#I FUCKIN SCREAMED BRO

[kuzakat]

Goddddd, the way Vox turned around and arched backwards into Val.... WHORE 🫵🏻 BOTTOM 🫵🏻🫵🏻🫵🏻

#I FUCKIN SCREAMED BRO #LIKE WHYD YOU DO THAT HUH??? WHYD YOU SPECIFACALLY PULL VAL INTO THAT POSITION HUH!!!! #god and the HEIGHT DIFFERENCE #vox deserves to get dicked down is all im saying #hazbin hotel #hazbin vox #vox #hazbin hotel vox #valentino #valentino hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel valentino #vox hazbin hotel #voxval #vox x valentino #valentino x vox #kuza talks #staticmoth

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 226

team charge got me feeling emotions

#day 226 #year 4 #AradiaAugust #aradia megido #tavros nitram #homestuck #team charge #bro. aradia cares about tavros so damn much #and i think she genuinely thinks he is very cool for being the type of person he is #like. i think ive said this before but #alternia is a place that by design is meant to harden you to the world and make you ruthless and competitive and aggressive #and the fact that tavros has EVERYTHING screaming at him to be literally anything other than the weenie lil softboy he is #and continues to be like. oh yeah i dont play fucked up alien pokemon for the combat im just out here making friends with my little guys :) #i think aradia parses that attitude as a very Cool Act Of Rebellion given the society in which they live #it explains why she goes to the lengths she does to protect/avenge him against vriska who is just. #the absolute antithesis to all that. #i think aradia probably thinks vriska is a fuckin square. shes boring because she does exactly what society tells her to do all the time. #and not only that but shes out here trying to make tavros the same way. aradias not fuckin having it! #anyway. i have thoughts about the flarpers i think about them a lot

[synthshenanigans]

How dare he release a banger cover of one of my favorite songs ever at 4am where I cant yell, I hate him so much why

#im laughing so insanely rn i love this so much #i am actually losing my mind but like in the best way possible #also he's speaking/singing Japanese again & bros still p good it since haiku #don't have an official translation & im gettin it from discord but its a more worded version of “hurt people. hurt people” basically #i don't wanna fully state it cos i do not know the language & someone who's smarter than me can do that #but still cool to know #anyways I'm exploding now goodbye #hey hey did i ever mention i love saxophones #cos guess what i love saxophones #these songs are gonna have a LOTTA saxophone in it #also the screaming tho?????? fuckin losing my mind rn dude #my Spotify will never recover from this #chonny jash #moss post

[akaikami-cherryblossom]

Me: I kinda want to try bald.ur’s ga.te, it looks fun

My lil bro, every time: you know that’s a SEX game right??? You can have SEX??? That’s GROSS. There are so many SEX scenes. I KNOW you don’t wanna play a SEX game!!! >:(

#bestie it is an rpg yes there are sex scenes but you have not seen the otome I’ve played #also like. you watch porn. you’ve told me. what the hell. I’m older than you. #I mostly wanna play for astarion tho he’s enamored me and I want him #even if I were to try n get it tho I don’t have the console and my bro does and he didn’t let me borrow it when I got p5 #so it’s not even worth it #long story short I wanna play b.g.3 so fuckin bad #lc screams #now censored! because I don’t want the huge fandom to find it :D #he also just thinks he knows what’s best for me and owns me I need to kill him

[soldier-poet-king]

Woke up >:( and it's like. Oh I need to LEAVE. I need to ESCAPE. Not even just The Parents now but bro1 is making this house actively hostile to life with the way everyone has to tiptoe around his maybe breakup and moodiness and like sure he's not actively aggressive but why are all my routines and habits having to be altered so he can mope and be angry and moody and sad and become an alcoholic and possibly give himself an ED because we can't just sit him down and have a normal human conversation nooo bc he's the favourite child and therefore we just have to wait and deal until he's *ready* on his own. Which has not happened in his entire 23 yrs of life. But y'know. I can keep waiting ig.

Like yes yes pot and kettle when it comes to moodiness. But I See Doctors. I take Meds. I take Responsibility for My Actions and develop Coping Skills and Apologize and Don't Take It Out on other people. I actually CARE abt people other than myself and how my actions impact them, even if they're ppl I don't like or who have hurt me before.

#also when My morning routines are altered. brain scream #but no i can just cope with active mental distress from diagnoses brain disease #so the bitchy little baby can mope and stay out all night drinking vome home and puke and then be a bitch #when he has to go to work at 6am #like ues i feel bad i liked his gf hes sad #but also. like. not to be like well hes apathetic and selfish and callous but ... #he also made a joke abt abortion at dinner yesterday bc our 16yr old cousin is expecting #and it was so awful??? she WANTS this kid??? #ugh ugh ugh ugh #i have a horrible strained relationship with each of my brothers #but each one is a different flavour of bad or dysfunctional #and this one. this one. i cant even get into it. #i love my brother. i need a shovel to love my brother #my parents both complain abt their adult child younger siblings #and then like. trear bro 1 like this which will make him become an adult manchild #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #truly. i need to fuckin move out. i need it #ill lose free food and rent monies and free laundry and utilities and ooen backyard garden space #but oh my god the emotional toll this is taking on constantly tiptoeing peacekeeping #IM FORCED INTO LYING BY OMISSION. I HATE LYING. IT MAKES ME WANT TO DIE. #franposting #we're supposed to share a car all summer and commute together sans our father #i might just take the bus. even tho i have to leave almost an hour earlier #i don't trust him. or his moods. esp when mildly hungover at 6am. and without our father there to moderate? #this sounds horrible but im a little afraid. (plus i cant be late everyday all summer bc of him) #like. once again. fuck me. i am the ONLY responsible child and i get so much shit

[fooltofancy]

ive been waffling for two years on the circumstances of ilya eye loss between dragonsong and some point in stormblood (many options little brain etc), but it is like. narratively satisfying for stormblood to have to be a point of recovery already after the hell of dragonsong, all that loneliness and hope and loss you've gotta piece back together

but also now you've got no depth perception. also zenos is there.

#things that make me laugh =/= things that are objectively funny #ilya like bro what even is that thing i can't see shit #he's fully swapping between blm and mch at that point too like neither of those things are exceptionally conducive to a zenos fight #and both of them require you to idk. see. #screams and flares directly on top of both of them #stormblood ilya is like. peak ilya #terribly sad tbh like a number of themes click into place in that expansion that are just #buddy you'll never admit it but your outlook on life is so fuckin sad #.... but he's also so so funny #ball of anxiety and stupid #with a gun! #baby mode blogging #need a baby mode lore tag #anyway i'm finally working on a timeline while distracted by perhaps actual backstory writing and he's so messy #where are his parents i need to kill them #(im the parent)

[volivolition]

I say this in the most loving way possible, how the fuck can you write the most expressive and magical tags ever?? How do you have the mental energy to form words? 50% I can only say "nice post op". You inspire me to spread positivity to everyone but I literally can't be this positive and kind all the time. Just want to send you love and know that I appreciate you <3

HKJGH AW RED!! :'] <3 it does take a lot of energy, i understand :'0 i keep a lot of cool art in my tumblr drafts. the art stays in there until i have energy to type all my thoughts out. a lot of things stay stuck in there… i try to make sure art from my friends get out soon though :0 don't feel bad if you can't type a lot!! anything you can manage is okay! no one can be positive and kind all the time, and that's normal! just do what you can. i promise it's enough. (<- these are things i need to remind myself too <3)

a lot of it is literally just me needing to scream hkjfh, i have a lot of thoughts and i love sharing them always. i love rambling, can you tell? (<- joke) also i have a lot of love to give and i love artists and their creations. like WOW someone made a thing!! and they wanted to share it with the world!! AND I GET TO SEE IT!!! i GOTTA tell them i enjoy it!!!!!

it's also my empathy acting up because im also an artist!! and he's like "hey!! you love people writing nice tags on *your* art!! imagine if you were this artist, wouldn't you be happy to see someone tagging it with nice things? :)!" and im like yeah!! if this makes me happy, i should make other people happy too :3

ANYWAY I APPRECIATE YOU TOO RED YOU'RE DEAR TO ME!! SENDING LOVE BACK!!!! <33

#my conceptualization and my empathy handshake WE GOTTA COMPLIMENT ALL THE ARTISTS IMMEDIATELY!!! #i used to take art classes and we were taught how to do art critiques? so i use a lot of that terminology too but only the compliments part #i don't remember much from those anymore but you'll see a lot of my tags talk about ''wow i love the warm colors you used here!'' #''the poses are so dynamic!'' ''what an interesting composition!'' ''really good use of texture!'' <- it's basically habit now #talk about what you notice! talk about details you like! talk about how it made you feel! (<- did you laugh? smile? cry?) #truly sometimes i just write ''this made me feel indescribable emotions'' and thats cool too hkjhg <33 also uh. scream a lot?? :'] #''WAAAAUHGKJH!!!'' <- very common in my tags hgkjh <3 i know it's hard a lot of the times though!! words are DIFFICULT... we try our best!! #it helps when its a character i know too lmao you'll see me YELL SO MUCH about a post with volition in it bro i will not shut up jhkjdh <3 #or when theres a lot of things happening in a scene to comment on! like if theres a lot of characters or its a comic! #THAT'S MORE THINGS TO COMPLIMENT BABEY!! B) i just like supporting artists. we're all creating such cool things to show to each other :]!! #my whole fuckin goal on earth is to be kind and silly and loving and earnest so!! im trying my best hkjhg <3 #volta transmissions

[frick-it-sugar-spice]

Well fuck now I wanna write a few thousands of words of Niffty and Husk kicking so much ass.

#i got a little too wrapped up in a part of the one fic that was just supposed to be a bridge for time passing #but then i made a shark and nifft got excited for some possible murder and like how can u say no to her #it probably wont happen #cause i know what energy and memory are like #i just want her to go fuckin full throttle. like millie in the one episode of helluva boss where the door closes and reopens to a massacre #same energy #n husk is just like. walks up hands on hips heavy sighing and being mistaken for a washed up loser #and then just flexes that little bit of leftover overlord power #gettin a bit more intimidatingly tall #growling and his eyes get all fucken glowy and its like oh shit ok maybe hes not a total pussy pun intended #and then just a limb goes flying out of the alley way followed by screams and growling #and bro just walks out and readjusts suspenders and grabs niffty's hand and they go get fuckin icecream or something #and bring alastor a handful of teeth or something as proof of the problem bein taken care of #when im on desktop i might steal all these tags and make it a proper post #txt

[calumsash]

cashton at the irving show

#bro im so fragile rn don't even talk to me cause I'll cry #took me so long to find the source but i did it #god look at them #calum my man the heart eyes are so strong here big same #the second picture im gonna SCREAM AND CRY #i love them your honor #5sos #cashton #tmh tour #his fuckin soulmate

[vcrnons]

why is my skin so bad rn i HATE IT HERE

#shut up j #I woke up with like 5 new spots today all on my chin. which ik people say is usually hormones? #but I have a question. which is. Why #bro I am TWENTY FIVE YEARS OLD. why do I still have the complexion of a 16 year old. i fuckin. #[screams]

[scarlet-bee]

I don't care what the plot of the movie is, I'm rooting for Bowser

#the super mario bros. movie #the super mario bros movie #super mario bros. movie #super mario bros movie #mario movie #bowser #jack black bowser #mario franchise #m #m: the super mario bros. movie #m: mario franchise #m: bowser #so. that trailer huh #i'm actually looking forward to it despite. well you know #also i can't wait for charlie day luigi #i thought he was an odd choice at first but then i thought about it and i was like hm. this could be interesting actually #too bad he didn't have any lines in the trailer :/ #i'm glad we saw him though. and heard him make Noises #he'd better YELL in the movie. let him fuckin SCREAM #if he doesn't then literally what is the goddamn point

[tiredassmage]

can we hear more about in dreams, hopes to die... 👉👈 those lines are so tasty..

CHOMPING AT THE BIT, AYE AYE CAPTAIN!!!!

Would you believe me if I reveal that this snippet is from the same piece? It's obviously an overall not very good time kind of piece, so I felt a tiny bit bad about it for once and decided to throw Tyr a bone. Valkorian and Tyr's own conga line of bad times couldn't be the only thing in five years worth of dreams, I figured, lol.

Also, that very scene is where the banger In the dark, it’s easier to hide and easier to tell the truth came from, lol.

Don't get too excited though because that's... very short. And also it's mentally set to Eyelids by PVRIS, so uh. It still punches me in the face.

Eventually I'll hopefully throw him another bone and give him and Theron's time on Rishi or Yavin IV a little pass because I'd like to think Theron's at least a little right and something came up. And stars know Tyr needs a fuckin' break, good gods almighty anlkfdnafldsf. Says she who continues to put that man in Situation after Situation after Situa-

And it was very hard to stop at just the first line for that initial post because the three lines that follow it are the meat and potatoes of what is currently the opening sequence of what I hope will eventually be a coherent fic. Or at least kinda coherent. It's still a very nebulous piece and I kinda like that, so I might not really do much more setup because it seems fitting that there wouldn't be a lot of setup and transition in something like the carbonite dreams era.

And, perhaps unsurprisingly given the nature of the setup of that chapter, but a lot of these scenes flirt with the concept of death. Tyr's dangerous dedication to "finishing the job" isn't anything new to those of us who have been here a while, lol, but this is a good character study piece if you're newer to my favorite blorbo, though it's an undeniably heavy one and obviously a bit fucky and nebulous by nature.

Also, fair warning, yes I'm giving you lines, but also I am going to give you a ramble and a half about Tyr lore because this is the piece I'm stuffing some juicy tick-tock workings into because I realized it was good for that and I love my boy so much, he's so fucked up. I love him though.

Anyway, I teased, so the next three lines of that scene, as foretold beneath the cut:

At first, it’s a firing squad. Mud cakes their boots and the rain pelts heavy on worn, drawn faces.

Tyr pushes to his feet unsteadily. A flash of lighting breaks overhead, glancing off of leveled blasters and hollowed eyes.

It will end as it should: without a soul remembering his name. He’d prefer it that way.

Okay, so... this is also not necessarily a piece I intended to write, but I realized there is... almost no better place to do a deep dive into some of the things that tick inside of Tyr that maybe aren't best portrayed in dialogue alone. This also wasn't meant to be in present tense, but it didn't feel right in past, so I ended up caving and that's... been a theme of the week, I guess, lol.

This is also like. I always chuckle a bit in that scene from Visions in the Dark later where Valkorian threatens you to meet his challenge and grow stronger or die alone and unremembered because wouldn't that just be ideal for a former Cipher. Wasn't that how the story was supposed to end? He didn't ask for your bullshit, grandpa.

There's currently two other scenes I have - they're all relatively short as I try to keep with that sort of drifting feeling. But the other one that might [Large Eyes Emoji] be of... relevant interest...

What’s been done has already been done. It doesn’t matter what it was. Maybe it won’t matter to anyone else.

Because it’s going to end here and now. Such were the decrees of the Sith - of the Empire.

Absolutes.

It matters to him that he tried. This is one of the kinder ways this could go - quietly, without the fanfare of blood on his teeth and a fire in his eyes.

“For what it’s worth, sir?” Nine exhales long and slow as he closes his eyes. “I’ve always admired you… You did your best.”

Finally.

No.

More.

Running.

“But I’m not going back.” The old man’s one of the few he could ever hope to ask this final favor. “Finish this - what we started.”

The Minister of Intelligence pulls the trigger.

It’s over before Tyr feels the ground beneath him.

Also topical given the "are others concerned about their sleep schedule" tag post reblogged earlier today, lol, and the idea of chronic nightmares. That Tyr and I haven't talked about. To each other. Or the world. Possibly not with the people he cares about, either. I'm sure Theron knows nebulously that he can have some troubled sleep - you don't share a bed with someone and not notice how consistently they have trouble falling or staying asleep.

But I think the fuckiest part of the whole Castellan Restraints period for Tyr is how he doesn't want to let the old man down. The Minister is more a father figure in Tyr's eyes than his own father, quite honestly [Tyr has a... kind of non-existant relationship with his entire family, unfortunately - and it's not because he went into Intelligence], and there's absolutely a part of that dynamic that is mentor and protégé.

And it's important to me that he sees this scenario with the Minister and not Shara - at least in Chapter Two, where it first haunts his nightmares with some consistency. Because I made a conscious choice in Shara knowing as Keeper about his Restraints - not because that ever comes up in-game, but because it adds something very crunchy to their already doomed narrative. And the background to that decision is that I decided it's... the kind of silent acknowledgement that the Minister can afford to give of their more intimate relationship. It's damage control, mitigation. With a heavy heart I imagine he tells her this in private, off the record, because Nine was her Cipher. And both of them still hold him in high regard.

Nine's given a possibly unusually loose leash to pursue the SIS investigation because of the Minister and Keeper's word; Watcher Three mentions this in broad strokes when he questions you about the blackout in records.

Anyway, the point to me mentioning this is actually that Tyr makes a very conscious effort to not think about this in the midst of the Restraints causing problems. He's reluctant enough to cede that he should hold the Minister responsible for this gross violation of his privacy and trust, but he's even more reluctant to give that the woman he loves has any knowledge or hand in the process - unwittingly or, especially, wittingly. Ultimately, he stubbornly doesn't hold them responsible. It hurts less to place the blame elsewhere. And he never loses the inescapable nostalgic kick to go home in the sense of the old paradigm - him and Keeper and the Minister.

He gave them everything.

And there's something in here about his regret at not being able to say all of this respect in better words or more directly. There's that acknowledgement that there's one person he trusts to understand why this was his breaking point. And, ultimately, there's the acceptance of the likelihood that none of this is going to end well, that he's living on borrowed time stolen from fate or destiny, or hell, maybe the Force. Tyr doesn't give a whole lot to whatever higher powers might be out there - relying on them hasn't ever saved him and he doesn't expect it to.

It makes it very interesting to watch him knowingly and willingly lie about the Black Codex after he lets Ardun walk with it and promises to double for the SIS. In a way, he's committing the greatest failure and throwing away everything the Minister has fought so hard with him to maintain and keep, especially when both of them have spoken of ideals instead of goals, etc. But it's necessary. It's what's best for Tyr, mentally, at that point. And even one of the figures he loves and respects the most can't override that desperate intrinsic need to fight for himself. The old man is, after all, one of the largest advocates of it throughout his career as Nine.

And, I suppose speaking of the nostalgia for Intelligence, my favorite set of lines from the final scene so far:

She’s sobbing against his shoulder. Dust and blood stain an almost unfamiliar uniform - he hasn’t worn uniform on Dromund Kaas in months, maybe years…

Everything’s been such a blur since Intelligence was disbanded…

so YEAH. I uh. I have a lot of feelings and this is where I'm sniffling and sobbing and word vomiting them into one doc but in story format, I suppose, lol.

Also completely unrelated to this particular fic but I am. Still thinking so intently about Eight x Tyr thoughts. They're now living rent free in my head and all of this.... absolute devotion stuff... hrhrhghghghghghghghrhhg. Brain vibrates because this is obviously all related to it because of the few people who could ever possibly understand any part of this series of events and feelings, it'd be another Cipher.

Tyr really does mourn Intelligence like... ghhghg. I'm unwell about it. He gave everything to it and its success. He doesn't regret it. The SIS investigation and the following fall of Imperial Intelligence were some of the worst fucking years of his life and it's destroyed him, really. He's living in and with the ruins like a bombed out city. It destroyed his everything and he'd almost gladly let it finish the job and destroy him to finally get his retribution. And he'd just as gladly let love destroy it all and rebuild it from the rubble when he has the right person beside him. Something something doesn't realize that he doesn't want or need to continue that destruction, he just needs fucking... idk validation or something. Acceptance. Acknowledgement. And then they can work on what "okay" looks like in the aftermath. He needs to be just as responsible for someone else's "okay" to even begin figuring out what the hell it looks like for him. hOUgh anyway.

I'm fucking normal about Cipher Nine, obviously. Thanks for comin' to my TED Talk.

#answered #ch: tyr #wip ask meme #in a way lel #my poor fucking BELOVED glowstick man... #also: just. when he HAS the right people with him how fucking. like yea yea devotion that corrupts #he'd still go to the ends of the fuckin GALAXY bro but also #it's so much easier to realize. oh. maybe we'd like to live. maybe we'd like to do that together. what's that look like #happy half a month early fool's i'm never normal about tyr #crunchy cat scream react jpeg y'know #tyr needs to be told to stop. to gently but forcibly be stopped. then he might be okay. #it might start there #i'm gonna fuckin write about that too just you wait until i have free time and a solid concept that consumes my entire soul again #gripping the edge of the sink #agent on agent romance call that a healing cycle #i'm.. s- no no i was gonna say i'm sorry i'm like this but no #i love him so much ur honor this is the love ur blorbo website #oh and obligatory bitching about ask editor style yada yada stop throwing the indent weird how do i style fic readibly in ask replies hghgh

[jukeboxhound]

awwww my executive director described me as "wicked smart" to my department director and my gothy little heart is bashfully pleased

in other news i'm once again taking over legal services in addition to everything else i do and i am READY for assholes who think they can intimidate me in the courthouse ✪ ω ✪

#the judge who once pulled me back into chambers to scream at me is now dead apparently #ding dong his bitchass is dead woo #this means i have to start wearing Business Clothes again #which inevitably makes me look like a corporate vampire stalking the courthouse hallways #vlad the advocate lmao #hound barks #i used to supervise our legal services when i was still doing direct service before covid #and i've missed it terribly in some ways because as much of an anarchist as i am #as much i despite our system and wrote the transformative justice program i now oversee as a direct response to the system's bullshit #malicious compliance and parkouring through loopholes in the system is almost fun sometimes #to understand this monstrosity well enough to be able to turn it back on the people enforcing it or weaponizing it against survivors #fuckin come AT me bro

[anotherpapercut]

I worked my library's pride booth at my city's pride event today which went really well and was pretty fun and then I almost got in a fight on the way home

#got off the bus and immediately this guy and this girl were screaming at each other #the woman had recently broken up w the dude and he was freaking out so i stood there to make sure he didnt get violent #bc she said he threw a soda on her??? and was making moves to steal her fuckin stuff #so he left and i was gonna leave then he came back and was like you can keep going and i was like no i dont think i will #kept yelling shit like 'you better learn to mind your own business or someone's gonna fuck you up' yeah ok bro 🙄 #but he left again and she started packing her shit and leaving so i kept walking home #i didnt see him again but he was on a bike and i have a cane so it wouldnt have been difficult to fend him off #unless he had a gun #eh whatever

[indiiglow]

Okay I got a "top 10 unscripted supernatural moments" video on my recommended and for some ungodly reason I decided to click on it. WHAT is this show and why do I feel like, no matter what I do, I am doomed to watch it at some point in my life

#supernatural #indi's night talk #dude the fuckin #the fucking. destiel play? what was that? and Dean looking at the camera like BRO #ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS that was IN the show?!?! #the way I SCREAMED laughing sjfmsnfmhndng #🤦‍♂️

[dan-crimes]

Me when I see someone MCSM posting DON'T PULL ME BACK IN I'M NOT READY

#kicking and screaming #I spent so much fuckin time on that fucking GAME BRO YOU HAVE NO IDEA #I drew stuff too but that was mostly gay stuff like don't even worry abt it #and it's also where I got the inspo to finalize my own personal vampire rules #which I keep with me forever <3 #anyway I prolly won't fall back into it bcuz I'm kinda between interests atm #ik it looks like I have a Sonic interest which I do! but not like that #not in the true way where I devote all my time and energy and thought into it... no I couldn't possibly... #I'm just lookin @ everything and my brain is doin the grabby hands like Ooo invest ur time into this! and I gotta smack it away #I'm not ready for the commitment yet....