#I just cantttt anymore

[4byun]

#the first day this week in which my head was not actively trying to kill me and I just HAD to ruin it by having a massive mental breakdown #for context ive been having incessant migraines and I called it back by bawling my eyes out for um. 2.5 hrs #I need to be put down asap. I cannot do this anymore I cantttt tttttt #I’m not even going to joke myself out of this but chat daddy really wants to kill themselves #I need to be put down like a rabid beast #or else…….!!!!!!! i will cry for anothwr 2 hours

[lionlimb]

QUITTING MY JOB!!!!! 🥳🥳🎉

#no i dont have another one lined up but i cannot take it anymore i cantttt #i hate st*rb*cks so much its unreal #so muhch. im incensed just thinking about it

[diorsluv]

feather , part 8

“ i slam the door ”

series m. list previous chapter next chapter

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yourusername guess who took me hereee❕

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bookerburke_ hmm i wonder who!

→ yourusername can’t think of his name 😔

username75 who the hell is booker burke

→ username11 he better not be her new bf

→ username58 i was rooting for her and luke..

username17 oh boy.

trevorzegras after 2 months of being in the talking stage i’d hope it’s him

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→ lhughes_06 dude.

→ jackhughes oh my god

mackie.samo whats his name??? blake? bart?? bernie???? can’t remember it mb

→ yourusername mack please be nice 😟

→ mackie.samo i’m not even allowed to step foot into your apartment anymore

→ yourusername okay no that’s bc you were sweatier than a pig cuz you just came from practice

edwards.73 should’ve been mr “middle name cowboy”

→ yourusername please eddy 😭😭

→ edwards.73 what?? im not beefing

username35 I CAN’T WITH ALL THE GUYS SIDING WITH LUKE

username10 i kinda feel bad for the new guy yk

jamie.drysdale go home it’s 1 am

→ yourusername it’s okayy he said he’ll bring me home

luca.fantilli guys let’s all be nice to bellamy

→ yourusername it’s booker ☹️

→ luca.fantilli my fault

→ luca.fantilli guys let’s all be nice to byrone**

→ dylanduke25 byrone is crazy

username16 WHAT DID I MISS?? why is she dating a guy that isn’t luke 😭

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username2 um did i skip a few chapters or a whole ass book because… what the fuck is this

lhughes_06

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lhughes_06 run it back to freshman year

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markestapa all we needed were the guys fr

→ username6 why is it giving “saturdays are for the boys”

username86 i cantttt is this luke’s way of coping

mackie.samo THE SUITS 🔥🔥🔥

→ lhughes_06 YUP YUP

jackhughes lmao moose ur not slick

→ lhughes_06 wdym

→ jackhughes you know exactly what i’m talking about

→ lhughes_06 nope idk

adamfantilli so hughesy how are u feeling

→ lhughes_06 feeling amazing

→ luca.fantilli so is it just me or do i smell absolute bs

jamie.drysdale i just watched my sister stare at your post for a hot minute and then roll her eyes

→ yourusername ur actually instigating i did not do that

→ lhughes_06 idk sounds a lot like you yourusername

bookerburke_ looks litttt wish i could’ve known all of you back then

username79 bartholemew’s comment…. 😬

→ username14 let’s not bully him 😭😭

→ username23 he seems like he’s trying

yourusername miss those times

next chapter notes ) so this one’s kind of short and gross and blegh but let’s just call it an intro of sorts for act ii…… tbh idk if anyone’s gonna like this act bc of mr booker blake but we’ll see 😔 AND I PROMISE SHE AND LUKE END UP TOGETHER EVENTUALLY also more tension, more angst, and more gradual chaos to comeeeee

#adam fantilli #alex turcotte #cole caufield #dylan duke #ethan edwards #jack hughes #jamie drysdale #luca fantilli #luke hughes #luke hughes fanfic #luke hughes x reader #luke hughes x y/n #luke hughes fic #trevor zegras #quinn hughes #rutger mcgroarty #mackie samoskevich #mark estapa

[1989mclaren]

“i’m on my way to believing.”

lando norris x fem!singer!reader

warnings: talks of divorce

itsyn

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itsyn it’s official, “the only exception” out now! this song is so special to me and is very different to the vibe of my other songs :))

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user1 YOU CANT JUST DROP THIS ON US YN!!! U WANT ME TO HAVE A HEART ATTACK

user2 DARLING ???? WHO U CALLING DARLING????????

⤷ user3 i mean… we’ve only seen her out and about with her “bff” lando 🤭🤭

⤷ user4 girl stfu 😐

landonorris SONG OF THE DECADE

⤷ itsyn don’t let my ego get TOO big 😔

alexalbon ON REPEAT 🔁

⤷ logansargeant he really does have it on repeat

⤷ itsyn it’s nice to know alex isn’t lying

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landonorris proud to be apart of y/n’s first love song 🫡

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user5 WHAT DOES THE CAPTION MEAN???

itsyn 🧡

⤷ landonorris 🧡

oscarpiastri he’s been bragging about this all week.

⤷ landonorris ur she didn’t invite u to the studio with you

⤷ itsyn BE NICE!!!!

user6 THE SECOND PHOTO THEY ARE SO CLOSE I CANTTTT KMG OMG HES LITERALLY KISSING HER FOREHEAD

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itsyn love song pop girlie effect

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user7 soft launch? hard launch? i don’t know anymore.

georgerussell63 carmen has had your song on repeat, i think she’s 60% of the streams

⤷ itsyn is the other 30% you?

⤷ georgerussell63 no it’s lando

#f1 #f1 x reader #f1 fic #f1blr #f1 2023 #f1 x you #f1 fanfic #f1 imagine #formula 1 #formula 1 gf #f1 smau

[rollercoasterwords]

im sort of pissed w remus but just because sirius is in so much suffering rn. tho i guess remus is also suffering so wtv🙄 is just different types of pain right… r is heartbroken and s just lost his will in living. they make such a great couple! seriously rae you’ll have to do some serious work for they to sort their shit outWHILST overthrowing the oppressive government that has ruled that world for many many years #easy!! but i trust you blindingly and cantttt wait for all of that xo

lmao whenever someone tells me they're pissed at a character in my fic i'm like whaaaat omg how can u be annoyed at them (<- guy making them repeatedly make THE worst possible decisions for maximum unhealthy relationship angst).

tbf 2 r it's not v straightforward heartbroken-ness is it...like s knew he was going 2 erase his own memories for WEEKS & still kissed r & then let r confess 2 him & kiss him & at no point was like. actually maybe i should put a little distance between us or something...so like. although s did it 2 help & for the greater good etc r is still quite angry w him. & the person he's angry w doesn't even exist anymore so like. what is he even supposed 2 do w all the heartbreak & betrayal & anger yknow. like he can't even have it out w s bc s doesn't remember any of it! ugh delicious i ruined this so perfectly sorry...having the time of my life etc...

appreciate the blind trust tho <3 just keep in mind that i only look out for myself & do not care if this fic ends w others sad/unhappy/upset/angry/etc <3 but don't worry i'll be having fun & u can come along 4 the ride <3

#personally i think the ending i have planned is bittersweet. that's what i will say #i'm quite fond of my planned-out ending...gonna be quite the ride 2 get there tho #ask #wfrau

[evansbby]

DID YOU SEE THAT VIDEO ON CHRIS HIS STORY ?!!?😭😭😭 IM LITERALLY CRACKING THE FUCK UP BC WHY DOES HIS HAIR LOOK LIKE ITS LEVITATING 😭😭 I CANTTTT WHY DOES IT LOOK LIKE THAT WHY IS IT SO TALL BRO WTF IT MAKES HIS FOREHEAD LOOK GIGANTIC SNSJSNSH😭

bro what is this guy doing i dont get it. swear to god for a second i thought he was wearing a toupee and it was like lifting up or something 💀💀 i cant lie though like he looks scary af now😭 and its not like in a mean way just…IDKKK ITS THE HAIR PFFF

For me this is worse than the restaurant pic 🥲🥲

Girl I think we just don’t find him attractive anymore, like full stop. And that’s okay 🤧🥹

I’ve seen other people on here who think he looks good and I’m squinting and TRYING to see it from their POV but I just can’t 🥲🥲 so maybe it’s just an us problem 😂

He’s fully turned into Chris EVAN 🤧🤧🤧

#it happens #I remember my friends IRL never found him attractive and I’d be FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE defending him 😂😂😂 #and saying he’s hot 😂😂 #well I guess that’s over now #my new main celeb crush is Tom Blythe 😌😌😌😌 #thank you Chris evan for your service 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 #anon

[bubbiegumprincess]

Hi hi!!! Heard you were looking for requests, I might just have one for ya love 😼

If you still write for adventure time, maybe adult Finn and a reader who is also an adventurer, and they run into each other for the first time in years? Just fluff or whatever you want :]

Tysm if you do this!!!! You are amazing!! <333

this is such a cute idea I CANTTTT AAAAAAA I'm literally in love with adventure time me and my closest friend (we're probably gonna date) are literally marceline and bonnie it's so cute ANYWAYS!!! Sorry for the rant and il your work too you're literally so talented like omfg (if you get the title reference ily)

no warnings ; just fluff and VERY little romance, if any at all

TOGETHER AGAIN

You groggy rub your eyelids, letting out a groan. You sit up from your bed and throw your blanket off, pulling open the blinds to let sunlight in. 10 : 30 am. You pull a nice outfit on and leave the house. After a short drive, you arrive at a local farmers market and take hold of a green basket.

As you mindlessly swander around the premises, you see a big stand with fresh strawberries in heaps underneath and pick some up.

A smile spreads across the saleswoman face as you hand her a bill, nod, and walk off. It was an absurdly warm day, and your palms were sweaty. The basket slipped out of your grip within the snap of a finger. It was hard to catch.

"Oh, sorry, let me help with that." A voice says before crouching down. You had taken note of large shoulder pads and an open shirt. "AH, thank you, sorry about th-" "Do I recognize you?" you're cut off. both of your eyebrows furrow and then a light bulb goes off in your mind.

"Finn!" You exclaim with a grin. "It's you!" You throw your arms around eachother. "Oh my gosh, how have you been I just- wow!!" You say, feeling your tearline threaten spillage.

"I've been good myself, not much of an adventurer anymore, how about you, how are you!!" He says, letting you go and resting his hands on your shoulders.

"God, busy, I've been- busy." You stifle a small laugh through a sniff because you know you'll cry more if you don't.

"Hey, that's totally cool. I've missed you so much." He hugs you again. "Wanna come to my place? It could be great to catch up with you for a bit, I think."

You nod and smile before wiping away your tears, leaving your cardigan with small wet spots along with sleeves.

Once you make it back to Finn's abode, you sit on the couch and he hands you a cup of hot chocolate. You notice something. "Hey, didn't we find this mug when we were in the Clay Kingdom? They gave it to us when we beat that massive dragon guy." He nods, chuckling a bit.

"Good memories, huh?" You nod.

"I missed you too, Finn."

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UH UH TYSM FOR TYE REQUEST IM SO SORRY IT WAS SHORT!! KEEP UP YOUR AMAZING WORK, I HOPE WE CAN TALK A BIT SINCE YOURE SO SO TALENTED AND ID LOVE SOME TIPS AND TRICKS FOR WRITING OKAY!!! THANK YOU, AND HAVE A LOVELY DAY/NIGHT <33

#adventure time #finn the human #finn x reader #writing #Send requests #this was so fun to write #uhhhhhhhjggghgggghg

[browneyes-issac]

Hellos everyoneeee!!! 💞👋

Sooooo I'm coming backkkk!! Finally!! 🙈💞😆

Warning This is super longgggg!! 🤣🙈

So I deeply apologize for dropping off the face of the earth back in February... I really had full 100% intentions of staying up to date with ready and writing... I just... I really think I overwhelmed myself working and trying to keep up.. Which that's nothing against anyone. I'm just super slow and I was still getting used to working evening being there five months. So I was sleeping more then my usual napping. So I think that's what started me backing away.

Then the housekeeping boss... She was becoming more and more of a bully to us and one of the ladies in laundry finally had enough and went to HR. She ended up getting fired. My aunt ended up taking the position.. Which yeah that was the logical choice but some stuff happened with her which I'll get into later on. But yeahhh, original boss lady strained on my mental health a lot...

And I am big on saying heyy blow up my phone if you need and or want to for whatever you want.. But I feel bad doing it to others so getting behind on my reading.. It kinda messed with me. Because I feel really bad for not staying up to date but also I just... I was getting burned out I think... 🥺🥺

~

A positive note ----

Biketok kinda consumed me on tiktok... 🤣🙈 gotta love the masked men love that Mando started for meeeee!! 🤣🤭

I have no words.. They all are so amazing and badass and I just... Yeahhh 🤭😍 I used to really hate sports bikes... But idk tiktok showed me they can be absolutely beautiful and their riders are so amazing... 🥺

I got a whole list of them that I follow and love but there is this one... His name is Angel. I don't even know where to start with him. He's so amazing, precious, dorky, idkk I just love and adore him. 💞

When I started following him it kinda started out as a crush.. Because ya know a booktok themed video of his popped up.. 🤣🤭 But once I got to know him through his lives and his more personal posts.. My love for him turned more into a comfort love. He brings me so much joy and comfort.. Like his fourth live I watched, I passed tf out. And I'm big on the saying; you fall asleep faster when you are laying next to someone you feel safe with. And it's the same thing with him. His voice just... 🥺💞🥰 Even when the dork is screaming and yelling at his games on live.. Still pass out and stay asleep. 🤣 he's really helped me heal a lot... 🫶

^^^^ this is the stinker in question. 🤭🤣 he did a face reveal, so I feel it's ok I am posting it on other social media. 💞 He's so stinking handsome I cantttt!! 😍💞🥰

I may still do thirsty comments on his posts.. But my teasing love and comfort love for him over powers that.. He just knows how to get under my skin with the spiciness.. 🤣🙈

He does have a girlfriend, which I'm endlessly happy for him.. He deserves endlesssss happiness!! 💞

If you would like to check him out... All socials are Outrunangels. He also has music out under that name. 🥰 he has music out under another name too, but not gonna promote it.. Not gonna type it out, if you'd like to listen to it after you've checked out the angel stuff.. Let me know and or I'll do a post about it too.. 🤣

~~~~~

Ok back to the annoying soppy stuff.. Enough of me gushing about my Angel baby.. 🤣💞🤭

So when I was pulled into biketok.. I found this one guy. He followed me back on tiktok and one day we started talked and he asked to move to snap, because tiktok didn't send him notifications good enough.. Which is fine, I had no problem with that. We started talking more.. Kinda... Kinda ended up being more of a spicy relationship. Which I was fine with. Because I've never been a relationship or had any romantic anything.. I know I've never shared this on here, but I've grown a lot and I'm not that ashamed of it anymore. I'll share about what helped me later on.

Anyways. This guy... I confessed I started developing feelings for him and that I'd love to start to get to know each other better. His response was I'm sorry I don't do relationships because I move around a lot. Ok I get that completely, but long distance can work and it doesn't hurt to at least have friends.

So I kinda started stepping back.. Because that hurt and as time went on it did more and I had some good days. Then around the middle of August, maybe the week after my birthday (it's the 6th ), he posted a few videos with a girl and I believe one said it was his girlfriend. Sooo yeahhh that killed me a bit. Like ok you could have been a decent human and said hey I don't like you anymore so let's stop talking, because I found someone.

I stepped back completely then.. I kept him on everything and just slowly deleted him off of everything. A few weeks ago a video of his popped up, he ended up breaking up with that girl.. I kinda laughed, because karmaaaa! 🤷‍♀️

Angel came into my life at a really good time. It was right before the crap with this guy got really bad for my mental health. And just like his name he was an angel and saved me. 🥺💞

Back to work stuff... Ya know how I said my aunt is my boss? Yeah kinda sucks now... So my dad is the manager for the bowling alley in town. He hired my cousin, my aunts son. He's been slacking a lot.. Dad has tried talking to him a lotttt... Fought to get him a raise... And then the Monday after my dad's birthday he fired him. Because he went behind dads back to the GM.. What's the point of dad being manager if he's gonna go to the GM?? Some other stuff happened too that caused dad to finally fire him.

My aunt is a childish person... So of course when my dad tried to talk to her calmly when she was there with her bowling buddies... She blew up at him talking about this isn't my problem blah blah.. And some other stuff that is family stuff.. Don't wanna get into it.. Been dealing with that mentally too much...

So she's been acting annoyingly at work.. Some other reasons too, but it irritates me too much so not gonna get into it.

Back in September one of the CNAs on my Hall was making fun t-shirts for all of us to wear for Halloween in October. She asked me to come help her and just hang out.. She only had mine left to do, pay day was the following week.. So I assumed that we were gonna wait to wear them until I had mine done. Which awesome, I'm fine with waiting.. Get to work Tuesday.. And all of them are wearing their shirts... It crushed me, but I didn't say anything because I've never been like that. But my mom, the protector she is... Did say something to Chrissy (aunt/boss) and a CNA she's friends with.. She talked to her in confidence as friend and fellow mom... Well this girl went to the nursing boss about it... So boss lady chewed the nursing saffs butts about it...

Mind you. Two of the CNAs I've known most of my life.

I think it was the Friday that this happened... When I got back upstairs from break, the girl that did the shirts asked if I was upset about not having my shirt yet. I said yes, but once I thought about it I was fine with not having it yet because I'm the housekeeper and the youngest, and my shirt is a different picture... And then mom got upstairs too because the CNA that actually cared about me out of the two I know, she had asked for mom to come talk to her... Because she knows how I'd react about the situation..

Mom and her walked away and I was still talking to the shirt maker one.. Boss lady and the other one I've known forever both said idk why we have to deal with right now and in the middle of the hall... Um excuse me, this is how we always talk.. It's not my fault you guys don't do your job properly so you gotta race to do things when state is in the building... So I walked away crying...

This killed me a lot.... Then the CNA that is mean that I've known... She keeps singling me out and setting me up for crap...

Mind you, she started doing this the week my mom was puking her brains out.

Oh and another thing I'm gonna share with y'all finally... I still live with parents.. We all aren't in a rush for me to move out and I help with bills, which is why I wanted a job...

We didn't know what was wrong with her.. She couldn't stand up really without feeling dizzy and puking... So no work for her.. I was having to worry about helping get her stuff done plus my hall. So I was slacking a lot. Because my mom is never sick. So I was freaking out and struggling a lot... She ended up going to the doctors and found out she has verdigo.

And this woman decides to start doing this crap that week and telling my boss.. I'm gonna leave this and see how long it takes lotus to pick it up... Like wtffff???

So yeah this all has been straining on my mental health a lot... I'm finally slowly getting bsck to being better... I'm gonna be switching to deep cleaning soon.. I'm training the new girl. I'm hoping she won't freak out and quite. 🤞

~~~ two postive things again.. 🥰

First.. The thing that had helped me not be ashamed of being single all my life and have no romantic background at all... I found this audio erotica app called Quinn. They have Voice actors that do spicyyy audios. It's such a wide range of stuff on there. Very sex postive. And their social media team posts so amazingly with helping us understand the positivity that goes with sex. They have helped me a lot with being ok with how I am not having experience. And I follow a few of the ones I love.. And ahh they are so sweet and awesome.. Have helped a lot too. Also, Quinn is only $5 a month.. 👀👀

Second... I got my first tattoo!!!

The meaning ---- this is a mental health tattoo.🫶

no I didn't get the lotus out of cheesiness of it being my name. I got it because I love the symbolism of it. Lotus flowers grow through the mud. So I have always said; you have to push through the mud of life to blossom into the beautiful lotus flower you are.

The words. I have always said that to my friends and myself.. And ya know I don't really cuss unless I'm really mad and that is how I always type out that cuss word.

It is also in honnor the people we have lost to suicide. 💞 I've had some family friends, famous people I adore and just in general for people we've lost to it. 💞

It's still super weird I have one. I never thought I would be able to do it!! I'm so scared of pain, but this pain.. It hurt but not really.. My mom and I keep saying, it's the perfect pain that doesn't hurt like other pain. I so calm during it that my hand went cold from keeping it still.. 🙈🤣

I can't wait to get moreeeee!! 🤭🤭

Ok will post this with some tags and then reblog with tagging people and some more to write. 💞

#long ass post #what ive been up to #lil life update 💞 #hii everyone! #ive missed youuu 🥺

[bbina]

i’m so early omfg… I’M LITERALLY SQUEALING RN OMG 😩 okay but wonbin is being so loud about his undying love for y/n and i love it so much ☹️💗💗💗 like he doesn’t care about his audience, he will talk about how much he ADORES y/n and it’s so cute 😭 even y/n said to him “too much” LMAO 😩 wonbin is such a loser for y/n though, like he’s down BAD for her… omg another song that reminds me of ynbin is “loser lover” by txt 😭 BECAUSE LISTEN, yeonjun said that the meaning behind “loser lover” is wanting to be someone’s lover and to be each other’s saviour even if you have to appear to be like a loser in the eyes of the world… isn’t that so ynbin? like they’re dramatically in love with each other and would do ANYTHING to be with each other… and i just know that the boys think that they’re such losers in love, especially eunseok, they probably think that about wonbin more though… 😩 that’s their song idc, like i need a chapter where they’re both jamming to it whilst going on a long night drive, with the windows down and the night wind blowing their hair… their giggles and wonbin’s free hand resting on y/n’s thigh or something… oml 🤭 it’s also the type of song that wonbin can rock his guitar to with y/n just admiring him or screaming the lyrics 😩💗💗💗 anyways, this chapter was so fucking cute… like i love loser wonbin who’s so in love with y/n, and y/n who thinks loser wonbin is so silly but cute… “my idiot” shut up, do you want me to cry? wonbin is a certified y/n dier, like he’s the president of y/n’s love club 💗💗💗

- 🦌

he dgaf about anyone anymore now that yn is officially his 😭😭 hes so happy i cantttt . went from being a cool nonchalant mysterious to uncool, overreacting in love loser in just 119 seconds CRAZY

#mailbox #btl ask #★.mail: 🦌 anon

[boag]

I’m so deeply in love with this man I was talking to for a few months in 2022 before he sent me this long paragraph abt how he was grieving the loss of his mom and was also depressed over his ex and how he didn’t wanna lead me on anymore and how he was sure I would’ve been “the loveliest girlfriend ever” or smth but he just didn’t wanna get into a relationship with me when he was feeling that way and potentially end up hurting me . And now we’re like still friends but he’s literally spiraled so deep into alcoholism and his hours got cut back at work so he can’t afford to come to Philly and hang out w me anymore and he just always seems so sad and I literally have tried so hard to get over these feelings for him but I CANTTTT and all I wanna do is go back to like August-October when we would sit in my room and listen to the playlist we made together and make each other laugh uncontrollably and go for walks around my neighborhood with our arms linked and then go back to my house and fall asleep together and then i would wake up next to him and just smile so big bc I felt like the luckiest person in the world 😂💔

[imeverywoman420]

Im worried for you :( you deserve to be with people who appreciate you emily.

Of course i do but theyre not here. And id rather be with people that dont appreciate me than be alone. I mean ive been alone for so long i cant do the “id rather be by myself than with people that dont appreciate me” act anymore i just cantttt. Sometimes i think i might die from loneliness.

#ask

[itsmymindspeaking]

Okay I am a little late and just saw this and well I am pretty sure I am no longer on this planet :) I don’t know what breathing is anymore … yup nope can’t do that .. my spirit has left my body …

BUT LIKE SERIOUSLY WHATTTT THE HECKKKKKK AHHHHHHH OMG OK I WAS NOT EXPECTING THIS SHEEEEEESHHHHHH 🤤😫 I can’t just cantttt even speak !!! Ughhhh I can’t waitttttt 😭

Guys …… please what the heckkk DO YOU YALL SEEEEE THISSSSS HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GO ON WITH MY LIFE … lol

#mlqc #love and producer #mr love queen’s choice #mlqc cn

[biocatalysis]

My brain is literally stuck rn i hav my flight in 12 hours but i haven’t done my documents or packed idek if i will make it bc idk how I’m getting there buttt i cantttt gettttttt outttt offff myth beddd I hate myself so fuckin much Like it’s just not funny anymore

[mokkemusic]

CHIHAYAFURU MANGA (first time read live thread) moving this here to make sure I never lose it its memories! Just for myself and everything I have felt!

I only started recording my reactions at the bridge scene so thats why this is cut  like this. I do have a whole anime thread as well I want to save later.

And when I mean just for myself I mean it. If I have to add videos they will be with every reblog cause they are mine! I want to keep them😭 I had this thread on twitter first btw. But also kinda hope you don’t actually look so far down this cause if they are videos they will be me being hysterical over Taichi over Chihaya over everyone and no I won’t apologize you’ve been warned 😂 also again for anyone seeing this this was memories from my FIRST read through ok so like I may have been harsh to some characters or not understood things but these are my feelings I can’t stress that enough. Just let me archive this in peace ❤️ but feel free to look at it if you feel like you want some entertainment or listening to me cry (I know I am cringe I do NOT care) this series is everything to me. Ok now that the ground rules are covered we start with hysterics cause that’s the best way

OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG I NEED TO SCREAM TO SOMEONE If you know you know Like I knew but.. not not like THAT Wow I cantttt (Now for context later I was hysterical crying in my room at 3am because I am referring to the BRIDGE SCENE)

How is this manga so damn powerful

*gonna run into a walllll* I’ll be a - aghhhhh ahhh

I’m going to sleep so starting volume 28 is gonna have to wait. But the first chapter art Chillaxin?! This man is the opposite of Chillaxin (but I love that he’s smiling bright)

CHIHAYA !!! Cold hard.. heavy?

DR HARADA I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

How could anyone even think it was anyone else… Chihaya in this state I-

I’m really starting to love this guy And oh yea this poem isn’t relevant no

HIRO !! I screamed I actually screamed I love him - see this is what I’m saying every character here you just they make me so happy BUT ALSO DONT ASK CHIHAYA WERE TAICHI IS!  I love you Hiro but noo

aasfhvnbmb I’m ROLLING ON THE FLOOR …Dana you can’t do this for every panel I CAN AND I WILL DAMMIT HER FACE!

You see you see this is why I held off reading   Asfhghgjgjhjnkkjchjkjhjjl *wheres the brick wall I gotta throw myself at it again*

Nooo that’s the one that’s the one that’s the one ..

How did I get to love Sumire so much. Have so much respect for her. She’s grown so much

Oh Chihaya my baby you left a legacy tho… it will continue after your gone but… oh oh And Kanade’s face too “That’s not true anymore” PLEASE STOPPP

SUDO SUDOS HERE!!!! SUDOS HERE!!! Buttt I gotta say I went from that to saying SUDO HOW COULD YOU I THOUGHT YOU WERE ROOTIN- Well you are sadistic after all BUT I know deep down you care. Your pressing buttons to see the react Is Chihaya’s breaking heart react for you enough

I still love you tho Sudo I still love you 

We gotta take a moment to listen to the incredible anime ost to get all the feels before continuing I need that score music Ingrained in my SOUL (not that it already wasn’t) This one I found is on loop spectacular 

I hate it here Yea yea don’t you feel bad now Sudo 

WHAT??!! Um .. I’m sorry what? Why do I feel like I’m gonna start crying next ch

THIS IS TOO MUCH ITS TOO MUCH

So Chihaya starts playing like Taichi even though Arata is who she looks up to in the world of Karuta we can start to see how Chihaya looks to how Taichi plays how he’s the pillar for guidance Not the expression on his mothers face too. I can’t

AADGVJK THIS WHOLE EXCHANGE 

Hiro keeps texting Taichi ! I love you Hiro

I just made an audio reaction to seeing Taichi again and I don’t know if I should share this but you know what? I’ll regret my foolery later I definitely will but rn I have no fear and I’m emotional so! 

I’m just happy to see his face no what ok 🤧🤧  

Is his hearing getting better? Is his game sense getting better?

OH MY GODDDDDD But you know why YOU KNOW WHY 😭 “…Yea Your right.”

Ok I’m sincerely convinced this manga just wants to kill me. In every aspect I’ve come to this conclusion in this moment

Hiro 🥺

ASDGHJK the Sudo fan I mean I can’t blame em 😂

Pls I can’t I can’t I can’t

I could go into whole thing of how now Taichi is inspiring her. She’s not idolizing him. But his little things are actually a huge thing how it’s inspiring her to be better not just for herself but to help the rest but I need to keep reading so later 

Rip my heart out why don’t you Chihaya it’s not -

I wanted the 5 of us … 🥹 *im not about to breakdown I’m not*

She…she sends the poem The last card that was read was “Se” “A mighty boulder in a stream Divides the foaming flow; But reunited, on it goes, and so we will we, I know.”

I need to put together a compilation of how everyone asks “where’s Taichi?” But they only say it to Chihaya and how Chihaya looks like her hearts ripped out  whenever it happens. Cause you know that’d be fun right? 

UPDATE AND THEN I DID 🙂🥲 EDIT HERE

ADFGJKASDH THATS CHIHAYA ISNT IT? THATS CHIHAYA

Not coach crying and praying to the shrine for Chihaya Oh I love her so much

Sudo appreciation time 👌🏻 cause it’s very important 🤧🤧👌🏻👌🏻 I love this man! His face brings me so much joy

WHY … WHY?! WOULD YOU DO THIS TO HIRO (this is the most disrespectful thing) CAN’T YOU GIVE THIS MAN A BREAK?!😭😭 VS ARATA?! He doesn’t have a chance he’s gonna be flattened in 5 secs 😭🤧 And he’s actually doing it to help his team 🤧👌🏻

I really need to stop doing this I really need to stop embarrassing myself 

I love how the others are just like AYASE?? OUT OF EVERYONE AYASE?! WTF MASHIMA 😂 🤧 They don’t understanddd

IM HAVING SO MANY EMOTIONSSSSS

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!! I MEAN I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I GET IT I DONT BLAME ANYONE I KNOW I KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE! He’s just saying he wants her to want him. It’s a human emotion that’s not a wrong thing to FEEL! MY SOUL IS BEINH SQUISHED

I HAVE TO GO BACK TO THE MATCH AFTER THIS?! It’s fine it’s fine

*where’s that brick wall my old friend … I’m throwing… hurtling my body at you*

I KNEW IT I F KNEW IT!

The fact that he has the call with his mom🥺 And his talk with Suou! And and Taichi please come please come watch 🥹🥹

God I love this series so much 

Wtf That - that I wasn’t expecting.

[its-inevitable-lupe]

love someone like you will I… the writing…. The holding back… just obsess… lost… confused.. done with it…we many peoplebyt I didn’t try and came back.. butttttt i didn’t much show love or made it easY to u so why would u be stuck or think of me……. Years and U know downnmnnn downnnnn down maybe there is a maybe……. But i stuck because now I know that I would Do more good…………….. r u happy of me n my changed… why couldn’t u stay with me as u promise me… but otgersss better or more n cantttt compare.. yu rather not kiss sleep miss or feeeel me and be ok witg not knowing the what if but maybe but I can see and alll but ur afraid of the truthhhh no I’m stupid buttt remember I neverrrr fantasy being w u of futurares just u …and I seen youuuuu all and the bad n just in love of someone I lost memory t o so my mind just knows what could of.. BuT happyyt u don’t cry or cry of me or cry the love u have of me anymore.. so u need to be happy and love love love looooooooooooooooooovvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee you how I love u… better unconditional conditional right wrong mistakes r human but no one will like I do bc I seen uuuuuuu more I seen your lows ur secrets…. Ur worst ur best but not ur best like now but I still wanted u when u hated me tired of because you loved me in my worst anyone willll ever ever see u love d me and that is all but I was stupid abdhh lost it and I never fix it because I have so mychf prideeee egoooo a narcissisttt u can be one like meee:)(((() I lie to u and all n I didn’t want you but truth is others r comfort and erase u but u never give me oneeeeeee chance… I behave goooddddd

Butttt I really really reaallllyyyyy wanted u but I played so hard n wasntgg ready sorry lil me n lil you…. We deserved betterrrr love

[everydayzefron]

Sorry anon but I really don't think Zac would rent his house out randomly like that. Think we've gotta accept there is something there. Gym together, wearing his clothes, staying at his house...

Okay, guys these Sara asks are starting to get real tiring. I can’t. I think I’m official going to close the door on anything related to Sara on this blog very soon at one point until there’s actual confirmation they’re dating and when there is, I will gladly post about her then. As for now, I don’t think taking a photo of someones mug or taking a photo in someone’s living room is justification that two people are dating either.

Let’s be realistic here because I’m popping off - I think it’s real bad of us (including me, I don’t like digging into his personal life, though because I am participating in these discussions, that means I’m 100% guilty of it which is wrong.) It’s not fair to him, or to her. I rather talk about his career and him that was the reason for this blog, showing off his talents as an actor and gushing about him due to his craft. His personal isn’t what I care about.

As for the dating speculation. Come on, let’s be realistic here. Just because you’re staying at someone’s house, doesn’t mean you’re dating. LA rentals are expensive. If you literally want a decent place in LA, you’re paying $2,000 monthly for a tiny sqft 1-bedroom meh apartment in an average (not the best) area in LA. A tiny townhome rental in LA that’s decent is $6,600-$8,000 a month for probably less then 1,000 sqft.

From what I hear from everyone DMing me about her - she has a Denmark rental. So, I don’t see why she would ever drop a lot of money down to rent out in LA, if she’s only in LA temporarily.

Now since he went to Mexico. Who doesn’t bring their girlfriend on a trip? Doesn’t matter if “she’s training” she would’ve flew in and joined them after, if anything. She didn’t come to Sundance with him while he brought along several people. She wasn’t training either - so, again, what guy doesn’t bring his girlfriend, especially to an event like that?

They met in late Nov from what I heard, so it just makes no sense for them to be “dating” and then, officially moving in when A) she has an apt in Denmark and lives there, not LA. B) no relationship has their partner moving in that quickly. Even Sami didn’t “move in” with Zac. Nor Vanessa after 5-years of dating.

She’s most likely his friend, and what confirms friendship is, “chat about Z” which screams to me that she has a crush on him which is what the trainer is hinting, if she was his girlfriend, there wouldn’t be the “chat about Z” remark.

Zac is a sweetheart, he probably just offered to let her stay with him temporarily just like how Dylan was living with him for awhile. Also, if they were ‘friends with benefits’ no guy has his FWB living with him either - so, it’s clearly obvious they’re just friends.

To top it all off, he was spotted in December out with a girl that was said to be his friend at some regular theater while Sara was in DM, if you think he was dating Sara, then no way would he be out with a chick while she’s gone. Nope. I don’t think they’re dating at all.

#Sorry for the big rant #I just cantttt anymore #its pointless #were better than that #and sorry if im coming off as rude