#I didn't like medical professionals touching me anyway but ever since the stuff last April when we went to the hospital

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we have a dentist appointment tomorrow and on the plus side we're not really anxious about the appointment itself because the dentist was so nice last time and actually took our medical trauma into account.

unfortunately though we do have to have anaesthetic which makes us feel like shit for at least the rest of the day, and no matter how considerate the dentist is, having a medical professional touch us at all does still trigger certain trauma and then I end up having a bunch of panic attacks at some point within the next few days and it's a really shit time. I really don't wanna have to deal with that and the concept of it is making me nauseous

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #<- kinda #medical trauma #(this turned into a long rant about medical trauma and consent so here's your warning for that if you read the tags) #I didn't like medical professionals touching me anyway but ever since the stuff last April when we went to the hospital #it's been a way bigger issue and I end up being an absolute wreck for a while because of it #I cannot begin to express how much I do not want a medical professional touching me at all but especially not in my mouth #and any other situation where someone shoves their fingers in your mouth when you don't want them to would be considered really violating #but because it's for medical reasons and we have to put up with it if we actually want treatment nobody around us seems to see it like that #same goes for various other medical procedures where it's like if a stranger touched me like that when I really didn't want them to #in any other situation that would be assault but because it's a medical setting I'm expected to just be okay with it??? #idk I probably haven't explained any of this right but I just don't like that people treat medical stuff as a special scenario #that's exempt from causing the same distress as any other scenario where someone touches you when you don't want them to #even though our brain is processing them the same way and we can't magically make that not happen #I know technically with medical procedures you (usually?) consent #but it's like... the choice is either consent to it or have your health keep getting worse #and once again in any other situation if your choices were to either consent or experience physical harm #that wouldn't really be considered consent and would be really distressing #I'm literally only consenting out of fear of what happens if I don't which... technically isn't consent but what choice do I have #idk this stuff is probably an issue specifically because of our trauma #but even still I would like to be taken seriously when I say I feel violated after medical procedures