#I am supposed to go home to my extremely immunocompromised mother and over-65 father on Thursday which is the same day I was supposed to -

[citrinecanary]

it’s that special time for a rant in the tags. (12/21/21)

#so for those who saw my dramatic ass posts yesterday… on Sunday I went to my bf’s house so we could see Spider-Man together #I got there around noon and his sister was at her gf’s house until around 4. #when she got back we hung out for a little bit and made/decorated gingerbread men for like 30 min #and then she went up to her room and I didn’t see her again. #yesterday (Monday morning) I get a text from my bf telling me that his sister tested positive. #she is double vaxxed with Pfizer and so am I but my last dose was 8 months ago. #I am supposed to go home to my extremely immunocompromised mother and over-65 father on Thursday which is the same day I was supposed to - #- get my booster #but now I’m either not going home for Christmas; killing my parents; or by some miracle testing negative #I can’t even test until Thursday because you’re not supposed to test until 3-7 days after exposure #his parents are testing today (god I hope they’re rapid tests) so if they test negative that might give me some peace of mind #but now I’m just sitting here in my job where nothing is going on (and I’m not required to isolate bc I’m fully vaxxed) and doomscrolling #I can’t fucking stop #and I can’t fucking do anything about any of this #I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this. I’m in fucking purgatory until Thursday just waiting for symptoms to show up #today is day 2 since exposure so it’s the first day that symptoms could appear #right now I have this feeling in my chest that’s like 1% of a cough but I think it’s an anxiety symptom not a COVID one #I had this exact symptom months before I got the vaccine when I was really anxious about COVID #my bf has no symptoms yet and he got vaxxed a year ago… he’s looking to get tested but of course everyone is testing right now #bc of holidays and travel #so… I’m getting tested on Thursday and if it’s negative I’m going home. #I don’t even know what’s gonna happen if I’m positive… I’m trying not to picture myself alone in my apartment on Christmas but here we are #:( #please send all of the positive vibes for negative tests.