#GOD IT ALL JUST HIT AT THE ONE MOMENT

[luxshua]

The winners of the life series all had their own ways of winning:

1. Grian loyalty, playing into every one of Scar's schemes no matter how stupid they seemed. His win came from blood and tears, a descion made surronded by sand and cacti.

2. Scott defiance, he was never going to play the game the way it was designed. Why would he take life needlessly, no his win came from the refusal to do the watchers bidding.

3. Pearl alone, discarded by her soulmate, discarded by the one who pulled her into the nether in the first place. She won with her ties cut, she won not of her own descion but of the one who decided for her.

4. Martyn scavenger, taking time where most convient, stealing kills from right under peoples noses. His win came when even his trusted ally had his guard down, feral and desperate for just a drop more time, even if it left him frenzied and alone.

#the life series #trafficblr #limited life #grian #pearlescentmoon #inthelittlewood #scott smajor #life series spoilers #limited life episode 8 #just a little thought i had in my head watching martyn's last episode #they all had their own unique ways of winning their games #god the theories the angst the pain you can pull from this series its magnificent #i live this series so much #i dont think their series would hit the same if it was all scripted #something about coincidences and pattersn reameraging organically hits so different #it leads into some of the most impactful moments #some of the best reactions #because no one knows it will happen till it does #2 years of one of the best minecraft series ever #till the next one o7 #and martyn if you end up reading this nice win i was rooting for you from the start #might actually put together a martyn cosplay finally been planning to for 2 years now 😭

[s-aint-elmo]

there was a post about daiba nana as a body snatcher horror from junna’s pov and it has me in a fucking chokehold.

imagine being roommates with somebody you haven't gotten to know yet, and it's a little awkward but you're both polite and she seems like a nice girl. she's kind and open and warm, ready with a helping hand or a listening ear, beloved quickly by your classmates in a way you never quite managed to convince people to love you. you could be friends with her, given time. you think she might want to be friends with you, too. 

you go to sleep as hoshimi-san and wake as hoshimi-san and walk to school as hoshimi-san, but, without warning, you cross the threshold of the classroom and suddenly you're junna-chan. 

suddenly, the friendly interest in daiba-san's eyes has deepened with an intensity that unnerves you, even when it manifests in entirely benign ways—an uncanny familiarity with your schedule, a fond glimmer for your quotations, an offering of your favourite snack food with a side of dishonesty in the way she claims it was a lucky guess. 

you feel seen. the way prey does when a predator reveals itself upwind. exposed and unprotected. 

but daiba-san is easy to like, easy to love, easy to forgive. you forget your unease in the face of her sincerity. she takes care of everybody as though it were her sole purpose on this earth, so you take care of her. 

when daiba-san becomes nana and you become junna-chan, willingly this time, you wonder if you imagined the anticipatory gleam in her eyes when you served her your first name, as though it were a favourite dish she'd long been craving.

#revue starlight #hoshimi junna #daiba nana #junnana #mine #bc banana is SO intense. she's got no fucking chill. she's gotta be some kind of indescribably terrifying after 60 years of playing god #even if all god wanted to do was live blissfully with her blorbos for all of eternity #how does banana get when one of her ultimate favourite most precious moments is coming up. what kind of expectant zeal sets her eyes alight #sets off some primal sense for the unsettling that bids you be wary of the girl tracking time like a hunter leading its prize #until it hits her sights #daiba nana on her own is already so insane. i just think we can make her worse #im on mobile rn so i can't find the post but iykyk

[tottenhamhotsperm]

i think about this moment all the time

#aew #young bucks #matt jackson #nick jackson #golden lovers #kenny omega #kota ibushi #video #first of all screw off jr for calling it a double v trigger and thank you excalibur for using the CORRECT name #i just. love how the bucks use the golden trigger on him the move that he and ibushi created so thats just. a huge fuck you to him #as one reddit user said its like reminding him 'this is why your ex broke up with you' #and kenny retaliated by kicking out at 1 #god. the crowd reaction was amazing too i mean cmon jr if all those people in the crowd know the story behind it shouldnt you too #nicks expression after kenny kicked out. perfect. kenny hitting the mat. amazing. they dont make matches like this anymore #sorry for the essay in the tags but yeah. i think about this moment a lot #gl classics

[twomystdunstans]

for as loud as taylor is he seems so so little and small sometimes and this episode really fucking just. hit the nail on the head so to speak. oh my god

#Hes so LOUD and hes so. Himself all the time but theres moments where im like ohhhhhhh god hes just a kid. Right. Right. #ohhh hes just little and wants his dad. #The bit with the housefire and him crying over Nick hit me in the guts and then the bit in this episode is like. Fuck dude #'If you could figure out the time travel thing and pick me up on the way.. backwards.' Do you want me to die? Freddie do you want me dead? #also fucking. 'this is as good as it is going to get.' #this podcast is trying to kill me #Dndads #dndads season 2 #dndads spoilers #dndads s2 #taylor swift dndads #taylor swift (not that one) #this episode came for me personally somehow

[thedevotionaltour]

thinking about daredevil yellow again im not. going to make it Guys.

#static.soundz #crying screaming and hitting the ground. so good. it made me cry really bad #bc whenever i think about jack n matt it always makes me think of me n my dad for various reasons #when matt said i couldnt feel his heartbeat inside me anymore. no words. #i rambled about it on my main but dd is very much intwined in an interesting and special way with my own heavy grief about my dad #and matt was a very important character to me during that time of my life for the exact same reason. #it's why i take a lot of very heavy issue when things try to make it so his dad died in his childhood as opposed to college #bc a) think it takes away a lot of the important nature of their relationship and b) my own personal projection #bc all grief at any stage is highly personal and unique and particular #but it really does feel like. matt is really just starting to become an adult (depending whether he dies when matt's in under or post grad) #(bc i can never remember which) but he's not quite a mega established one. there's still that lingering of childhood #so even though he's grown. it just hurts in a very particular way. they saw you grow up. but they didnt really see you become an adult. #they did not see the person you're going to be. that you are. that you're becoming. it feels like such a bizarre unfair moment in time. #bc why now? why not when i was younger? why not when i was truly an adult adult who is expecting to lose you now? #why at this moment and no other time? #but thinking about matt going i wish i told my dad how much i loved him. #more than anything when he goes 'i love you dad. did you hear? i love you.' #it made me cry like a fucking bitch. honest to god tearing up when i type about it. it wrenches my heart it twists it and it makes me wanna #drop to my knees and just weep and weep and weep. they are everything to me. #i have intertwined a lot of matt's grief with mine in a way that makes him so so so important to me. because as stupid as it fucking sounds #that comic and him as a character are everything to me. so genuinely. they were a lifeline my freshman year #when i was so depressed all i could do was read comics. or listen to music #i could do nothing else. i did. clearly. i did work and assignments. but dd was everything to me alongside dm #im sorry i am being an actual like nutbag in my tags im sorry i just have a lot of feelings. this story is everything to me ever ok? ok.

[koholintnightmare]

the new scenario from the concert was interesting too, thinking about the dynamic for 2b/9s going forward from ending E

i was. crying a bit too much to read it properly but it seems like 9s will retain Some Problems forever . he had to watch 2b (slowly over the course of their journey to the. Church) die AGAIN in front of him after they had their miracle revival by the pods, and he was going to become Fucked Up Again, but the black box restoration thingy happened and now theyre both fine. but their internal monologues after that, i only remember 2bs talking about "helping him through his pain" or something and how theyre breaking the Cycle theyre in, but. that does imply that he will Always and forever have those Problems if something happens to 2b again and hes left alone

#natm lb #funny as hell how theyre integrating the church mod into canon. insane. i love it. #i have yet to watch/play said mod but also when they talked about how 'this is where yorha units come to die' and 2b knew that her end was- #near that just. it hit . like god and 9s also realizing too that she was going ti join the others and his Despair until they had a- #goddamn celebi 4ever moment #all of the corpses like floating in the air and repairing one individual lol

[rowanhoney]

actually today I’m very overwhelmed with love

#earlier it was one thing then another and then another #now I’m thinking abt cb. who I last saw this time a year ago #and we spoke a few times this year #a lot of ups and downs in my feelings towards #i just hit a moment of pure like…. give cb all my love I hope things are going well but god i have no desire for your presence in my life #which is nice #all like. positively neutral? attachment broken? #bruh is this cos Chiron stationed direct in my 7h #venus se tile Pluto also perhaps

[scribesynnox]

Ahh, the infamous Danny Phantom fic, Mortified by marsalias.

Aka

Oh my god I’m 164 chapters into here and Danny STILL hasn’t caught a break yet, please please, PLEASE. Everyone. Can we PLEASE stop attacking and hurting Danny already? Oh my god.

#danny phantom #dp fic: mortified #I love this fic so so much #it lives in my head rent free #but oh my god marsalias when is this poor kid gonna catching a fuckin BREAK??? #the lore! the worldbuilding! the people! #ITS ALL SO FUCKING GOOD!!! #but since the moment you hit GO you have not given this poor kid a fucking break and at this point I am on my knees begging #he has had not one! not three! but SO MANY god damn attacks! #it’s just one thing after another for poor Danny #my posts

[thelastspeecher]

me watching DIs yesterday: I can excuse murder and cancer, but I draw the line at animal cruelty

#I had to judge DIs at the tournament and oh my god it was such a SLOG #I have no idea how people can compete in it #when you have to hear these upsetting and distressing pieces OVER AND OVER #anyways the one that hit me the hardest emotionally #the one I barely avoided crying over #was the one with the animal mistreatment #not the murder or bullying or cancer ones nope the one where the animal suffered #it wasn't the best performance I saw. it was just the one that made me most emotional. bc of the topic. #(DI stands for Dramatic Interpretation. #it is a speech event that people sometimes refer to as ''Depressing Interp'' #or ''Murder Rape and Cancer'' #bc that's what the pieces are #all the pieces I saw yesterday fit at least one of those categories.) #ANYWAYS how about that speech content from speechie eh???? #I have OPINIONS and EXPERIENCE and multiple awards in Speech #and one award in debate #they needed seat fillers for a debate event so my coach signed me up #and then I fuckign placed jaklnsdjnkfsdf #my best debate moment ever #even better than the time I went up against someone who got all upset when I said #''well then your uncle broke the law'' #GIRL YOU BROUGHT UP YOUR UNCLE TO TRY TO MAKE YOUR POINT #that is my second-best debate moment #bc it was so memorable and also was one of the few rounds I won lmfaoooooo #speecher speaks

[bibiana112]

I'm going to draw wktd fanart (to cope with a highly specific situation) while I still have the time for it (looming employment) and that is a promise to myself (I probably have something else I said I'd work on but whatever)

#I strt at the end of the month and I'm #I'm not even gonna say I'm scared I'm not I'm just not quite excited either? I'll pull through #and hopefully eat better and be able to buy fun things thaNK FUCK #however also taxes. I am not looking forward to taxes #like it's literally an ideal position if I don't manage it for whatever reason that'll be uh. something big for me to find out limits wise #but it's whatever I'm curious and I gotta try #and like I said god I'll be so happy to be able to afford hyper specific autism approved food that's gonna make everything so much easier #oh also the hyper specific situation? don't worry about it. just know I'm going to cry into whatever I draw for that game atm #I mentioned it in the post I made about it these days I literally skimmed through lines of one of the endings and immediately cried a single #Annoying tear. I feel like I don't cry about life things as much as would be healthy to and when I do I don't cry right #so I just get so annoyed at these sudden single tear moments when I'm not even putting effort into anything they just leak out #because something on a screen hit too close to home in an instant but I can't even properly Feel it because I'm focused on something else #and the thing in question has well been Acknowledged and rendered Irrelevant #it's not satisfying like crying for being engrossed on a story and/or characters and I absolutely hate how idk picturesque? it feels #people criticize drawing crying with a pretty single tear all the time it feels so fake and forced to fit the medium in a way that's still #appealing and consumable but I'm just a person with depersonalization issues. reverse derealization. everything's real except me #anyways I wasn't spiraling I will continue to not spiral about that at this moment but that's constantly there in my brain #and I'm going to draw the body horror lesbian polycule about it #Void fala aí #oh yeah I promised field sib content uh I can easily do that as a warm-up on a work day obviously pfft #''end of the month'' she's so pretentious you mean next week

[kazoologist]

I actually really fucking hate how anything in my schedule not going the way I initially Intended For It To just automatically makes me a massive fucking crybaby and or a raging bitch. Like dude. The grocery store does not hate me. It sucks that my schedule requires me to get there an hour earlier no matter what but like. They didn’t do that to me. Why am I always so upset whenever I have to change plans. I change plans too! I’m a living person!!! Why am I so fucking upset about this!!!!!!

#personal #im gonna delete this later I’m just venting #I’m also fine I’m just having a rough day and I can’t figure out why my emotions have been so fucking volatile. It’s so frustrating that #I can’t figure out how to get a handle on my emotions. I know I need to feel things but the problem is if I let myself feel them too much #Then I’m going to spiral or lash out at some random bystander and both of these make the initial feeling worse #I just can’t pull myself out of that quickly enough recently. It’s not an issue of ability bc I can. I just can’t do it. #wait that’s contradictory. I’ve been really struggling too recently. There we go. There’s accuracy. #Either way. Didn’t I spend all year in therapy last year trying to get this shit together? What the fuck. #Why is it the second I show a modicum of progress I immediately hit a single pebble on the road and get sent ass over teakettle #Progress isn’t linear but it also sure as hell isn’t meant to be a time loop. That I’m pretty sure of. #God everything’s just been so difficult this year. Shit that used to be almost instinctual to me now is a nightmare. #Maybe it’s growing pains and I guess that’s valid but how long do I have to have them #The good news is that thus far I have not snapped at anyone so at least right now we don’t have any casualties of my bad attitude #I feel so bad being so worried about that but like seriously no one needs me to be snapping at them. Even if I feel catharsis in the moment #We all feel bad immediately afterwards #It’s literally not even been a bad day today. I cannot emphasize how this has been the only problem today. Literally so much good happened #Ugh #dont look at me

[tortademaracuya]

... :)

#about to rant so ignore me #but like #okay. i have gotten over my assigned professor being changed. its okay. if she says this is better i trust her decision #and the forgetting to tell me and my new professor not having understood he had to read my stuff now is just an unfortunate accident #it happens. im unlucky like that i should be used to it #but now i still havent gotten even a single 'read' or whatever like they do with all my other classmates #if i go to class tomorrow just to find out no one still hasnt read what i have been working on for the last 5 weeks im #im going to explode #i already feel like shit for not meeting my self imposed goals #and its not like they could forget i have had no revisions BECAUSE I REMINDED THEM AGAIN TO PLEASE CHECK THEM OUT ON THE EMAIL I SENT #im just. so desmotivated #im already having the shittiest fucking weeks. maybe months. trying to get myself to work and do stuff #and this makes me feel like im that forgettable or that im gonna get hit with a 'change EVERYTHING' in the worst last possible moment #im so tired my intentions are good please someone for the love of god remember IM HEREEEEEEE #nothing is enjoyable i have no energy i just want to sleep everyday!!!!!!! i feel like im a burden and a bore to anyone!!!!!!! #im not wanted anywhere!!!!!! im fucking painted in here!!!!! #i have begun to talk about stuff unrelated to what i was originally saying 🙃 but oh well #its too much too many things all at the same time #i just want one fucking time where im not forgotten by literally everyone and made feel like a last fucking choice i want good things!!!!! #and im so tired of coming to terms with me never being anything to anyone just for someone to come and make me think maybe im wrong #just for everything to go to shit again!!!!!!! #i want to scream and take space and say how mad i am no more fucking 'dont worry its okay' 'sorry' no fuck off!!!!!!! SCREAM!!!!! #haunted.txt

[dirt-mccracken]

Spent a lot of time this week thinking about the inherent vulnerability of being loved and was hit with the overwhelming realization of how much love I have been surrounded in and refused to let myself experience thanks to my own deep insecurities.

#all the ways my friends have been screaming 'I love you' for years that I shrugged off calmly and ungratefully #all the times I refused the idea anyone could love or care for /me/ the way I often do for others #all these things hitting like a stone #all the times I wish I would have said 'thank you #'thank you for seeing something in me' instead of assuring them they were wrong. instead of insisting I MUST be bad because I felt bad #and even now knowing all this how hard it is to combat that instinct and finally let myself be loved the way I love #all the different ways crashing like a wave #'i miss you' #'come visit' #'move back here' #'when will I see you again?' #'can I call?' #'I'm glad you're still here' #and all the ways I just. never let myself think they meant it and how ungrateful I have been #it's a lot and it's not just me but god im so so.lucky #so lucky to live a life full of love and friends who stay and new ones all the time and its just hard #seeing all the ways i worsened my own pain in my worst moments because I just refused to see a beyter world #i couldn't imagine telling myself a decade ago where we end up #and i couldn't imagine that kid even believing we stayed alive #and it hurts but also feels very veru good #to be here #to see the love #to get a second chance with all of it #sorry guys lol

[arolesbianism]

Mizuki vc calling all besties, survive

#rat rambles #sekai posting #in other news I am NOT ok #read the new story. oh baby. #ok ok look at me look at me. this gave me so much that I wanted and more #the big thing is that Im so so happy that they had mizuki relate to mafuyu the way they did #and Im also so glad that they tapped into the mizuki being the token good homelife haver here #Ive always felt that theyre the one with the most reference on what a healthy family looks like and as such felt that theyd best recognise #the true horror of mafuyu's home life #their home was their only safe space for a long time so the idea of losing that hits especially hard for them #also the whole thing abt them realising it was them 'running away' from their problems that ultinately saved them hit me hard #it just hits rly close to home for me. cause thats how shit really is sometimes. sometimes the best you can do is survive in the moment #and I think mafuyu rly needed to be told that. that sometimes you just need to survive moments. its not much but its the most they can do #godddd I love mizuki sm this was such a good mizuki event #also mafuyu. god. mafuyu. fuck man. mafuyu #all the scenes with them broke my fucking heart. and the scene with their mom. I wanted to kill that bitch. holy fucking shit #mafuyu is so so scared rn. theyre in a rly rly scary place. their rapidly losing the only comfort they had and its genuienly rly scary #its also so magical to me watching how far theyve come. they love 25ji so much. they have gotten so much better at expeessing themself to #what rly gets me is just how much their growth shows even outside of 25ji. as they grow closer to a self thats theirs it becomes harder to #hide that self and that in particular is very relatable to my own experiences #god. fucking hell. Im going to kill a man

[ellcrys]

HOLY FUCK?!!!!!!

BITCH I’M SCREAMING

#little women tv blogging #i had an entire list of 'oh shit' moments ready to go #and then we hit the ending and i was like oh mY FUCKING GOD #wiped that ready to go list clean from my brain #it was like a repeat of the last of us episode 8 #every 'oh fuck' moment just kept getting worse and worse #you're sitting there thinking: yeah i've seen it all nothing will surprise me at this point #and then the show hits you with an even more deranged 'oh fuck' moment than the last one

[crescentmp3]

soon i wont even be vagueposting about my pain anymore im just gonna start posting in detail like my blog is a journal.

#many topics but one of them is impossible to talk about here because person in question will see. next topic then #i relistened to two audio messages my ex-classmate sent me when i was still in middle school and in love with her and i want to cry! great. #im the reason we drifted apart‚ is what causes the pain mostly. #im so terrible at starting conversations it caused our entire friendship to end. our four year friendship #we had so many intimate moments together and heartfelt conversations and told each other things we never spoke a word about to any other/ #/person in our lives and i was the reason it all ended just because of the stupid fear i have that if i send a message first i'll be/ #/annoying. by god i accidentally ended a four year friendship out of fear of it ending #one thing i hate about my tendencies is my overworrying over every little action i take. #i know that if a person i talk to is worth being a friend with‚ they'll forgive these little mistakes i'll make‚ but the idea of being/ #/imperfect is so terrifying to me that i cant even bring myself to talk to someone unless they explicitly tell me its okay. #and on top of that i need it constantly too. #the thing is i hate this. i hate that i cant. i know its illogical and im making up things to be afraid of but i cant stop. #its that if im imperfect that means the person in front of me has a chance to hate me and that thought is so terrifying i choose to not/ #/interact at all #i hate to admit i silently pray for a few specific people to interact with me every day because i know i couldn't do it myself #the way this is is because if they interact with me first that means i can be sure they want it! theres no other way to be sure #and i dont even know why i need to be sure. i know i dont. i can just attempt conversation and go away if they'd rather not talk to me #i just. its terrifying #let me summarize. what if they hit me with the beam #basically. #♚ — vent ! #vent tw #tw vent #ask to tag