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allthingsweird · 3 years

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Unmasking Pt. 1

Am I a blogger now? Sooo, is this official? Should I celebrate? No, that’s dumb. Well, i could introduce myself, I guess. The name: Ashley. The age: 31. Yeah, i’m a millennial...hush. I have a child, 8 year old girl. I am married. Yeah, real fascinating stuff, amirite? I can be impulsive and indecisive. Like, my profile picture? I changed it 3 times before I settled. And I already have another tab pulled up because I am still not satisfied. Things MUST be perfect. I guess some would call that being a “perfectionist”. But in my real life, I am not. Just internet life. Is it weird to have two different lives? Not at all. How many of you upload the 15 selfies you took before getting the perfect shot? The internet is a mask. How cliche, but it still rings true. My Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram are masks. They are tools for me and you to give the world a peak in our lives. We can share our opinions and argue politics and religion without fear of getting slapped or embarrassed. It was fun for a while but the amount of toxicity on those pages are overwhelming. I came here to this platform. Not sure if its any better yet but I hope it will be. I want this to a fresh start for me. A “peeling back of the mask” if you will.

So, this is the Unmasking Pt. 1.

Does anyone feel completely detached from their lives? Like, you’re not living your life, just living in it. That’s me. As I mentioned, I’m a married 31 year old woman with a child. I get up, go to work, come home, clean, eat, and sleep. Do it again the next day. I patiently wait around for the weekend. Waiting to do something, anything different. Ya know what usually happens? We get to watch a movie or two on Netflix. Like, how sad is that? We use the weekend to recoup from the workweek. The more I do it, the more I hate it. Dreading every single day can take a toll on you. Who knew? I started therapy a few years ago. Turns out I have Major Depressive Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. They wanted me to do therapy every week but there is too much demand and not enough therapists so I go once a month. Who doesn’t have some sort of mental illness? If you don’t, you are incredibly lucky. Most of us do and it becomes more apparent the older you get. Getting older sucks. For a few of us, having the independence and freedom of adulthood is liberating. When I say few, i mean hardly any. Adulthood is hard. Really freaking hard. Especially now. We work 40 hours a week with college degrees and still barely survive. Okay, enough complaining.

For the most part, I am a happy person. Of course I have days where I hate everything but who doesn’t. As long as I keep taking my meds, I’ll be fine. Problem is, I haven’t taken them in months. I always hated the idea of medicating myself so I am hoping with just monthly therapy, I’ll be okay. Call me dumb. Call me stupid. I don’t care. I hate the way it makes me feel more than I hate the MDD and GAD. I say that now on a good day but when it’s a bad day, I would regret not taking the meds. BUT i look at the bad days as my depression, not as who I actually am. That’s me on good days. And me on good days is happy, cheerful, and silly. So that’s what I define myself as.

I don’t want to do a complete unmasking in one blog. So if I find this therapeutic, then I will be back for part 2.

#first blog #life #mental health #mental illness #will anyone even see this #millenial #adulting #adulthood #family #familylife

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fluffyllamas-23 · 7 years

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It was a hot, hot day

I just like, hardcore stalked @taylor-tut’s blog for scenarios, because idk what to write (PLS SEND ME PROMPTS I BEG OF YOU), so here we go.

“it’s a hot, hot day, and a group of characters are stranded somewhere. Everyone is doing what they can, but character A has been sharing their water with the others and no one knows. When they finally sit down to eat, everyone in a circle, they notice that Character A is quiet, and shit, their eyes aren’t open, and double shit, they’re not conscious, and triple shit, they’re burning up” With Shiro as Character A, because this just S C R E A M S Shiro, amirite?

It was Spring Break. Shiro, Keith, Lance, Hunk and Pidge were taking one more trip before they graduated in three weeks, it was a last hurrah, one final celebration before they were thrust into the world of total adulthood, if you will. After a lot of (heated) debate, Shiro made the final decision. He was hit with a twinge of frustration, because his friends sucked at making decisions, and most of the time it came down to him.

He decided they would go to Palm Springs. Most of them had never been, which baffled him, because that’s where his family took most of their vacations, and he loved it.

Shiro, Keith and Lance were usually the ones who took turns driving the group anywhere, because they were the only ones with cars big enough for all five of them. It was supposed to be Shiro’s turn to drive, but Keith’s car had been in the shop last time, so they switched. He was secretly glad he didn’t have to drive - he had been feeling off all day. It wasn’t anything too terrible, he was just achey and tired, but he always felt that way before getting sick.

“Well shit.” Keith hissed, looking at the heat gauge in his car. “Um, so my engine is overheating.” “Are you serious?” Lance cried, leaning forward to look at the gauge. “Are you SURE it’s overheating?” “I can read a fucking heat gauge, Lance.” Keith spat. “My car has issues. The vent is blowing hot air.” “We’re in the middle of nowhere.” Hunk complained as Keith pulled off on the side of the road. “You guys don’t think I realize that?” Keith snapped, his stress levels rising. Shiro, who had been dozing against the window in the front seat, was awake and alert now. He glanced at his bottle of water in the cup holder. He had made sure to pack a cooler of waters in the back, but they were down to the last three bottles to share between the five of them. It was almost 108 degrees out, and he knew that they wouldn’t last long.

“Shiro, what do we do?” Keith asked, looking at him. He rubbed his eyes tiredly. “Does anybody have any cell service?” “No.” Everyone muttered in unison. “Shit. What do we do?” Lance cried. “Seriously, though.” Pidge groaned, holding her head in her hands. “Lance, Keith, I’m going to send you guys in search of water and cell service.” “What?!” Lance cried. Keith nodded vehemently. “Why us?!” “Because Hunk and Pidge actually know how to work on cars. You’ll just end up breaking something, hurting yourselves, or both.” “He’s got a point.” Lance said. “Yeah, okay.” Keith grumbled, unbuckling his seatbelt. “I’m already sweating.” Hunk groaned.

So, Shiro sent Keith and Lance off with two bottles of water and instructions to stay as hydrated as possible.

He made sure that Hunk and Pidge were drinking water as well. He could see that they were drooping, though, and he was getting worried.

“Guys, take a break.” He said, putting a hand on their backs. “Come on, there’s some shade over there, go sit down, I’ll get you some water.” “Sounds good to me.” Pidge sighed.

His head was pounding badly, and he felt sluggish and tired. He was sweating like a pig, he wasn’t hot though. In fact, he was freezing, and somewhere in his fever-muddled brain, he knew that this was very bad, but his friends were a bigger priority right now.

By the time Lance and Keith got back, their shirts were soaked through with sweat, but they had managed to find a market. They bought most of the water bottles in the store, and a bunch of icepacks. They also bought some lunch, and were able to get a hold of the towing company. It would be another hour or so, though.

By the time they were sitting down to eat, Shiro was slumped over against Pidge, his eyes closed as he fought to stay conscious.

“Shiro?” She frowned, shifting to get a good look at him. How had they not noticed it before? He was flushed. His cheeks were an angry shade of red, which was a stark comparison to how pale he was. His hair was plastered to his forehead with sweat, his breaths were coming in fast and shallow. Her movement caused him to flop over and fall to the ground. Still, his eyes didn’t open.

“Shit.” Lance hissed, scrambling to get to his side. Hunk and Keith were at his side in an instant as well. Keith put a hand on his cheek, and then retracted it quickly, his eyes widening when he felt the rolling heat against his palm. “Guys, he’s got a fever.” “Shiro, wake up.” Hunk panicked, putting a hand on his shoulder and shaking him. “Shiro, come on.” “Guys, shit. He’s not conscious.” Pidge said, her eyes widening. “We have ice packs!” Lance cried, pulling out a few from the plastic bags next to him. “Get his shirt off.” Hunk said, tugging at the bottom of Shiro’s tank top. Lance grunted as he rolled him to the side. Keith yanked his shirt up, and then Lance pushed him into a sitting position.  Shiro was flopping around like a fish as his friends worked to get his shirt off. He was dead weight, though, and moving him was a feat in and of itself.

The ice packs seemed to work, though, because a little while later, his eyelids fluttered open.

“What-” He broke off coughing, his throat dry and scratchy. He let out a low groan of discomfort at how awful he was feeling. “Easy, dude.” Keith said, helping him sit up and handing him some water. Lance was crouched in front of him, staring at him with wide, concerned eyes. “You okay, man?” He nodded slowly, his head lolling forward. Pidge was sitting behind him, keeping him in an upright position, because she could tell he wouldn’t be able to stay in one on his own. “Shiro.” Hunk said, patting his burning cheek. “Come on, you need to stay conscious. Drink water. Have you had any lately?” Shiro shook his head, sniffling miserably. “No.” “Why didn’t you tell us you were sick?” Lance scolded, holding the water bottle to his lips. “And why the hell weren’t you drinking water? It’s a thousand fucking degrees out.” Shiro just shrugged, too tired and out of it to form words.

Keith sighed. “Drink the water, the tow truck should be here in about twenty minutes.

Shiro mumbled out a weak reply, but nodded in agreement.

“Thanks, guys.” “Yeah, no problem.” Lance nodded.

Relief crashed over them, now that they knew Shiro would be okay. Hopefully the tow truck would be able to fix the car, because they really needed to get Shiro back home.

#voltron #sickfic #lance #keith #hunk #shiro #pidge #this ends so abruptly #sorry #let me know what you think #sorry for any typos

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bonusblanket · 7 years

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1-200 :))

omg hate you ahahaha

200: My crush’s name is: a very nice name199: I was born in: 1997198: I am really: an idiot197: My cellphone company is: verizon y’all196: My eye color is: blue195: My shoe size is: 9194: My ring size is: 8? 7? idk193: My height is: 5 foot 7 inch yo192: I am allergic to: certain hand soaps191: My 1st car was: 2001 monte carlo190: My 1st job was: face painter ahaha189: Last book you read: You Deserve A Drink by Mamrie Hart188: My bed is: a giant marshmallow 187: My pet: the cutest lil rattie186: My best friend: hilariousness 185: My favorite shampoo is: whatever cleans my hair184: Xbox or ps3: I'm more of a nintendo ds gal myself183: Piggy banks are: actually kind of inefficient 182: In my pockets: you will find various items181: On my calendar: things to do 180: Marriage is: legal now179: Spongebob can: officiate my wedding178: My mom: is the best woman 177: The last three songs I bought were? oh gosh idk. Probably the 1975176: Last YouTube video watched: shane dawson singing175: How many cousins do you have? a billion174: Do you have any siblings? the best sister in the world173: Are your parents divorced? no172: Are you taller than your mom? yes171: Do you play an instrument? i play a bunch170: What did you do yesterday? bought a milkshake ;)

[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: hells yeah168: Luck: eh..preparation meets opportunity 167: Fate: depends166: Yourself: most of the time165: Aliens: HELLS. YEAH164: Heaven: well I'm not sure 163: Hell: not sure but ik if i end up there at least i’ll be with my friends162: God: im not sure but if she exists i hope she’s looking out for my gay ass161: Horoscopes: they’ve been on point before160: Soul mates: maybe 159: Ghosts: yeesss158: Gay Marriage: of course157: War: why does it exist156: Orbs: never seen one but 155: Magic: ehhhh nah

[ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: depends..both 153: Drunk or High: high off life man152: Phone or Online: I do both simultaniously 151: Red heads or Black haired: both are nice150: Blondes or Brunettes: both are nice149: Hot or cold: depends!!148: Summer or winter: ahhhgggg depends147: Autumn or Spring: autumn 146: Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate145: Night or Day: night144: Oranges or Apples: oranges143: Curly or Straight hair: in between142: McDonalds or Burger King: mickey d’s for sure141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: milk chocolate140: Mac or PC: mac mac mac139: Flip flops or high heals: flip floppers138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: oh god137: Coke or Pepsi: coke136: Hillary or Obama: obama135: Burried or cremated: either is fine i guess 134: Singing or Dancing: both 133: Coach or Chanel: walmart aahahhahaha132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: kelly clarkson131: Small town or Big city: both130: Wal-Mart or Target: depends what i’m trying to buy129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: neither128: Manicure or Pedicure: manicure127: East Coast or West Coast: aw both 126: Your Birthday or Christmas: christmas125: Chocolate or Flowers: both124: Disney or Six Flags: disney123: Yankees or Red Sox: yanks

[ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: why121: George Bush: whhhyyyyy120: Gay Marriage: can’t wait to get gay married119: The presidential election: traumatizing 118: Abortion: let the individual woman decide what’s best for her 117: MySpace: i wish i was born earlier so i could've been a part of it116: Reality TV: AMAZING115: Parents: can't live with em can't live without em amirite114: Back stabbers: why 113: Ebay: amazing112: Facebook: past its prime111: Work: find a job that doesn't suck110: My Neighbors: i don't talk to them really109: Gas Prices: skyrocketed i tell you!!108: Designer Clothes: love me some gucci107: College: i applaud people who do well at it106: Sports: sports!105: My family: love them to death104: The future: don’t even wanna think about it

[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: today102: Last time you ate: just now ;)101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: the other day100: Cried in front of someone: yesterday lol99: Went to a movie theater: I saw beauty and the beast 98: Took a vacation: 2 years ago i think97: Swam in a pool: IT’S BEEN TOO LONG96: Changed a diaper: i don't think i ever really have95: Got my nails done: lol94: Went to a wedding: its been years93: Broke a bone: been yeARS92: Got a peircing: YEARS!91: Broke the law: neverrrrr90: Texted: like just now all the time constantly

[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: every single friend, my sister, my grandma88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: craft sunday87: The last movie I saw: gosh idk86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: seeing The 1975 ;)85: The thing im not looking forward to: adulthood84: People call me: B83: The most difficult thing to do is: isn't everything difficult 82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: nope81: My zodiac sign is: libra80: The first person i talked to today was: I'm not sure79: First time you had a crush: probably the first day of my life78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: i hide things from everyone because I'm secretly a spy77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: ALL THE TIME76: Right now I am talking to: me fwends75: What are you going to do when you grow up: probably die sometime74: I have/will get a job: both73: Tomorrow: is friday72: Today: is not friday71: Next Summer: gon be lit70: Next Weekend: ton be lit 69: I have these pets: 1 rat68: The worst sound in the world: PEOPLE CHEWING 67: The person that makes me cry the most is: no one makes me cry, I'm a spy66: People that make you happy: my family and my friends 65: Last time I cried: yesterday or something idk64: My friends are: amazing 63: My computer is: the shit62: My School: what is school61: My Car: has the best snack bin60: I lose all respect for people who: don't respect others59: The movie I cried at was: like every single movie58: Your hair color is: blonde57: TV shows you watch: supergirl, wynonna earp, nerd stuff56: Favorite web site: this stupid one55: Your dream vacation: london54: The worst pain I was ever in was: when my first lil rat buddy died53: How do you like your steak cooked: i don't eat steak currently52: My room is: calming51: My favorite celebrity is: demi lovato. she has my whole heart50: Where would you like to be: california, england, or ireland49: Do you want children: someday maybe48: Ever been in love: you betcha47: Who’s your best friend: got a bunch 46: More guy friends or girl friends: girl friends45: One thing that makes you feel great is: music44: One person that you wish you could see right now: my dad43: Do you have a 5 year plan: yeah kind of42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: kind of41: Have you pre-named your children: not really but there are some names i like40: Last person I got mad at: i don't really get mad a lot 39: I would like to move to: socal, nyc, and london38: I wish I was a professional: writer

[ My Favorites ]37: Candy: twix36: Vehicle: 1984 jeep grand wagoneer35: President: obameerrr34: State visited: california33: Cellphone provider: verizon i guess..why is this a question32: Athlete: the fab five 31: Actor: fred armisen30: Actress: currently katie mcgrath 29: Singer: demi lovato 28: Band: the 197527: Clothing store: love me a good thrift shop26: Grocery store: weis i guess25: TV show: the office 24: Movie: labyrinth23: Website: this one22: Animal: rat i guess21: Theme park: disney world20: Holiday: halloween19: Sport to watch: water polo18: Sport to play: softball17: Magazine: british vogue 16: Book: the curious incident of the dog in the night-time15: Day of the week: friday or saturday14: Beach: cape may13: Concert attended: the 1975 and demi12: Thing to cook: cereal because its quick af11: Food: do cheetos count?10: Restaurant: moe’s, cyber cafe, red robin9: Radio station: the indie/alt station8: Yankee candle scent: probably a nice autumn scent or a nice mahogany 7: Perfume: ck2 or lacoste 6: Flower: rose and peony 5: Color: black, white, light pink, lavender 4: Talk show host: ellen, j fallon, james corden3: Comedian: tina fey2: Dog breed: whippet1: Did you answer all these truthfully? best i could

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