#I promise I will find time some day

[taegularities]

some men are textbook villains fr

#tw religion? #kinda need to rant.. kinda wanna explain what's going on #some ppl are part of humanity but don't know how to be humane... like the guy i started talking to almost 2 weeks ago #liked him a lot bc he was funny sickeningly sweet mature and understanding.. until he was not #tl dr version is that we somehow drifted to the topic religion and i told him im not too religious and don't believe in superstition much #i was extremely respectful and even when he said that he does believe a lot i was like 'thats cool!! different people believe in different #things!!' and at first it was a normal convo until man went all psycho on me (after one damn week!!!) and started talking about how #id have to be religious in a relationship with him.. my dude i barely know your fav food can we not talk about relationships yet #but he says he doesn't even need a woman who cooks/cleans just someone who believes.. n im like i get it but i can't change myself like that #and then guy moves to marriage and is all 'well my entire family is religious' n my mom and sister (who's 16) would be putting pressure on #you n force you to pray etc.. and I'm like???? who can force anyone to a thing like that are u kidding #things escalate and my absolute STUPID ass tells him about my deepest fkn trauma to explain what made me abandon religion bc #life just never got better and this trauma remained for yrs... and he gets so angry that he says he wants to stop talking to me just to spam #me all day next day.. he'd keep messaging me switching between 'i still want you we shouldn't throw this away i have feelings for you' #AFTER A WEEEEEEKKKK!!! and then goes back to 'i wasted my time with you you were so unnecessary im in a bad mood bc of you' #even said 'you'll never find a guy with a trauma and mindset like this. i will find a religious girl but no one will love you like that' #and the worst thing is that he told his friends and mom about the trauma i had just to spite me.. note that he promised to never tell anyone #(and then still asked for forgiveness and for me to rethink whether we want to end this after telling me 473626x he wanted to end it) #(nothing even ever started you bitchass) #also note that his mom knows my mom n basically most of my relatives.. so i was here trembling for days fearing they'd get to know about it #mom somehow convinced her to not tell anyone bc it's important to me and very very fucking personal.. #but he harassed me all day - i wouldn't answer and he'd send 55 messages.. multiple missed calls like dude i got so fkn scared #my heart jumped whenever he texted he was so fkn aggressive and SO MEAN #'you just needed to adjust and we would've been okay' 'tell me are u gonna fkn be religious or not????' 'you ruined everything' kinda mean #i just :') it was the worst time and i don't think i've ever seen someone degrade me so much or make me feel this defective #but.. it's finally over. his mom called my mom and mine was like pls teach him some manners.. n since i couldn't and wouldn't text him back #and literally avoided whatsapp bc of him she ended it all for me and now it's hopefully done forever #anyway i saw jks gcf performance yday n him singing still with you put a genuine smile on my face.. ill stick to THAT boyfriend honestly lol #def gonna delete later #but ty for reading if u did <3

[iknowwhereyousnoozeatnight]

if ur still doing requests pls rem if not das all g

she’s chrysanthemum-coded to me <3

close-ups ig

#ask #death note #rem #very messy i apologize #was extra messy here because i was playing with a new brush and by that i mean a default brush that i've never touched before #i actually quite like it very fun i typically like brushes that are 100% or close to 100% opaque but this was fun i like how it layered #i think i'm gonna finalize my idea and perhaps render something fully for once because i feel up to it if flowers are involved #but i promise nothing #drew these left to right btw. there were also like 2 more but they were small and i gave up on them so wjatever #i like the last one the best i think i needed a bit to figure out how i wanted the petals to lay and i like that one the best #the silhouette feels good i like the shape the back i did start trying smth asymmetrical but rem is very symmetrical and i find the symmetr #paired with the wings feels very regal and powerful and almost cape-like as a silhouette which i am a fan of #if i did finish something i might add misa in which case i need to think of what flower she most resembles roses are too easy i need smth #else but i will decide that later bc i am writing this very late at night and now i'm gonna queue it up for tomorrow bc i am going somewher #so goodbye goodnight good day idk what time it is for you. so #WAIT I SHOULD DO RYUK TOO WAIT WAIT soon. soon. he will be a bug yes yessss wait wait if he's a bug i want misa to be butterfly themed #like maybe a beetle of some kind? no no no wasp? ant? i'll think abt it #light would prob be some sort of poisonous plant? idk if u have thoughts idk tell me i'm getting into this bc i'm deprived of springtime at #and it is making me silly :3 teehee anyway i will Think about this and get back to it soon enough #gooddbye bye bye sayonara you weeaboo shits idk. bye

[zukkaoru]

i think. everyone should stop reading my most popular fics that aren't really that good and start reading the ones with 18 kudos that are significantly better

#this is about (just wanna be) somebody i'm proud of #yes i had fun writing it. but it's REALLY NOT THAT GOOD #also i cannot stress this enough: that fic was a fluke #it's NOT a good example of what i write. guys i'm so much better at the angsty character study fics #i promise i actually can get proper characterization. i had to sacrifice some of that for the light-hearted stupid cheesy premise #alas #no one in fandom actually cares about characterization #ngl sometimes i even wonder what the point of writing stuff in-character is if the flat #'characters reduced to a single trait that they may or may not even possess' #fics will ALWAYS end up being more popular than the ones with good characterization #anyway i know why the 18 kudos one is so low. it's the mcd tag. AND it's a gen fic centered around a character no one cares about #i wasn't expecting that one to do well #but it does suck that like. my most popular fics will never actually be my best ones #it's the same with bsd but THAT'S a whole other story #that's the phenomenon of everyone reducing bsd to the skk show and not giving the time of day to fics centered around anyone else #do u guys realize there are SO many other INCREDIBLE characters and dynamics???? #like i was doing that bsd fic rec event on twt and almost all of the fics recced were skk #meanwhile i was searching for anything NOT skk bc idk other ships and characters deserve appreciation too?? #and i don't even read much skk bc it's so hard to find anything that's. like. ACTUALLY good. #anyway. i don't actually care if you read somebody i'm proud of #but i hate that that's like. one of my most popular fics by a longshot #i have stuff that is so much better that people won't even glance at bc it's not tagged with the most popular m/m ship in the fandom #hello grace here

[gothyanki]

Help I was innocently looking for art of my spider wife and somehow took a wrong turn down 💀 Discourse Alley ☠️

#I DID find lots of good minthy art #but the takes… some of the takes… #unsubscribe companion sexuality discourse forever #i’m so glad i live under a rock these days and don’t have to witness bg3 fandom trying to reheat ancient frozen bioware drama in real time #the way other people choose to play the game does not affect you! at all! stop it! #ship wars are silly in general and EXTRA silly when they centre around a rpg where Your Choices Matter #ignore me! i’m just getting mildly aerated over fans not being excellent to other fans! #apologies for bringing 💀 The Discourse ☠️ to your dash #i promise it’s over now

[eclipseofthehat]

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At long last chapter two wraps up not with a BANG but a BITE, well Snatcher, maybe you shouldn’t sass the woman who only remembers one thing and has made it her life mission.

See you in the next chapter! Promise it won’t take almost a year this time.

#comic #fancomic #ahit fan character #ahit #ahit snatcher #ahit snatcher minion #eclipse guardian #ahit shapeshifter #ahit dwellers #ahit au #A Hat In Time #I really really promise it wont!!!! i've already got it started and in progress!!! #like the next chapter and some of chapter 4 are sketched and partially lined soooo #and type setted. I type set them all already LOL #just gotta find time I can draw cuz crcohet and day job take life

[myriadsystem]

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#personal #i have doctors appt today with a new doctor its literally not even a real appointment i just need some stupid forms signed #but guys im so stressed im so scared ive already cried once about it today i just. i fucking hate doctors so so much #theyre all so bad. im not in the mood to be dismissed again today and its 15 goddamn degrees so everything feels bigger and worse than it is #if they dont sign the form i dont get paid any more and if i dont get paid i cant continue to try and sort out my medical #which means i continue to not get paid and im just. so scared. so so fucking scared i dont even care if we find the start if the path #to vetter my health i dont care about gettinf better right now i just need this fucking form signed but #ive already been dismissised for it once and i have new doctor jitters. what do you mean i have to tell someone new that #i have ptsd and anxiety and depression and fibro and alleged bpd but its probably autism actually and hope #hope and prey they losten to me because its other doctors that have told me this and im definitely computer illiterate i couldntve come up #with all this on my own i promise ive done zero research into my own symptoms i live with every day im a simpleton im an idiot #please believe me dr refer me to ypur colleagues for further testing but in the mwan time sign the one form i need please #im so scared. i dont know what to do. my tarot says to tryst myself and find my own authority about the situation #but like literally legally i cant i have to rely on the hope this new doctor gives her signature or i dont get fucking paid as stated #i hate this i feel so shaky and nervous and nauseous and awful 😮‍💨 #and im supposed to do groceries today. im at the very end of my shopping like if i dont go get food today #then i dont eat tonight but its cold and rainy and im super stressed abt the appointment so idk if ill be able to go shopping after #i dont wanna die anymore but like rn i kinda do this is too much today feels like too much #help me im drowning

[stillcominback]

🎀 🎀 🎀

#hi cuties! just doing a quick little check-in since it's been a minute ✨ #still not really checking tumblr cause there's just too much going on and i'm trying to find some joy here getting settled in a new home! #i do check here and there though so if you wanna hit up the IMs i'll for sure get back to you!! 💕 #ANYWHO: things are going okay! kinda same old but just trying to enjoy what i can and take a day at a time #started talking to a recruiter today and she was so sweet (and my age which is a bonus) so i'm hoping she'll be a good help ... #... in the old job search (while i keep looking on my own as usual of course) but still! having someone who's JOB it is to search for me?? #feels promising??? i hope! #(even tho in all honesty this job search stuff has been peak deflating and depressing but! we keep movin!) #i'm also super excited that my mom is treating me for xmas/my bday to a trip to london to visit my best friend #(since they weren't actually able to come visit for the holidays sadly) but i think it's gonna be special and healing 😌💕 #i think that covers most of the things!! pretty pleeeease come hit me up on discord!! #i would love to chat and write more there and have servers and all that fun stuff so don't be shy! #love and miss you all so much *big hugs to the dash* #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )

[todoya]

#royai #fmab #polls #fullmetal alchemist brotherhood #riza hawkeye #roy mustang #fma #“never” and “show results” together bc this poll is for royai kissed truthers. i genuinely want to know like what's #the main hc for the fandom. if they always had something if they become something or whatever #gotta be honest with you guys I'm a bit silly about them. I like all of those options.... young royai kissing? good. #depressed war criminals kissing? good. hidding from hughes royai kissing? good. imadiate smooch after ed and al get their bodies back? GOOD #HOWEVER. personally i think i like the “they always had something but never spoke about it” so i go for the “after the promised day” mostly #just bc i like them suffering and dying and living for one another without explicitly having their love laid out bare #idk for me it plays nicely with their loyalty for one another. how they never have time for themselves but they find time for the other in #the the purest of intentions. but also i like the idea that they both know they both always knew just just didn't had time for that #and after the promised day they try to find some #i don't think i ever read a nice confession fic for royai mostly bc i just like the idea that they don't have a moment like that #they always knew. some time they accepted it and got together. none of the dramatic confession or any of it #but also i can be convinced to read one (I say as if I wouldn't read any royai fic someone recommended me. im easily convinced with them.) #(it's kinda embarrassing really) anyway them <3 #kelly says #if u can't tell by my blog recently I'm rewatching fmab. I can't stop thinking abt them.

[hexxter]

Me every time I remember something small about kingdom hearts union x

(This game is literally half of my personality)

(The other half is sky children of the light)

#kingdom hearts #kh #player #khux #kingdom hearts union x #kingdom hearts union cross #sad hamster #khx #ummm trauma #yum #kh ephemer #crying about him for years #that poor friend I cried to when the ending was getting closed and its was or ephemer or the player dying #its was the player #but ephemer is also dead soo… #💀 #man i really should find that chat again i was crying crazy #attachment issues #to some random aaa character we got to meet for only a day #ephemer is the coolest tho #besides the part of breaking his promise and living shattering the players whole reality with his theories lmao #when we barely got to spend time with ephemer but fanfics gave me so much food

[woolmasterleel]

I think I already know some of the deets but please share your thoughts on tagashei time powers 🎤

Something about his heart stopping and stopping time... there's a connection there I'm just still writing out how it works and it's already way too long.. But it'll be a fantastic essay (❁´◡`❁)

#ask #It'll all make sense I promise.. #It's not even a main premise is IV or at least when Mirror is alive #The whole Gladys arc is when he has some time-based abilities #But it's like... #He uses it so the twins and Alice (and Kahgora later on) can find information in the Pseudo-Human facilities as they existed in the past #Because current day they are all destroyed (mostly) #Oops hiding this in the tags

[icewindandboringhorror]

this is not the exact one I watched but I saw one of these "dish scape" things at someone's house who actually has TV (like they pay for dish/cable instead of just watching stuff online) and I think they're meant to be relaxing atmospheric stuff that you mostly ignore, but I sat there for 35 minutes watching absolutely engrossed.. further proof that I genuinely think my brain is incapable of experiencing boredom lol..

#IT'S BECAUSE there's so many little details that like you can spend minutes just scanning every corner of the image and taking it all in and #you keep finding new things! like 'oh I didn't know that blade of grass moved!' or 'I didnt see that bucket before!'. And then on top of #so many details - some things genuinely do change. The one I saw was a Beach house scene and sometimes a bird would fly by or ONE TIME kite #came out of nowhere. a sandcastle built and unbuilt itself. there's a firepit and it comes on when the sky changes from day to afternoon!! #this is like watching a sports game to me. I need weird detail oriented friends who will sit for 20 minutes staring at a barely moving pict #ure & cheer and clap with me when a seagull flies across the screen ghgj.. THERE HE IS!!!! etc!! and there's just so much to think about!! #Like how the images are layered or animated and the choices that were made (like I think the sunrise and sunset sky background images for t #e beachouse are just the same picture flipped and recolored) and trying to predict what's going to happen next (will the lights in the hous #turn off for night time? will another bird show up??) etc! I even got up at one point to walk close to the screen and get a better view of #hese paintings that were visible through the beachhouse windows. and then thinking about building a similar home in the sims! OR ALSO THIS #WOULD BE SUCH A COOL medium I think to tell a story! Like you upload a video to youtube that is framed just as a completely average moving #screensaver ambiance type of thing. It's like 7 hours long and mostly loops the same still image. However. over time at certain points you #can see some thing happen like watching characters interact through the windows. animals or people walk across the screen. certain elements #in the environment morph or change. etc. In such a way that an entire like plot is conveyed. maybe like fantasy mystery sort of thing. I WI #SH I could do this style of art / had friends who could or had money to pay somebody to. I would LOVE to collaborate on a weird surreal #It's Just Your Average Slowly Looping Moving Screensaver Video I Promise' type story.. jjhhgHH.. Or even just making one of these set in so #me of my fantasy world environments. not as a secret thing with easter eggs that tell a story but just literally an image like this tha #moves over time and etc. HHRRGRGHhhhhGG.. ANYWay!! I had to actually turn it off not because I was bored but because it was distracting me #. which is funny since again. I think for most people it's meant to be a 'just leave it on in the background' type of thing that's bland an #neutral . But it was just making me think too much ghjgh.. This is why I can't go to amusement parks or nightclubs bars or concerts like.. #a moving screensaver image is too overstimulating to my brain. Could you imagine me going to an environment just full of sensory informatio #like loud noises poeple talking flashing lights etc. etc. ? hghghb... Visiting a grocery store at a slightly busy hour is like my upper lim #it... Anyway.. everything is just so interesting to me. Even if I was locked in a room alone I would have plenty to think about & amu #se myself. I am also a hater definitely like I'm a very analytical person who is critical of society and systems & everything that exists #and even generally am just very opionated and have distinct preferences - so just because everything is INTERESTING does not mean I LIKE or #enjoy everything or never get tired of/annoyed by situations or ideas or etc. But it's more just like.. I literally dont think I could ever #be bored because of the way my brain works and also I approach life with elements of childlike whimsy and constant obsessive curiosity and #attention to detail. so as much as I am an analytical bore I also love everything and the world is fascinating at all times. lol.. duality #of man. if you get it then you get it. ANYWAY.. wanted to ramble abt it. I don't like the above video as much as the one I actually saw but #I couldn't find the beach one online.. BUt.. aaHH! best viewed whilst talking to yourself narrating/cheering! ALSO I want to make one!!!

[oflgtfol]

think my taste in music is directly related to my mental health. i used to listen to noise music and breakcore shit. now all i ever listen to is lofi and indie rock

#brot posts #music #same thing happened back in high school like i used to listen to emo rock #and then 12th grade happened - particularly the second half - and then i was listening to like. the fucking oh hellos or whatever #whatever genre that is #anyway. i found a 5 hour playlist of space rock . love this #i mean part of this lately is that i'm really looking for good ambient music for my job. for reasons i cannot disclose. #but i desperately need fucking ambient music that matches a specific vibe #and so i am listening to a lot more chill stuff trying to find music that fits the fucking vibe !!!! #and nothing fits the fucking vibe except for a single 3 minute song but i need 45 minutes worth !!! #so obv i need to listen around more #so that explains the lofi #also i listen to lofi-esque stuff to help me fall asleep. thats the only time i listen to it outside of work related stuff #and bc i work so much lately sometimes the only time i listen to music during the day is really when im going to sleep #fucking tycho and stafford bawler are gonna be some of my top artists soon im so afraid to check #BUT ANYWAY. so that explains all the lofi i promise im not normally a lofi girlie #but i have no excuse for the indie rock.

[realm-of-the-rote-villains]

Happy Halloween!

And happy last day of the prompt week!

You can find a summary of the week's prompts and what this event is about HERE.

Today's prompts are:

- Control -

- The Worst Thing I Could Do -

- New Clothes, New Self -

You can participate by creating any kind of fanwork, including fanart, fanfic and fan discussions centering the villains in RotE. If you tag me on this account, I'll be sure to boost your post:D

If you feel inspired by these prompts, feel free to create something for them and tag me even after the week is over! Time is only a social construct anyway. This account will stay up to keep up the villains appreciation:D

Happy creating! 👻

#realm of the elderlings #rote villain appreciationween 2023 #realm of the villains #day 5 #i've seen some fanworks around that i didn't have the time to properly appreciate yet and i'm so intrigued :eyes emoji: #getting time off work made it harder to find time for this event today unlike for the rest of the event oops #because the mod made a promise to a baby sib to go trick or treating #in any case hope you all had fun and happy halloween again!

[squishied]

sometimes i wish i could ask her for advice

#i’m not sure if she’d ever find this account … and i don’t know how i’d feel if she saw this #but some days i do miss her terribly and i wish i could ask her how she did it? #how did she brave this kind of low alongside him? how did they make it work? how did she look after him at the same time? #how did she balance it? i wish i could ask her #i have no idea how to go about this ; no idea how i should be feeling or speaking or behaving to him #because i love him terribly and i hate that im making his life harder with all my messes #ahhhh . its days like this i wish i could speak to her . but i promised her i never would again and i fully intend to keep that promise . #she deserves peace from her past and i am part of that past .. but i do miss her #its a hard night ..

[yohankang]

Honey, this might be very rude. But like what is your job. I want to save you from the that hell hole bro.

Please do not misunderstand nor feel pressured to answer.

I just hope it gets better.

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

i'm an office manager which means that i'm responsible for all the paperwork (all invoices go through me), calls and emails. and i act like an assistant to basically everyone in our office. including shit like booking flights and hotels and taking care of everyone's cars and insurances etc. buying office supplies, taking care of how our office looks, making tea & coffee for guests, booking rooms, making sure our management signs the papers on time etc. etc. etc.

doesn't sound that bad but the 'acting like an assistant' is tricky. because i get like 20 daily requests from people to take care of something asap. like, paying a fine, calling some place to ask about something, scheduling a meeting, making changes in booking, registering a car etc.

now it's extra stressful bc i'm organizing a christmas party for 120+ people and it's not easy when you need to book hotels for 30 people, book a restaurant, decide on a menu, confirm attendance etc. and your guests are dickheads who don't care if you have to change their reservation 4 times in 3 days.

#and there is no one who can replace me when it's needed. like when i took a week off it took me another 2 weeks to catch up with work #because some things are easy but it would take weeks of training to thoroughly prepare someone to do my job #and no one has time for this because they have their own jobs and duties #but despite this my coworkers help me as much as they can :') and they really support me #there's only one department full of shitheads and 90% of my problems originate there lmao most of the company hates them #tbh most of my problems would be solved if they just hired another person and split the work between us but #it's always been one person so 🤡 #and sometimes it gets really calm and i don't have anything to do for a few hours. it's been months since something like that happened but #it happened a few times in the past lol #answered #i really can't quit this job because it pays well (i mean for a person with no degree). and out of obligation. #i need to finish my degree because now there's no way i would find something that could pay my rent 😭 #but i promised myself i won't stay here for longer than 2 years unless they offer me a different position #but until then you have to listen to my complaining every day agkdgjdfj sorry