#BUT GOOD GOD THIS BOOK FUCKING HIT

[libraryleopard]

moodboard for when you just finished reading imogen, obviously and becky albertalli somehow managed to put a significant amount of the painful overthinking regarding your sexuality from when you were in high school in a published book

#i never really had a 'passionate straight ally' phase because i kinda always vaguely thought i might not be straight for most of high schoo #*school #BUT GOOD GOD THIS BOOK FUCKING HIT #like. jesus. this might be one of the most relatable queer books i've ever read #imogen obviously #books #lulu speaks #lulu reads #lulu reads imogen obviously

[lakesbian]

Re: this post https://www.tumblr.com/lakesbian/715722672922902528/i-think-the-best-society-would-not-be-happy-if

I would LOVE for you to elaborate on how Amy’s whole character concept ties into this!

amy is an absolutely terrifying example of the fact that powers are 1. randomized and 2. designed to be useful in combat.

you have the people who randomly trigger with something horrifically powerful and then immediately pull a nilbog and take over a small town. you have the people who hide or downplay aspects of their power to avoid demonstrating how much damage they could do, like crucible only using the "bubble forcefield" part of his power and not the "can cook the absolute shit out of anything, or anyone, he traps inside his bubble forcefield" part of his power.

and then, as chance would dictate, you have the amys. the people with horrifically powerful abilities desperately trying to keep the amount of harm they're capable of doing under lock and key. the people trying very, very hard not to use their powers in the worst way possible. and that's fucking difficult--as chevalier observes in his interlude, powers drive you back to your lows, back to the circumstances under which you triggered.

(and every time amy uses the full extent of her power on victoria, it is when she's been driven back to the circumstances of her trigger. she triggers because she was terrified victoria was going to die and leave her alone. she impulsively changes victoria's brain because she's terrified she's going to leave victoria and be alone. she makes victoria into icktoria the wretch because she is, again, terrified of letting victoria go and being alone.)

amy is, in many ways, almost designed to piss people off. she's got one of the scariest, most useful, and most plot-important powers in the entire story. people can't hear about amy without having an opinion about what they would do with her power, and that applies to characters within the setting. there are a million different terrible-glorious things she could do with it, and yet she's...a generally pathetic, unlikable teenage girl, who has to be wheedled into giving taylor useful bugs during a slaughterhouse nine attack, who makes spiteful threats about what she could do while firmly restricting herself from healing brains. she fucking irritates people. she's got power most other people could only dream of, and all she does with it is stand around bleeding from her finger-stumps firmly rejecting anyone with an idea about how she should be using her power.

and everyone should actually be really grateful for that, because literally all of the alternatives for how she could be using it are worse.

no one would make fully good choices about having her powers or directing her in how to use them. imagine if someone like taylor or saint or rachel had amy's powers. imagine how very quickly that would all go to shit. amy's power-related decisionmaking skills are obviously awful, but they're still good enough to keep her alive and get her to the right spot to actually use her power to its full extent during gold morning. she's holding one of the most important cards in the game, and despite everything, she doesn't totally fumble it. i don't think many other characters could have done the same in her spot.

and the reason she doesn't totally fumble it is that for vast amounts of her life, she's keeping its actual intended usage under tight wraps. as far as society is concerned, she's panacea the healer. takes care of your physical injuries and neatly avoids doing anything that would make you think about how powerful she actually is, helpful or otherwise. (no viruses which make you immune to this year's flu being released into the air! we don't want people realizing that means she could release another black plague, too.) the random citizens she's healing don't know that she could turn them into something out of a junji ito comic or man after man*. they don't know that she could fine-tune their brain until they're ready to compulsively fight to the death for her. they're not thinking about how she could kill them with a touch of her pinky finger, they're thinking about how she's panacea, the healer, the cure-all girl.

they're not thinking about the fact that her power isn't supposed to be for healing. it's supposed to be for creating wretches. it's supposed to be for tapping people and making their hearts stop. it's supposed to be for hurting people in ways you did not know it was possible to hurt someone. it's supposed to be for conflict. every cape in worm is walking around with a loaded weapon sewn into their body and mind. amy is a horrifying and deeply compelling subversion of the healing-superpowers trope. worm's token healer cape, the cape with the white robe and the miracle touch, the panacea, is also one of the setting's scariest weapons.

and in worm's setting, every weapon, every power, can't help but be used. amy was carrying the weight of idolized, godlike power on her shoulders. everyone in the setting is lucky that she only faltered and never completely fell. society would not fucking be happy if they found out how much damage amy is capable of casually doing.

*the speculative evolution book seasons greasons is from. it is not good. but go look it up so you can visualize what i mean by 'turn them into something out of man after man.'

#worm #parahumans #amy dallon #ham don't look #scarf don't look #like conceptually she FUCKS she's an incredible subversion on the healer superhero trope #every wormpower is designed 4 conflict so a powerful healer must inherently be capable of powerful harm #worm is a setting where random teen girls who suck will randomly have the weight of god placed on their shoulders! #one teen girl who sucks is the ONLY thing btwn brockton bay and Bonesaw Prion Disease! #it rocks! good ass book! #despite all the bad bits worm is good!!! and interesting!!! #anyway i hope this was an interesting elaboration #this is the first time i've articulated this thought abt her so hopefully it hits the right notes #ask

[greenerteacups]

Hi GT! What are you reading right now? What were your favourite books last year? Do you write annotations as you read? Use tabs? I’m curious about what kind of reader you are!

Sending all my love & gratitude for you & your prose! Lionheart is truly a delight & one of the loveliest parts of my week.

I'm currently reading Dostoyevsky's Crime and Punishment. I pick my reads through a process of "bug my friends about what they're reading" and "wander around bookstores and libraries until The Cosmos sends me the book I need." The results are, in my experience, exceptional. I usually get my books from libraries, so I neither tab nor annotate, though I don't do it in the books I own, either. Usually if I have a particular theory or through-line I want to trace in a book I'll write up a little mini-essay or review about it, like a reading journal.

In general, I'm a fast, picky, flighty reader. I have absolutely no reservations about DNFing a book — I think the alternative is a silly function of sunk cost — if the author's giving signals that they're going to fuck the reader over, or if I'm just not interested in the approach the author is taking to their project. (E.g. A Sport and a Pastime, by James Salter, is a project about voyeurism and narrativizing. Love it! It undertakes this project by having a mythically handsome Yale dropout fuck a waitress for 200 pages. Did not love it. I made the mistake of finishing the book because I, like a fool, assumed he would at some point stop fucking the waitress and stumble into a plot. Life lesson learned: if an author has been fucking the waitress for at least 100 pages, odds are, he intends to keep fucking the waitress.)

You could argue that I miss out on books where the middle and ending makes the project work. I probably do. But my own view is that if I'm 30% deep in a book and the author hasn't given me a reason to trust them, it's because I probably shouldn't.

#greenteacup asks #favorite books last year uhhhhh oh god oh fuck #read the locked tomb trilogy! if you like my writing style you'll love tamsyn muir #read emma by jane austen read deathless by cat valente #READ DEATHLESS please #read atonement... god DAMN last year was a good year in reading #i'm waiting to hit that kind of stride this year #we'll see. we'll see

[mainenorth]

Hunting Adeline has a The Most Dangerous Game reference don’t talk to me I’m inconsolable

#FUCK THIS #I HATE THIS BOOK #I HOPE ADELINE GETS FUCKING BRUTUALLY MURDERED AND LEFT IN A DITCH #Haunting Adeline is genuinely the worst thing I’ve ever read #going crazy #dont even say erm actually it doesn’t 🤓☝️ #god i hate it here #anyone who says anything written by the author is good needs to get hit by a truck #I hope anyone who likes this author and her writing gets all of their limbs crushed in a factory #<- me after a hunter huntee dynamic is introduced #do not get in the way of a man and his favourite short story #jacks thoughts from the moon #haunting adeline #booktok #booktok slander #if anyone wants a review tell me because I love to rang about stupid shiy #and everything this author has written is stupid shit #anybody who is peddling this book: I hope you get cheated on and witness iy #kys #hunting adeline

[emile-hides]

when the theater guy WHAT

I went to see the FNaF Movie today and seeing as I have a total of Zero friends in real world event range and both of my parents hate horror I had to go to the theater by myself for the very first time in my life, which was fine. Until it wasn't

The dude in charge of ticket checks stops me and instead of asking to see a ticket asks if the mask I was wearing was part of some costume. Little black cloth face mask, covid thing. He was an old man on a scooter and not wanting to have a discussion with this tiny old man about Covid19 I just went along with it and said sure yeah. It kind of was anyway, it has a little bear mouth on it and I was wearing Bear Ears and a brown cardigan as well.

Man goes "You can't wear a mask in here." I say "Why not?" He says "You can't wear a mask in here." I go, "I heard that part. Why Not. "Policy, I don't make the rules, just enforce them." I realize this man is being paid minimum wage to sit here and police people so I go, "Okay." and walk past him because he's just some guy in a little scooter in the middle of the atrium and he hasn't asked for my ticket so I assume that's Not His Job

He calls me back for my ticket so I take out my phone with the QR code with my ticket on it and he takes my phone to (I assumed) scan the code and then he pulls out his walkie and calls his manager and I realize very quickly he is not scanning my ticket and I want to Leave Now.

"Can I have my phone back?" "When my manager gets here."

"Give me my phone back." "When my manager gets here."

"Bill. Give me. My Phone." "As soon as my manager gets here"

I make a swipe to grab my phone from him and this tiny little 60 something man in a scooter in the middle of a theater atrium as the audacity to hold it back over his head like I am a Toddler he is preventing from grabbing at a knife.

I am now having a panic attack.

Manager walks over and I am a broken little Autistic man who just wanted to watch a Bad Horror Movie (it was actually pretty good) so I scream at this lanky probably 30-something in the middle of a Cinemark Theater Atrium with many a random bystander around "TELL HIM. TO GIVE ME. MY PHONE."

I swipe my phone from Bill's hand, full turn, and bolt out the door half way across the parking lot and call my mother in a heap on the sidewalk.

It's a very good thing the Five Nights at Freddy's movie was way better than I was expecting or today would have been awful.

#I never rant about anything ever but Oh My God #Oh???? My God???? What the Hell?????? #I should point out. I might have said 'tell him to give me my fucking phone' #I say might because I Do Not Remember perfectly #As I was mid panic attack and was really fighting back the urge to Hit That Old Man #But I have been told I swear just a little when I'm too stressed #The manager was SO apologetic like the second he walked onto the scene I do remember that #He followed me at first when I ran but as soon as I was out of the building it was out of his hands so #I came back with my mother and she talked to him and it's like #The little old man is just. Kind of stupid. And an extreme rule follower #No Costume/Halloween masks in the theater is the rule and TECHNICALLY I did tell him the mask I was wearing was a costume piece #Is that still any reason for Taking Someone's Fucking Phone??? No absolutely not #But that's apparently ANOTHER rule #If there's anything sus about someone he's to hold their proof of entry (ticket) until a manager arrives #Which is most certainly a rule about Forgery Paper Tickets and NOT about holding someone's cellular device hostage over a mask #But like I said. This man is very locked on rules and had no common sense apparently #He gave us complimentary tickets after that so that was neat I guess #Anyway. The FNaF movie's good. #I enjoyed it a LOT better than I've enjoyed any of the games #I really was expecting a trash show like the books but man. Man #It was fun. #Not scary like at all but. Very fun. #You could go in knowing nothing about FNaF and come out with the most baseline knowledge which is fun #A good straightforward starting point #However I was disappointment in the lack of Autistic Children talking through the movie!!! Honestly!!! #I wanted to hear a child three seats down info dumping to their parent dammit!!! #Like with the Mario Movie!!!

[emileesaurus]

I can't think of a way to point this out that doesn't sound phenomenally gross, because it is: the IWTV show has made specific and very crass references to Claudia's (physically 14 year old) genitals in all three episodes she's featured in so far. Two of them were spoken by Lestat! I hate it here! 🥲

#ass before absolution #ftr i'm referring to him reading her diary and the scene on the train #not even touching 'which one of you is going to fuck me' #idk man i just want to sit down with rolin jones and make him walk me through his thought process #this character is physically five years old in the book #i know the book has Certain Vibes #but for god's sake can you please stop talking about this teenage girl's pussy??????? #remember when people got super mad at me for saying they would do this #and then they did this? #shocked pikachu face #i wish these writers would get hit by a meteor #good night

[demadogs]

the life as we knew it book series deserved movie adaptations and im still upset they dont exist

#thinking about all my favorite space related scifi stories rn #these books are so fucking good GOD #A METEOR HITTING THE MOON MAKING IT MUCH CLOSER TO EARTH CAUSING NATURAL CATASTROPHES EVERYWHERE???? WHY DIDNT THEY MAKE THAT A MOVIE #life as we knew it #thats not even an auto tag :((

[nspolaris]

read the sunshine court and have never been more impatient in needing a second book my god

#tsc #tsc spoilers #tagging bc im talking in the tags but holy fuck im ngl i came into the book as a jerejean shipper but now im shipping him with EVERYONE #him and renee were so sweet god i cant #him taking her photo and thinking about rainbows 😭 #but also excited for my man Jeremy bc he's got layersTM like an onion #need to know why he doesn't like his family and if he ever confides in Jean to convince Jean to confide in him #but also them oggling each other was hilarious #jean said his name once and had jeremy kicking his feet and twirling his hear #jean's braim shutting off whenever jeremy is shirtless avdhdj #need them to get together but i love Jean and his story and im so glad i reread aftg before reading this book #obsessed with jerejean as individuals and i love how much Jean appreciates the othrler Trojans #GAAAAH #also heart was in my ass when Grayson attacked Jean and thank god my boy neil sent out a hit on that fucker #also people realizing neil looks insane to other people like um yes...literally everytime he opens his mouth even in his POV #he says some scary shit bro 💀 #adding more tags bc i forgot to talk about kevin but i also can't get over their angst its just so good #their time together at evermore and jean teaching him french only for it to be the used against him by accident #they're too fucked up to ever really be friends again but they've both got their own support systems now #thinking about them meeting to do the interview ... chewing on glass #i have to go ravage ao3 now

[ghcstcd]

the trope of immortal beings watching their mortal human lovers age and grow older...

#how's did that go for you Omega? :') #most of my muses are immortal or age slowly (live for a couple hundred years at least) #so having a ship between an infernal demon and human mortal got me like :') #the ghost breakdancing beside you #I am a sucker for that genre #when I was a teen I read a novel titled 'A kiss before the apocolypse' #and it followed an angel who left heaven and did fall in love with a woman #in the book she was already an elderly woman. in the care of a nursing home. The angel loved her so much #I forget his name. I just remember liking the book. It was Cheesy as fuck. But it hit some of the occult vibes that I like #and he wasn't exactly on the side of god or anything like that #I should find that book again it's been over a decade since I read it #anyway. I'm a sucker for a good romance #for love in general

[spiritofjustice]

i'm losing my mind, y'all. God of Endings is so good. books always have to put their best foot forward with describing the novel on the back, but the back of the novel saying it's got brilliant prose and incredible suspense is 100% on point. the prose is brilliant. i'm on the edge of my seat with it. god, i haven't read a book this good in a while.

#psy's no punctuation posts #reading tag #not to say i haven't been reading good books but this is the rare time when a book just fucking. really hits you hard with how good it is #i'm about halfway done with it now i've been inhaling this fucking book today #i read kinda weirdly in the sense i read in small bursts throughout the day rather than one or two larger sessions #so i'll probably have another session tonight before i go to sleep but i just finished a session and KRJKS!!!! #I DUNNO WHY I LOVE THIS BOOK BUT I DO!!!! #i'm afraid it's going to be bad at some point but like. UGH after reading half it's so great #oh my god. i'm so!!!!

[cervideity]

i guess now i am considering analysis part of the art i am putting out.. this is just a thought. and i havent written my essay yet. anyway. i am thinking about fucking ed carter again. get me out of here.

tearing through flesh day after day after day battle after battle succeeding over and over where you could not before. constantly reliving the moment you could have changed things for the better.but. but. but heres the crucial part. the very event that made you a killing machine is the one where you could not have possibly have been that. the event where you needed to be that. forming this response endlessly too late. fated to lose your friends no matter what you fucking did. molded by your enviornment in the cruelest of ways and not even able to use it when it mattered most. you were never enough. you will never be enough. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#i love ed . he is. i have no idea if the author meant to make him like this but he is so dissociative and his character makes me feel seen #more than any other character i have ever seen #hes such a nice kid. .... he is such a nice kid. tears in my fucking eyes. #no one has read the enemy. trust me when i say im being truthful and based HAHAHA #imgonnafuvkjn throw up man.. #the enemy #the enemy charlie higson #the enemy book series #ed carter #AND IM GONE by femtanyl is HIS song. btw. #i know this kinda thing is . idk. a trope? i just think it hits diffferent when its a kid. who is Still very . emotional and sweet. #it feels like im reading the pov of an open wound #edit: eds battle/trauma/whatevr response is not depicted perfect or. even fully nonableist . i am not claiming that it would be GOOD rep #(if it was even intended to be dissociative) just that I Personally relate to how its written #and also this series is well written in general. so.. god. i need to analyze it more there is so much meat to dig into

[waywardsalt]

it’s so weird that warrior cats books still manage to get me to feel genuinely emotional despite the quality of the writing. it feels absurd that im sitting there, reading bluestar’s prophecy, which, in the alliances, got crookedstar and oakheart’s mother wrong and just gives shellheart the wrong gender throughout, but the bit of white-eye coaxing bluefur back to camp after snowfur’s death had me fucking tearing up. the first three-fourths of yellowfang’s secret took a while to get through because barely anything happens and giving yellowfang weird powers removes a lot of her agency in becoming a medicine cat but the moment brokenkit is born the book suddenly becomes a thriller tragedy if you know what happens to shadowclan in the future. these books are clearly not the best with disabled characters but the brief bit in fading echoes where cherrykit and molekit cheer briarlight on is probably one of my favorite small bits in the series. these books are paradoxical istg

#warrior cats #its like. NO its not FAIR for these books with not great writing and frequent mistakes to make me feel THIS much fucking emotion #and yet. warrior cats is a good exercise in criticizing something while still enjoying it #i always remember the bit with cherrykit n molekit n briarlight as being longer but its honestly cute #like part of the early bit with briarlight is slightly ableist in how everyone talks abt her and everything #but its just a cute scene to me of these kittens being happy to see her move on her own and encouraging her #but honest to god on a reread and with knowledge of what happens later the last fourth of yellowfangs secret is gripping #badgerkit shows up and its like. oh. oh. oh no #salty talks #like ill admit despite everything the death scenes and whatever in these books can fucking hit hard #the characters reactions are good bluefurs denial is kind of visceral

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

obsessed with people who somehow live their lives entirely ignorant of the englishspeaking internet. im watching dutch booktubers barely 6 months ago ENTHUSIASTICALLY recommend harry potter. no mention of Anything At All. just,,,"we all know this one right?? :D" we sure do! WE SURE DO DONT WE

#and theyre not like Entirely ignorant of the english internet bc they read like english books #that are popular on booktube booktok whatever right? #theyre youtubers theyre ON the internet #but i dont think these people are transphobic #i think they are just not in the fucking sauce #GOD I WISH THAT WERE ME #can you imagine living in a world where harry potter is not a box of gunpowder #in TWENTY TWENTY TWO #been listening to a podcast abt uhhh The Whole Thing #very interesting pretty good podcast #but it's such emotional whiplash to have been listening to that this week and then just. fall into a video where. like. #they dont even mention the name of the author it's. incredible #it's surreal #i need to get off the english internet so fucking bad #if it sucks hit da bricks im gOING #not like today but.soon. SOON

[silverislander]

have discovered a new enemy while doing research for the honours essay. why are you pretending to understand psychology and BLATANTLY misinterpreting actual terms and concepts in order to tear down a movie aimed at teenage girls, my good bitch. i'm going to start biting

#you got the WRONG BITCH bc you just hit on two of my biggest interests (zombie movies and psychology) at once #FIRST of all. you dont have the credentials to be talking abt this and it shows bc why dont you know what psychotic means!! #simple shit!! you want to pretend you know psychology dont fuck up psychopathology psychopathy and psychosis! all different things! #you can BARELY conceive of narcissism. a one off joke about how a character recognizes his flaws and wishes he was respected more #is NOT proof to label someone as a fucking narcissist oh my god. id actually argue the complete opposite #you are accusing A Zombie of being abusive based on (checks notes) being scary looking eating brains and /protecting a girl/ #bc uhhhhhhh smth smth dark triad smth smth twi/ight #last time i checked thats literally just fucking normal ass zombie shit + him being NICE!! #its not male gaze 'ocular aggression' bestie he cant blink. hes dead. #talking about how the zombie is unrepentantly creepy when he Literally worries about coming off as creepy In The Movie out loud #SECONDLY to circle back why are you so stressed about twilight. thats not even the subject of the chapter #(there are good critiques of those movies but this is not that) #your book came out in 2015 why were you still shitting your pants and crying that girls were having fun 3yrs ago at the EARLIEST #reaching so fucking hard to 'um ackshewally [thing that teenage girls like] bad' im shocked you didnt throw your fuckin back out #your arguments are nonsensical your positions reveal an alarming level of sexism and you should be ashamed #levi.txt #believe it or not im having fun rn. im funny complaining not angry complaining #w@rm b0dies isnt a Good movie but i will go to bat for it actually. let teenage girls have fun garbage #god knows adult men have enough of their own to choose from ESP in this genre #and its a movie that has a lot of interesting shit someone could analyze!! im focusing on it as a representation of changing feminism #but id love to see a reading of its portrayal of zombiehood as disability + its cure narrative #or critiquing how it writes its female characters bc admittedly theyre bad ngl #or on how survival is represented in comparison to films like zomb!e/and (which i also love) where you 'earn' survival with competence! #genuinely there is even smth to be said for the problematic nature of the brain eating element. id be intrigued by that paper #i dont think its much worse than the play the movie is based on? but its not nothing #it Is ultimately a little bit fucked up and i dont think the movie explores it enough #but noooooo we gotta talk about how the zombie is a narcissistic abuser bc of the brain eating. ok

[mosstrades]

Ya boy's deleted/locked himself out of every social media except for Tumblr. It won! It fucking won! Don't forget you're here forever!

#(and youtube and discord im not a monk) #It's the way exploitative content algorithms are easily circumvented. and the rigorous dash curation. and my frens:-) #it's a shame bc social media is like... useful for meeting ppl and accessing good creative works and genuinely worthwhile stuff #but i guess now I'm gonna have to go outside for that kinda stuff #can't hurt to try #nick.txt #if not for the gruesome app-ification of regular life (i need an app to access my fucking washing machine) i wouldve sincerely switched to #using a flip phone #and just kept my computer as a way to access the Webs #the webs arent inherently negative! theyre such a good tool! i just have brainworms as-is and its all DESIGNED to make them worse #i read so many books before i got a phone. and tbf. that was ALSO when the mental illness hit. which was unrelated. #so it's not ALL just because im always on that damn phone #but still #so many hours i lose on fucking reddit of all things. 4 hours watching instagram reels and i retained absolutely fuck all #and no roadblocks i set for myself (timers and uninstalling the apps and everything) are enough #i cant keep doing this dude. im gonna be 20 next year. i miss *books*. I miss writing and drawing and going outside just to be outside #i AM genuinely sad at how not having instagram will make having a social life in uni actually harder lmao but we stay silly #if i die and god shows me how many hours i spent on twitter and the number has more than two digits im gonna get so depressed ill die twice

[vaugarde]

warriors take just from osmosis of the new books but i feel like instead of squirrelflight and sparkpelt pressuring nightheart to be like firestar, they should have had bramblestar do that because then it comes full circle from when firestar was insisting that bramblepaw would be just like his father

#its like a cycle and shit. yknow #''oh but this would contradict their character development from tpb'' everything abt tnp bramble contradicts tpb bramble #this is ignoring that this is a really weird time to have done this tho like. first of all it should be sparkpelt #bc then its his direct kid that hes already gonna feel weird abt bc of the three situation #also this is just me but i really feel like they heard the criticisms against how bramblestar was handled in past books #and are doubling down and trying to make squirrelflight the bad one? lines like ''oh she would HIT HIM'' #and ''oh my god we would be FUCKED if she became leader oh my god she would be so MEAN to the main character'' #just come across as that to me #and hey its not the first time theyve heard criticism and doubled down on it in the books and on their website #and bramblestar being a bad dad isnt really related to that but idk. i feel like he wouldnt be a good parent #considering how weird he was abt berrykit in tnp and really just his behavior in tnp in general #like. idk i think itd make more sense if he was the weird one instead of squirrelflight where po3 i think kinda invalidates her behavior #in this new series #echoed voice