TOUGH SITUATION AND HE WAS SCARED SHITLESS AND IF IT REALLY WAS HIM TALKING THEN HE FELT BAD ABOUT IT TOO LIKE AUGHURGHIUJERFGR #I'm sorry Cassie I promise I love you so so so much but I have to defend my son always and forever it's like my whole thing right now #GREGORY GET BEHIND ME!!! #Though I doooooooooo prefer if it wasn't him because I have some shit cooking right now....................... (AU crafting) #but look- my boy FINALLY escaped the Pizzaplex with his found family (mostly) in-tact and he does NOT want the creature that tormented him- #-and his family for so long to escape and he was SCARED and had to make a TOUGH DECISION and I will forgive him no matter what if it was- #-really him. #BUT THAT GOT OFF TOPIC!!! I DON'T THINK IT WAS HIM ANYMORE LMAO but I'm just saying that if it was him I love him anyways

[asteralien]

video called "pirate shirt tutorial that actually makes sense" with a thumbnail clickbaitingly copying bernadette banner's style, which does the exact same thing as bernadette banner's video but more confusingly and without a diagram in the video itself, also failing to understand that bernadette banner's channel is primarily a history channel and not a sewing tutorial channel so telling people they don't have to hand-sew the pirate shirt or they don't have to thread-pull is unnecessary because bernadette banner literally said "do this however you want, i just do it this way because it's how i learn about historical dress practices" in her own video. couldn't ask for better youtube entertainment

#source: i'm an idiot and i've made two of bernadette's pirate shirts and they're fantastic #understanding that her diagram is not a pattern but a guideline on how to make your own pattern #is like. not that hard to get. she gave her measurements and then explained how to get your own #to be fair!! everyone learns differently! there are many comments saying that this other video made sense and helped them #which is absolutely fair and good. more knowledge is never a bad thing #it's just the presentation of this other video that i find so funny #'yes i CAN explain how to make a historically accurate men's shirt better than the actual historical dress historian' #[footage not found] #just the way of explaining the shoulder seams...........so much more confusing than bernadette's diagram #also calling the reinforcement patches on the neck/cuff splits??? useless/pointless?????? #sorry i want my garments to not fall apart because i can't afford really nice fabric lmao i will be reinforcing those points. thanks tho #also 'no one is talking about neck gussets i couldn't find any info' HUH ??? #i just want to know if they looked anywhere besides youtube because there are absolutely people talking abt neck gussets #i should not be such a bitch about this. it's not that big a deal. again in the end: more people sharing knowledge is Good #but my friend!!! come on now!!!! #aster chat #ah fuck lads i want to make another poet shirt because that's exactly what i need going into what i'm sure will be a blazing summer #another long sleeved shirt with three yards of fabric to smother myself in #that do Not go with any of my work appropriate trousers

[bri-does-art]

Hi, just popping in to say I'm alive, still working on the next chapter and those ask responses, everything's good. |'D In case anyone was worried!

#i'm so sorry it's taking so long y'all #i'm just going through some INTENSELY STRESSFUL SHIT and it's taken a huge toll on me #but i'm doing my best i promise #i've had to take quite a few mental health breaks in the past few months #didn't help that a big part of the chapter was pretty difficult to write from a linguistic and technical perspective #but i've completed it!! now i just... gotta write the rest :')))) #maybe i'll do another poll for splitting the chapter or not because my god i am gonna finish this one in august at this rate #also random thoughts but #sometimes i think it'd be nice to join fnaf servers and meet and talk to people #make some more friends who love fnaf as well with whom i could talk and stuff #i keep going ''hmmm that'd be nice'' BUT #then i remember how i barely am active even on the server i am a mod for and i think of how big this fandom is #and i break into hives just thinking about it lmao #i don't want to be in a huge server i know it'll just stress me out and i'll end up muting it forever OTL #i perform so much better in little groups or one on one #but #to find these cool little groups or the cool people to talk to 1-on-1 i NEED to go through these hugeass servers and honestly no thank you #i am too autistic for this ;v;) #or maybe i am just growing old :'3 #i know there are some very cool people who follow me (how did it even happen i do not know) who i'd love to reach out to #who probably don't even realize that we'd be mutuals if it wasn't for this being a sideblog i can't follow back from #and i kinda want to keep my main blog kinda private just for online living hygiene reasons #*long wistful sighing* ah well

[toasteaa]

I can't think of anything else except my ocs today and it's been like this for the past three weeks I am LOSING my mind

#toast talks #I'm not MAD about it they just happen to be the only characters running through my mind recently #I'm sorry to everyone that came here for my fictional man simping. I'm still simping for fictional men I just happened to make them LMAO #Their partners were made by and with friends though so you can imagine what the fuck is happening in dms #The urge to draw full body refs of some of them is so strong. ESPECIALLY Osmanthus. He's been getting so much love recently #I gotta get him and his big ass ears a full ref but idk how to draw abs or kitty feets #Time to study ig

[tradingjack]

💕 self-love time! talk about which ones of YOUR creations (edits, artworks, fanfics) you like the most then send to other creators to do the same 💕

hi jams omg thank you so much for the ask!! <3

Right now, i'd probably say the thing i created that i like the most that i've shared is also the longest thing i've ever written, my silly 120k word jayvik fic Vulnerability 😅 i started writing it while i was super depressed, like shortly after christmas, and after having not written in literal years, and through those characters and that universe i just... wrote out as much love and emotion as i could for 2 months straight

like, it was a time where i was living completely isolated, in shitty cold weather, all I had to do was work and survive, and I'd just graduated college alone. they mailed me my diploma. I celebrated by drinking a bottle of wine alone while it snowed outside. I didn't really have any friends. so... there wasn't much else for me to do, and i poured pretty much all my passion into those characters and their relationship, and i think it definitely came across :P the original title of that fic wasn't vulnerability, but i can't imagine it called anything else now just cause there's so much of me in it.

the process of writing and sharing that stuff was crazy, too, i'd literally work an ER night shift and write an entire chapter on fuckin google docs mobile, and then i'd get home from the shift in the morning and i'd read over it Once on my computer to make sure there wasn't anything egregiously wrong, copy it over to ao3, hit the publish button, and then fall asleep through the day until i had to work at night again 😭 like at least half of the chapters written are like that, which is completely nuts and i don't know how i did that.

sorry to talk about it so much oops :P it was a crazy time for me, and it was so wild to me that it received so much love. it still blows me away tbh.

#askingjack #thedreamlessnights #jams i'm in love with you <3 thank you again for sending this ask #also thank you so much for all the kindness you've been showing me lately in general i'm. appreciate it so much 😭😭 #sorry for talking so much lmao it was just. such a weird time in my life lol #that fic was also my ticket in to the community tbh. before that i was not involved at all. and i've always been bad about getting involved #so. honestly. this has been nice and that fic kinda changed my life lol. i've met so many friends since #it's wild

[bsaka7]

if you know me for more than four years you start unlocking my actual obsessions. the problem with this is im embarrassed by them and no one should have to listen to me to talk myself in circles. even if they already like me.

#my ex gets grandfathered into this even tho we weren't rlly good friends til we started dating #If you follow me on tumblr you're just stuck with them #I'm usually much better at holding it back in real life but I haven't seen anyone I rlly know other than my fam in ages #So. Sorry to my friend LOL #I haven't talked that much about this to be fair. Just shown some pictures. #More talked about work. Which that one I at least tell my mom about too hahaha #When she's stuck in a car with me... No escape #I'm so. Obsessive but I try to. Hide it LMAO

[unproduciblesmackdown]

fascinating lens on taylor's goings on in s6 there re: Romance. epic win that they have rian turn them down but i'm also really not sure why they did. oh you know, rian who's always defined by being so prudent [montage of actually pretty much everything seemingly defining rian has been pretty anti prudent] like ok w/e

but we start out with taylor Particularly Unmotivated By Work and instead watching a The Bachelor beach proposal which involves extasis through this Reality(tm) pastiche of romance. i am assuming. wherein the journey Ends with this transcendent all-consuming joy upon the realization of said Romance for one contestant. then when their somehow still bestie mafee (relevant tangents about how all taylor's relationships seem to involve their having an approach where they have low standards like "well but i guess this is all i can get / expect" including that they can't even necessarily expect shit they like/enjoy/are at all supported by, while readily accepting whatever blame/reproach from others) is like "gee but are you really happy" they're apparently inspired to pursue happiness by pursuing romance. which they seem to consider is possible only through rian, intriguing here when the entire basis of their dynamic seems to be [trapped in work hell together] like boy we have nothing outside our jobs? i sure hope we can be Everything to each other then :) and how it's even more baffling that rian is completely unbaffled by this development when you might operate on some assumptions like "you should have ever seemed to enjoy any interactions you've ever had" to consider choosing more vulnerability and more time / effort spent on this relationship, and "you also don't need to have Found Fault with someone / otherwise have some grievances or dislike of them to not want to date them" especially if rian's apparent sense of responsibility for taylor's theoretical negative feelings about rejection supposedly doesn't involve thinking about any power dynamics, she just feels the need to repeatedly reassure them she'd actually Love to date or have sex but she's just so set on not dating through work, b/c of the complications, that she's never considered not having casual sex with bosses and also never mentioned this stance to turn down winston nor done anything but revel in how he might feel about even being rejected as a conversational partner. too prudent to mention it. certainly also a relevant matter that it Need Not Be Explained to anyone that winston for one is excluded as a potential Romantic partner for pretty much everyone i guess. whilest as this potential mirror to taylor, he's not only considering specifically rian w/"we're similar; let's hang out; i'd like to have sex maybe even" (though winston's sexuality, like his communicative capacities, is also simply Not Allowed) but also seems to be like "i guess this is all i can get / expect" or hanging on for a long time to the possibility of Otherwise at his own expense or taking blame / whatever pretty egregious treatment like. taylor being willing to talk to wendy still is akin to winston still being willing to talk to rian. though maybe that's changed by the end of s6; it'd be very warranted after the pretty make or break [rian & winston Share An Interest; hang out outside work about it] moment there and also after Everything Else on its own, just like how it'd be very warranted if taylor expecting Nothing Better from wendy could turn into their hardly being willing to interact

anyways, sure is fortunate for taylor (or is it???) that Work becomes more enriching for them suddenly, and through someone with whom they have this promising personal dynamic with, a Peer with whom, in fact, they do both seem to find reward in interacting with each other / want and choose to do so, imagine, while [reiterating for emphasis]: they are both finding reward in interacting and feeling Complementary rather than only seeing exactly themself in each other, while having this respect for each other and flexibility and knowing they don't Have to work together, and may not always be doing so.

but most to the point it sure is something that the season starts off with taylor being dissatisfied with their work situation and responding by not being at work and instead watching people be overjoyed about their (also, relevantly, Peak Normal Correct Cishet) romance, though they don't outright claim to straightforwardly enjoy this. then they Do outright claim to us repeatedly, if ever begrudgingly, that everything rian does is worthy &/or sympathetic (and totally comprehensible and consistent so as to believably retain any sense of Character....) while every time they interact, it's a business meeting and one or both of them is unhappy about some part of it. but then once taylor's asked to think about their happiness Beyond Work they apparently are simply motivated to go ask someone out, and it may as well be rian For Lack Of A Better Option really, but then there's the wrench of "for some reason rian is unsurprised and not at all put off by this, or even just somewhat confused" and "for some reason rian's like 'sorry but no. fr im soooo sorry'" with these perspectives of [happiness Outside Work = romance] and [someone deemed Objectively Worthy = you'd of course at least consider romance, or else you must think actually they're Unworthy in some way, or have some more general Reason you'd reject others categorically in just the same way] (rian rejecting winston for unworthiness so much that she doesn't even need to bother actually telling him as much; rejecting taylor for [i don't date through work] with followups to reassure them it's Not the unworthiness) (that on and off paper winston & taylor have no reason to not be kissing but i think we can assume that won't happen, b/c billions itself may also assume we understand that [winston is unworthy] is just true. &/or that anyone Worthy understands as much)

so hoping that taylor has Some kind of enriching lasting relationship with philip, truly, which was the hopes for winston and rian but the updated hope is his enriching lasting disengagement with rian, f

#winston billions #AND rian having some of the worst material re: sex billions has ever inflicted upon us. impressive. sorry to this character #(and like.................has she Not prior had casual sex through work while she's been willing to do so / hasn't had nights & weekends??) #that makes no sense either. it's for winston's sake i'm glad she hasn't tried to be fwb there #wouldn't it be fun if we got s7 genderfluid rian. but we won't. fr it's like....why'd we get this character at all lmao #would've made more sense if she left at the end of s6 too. while the best thing we've gotten is taylor getting to further distinguish #themself from axe in of course good ways. the associated [philip seems so much more like A Character than rian despite also being new] #difficult to work in ''rian would be abusive towards winston if they were dating b/c she Already Is as (sometimes) work friends'' when #another issue is that rian's material isn't really being Examined when every character can only remark abt how cool & correct she always is #ultimately; at least....taylor you caaan't actually be mad at rian; gotta be some Other issue you're having bad feelings about.... #that winston being introduced so peripherally it was meant to be a oneoff & while (as viewed by other characters) being Incorrect and #Unsympathetic has created the conditions for someone who does end up w/this stronger sense of Being A Character #he's even autistic....while rian is adhd and hostile like ''at least i'm allistic and meritous'' #like yes i Will talk to you more than others maybe but offscreen & i Will also be bullying you b/c i am willing to and i certainly can. #dunno what to say about winston and tuk b/c we've still seen so relatively little & idk what we'll get for winston in s7 #that it's will's updated foul play website bio that Confirms he'll be in s7 at all; but i'm still not supposing he'll def get more than an #episode or two or w/e. or i suppose he could be sent off & return; they're still in production mode over there after all #i would really doubt canon would give us that romance but it would be....i dunno. earthshaking really lol haven't given it the most thought #canon might also think that would be insulting to tuk or something.... #or say As Much w/that continual threat of ''improving'' winston by making him Choose to be more normal now (: #everyone's always giving him the organic aba (abuse) either way but umm the Least you could do would be absorb it & Stop Bringing It Upon #Yourself....still supposing it's possible that their being Friends is considered to be dragging tuk back / dooming him to Loserdom #but as or more likely: he got to talk to tuk in the last ep to get him out of the way. it will never get focus #oh i went off track up there: finishing the thought to say i suppose it's assumed rian would not be shitty towards taylor like she would be #towards winston b/c they're Worthier; not supposedly inferior to her even as winston is considered to be #hence that rian Can give winston shit whenever she wants but just so happens to Not be that way towards anyone else. makes you think #mfw i run out of room writing on one page abt cam stone like ''i could've been more clearly relationship anarchist with it :(''

[born-to-lose]

In my depressed era again <3

#for literally no reason ugh i hate it i hate it i hate it #probably a bad mix of overthinking and lovesickness again but what's new #i figured out why i like to do stuff until late at night until i fall asleep lol it's because i don't wanna be left alone with my thoughts #i guess that's why i could go such a long time without you know what... i always had lots of schoolwork to do and didn't have much time to- #-think about this kind of shit and once i don't have anything to do anymore i found myself in bed with a bleeding arm lmao #also let's call this my 'everyone i know hates me and my best friends despise me the most' era #still gonna stay up two more hours because i'm like a damn puppy who waits excitedly for their favorite person to come home from work #at this point i should maybe write all this shit in a diary but like. you know how my rambling posts start so y'all can just ignore #tldr i'm feeling like shit and i can't promise that i won't do something stupid again #i'm just too hung up on things that happened weeks ago but like what if it isn't actually ok now #also i know i'm too clingy and possessive with people i'm really close to but it's just my abandonment issues :( #and i know i fucked things up with other people (friendships and relationships) way too many times so i'm putting all i have into this one #still i feel like it's too much and too little at the same time idk i just Know when i really like someone and then i don't wanna lose them #but at the same time i often drive them away with my excessive love and attention because certain people are like some addiction to me #ok no that's too much already for now sorry #anyways i'm sobbing and shaking and feeling terrible and guilty #oh and unrelated but i nearly got run over by a car today 👍🏻 fucking hate drunk small town students in a mcd's parking lot #mel talks #tw self harm

[mxbitters]

the old care bears stuff could’ve been so fuckin cool if they just maybe werent patronizing about it and actually tried to understand that kids’ emotions and stuff like friendship/social isolation are really nuanced but they really just .  mm. cool fuckin demons though 

#ok dark heart isnt actually tootoo scary to me as much as he is funny considering how just. baaaaaaadly written he was like the end wtf #but the fuckin BOOK DEMON are you KIDDING ME #and dont get me started with that one fuckin spell. the fuckin barracuda swordfish whatever it was #and then the TREE and whatever fuckin bird thing that was supposed to be-- #like oh im sorry i didnt think the care bears movie would be my introduction to the feeling of being HUNTED FOR SPORT #i actually dont pay much attention to new developments in care bears aside from if i see new toys #theyre cute even though idk abt the denim line. jare bears. fuckin. ok. #idk what the show or whatever looks like though #but like the early 2000s movies seemed to be more like.. care-a-lot centered.. #so like i think they're not really flyin down anymore?? #lmao like a mlp treatment where a harder line is drawn between the lovable colorful characters and just. some kids #to be fair though it does make sense. 'i'm tenderheart bear and im your FRIEND' umm who are you and she talked to me first

[niallandtommo]

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#my parents and i basically live right next to each other #like i can see their apartment and they can see mine #i go over to their place at least 2 or 3 times a week #and even if we don't see each other my mom and i usually talk on the phone for at least 15 minutes #and yesterday we didn't see each other or talked on the phone and today my mom told me she missed me #like 🥺 #we literally just spent 10 days in portugal together #i saw her on tuesday and we talked on the phone on wednesday #and yet she misses me when we don't talk for a day #i told her she could have called but she didn't wanna bother me in case i needed some time for myself #and i'm just 🥺🥺🥺 #she really is the most amazing mom and i genuinely don't know what i would do without her #she always tells me how much she loves me she supports me in every way and is always ALWAYS there for me #i might not have a lot of friends or a partner but at least i have her #(and also the rest of my family) #sorry i'm a little emotional i'm on my period lol #i almost started crying when she told me she missed me #don't know where i'm going with this lmao i just love my mom so much