#I have rarely been so moved

[ecoqueer]

I wish that people gave a shit about nonbinary people who don’t use they/them pronouns. You can literally give your friend group (which includes another nonbinary person) a list of your favorite pronouns, none of which include they/them, and mention several times that you don’t like they/them pronouns for yourself, but they’ll make the switch from she/her pronouns to…they/them. And feel super proud of themselves for being sooo progressive as to use they/them pronouns for you….when those aren’t your pronouns.

I think that saying “he she and they are my least favorite but are fine in combination with other things…I’m really fine with any neos but here’s a list of my faves that you can choose from!” Is polite and not a difficult request. I’m not good at being a pushy person, and I shouldn’t need to be.

#it screams #i guess I’ll pull the lists out again and re-link them #but the aforementioned friends view messages from me as a chore and check them rarely so when they do they’ve built up and so just skim #everything #which I’m fucking tired of #I’ve been going back and forth on whether it’s better to have no friends or a few friends who make you feel shitty #dunno which is worse #they also are extremely cavalier with covid while knowing I have no health insurance #and have supported some statements/actions that really make me sad #so idk I might be basically friendless at this point #i hold on for too long to people who have clearly moved on and don’t much care about being my friend anymore #I’ve tried reaching out a few times to no avail so idk I might just give up #try to cultivate online relationships more #which feels pretty impossible to me #sigh #I’ve been not able to sleep well #because of issues in my life with…all of the few people in it #issues that could be solved if I had kept a wider support network #instead of getting trapped with someone who was abusing me and my friends who don’t seem to give a shit about that and expressed more #concern for him than for me when the news was revealed to them #again I don’t have health insurance so no therapist #which I fucking desperately need right now #i have no one separate to talk to #the one who knows all of the different factors from all of the angles…is the abuser #i feel like I’m in so much fucking pain and I feel so alone and all of the people in my life who are supposed to be my loved ones #are standing around me ignoring me completely and acting like everything is okay #just causing me more and more pain #well this didn’t start out intended as a vent but it sure turned into one huh #i wish I could convey to y’all the desperation and loneliness and aching that I feel #vent

[destinationtoast]

Well, it's been a hell of a couple of weeks, and one of many things that happened is that I ended up coming home from Urgent Care looking rather like fruit being packed up for long distance shipping.

I got pretty scraped up when I fell while hiking nearly a month ago. Then I got significantly better... and then I got a whole lot worse.

If you would like to avoid some truly disgusting and painful wounds, you should know that you are likely to develop an allergy to Neosporin if you use it for multiple weeks (and probably the same goes for other brands of over-the-counter antibiotic ointments, I'm guessing).

#in better news #my parents and I successfully moved my grandmother to a retirement home #where she's been on the waiting list for over a year #there's lots left to do still but great progress #and it was hard but went well #and i got my parents each to sign up for some big health treatments they need but have been avoiding thinking about #and i tested positive for covid but it turned out to be a rare false positive #(though that cost us some time with the move while i isolated until i got PCR results) #so yeah overall a hell of a week and a half #also my parents and i rewatched S1 of Ted Lasso #and they were like #'you sure know a lot about this show' #XD #toasty life #contact dermatitis #neosporin allergy #i might be a fruit well-packaged for shipping #op #50

[yuri-for-businesswomen]

i dont think regular people can grasp how isolating it is to be that person who is always single in a society and environment where people are always dating, and dating is so culturally relevant. all my friends have had longterm/serious relationships and even when theyre single they are usually seeing someone. im seeing someone maybe 2 months a year on average but im „true single“ most of the time and dont really get into relationships at all. and its always been this way.

and with age and thanks to getting more into feminism i know that my selfworth and value as a person does not rely on dating. in fact most relationships i see are dysfunctional or with men i would not want to be with (im saying men because they are usually the problem, but also because most men are just unattractive on top). and i think that promoting to women that being single is okay and good actually is really important. that you can very much be happy without a relationship.

nonetheless there is of course the human need for affection, a longing for romantic/sexual companionship (i know some people dont have that and it doesnt make them less human but i think its normal human desire that cant be unconditioned, and i dont even think that should be the goal). and you can barely protect yourself from sociocultural messaging which is additionally enforcing it. even if you rationally know that there is nothing wrong with being single, especially as a woman its difficult to shake this feeling of being a failure. always seeing your friends go through the motions while you remain the same. etc

anyways im really vulnerable right now if any insane women want to take advantage of me…

#personal #how do they even meet all these people who are mutually interested in them? #especially now that im not doing one night stands and casual hookups just for the sex anymore im moving towards restoring my virginity #and im a really rare case too because my ‚body count‘ is way above average (not counting prostitution for obvious reasons) #but ive more or less always been single #i dont want the people who want me and with the people i want it never works out #and i know it doesnt help im mentally ill and sexually and otherwise traumatised and loud and annoying and harsh but i swear im such a #loving and caring person to the people close to me and i have so much love to give #and it only happened recently i decided i actually want a relationship i was always very anti relationship #my friends are shocked about my change of heart! but alas my life carries on as it was

[savrenim]

gods at least besides everything else that has been going So Wrong, Suzy has been doing so SO much better

#my life #my cats #she's more energetic than she's been in at least a full year #like I would have gladly taken 'improved since the hospital to pre hospital levels and better bloodwork' #but she's excitedly hanging out looking out windows #and runs up and down the stairs again #and she's been jumping up onto the table a BUNCH from the floor even #she'd been using the drawers to jump over when she did go up which was way more rare #she does a little dance when she trots around sometimes #like I can't believe I didn't notice she wasn't doing all this before #I just thought she was a bit sleepier in the winter time #and/or adjusting to the move less than ideally #but no we didn't just Save Her Life and are helping Prolong It A Lot with meds #it's clearly Improved The Quality So Much #and I'm so glad we were able to do that for her at least

[itachanta]

Me with most fics and books: I'm just gonna wait till it's completed to start reading it. If not, I'll probably forget to continue it / lose interest.

Me with Trigun Vashmeryl fics: STARTING EVERYTHING I DON'T CARE I WILL RE-READ THEM A MILLION KNIVES TIMES UNTIL THEY ARE COMPLETED *screeching*

#trigun #trigun stampede #vashmeryl #they make me so feral damn #i wasnt this obsessed with a ship since my teen years #like i looove romance and consume a lot of it #but i dont really ship anything outside the genre #too many toxic ship drama in my past #*shudders* #i only have a few exceptions #this is rare for me #i also lowkey ship mashwood #or just anything that has my girl meryl in the equation #and VW is sexy af #but VM has my whole heart #they have me on a chokehold #im a sucker for their dynamic #i thought it was going to be something casual #and i'd move on fast #but im just falling deeper and it's been already a month

[catzgam3rz]

The Jimmy Solidarity blog that I rp with is a deepdark mooshroom hybrid with tiny little wings and that concept seems like something you'd enjoy (deepdark mooshroom+ u like moobloom him n all)

Right on the money with that dear anon >:D! This is a little Deep Dark Mooshroom concept I doodled a couple days ago! I'm planning on using it for Red Dlsmp Jimmy!

#rambles #my art #answered asks #minecraft #mcyt #mooshroom #deep dark #mineblr #to the jimmy rper mentioned you are so cool for making him a deepdark mooshroom I love you #also drawing skulk is the work but I think this gets the idea across well enough #rambles about the cow concepts ahead you've been warned #that is indeed a skulk shrieker on its back they are like moving alarms #idk concept wise I think they'd probably be attracted to sound but not make any themselves. theyre also not hostile themselves #i feel like they would have a rare chance of spawning in the deep dark and a slightly higher chance when killing a cow near a catalyst #but they'd only have like 1-2 hearts due to that they are concept wise literally kept alive by skulk #also maybe they could be healed? i like that idea. put a saddle or smthn on it to block the skulk shrieker lol

[planet4546b]

had a dream last night that i had to fight sephiroth in the gym i coach in and when my students wouldn’t listen to me and leave the gym (so i could fight sephiroth) i threatened to just leave and sic him (sephiroth) on them. this likely says nothing about my feelings on that job

#pers #it’s SO FUNNY bc i dream very rarely and the last few have been very mundane (stressed ina supermarket and having to move) #so i woke up and was like man another weirdly mundane dream how strange. WAIT . SEPHIROTH WAS THERE???????

[moeblob]

I remember one time on discord someone joined and I posted art in the art channel and she was like “oh you’re a fan of moeblob?” and I’m like. “I... I am moeblob” and then she was just so shocked she met the person behind the rare pairs and asked my opinions on a particular one. I remember a time on twitter someone made a tweet about “why does no one discuss Ferdinand/Felix” and someone replied like “there is a lone artist out there making content for them actually” and @ me.

Can I just retire and be known as the artist who draws everyone with freckles for Engage. It would draw far less attention probably (good! I’m shy!) and honestly is very pleasing to indulge in.

#moe talks a lot #can i have a freckle legacy can i just draw everyone from engage with freckles every time i draw them #can i do that?? is that allowed??? cause so many designs are already so good but what if Freckles..... #also im ngl while the attention for rare pairs has been like 99% positive I'm a little scared to draw ships for engage #i dont know if i wanna go through my rare pair legacy again #looks at my OG son and someone who doesn't have a support chain with him YET talks about him in another support chain #also this is possibly weird??? but like ? i see a unit in engage and immediately go into adoption mode #so as i am playing and stuff they are all my children so it feels a little weird to think of my kids romantically rn #i might move past that eventually but at this point in time i just find them all to be such good kids no matter the age #they are babies your honor and i will protect them

[neitherabaron]

I think this might be the single best idea for a TV show I’ve ever read anywhere 🥲

#goofy #goof troop #a goofy movie #this is all super cute with goofy who’s been there before with parenting anxiety #supporting max as he confronts his own worries about becoming a dad #but the idea of pete presumably being kicked out by his wife #and having to move in with the person he hates most in the world #(who happens to also be his only friend) #just takes the cake. #I want this show to be real so badly #also! showing iconic long-running characters age is so rarely done #I think execs/writers are afraid to do it but it’s one of my favourite things to see #cf my posts about the muppets growing old which they’ve gently explored in recent years

[genspiel]

...so, we know that decim got his job after the 15th floor was vacated by quin. but. was there a previous arbiter of viginti??? who were they and where tf are they now??? i'm-

#tre watches #death parade #decim #quin #ginti #...would their name have been “vi”? #sounds alright until you realize that by the japanese pronunciation of viginti their name would probably be pronounced like “whee” #(because in latin (which is where the names are from) all v's are basically u's etc.) #maybe that's why they didn't show them lol. quin is a much better name #incidentally this is basically the same reason i hope nobody ever puts their poor arbiter oc on the sixth floor #please don't do it #especially if you're creating for an english-speaking audience #do your oc a kindness and put them on some other floor skfkhdh they've already gotta deal with dead people #don't make their life(?) even harder for them #...now that i'm saying this it could actually kind of work for a crack fic or something lmao. but. yeah. |D #going back to the original point though i was under the impression that quin's situation with being moved was more or less unique/very rare #so like... what happened to make there be two openings at the same time lol that's all i wanna know #grabby hands at all of this show's hidden lore forever tbh

[quicktimeeventfull]

shogatsu in death note

the winter holiday season is coming up so i thought i'd pull out some of the new years references in death note.

new years (shogatsu) is the big japanese festival. it originally took place according to the lunisolar calendar, but was moved to january 1st during the meiji restoration. it's a family holiday and has many shinto elements. it's a good time for change, refreshment, and casting off of old things.

preparation

year-end cleaning is basically what it sounds like -- it's a major cleaning you do before the new years. it makes sure your household is ready for the new year, because it's better not to have the mess of the old year hanging around. you want to start the year off unburdened. traditionally, it also welcomes kami to a clean house. (lucky ryuk!) traditionally, sachiko would also be preparing osechi (traditional auspicious foods) for new years day, although these days you can also buy these and/or pay for services to prepare the entire array for you. you can also buy some and make others. they're very fiddly and time-consuming to make, so this has to be done in advance.

new years eve

lots of television channels run specials for new years eve. it's not technically part of shogatsu, but it's part of the holidays for many people. sayu is watching death note's version of the red-and-white song contest. this is an nhk program, and it's the more traditional of the two choices. pop singers are divided into two teams, red and white, which compete against one another. it's a really big deal! the fact that misa was invited onto it means she's doing well. here's a colour picture of the stage from the second arc. the sun is there because of kira's influence. otherwise, that's pretty much what the stage looks like in real life.

light is watching the annual mma fight. the sapp-akebono fight was a real and highly anticipated fight between bob sapp and taro akebono. ryuk isn't the only one surprised by the outcome -- akebono was (shockingly!) knocked out in the first round.

new years day

new years day is the big celebration! soichiro missing it is somewhat similar to him missing christmas. sayu is right to be annoyed by this.

you get together and eat osechi -- traditional foods that represent and create various forms of good luck for the upcoming year. they're generally served in special laquered boxes. light would probably want to pay the most attention to the shrimp, which help with a long life, but since that's clearly not going to happen he should perhaps focus on the kuromame, which give you good health. (they also sometimes have gold leaf on them, which is pretty.)

mentioned in the four-panel comics, mochi soup (ozoni) is eaten alongside the osechi. the yagamis would probably be eating kanto style, which is a clear miso with bonito dashi and shoyu. a mirror cake is a common new year's decoration, often placed on a household shinto shrine or a decorated alcove called a toko. (this looks like a toko.) it traditionally has an orange on it. you can eat it eventually, generally during kagami biraki on january 11th.

you would also receive new years cards! light is presumably joking here -- this exchange happens on january 8th, so it is in fact much too late. yamamoto's making this sound like there's some romantic element involved, but you would send them to pretty much anyone (friends, family etc.) as long as no one in their household has died that year.

children are also given otoshidama, gift money in decorated paper envelopes. this is similar to chinese red envelopes. your children can then use this money to buy tiny tvs to kill people with. there are no specific rules, but ¥5,000, or $50, would be somewhat standard (per envelope) for a high school student like light. anyway, those are some elements of shogatsu! ohba and obata seem to like it, because a lot of things in death note (ex. all of this, the warehouse scene) happen roughly around this time. it's a fun holiday, and a good way to start off the new year!

#death note #i have very rarely seen shogatsu in anime/manga and im willing to bet its because of two things #a) unlikely to move the plot along #b) artists would have to draw all the osechi #i grouped the four panel comics together so tumblr wouldnt resize them in a horrific way dfgdfg but the mirror cake isn't strictly for #the actual day of new years #not sure if the yagamis have a household shrine but they do have a whole kami (ryuk) living there so maybe it would be redundant anyway #(there are also traditional reasons to do the osechi in advance but its physically impossible anyway) #also light & sayu are being ridiculous ftr fhjddnt this is even more silly than if she’d been asking for help w/ everyday cleaning

[sab-teraa]

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#This world is soooo fucked up #The fact that my brother is being bullied for his disability … AGAIN 💔💔💔💔 #We were really hoping something with change in college #But the guy who was in his previous school (not the recent one bc we moved him) is also in the college and is apparently making his life he #I literally burst out into tears in public … bc it just doesn’t stop yk. people are so fucking cruel I can’t deal #Like no matter what he tries to do … people like THEM exist and make his life so hard #And it’s so shitty bc he already gets soooo much slack from our extended family for his disability … if anything it’s only now they #Understand such stuff and have become more kind #But his age mates have always been so fucking shitty … well not all of them … there’s always that one group #And it’s crazy bc he is not the only disabled kid they attacked … there were multiple. I’m soooooo sick of this #and their parents are disgusting bc they protect them #And teachers rarely do a single thing

[dandylovesturtles]

What's your favorite detail about your AU that you don't think people have picked up on, or your just want more attention on?

uhhh you know? we're close to the end now and I'm not really sure how to answer this hahah... I feel like most things people have already picked up on

I've said we're in the climax now and technically we are, but the emotional peak of the fic really happened in chapter 13. all the lessons have been learned, all the cards have been revealed, all the pieces are in place. all that's left is to see if Leo will remember them all or not

I know this probably isn't a satisfying answer but I'm so no thoughts head empty when it comes to imbi at this point. I mean I have to write the conclusion for you guys but in my head we're already at the end and the rock has been thoroughly turned over

this is the worst response I could have given haha sorry but thank you for the ask, anon

#fic: i may be invisible but i still look good #I have weirdly hit a point of nostalgia with IMBI even though it's not even over alsfka;sld #like I'm so eager for it to be done so I can move on to the next thing #but like at the same time I'm gonna miss it when it's gone #I get this way every time I get to the end of a video game and this is why I rarely finish them aldsfja;sldjf; #BUT I'M GOING TO FINISH IMBI DON'T WORRY #I have been working on the next chapter #part of it is written #please don't take what I'm saying to mean it's abandoned ffft

[sonknuxadow]

god im so sorry about the situation with your sonic and tails art its always so scary when your content gets shared around and repurposed for something bad or gross. your art is fantastic! i hope your stress thins out soon

i was really freaked out when i saw it and still kind of am but thankfully it could have been much worse considering all the reposters apologized and took it down without me having to fight too hard about it (though theyre still weird as hell for doing that in the first place dont get me wrong. why are you treating my normal platonic art of brothers hugging as romantic. why are you viewing their relationship that way at all. gross).. hopefully it wont happen again

#im also just not used to having to deal with stuff like this #i always just assumed that my art isnt good enouhg for people to want to repost it or that im not popular enough #and on the rare occasion i do run into reposts its usually just a very low effort joke drawing that i dont feel like arguing about #this is the first time ive seen an actual serious drawing of mine reposted without credit like that #though the son/tails part definitely made me way more upset about it than i would have been if it was just a typical repost #i dont know if its a good thing or a bad thing that they didnt credit me. on one hand thats art theft and art theft is bad #on the other. if my url was attached to it that could have misled people into thinking im a so/ntails artist #and i definitely dont want that happening #asks #full context is that they took the art and saved it adn reposted it labeling it as ship art to other sites/communities #dedicated to stuff like so/ntails and sexualizing tails and weird stuff like that #they didnt just reblog the original post and tag it as ship or something #if it was just a reblog i would have blocked them and moved on

[baejax-the-great]

So the one reason to go to Arkansas is to drive through a town named "Flippin," where everything sounds like a euphemism. Flippin Fire Dept. Flippin School. Flippin Police. Etc.

While that does sound charming, I don't know that justifies a trip to Arkansas

#when I was considering moving to georgia #a place I had not been yet #I was at this hole in the wall thai restaurant with a friend #and the tables were soooo close together #and there was a couple next to us #and the one boyfriend was just like hissing that he was NOT going to move to Arkansas #he didn't care HOW good his bf's job offer was #he was NOT GOING #he could get a job ANYWHERE ELSE #and while GA is not quite on the same level as Arkansas I was like gosh that is what i'm feeling right now #it's soooo far south #anyway I did move to GA and it was fine #although that feels disingenuous #I very rarely left the city and in the city I very rarely met anyone who was actually FROM GA #this one time I stopped for gas in what is apparently a small shitty town #and I'm white but apparently I was OBVIOUSLY not from around there #because there were like five old men sitting at the bar of the little gas station restaurant #who stopped talking when I walked in and just... watched me #as I bought a snack for the road and asked where the bathroom was #just silently disapprovingly watching this outsider... utilize a gas station #the girl working the register seemed apologetic #when i went back out to my car I could see all them watching me from the window #so I do think there are parts of GA that straight up suck #and had I been a different race I think my safety would have been in question that day #but Atlanta was fine for the most part #weirdly full of people from Chicago

[paris-geller-was-straightwashed]

'I just don't believe in/understand it!' well unfortunately for you I just don't stop existing as an agender person bc you don't believe in it. I'm not fucking tinkerbell.

#vent post #transphobia #let's play a game where we guess if my mom can ever learn to apologize when she did something wrong on accident #and that answer is rarely if ever #a lot of this isn't going to make sense #so just ignore me #also class move from my mom in response to being told she was (potentially) misgendering to RANDOMLY BRING IN MY FATHER WHO I'VE BEEN TOO #SCARED TO EVEN COME OUT TO YET #LIKE NO I HAVEN'T BROUGHT THIS UP WITH DAD AND YOU FUCKING KNOW WHY #BUT THANKS FOR BRINGING HIM INTO THE CONVERSATION I GUESS THAT WAS SUPER RELEVANT #maybe I messed up but so fucking did you #confronted her in the most neutral and nicest way I could bc I KNEW she wasn't misgendering on purpose and so I SAID THAT #and /I/ get called TOO SENSITIVE when asking them too be a bit more careful #I'm not asking for tHE FUCKING MOON HERE I'm asking you to LEARN TO CORRECT YOURSELF WHEN MESSING UP #and I keep fucking saying sorry why do I DO this the second there's friction #I just start apologizing for her and saying I never meant to cause harm I can never stick to my guns when I feel someone's mad at me #especially someone I'm close to why am I LIKE this #this happened the last time we argued and then I feel bad and she gets off scott free #this sounds one-sided but to be fair I did make a misunderstanding #but I still get called ''''too sensitive''''' while holding no accountability #I was APPROACHABLE and NEUTRAL in bringing it up so we could HAVE A CONVERSATION LIKE ADULTS #and yet STILL ASKING FOR TOO MUCH and get the cold shoulder #I knew she was mad from the first text #this shifts lines a little for me #misgendering #tw transphobia