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[chromakill-mp3]

Okay i know its april fools day but I for real lost my job and like actually do need comms more to make up for the time I can't work cause I was fired for my CFS so yeah uh support is helpful thank youu

K0fi on my pinned

#i don't know what to tag this with

[bakfoo]

Dev Diary: A different type of writer's block.

Ayumi was designed as a homage to my time doing blue-collar work. Someone who was (and is) currently going through the ringer. Strong despite being marred by tough times. A little preview of what her son would grow up to be.

Around this time last year in 2022, I saw the papers for a tumor on my mom's bedside table when I was walking around the house.

She never brought it up. I had to confront her about it that year. Throughout 2022, she said it was "a complication." Never once did she say that it was a tumor, just some complication in one of her arms. She downplayed it, saying it was benign and wouldn't say anything else about it for the rest of the year for the entirety of 2023.

Bit of a spoiler, but Ayumi loves her son and husband a lot. However, she views herself as the one thing keeping her family afloat. It's a lot of responsibility, which can prove to be a source of strain and dishonest communication. A toxic mentality of shouldering burdens with an "It's fine. I'm fine" mentality.

I came back to family for Christmas in 2023. After a year of silence about the situation, I came home to realize that that my mom can't use her right arm for (almost) anything. Doctors say the op to get rid of it is too risky. It's too ingrained in the spinal cord. Throughout the entire year, it's steadily gotten worse and my mom kept it from me. She can't play the piano anymore.

Suddenly, I couldn't put pen to tablet. Ayumi's story started to turn into something else. It became too real.

Before, I was writing about my own experience of feeling the pressure for providing for someone who is disabled. She was a representation of the unhealthy "don't worry, it's nothing" mentality I have when I have too much to carry. Not wanting to burden my partner when they've got so much to deal with already.

But now my mom's doing it. The same thing. "Let's not tell our son how bad this is because we don't want to burden him."

"Don't worry, it's nothing."

My mom isn't some larger-than-life character. No stories of grandieur, no big muscles, no gung-ho mentality. She's just a piano teacher who is getting smaller and more frail by the year. No longer filling the mornings or evenings with music.

This house is too quiet.

#I don't know what to tag this with #But it's heavy #But I need to get my thoughts in order #This might be a bit too personal but I want to talk about it #Might delete this later #I don't know #It's too quiet

[teainthesnow]

thanks to the amazing @/wraenata for the design help I now have a sona and am immediately joining in the apocalypse sona train cajskamlwkwm

#owl fox with shiny rowlet colours #I don't know what to tag this with #tarts&crafts #my art

[circus-clownn]

i turned them into a magician instead of a clown because I think that's funner

#happy tree friends #htf #self insert #oc #htf sona #dizzy htf #I don't know what to tag this with #fawns drawings

[amphiptere-art]

I've been making this side plot of a beast like Sun, Moon and eclipse. Just so I can go to sleep. And I think I've developed it enough to maybe mention it.

There is a Eclipse. He is basically an alien that was rescued into a rescue, because his species is on the end of the line. The rescue already had Sun and Moon. And so they are hoping to get them all honey buddy. But that's kind of a side plot. Remember this is for sleeping.

Basically Sun and Moon are super fluffy. All these alien guys are super fluffy. There supposed to be fluffy. Eclipse isn't fluffy. He is a short hair or something. And so he gets super super cold at night. But he's too scared of his new environment to seek comfort. So Sun and Moon have to keep finding him and cuddling around him so he can go to sleep.

And that's like the anticipice of it. And like I said it's just a little story thing to get me to go to bed. I guess the other thing is that when they all feed. Eclipse will take single items from the feeding tray and then run off to hide in the bushes and eat. And so sun and moon basically eat, and then slowly inch forward to see how close they can get to eclipse. In which always stopped when eclipse was done eating or noticed them.

I really got to draw these designs. Because they're really cute in my head. Little fluffy guys. Idk. I may as well share it.

#dream eclipse #I don't know what to tag this with #sams #tsams #tsams au #sams au

[chip-potato]

You know how someone put a bunch of baseball players' faces together in one image and that produced the average baseball player face?

Someone should do that but with different classes of animal. Like what's the statistical average of all furry four-legged animals? Who is John Fish? That sort of thing.

#animals #i don't know what to tag this with

[73chn1c0l0rr3v3l]

what if i decided to tackle ace's mommy issues by way of having her younger self tell her older self that her older self looks like their mum

#doctor who #i don't know what to tag this with

[maridoodles]

💖 sending you good vibes 🌷

etsy | twitter | instagram  

#my art #kawaii #original #sticker art #i don't know what to tag this with #cute art #kawaii art

[arip8228]

Just realized I haven't posted in over a week 😅

Hey yall I'm working on some writing stuff atm. Should get something out soon. In the meantime I'll try to post more because I've kind of been neglecting Tumblr.

#I don't know what to tag this with #Ummmm #Yeah

[melonpond]

#melon rambles #I don't know what to tag this with #lgbtq+ #<- I guess because I'm mostly wondering how queer married people handle it #but anyone is welcome to answer

[ghastspidergwen]

quick question:

what the frick does the calculator have a privacy policy?

#I don't know what to tag this with #gsg rambles #gsg worries about how our society is getting more and more invasive and the increasing lack of privacy

[utaoutauhito]

to this day I still think and want to talk about cat fic, so today I’m going to talk about this passage a little

The fact that Meng Yao is attending law school during the course of cat fic is established since the first chapter, but isn’t relevant to the main thrust of the story, so it only really comes up in passing. Because of this, even I as the writer was mostly focusing on other things, so I was slightly caught off guard when I hit this point by how much vitriol Meng Yao has about being back in school.

Right up until he got kicked out of the force, despite also being bullied and singled out in other areas like being poor, this Meng Yao has always exceled, and always been acknowledged as someone at the top of his peers. This was true in compulsory schooling, it was true in his extra credit programs, it was true at the police academy, and it was true in the police. But starting law school at this point in his life, he’d attending comparatively late, potentially even ten years older than the majority of his classmates. As someone who has a history of skipping steps and years, getting fast promotions, and being viewed as a young prodigy, it’s the first time he’s in a position where people look at him and automatically assume him to be behind. Even having top grades can be viewed as a given because he should have a head start anyway. God forbid if some kid really did better grades than him or the mortification would kill him before his poor sleep patterns finally can.

That’s a sizable blow to his ego all on its own, and then it’s just compounded by the fact that he was so genuinely fulfilled by what he was doing before. The core conceit of cat fic!Meng Yao’s character is truly that he wants to have the power to enact concrete changes in the world, and be acknowledged for them; he wants to cure illnesses, he wants to save people, he wants to destroy bad guys, he wants people’s thanks and scorn to collect like trophies as proof of his capabilities. In the force, he could do that all the time! Meanwhile, schoolwork is a LOT of work that comes to no actual result. It’s all busywork. The only payoff is test scores and eventually a diploma; those aren’t things that alter the fabric of another person’s life. Meng Yao intellectually understands how he can use that diploma for his goals, which is why he’s attending in the first place, but in the meantime, it’s just years and years of doing nothing that fills the gaping hole in him left over by what he lost when he was discharged. All he gets out of it in the short term is tedium and a persistent sense of humiliation.

This recontextualized all of the prior lack of detail about the school side of his life for me as intentional to his mindscape. Even though he has an enormous course load as a law student, his internal monologue is still focused on the case, because he would rather focus on the case. Of course when he’s at school he’s still determined to excel in school, not in the least because his scholarship depends on it, but he wants to set it out of his mind when he can and cling to detective work as a pale imitation of the life he wishes he still had.

So then, as he finally moves on from still wanting to be a cop, he can also start to make peace with his current place in life and embrace being a student without as much repressed resentment. maybe I could have put in a few more throwaway lines about school at the end

#I don't know what to tag this with #I've forgotten all my own tags on tumblr #I'll come back later. (we hope)

[sariels-world-ella]

This character who probably won't make an actual physical appearance in the game, that I am apart of working on. (Conundrum of Morality), but I designed her one anyway.

Abby Da'Brine is an 11 year old girl of an unspecified Asian ethnic, she has black unkempt hair, complete heterochromia, freckles, slight gap tooth and a hefty build.

(Yes, though rare, Asians can actually have heterochromia and freckles,.)

(Had to get my sister for ideas on outfit design, this is what we came up with, I am not the fashionista type, but i did know I wanted a mismatched outfit, I totally gave up with drawing the second hand)

Bonus:

They'll never met in canon, but, my little Trans-boi, Audel (another character from the game) and Abby would probably be good friends. Audel would probably think the Creeper exploding is more cool than annoying.

(Since Abby is a minor character there is not much complexity with her, but there is still more information regarding her but that would be spoilers to an incomplete game.)

#indie game #digital drawing #hand drawn art #traditional drawing #digital art #my art #character info #character desgin #conundrum of morality #i don't know what to tag this with #my characters #I had a sketchbook page full of concept designs of this character before I settled on the final

[cherryblossomtimemachine]

I'm mentally married to about 500 different fictional characters.

#i don't know what to tag this with #random thoughts #shit posting

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[ayo-edebiri]

Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse + text posts

#tw flashing #byaurore #across the spiderverse #spiderman #across the spiderverse spoilers #marveledit #filmedit #userallisyn #userchelsea #tuserhan #usersaoirse #useradie #userbbelcher #userpavlova #spiderman across the spiderverse #userpayel #not tagging more ppl because i don't know who has already watched it #it was sooooo good!!! #marvel (ok sony but....) gave us too good movies in a row??? in 2023??? what is happening