#But u dont have the heart to delete them because that would ruin the purpose of why i started doing this to begin with

[natsmagi]

Do you ever feel bad about your art? I've tried drawing before, but it never looked good so I just quit

OUGH SOMETIMES TBH....... though id kinda say thats part of the drawing process 💔💔

for me theres two types of "feeling bad" abt my art; the first being more imposter syndrome-y where i just kinda feel guilty over the amount of recognition i get when theres so many artists that i think are better and deserve it more than i do and other things along that line

the second one (and probably more universal) is, ofc, the feeling that ur art kinda sucks sometimes. honestly its very rare for a drawing to turn out the way i had originally envisioned because i simply do not have the skills to pull it off, which sucks!! and honestly, alot of the time i just try pushing through despite me hating the way the drawing looks. usually ill still post it even if i hate it, because in a way i think its kinda important to let myself be bad at art, and my blog was never meant to be used as a portfolio anyway, so why not post the things im less proud of aswell? especially since the communities im part of are rather niche, and i feel as though even if the quality is bad, someone might still be happy to see it!

so i let myself not be perfect with my art, as i feel being stuck on the same piece is only going to stagnate my growth and make me frustrated. not to mention the drawing usually only ends up looking Worse the more i try to fix it, and me posting a drawing is basically me putting a full stop to working on the drawing, forcing me to move on to something else and try again

art doesnt always look good!! and it most DEFINITELY is never perfect, but i also kinda find beauty in that yknow?? especially when uve been drawing for a while, its always fun to look back and see ur progress! its fun to see ur missteps and how u managed to improve! ive mentioned it before, but the sole reason i even created this account was so that i Would improve my art. i didnt really have much going on so i thought id genuinely try my hands at art again, which i had grown less passionate about the years prior. this blog is me sharing what ive created, no matter how amateurish it is, no matter my ups and downs, because i believe that will help me grow in the end! ive posted numerous attempts at various styles (moreso rendering styles) to see what i think suits me and what i find most pleasure in, aswell as my art style in general being rather stylized (the simplistic faces for example), figuring out what ways of drawing made me happy and what didnt through trial and error!

the first step is always the hardest, but its better than no step at all! so if you wanna draw, just go for it! its ok for it to look bad! keep trying various styles and methods until you find one that makes you happy!! its ok to be inconsistent!!

#having ur art journey documented online is all fun and games until u remember ur old ugly as fuck art is still available for everyone to see #But u dont have the heart to delete them because that would ruin the purpose of why i started doing this to begin with #so i just gotta SUCK IT UP. #ITS OK TO BE BAD!!!!! WE ALL SUCK SOMETIMES!!!!!!!!! ITS OK!!!!!!!!!! #ask #no matter the quality all art is valuable............. this is what i believe

[hyun95]

Question Tag

tagged by @hwangminyeo (hi!!! thank u for tagging ily!!) THE LAST

drink: orange juice.

phone call: mum.

text message: text voted music core to tell them about how much i love nu’est. (i dont use text credit asdfg).

song you listened to: I Need You by Kim Sunggyu.

time you cried: very recently.

HAVE YOU EVER

dated someone twice: no?? ? (idk if that was me dating them)

kissed someone and regretted it: no.

been cheated on: no.

lost someone special: yes.

been depressed: six years.

gotten drunk and thrown up: no.

3 FAVORITE COLORS

black

pastels blue

pastel pink

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

made new friends: yes! a lot of friends on tumblr/twt!

fallen out of love: yes

laughed until you cried: yes

found out someone was talking about you: no.

met someone who changed you: nope

found out who your friends are: i the official doormat.

kissed someone on your Facebook list: yikes no.

GENERAL

how many Facebook friends do you know in real life: deleted facebook.

do you have any pets: yes! i have a dog named nana, after nana of after school.

do you want to change your name: yes. ellie is a shortened version of my real name.

what did you do for your last birthday: slept.

what time did you wake up: 10am.

what were you doing at midnight last night: played games.

name something you can’t wait for: nu’est w disbandment. (bc when the sub unit ends they will some back as nu’est ot5.. ok jokejokejoke.)

when was the last time you saw your mom: few hours ago.

what are you listening to right now: my friends yelling at me over league of legends.

have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes.

something that is getting on your nerves: my ex fp

most visited website: tumblr!

hair color: dark brown.

long or short hair: my hair is down to my bellybutton, its the source of my power.

do you have a crush on someone: i can never tell.

what do you like about yourself: great taste in music, grab urself a nu’est cd.

blood type: O?

nickname: ellie

relationship status: ha!

zodiac: cancer

pronouns: she/her

favorite tv show: none

tattoos: i want to get a minimalistic compass tattoo, because nu’est logo is compass, but idk if they still use it anymore so asdfgh.

right or left handed: right.

surgery: got my fingertip re-attached lmao.

sport: a what?

vacation: ticket one way, ticket one way, one way one way one way ticket.

pair of shoes: i’m trying to collect as many boots as humanly possible.

MORE GENERAL

eating: always.

drinking: whatever ruins my teeth.

I’m about to: really do it this time.

waiting for: 5th member... lololol...

want: refilled bank account.

get married: yes please.

career: i would consider it.

WHICH IS BETTER

hugs or kisses: hugs.

lips or eyes: eyes.

shorter or taller: shorter, so we can battle for dominance.

older or younger: younger, i hang with the kids.

nice arms or nice stomach: nice fingertip.

hook up or relationship: relationship.

troublemaker or hesitant: both.

HAVE YOU EVER

kissed a stranger: no

drank hard liquor: yes

lost glasses/contact lenses: i can only see shapes and colors without glasses, i’m planning on having them glued to my face.

turned someone down: yes.

sex on the first date: a what.

broken someone’s heart: yes but they broke mine on purpose so :^)

had your heart broken: a lot

been arrested: no

cried when someone died: yes.

fallen for a friend: i can’t tell, i love all of my friends a lot.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

yourself: i'd consider it.

love at first sight: no

santa clause: i’d fight him.

kiss on the first date: unless on the cheek. rest is dlc.

angels: yes his name is choi mingi.

OTHER

eye color: gray

favorite movie: none.

I will tag my lovelies: @2hyeons @minhyunii @nuest-beast (i dont talk 2 u that much omg im sry ily) @minhwangs @tokkimingi @luminous-point @hyuncakes @winnietheboo @bbaekmin​ @a-scene-without-you​ and any one else who wants to do it. (not obligatory but i’d love to read what you guys are up to!)

#long post #this is quite long sry for interrupting ur scrolling experience #if u made it this far ily #goodnight~~

[whalefairyfandom12]

Your Love's a Fucking Drag (But I Need it So Bad)

Summary: Dan likes black and leather jackets, Phil likes reading in solitude and playing video games. But they have one thing in common as new roommates at uni: They are both completely straight. Just because they like to get each other off every once in a while doesn’t make it any different.

A/N: We've been writing this fic for over a year now and it's strange to think this is the last time we'll be doing this. Thank you so much for all of your support and we hope you enjoy the final chapter <33

Masterpost

Chapter Nine

 *picks up after “true bros swallow” from chapter seven

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don’t judge me makila

I’m 110% judging right now smh no homo just bromo

I came here to have a good time and im honestly feeling so attacked rn

Not as attacked as Dan’s cock amiright

STOP THIS IMMEDIATELy

...That's what he said and then Phil made him

My mind is literally blank rn jfc i have absolutely no comebacks whatsoever

On a scale of one to Dan’s mind during orgasm from a brojob how blank?

Like dan’s mind during orgasm and then some

Yet somehow Phil Lester’s lips aren't involved. I think he got the better deal, really. Also cuddles after

Im jealous of dan i want phil lester’s cuddles :<

I swear to god we sound so ace right now 100 to 0 real fast

*writes sex scene* “Wow i cant wait to cuddle the fuck out of phil” 100% ace

Seriously though Phil probably gives some of the best cuddles imaginable I'm jealous

My friend met him and she said he gives the best hugs out of anyone she’s ever met

You know what fuck Phan I'm stealing Phil for myself

“Hi do u have any philxreader fics” dats u

“I don't want the yang wang dang just the hugging”

Im fucking pissing myself im hilarious

I think my mom just heard that snort

Im literally laughing so hard and my dogs started barking bc of it christ i need sleep

Jesus Christ has very little to do with this conversation, trust me ;)))))))))))))

I hope he isn’t too mad that i started involving him in our crimes

We’re all going to hell anyway, what's one more crime really

Imagine if jesus went to hell with us JESUS READS TOO MUCH GAY PORN

“So what was your punishment?”

“I liked sucking cocks too”

“Same. Only bros?”

“True bros swallowed. Dat was me.”

Jeezy wheezy (sry i cant type wow) thats amazing and i had something to say but i dont REMEMBER

They say losing your memory this early means you're definitely screwed and damned to hell

I mean we already knew i was going to hell so whats the difference

I've spent my evening reading gay porn stars AU instead of studying that ship has sailed

Porn star aus are the best thing ever no ragerts

“Ragerts”-Rachel, 2016

The sin has clouded your thoughts

Im gonna get that tattooed on me “no ragerts”

You can say not only were you extremely drunk when you got it you were also drunk when you thought it up. A win win

“How did you get that tattoo??” “Well im always drunk man”

“Drunk on gay smut and memes”

I read too much about bros swallowing loads

You need to fire your autocorrect and get a better one

Im on my computer so looks like i just have to fire my brain

Our wordcount has upped significantly can we just keep this here. “Now presenting a short intermission from your writers”

Oh my god when we upload the last chapter (whenever the fuck that will be jesus christ what are we doing with this story) we should post this

Imagine the day when our inboxes will no longer be filled with messages of “WHEN THE FUCK IS THE NEXT CHAPTER OF YLAFD GOING TO BE UP??????”

That’s the day that the earth will truly implode

See the real question is who’s going to store all these screenshots on their camera roll? Forfeit those sick GBs

I can screenshot them on my computer hahaha

Way to ruin the moment Rachel wooooooow :(((((((( That was so low not even Dan could recover (get it because he’s a bottom? I'm so tired smh)

Sorry bro (*insert lenny face here bc im too lazy to do that*) i hope dans proud of me

He knows it's just about bros doing bro things I'm sure he’d fully endorse our fics. (And let’s be honest, I'll bet you one hundred dollars this hasn't happened to him at least once)

Oh him and phil have d e f i n i t el I GIVE UP fucked

Which will come out first? Dan Howell or Sherlock’s next season? YO MAMA’S SO FAT BY THE TIME SHE TURNS AROUND DAN HOWELL CAME OUT!!!!!1!

JESUS CHriST “How many licks does it take for dan howell to come out?” “The world may never know”

Oh he’ll be coming all right *insert lenny face*

HE’LL BE COMING AROUND THE MOUNTAIN WHEN HE COMES

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WHAT THE FUCK MAKILA NO the human centipede lol

ヽ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ﾉ POOP

Ur enjoying urself aren’t u

FIGHT ME (ง ͠° ͟ل͜ ͡°)ง (what? I don't have an entire wall of lenny’s saved to my notes for this very purpose that would be ridiculous haha ha ha ha…)

Usually when i use a lenny face i go back and copy it from one of my friend’s text messages so ALL THE JUDGEMENT HERE UR FIRED

AT LEAST LENNY STILL LOVES ME 
( ͡°╭͜ʖ╮͡° )ᕤ holy shit we broke 14k yay us #rakilaftwrioolymipcs2k16

(ʘ‿ʘ✿) we literally broke 14k because we wrote an entire essay about how much of a meme we are (why is this a different color text wtf)

All better. The perfectionist in me is satisfied.

Im proud of you makkypoo

BU-BUT SENPAIIIIIIII REALLY????? JU-JUST ME???????

JUST U MACKLEMORE (i think im so funny)

Macklemore I'm dying (right and Phil’s dating Dan. Oh wait)

I think your nickname is no longer makila but instead macklemore

Once we release these screenshots it will be THANKS RACHEL UR FIRED NOW

BUT ): A KOUHAI CANT HIRE THEIR SENPAIIIIIIII (also i hope you start getting messages about macklemore now)

WOW I FEEL SO LOVED :,(((((((((( a single man tear

A man tear… like uh i dont have a fucking comeback im So TIRED LIKE UR MUMS MAN TEAR

THE NERVE!!!!!!!!!1!1! WELL YOUR MUM’S MAN TEAR IS SO UNMANLY NOT EVEN DAN WOULD THINK IT WAS ATTRACTIVE SO THERE BITE ME

Cuz we all know dan thinks every man tear is attractive rip to dan’s heart (and his sexuality)

“Here lies Dan’s heterosexuality and heteronormativity. It will be sorely--screw it no it won't.”

Dan’s heterosexuality&heteronormativity,,, June 10, 1991 - Today (what is today) August 20, 2016

“We gather to celebrate with smut and Lenny human centipedes.” I need sleep so badly right now smh I'm dead tomorrow

GO TO SLEEP (honestly i do too i have to wake up early to move back to uni rip)

I will if you do. A bro pact. (A broct? Pacbro?)

Just… stop right there LOL lets form a broct(?) and just brosleep it out

I hope Phil brohugs you bro

Thanks bro i hope phil brocuddles u my dude, my bro

Aw you mean it bro? U r always there for me, man, I luv u u r like a brother to me, bro

Bro… oh my god bro, that’s the broest thing anyones ever said to me… i love u bro.. Like bromantically

Not as much as I platonically 110% heterosexually love u bro. Just bromo tho no homo

That’s the new phrase of this fic “just bromo, no homo”

*deletes summary and changes it to that* seriously why aren't we sleeping GO TO BED RAKILA

OKAY IM GONNA ACTUALLY SLEEP NOW CUZ WE NEED IT

NIGHT BRO DON’T LET THE FIREFLIES BITE MAN

NIGHT TO U TOO BROKILA DONT LET TO BRO BUGS BITE

#your love's a fucking drag (but I need it so bad) #ylafdbinisb #fanfiction #phan #phanfiction #phan au #this is it guys #the end #:'))