#HE WAS IN THE ROOM WHEN SHE DIED

[charliecuntcicle]

i forgot i cant just switch from comics to books

rereading a lovely little issue of yj98 then i switch to i fell in love with hope and get hit with 

Eric caresses the surface of the box. He presses his forehead to it and closes his eyes. A moment passes and I remember those days Sony fell asleep hooked up to a ventilator. I remember how he used to cry and choke it all down so she wouldn’t wake. I remember the whispers I could never make out that he spoke every night after tucking her in. It’s only now, as I hear it up close, that I realize they weren’t renditions of goodnights or little reminders to stay alive or anything so confined to a nurse-patient relationship. 

They were a father’s I love yous. 

Eric opens the box. 

“Goodnight, Sony,” he whispers. “I hope you find your everything.”

#young justice 1998 #i fell in love with hope #ifilwh #lancali #eric ifilwh #sony ifilwh #sam ifilwh #I COULD TALK ABOUT ERIC AND SONY FOR SO LONG #he wasnt supposed to get attattched to her #but he cared so much #he thought of her as a daughter #he let her live with him when her mom died #HE WAS IN THE ROOM WHEN SHE DIED #when she took her last breath #i know the main cast was there when he heart stopped but he was there when she was pronounced dead

[demidevildonnie]

nothing in the world belongs to me, but my love, mine all mine

#my art #trigun #trigun maximum #trigun 98 #vash the stampede #ok i have room to actually explain this #ive been wanting to draw a vash piece with this song for a while but i kept going thru iterations and not liking them #i had one of vash hugging rem or hugging all of his friends #had one where he was on top of a stack of chairs like in the music video #i nailed down this composition a day or two and started rendering #i remember mitski explaining that the only thing that is truly hers that isn't physical or material is her love #not for a particular thing or person but the love she has for everything #and when she dies that love will go with her #and idk i felt like that could apply to vash #i ended up not drawing him with another person because its more focused on his ability to love #rather than his love for Someone or Something #i feel like a lot of ppl associate this song with romantic love and thats fine #but thats not what its rlly about yknow

[kendallroygf]

#kendall roy #shiv roy #succession #to expand kendall taking charge reminds shiv of logan and the way he abused/overpowered her and that’s why she’s so resistant to kendall in #a position of power over her and kendall (the same as shiv) doubles down and tries to exert/maintain control when he’s distressed or in #response to trauma like when logan just died. and in turn shiv overpowering him by being ‘boss’ distresses him too due to proximity to logan #I’m the real you you’re the real me etc. #might add to this later bc the safe room parallels are off the charts #shivken #<- platonic tag. ok. #p

[molagboop]

I sketched a thing while I was up at an unreasonable hour.

#comic #raven beak #samus #samus aran #grey voice #old bird #metroid #metroid dread #she is three years old and just wanted to see Grey Voice #he's cool and tall #but the minute she enters the room BLAM there it is some motherfucker who's even TALLER than he is #it's tough when you're a kid and you're small and your parents died less than 2 months ago one of them right in front of you #she doesn't know if this stranger is nice like Grandpa Bird or of he's mean like the guy who ate her mother #and height is another thing he has in common with the purple pterodactyl! but he's not eating Grey Voice so he must be okay #anyways Samus likes Grey Voice because he smells nice and his robes are soft. he doesn't play with her often like Grandpa Bird does #but she'd like to change that. so she tries by putting in the effort herself. and she drags grandpa bird all over looking for him #she does this at least twice a week #chozo #unfortunately for Old Bird's ailing knees. but he tries his best. #i can only imagine the rest of their conversation #grey voice is gonna have a time explaining how he and old bird adopted this orphan kid off the side of the road like an abandoned puppy #meanwhile raven beak is giving him a hard time like 'ayy i thought you said you were sterile' #he's very interested in seeing how this develops #his gracious hosts aren't exactly getting any younger and they haven't been keeping up with their cardio #but they've got the gumption and he thinks they can pull it off. the kid making it long enough to leave the nest i mean.

[pumpkinrootbeer]

ogfoofodoxx thinking about how the most defining character trait of haymitch is how protective he is. not in the sense it's the most obvious, but how all of his actions are fueled by this desire to protect. how hard he works at keeping katniss alive in the first games, him fighting to keep them from augmenting katniss's body, him yelling at plutarch to keep finnick from having to share his trauma, him being so involved in peeta's recovery and being the one to bring katniss home. him holding mayslee's hand as she died, fighting for plutarch to stay and rescue peeta, being the one to find katniss and finnick when johanna had an episode, begging coin to believe peeta's warning. it being heavily implied or either outright stated that he was one of the people who fought to protect effie.

makes me physically ill because no one does that for him. everyone who would of, died.

#DIES EXPLODES COMBUSTS #thg #haymitch abernathy #:v #haymitch acting like he doesn't care about anyone when he actually cares about everyone #he's acting like he's winning the idgaf war but love has disarmed him completely. #Tbc katniss and peeta would but they are literally incapable of being that for him. bc they are infant #also thinking about how we get this sense that while he has some modicum of power with the revolution his sway only goes so far #which is to say not far at all #the times we actually see what the negotiating process is like for him he has to beg coin to listen to him #and he says Plutarch didn't listen to him between cf and mockingjay when he tried to get them to stay for peeta #I just get this sense that most of the time he's in the room but isn't really allowed to make decisions #and constantly has to fight to be heard #I mean again I will always circle back to this they literally locked him in a room to detox #and the descriptions we get in cf is his withdrawal symptoms are incredibly severe #so clearly they weren't dependent on his imput #idk idk I just get this sense they valued his input up until the point he reminded them all he still views people as people. #him coaching katniss was to say in mockingjay during her speech in two also makes me chew drywall #how much of that is what he thought she needed to say to stay alive and how much is what he had always wanted to say #also thinking about how he wasn't lying when he told Plutarch he couldn't go back to twelve sober. #bc he gets katniss home and then immediately gets blackout drunk #I am of the opinion that he genuinely can't get sober while living in 12 #I like to think he lets himself leave eventually never to the capitol of course but in my hc he goes to 11 #just bc of his fondness for chaff and seeder but that's just a self indulgent headcanon #ALSO ALSO. #thinking about how he's fighting a revolution that he doesn't even believe will bring chance #well. he thinks it'll change things but that change will be temporary and fighting will break out again #my perfect pessimist idiot. in my heart of hearts he gets a therapist moves and actually recovers

[corallapis]

okay. see. the thing is. the cricketing gear isn't just a silly set of clothes the tardis picked out. it's to clue you in that we're dealing with posh edwardian man levels of repression here. that's who five is.

#and you gotta keep this in mind for every emotional moment in his era. calling tegan's departure unsentimental... like sure. ok. #bleak might be a better descriptor tho. #like they're literally standing in a room full of dead bodies. that's what they're stepping over. #it's quick yeah bc tegan's on the verge of tears and handling it like ripping off a bandaid. #bc if she lets the doctor speak she'll be convinced to stay and she can't bear it anymore! #the way five oh so slowly raises his hand to take hers and the look on his face? #the way he runs after her and says 'no no don't leave not like this!' #that's crazy!!! and then he compares it to the circumstances that made him leave gallifrey!! #an ep later he describes himself as 'obsessed and depressed' over it!! #there's a reason it goes [tegan's departure] -> [turlough's departure] -> [five dies] in the course of three serials! #donna voice it's like you're staggering along. once tegan leaves he's hurtling towards his end. #and tegan hasn't changed her mind when she turns back around the corner. she's watching the tardis dematerialize as a final goodbye. #'brave heart tegan' (the thing he always says to you) isn't what you say when you made a rash decision & are regretting it. #it's to steel yourself bc you know you made the right decision despite how hard it is. #and yes he takes her at her word bc five sees everyone on a countdown clock to the day they're going to leave him. he expects it. #:( #dw

[velvetjune]

Spoilers for Alan Wake/Control games and DLCs: one of the things I really like in Alan Wake 2 is the confirmation that, no, Alan can’t create something out of nothing. There were implications in-story that supported that, but it was good to have that be a big part in the sequel. The AWE control dlc easily made it seem like Alan himself had a role in the events of the game and the formation of the FBC, and, personally, seeing it through that lens cheapened a lot of the game and Jesse’s story. Instead, having his writing influence the Hiss and try to manipulate (even out of desperation) Jesse/the FBC to end Hartman and get help, fit right into plot and conflicts of Alan Wake 2, with Alan being sympathetic, but also an asshole for trying to change and control people’s lives in his writing.

#since the awe dlc dropped I was slightly worried that it was going the meta route of Alan writing everything in control #but since Alan wake 2 I’ve been. thank god that wasn’t the case 😭 #this way makes everything more complicated and mysterious. which I appreciate. makes everything creepier #will say. it’s still wild how much Alan can influence the narrative. #light spoilers for the final draft but—> makes me think of the writers room video where he doesn’t know what he’ll be at the spirals end #like I don’t think he’ll be Evil or anything. but it’s unnerving #might delete #Alan Wake 2 my beloved #so many times in that game it could’ve gone a direction that would’ve lessened or soured the story but somehow it didn’t lmao #more game spoilers but for ex: Alice coming back at the end instead of leaving it with her demise in the documentary #when I first saw that it was devastating. but also wasn’t sure what to feel if that’s how she’s gone from the story #having her actually manipulate her photos. become art to make Alan think she died. go to the dark place and help him and saga #that last video left me Speechless it was so good. #esp after how much I disliked Control (spoilers here) for quickly ending with Dylan in a coma and not much else. #could not be happier with how the AW2 ending played out and the clear love for all its characters #REALLY hope that Control 2 ends in a good or interesting place. give dylan some focus! #not tagging this bc I’m just yelling my thoughts. but knowing tumblr it will somehow be seen on every tag 😵‍💫

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

Liam hearing the news after waking up from bleeding out on the ground while Aveline killed the Arishok: i'm the what now?

#laya plays dragon age #oc: liam hawke #he got downed twice and anders also died so in the end it was aveline and a barely-alive varric against the rest lol #pretty sure everyone fled that room asap when the fighting started & meredith spun the narrative about what happened how she wanted #the fight was A Mess and all everyone saw was hawkes confrontation with the arishok beforehand #so it prolly wasnt too hard to paint him as The Hero #im assuming meredith at that time is hoping to have an ally in him; hes already pretty important in the city in his way after all #and giving someone from the guard the credit might pose more of a threat to her power? #idk #in any case liam did not come out of that fight well lol he is uh. not doing so hot <3 #dw he'll be fiiine #tho it definitely wouldnt have gone as well without anders there #with a less skilled healer and a little less luck his spine couldve gotten Permanently Badly Damaged so. thats good that that didnt happen! #:)

[divinekangaroo]

What is your thought on the S6 Tommy and Lizzie sex scene, would you consider it to be dispassionate and disconnected, they don't kiss. Does it scream end of a relationship that is long time coming?

I think it looks like grief-stricken lovemaking, and an attempt to connect between people who’ve been married for eight years and having sex for some fifteen years and who just had a daughter die, so possibly passionate sex is not on the cards for a while, and maybe hasn't been on the cards for a long time prior either. 

This sex scene also lands at a time where it's burdened with a massive amount of emotional issues delivered, not just Ruby's death, but Duke's reveal, and Tommy having just been given a terminal diagnosis. Perhaps Tommy feels like he's on some kind of countdown now to find a way to ‘fix’ this tangle of grief and disappointment between him and Lizzie, hence relocating their efforts to a hotel room to try to re-spark something more passionate. 

It seems Tommy always takes the role of sexual initiator with Lizzie: so, given this is not their first time having sex after Ruby's death, this is possibly also one of many attempts by Tommy trying to use sex to provide and receive physical comfort and intimacy. The relocation to the hotel room is trying to let them get through it without Ruby coming into the conversation. Lizzie's got plenty of reasons to be mad at him, and is definitely hurt, but she isn't shunning him or cutting him off from sex. They're both still reaching out for each other in the way they know has worked for them in the past, because I do think they use sex in particular to connect when words tend to trip them up badly.

They're very focused on each other’s faces in this scene, eyes open throughout, close and touching, a full length body press, so I think of how this sex scene is more about proximity and touch, which is intimate and connected.  The lack of kissing doesn't bother me one way or the other - I don’t really think of them kissing much, more touching /nuzzling. They don’t ever kiss in greeting the way some couples do, but they do embrace and usually touch/press faces. 

On whether a (tired, trying-to-connect) sex scene screams the end of a relationship a long time coming, I think they did a great job in S6 of playing the relationship dynamic as so very complex, you can never quite tell if a break up will or won’t be inevitable.  But that complexity, I find, is more in the dialogue and their other non-sexual physical touches, not this sex scene alone.  If there were a sliding scale as to ‘doomed relationship’ vs ‘fragile/imbalanced but ongoing relationship’, I’d put the sex scene on the ‘ongoing relationship’ side. I find it sweet and intimate and sad, and very middle-aged married couple, and they're both ok being a little bit pathetic with each other in favour of still making that effort to hold each other.

#peaky blinders #tommy x lizzie #just remember i'm biased because i love fail!sex #and think tired established couple fail!sex is the most intimate loving sex possible to show or write #passionate sex is invariably some form of a performance #also i do wonder what was happening back at home after ruby died for tommy to decide he needed to book a hotel room #tommy seriously rolling on top of lizzie every night trying to work through her (his) grief that way #and she was not warming to this? #or he was losing his hard? #or she was asking him to stop and leave her be? #or was lizzie initiating and tommy couldn't respond? #or did they lay there staring at the ceiling and someone would say #remember when ruby was sick and came in to sleep with us and threw up in your hair #and then it'd just be grief and memory and ghosts

[jrueships]

Gg is such a loving rook toward his vets and they're so thrown off it bcs they're trying to keep it cool in front of them meanwhile ggs hugging jaren and jumping all over voting for the first time 😭😭 not even winning a game or smthin. he is just so happy 😭

#jaren #taking this super seriously: people died for this. #gg #young and bored: im glad voting didnt take very long so i can go home and watch bluey :] #their energies are so opposite 😭 yet they have to connect #it's like the oldest lgbtq+ sister whos distsnt from her parents and is always out of the house #taking her youngest Very Straight little brother out to get icecream bcs he misses her #and he cant open her door and fart or do a little dance or rap for five minutes in her room randomly since shes always in her car now #ggs squeaky serious voice when trying to talk to his youthful community 😭 #sixth graders thinking theyre much more hardened by the cruelties of life than the fifth graders bcs recess got taken away

[realboutfatalfury]

finally finished zero escape 999

#yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay #obviously spoilers so um yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah/////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////😺////////////// #/////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// #AAAAH SO CRAZAYS... #kind of sucks i got the safe/letter ending before the other endings. if i got the ohers and then safe/letter ending i think it would've #been very crasy but i think i still experienced a similar effect going thru the safe/letter ending first it's like #woaaaah that's what they meant by that! crazyyyyyyyyy #i was sitting there going like ''I KNOW WHAT YOU AAAAAAAAAAAARE!!!!!!!!!!!!'' <- about ace #i wish i went through door 5 one last tiem i waaaaaaaaant to be with snakey... but i'm glad the last room in the true ending snakey is ther #me and my sister were going back and forth like ''oh maaaaaybe santa and june are zero in a way? idk lol'' #''maybe seven is a cop? he knows lots of things a cop would know'' #and well yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.............. smiiile #but when they did reveal those parts they like added more to what we thought and blew our minds yeah.... #also me and my sister were like ''santa's sister definitely was in the nonary games! she maybe died there!'' #''he keeps talking about temperature.. you think his sister died from getting burned?'' 😁.......... well. #we were game theorying!!!! #and the true ending was like it put everything in place awesomely! #i will say i was not expecting the hot mummy to be relevant... i thought she was just there. #and well yeah..... #same with the clover bookmark >_< i thought it was just a nice thing for clover but! it is relevant! blowing my mind maaaaaaan #i really like the ending ending... they let clover driiiiiive so awesome #also got an explanation on what happened to the bunnies... yeah eyah #yipeeee zero escaaaaaaaaaaaape i think if i continued 2 years ago i would cried my ass off. i haaaaaate blood and other stuff. #but i can handle it now yay

[roadbumps]

I'm sorry but this is really funny to me kjfndkjsfn

thats how id see her managing to win a fight against bob HEHHA. since he could free roam the streets (its the end of the world) he'd be huntin for anybody whos alive. he'd see susie and thought she'd be a easy kill till she began to kick, poke, and cut him up. she'd get his balls eventually and he'd just tell her "okay... got damn.. my bad... oh god i'll go jesus christ" and he'd walk away, defeated

#spooky month #spooky month sr pelo #spooky month au #spooky month bob #spooky month susie #susie would have the knife from sm 4 btw #she forgot to put it up and kept it in her room #so when she heard commotion in the livign room she took the knife and ran #the commotion was infected getting mr wonder btw #he died rip peepaw

[septimus-heap]

Thinking abt the time travel fix it fic I have spinning around in my head. Unfortunately for it to work I have to kill off basically every single character of importance which is all well and good it just feels kind of brutal

#sep talks #septimus heap #like basically all the heap brothers die in mysterious accidents. Right up to the last couple who r just obviously shot #jenna dies in almost the same way her mother did. In the throne room and marcia and septimus r there and an assassin shows up #silas+sarah also. Why?? Idk maybe it's a birthday. Maybe it's bc they're trying to figure out how to keep septimus safe bc logically #he's next. But anyway this assassin is a little sneakier than the one that shot alther. No one sees them until the last second #sarah takes a bullet for jenna. It doesn't help bc jenna gets shot anyway a second later. Marcias in a panic trying to #get silas+septimus away. Silas refuses to leave bc he's basically lost everyone he loves most #he tells marcia he'll deal with the assassin when her shield goes down. And so she practically drags septimus away so at least she can #keep him safe #and. Bc there's no queen anymore. DD takes over. Marcia still has the amulet but they have no real way to get rid of dd #marcia very nearly ends up back in dn1 at one point. Like literally standing on the edge abt to fall #they keep trying to fix things but they just. Can't. Ppl end up seeing marcia as like. Not necessarily the eow who Failed #but she couldn't stop him from showing up so what could she possibly do now #it's more pity than blame and honestly to marcia that's worse #ppl keep dying and it's so much worse than when the custodian was in charge #and anyway yeah that's what makes marcia+septimus go for the house of foryx

[sudokuplayer]

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#boris was attacked by my neighbor's dog and i've been crying so much. i'm so scared #it's 9pm so my sister is driving him to a vet 1 hour away cause the vets near close at 7pm #idk why bad things keep happening to him i'm so heartbroken idk what i'll do if he dies #my neighbor is a cruel bitch cause this happened around 1 pm and she didn't tell us. she hid him in a room #she was gonna let him die like that #my sister was supposed to take me somewhere tomorrow so she came home one day earlier #i'd been crying all afternoon and i told her to please ask around and then they (w mom and brother) went to my neighbor's house #they brought him back and he looked very weak and with blood all over #my sister called a friend of hers who's a vet and she came to see him and adviced to take him to a vet clinic #cause he was bloated and there was air(?) and her face was worried when she said that cause.. where does air come from #plus he was breathing weird #i had the worst panic attack the whole time since they brought him from the neighbor's house until they left with him #i couldn't even speak cause i couldn't stop crying #now i'm calm but i'm so worried #if my sister hadn't come home today boris would be still hurt and locked in my bitch neighbor's house #cause my mom thought i was being paranoid :( she wasn't going to ask around #cause she thought boris would come back since he's been missing before #also my sister's the only one who can drive #:( #i'm so angry cause that bitch next door heard me calling boris name all afternoon and didn't say shit #i hate her. not only bc of this but she's suck a snake in general. she's always gossiping shit about everyone #she didn't do anything and locked him in a room for like 7 hours. maybe those hours were crucial #idk. if boris dies i'm gonna do some crazy shit to this bitch so she'll have a reason to call me crazy

[britneyshakespeare]

Also I never knew that there was even a single color photograph of my grandparents' wedding in 1952. I've only ever seen the ones in black and white. Don't they look beautiful? Didn't I just come from the most gorgeous people?

#i love how you can actually see my grandfather's red hair #as a redhead i know the injustice that black and white does to us... alas! #my charcoal self-portraits always look unlike myself to me because im like i have red hair. this doesnt look like a redhead #this isnt me #also even though it's a white dress. grammy's dress looks so much more beautiful surrounded by color #wow #tales from diana #did you know i never knew my grandmother was a local beauty queen when she was younger until after she died? #when her dementia got to the stage where she needed a live-in nurse to help her all the time #at one point my aunt rediscovered a picture from when she was about. 17. i posted it years ago #she scanned it and had it cropped and framed and left it in the front of the living room #the first time the nurse saw that photo (i was there) she said 'DAAAAMN MOM IS THAT YOU?' #and grammy was like 'oh :) yes thats me' #like it was nothing and then later on the nurse said 'i know you already said it but damn i just cant stop looking at you!' #that nurse was really nice. really really nice. #the priest at the wake when saying a prayer for the family before everyone else started ushering in #mentioned what a beauty my grandmother was and what a lovely couple the two of them were. #they went to that local church for about 60 years so he mustve known them for decades. it was a nice touch.

[dutybcrne]

Kaeya wasn’t one to really get angry as a kid, but the very few times when he genuinely did, it was extremely obvious to everyone, in the way he carried himself.

#hc; kaeya #//Dude had/has like #//Mom type anger bfbfb #//Where his bad mood would just absolutely Contaminate the very room he was in and make the atmosphere utterly Suffocating #//He wouldn’t be confrontational about it either; just be absolutely Frigid; enough that it leaks through his politeness #//Which most of the time was at Luc (after antics gone too far or him pressing Kae abt himself/his past too much) #//Or maids who mouthed off and gossiped a bit too much; esp abt Addie. Which was the most frequent cause #//Only TWICE at Crepus; 1) directly when he tried to pry once; 2) from afar the day he died when Kae saw the Delusion on him #//And ONCE at Addie after Luc left & she tried to lessen the blame Kae heaped upon himself; in reasoning Luc could have; too #//He regrets that one most #//He’s not even overt with it; not usually. But still v palpable to those it’s directed at #//It’sa subtle storminess in his eye; a particular tension in his body.ACertain Tone in his voice; like an air of finality w each sentence #//It was far more obvious as a kid than present day; bc later on he got better at hiding it as smth else #//& as a bab; it was far more jarring to see him acting that way after being used to him being so warm and shy #//For Diluc esp; it was prolly a mad stressful affair each time it happened; no matter how infrequent #//One minute yer bro is jokin around & chilling; then he’s suddenly put what feels like leagues between you & kicked you off Dragonspine #//Tended to show up sometimes during their knight days at the others & ESP in his first few months as Cavalry Captain #//Except he was deffo far more willing to resort to confrontations over insubordination & challenges of his capability in latter #//Before he mellowed out again bc of Jean & Varka and really started picking up the silver tongue’n sly approach more #//It was more efficient seeing people fall apart seemingly from their own doings than do it himself & deal with the troublesome aftermaths #//Nowadays; his Vision acting up if anything is is main tell to if he’s angry or not #//Unless the person knows him REALLY well; or he genuinely can’t hold it back #//But that one is v extreme cases