#I just want them to know how bad they fucked up and show solidarity to everyone who felt hope and love in his story

[webslingingslasher]

I know we’re all obsessed with frat!peter, but are there any instances where nerdy!peter gets a lil mean too?

for the first time ever, peter is ignoring your call. there are times he's unable to answer, but you know he's purposely watching his phone ring before he silences it.

he's actively ignoring you and you want to scream.

peter doesn't get mad at you. but he is. and it's making everything worse. you can't apologize if he won't talk to you.

it's been two days.

'if you don't call me back in an hour i'm coming over.'

'and yes, that's a threat.'

peter must be really mad. because he didn't answer.

'hi, is peter around?' you can tell may wants to shout the truth, instead she shows solidarity to her nephew. 'sorry, honey. he's out right now.'

you challenge her, 'can i wait for him?' may isn't playing your games, 'he didn't say when he'd be back.'

it's not may's fault, but you still huff at her. 'he has to talk to me at some point.' you see a flush of parent coat over her features.

'sometimes when someone is hurt, they need to think about how to react to it before it gets worse.'

you feel like crying, 'is he really that mad at me?' may slowly closes the door, 'i'm sorry, but peter isn't home.' you want to catch the door and bark out to peter, who you know is holed up in his room, but you respect his space and leave.

it was all your fault. you pushed his harshest barrier and you swear you didn't mean to, it was just the most hurtful thing you could spit out in a moment of fury.

instant regret. you swore you heard peter's heart break the second you finished. his crushing silence hurt more than an equal blow. he just calmly grabbed his backpack and left. and you let him, you were speechless, you couldn't believe the things that came out of your mouth.

you retreat with a few texts.

'i'm sorry, peter. i really, really am.'

'i won't keep bothering you, just talk to me when you're ready.'

'i love you. and i know you love me too, so you don't have to say it back tonight.'

and he doesn't. not when you check before bed and not when you wake the next morning. you've never felt peter's cold shoulder before, but it's icy and stings.

you'd see him on campus and he couldn't ignore you in person, right?

there was only one way to tell, and it was when you saw him sitting at an outside table. scribbling in a notebook while he looked over a textbook and some sheets, he never looked so pretty.

it's selfish, but you want nothing more than to kiss him.

'hi.' sitting backwards, your back hit the edge of the table. if he tells you to fuck off you'll make a quick escape. looking at his side profile he shows no reaction, he was expecting you to join him.

'hi.' peter doesn't share the interest to look at you.

'wanna talk?' you hold your breath, hopeful he'd say yes and you could do your best attempt at damage control.

'not really,' his calm nature unsettles you. you'd rather he spit in your face.

'can i talk?' peter didn't want to talk, but he might listen. you just wanted to make it okay, or try.

you think he agrees just to get you to leave quicker. 'sure.'

anxiety scratches your insides, you've never been so ashamed in your life. it was an odd feeling wanting to do nothing but hold peter close to you while you apologize, while also knowing he wanted nothing to do with your touch.

'i'm sorry. i've never been more sorry for anything in my entire life and i don't know how to make it right. i would do anything to take it back, if i could go back in time to stop myself i would.'

it's unfair, but the reality of the situation hits. tears prickle at your eyes. you just feel so bad.

'i don't know why i said that, and i regretted it the second it left my mouth. i could try to come up with a million excuses, but i said it and i'm taking accountability. i know it doesn't help, but, like...'

you close your eyes, when you open them a tear races down your cheek. you're quick to wipe it. it's not about you.

'i am really fucking disgusted in myself. i'm ashamed and embarrassed and i know i broke your heart. peter, i... i took the darkest part of you and weaponized it. i broke your trust and i am a really, really, really bad girlfriend.'

you deserved the silence. 'you're mad at me and that's fair. i can't say it enough, but i want you to know i'm sorry.'

the last sentence caught his attention, peter shakes his head and laughs under his breath.

'you see, the thing is, i don't think i'm mad. i'm just really fucking hurt. you told me ben was just waiting on someone to put him out of his misery.'

you wince. it sounded so much worse coming from his mouth, it was like the words burnt him and left a bad taste behind. they were seared into his brain. there was nothing in the world to justify what you did.

'you were right. you broke my heart and trust in one go. how do you fix it? i don't know, but i can't even look at you right now. talking to you feels like i'm pulling glass out of my skin.'

'i'm glad you're disgusted with yourself, because i am too.'

there was the blow. it wasn't half as harsh as yours, but it dug deep. you couldn't blame him either. it's entirely too selfish, but you need to know if there's something to work for.

'are you going to break up with me?' you sound sad but you wouldn't blame him if he said yes, you would only blame yourself forever. you don't like how long the silence was, it felt like he was actually thinking about it.

'i don't know.'

three words made you feel empty. the future of your relationship and happiness was a gamble all because you couldn't shut your mouth.

'okay.' it wasn't. 'i know it seems pointless now, because i already failed at it, but i'll never say anything like that ever again. i never, ever wanted to hurt you like this.'

for the first time in three days, peter looks at you. he looks tired.

'you did. that's why you said it. you were mad and i wasn't feeding into it, you got even more upset and said the most hurtful thing you could've to me.'

you're desperate, 'i know! but i swear it wasn't on purpose! i didn't know what i was saying until i said it, and i mean, c'mon peter, you know me. i've never said anything like that before, and i won't ever again.'

peter throws you a bone, maybe he really heard the desperation in your voice. 'i know you're sorry, i know you feel terrible and you wish you could take it back. but that doesn't make it okay. and i need you to understand that.'

you nod quick, 'i do! i understand, i promise.'

peter sees it differently. 'i don't think you do. if you did, you wouldn't be here begging for me to say everything's okay.'

his words make you pause, you see his stance in a different light. your apologies have done nothing but make peter feel like he has to accept them. may said he needed space and you haven't given him any, instead hounding him with texts or forcing him to listen to the same string of sorry's.

you stand, it's very clear to you what needs to happen. if you have any chance of reconciliation. you need to cut contact.

'you're right. i didn't see it like that, but you're right. the second i walk away, i promise i'm done. no more texts, no more surprise visits, no more bothering you on campus. nothing. you come to me when you're ready. no matter the conversation.'

you follow your word and do just that while trying to ignore the worst form of anxiety that crosses over your chest. walking away, unsure if your boyfriend still loved you, was a feeling you wouldn't wish on anyone.

it spreads the longer you hear nothing from peter. was he adjusting to life outside you? should you be doing the same? you didn't realize how much you wrapped peter into your life until he wasn't around.

you had to find a classmate to do revisions with. you had to plan lunch with friends instead of peter. you had to scroll past articles and memes he'd enjoy. you had to stop yourself from texting him a hundred times a day.

the closest you got was a glimpse at his face when he was talking to a friend across campus, he was laughing. you felt relieved knowing he was happy, until you noticed it didn't seem like he missed you all that much.

after four days and all hope lost, you decided it was time to wave the white flag. it was over, if you grieve the relationship now it won't be so bad when he tells you officially. you'd be able to walk away without a panic attack.

while wallowing to yourself in your room, you berate yourself internally for ruining the one true good thing you had. spider-man was entirely too calm when he entered your room right as you felt a tear race down your cheek.

'why are we crying?'

you sit up, you've never been so happy to see the masked hero. until you piece together why he's there, you weren't pre-maturely crying after all.

sniffles around your words, 'cause we broke up.'

the mask is off in a second, 'who said that?' you shrug, the answer is in front of your face. 'isn't it obvious?' peter sits next to you, 'we're not broken up.'

you still don't feel comfortable, 'are we going to be?' peter rewords himself, 'i'm not here to break up with you, no.' 

‘then why are you here?’

peter exhales deeply, a tired excuse of a laugh. ‘i can be upset with my girlfriend and miss her at the same time.’ for just a second, you brighten. ‘you miss me?’

‘yeah. of course i do.’ you almost explode when peter pats your knee, ‘you’re my best friend.’ it’s enough to make you want to cry. you fall into him, an awkward hug, he doesn’t say anything.

‘you’re my best friend too. i missed you so much, i’m so, so, so sorry, peter.’ you melt when a gloved hand rubs your back, it’s not even his skin but you’ve missed his touch so much it’s enough to settle you.

‘it’s okay.’

the words you’ve been looking for, your heart soars. digging your fingertips into his shoulder blades, you hold him tight. ‘is it?’ you don’t want to force him into it.

‘it is.’

except when you remember your words it still doesn’t feel okay. you’re not sure if it ever will. you wonder if that’s what peter was waiting on. 'i don't know, peter. i don't want you to resent me.'

'hey,' you're held at arm's length, peter wants to make sure you're looking at him. 'i took time away so i wouldn't resent you. you really, really hurt my feelings, staying away helped me protect yours.'

you can't imagine the strife you placed on peter, you know actions speak louder than words, but it's a promise to yourself that you will never do anything like it again.

'i'm so sorry, peter. i feel terrible.'

a hint of a smile, 'i know you do. watching you squirm has been a little fun.' you drop your jaw, the nerve. 'oh, you're so mean for that!'

peter cleared his throat, you weren't out of the fog yet.

'but, seriously. that fucking killed me, i mean, i really thought i couldn't breathe. i was just... shocked. shocked more than mad or sad or... i'm not sure.'

you open your mouth, peter stops you, he knows what you're about to say. 'and i don't want you to keep apologizing. it happened, we worked through it, and it doesn't need to keep being mentioned.'

'okay.' it's quiet, you understand what he means, but you feel like you can't explain your sympathy enough.

'ben was one of the most important people in my life and i opened up to you about it. i know it was in the heat of the moment, but you can't use those things against me. it will make me feel like i can't share anything with you.'

'i'm-' peter cut you off with your name, you held your lips closed.

'you're not a bad girlfriend either. you tried. you reached out, you stopped by, you apologized, you stayed away. you did everything you could do to prove how sorry you felt. even if i ignored you, that didn't go unrecognized.'

peter takes a deep breath, 'so,' his hands cup your face, thumbs brush your cheek bones softly. 'i love you, i'm not breaking up with you and it's okay.' peter rubs his nose against yours, 'okay?'

peter isn't saying it's okay because it's fine you talked to him like that. peter's saying it's okay because he sees your imperfections and loves them. peter's saying it's okay because he's said some things he doesn't believe either.

peter's saying it's okay because we're all allowed to fall from grace from time to time.

you want to say sorry, instead you smile and push against his face with your own.

'okay.' 

'good. now give me a kiss, i've been dying for one.'

#peter parker blurb #peter parker x reader #tasm!peter x reader #peter parker angst

[angelisgonnastartchangingurls]

robbie on a monday

annie got coffee with her brother robbie at the cafe near her office. he was finishing school. just filed his paperwork for graduation. annie was beaming.

"how are you, though?" he asked her. "dad says you're being kinda weird."

annie laughed. "dad talks too much. i'm just a little bored in my relationship and i'm acting out."

"acting out how?"

"cheating on him," annie said.

"poor ryan," robbie said.

"no, not poor ryan," annie countered. "he's emotionally and physically absent."

"sorry," he said. "just too busy with work?"

"yeah but i'm busy with work too and i can still have sex."

"ok, chill out. honestly, is work hard for you?"

"are you saying my job's easy?"

"no," he said, earnestly. "you're like, very smart. school was always easy for you. i feel like work is the same."

"sometimes i feel that way," annie said. "but i don't know. i think i'm so desperate for excitement that i'm fucking up my patients."

"go skydiving or something, then," he said.

"not a bad idea, honestly," she said.

"no, you're too clumsy. you'd die."

she laughed. "maybe."

she went back to her office after and texted her father "don't tell robbie i am being weird."

"that was not my choice of words."

"ok, well, that was his impression."

"how are you, then?" he asked.

"i don't know. weird!"

she'd been sending nudes to jeff every day. he was only ever moderately enthusiastic and sometimes outright critical. "your tits don't look as big from that angle," he said to one. for some reason it made annie want to impale herself on his (only-average sized -- ryan was bigger) cock.

she told julia about it. not about jim, which was over as far as annie was concerned. she told her about jeff. julia was scandalized but enthusiastically so. "ryan has such cuck energy anyway," she said. "you deserve a mean himbo who will obliterate your pussy."

jeff obliged her on monday night, telling her to get naked for him as soon as she walked in the door, and proceeding to pound and degrade her for two hours. annie was so thriled.

he took pictures of her, too, which annie loved. she touched her clit while he fucked her, she played with his cum, she spread her ass for him.

when she got home, she found a bag by her door, full of her stuff from ryan's house. he'd written a note: "whore."

"oh fuck," annie said. and then her phone started blowing up.

she concluded after a few minutes of panicked texts from julia, hatespeech from her and ryan's mutual friends, and expressions of support and solidarity from other women in her life, that jeff had sent ryan the pictures, and ryan had posted them online.

she found them quickly. she was tagged in them, after all. he'd censored the photos on his instagram story, though not well. her tits were scribbled out but her bald pussy with jeff's cock in it was still visible.

julia, jim, and robbie all showed up at annie's apartment. she was less hysterical than they'd probably assumed she'd be, but she'd also taken two xanax immediately. julia and robbie sat together reporting the photos, which were also on twitter. annie went to the bathroom and threw up, and had to change her shirt. jim helped her with that, which was kind of ironic. in a couple of hours, the photos were down, the hate texts had stopped (julia had blocked all their numbers on annie's phone -- annie had briefly felt a pang of relief that her work email was not currently logged in on the phone, just in case she somehow came across emails from jim. when annie had her phone back she found them and deleted them) and the support was still rolling in. and they were all drunk and stoned.

annie went to bed -- robbie would crash in her bed with her and julia and jim would stay on the couches.

"sorry you had to see those pictures," she told robbie.

"it's fine," he said. "i mean you looked good anyway, who cares."

julia texted her. "don't come out, we're having sex on your couch."

"what if i want to watch?" annie replied.

"ok," julia replied. "come watch."

annie got out of bed.

robbie came out a few minutes later -- by then julia was naked and riding jim's cock. annie sat across from them, watching jim's shaft go in and out. robbie was on the other side of the couch. julia beckoned him closer -- she was facing him. he came over to the edge of the couch, which was low enough that julia could reach out and grab his dick over his shorts. then she pulled it out. annie tried not to stare at her brother's cock as julia stroked it and licked his tip as she bounced up and down. he was big, and so hard that it was standing straight up.

jim came first. annie watched his cum start to collect in rings around the base of his cock as he groaned and grunted. when he pulled out, julia climbed up higher on the couch to suck robbie off more enthusiastically. annie and jim both watched. he came in julia's mouth, and she threw her head back and swallowed it.

"wow," annie said. she was still dressed in the post-vomit pj's she'd been helped into by jim. julia walked over to annie and confidently pulled her shorts and panties down. "this will be so different without the neglected bush," julia said, opening annie's legs.

annie watched both men as their eyes flickered around. julia's ass. annie's visibly soaked panties laying open on the floor. julia's fingers and tongue on and in annie's cunt. annie's mouth as she gasped "fuck, fuck, fuck." annie had a loud, cathartic orgasm. she laid on the couch in a heap as robbie went back to bed. a few minutes later, she got to her feet and wobbled in after him. she slept next to him in her bed fully bottomless, having left her shorts and panties on the floor.

[badass-queer-couples-battle]

Sword gays showdown, round 1 of bracket one

Propaganda:

For Dirk:

he literally fuckint cut off his own head so his crush would kiss him. also he made a robot that fights with a sword to terrorize said crush. also another version of him (,homestuck. complex timeline shit) keeps swords.in the fucking fridge?

Bi and gay sibling solidarity 

For Zoro:

Literally training to be the greatest swordsman in the world. Has a special three swords technique (one blade in each hand plus one with the handle held in his teeth). I haven't read the manga or watched the anime but the live action adaptation gives me extremely gay vibes and based on the fandom things I've seen I'm not the only one

bro uses three swords. has one in his mouth. dont ask how the HELL he manages that. one day he will be the worlds greatest swordsman....after he beats the current greatest for both the titles of greatest swordsman and fruitiest swordsman. he's dramatic as FUUUCK like bro what the hell. has homoerotic fights with the local twink like everyday. directionally challenged, can and will get lost in a paper bag, doesnt know left from right...he probably cant read, too. hes too silly ngl

First of all, im in like episode 250 and so far he hasnt been shown attracted to any woman at all during the whole show so far, not even when one changed clothes in the same room as him and this is anime so you know there were other characters with bloody noses and shit. With that out of the way he wields three swords at once [two in his hands, one is his goddamn mouth dude. Its cool af trust me.] When he was little he made a promise to his best friend that he'd be the best swordsman in the world. Later she died in a tragic accident and left her sword which he still uses today. He also carries a cursed sword but he overpowers the curse with a combination of skill and sheer luck. He got stuck in a chimney. While his crewmates sail their ship he takes naps. He learned how to cut through metal by fighting a guy who could turn his body into metal blades. That's metal. He refuses to fight this liberal marine officer because she looks like his childhood best friend and its just understandably really awkward for him. He's autistic. He's a he/him bisexual lesbian. He's a gay man. He's ace/aro. He's whatever you want him to be babey!!

he has 3 swords, wields one in his mouth sometimes, his dream is to be the greatest swordsman in the world

three swords and big aroace-spec gay vibes

He not only has a sword he has *three* swords. He's absolutely gay there's no way to see this man as straight. Also one time he licked his sword for no reason and that was really funny to me so I had to mention it

Look, this man thinks about three things: Swords, His Captain, and Booze. He’s on a quest to be the worlds greatest swordsman. The Live action has a scene where he declares his undying, unwavering loyalty to his captain WHILE reaffirming his promise to be the worlds greatest swordsman. At this point His dream and his Captain are so intertwined it’s crazy. Man is so sword-y he’s got three of them. When one of his swords broke he carried its empty scabbard until he was able to give it a SWORD FUNERAL. He hears a sword is cursed and takes that as a challenge. He will literally tell his swords off for “bad behavior” when they “act up” due to being straight up cursed. He tests one by throwing it in the air and sticking his arm out to see if it is so blood thirsty and ill tempered that it will cut him. Even though he’s literally the first mate if you ask him what his role is he’s going to answer Swordsman.

He's dedicated his life to two things: becoming the greatest swordsman in the world and his captain, Luffy. 

He mastered the three sword style. Its his style. It would've been more swords but he could only fit one sword in each hand and one in his mouth. He wants to be the world's greatest swordsman, a deal he made with his childhood best frenemy (before she died falling down the stairs). He thought he was All That at the start and was almost completely decimated by the actual Worlds Greatest Swordsman. Now, after two years forced training with that guy, he's probably in the top tier no-doubt, and honestly could already be the best but we just don't know for sure yet. Also, did I mention: he's got the whole demon/devil imagery going on at times. And he has absolutely no sense of direction! plus is a total softie when it comes to Chopper and all the children who somehow gravitate towards him. And he loves naps!

One of the guy's main goals in life is to be the best sword fighter and he fights with three swords which I think is telling enough of his skill.

#(using live action Zoro as the image cause i love Mackenyu) #one piece #homestuck #dirk strider #roronoa zoro #sword gays showdown #one piece live action

[nameofbeinghcnest]

twitter is really pissing me off with this. ( / wilbur soot , abuse )

love dream, hate dream, i don't care. you can think he's a terrible person, think he did terrible things WHILE ALSO acknowledging how well-spoken and important it was for him to say something. all of these stupid "he's doing it to save face!" or "this is an insane PR tactic" or even the "this is dangerous!!!" are actually so insensitive and to be quite honest makes you side with abusers!

dream is a victim of domestic violence and has been public about this for YEARS - it is so incredibly important that he spoke out in support of shelby while ALSO condemning wilbur's actions as a victim of domestic abuse to show solidarity, from one victim to another. to show that he KNOWS what it's like, he knows the behaviors and the tactics. he saw them in wilbur's bullshit "apology".

dream even says in his statement how encouraging it was to see, as a victim himself, that people were speaking out in support of shelby. how this was going to raise awareness to see the signs, to help encourage more people to speak out and not fear their abuser or just to be able to stand up for anyone who decides to speak out about it. to go on and completely diminish his words by saying "don't let this fool you!" is actually really gross. diminishing another victim's voice is gross. nobody said you had to like him for speaking up. did he have to? no. did anyone have to? also no! don't know why we're so upset and angry about having more uplifting voices, more support. we should be focusing on supporting shelby, not using another victim's message of support to shit on other people and bring external situations into this. it's gross and draws the attention away from the matter at hand, which is what the abuser tried to do in the first place.

since im here (probably won't be back to waffle until the tubbathon starts lol) i just wanted to point out the parts that really stuck out to me from his response because even though i don't really care for him anymore, i do think his support/condemnation has been the best worded so far.

"she had a reason to be afraid to say your name, but you shouldn't have been afraid to say hers"

i got actual chills from that one because FUCK it's so true. it bothered me so bad that wilbur was so vague about it almost as if he could AVOID it if he never attached her name to it. idk if theres really any legal stuff behind it or what not but other than that he had zero consequences for naming her directly. zero consequences for giving her a direct apology. his "apology" didn't even sound like it was TO HER. he isn't sorry, he obviously doesn't know what he has to be sorry for if he's too much of a pussy to address her directly.

"thank you for being brave"

it is so so important that he described her as such because not only does it continue to uplift her and encourage her to stay strong and continue to be brave, but it shows that speaking out against any form of abuse no matter what it is is BRAVE. it's admirable and hopefully sends encouragement to anyone else who reads it that speaking out against it is brave. point blank period. (and honestly everything in his apology to shelby was so incredibly well-worded - its really the fucking fact that dream who had no involvement whatsoever could apologize but wilbur didn't even know what he was supposed to apologize for lol.)

i've said this before, and i'll say it again. all of my love and support goes out to shelby. i am so incredibly inspired and proud of her for being able to stand up for herself, to speak out against someone even if they had a larger platform and raise awareness to the signs and pieces of shit within the community so we don't continue to support and platform dangerous people. i've watched shelby for such a long time, she was such an important part of my childhood and it actually breaks my heart that someone could even THINK of doing anything like that to her because she is such a fucking light and fuck ANYONE who would do anything to try and put that out. i wish her nothing but the best and all of the healing in the world because she deserves it so so much. my heart goes out to any and all other victims of wilbur, as well.

#wilbur soot #dream #shelby

[cluelessbees]

through the whole time I’ve been following you I’ve never once seen you say anything about Palestine before. Since the news broke about Hamas killing Israelis, rightfully so you’ve shared posts etc about it all and it seems like posting about st/byler is the last thing you wanna think about rn. Which is fine! But lately its just seeming like you’re doing it to prove to everyone how smart and informed/outraged you are about the conflict and how dare anyone talk about anything else… in one of your recent reposts you tagged that all the Palestinians that have died in the 75 years shouldn’t be forgotten (they shouldn’t! What’s been done is awful) and fuck anyone who doesn’t wanna read about it bc it makes them feel bad. I would be more willing to agree with you on the things you say/repost if I’d seen you post about it before… but you haven’t. I’ve never seen you talk about Palestine before on your byler based acc (bc you’re here to talk abt byler!) but suddenly it’s like you’re some social justice warrior who can’t bare to talk about byler bc the Israel/Palestine conflict has been brought to attention again on social media. Others who have reposted things have still posted abt things they like in between bc they know the small things they share won’t make a big difference but they want to show they still care whereas yours seems performative at this point.

I'm going to stay as calm as possible here.

Go unfollow me if you don't want to see anything about Palestine. That's it. Point blank. I don't need your validation or your follow or whatever.

Just because I've never talked about the issue before online doesn't mean it isn't an important issue to me. I'm an Arab. I hear news about this every week. I grew up hearing about Palestinians being kicked out of their homes, being bombed, being killed. Every Ramadan I read articles of Palestinians being beaten and killed for praying in Masjid Al-Aqsa.

I have friends who are Palestinians refugees, who can't even return to Palestine. I have a teacher that left my highschool to go back to Gaza to be with her mom. And I have no fucking idea if she's alive right now.

This is everyday for me. And I was so used to the world not caring. Up until a few years ago saying you were pro-Palestine would lead to so much hate.

But the world is talking about it now. And I will not stay silent. I will not let misinformation spread. I will not let Israel destroy Palestine's image. I will not let anyone forget about their lives. They were people. They are my people. They are my friends, my teachers, my family.

Go fuck yourself if you think this is me being performative or me showing off my knowledge. Do you fucking know why I have this knowledge???? Why I know so much?? I grew up with this.

I'm literally an Arab. I can't believe I have to fucking say this so many times. I'm not white or whatever. This is literally all I can think about right now. The Arab community (which I'm a part of) in my university are setting up donations, wearing the Palestinian Kuffeyah in solidarity, talking about this whenever and however we can. This is what it means to be Arab. We are not going to shut up about it.

I am watching my region enter a war. I literally live in the Middle East. I am watching people online call my people terrorists, barbaric, subhuman, animals. What do you expect me to do? Watch and pretend that I'm white or some shit?

OH and because you're thinking I'm just now caring

Here's fucking screenshots of my chats with friends.

Just because I've never talked about it here before doesn't mean I've never cared about the issue. You don't know me stop acting like you do.

Fuck everyone who thinks this way. I don't care if you support or follow my account. I will talk about Palestine until my dying breathe. My love for Palestine is ingrained in my DNA. It is the fabric of my soul.

It's free Palestine, until Palestine is fucking free.

#palestine #I literally don't care #hate me all you want #I'm an Arab before I'm a fucking account for a ship

[sophiamcdougall]

I saw a post earlier about "women's spaces" and how the writer had often experienced them as hostile rather than inherently safe and welcoming and therefore precious. Now, I could relate to that to some degree, as I still tend to start off pretty tense at events for, say, queer women even though I now go quite a lot of them: "hello I'm bi! If anyone's going to have a problem with that it would be nice to get it out of the way immediately!" But I do value some women's spaces. I would be sad if gendered loos, for instance, went away completely. I've had mad, intense conversations in women's loos that I do not think would have happened in an evenly mixed setting. I have experienced the Drunk Girl Oracle who exists nowhere but in the queue for the ladies: I want her habitat to continue to exist. But the thing is: no "women's space" I've ever been in has ever been this inviolate grove of Artemis where no man may set foot without getting turned into a fucking stag.

Trans women are women. Trans women belong in women's spaces. Trans women make me feel not less but more safe in women's spaces, for reasons that will become clear. When transphobes are screaming that the sky will and does fall in whenever a trans woman walks into a women's bathroom, of course I argue from that starting point.

But also I think it's worth examining the entire premise that spaces FOR [this type of person] are inherently spaces from which [that type of person] is banned.

So like, where are these women's spaces that don't come with the common-sense understanding that while usually, mostly you won't see men in there, if you do he's probably got reasons and its fine?

Is no one else seeing those signs that say "these premises are cleaned by male and female staff"? What about dads with small daughters? Is it really that bad if a man just plain gets lost or has one shot to avoid an emergency from time to time?

There was this meetup for bi people I used to go to. But of course there were never only bi people there. People brought along friends and partners who might be straight or gay. And oh-shit-it-turns-out-I'm-bi people who were still identifying as gay in the rest of their lives came on the quiet. And there was this one lesbian who -- ironically given a certain slur the GC crowd like to throw at bi women -- came quite unapologetically as a tourist, to observe our strange ways and, as she put it, to "encourage us."

These people were explicitly welcome. It was not a space from which not-bi people were barred. It was still a bi meetup. It was still a "bi space." I was at a sapphics' club night last Friday. And there were some men there. I mean, apparently cis, entirely male-presenting, gender-conforming men in the Women's Space™ . Some of them were bar staff, for starters. Is that OK with the GCs? Does all the terror and horror and loss at the thought of a man in your precious Women's Space go away if the man's being paid? If so, it seems oddly ... conditional. But also some of them some seemed not to be working but just sort of ... there. Maybe they were somebody's friends? They certainly didn't bother anyone. I didn't see where they ended up. You see, I was mainly focused on the hot chicks.

There's another wlw event I go to, to which a guy regularly shows up and we've chatted a few times. He usually wears what you'd conventionally call "women's clothes" but does not present as a woman. I know he uses he/him pronouns at present, (I asked) though he implied there was some possibility that might change. I don't know if he's a regular because he's a friend of the host or if he's a friend of the host because he's a regular. I don't know if something about the wlw label speaks to him on some personal level or if it's about queer solidarity, or if he's like the encouraging lesbian at the bi meetups. Whatever the reason, he's just there.

And aside from the fact that we have similar taste in hats, his presence in ye olde sapphic space also makes me feel more safe, for much the same reason the presence of a woman I know is trans does. I'm afraid it's selfish. Because if everyone's being cool about him, or about her, I can be pretty confident no one who finds out that I, too, disrupt binaries just by existing, is going to decide to ruin the evening over it. Because, you know, that has happened to me.

Now like I say, Actual Men in women's spaces aren't the reason trans women belong in women's spaces. But Actual Men entering women's spaces and not thereby ruining them forever do illustrate the utter pointlessness of thinking of women's spaces as these high-walled fortresses to begin with. Spaces for [a type of person] can exist, and still be porous. In fact, to be healthy and functional, they have to be.

[thekentraptor]

This has been weighing on me and I saw so few other people saying it that I thought I was taking crazy pills. But I want to speak my mind and show my solidarity with the other intelligent, attractive people on here who agree with me:

Stray Kids' Met Gala outfits were bad. Particularly the jackets. The boys looked gorgeous because *they* are gorgeous and charismatic and know how to carry themselves. But the outfits were not only Boring, a sin for this particular event, the actual fit of the clothing was atrocious.

Like what is going on with the sleeves? (they're too tight and the wrong length, to start). Look at that enormous pucker where Hyunjin's sleeve meets the chest. And those aren't just movement wrinkles in Han's shoulder, those are deep set-in creases.

These are both 10/10 pretty boys, holy moly. I have less than zero beef with the hair and makeup team. But Han's jacket has the same kind of pucker that Hyunjin's does, and those creases from the event shot above are here too, meaning they were visible in the fitting room and nobody did anything about them before sending the boys out into the world. And Chan's sleeve looks like a tornado which, I don't think I need to explain why that's wrong.

HOW is Changbin's jacket too tight in the chest and shoulders when it doesn't even close?? And let's just dress The Hwang Hyunjin in a slunchy-lookin smoking jacket, I guess that's fine.

Felix's sleeves are also a mess, and I don't even know where to START with Seungmin.

Meanwhile, these?

Gorgeous. Stunning. Exquisite. A bit casual for the Met but my GOD they look good. I even like the safety pins on Changbin's shirt - if they'd done something like that intentionally it might have been a fun approach to the "fleeting beauty" theme.

In conclusion, SKZ deserved better and I'm mad about it. They deserved to be dressed by a more interesting, creative fashion house to begin with, but that's another issue. I'm one million percent sure that their measurements are kept track of at JYP and it's hard to believe that they weren't sent over before the boys even got to America, so the team SHOULD have been able to cook up jackets that fit at least approximately right. If I were one of the tailors in those behind the scenes shots I would go into Witness fucking Protection because this is embarrassing.

#and no obviously i couldnt ~do a better job myself~ #but i know enough about this subject to know that couture tailoring should not turn out like this #stray kids #skz #met gala #stray kids met gala #skz met gala

[fan-a-tink]

Young Royals S3 thoughts

EP4 

Simon tearing up on the bus... I have no words to describe painful it is to watch this. 

That hug. Was so overdue. I’m so glad Wille is there. And him saying „I’m so glad to see you.“ - yes please tell Simon how much he is loved!

Sara and Felice looking at each other like the star-crossed lovers they are… 

Vincent, why do you have to be like that? This is literally the last thing Simon needs right now. Just, PLEASE, mind your own business!

„You’re so fucking pathetic“ - couldn’t have said it better. And finally, Wille defending Simon as well!

„It’s really a privilege… not a punishment.“ He’s becoming more and more like his mother…

Oh my god they write letters to their future selves? I do that every year - that is sooooo cool :) I really want to know what Simon and Wille wrote… and is it foreshadowing a time-jump? 

Oh August is down bad… He’s trying so so hard to reconnect with Sara, and it is kind of adorable… I just wish she’d let someone in (not necessarily August) and could talk to someone and get better… 

„The Queen is too unwell to attend the announcement.“ Oh oh oh oh oh…. I really really really hope she’ll get better. Why does everyone only ever get worse? 

When Linda suggested moving to Gothenburg, Jan-Olof was like ‚yes, please do!‘ 🙄 this old white man really thinks that would resolve things? 

I feel like if Farima had had this talk with Simon and Linda earlier, a lot of the plot of the first three episodes would not have happened. Simon could have avoided the brunt of the online hate perhaps.. Why did no one feel like it might be a good idea to prepare him for what was coming and give him some advice on how best to navigate being so suddenly in the public eye? Like, they seriously trusted Wille to communicate all of that, a sixteen-year old known for being quite impulsive? Simon needs real support from the system, and he was just left to struggle along without it for three episodes… Why did there need to be a stone thrown into his home for anyone to take any action and give any support?!?!?!

Micke apologising for hugging Sara without asking first… it’s small steps, but in the right direction :))

Simon deleting his online profile is like he is deleting himself. I feel so sad for him. And he is just so quiet and resigned. This is not right…

„Serious, traditional, smart and strong young man“ hahahahaaaaaa have you met Wille? 

„To love whoever you want is a human right.“ SIMON FOR PRESIDENT!! 

But I also get that Wille does not want to be a spokesperson. 

That discussion makes me really sad. Like, I do get where Wille is coming from. But Simon just quietly resigning himself to not arguing more because he wants to keep the peace, once again staying silent when he should have the space to express himself - that’s not right….

Love that Vincent has not enough authority to make people listen to him. 

„They’ve been mocking me all day. And now they want to demonstrate? And talking about solidarity….“ I agree, Simon, I agree. And they are protesting because they want to keep their privileges, while Simon was at a protest for worker’s rights. That’s two fundamentally different issues really shows all that’s problematic about Hillerska in a nutshell. 

No, Wille, don’t join them!

That scene between Simon and Sara really shows that I think a lot between them just needs to be talked about. Like I’m not saying it will resolve their issues, but at least if they were to talk about it together, they might make a little bit of progress? But I guess it’s only episode four and their reconciliation has to wait little longer for plot reasons 😤

It’s so painful how Simon has just become so quiet. Even when he’s singing, he’s kind of lost his voice… This is the worst!!!! Siiiimoooooon!! 

300 crowns for a lollipop??!?!

„That sounds like an eating disorder.“ !!!!!!!!!!! I sometimes feel like Simon is the only sane person in this school. 

No Vincent, YOU are becoming more boring every day. Your bullying is pathetic. Leave August alone. 

„Klumpig“ is my new favourite Swedish word :)) 

Even Simon’s smiles are quiet now… 

„I never want to hurt you, Simon.“ Look into those eyes. 

That scene with them by the window is beautiful… But I feel like their peace is so fragile. 

The students are just proving that the inspection was necessary. Like this is exactly the kind of behaviour that they wanted to put a stop to, calling them traitors for leaving, stealing someone’s trousers and chanting ‚Show your dick for Hillerska!‘ - just proves once more that you don’t need alcohol for a group dynamic to become toxic.

And NO girls, you don’t get to be mad at Felice for whatever she said or didn’t say during the inspection. And thank you, Maddie, for defending her!  

Ok, I’ve changed my mind, I want to have the shot of them waking up next to each other tattooed :) They are so soft… 💜

It must have smelled sooo bad in that room that morning… 😂

Felice and Sara finally talking. Hallelujah! 

Felice is a stronger person than I am because I would have forgiven Sara there and then. Scratch that, I have forgiven her long ago. I mean, if you just try to see it from her perspective… There must be some way for them to forgive and move on, right? Hello? Is anyone hearing this? 

Simon worrying what to gift Wille for his birthday… „Does he like to take baths?“ Hahahahahahaaaaa this is so accurate, like this is exactly how helpful my advice to my friends was when I was a teenager…. :)) 

„And just do whatever they say.“ Oh Simon… I completely understand that you just want to stay safe and protect yourself. Like you should. But please also listen to your friends and don’t let go of who you are… 

I really love the friendship these three have. I am so glad Simon has them…

Oh no, they’re talking about Erik. Here we go. This is going to be hard. 

Malte is acting the shit out of that scene!!! Incredible. But so is Edvin, like there is so much going on in his face without him even saying anything….

„And Erik was there. Erik was there.“

#young royals #young royals season 3 #young royals season 3 spoilers #young royals s3 spoilers #yr s3 spoilers

[intertexts]

HELLOOOO I COME BEARING GIFTS

EPISODE 11 TRIVIA:

- ashe being there surprised dakota so much it broke him somewhat out of his bad mood! in grizzlys words "if he wouldnt have met ashe right then, dakota would have been so much more angry and miserable at the beginning of this episode. he mightve just straight up left. got up and walked away."

- he didnt want to talk to william or vyncent at all, so ashe being there (however unwillingly) as a third party made things easier and almost softened the blow of vyncent yelling at him in the moment

- "why did i dream about william and vyncent being villains in the beginnign and killing summer" ".... i dunno" *cue entire party suspicious WHAT DOES THAT MEAN*

- "i dont trust your characters now" "you have ONE bad dream and our campaign turns into a game of among us"

- william: "hey ashe do you want to run away and write poetry with me?" emo/goth kid solidarity

- this is yakko's (ashes player) first time ever playing a ttrpg !!! fucking wild!! he feels like he needs more practice describing things

- FUN CHARACTER FACTS. I LOVE THESE MORE THAN ANYTHING. BIZLY ASKED EACH OF THEM WHAT KINDS OF MUSIC THEIR CHARACTERS WOULD LISTEN TO.

dakota: breakbeat, old school rap, 90s punk rock. also for shows he would watch it was "cartoons like atla, tmnt and codename kids next door"

william: "indie rock. and on a bad day, evanescence" (god hes just like me fr)

vyncent: "my character doesnt know what music is"

ashe: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE . also apparently yakko made an ashe winters playlist on spotify and thats actually what they were playing in the episode. i have not found this yet and i desperately want to

- for the spirit world, bizly asked charlie to find him just random pieces of music that he could envision places for and thats how they came up with carnival of souls! there are a handful more places like that that youll see eventually :]

- yakko: "im glad i was able to bring wavelengths threat level down an entire tier just by calling him mark"

- charlie wants william and ashe to hang out in character more because theyre so similar and he thinks they would have a lot to bond over! i love this

- theyre all really excited that they get to go to the spirit world together and it wasnt just an excuse to split the party because they dont want to do that :] (<< i just rlly like this energy)

- grizzly is specifically playing dakota as "not being able to process emotions very well"

ALSO!!!!!!! i dojt know what site or whatever youre using to watch/listen so im hoping they have this on there BUT. the tide backstory oneshot was posted between episodes 12 and 13 so if u wanted to listen to that one now would be a good time !!! its called The Elementals :]

HIII YAYAYAYAYYY!!!! ohh fuck yes a little bowl of seeds for me :333

the dakota & ashe stuff is so goodddd u can rlly tell. it's like yeah you cant be mad and miserable and sulky in front of someone u don't know!! & ashe is just.... so unbothered... i loaf him... he truly did bring the threat level down so fast. went from terrifying supervillain in charge of the Evil Facility to an exhausted pissed off single dad in 1 minute.

+ALL THE MUSIC STUFF IS SO GOOD..... ITS SO GOOD. yelling. vyncent is going 2 end up having the weirdest music taste from hanging out with them. augh... awesome trivia thabk. the energy they have is so fun always....

#thinking ab dakota cole for 1 million years he's so everything 2 mee... auauauaauaaua #+ i DID end up subbing 2 their 5 dolar tier it's a good show id give em more if i wasn't making minimum wage!!! so i DO have the oneshots.. #this is so exciting 2 me. tide backstory fuck yeah #anyway HI hope ur having a good nighttttt <33333 #mac tag! #pd lb

[princess-of-the-corner]

Crossover minecraft: civil war

Ladybug: okay... let's go over this, one more time. The one week we're busy with end of term exams, war breaks out...

Guy: Yup. See, the Pines kids took over the justice system...

Rena: I knew it! Twins are always trouble.

*vipereon coughs*

Rena: you hush, you and tigresse make trouble for villains all the time.

Guy: and of course with Mabel as judge, she wound up giving a whole bunch of obtuse penalties for the weirdest of offenses. Now this got the mad scientist duo on her side, cause they got guinea pigs for their devious machines and -inators, and got the bad girl coven and the Fazgang against them. Not sure how the lyoko warriors and the phantom theives wound up on justice Mabels side but they did.

Ladybug: what about Ben's group? Or the Danville group? Or the Amity park guys?

Guy: okay, Danny is neutral here, he's with Doc in Koboldia, but apparently Dipper bribed sam with some cryptid info, and Tucker is just rolling with it. Ben, Gwen, and Kevin threw their lot in with rebellion, but Lilo is staying out of it. Don't know where Stitch is, he went off the radar a while ago. The entire Danville group is just selling supplies, traps and weapons to both sides, enterprising huh? Minus the fireside girl who's also in the rebellion.

Ladybug: okay... any ideas? No roi, we are not joining justice mabel solely on the argument of you wanting to fight Gregory.

Skull, Distantly: run for your life!

Gregory, distantly: Ramming Speed!

Ladybug: okay, no polymouse, we aren't going to join the rebellion just on the principal of NOT having to fight Gregory...

Pigella: Rock band solidarity?

Tigresse: and sticking it to the lawman?

Mutters of approval

Chat: okay majority rules! Rioting Paris style?

Roi Singe: Riot!

1.5 days later

Phineas, recapping for his viewers: so once the miraculous heros chose their side, they showed how quickly a government will fold to parisian discontent. Despite the government being complete malarkey. In other news, the server is expecting a new player soon-

/technically/ Luka and Juleka aren't twins in my AU but that still tracks.

Also like. If the French are known for anything, it's a fucking revolution!

[chirpsythismorning]

I think it is very probable that the Duffers won't stop the production or filming, and that their support for the strike will just remain in... words, rather than direct action. Realistically the Duffers are tied to Netflix, they literally are the producers of the biggest show (on Netflix) now, and they're already getting paid... a lot and the fact that they are tied to Netflix makes it VERY unlikely for them to stand up against Netflix. I just cannot imagine a scenario like that, lol. So yeah, it is controversial and sad, but if we are considering the situation from a realistic POV... I can see the duffers not exactly standing up against Netflix.

It’s possible!

I do wonder if they’re going to announce filming starting then? Because official Netflix/ST accounts usually make a post the day filming starts to let the fans know it has officially commenced.

Although it is a cause for celebration for fans, it’s… going to look really bad in the eyes of those supporting the strike, which is 98% of writers and basically everyone that isn’t the top 1% in the industry.

I know the Game of Thrones spin-off or whatever announced that they’re going to start filming despite the strike and they’re getting a lot of negative press from not just those in the industry but also fans who are scared that the quality of the show is gonna suffer.

It’s common knowledge that the shows that did continue production during the last strike dipped in quality bc they were not able to have rewrites while filming. Stuff like actors improvising and adding their own lines and directors or just anyone coming in to fill that role of the writers on strike is highly frowned upon. You’re essentially dubbed a snake who is taking the side of the corporations and saying fuck you to those that are trying to fight for decent pay.

It does make me wonder if they’re so quiet about filming potentially starting in May and maybe they won’t even officially announce it, because they don’t want to sour the reputation of the show by giving the impression they aren’t supporting the strike, but are instead directly going against it.

To be fair, there are certain individuals in the production that have literally no choice but to work bc of their contracts. Like I know Disney just announced that show runners and other people in that type of position are required to return to their productions for non-writing duties. And I know that applies to a lot of people in the production that aren’t writing. So to a lot of folks, even if you wanted to strike, you can’t bc it’s against your contract.

It’s just unfortunate that not only are they risking the quality of the show not being it’s best, they’re also risking the shows reputation. There are 100% going to be people boycotting the HOG and ST knowing that it had production going during the strike. And if it god forbid did end up not being very good at certain points, we’d never hear the end of it..

And the fact that it’s likely to be very byler heavy potentially…. That should be something people on here consider as opposed to just praying for filming to start bc we want bts asap.

Even if filming started tomorrow, there’s no guarantee we’re getting blurry bts anytime soon. Especially if they only have a few people on set not only bc of the strike and the fact that maybe a lot of people won’t be there out of solidarity, but also bc it’s probably going to be a skeleton crew working to avoid spoilers.

If we’re lucky, the strike would end sooner than later and we could see some bts floating around in the next 2-3 months, but I just don’t see that happening rn. A lot of experts are saying that Netflix in particular can afford to hold this out for months, bc they’ve got a full backlog for the next two years when it comes to releases on their platform.

How does ST fit into that, I’m not exactly sure. But if they’re not putting any pressure on Netflix, then we’ll know based on Netflix’s behavior about the situation. All it would take is the ST production to give them a lot of pressure to make an impact, and I agree that is the very reason that Netflix probably prepared for that scenario. It’s likely it’s written in the Duffer’s contracts that they have to continue in the scenario of a strike, so even if they wanted to support it, they’re stuck.

It sucks but yeah it’s very likely that whatever is filmed during the strike will put a bad taste in the critics and audiences mouths. Unfortunately it’s likely to be byler related soooo yeah that does suck for those of us that are already prepared for the homophobic backlash.

In a perfect world streamers would stop being greedy and just give the writers 3% like they’re asking. It’s literally nothing in the grand scheme of things. These corporations are making billions and they can’t give their writers 3%… like… no wonder they’re not dropping this until something changes bc it’s fucking pathetic.

A lot of these writers live in Los Angeles and are making like 70k a year, in a city where that is not at all a live-able wage bc of rent prices being crazy. Also they need representation which drops their salary to like 46k… These people are being paid nothing and then bc streamers don’t compensate for residuals like they used to when a tv episode re-aired on tv, all they get is the pay for making it and that’s it… that’s not sustainable and if they don’t stand up to this bs now, future generations of writers are going to be fucked. The prospects of AI coming in and taking all their jobs is also closing in. It’s a shitty situation.

I’m at a point now though where I’ve went from being excited about filming to start, to sort of dreading it, knowing that the writers are against it and that it’s going to make a lot of resentments for the production going forward. It’s not going to be pretty.

#byler #stranger things #writers strike #st writers #duffer brothers #I hope it ends soon and they get their fair share #I really wanna kick ted sarandos’ ass tbh #like what kind of bitch makes millions upon millions #and then says sorry u guys only get crumbs #it’s fucking sickening

[justanisabelakinnie]

I was pretty bored yesterday and in a bitter mood and so I ended up spam-reblogging a shitload of anti-Madoka Magica posts(and no I’m not sorry, because no matter fucking what I will never stop hating on that trashfest of an anime), and obviously there’s nothing much really that I can say about it that hasn’t already been said by both me and other people in the past but lemme just say how FUCKED up it is…that grown men can look at a genre full of light and hope and female solidarity and empowerment for girls that teaches them that they can be whatever they want to be and that they should never stop believing in themselves and striving for greatness and go “nope, fuck that, instead of all of that happy fun girl power shit let’s write an edgy grimdark dystopia where being a girl with dreams and a desire to strive for greatness is a bad thing that can only end in suffering and punishment, where the survival of the universe and progress of humanity literally hinges on girls being tortured and killed en masse for wishing for something that would make them happy, where girls are universally portrayed as overemotional and impressionable and susceptible and weak and must slay each other in order to survive because they’ll go berserk and monstrous once their power inevitably gets the better of them, and where the only way to escape this ending is by dying and being erased from existence, because that’s the best girls can hope for, and as the icing on the sour cake, let’s aim it at an adult male audience so that they can watch girls suffer and perish and be psychologically broken for their own entertainment, all because they wanted something for themselves and had the gall and the selfishness to go after it.”

And instead of people seeing it for the sexist torture porn that it is it gets glowing reviews on every platform, people eat this shit up and say that this sleazy adult male-aimed show about barely adolescent girls suffering because they wanted something more for themselves is feminist actually, that actually all of the turmoil that the girls go through is a totally girl power metaphor for how girls suffer at the hands of patriarchy in the real world, and how the torture porn got subverted at the end when really all the end did was show the girls continuing to suffer because of their wishes but hey at least they’ll get the sweet release of death in the end, and how the all-male writing staff definitely meant for this to be the next feminist coming of Jesus despite the fact that they say they weren’t inspired by any Magical Girl works that came before them and were instead inspired by porn games…Madoka is the most progressive and revolutionary anime ever really, even more so than those insightful shows about Magical Girls that are actually aimed at girls and actually feature female empowerment and angst done well and not just for the sole purpose of letting men watch female characters suffer, those other shows are just stupid and shallow and bland and don’t know what they’re talking about, Madoka is where it’s at. Take it from me, a 35-year-old man who has never seen a single Magical Girl anime in my life except for Madoka Magica. If you don’t agree with me or if you dare to critique my soulless male gaze moebait, then you’re obviously just dumb and ignorant and don’t understand the deep philosophical nuances of this shoddy anime, I mean just look at Madoka’s mom! She’s the breadwinner of her family! Sure she’s not important to the plot on a whole and it’s not like Heartcatch Precure has done this character archetype better or anything but she’s proof that the writers are feminist icons who set out to empower women! Now watch as me and the rest of my Madoka-loving friends proceed to bully and harass the shit out of you for not sharing our vapid opinions until you either delete your account, change your tune and say you like Madoka now and were so wrong and stupid before, or stop talking about how much you hate Madoka entirely. And anyway teenage girls really ARE irrational, hysterical, and constantly on their cycles. Of course they’ll get taken advantage of for it! That’s not misogynistic to point out, that’s just the biotruth!

#anti-pmmm #in fact even if you do like madoka but critique it the rabid swarths of its fanbase will still harass you #because madoka is the perfect shining beacon of mahou shoujo anime and anyone coming for it must be burnt at the stake like a witch #(no pun intended) #gosh golly gee aren’t I so glad that my favorite power fantasy genre for girls got ‘saved’ ‘revolutionized’ and ‘deconstructed’(🤮) #by the likes of gen urobutcher #and then people want to say that the grimdark animes that came after madoka ‘missed the point of the original show’ as if madoka didn’t mis #the point of the entire genre first…lol like these shows don’t all have a common denominator for a goddamn reason #ik this post isn’t coherent at all i mean good on you if you understand it but if not idfc #i just hate this anime and need to vent #i wish it would diaf #sexism #misogyny #magical girl #anti-gen urobuchi #vent post #my post

[vaspider]

I honestly have to wonder if the gay assimilationists understand what it's like on the other side. I was raised by Republican Baptists in Texas, homeschooled, heavily involved in youth group, and I was so devastatingly lonely because I could feel in my bones that I didn't fit in, that people liked me on a superficial level but kept me at arm's length because something was wrong with me, because I wasn't good enough, I wasn't like them.

It was only when I found words to describe myself in the queer (and autistic) community that I truly realized for the first time that nothing is wrong with me, that I can be accepted and loved the way I am and I don't have to force myself into a different shape to be good enough. I'd rather die than try to make myself "normal" again.

Like I'm just saying that as someone who grew up brainwashed in right wing ideology, I can't help but think the assimilationists must have no clue what a gift it is to be accepted in your abnormality. What it's like to have normalcy shoved down your throat for years, then finally spit it out and finally be fucking free.

Having broken free, I can't imagine ever trying to force someone else into that cage. I want to smash all the cages, not build new gay-shaped cages.

It's possible, but it's also possible that they come from a background like yours and they're naïve, hopeful, or afraid. Naïve enough to think their families will ever really accept them, hopeful enough to think they really can make a change (and good for them for the hopefulness, truly), or afraid and convinced that they can find safety in conformity.

And look - like - I need to be clear that when I say I'm anti-assimilationist, I don't mean that I think it's morally wrong for queer people to want to live in a nice little house with their spouse and send their kids to a good school and live a tidy, quiet, unbothered life. I think that's a fine and wonderful thing to want, and I think it has to be a fine and wonderful thing to want. I think it's possible to live that life and be in solidarity with other queers. I also think that being gay or trans doesn't mean you owe a movement anything. You don't have to live any particular kind of life, or do any particular thing, to be the right kind of queer.

Really, the only way in my mind to be the wrong kind of gay/queer/trans is to tell someone they're the wrong kind of gay/queer/trans, or to throw other queers under the bus for your own benefit.

So when I talk about assimilationism as a philosophy, and why I think it truly fucks us, I'm not talking about "living in the suburbs" or a certain amount of necessary visibility or radicalism. It's okay to live stealth or to want that quiet life. What's not okay is "you better behave or the cis won't respect us," which is, of course, bullshit, since what's not respectable about us is our queerness.

I watched Halston last night with Emet, and one of the things that really struck me was a scene of a fight between Halston and Elsa Peretti, one of his closest friends and models. They got into a fight at Studio 54, and Halston was being unbelievably cruel to her, and she to him. It was the sort of fight that you can only have with someone who knows you very well when you're both at your very worst.

What did she reach for when she was angry with him and hurt? What was the word she immediately reached for to summarize her disdain for him and his worthlessness, how much she despised him and felt him to be garbage? I'm sure you know.

That scene felt like... so... like I just want to shake people and show them it. Don't you understand? The problem with saying "but I'm one of the good faggots" is to them, you're still just a faggot, and they won't let you forget it when the chips are down. Who cares if you're a good faggot or a bad faggot? The reason you deserve civil rights and a life lived in peace is because you're human, not because you've managed to be a good enough and worthy enough person to earn off your faggotry. You can't escape them thinking that about you. You might as well own it and demand your rights anyway, because you're a person.

#uncensored slurs

[shesnake]

What did you think of Allison this season? While I did like the idea of her burning out and just going crazy with her powers the execution was not it. Like I know they were trying to incorporate her comic self but in a show which barely uses the comics the fact they chose the sa out of all things to adapt is so 😑

tw for mentions of antiblackness and sexual assault also tua s3 spoilers i guess

allison was really just spiralling in the messiest way which sure is what spiralling is all about but it was so hard to sympathise because of how cruel she was and this cruelty wasn't even a departure from her usual self bc this show has always made allison the most verbally aggressive (and not in a fun/funny way like five's constant jabs) because of the writers misogynoir (they tried to pretend this season that she hasn't always been written like this but. footage not found!) and yeah I was SO shocked they did the assault scene. it exists in the comics as an isolated vignette i Guess to show how fucked up they've all become but I think it was unnecessary then and is unnecessary now in this show. of course i am not saying this because I condone what she did but it's just so unfair of the writers to do this to the shows only black woman character (and the only black character to last more than a season 😑) because she is NOT coming back from that.

speaking of which it was sooooo dirty of the writers to finally acknowledge how allison and diego as the siblings of colour have been treated differently (of course allison was subjected to period-accurate racial trauma last season but nothing mentioned about diego and lila other than the unspoken implication of their institutionalisation because again. antiblackness. sadism.) only for diego to manifest his solidarity by? taking her to hatecrime fight club??? genuinely cannot tell if the writers intended the scene with them beating up racists as empowering or what. was diego doing that and calling it awesome while white boy luther expresses his earnest concern supposed to show us that diego 'gets it' or that he, her only living sibling of colour, is irresponsibly helping allison off the rails?? it just tastes bad!!!!

also on a less serious but connected note. perhaps it's because i've also been watching the lazarus project where a similar thing is done and executed wayyy better but making all of allison's bad actions the result of losing her daughter because of the time travel was not the move... this show has always explored themes of parenthood but allison's suffering alongside lila's (also rather sexist) pregnancy conundrum plotline has made this the weakest season for woc representation.

and then she/we went through ALL THAT for (my theory) reggie to shove allison in a hotel oblivion room to live out her delusions of family happiness because it could never exist for her in the real world. my guess if they get another season is she's gonna be put on ice for at least half of it while the siblings work to get her out but because of all the character assassination this season no one is going to want root for her anddddd. it just sucks. I'm so mad. this show is collapsing in on itself in every sense.

#the umbrella academy #thelastmonitor #replies #tua spoilers

[everyonewasabird]

Brickclub 5.7.1 “The Seventh Circle and the Eighth Heaven” Part two

It’s bizarre to hear Marius talk as much as he does when he first walks in, especially about a subject that isn’t, say, Napoleon. Before Valjean speaks, he talks at length about the perfect setup Valjean will have in the house, and honestly he sounds a lot more like Cosette than he sounds like himself.

Clearly, Hugo wants to present Valjean with a vision of paradise before Valjean himself dashes it. Which Valjean immediately does.

It’s wild that neither Valjean nor apparently the text itself understands that the greatest danger to Cosette isn’t the state or public opinion--it’s Marius. Valjean knew perfectly well yesterday that any irregularities in her background might end the marriage preparations. Does he and/or the book really think that fiances are fickle but no husband will ever penalize his wife for having a background that wasn’t what he thought when he married her? (I really should read Wide Sargasso Sea some time; but also, that thought makes me think about how I wish there were more published Les Mis tie-ins, including some literary reimaginings like that. Good political takes only, please.)

Why does the fact that Cosette is now left entirely at Marius’s mercy--and the fact that we KNOW CANONICALLY that Marius will mistreat her when she’s at his mercy--never enter into any of the themes of this story? Does Hugo really just believe nothing bad can happen to a wealthy, married bourgeois woman? She’s escaped Fantine’s fate, so no other bad thing can happen to her??

Mellow was pointing out on Discord how much Valjean takes on aspects of Javert in this chapter, and it’s true: Valjean describes how he’s on the outside of society looking in, how he’s never had a family and can never have one, and then he grabs his own collar as if arresting himself (while talking about his “implacable duty”) because Javert is no longer there to do it.

It really is a pretty bad sign for the wisdom and trueness of this argument.

I don’t know where to start with what he’s actually saying, so, bullet points:

- There’s an emotional core that makes sense here: he hates the idea of lying about who he is to people close to him forever, and I get that! I really, really hate that he only thought of this when Marius showed up, and that disclosure to Cosette was never something he considered--or could consider.

- Hugo is writing marginalization the way Hugo nearly always writes marginalization, where the marginalized can only see himself from the mainstream bourgeois pov, not from any pov arising from the community he belongs to. Valjean regards his existence as a pestilence that might infect the good, innocent bourgeois characters he comes near--which is a wildly bourgeois way of thinking about a convict. You see similar things with Grantaire and queerness, with Javert and class, and with Eponine and class--it would make sense if former convicts felt pretty fucking different about not mentioning that they’re former convicts than the bourgeoisie felt about them not mentioning it. Things aren’t generally this shocking and appalling--even if they’re ongoingly traumatic--if they’re just the history of your life.

At the same time, it makes sense, given the way Valjean has crushed his former anger and renounced his former self and melded his views with the bourgeoisie, that he doesn’t have any kind of class consciousness or marginalized solidarity he can see himself from, so he’s internalized the wider society’s hatred. But I don’t love the way almost every marginalized character in this book has somehow also done exactly that.

- The fact that Valjean can only perceive God from somewhere that feels like hell is pretty telling, and pretty awful. He really doesn’t know what goodness might feel like or be without suffering. He says, “for me to respect myself, I have to be despised by others,” and it really just sounds like he’s internalized the worst things society wanted him to internalize. The “seventh circle” being for suicides does fit horribly well here.

- As soon as Valjean references a concrete threat posed by his identity (the police might arrest him), Marius offers a concrete solution (pardon), and Valjean quickly backtracks to keep from letting this conversation be about solvable problems. Like: there’s a version of this scene where he’s tired of lying so he comes clean and lets Marius and Cosette respond about whether they still want him around. He is actively refusing that option. He’s not here to choose honesty, he’s here to choose death.

Assorted other observations:

“He gulped in air painfully and then tossed out these final words: “Once upon a time I stole a loaf of bread to live; today, to live, I will not steal a name.”

“To live!” Marius broke in. “You don’t need that name to live?”

“Ah, I know what I’m saying,” answered Jean Valjean, nodding slowly several times.”

This is so stark, and so heartbreaking. Valjean hasn’t learned the lesson of this book--or remembered the thing he knew at the start of this book--that stealing something you need to survive is morally justifiable, and it’s society that was in the wrong for withholding it. Never mind the verbal trickery by which he’s made taking Fauchelevent’s name “theft” when he admitted a page ago that it was freely given--if it was theft, theft to live is justified.

But he’s fully swallowed the same carceral logic Javert did: if the state can imprison you for something, you are a bad person for doing that thing.

Honestly, it feels pretty clear to me that the book is coming out strongly against this choice Valjean is making.

And then, Cosette comes in and Marius tries to send her away because they’re talking about things that are none of her business--that is, the use that’s going to be made of her money. Reminder that Cosette has been handling the house finances since before Marius found out what rent was. Fuck Napoleon and his fucking marriage laws.

And she seems to be desperately ingratiating herself and trying to smooth over something weird here that she can’t identify, and STILL this book doesn’t seem to quite understand that the biggest danger to her is how Marius chooses to treat her.

And yet--

(Cosette speaking to Valjean):

“You can see very well that I’m extremely unhappy at home. My husband beats me. So come here, give me a kiss immediately.”

COSETTE knows that that’s a thing that can happen, even if she’s obviously joking here. (What a joke, fucking hell. But we know Gillenormand has been making this kind of “joke” already.) Cosette is perfectly capable of realizing “I am not automatically safe just because I’m married; I still need the father I love and trust and have depended on for years,” and she’s saying so.

Not that anybody is going to listen.

Valjean argues himself into being exiled from Cosette, and then a moment later he reverts fully to the voice that all the most desperate misérables speak in. He sounds exactly like Fantine begging Javert to let her go when he begs to be allowed to see Cosette a little. Marius assents.

By the end of the chapter, they’ve been restored to the roles of the bourgeois and the misérable, and maybe it’s that even more than the facts of is past that was the “truth” Valjean wanted to convey. I’m left with the feeling that the “lie” he wanted rectified was the same one that so affronted Javert when he found out Madeleine was really Valjean:

Valjean is operating fully within the conviction that what a misérable deserves is to be put in his place.

#brickclub #lm 5.7.1 #abuse mention

[bubbaluz]

Hey I just wanted to ask, what is going on with taz Skylar in regards to Palestine? I can't find what you're talking about and wanted to know. I don't have Twitter so maybe it was there? I don't follow him on ig but I have checked his profile a few times and thought it was weird that he hadn't made any statements (as well as the other cast members I saw) and kept posting regularly like normal. I feel like them staying silent is weird considering the themes in the show they act in and praise so much. And him in particular cause I believe he's from Arab descent, Lebanese specifically if what I saw was correct, which would make him standing with the occupiers or even neutral that much worse imo

(You can answer this privately if you're getting hate about it btw)

I woke up yesterday and went on twitter. I see artists on my tl complaining about Taz, saying how they definitely won’t be supporting/ will be dropping the show. So I’m curious. From what I gather, he promoted a fundraiser marathon he did, for the British Red Cross. While the BRC stands as a neutral organization, they still fund Israel. If the fundraiser/organization had gone to the Palestinian people in Gaza, no one would’ve really had a problem. Most people would’ve liked it, since that would make him the first main cast member to speak up in support of Palestine, (I mean main as the main group, Morgan who plays Koby has shown support). Majority are displaced/homeless, are being starved, more than 20,000+ of them of died and are continuously still being bombed.

People in his comments did say “hey, taz, i know you have good intentions but this organization also supports israel” “can you post something for Palestine too?” He deleted the post. Sometime after that he tweeted out:

“Our opinions can be different. And that's okay. Just because my opinion is different to yours, doesn't mean either of us are wrong. It just means we see things differently. If you go to war with everyone who differs in opinion, we'd all be at war with everyone all the time.”

(Also now deleted, twt is priv) (scrolling through twt, someone got blocked for calling him out?)

Vague tweet on the surface, but the timing and climate that we are in, this tweet can only be referencing what we believe it is in reference to.

At this time he has not said anything. I don’t know if he will say anything in response. I’m sure many people hope for and would appreciate an explanation or an apology or just anything, because this fucking hurts okay? If there’s any Palestinian fans of his or of OPLA, or just the general fans like me, of course they would hurt/disappointed/angered by this. We have every right to. Especially since we all think he and the cast are decent people, you never want to assume people who are tied to your favorite piece of media are bad people, you know? Edit: And I wish he hadn’t reacted the way he did. He could’ve said anything afterwards to clear things up, or at least answered the more calmer people in his comments, rather than deleting and privating. If he genuinely comes to understand and talks, I’ll probably calm down since this situation has been quite rage inducing. But as of right now, I don’t want to look at him…

It is ironic that the cast of One Piece has remained silent throughout, except for Morgan. I know Iñaki posted a little insta story about how there’s a lot of hurt in the world right now. I saw a screenshot of Jacob’s story, telling people to look out for their Palestinian and Jewish friends during this time. That’s about it. Whether it’s an issue of not feeling educated enough or being fearful of the consequences about speaking out (i.e. Barrea being fired from scream, Jenna quitting in solidarity etc.) (I’m iffy on Mackenyu though? I don’t know if he’s allowed to say anything either way, doesn’t he belong to an actor company in Japan? Maybe advise against?) I don’t know. You don’t have to be out here speaking like your in a VICE video, even just a retweeting, liking, sharing news, or just acknowledgement would be a nice sentiment.

At the end of the day, these people are just actors. But in today’s stan culture, when something like this happens, some people will not let go of that image of the celebrity that they have in there head so they end up defending or sticking by their side through the worst of the worst of allegations. I’m sorry if I came off as harsh in that last vent, but in this scenario you have to. You have to be hit in the face with it in that hope that you’ll realize what the fuck is going on.

#taz is half lebanese from his father’s side #but honestly I don’t think he has any connection to it? #since he grew up in the Canary Islands #which belong to spain #so i doubt he really has any personal deep connection to his father’s country