#AHHHHH!!! I’ve been waiting for this to finish

[ninapi]

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┊┊┊✧ ⁺ ⁺╚══ Upper Moon Four╝

Premise: Obsessive emotions can rut anyone away, appreciating love with fear, anger, joy, pleasure and sadness can overwhelm even the purest of hearts.

Word Count: 2638

Note: You can read the first installment of this story here, this was requested by the lovely @star-dust-wanderer, sorry it took so long for me to finish this! 🫣

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

Fear is an incredibly powerful emotion.

It’s very much needed for survival, that is a fact, as it helps you keeping yourself safe and away from all dangers life can bring your way.

But when it comes to love and those sort of complicated feelings, fear can become your worst enemy.

While the rest of the clones had their fair share of excitement with this flower girl, Hantengu hasn’t stopped shaking since the moment you escaped.

Were you safe?

Were you able to escape from this awful series of unfortunate events?

Were you sad and alone waiting for someone to come and get you from a hidden cave in the woods?

Just why he kept thinking about all this was entirely a mystery for him. But he couldn’t sleep, couldn’t even drink blood anymore. He was in physical pain from all this irrational fear to a point where Muzan told him to take a break, sort of…

“Get out of my sight, you useless creature…if I see you once more shivering in a corner today I swear I’ll crush your skull…”

His harsh words only made the grunting and shaking worse, if this wasn’t enough on it’s own he managed to anger his lordship. Why did his clones get him in this mess? Is not like he did willingly, he just absorbed them back, this never happened before, never their emotions were so high they would end up rubbing on him, this was a first and he didn’t know how to fix this.

“I need this to go away before Muzan-sama ends up eating us all…” quivering behind a rock he summoned them four, while all he could feel was fear, annoyance was as clear as water in his eyes.

“Fix this now!”

Sekido as usual was the first one to talk, “This is all your fault to begin with! YOU sent us her way, you agreed on taking this mission! And now you want US to fix it?” scoffing he just paced around said rock, “So easy of you to say…you never take on the dirty work…”

Karaku on the other hand was delighted with the news, “Do we know where she is? I can’t wait to see that gorgeous body of hers again…ahhhhh….my love….I hope she’s dying to meet me just the same way I am…” loud scoffs was all that could be heard in the background, presumably coming from Sekido.

“I just hope she’s still alive…poor girl…she didn’t do anything wrong and she’s so nice…so kind…” Aizetsu kept sighing from his place underneath a tall tree.

“She’s fine, I’m sure. I’ve never seen a stronger woman before. She even likes Sekido!” Urogi was circling them all from above, happily flying with excitement.

“I don’t know where the woman is, just go find her. Don’t come back until you get rid of her!”

“WHAT?” the four of them said in unison, dumbfounded by their counterpart’s instructions.

“I can’t keep living like this, you need to make sure this stops right now. I need her out of our life!”

“I don’t think getting rid of her would fix this problem…if any…my own emotions will drown you further…” Aizetsu rarely has any valuable input in a problem, being driven by sadness isn’t the solution to any problem, but this sounded about right.

“Sekido will consume you from the inside too…” 

“Ugh…We won’t kill her…but I’ll think of a way of fixing the problem.” without acknowledging  their higher self, they followed their self imposed leader, at least he didn’t want you dead.

“Aizetsu, can you track her scent?”

Pulling a little piece of cloth from his pocket, he sniffs it like a pup. “You had a piece of her kimono with you all this time? You disgust me…”

“Don’t listen to him, he’s just jealous because he doesn’t have one himself.”

“She’s in that direction…” he pointed south, the familiar scent he’s been craving so much filling his lungs causing a few tears to roll down his face.

“Urogi…”

“Yes sir!” flying as fast as he could through the vast forest, an immense amount of excitement filled his chest. While he’s the most calm of the bunch, just thinking of being able to see you once more was enough to make him forget about how hungry he was.

The night was dark, the moon kept hidden by pesky water filled clouds. Of course nothing that would stop Urogi from finding his prize, yet a bit troublesome to say the least. Storm winds kept pushing him on the opposite direction, washing away the soft floral scent he got to love so much.

“(Y/N)!! (Y/N) baby can you hear me? It’s Urogi! (Y/N)??? C’mon love stop hiding!” he screamed at the top of his lungs while flying low. He knew you were there somewhere, he could literally feel it, yet you were nowhere to be seen.

A little branch cracking caught his attention, his eyes glowing brightly in the darkness as the figure he’s been dying to see again finally reveals in front of him.

“Urogi-san? Is it really you?” unlike him, you couldn’t see in the dark, yet the powerful sound of his wings was a memory you treasured dearly and would recognize anywhere.

“(Y/N)!!!” a loud thud could be heard as your body hit the ground, a very heavy mass of muscle and wings crushing you and smothering you with kisses. 

“Urogi-san! I thought I’d never see you again! Why are you here?”

“We were a bit restless thinking of what became of you. Are you hurt? Have you been eating?” 

Giving him that lovely smile of yours,  you just shook your head. “I’m not hurt, all thanks to you all. Aizetsu-san made sure I got to escape safely. Are you four ok?”

“We’re fine just worried about cha. Let’s go find the others, shall we?” he didn’t really gave you time to answer, scooping you in his strong arms and giving you forehead a soft loving kiss while he crossed the forest once more, with you in his arms the storm winds were nothing to him, pure joy elated his heart and that was more he could ever wish for.

Once he managed to get back to others, he put you down puffing his chest proudly, “Found her~”

“Sekido-san!!!” you tackled the demon, wrapping him in a warm embrace, while the others knew you were quite fond of him, they never expected to see such a thing.

“Are you ok? You’re such a dumb woman, I’m sure you’re hurt everywhere, aren’t you? Show me your injuries, you idiotic pest!” 

His angry outburst made you giggle, even if he was angry he was worried about you, that much was clear. “I’m fine. Don’t worry, I’m tough, remember?”

Scoffing he stopped resisting your snuggling, “Yeah right, like a useless human could do anything on their own…”

“I wasn’t on my own though…Aizetsu-san helped me get out of there unscratched.” reaching a hand over to Aizetsu, you pulled him into the warm mess of tangled limbs you called hug. 

“I missed you…” the sadness in his voice was palpable, while the other three missed you as well, they were incapable of showing it the way he could.

“I missed you too. Did you manage to escape alright too?” you cupped his cheek, tenderly caressing it with your thumb, while he couldn’t smile, his eyes watered with intensity from your soft loving touch, nobody had ever shown such tenderness to him, he was a demon, undeserving of such delicacy.

“Yeah…we are all fine. Better now that you’re here…”

Karaku was enjoying the show from up a tree branch, drinking some sake while admiring your beauty from afar, “We need to get you back to safety, sweetheart. Otherwise our emotions won’t be at peace. Though, I still want to strip you naked and drink from your-“

“Shut your mouth if you ever want to use it again.”

Sekido’s outburst made you giggle once more and snuggle further onto him. “Are we going back to the cottage? Or is it still not safe?”

“The cottage should be fine, right boss?”

“Yeah the demon corps left the area a while back, even if they did a human living there on her own wouldn’t be suspicious.”

“As long as we aren’t there, that is. We would only bring her troubles…” Aizetsu sighed heavily, sinking further into your embrace as if trying to engrave this moment in his memory for eternity. The warmth of your body, your little squeezes, the soft touch of your loving kisses…in all honesty he wished he could enjoy those all his life. 

But there was no way he could.

“Let’s go, gorgeous. I’ll carry you in my arms so you don’t have to walk.” flying with Urogi was quite thrilling, though it was also pretty fast to arrive to wherever the aim was and that was something you didn’t want right now. “As much as I enjoy that, I think I would like to walk with all of you, if you don’t mind.”

They were all as surprised as the other by your response. It almost sounded like you wanted to spend time with them. But that couldn’t be true, they were your captors, they literally kidnapped you and forbid you to return to your home town, not even to retrieve the corpses of your departed family.

Aizetsu held one of your hands in his, gently caressing your knuckles with his thumb, “Let’s go.” 

Taking the lead was never reserved for Aizetsu, he lacked assertiveness, but even sadness can be useful when it comes to real love.

He had the most intense feelings out of the rest, while some might think Sekido was the obvious answer, sadness is more powerful than anger, it tears you apart from within, it makes you take stupid decisions, clouds your view of every possible positive outcome. But it also clings to the beautiful feeling of love, craves it like no other as it soothes their lonely heart.

Aizetsu was the one who triggered such anxiety in Hantengu, he was the sole reason for his constant breakdowns.

While the other three contributed to this, Aizetsu kept flooding his mind with insanity.

The moment you smiled at him and held his hand back, his heart just couldn’t take it anymore, sobbing, he kept on walking north, he needed to bring you back to safety, back to a place he could always find you at.

“Oi Sekido…If we bring her to the cottage…does that mean we can just visit her whenever we want?”

“Ugh…I guess…but try to suppress your joy or he will notice…”

Urogi danced in the gloomy night sky, even if Aizetsu had the best interaction with you this time around, there was always a chance to see you again, he could come and smother you with kisses whenever he wanted, he could just stop feeling like he was drowning. Being happy all the time can be as exhausting as being sad or angry, it makes you question your own choices, your own words, your own truthfulness, yet with you around he never had to question anything, he could utterly enjoy his joyful self, making you giggle, causing you to smile, being a source of happiness to you was more than enough for him.

Sekido on the other hand, had his mind filled with uncertainty.

While he knew you being safe would bring order to his messy thoughts, he also knew it was very unlike him to enjoy your company, your touch, your smile. He was in rage with his own self, he wanted to kick himself real bad, rip his own head off, he couldn’t fathom anger itself could bring something like love to bloom.

What angered him most was the fact that you didn’t mind any of this. You were surrounded by demons, demons that could eat you alive at any point in time, you were facing Karaku who could ravish you to pieces, and all you did was giggle like a fair maiden, blush at their words, cuddle them like they were a bunch of puppies. You’d end up dead at this rate…if you accepted them just fine, you could accept any other demon, they would not think twice and dismember you like a chicken for supper, drink your delicious blood like nectar from the gods.

“Woman. You can’t let anyone enter the cottage but us, you hear me?”

“What do you mean?”

“You…your scent…calls creatures like us…they won’t be as generous…”

“Ah….yes…anyone would party in that beautiful body of yours, my muse…I would if Sekido wasn’t as noisy…” the scowl in Sekido’s face was almost comical, yet he was absolutely right and that was a terrifyingly infuriating thought.

“Got it. Will you guys bring food to me then? If I can’t go out?”

“You can go out, dumbass. Just not at night.”

“Oh…that makes things easier, yes. But you will come and visit me, right?” the pleading look in your eyes made him feel somewhat light headed, an unusual sensation at that.

“Yeah yeah…”

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The cottage was still the same way you left it, remains of the rope that held you captive, charred coal from Karaku’s bonfire…Urogi’s scratches on the floor, it held so many dear memories, even if they were fleeting, they were all very much treasured memories of yours.

They were hard at work reinforcing the door and windows, setting traps around the cottage, making sure no demon would dare to touch their prey. 

Aizetsu though, couldn’t bare being away from you and was currently laying his head on your lap while you caressed his long fluffy hair. 

While he was still sad about leaving you here on your own, he knew there was noting he could do, he couldn’t stay here to protect you, though he could come at any time, see your face, have your soft soothing touch all to himself.

“Aizetsu-san…I wanted to thank you…” your voice was nothing but a whisper, yet he could hear all of it and it made his stomach drop with anticipation.

“You were always so kind to me, from the start. Gave me a sense of safety I never felt before…” your words turned to silence yet your loving touch said more than your words, he could feel how much you cared for him, for the others, how you accepted them even knowing what they truly were, a sense of belonging bloomed in his chest the same way it did on the others.

“I’ll come visit when I can…will you…will you caress my hair like this when I do?”

“Of course, sweet stuff. As much as you want…”

Unbeknownst to you both, the other three were watching the entire interaction. 

They were connected after all, they were one.

That sense of belonging bloomed in all of them at once, and not an ounce of jealousy could be felt within any of them, not even Sekido.

This is where they belonged. 

Not by Muzan’s side, not fighting demon hunters, but in your arms.

A realization that was not only worrying but wholesome, as much as troubling.

Demons can’t fall in love, can they?

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[cinnamonest]

If you’re still open for character interactions prompts, could I ask for Ayato + “Ayato, i’m so sorry to ask for such a shameful thing but… There’s been weird stuff happening around lately and it’s scaring me. Could I please stay with you for a while, until things calm down? I’m so sorry to bother you like this, I hope you’ll forgive me…” ? Thank you a lot <3

Ahhhhh I love this, ty anon

//Yandere themes, gang stalking

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“…This is the first time you've mentioned this to me.” His eyebrows raised. He set his cup back down on the table. “Care to elaborate?”

You shifted in your place on the floor, tightening your grip on your own cup, holding it firmly against the low table. You shifted your gaze downward, rather than where he sat on the opposite side.

You had been waiting to ask, but you felt rather guilty about doing so. After all, he was the one who had graciously invited you here for tea, and you had accepted as you always did, only this time to make such a burdensome request of him… you swallowed.

“It’s… it’s really dumb, really, I’m probably just being paranoid—”

“I insist.” His voice was firm, but not angered, more of a concern in his tone. “Your face makes it obvious that you’re worried. You wouldn’t be so much so if it was completely unfounded.” After a moment, he added, “if it is just paranoia, you know I would be honest with you and tell you so. Perhaps I can help you understand the situation better?”

You bit your lip, looking around the room. Expensive-looking furniture and décor lined the walls, the floor. Even the table you rested your arms against had an ornate design carved into the sides, a fine polished finish on the top.

Being at the estate always made you feel slightly uncomfortable for that reason, you felt almost nervous being around so many expensive things, you felt out of place… but you’d gotten used to it over time. Still, it reminded you of how important he was, and thus bothering him with what you figured to be trivial issues in your own life (at least compared to the significance of the matters he dealt with on a daily basis) made you feel that much more reluctant to bring it up.

Still, you were truly quite frightened by the matter, so you forced the words out of your mouth anyway.

“I just…” you fidgeted, shifting the position of your calves as you sat on them, “I’ve noticed over the past few months that… I keep feeling like there are people following me around,” you started, stumbling over exactly how to word it. “More than one person, too… I don’t know. I feel like I keep seeing the same faces over and over and notice people walking the same way as me for a long time… the thing is, when I make eye contact with them, they always dart away. I dunno, that especially seemed... strange."

He was quiet for a moment. You couldn’t quite read his expression. He didn’t show any outward emotion in particular, but his eyebrows seemed to furrow slightly, he sat more upright, fingers drumming against the cup. He appeared to be thinking seriously about your words.

“If you’ve noticed it this frequently, it’s likely serious,” he replied, after a moment of quiet. “That sounds perfectly reasonable to be concerned over, in my opinion."

“N-no, I don’t…” You shook your head. “I don’t know. I’m probably being paranoid and convincing myself of it... why would there be people spying on me anyway? It would be one thing if it was one person, but…” You inhaled, and sighed. “I can’t think of any reason multiple people would follow me. I’m not involved in politics like you or anything.”

“…Yes, that’s true.” He leaned back, tilting his gaze to the wall. His eyebrows furrowed further, and he sighed, almost with a frustration to it. With his next words, his voice took on a hint of irritation. “If assigned to watch you without being noticed, it sounds as though the individuals in question are perhaps not performing their job very well.”

There was a quiet that followed. The sentence felt like an odd choice of response, and the tone bizarre for such a thing to say. It thus threw you off, leaving you unable to form a reply. You merely looked at him for a moment at you thought through it. "You think it's like... their job to watch me?"

His gaze flickered over to you, and seeing the expression on your face, he seemed to go rigid, quickly straightening his posture, tilting his head downward and giving one shake of the head back and forth. “Just one possibility… but never mind that.” He looked back up at you, eyes directly meeting yours. “You really should not have waited for me to invite you over to tell me about this.” He leaned back just a bit, releasing his grip from his cup, hands intertwined and resting on the table. “In truth, I’m a bit bothered to know that you would delay telling me this. You should have come to me as soon as you had this suspicion.”

You felt a twinge of guilt and distress at the tone of his voice. He always managed to maintain a certain calm, dignified tone of voice, but you could hear the frustration in it, even if restrained. “O-oh, I’m sorry. I just…” You averted your gaze, looking everywhere but at him. “I didn’t want to bother you. I know you’re busy.”

He shook his head. “I’m never so busy that your safety would not take priority. I would prefer it if you prioritized your safety as well. Don't be careless."

You swallowed, quickly nodding. "Y-yes, you're right... I will." Although the answer seemed obvious now, you reiterated your original question. “So… that’s a yes, then? I can stay here?”

He blinked, eyebrows raising as he realized he’d momentarily forgotten the question itself. “Ah, apologies,” he closed his eyes for a brief moment. “I got caught up in talking about the matter.” He smiled, that pleasant, soft smile of his that always felt so reassuring. “Of course. You don’t need a reason to stay here, you know. You’re always welcome.”

“Thank you! Thank you, I…” You closed your eyes, letting out a deep exhale of relief. “I… well, thank you for the tea, too, but I should probably go get my things. I didn’t bring anything with me because I just… wasn’t sure if—"

“No need.” His response was immediate. “I will send someone to collect them for you. It’s already nearly sundown. I don’t want you walking out there, given everything you’ve told me.” He paused, and then, in a quieter, lower tone, added, “…besides, I need to have a talk with some of the Shuumatsuban anyhow. I’ll see to it that they take care of that as well.”

You felt guilty for imposing such a burden, but you nodded your head. You knew he would insist upon it if you tried to refuse. “Thank you, Lord Kam…” you trailed off as his expression changed – a raised eyebrow, a soft smile of amusement. You remembered how many times you’d been over the matter now. “Ayato,” you corrected yourself, flashing a sheepish smile. It still felt almost wrong to your tongue, no matter how much he insisted, to be so casual with someone of his social hierarchal standing.

He merely chuckled, seeming to find it endearing. A few moments passed in silence. He stared down at the cup in his hands, grin slowly fading, eyes falling half-lidded. After taking a deep breath, and taking a moment to tuck a tuft of hair behind his ear, he abruptly stood.

“If you’re done, just leave everything on the table. I’ll send someone to clean up. Please, make yourself at home." He smiled at you once more, although this time, it seemed just a touch forced. "I’ll send someone to show you to a guest room in just a moment as well. And be sure have your keys on hand to give to them, they'll need it to get into your residence."

His voice was pleasant, amiable, and yet, there was a faint coldness to it, as if rushing things. You supposed he was truly worried, which was sweet, you thought. You still felt guilty about it all.

He took a few steps towards the door, sliding it open, but paused before exiting. He turned his head back towards you.

“You know, if you want to move here permanently, that is also an option that I would be happy to offer to you. This whole estate is very well-guarded. It’s far safer than the city.”

Your eyes widened. The statement, such a generous offer, caught you off-guard. “Oh, no, I… I could never ask you to—”

“Really. It’s no trouble. It would be quite reassuring for me to know you’re safe.” He waited a moment, but seemed to understand from your bewildered expression that you would not be formulating a response for the moment. He closed his eyes pensively for a moment, before opening them again to look at you once more. “Well, I’ll let you think it over. Someone will be by in just a minute, so, wait here for now.”

You gave an awkward smile. “Oh, ah… alright. Thank you.”

He only nodded, saying nothing more before exiting the room, leaving you alone in the quiet. For some reason, despite the reassurance, you still felt a faint hint of unease in the back of your mind… you concerns must have just bothered you more than you’d realized.

#methinks I will tag these from now on even though theyre kinda short #yandere genshin impact #yandere ayato #rip poor shuumatsuban boutta get chewed out 😔 #.ay

[diddybok]

HAPPY NEW YEAR MY WONDERFUL WONDERFUL CHIX!!!

what a year it’s been good lord. i’ve met so many lovely people too many to name them all but i will send yous a message later on (its 01:00am for me rn)

thank you all for the constant support you show by reading my work. liking it. reblogging it. commenting. sending asks. and so so much more!! i can’t wait to give you more stuff.

though i will say january - may will be INCREDIBLY busy for me. it’s my final year of university for those that don’t know and i have to make a film 😀 and give in my dissertation in 18 days that is nowhere near finished,,so wish me luck!

so i think after i get the texts out/ what’s been requested i may have to go on a small hiatus jussttt so that i can secure me actually graduating!!

but of course im here to check in where i can and reply to those who message and support the other authors on here. i’ll just slow down with the large content like the series and longer fics, but i can NOT wait until i can write without worrying about the next thing i have to deal with irl 🤗

anyways yadda yadda ya, there are almost 1500 of you…wOAHHHH and when we hit 1500 i will make a whole separate post but AHHHHH.

i hope every single person who reads this has a wonderful year full of abundance, joy, love, good health and most of all happiness!! you all deserve it so so much.

i love y’all.

see yous later x

- kae <3

#— ​kae reaches a milestone🫧 #diddybok waffle #happy new year #2024 lets fucking go bitch! #kae loves her chix <3

[potteryheadd]

No Time To Die Ch.1

Pairing: (Eventually) Bucky Barnes x enhanced!reader

Summary: Endowed with the Infinity Stones, Reader is racing against time to save the universe with the help of MCU hero’s they meet along the way. 

Chapter Summary: Reader makes a tough decision that changes not only their life, but the universe. 

Warnings: angst, Suicidal Ideation (and plans), mild(?) Torture, kidnapping, medical equipment use (tube inserted in body), 

Word Count: 2.6k

a/n - Ahhhhh this has been a long time coming for me. I started this story a year and a half ago when I was in a very dark place. Thankfully with much deserved self reflection and support I am ready to come back to this story. Now, with the help of some of the BEST beta readers I’ve had the pleasure to meet, the first chapter of this series is ready for your enjoyment. ^.^

 p.s I envisioned the reader as plus size and black (cause that’s meee) but it can be read regardless.

Big thanks and love to my beta readers: @srhwho​ @beating-a-dead-plot​ @the-singular-peep​ @who-you-gonna-message​

It’s all gone. 

I’ve finally finished selling all my things, and an empty apartment lies before me. A ghost of what it used to be, really. From furniture, appliances, wall art and throw blankets, down to the Marvel comics and movies I never finished. Given away. I had thought to keep everything the way it was when I left but I know the money I’ve saved can go to a good cause.

The tub is warm and soothing, water nearly spilling out but stays bubbled around the edge as I slip deeper into it. The smell of my last Christmas candle lingers in the air and, if it weren’t for the bottle of pills on the toilet seat cover next to me, I might’ve said this was a pleasant experience. As I stare at them, I can’t help but think how long it would take, would it hurt, should I have picked another way?  

It’s okay, this is what I want. Right? I promised myself if I did everything I could and nothing worked, this could be it. 

A glimmer catches my eye and I turn to see the last thing I own, a photo. A photo of the only thing I wanted to see before I go, my friends. The ones that really made me believe things could change. We met by chance but were held together by our love of nerdy things. What would they say about me now?

Tears stream down my face as I grab the photo, wishing it could save me from this. From what I’m feeling, what I’ve been through, what I’m about to do. I see my smiling face and wonder what I could’ve done to get that back. To feel hope again. I turn the photo over and find my list of reasons to stay alive. 

10.I deserve good things 9.I want to make a difference 8.Heavy rain and hot chocolate 7.What if they invent space travel after I’m gone? 6.Eating cheesecake at 3am  5. Sunny days 4. Looking for shooting stars 3. The neighborhood cats 2. Spite 1.Love

I remember all the jokes my friends made when I wrote down the first two. It’s true though, spite has gotten me so far in life but love feels like healing. It made me appreciate the small, beautiful wonders of the world all of which I’m leaving behind. Can I really leave all of this behind? I close my eyes and list my reasons like a prayer till my voice goes hoarse. 

Maybe waiting one day won’t hurt

The door to the bathroom slams shut. 

Whispers begin to fill the room, creating a cacophony of almost unbearable sound. Dropping the photo to cover my ears does nothing to drown out the voices, all of which are too quiet to hear more than a word or two.

“...protect…” 

“...chosen…”

“...chosen…”

“...chosen…”

“...find them...” 

The bathroom light blows out and I jump splashing water everywhere as a giant reflection appears in front of me. It looks like moving water. I think for a second then go to touch it, my hand completely passing through. 

Holy shit

Yanking my hand back I see my fingers tangled in a necklace with 6 gems, each radiating a different color. Why the hell is this so familiar? Before I can inspect anymore, the room begins to shake and the jewelry falls out of my hand into the tub. I grip the edge of the tub and sweep my legs inwards to catch the necklace and quickly put it on. 

The room goes still. 

What the hell just happened. I touch the center of my chest, smoothing my fingers over the chain. Rising from the tub, prior motives long forgotten, I towel off and find myself lying in my empty bedroom with my phone plugged into the wall.  

Search: Real Infinity Stones MCU

As I scroll through the results, mostly containing plastic versions of the stones for sale and Marvel movie ads, nothing resembles any sort of answer. 

I mean sure I’m off my rocker a little bit right now, but I know I didn’t just imagine that. Infinity Stones!? I’d heard rumors about Hydra being real, maybe even multiple realities – but this? How am I even holding it!?

BANG BANG BANG

The front door startles me and, as I get up to answer, my stomach tightens. Something doesn’t feel right.  As I tiptoe towards the door, the banging becomes louder and louder, until I’m in front of the peephole. No one. Suddenly glass shatters from my bedroom window and footsteps bound towards me. I rush to the kitchen, hoping to find something, but feel a slight pinch on my neck and darkness takes over.

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The room I wake to is nothing like my apartment. Cement walls covered in cracks and dirt and grime, the strong smell of bleach and mold hangs in the air.  Head pounding, I can feel soreness in my arms and legs. My heavy eyes open to see that I’m strapped down to a chair, incapacitated. My shirt has been ripped open and a small tube has been hooked up to my chest, connecting to 3 giant machines placed around me that are filled with a blue liquid. 

“Finally, you’re awake.” 

Behind me, in the far right corner, sat a man in a long tattered white coat with a clipboard in his hands. He watches me through his broken glasses as I struggle against the restraints, careful to not move the tubes. 

“What are you doing to me?” I ask weakly.

“Only saving our asses, now please sit still. I can't get a proper reading on the stones when you move like that,” he replies, crossing the room and opening the door for another man. This one had on all black tactical gear, a gun fastened to his hip, and a black arm patch with a bright red skull and six tentacles. He stays close to the door and crosses his arms. 

“Who the hell are you? You’re not doing shit except keeping me hostage with the Hydra reject over there!”

“Actually, he was a top asset to Hydra in the days before Thanos.” White coat chuckles, “And think of our relationship more as that of Frankenstein and Monster.” 

My eyes go wide with fear. “What the hell are you doing to me!?” 

White Coat stands between two machines and flips a switch, sending me doubling over in pain. Blue liquid from the machines starts seeping through my tube. After a minute, he flips the switch again and begins asking questions,

“How’s the clarity of your mind right now?”

“Could you feel anything happening with the stones?”

“Are you noticing any hardening in your muscles?” 

This guy is insane

I huff leaning up, “Just please tell me what you’re doing to me, I don’t know why I have the stones or how to use them. If you want them so bad why haven’t you taken them?” 

“Trust me darling, we tried,” White Coat says, pointing to my chest. I look down in horror noticing a faint, oval shaped scar around the necklace. “Those stones don’t want to be taken.” 

Did they fucking cut me open? I’ll kill him I swear…wait-

“Why is it healed so much, I just got here?” 

“The stones healed you, of course. Can’t have their protector getting hurt, now can they?” He sounded bitter.

I raise an eyebrow and he steps around the machines with a small metal chair and clipboard and sits in front of me.

“This last test really messed with your memory, huh? The stones chose you as their protector.” 

It hit me like a train. The voices. Most were too quiet to even hear but I know they said this. They must have been trying to tell me, or warn me. But what does “find them” mean? Find who? There’s no way it’s these guys.  

“Chose me? Why would they have chosen me?”

Tactical Gear turns to me. “Trust me, sweetheart, we’ve been trying to figure that out too.”

“Oh and…you’ve been here a while my dear, about 6 months now?”

“6 months tomorrow, Doc.” Tactical Gear sports a grin as he speaks.

“W-why can’t I remember? Have I been asleep?”

Tactical Gear snickers, “You wish, sweetheart, we’ve spent a lot of quality time together. And your memory? That’s all Doc.”

“It’s truly the kindest thing we could do for you, this work doesn’t happen without some… side effects” 

Side effects!? “What kind of side effect warrants memory loss? What’s going on here!?” 

“Jesus Christ, Doc just tell them, it’s no fun fucking with them when they’re like this.” 

“I wanted to give them time, but … alright,” White Coat lets out a breath. “I assume you aren’t aware of the multiverse, yes?” 

“Like in Marvel movies?” 

He sighs, “This is much more complicated than that but yes, and similar to the movies, Thanos is also very real and very much on his way for those stones. He destroyed Hydra looking for them many years ago, and I have no doubt he senses their presence now.”

“My theory is that, combined with my version of the super soldier serum, the stones will react to your new strength and be our ticket out of here. You’ve been quite stubborn these past few months and have refused to willingly participate in my work so this,” he gestures to the restraints, “is our last resort.”

"You're seriously making me...what, like a super soldier? Like Captain America? I could literally die!" 

“ Do not worry my dear, you will be my greatest creation! You are going to lead Hydra into a new age across the timelines.”

“The only thing I’m going to lead is my foot up your ass, now let me go!”

White Coat only shakes his head before getting up and walking back around the machines. He looks as if he is going to mess with the machines again but decides against it, instead walking towards the door. 

“Take them back to their room, we’ll pick up tomorrow.” 

Tactical Gear pushes off the wall and unties my arm restraints. “Now don’t get feisty, wouldn’t wanna have to hurt you.” 

He smiles. 

Dick.

Feeling comes back to my legs as he takes the straps off and lifts me up bridal style out of the room. He walks down a long blue lit hallway, avoiding the stripped wires hanging from the ceiling. If I had the strength in my legs I’d run, but… where would I even go? I don’t know where I am or how far I am from civilization. The room I’m taken to is bland to say the least. Four more cracked cement walls, a chair, and a bed that Tactical Gear throws me unceremoniously on. He turns and walks out, locking the door behind him.

A sob escapes my mouth as I turn over and clutch my legs to my chest. None of this should have happened. I know what I should’ve done, and now I'm here. I pay no attention to the necklace as I run my fingers over the scar – it’s healed but will most likely never go away. A familiar feeling begins to rise. 

After everything I’ve been through, THIS is where I end up? These stones saved my life and now I’m stuck with fucking Dr. Jekyll and Hyde? No.Fucking.Way. I’m getting out of here even if it’s the last thing I do. 

This is how most nights go now. Wake up, a breakfast of toast and expired fruit, and then continuous torture. Like cattle being raised for slaughter, only I’d be the one doing the slaughtering eventually. I can feel what the serum is doing to me, I’ve bulked up to the point Tactical Gear has a hand on his gun whenever I’m in the room. It would be an ego boost if it wasn’t so damn terrifying, especially since the man looks like he’s itching to pull the trigger!

 It’s been 3 weeks and I haven’t even thought of using the stones. My captors are less than thrilled, but I know Marvel like the back of my hand and, if they think super soldier serum will trigger these stones, yeah right. I just need to buy enough time to figure out where I am and how to leave. They haven’t said anything about it, but I know that’s what comes next. Brainwashing. It’s the only way they’ll ever get me to use the stones for them. 

I can hear footsteps through the thick concrete as Tactical Gear approaches, a new perk of the serum. He opens the door and gestures to walk out, hand readily on his gun. I slip past him and make my way to the room — there aren’t any exit doors in the hallway so he lets me by. I learned that my first week. I take a seat and allow him to strap my arms and legs to the chair. He begins inserting the tube and I reflexively wince as he purposefully pushes it too hard. 

“I’m hoping this test will be our final and all 3 of us can continue my work somewhere else,” White Coat says, not looking up from his clipboard. 

“Wait- you mean this is it? What if it doesn’t work.” My heart races as I think of the consequences of not using these stones.

“ Well, you’ll finally be done with the serum today, so training should be next.”

Sure. “Training”. I knew it. 

Looking down again, I feel a wave of nausea come over me. I had to get out of here and fast. Should I use the stones? Are they even in my control? I close my eyes and begin pleading with them.

Please, please, take away my tube and get me out of here! 

I wait a moment before opening my eyes and seeing everything still as it was.

“Get ready, dear, try to concentrate on a portal out of here!” 

And away from you

As he begins flipping switches again, the blue liquid crawls back towards me, and I can’t help but continue to plead with the stones as pain shoots through me. 

Please get me out of here

Please get me out of here

Please get me out of here

Swoosh

A bright light blinds me as the left wall collapses in on itself and is replaced by a smokey blue portal. White coat cheers and begins fiddling with the machines again while Tactical Gear steps over to me and starts untying me from the chair. After unraveling all the restraints, he roughly yanks me up from my chair and pulls the tube from my side. I cringe, expecting pain but as I look where the tube is I already see a scar forming on my side. Another new perk of the serum I’m sure. 

 He turns back around to grab a duffle bag hidden from behind a machine and I know this is the only chance I’ll get to escape. I leap over two giant bundles of wires to get out of his reach and dive towards the portal. 

“Stop them!”

I can’t tell who’s yelling but it’s the least of my worries as I pass through the portal and crash onto cement. Scrambling up I turn to see White Coat and Tactical Gear bounding towards me. Running through what I now see is an alley, I turn the corner onto the sidewalk and immediately crash into someone.

“Oh my god, please you have to help! These guys are cha-”

My eyes look up to meet large white lenses with black rims sewn into a red and blue suit, an all too familiar sight. 

“Woah woah it’s okay! I’m Spider-man, I can help!”

#Bucky Barnes x reader #Bucky barnes x you #bucky barnes headcanon #Bucky Barnes fluff #Bucky barnes angst #Bucky x reader #enhanced!reader #plussize!reader #Black!reader

[theold-ultraviolence]

bestie i literally can’t stop thinking about first time sex with aemond

BESTIE as soon as I’m done with the vday ficlet fest I’ve got something brewing along those lines and I can’t wait to finish it — feel like I’ve been working on it forever. It’s kind of the prequel of Nothing Else Matters but it will read as a stand alone, so it’s okay. It’s the same couple, during the first years of their marriage and there WILL be a scene with their first time 🥺 I think I’ve only written Aemond as already experienced so I’m excited AND nervous to write him as a virgin ahhhhh

For now, here’s a sneaky peak of reader pining over Aemond 🥰

#1800-fight-me #my writing #aemond targaryen

[everydaymj]

Just thinking outloud! So I’ve been re reading the thing about destiny again and I’ve super duper been enjoying all the updates you’ve made!

I think I’ve gotten to the parts where you’ve stopped so far and it’s back to the OG (spiderman right?) which was very funny cuz then I remembered the basics of the OG Peter Parker storyline and it was totally Andrew Garfield at the time right?

Anyway that all had me thinking about how funny it is he’s technically in the MCU now and in what capacity Annalise finds herself hopping the the different universes and that it kinda matches up so well the Loki series stuff too haha.

That said I also love all ur AU Annalise stories too, so I got caught up in trying to decide if there are different Annalise’s hopping the different timelines in different universes or if it’s the same Annalise in all timelines and she just forgets other universes if she switches between them (like how she forgets her original life)!

Anyway love the fic as always! Cant wait to finish it again and read through the AUs again too!

💖

First of all, ahhhhh thank you friend!!! This means the world to me that you still go back to Anna and her story!!! I was actually working on some edits and seeing this gave me a shot of motivation!

Okay so yes, it totally was Andrew Garfield when I first wrote it! I still question if changing it was the right call, but I would love to one day call this story finished, so it did make more sense to do a retcon. Not a spoiler or anything, but in the new edited version, our boy Andrew doesn't actually make it to the MCU as I am starting to play with cannon and change things up! If you ever want to see what I'm working on I'm more than happy to send you the link to my docs.

Totally crazy you should mention Loki as I only just now got around to watching season 2 and boy...did I get some ideas from that. I want to say the AU Anna's are all variants of each other, different timelines and realities for each one. Speaking of I found a fragment of an AU I totally forgot about, it's a Ghost AU so lmk if you want me to send it to you!

#alex answers asks #myfriend!!! #how are you?? #this made my whole day #monday is now somehow a better day #also I want to write like crazy now??? #what have you done lol #also might be motivated to finally move all my stuff over to ao3

[itsgoghtime]

Hello hello! I’ve missed you all and I’m super excited to get back into all the analysis posts for all the amazing fics that are coming out! (@sophieswundergarten you posted a new chapter on yours the day I decided that I was going to finish these ones and DANG ITS SO GOOD and I have thoughts that I will post on yours later!)

Spoilers and all the thoughts ahead for one of my favorite fics in the world, S.O.S. Chapter 5 : Broken Legs and Broken Wings

can I just say... I love birds. thank you.

I cannot imagine having nightmares like Curtain, okay? that just sounds absolutely awful - going from Nicky leaving, to his parents abandoning them (and the sadness from knowing that he doesn’t know), to his parents deaths, to SQ BEING THE ONE IN THE WHISPERER AND SHRIVELING LIKE THE PEOPLE IN THE MUMMY MOVIE GAHHH - still recovering from this one... that would be extremely traumatic.

okay but then lil SQ showing up at his bed and Curtain - “still half asleep, jumped and recoiled into his bed away from the voice” I imagine he just has this lil clown laugh that he does when he’s freaked out like that and it now lives in my head

CALLS HIM NICKY AHHHHH - I love how often this really comes up and all the dang symbolism in those moments - GOOD HEAVENS and then we get the innocent “I’m not Nicky. It’s me, SQ.” and his dream about the dark room sounds eerily identical to the Waiting Room in the book... I’m sure you did that on purpose but dang that would be legitimately terrifying

SQ and the sleepover request - you keep him safe buddy, you keep your dad safe  - and then we get this gem after Curtain and his “nightmare about paperwork and stressful grown-up business” BRO ITS TRAUMA AND YOU DENYING IT DOES NOT HELP YOUR SONNNNN - but anyways, we get this line that I love “However, after his recent nightmare, there was nothing Curtain wanted more than to have his son close to him.” jeez tugging at my heartstrings like they’re electric guitar strings or something

we get stern dad Curtain but how they both just snuggle in and say the “goodnight I love you” GAHHHH MY HEART

I absolutely adore the idea of SQ going out with binoculars and his lil art supplies and going out into the wild and that Curtain encourages that (until he wants to go see his dang friends in the dang woods outside the dang fence ANYWAYS) - here’s one of my absolute favorite lines - “SQ’s favorite thing to paint were his friends, and the particular kind of friends he was interested in was a trait he inherited from his birth father.” 

okay and I love the idea that someone came up with that SQ is psychic - he knows their names AND HE HAS A FAVORITE - I’m rooting for Oliver too, SQ 

BUT OLIVER FALLS - WHAT NOOOOO OLIVERRRRR

oh my good gracious heavens - “10 feet is 10 feet... not 9.5, so I’m going to have to ask you to back away, unless of course you’d like an official demerit.” Jeffers what in the world bless your sweet soul WATCH FOR FREAKING SQ YOU SILLY SILLY MAN - NO THIS ISN’T A PAY RAISE FOR YOU

I absolutely loved the “Jeffers was still in the process of scaling the fence,” like, yeah that guy wouldn’t be the kind of kid that did that in his free time in the summers trying to get home from his best friend’s house at night before his mom got mad... anyways let’s continue - “when Milligan, who had been off in the distance when he had seen SQ fall, rushed towards the fence, and vaulted over it, in one heroic swoop, causing the fence to wobble and Jeffers to lose his balance.” hehe SUCKAHHH - the 6′5″ large man would show him up *coughcough somebody was definitely captain of the rowing team and somebody else definitely wasn’t coughcough* - but the hatred that Jeffers lowkey holds against him is something you can totally see later

Curtain being a good dad. yes.

Dr. Wetherall. Yes. yes yes. BRING BABY KATE YESSSSSS

okay so the Curtain being a good dad moment is slowly beginning to fade... lil SQ is afraid :( and the whole “Shepherd Quaid Curtain... please answer my question.”  does not help

the SAFE line gahhhhhhh - coupled with “Curtain sighed and pressed his lips together. A bird. His son was talking about a bird.” okay Curtain but you’re the one who won’t let the poor boy make friends - I get the point about keeping him safe and not letting other people mistreat him for whatever reason, but this is your problem my dude

and SQ is so worried about him - “But he’s my friend... And he’s still down there and he’s probably so scared and cold. And what about his family? They’re probably worried about him. I have to go back and save him dad!” my good heavens we also just get the “Maybe it was the way that Pedalian had said those same words before he died: ‘I just wanted to save her.’” from Curtain and I just...GAH

oh jeez - Curtain, friend... again, I understand being triggered and reminded of Pedalian and also being protective of SQ, but I think he’s sometimes so blinded by the need to protect him that we have situations like this where he doesn’t see SQ, if that makes sense. It’s so evident not only in the way he speaks to SQ, but also when SQ winces and he thinks something is hurting him - duh Curtain, ITS YOU 

we go between stern, mean dad Curtain and concerned, gentle, decent dad Curtain and you can totally see why SQ ends up the way he does later... ouch

I mean, going with this idea, we have “What on earth could have made SQ think his father was capable of something like that?” and “There was something about this reaction that disturbed Curtain even more.” - it makes me kinda sad for him, because he’s unintentionally pushing SQ away with how he’s parenting him - SQ can never really count on how his dad will react in any given situation because he’s so... all over the place. 

“The person Ledroptha Curtain intended to make feel horrible was someone else entirely.” is one of the best lines that has ever been written - it’s then followed by a bunch of screaming from Curtain (who makes a lot of valid points) and then “SQ might have spent his life in a chair due to your incompetence!” our dear Jeffers - here’s one of the first examples of failing to secure the perimeter... to be followed by many many other instances...

also Jeffers not catching the sarcasm and thinking that he might actually lose his job to Wetherall - bless his soul - no Jeffers, the literal reason you’re there is because you’re unaware and ask no questions (the very reason that Wetherall ends up leaving... mentally...)

I really appreciated the line “If there was one thing Curtain needed to impress upon his employees, it was that keeping his family safe was their top priority.” 

“...the next person responsible for SQ getting injured on their watch was going to experience the full wrath of Ledroptha Curtain.” heheheee YES

“...this image was always shattered when he stood next to Milligan, who towered above Jeffers, and now because Milligan had proven his physical superiority by stealing what was supposed to be Jeffers’ big moment (saving the boss’ son) and turning it into Jeffers biggest shame (failing to secure the perimeter).” AND THEN “Jeffers didn’t exactly have a plan for how he would accomplish this (he wasn’t the planning sort of man), but he knew that when the opportunity arose, he was going to seize the moment and prove himself. Somehow.” this man has impostor syndrome and I think it is the funniest thing - I get why he feels the way he does and it’s valid, but knowing that it’s Jeffers just makes it hysterical

okay but then Curtain has the moment of “...even though he hadn’t been yelling, he had raised his voice quite a bit. And SQ had always been sensitive to noise. Well, and of course Curtain had also stood up to his full adult height, which does look rather intimidating from a five-year-old’s perspective.” AND THEN THE LINE ABOUT OLIVERRRR - yes it’s a bird, but as a wise song from a movie once said, “Critters have feelings too” and Oliver is SQ’s friend

I love love LOVE “Curtain remembered the way that his son had looked at him when he said those words. Desperate, pleading with his father, staring at him with his adorably wide innocent brown eyes. Pedalian had had those eyes. Nicholas had them too.” ANNNDDD “One day, Ledroptha Curtain was going to learn to say no to those eyes. But today was not that day.” nobody can say no to those eyes. my freaking HEART GAH

Putting on his hiking boots and getting the flashlight - YES CURTAIN YESSSS

oh my good gracious heavens - Jeffers put up TrAfFiC cOnEs and CAUTION TAPE WHAT - he cracks me up and I think I have laughed just as hard every time I’ve read it

hehehe the “Instead, he scaled the fence (though with great difficulty) ad made his way down to the other side) we all know who the captain of the rowing team was and who wasn’t, don’t we

but then “Curtain sighed. His son was really going to resent him now.” with “He shined the flashlight in the direction of the noise and found Oliver, still alive, but struggling to move.” HE’S CALLING HIM OLIVERRR AHHHHH

both of lil Oliver’s wings are broken - like SQ ;(

I also love the glimpse we get into Nicholas and Nathaniel at the orphanage - SQ really is so much like Nicholas and I love that for just a moment, it seems like he draws on that experience and isn’t doing his usual “I hate Nicholas” routine and takes Oliver home

from the very beginning of this, I have loved seeing SQ and Kate’s friendship. He draws her pictures and I think that is the cutest thing - and I’m sure the Wetheralls have SQ’s art up in their home.

KATIE-CAT - AHHHHHHHH

You can see Curtain is trying - yeah, he isn’t the best parent, and he really should probably be a little more self-aware, but he’s trying

OLIVERRRRR - I love that Curtain tended to the lil bird and SQ’s excitement? My soul is filled.

“Thank you dad... I love you”

“I love you too, Shep.” GAH

okay but Garrison standing outside SQ’s room, Milligan finding her... my heart

I really... can I just say, I have really learned to appreciate Garrison by reading SOS. Watching her in the show, I don’t feel like I was really able to understand the depth of her character because we’re so invested in everyone else’s story (which is still magnificent and amazing). But reading SOS helped me really see her value and how relatable she is - it’s become my canon anyways haha - but overall, Garrison just needs a hug and good friends (like Milligan, but we all know what happens there... ouch)

she’s still so worried about SQ... but there’s that mental image of Pedalian in her machine and thinking SQ will ask her questions... mY hEaRt hEaVeN fOrBiD

And we get more of the relationship between SQ and Curtain - makes me so freaking sad but there’s some cute wholesome moments that I also love

“You don’t need to be afraid to talk to him. Pedalian’s death wasn’t your fault. You know that, right?” GOOD GRAVY my heartstrings are all tugged

Tommorrow, Tommorrow, Titration tomorrow - GAH (someone needs to write the lyrics of “Tomorrow” from Annie to that line from the show ahahaaaaa)

As sad and ironic as the line is about Garrison’s lab being underground and it not being good for someone who’s trying to recover (haha I can relate) BUT I thought there’s such an interesting point to the line about the Whispering Gallery being at the top of the tower when “...the machine would have worked just as well underground with the rest of the lab.” I mean, it just feels like another power play from Curtain of “I’m higher and better than you” so much that he literally designs the building that way. Maybe I’m reading into that too much, but I thought it was interesting.

haha - Garrison not understanding what the antennas are for is absolutely hilarious AND THEN Curtain totally is just like “let’s brainwash the world with all the good feelings” without saying it outright and I think that’s hysterical because it totally covers season one and season two

AND THE LINESSSSSSS - poison apples poison worms, friends, it’s all there and I love ittttt

for no reason at all, Curtain talking about his “student volunteers” reminds me of that post that’s been going around recently about crazy grandpa Curtain electrocuting children in caves and I cannot undo the comparison in my brain

he makes it so much about their business arrangement it hurts my heart for Garrison

Curtain suggesting a nap is me trying to convince myself to go to sleep every night heheheee

I also think it’s interesting that Curtain recognizes that SQ is a barrier between him and Garrison, and that it’s probably part of the reason that he keeps SQ so close all the time. I’m sure there’s other reasons too, but that just clicked for me when I read it

THIS LINE - “As much as he was not willing to part with his vision for the future, a future where he could have complete control, where he could keep his family safe, where he could have all the power and security he wanted, Ledroptha Curtain was also not willing to give up the only friends he had ever had. Not after what he had already lost.” all of it. is. just. AMAZING. we’ve really watched him go down so slowly it hurts watching him hurt and think that it has to come to this - also the fact that he’s emotionally preparing for his friend’s betrayal hits very close to home due to past experience

SQ and the bird in the cage being imprisoned together is so symbolically symmetric. I love it.

Ledroptha “Control is good because it protects my family” Curtain bless his soul

AGAIN WITH TITRATION - if I remember after I finish all these analysis posts, I’ll write the lyrics to that tune because it now lives in my head rent free along with all our Muppet MBS song adaptations hahaaaa

Katie-Cat. My heart.

Milligan takes the ferry - probably best he lived away from them as long as he did... but knowing how things happen makes that line hurt

Kate would be a fantastic lab manager though - and Milligan is just so proud of her (this should be part of the “Tomorrow” adaptation for sure)

also Milligan is literally just the best. The Wetheralls are the cutest and it’s just so sad that things happen the way they do - I understand why, but gosh dang - it almost hurt more the second time around

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Another amazing chapter - I feel like this one was one of my favorites, just with all the different perspectives we get to see - and lil SQ and Kate, the ultimate friendship that we never got to see

I also just really love the title of the chapter - there’s a lot of symbolism not only because of SQ and Oliver, but it’s also legs being broken like progress having to be stopped for a little while when Milligan and Garrison left. Broken wings like broken trust, broken friendships, and Curtain’s grounding himself fully in his vision for control. I love it.

Inspiring work as usual, @nobody33333333 - thank you for writing this, it has healed my heart (and continues to heal my heart) of the Season 3 hole that was there.

Love you all 💛,

Talk to you soon,

- Gogh 🌻

#the mysterious benedict society #mbs #mysterious benedict society #ld curtain #mbs disney #sos #sos chapter 5

[dreamsclock]

Ngl I can’t help but feel grief over the finale. Like it’s been 2 years and now season 1 is finished. It was such a ride from start to the end man. Ahhhhh can’t wait for season 2. I’m already starving for content lol

i’m grieving as well anon !! but it’s sort of happy grief ig ?? like my favorite characters all got endings of some kind where they reached a level of understanding and of seeing each other. i’ve been here for over two years now and it’s been such a wild journey that i’ve loved every part of :’) i’ve made so many friends and the fandom has changed so much and i feel like my analysis / writing skill has progressed SO much thanks to this series :)) it’s totally normal to grieve the end of one series, even if that series is continuing soon!! i’m just so so excited too for the next season — i have so much faith and pride in these ccs and i know whatever they choose to do in season two is going to leave me happy no matter what and i hope they find loads of enjoyment in what they do :))

#I’M SO LOVESICK OVER S1 LIKE MANNNNN I CSNT VELIEVE ITS ALMOST OVER ;—; #> dsmp s1 finale

[i-am-beckyu]

BECCKKKMMMGGGYYYYYY

SO

IDK IF YOU REMMEBER BUT YOU HAD AN IDEA FOR A SOULMATES AU BETWEEN RANBOO, TUBBO, AND TOMMY

I CANT EVEN REMEMBER MY ANON NAME BUT I SAID I WOULD WRITE SOMETHING FOR IT BUT THEN GOT BUSY AND STOPPED WRITING

Well it’s been sitting in my drafts for LONG enough and I want to finish (bad as it may bc this was like half a year ago and I am GOING to finish but don’t have the motivation to rewrite everything ;-;)

I asked for name ideas and it was like “Colored Eyes?!” And I’ve been looking for it and can’t find it

so…if you would be so kind could you please reblog it so I can see the original post 👉👈

(I had it linked but you changed your name and I can’t find it)

-some random anon

OH MY GOSH REALLY!!?!YOUVE BEEN WRITING THAT?!? AHHHHH YESSSS I CANT WAIT! Now you e got me extra excited again!!!

I’ve got like 3 really popular prompts that people always come back to and that’s one of them lol.

I’ve renlogged it but in case you missed it here’s the link bench trio soulmate fic prompt

And I’m still semi mad about changing my name :/ it was after tho whole internet stalking thing but I miss just my name because I know changing it messed up the tumblr links which is so dumb.

I am glad that I tag my stuff well tho. All my writing is under the #beckyu writes tag so you can always find stuff that way:

Anyways, GOOD LUCK WRITING!!!!!!!

#anon my beloved #beckyu answers

[fuckyeahdindjarin]

Umm… PALOMINO?!

I have never even seen the kingsman films but I loved your Palomino series!! I read it all in one day and I must say it is so beautifully written. I can’t wait for the next instalment, I just know it’ll be amazing like the parts I’ve already read.

And omg the never have I ever moment?? That had me almost giggling and kicking my feet!! Aw and the horses, I love them!!!!!

Anyway what a great story, thanks for writing it. :)

Hi lovely! Ahhhhh I'm so happy that you're enjoying Palomino! I love this cowboy with my heart and soul, and this series is so special to me. The never have I moment is definitely one of my favourites 🥰

I've been a bit slow on the updates (subconsciously dragging my feet because I dread finishing the series 😭), but I am working on Part VII, and the angst is real! Hopefully I will have an update for you guys in the next two weeks. Thank you for such a lovely ask, I appreciate you!

#fuckyeahasks #palomino series

[lonelystarrs]

I’ve just binged your him & I story on a03 yet again, I can’t get enough of it. How you write Toji, the dynamic… and god how you write for Sukuna . Why don’t you write more for sukuna?!?! How you use that nastiness and merge it into a form of love is … just pls pls pls write more for him. This line got me ‘

‘Fucking you through the stars until sunrise on a pile of blankets in an abandoned home in the middle of no where. He’d cum so fucking hard, that worthless feeling colliding with every nerve end pulsing as he fucked his load into you, his soul shook for it.’

and

‘You couldn’t get away with it, this worthless thing you’d created in his soul, this bone achingly, poisonous feeling. Ryomen wouldn’t allow any weakness in his existence under the control of another.’

Like I see him quite well spoken and stuff almost poetic? how you writing changes to adapt for him is so good and it just works you did it in unholy as well whic you sadly stopped but I can’t wait for rewrite anyway. It’s so drooooool worthy. The tension is outrageous, it’s so well written it is just so perfectly balanced with funny smut and angst reader is amazing too like I’m sick on cry babies and bratty subby readers she’s absolute man eater energy yet so goofy with it ahhhhh I love love love it been reading your Toji works here too and how you write him is just. Sosososo good. I love you thank you!!!!!!!! You deserve more love srsly. Ps I’m not really into bluelock but cause love your writing …….. yeah I like Barou now too. mucho lovo

-🧚‍♀️

I can’t tell you how this made me smile when I just read this!

Ahhhhh thank you for coming here to say it & I am glad you enjoy it as much as you do! 🫶🏻 this message is just too lovely 🥹 funny thing is Sukuna is my favourite yet I never read fics on him (cause everyone turns him into a bbygirl and he isn’t) and I don’t write enough for him. I really wanna do a back story on the him & I but with Sukuna x reader x gojo..

It’s funny because him & I was literally just going to be a one post kinda thing but I just got so into it!

And I just finished the plot lay out for it/the ending! So I have some structure on where to really take it now… 🫨 I know the endingggggg and all the plot twistssss mwuhahaha!

That also means I have my final pairing at the end which I’m going to leave as a surprise 😂🫶🏻

[hangmanbradshaw]

The squeal I made after Jake asked if Bradley had brainwashed him is second only to the porch one. Third place goes to the you and me exchange, because I recently binged Queen Charlotte and lost my mind over those three words. They are so besotted with each other: whenever they are together in a scene I have the dumbest smile on my face

This chapter was so good I don't even have words to express how much I loved it! Even the whole match description (of which, I'll admit, I didn't really understand some stuff hihihi), I read it holding my breath; Eurovolley is currently on, I am in my sportiest mood, and it seemed the stars aligned perfectly. Harvard quoting Taylor Swift was gold, as were sassy Jake clapping back at the reporters (hell yeah, let them know) and Mav just being unapologetically Mav. Also the little almost father and son moment between Mav and Jake? You are playing with my heart here and absolutely have the right to!

I'm kinda sad this story is almost finished, but at the same time I am thrilled to see what you are planning for these two and all the other characters!

AHHHHH THANK YOU. I’ve been WAITING to get to the brainwash part. Just sitting here giggling. Ooh is that something in Charlotte? I haven’t seen it. But yeah they’re a TEAM. It wasn’t Jake’s Super Bowl, it was theirs. Just like their time is theirs and they’re each other’s 😭

Omg I’m always so honored when the football catches people who don’t love football. I played off pieces of real games that I loved so it was a lot of fun.

I can’t believe it’s almost over? Like…..this has been the most insane journey of a story, and I’ve had so much fun, and it’s just such a piece of my heart. I’m so glad you’ve enjoyed it. I have a lot of fun follow up ideas though so 🙈

Vacations, weddings, life. They got a lot of it to live together :)

#asks #iwtby

[yutaholic]

THIS IS SOO GOOD OMFG I LOVED THIS SERIES! IT'S WELL-WRITTEN AND SUPER INTERESTING, I NEVER GOT BORED ONCE WHILE READING THIS WHOLE STORY SAUR GEWD... STANDING OVATION.

Thank you so much! This means the world to me! Okay so I’ve got a lot of asks that have spoilers in them (totally understandable given the ending lol) and I am going to respond to them beneath the cut here. If you have not read the final part of Smashing the Six, do NOT read the rest of this post! 😅

anonymous asked: SO FAWKING GOOODDDDDDDD WHAT WAS THAT LAST LINE WHAT DOES IT MEAN

It means the dragon aint dead, it’s just sleeping. 😈

@mangomotif asked: omg i knew it had something to do w the members of blackpink

I knew I wanted the admins to be at least 2 that you could suspect and then 1 that had never been encountered during the whole story because that just showed how well she had everyone fooled. And I’ve been listening to lots of Blackpink and aespa lately so lol

anonymous asked: i was on ur page an hr ago and was excited for the last chapter and came back not long after and yay it’s up!!!!! omg the ending!!!! What a wild ride, I looked forward to each chapter so much. thanks for writing such a captivating series!!!!

Thank you for joining me on this ride! 😊

anonymous asked: im the anon from the other day that guessed rosé was apart of neonet because of how she handed the reader yuta and… I KNEW IT! but that ending? WHAT DOES THAT MEAN WAS I RIGHT ABOUT DOYOUNG TOO? honestly I feel like it was too good to be true like was it really that easy? all that aside, this series has been a rollercoaster and i’m forever grateful you took the time to make it. like it will seriously always have a place in my heart. i was anxiously reading the whole time

You were right about Doyoung. He’s the real leader. It’s been such a fun rollercoaster!

anonymous asked: WHAT DOES THE END MEAN. DID HE SEND THAT TO MC??? WTF OMG IM SCREAMING

Did he send it to her? Or Jisoo? Or maybe even Ten? 🙃

anonymous asked: Please tell me there’s gonna be another part you can’t just leave it there!!! GIVE US A SEASON 2 !!!!!!!

There will not be a season 2 sadly lol neonet will go underground for a few years and come back maybe in a different form and with all knew admins for a whole new generation of students. Who knows? 😉

@specialagentchoso asked: Please, why does the last part of smashing the six have me tearing up!!! I swear I've never been so emotionally invested in a story before! You did the damn thing with this series, I can't wait to see what you do next!!

Thank you for being invested in it! It was so bittersweet finally finishing it I’ve had a blast with you guys. It’s the end of an era. Now on to Euphoria era 🤧

@cnvs-defs asked: Tha last chapter was so freaking good, it had me on the edge of my seat the entire time!!!! Wtf Thank you for writing such amazing story, you're an incredible writer!! I voted for Winter in the pole and I'm happy I was (partially) right lol. She gave me weird vibes throughout the whole series.

I love suspense lol I hope I made her redeemable as well. She was a complex character in this story. Thank you for reading! 😘

anonymous asked: just finished reading the final chapter of smashing the six i just. i cant even begin to explain how incredible of a series this was. you are so amazingly talented, i wish i could express it better but wow. you have left me speechless, thank you for this, i loved it so much. it was truly incredible, every singe one of them and the whole series/story itself. you're amazing wow

I want to cry thank you so much! I was really nervous yall wouldn’t be happy with the ending and I’m honestly so relieved 😭

anonymous asked: AHHHHH i just read the final part, now that i was stalking or anything 🤭 but the final (and the series in fact) was sooooo good!!! the final final reveal was soooo perfect! A+ writing mwah 😽

You can stalk my stories anytime 😁

anonymous asked: LUNA YOU HAVE DONE IT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!! I accidentally stayed up til 4am and realised final chapter must be posted by now so naturally I read it as slow as possible for the suspense and the REVEAL!!! I’m so pleased that I was kind of right on at least one person haha. That ending?? I reread it like five times just whispering wtf wtf wtf oh and that yuta scene was so heartwarming 🥺 alternate ending with yuta x mc WHEN? That was so good I’ve rlly loved being a part of this from first chap to now

I feel so bad about time zones! I was really happy with her final scene with Yuta. It was a good and happy moment. In an alternate universe they ride off into the sunset together lol

anonymous asked: HUHHH THE ENDING OH MY GOD

hehehehe my beta reader called me and didn’t even say hello she just said BITCH WHAT lol

anonymous asked: Ran out of space in my last ask but - it has been SUCH an experience reading this alongside everyone from the first chapter, seeing everyone’s theories and creating my own, changing them after every chapter, becoming a part of yuta hive (love you mark but lonely boy yuta 🥺💖), the suspense from the uploads and everything has been SO fun. I seriously pity the people who read it later bc whilst they get to read it in one go, they won’t have the same STRESS we went through lol

Seriously half the fun of this story was reading yalls theories because I think I already mentioned this I wrote the first chapter and the ending on the same day. It was so hard not to spoil everything along the way because I was so excited for the big reveal! 😂

anonymous asked: I tried to keep spoilers out of my last 2asks so that they’re publishable so I’ll put here. I LOVED the part where mc went to hand the boys back the photos, they were so close to danger and they didn’t even know, but that’s such a good thing of her. And the thing with HC ab doing better was so sweet bc she got so consumed it was nice to see her out of it. And when the pieces added up I was SHOCKED but it all fell into place, now to reread for clues! ALSO WTF DOYOUNG WDYM ITS BEEN FUN? JAWDROP

Her giving them back the photos was my favorite and also something I wrote at the very beginning. I love character development and when things fall into place 😭

anonymous asked: DOYOUNG????????????

Yall were right all along but nobody told me what it was that made yall so suspicious of him. What gave him away from the very beginning?? 🤣

anonymous asked: holy fuckballs. the end of smashing the six was elite. it’s great how you started a series and the series did SO GOOD. you bagged the title as my favorite writer on tumblr. the final chapter was a rollercoaster. my heart was beating out of my chest as yn and haechan connected all the dots. i felt victorious as yn was in the library with jisoo (yes! blackpink *is* the villain here). lastly, i felt sappy as yn approached the six, even more when it came mark’s turn. AND THEN. oh god i love open endings. I KNEW DOYOUNG WAS IN ON THIS. the school paper has no place for exposes and HE. HE TOLERATED THAT SHIT SO IT MADE SENSE THAT HE WAS CONMECTED. he was shaping yn into *perfect* shape for her future position in neonet. the series was wonderful and i’m so very proud of you. i simply cannot put into words how pleased i am with how well you wrote Smashing the Six. i wish you well in your future writing endeavors. — guia (an anon who posts every other day on your page but today i’ve given myself a name) 

I’m cracking up at ‘holy fuckballs’ lol but also ‘you bagged the title as my favorite writer on tumblr’ like excuse me I need to do my happy dance real quick! It’s ironic Doyoung is one of the people most suspected of being neonet but there isn’t a shred of evidence against him. Thank you for interacting with me often it means a lot! ❤️

@yutiddies asked: I unconditionally support the 6 and Doyoung in smashing the six. I especially unconditionally support Yuta and want to be the one he makes happy some day 😭

You and me need to talk about our attraction to villains because the next series after Euphoria will be Beast Mode and I’ve decided it’s going to be a villain au with a domestic twist. (Like the boys are villains trying to live everyday lives. I’ve already started working on Jeno’s chapter and whew I may have to start handing out holy water) 🔥

anonymous asked: No. Honestly, I'm just soooo glad I came across your blog. You are an amazing writer, and it has been an immense pleasure reading your work. It's gotten me through tough days. What a treat to be able to escape to the worlds you create. I hope you continue to write for as long as it brings you joy. Thank you for taking the time to share with us! That last chapter of Smashing the Six was just great. Amazing series!!! Looking forward to your next work! Thank you again 💚

I’m so glad you found me too! My writing getting someone through a tough time is the only reason I keep posting tbh that is everything to me. Take care dear ❤️

anonymous asked: WHEN SHE WENT AND GAVE THE PICTURES TO THW BOYS?!?? I M SO HAPPY

One of my fave parts 😍

anonymous asked: THOSE LAST FEW LINES OF DOYOUNG TEXTING NEONET??  FUCK OFFFFFF WHAT DIRT DOES THAT MAN HAVEEEE

He’s neonet. He has all the dirt. 😈

anonymous asked: Literally in tears right now huhu I am so happy with how everything ended up for everyone in Smashing The Six 😭😭😭 YUTA PLS 😭😭😭 Also, THAT LAST LINE THO I STILL THINK DOYOUNG SUS hahaha jk. I would've commented on every part of the story that I like but then that would take me forever to finish because I ATE UP EVERY PIECE OF THAT STORY IT'S SO GOOD IT IS JUST WHAT I NEEDED TO GET MY WEEK STARTED. Thank you so much for this amazing series. Wonderful stories from you as always 🥺 I will always look forward to your works, you are my favorite writer here in Tumblr and probably the only reason I am not yet deleting this sht of an app 🤭 I am excited for your new Johnny and Doyoung one shots and the Euphoria and Dreamies series!! I hope you're sleeping well right now and when you wake up you'll be greeted with all the comments on how smashing your story is (see what I did there *wink wink*)- Dyochi Anon

And yall are the reason I haven’t deleted this obnoxious app either lol and with all their constant ads to buy their ugly ass t-shirts and chasing off gif makers with their stupid changes I keep coming REAL close. Hopping online after work and reading all these comments has made my entire month. I hope you know your kind and supportive words always go a long way. There have been times I’ve wanted to quit writing because I just don’t feel good enough but knowing there are sweet people like you reading and enjoying my stuff keeps me writing. Thank you 😊

anonymous asked: DOYOUNG???? HELLO!!?

Doyoung can’t come to the phone right now. He’s gotta find someone else to take over neonet. ��

anonymous asked: Every time I read something you write I'm in awe!! What an amazing writer you are, truly!! I don't even realize how long some fics are because I'm so immersed in the story, you really know how to keep us hooked! Thank you so much for this series, the twists, the friendships, betrayals, and omg!! that ending! I knew it! fucking Doyoung dude, being the leader from the shadows and sending the girls to do the nasty job.... but who was he texting?.... once again, amazing work, thank you!

Thank you so much!! Yep. The three girls answered to him. They are busted (as they should be) but he gets away clean. At the end, it is open to interpretation who he was texting (which I did on purpose).

@natattack1997 asked: wait so if y/n had accepted the editor in chief position she would’ve been the ACTUAL head of neonet?!?! 🤯 that was absolutely wild.

Yes. In the very first chapter you get a tiny glimpse into Doyoung’s thoughts and he already decided to name her the next editor in chief, but he was really on the hunt for who would replace him as the head of neonet.

anoymous asked: wait... so Doyoung was sending mc the anonymous texts? what about Ten - who sent him? also,, do the girls know doyoung is the real leader?

The texts were from Jisoo (notice she kept texting during their meeting.) Ten has been hooking up with Lisa (confirmed in chapter 5) and Lisa is close with Jisoo and Rose for obvious reasons and that’s how Ten knew about them. Lisa said reader exposed her for hooking up with a teacher. Not neonet. That kinda gave away that they were lenient with her. Ten does their bidding because they have dirt on him.

Doyoung is the spider weaving the web. The girls are the admins and run the site. Doyoung is the boss (which is why Jisoo was panicking when reader didn’t fall in line because she knew she failed to recruit her and Doyoung will not be pleased.) The girls were in charge of blackmail and Doyoung was in charge of the girls and manipulating everyone from a distance.

They do NOT know that it’s Doyoung. He does everything anonymously that way no one can ever roll on him. The real alpha of neonet has to survive or the site dies. He will have to find a replacement, but he said NCTU deserves some peace so he’s not mad about the site going underground for a while. They’ll come back with a vengeance with a new ruler and admins, but reader and her boys will be long gone by then.

anonymous asked: rosè breaking major cybercrime laws by filming LMFAOOOOO why are you proud? anyways, i know how you introduced a new character instead of making you-know-who neonet (even if he is technically) you should have added jinyoung so it’s a jinjido reunion - guia

Blackmail is also very illegal. But they’ve got rich daddies. They’ll get a slap on the wrist because that’s how our criminal justice system works. The more money you have, the less punishment you get. But they will be effectively ostracized from NCTU. They will take the fall for now. 😅

anonymous asked: OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUCK THE LAST BIT WITH DOYOUNG ISTG I GOT GOOSEBUMPS LIKE HE REALLY IS NEONET RIGHT… OR DID I UNDERSTAND IT WRONG guess i have to confess to my crush now 🫠 wish me luckkk

Yes, he is the true head of neonet. OMG when I got your first message about confessing to your crush I was with my bff and read it to her because I was DYING! I was like oh no this anon is right and will have to confess to their crush!! 🤣

anonymous asked: THE ENDING PARRTTTT IDK WHY I WAS SHOCKED BC I LITERALLY VOTED DOYOUNG😭😭 this series was definitely a ride but i’m glad and definitely satisfied with the ending u did amazing

I’m so glad you’re satisfied with the ending. That was my main goal. 😘

anonymous asked: HAECHAN’S CHARACTER IN SMASHING THE SIX😭😭😭😭 so precious i want to smash my head into a wall

I love him so much!  😍

anonymous asked: WAIT I'M FREAKING OUT DID DOYOUNG DO THAT TO TEST EITHER SHE COULD BE THE EDITOR CHIEF OR NOT?  MAN IS ONE OF THEM ALL THESE TIMES HUHH WHAT

Yep. In chapter one he had already picked her to be editor in chief (but didn’t tell her yet) so everything after that was a test to see if she could run neonet. Someone asked me if neonet was run by a person or a group and I said both. The 3 girls were the admins, but Doyoung was running it. Neonet survives because they will take all the heat but no one caught him.

anonymous asked: Hiiii I just wanted to say that I finished reading smashing the six and every step along the way was incredible!! The ending was so mind blowing and I had GOOSEBUMPS from your writing…. It’s been long since I felt that way from a great story & I’m so excited for your new fics to come! Thank you for blessing us with such a well thought out masterpiece 🥺

Thank you so much for this message! I’m glad you enjoyed it! 🙏

anonymous asked: THE PLOT TWIST?! i was smiling the whole entire time (when she discovered neonet and making peace) that rly caught me off guard. oh my god now idk what to do😭😭 i rly have no words I NEED THIS TO BE A MOVIE better a series😩 omg now i cant wait for euphoria

Thank you! I need a movie too for science and for the Yuta shower scene lol jk 😂

anonymous asked: the layers to this story and how human reader was I am in awe I rly was skeptical how she would be able to beat neonet but you nailed it

Thank you! She won because neonet underestimated her. She was never hungry for power, she was trying to mend a broken heart. The boys inadvertently helped her do that and with her finally allowing herself to heal and move on, lust for power had no more sway over her. She was never ruthless enough to rule neonet. 😁

anonymous asked: how in the fuck did you pull this off? you gave me closure but also suspense with that ending? you cant do that its not possible!!

I worked very hard to do exactly that! 😂

@the-borahae-jj asked: OKOKOK SO FIRST OF ALL I LOVE YOU LAMO SECOND OF ALL THAT WAS SUCH A GREAT RIDE THANK YOU SO MUCH I was looking forward to every single chapter and I absolutly loved the plot and your writing and I could go on and on. I MUST SAY THO I HAD sooo many THEORIES AND I WORKED IT OUTTTTT EVEN Doyoung. Girl I knew, like I knew, and it made it so much more fun for me. Also give me Haechan; you were right about us loving him. I need him now. And YOU KNOW I FIGURED OUT WINTER YOUR RESPONSE GAVE IT AWAY LMAOOO, I hope you enjoyed yourself as much as I did and I’m ready to figure out anything else/more you create cuz let's be real. it's amazing. Loved interacting with you like this too. Seriously. You brought so much joy. As always have a great day/night <3 (2/2) NO BUT REALLY I FIGURED IT OUT HAHA <3 I really want to hug you now haha fr you did such amazing job and I'm so glad I could look forward to your writing  ok imma dip now MWAH

Thank you so much! I love that some of you figured it out but I was still able to surprise you. I left hints for yall to find and I always smiled so hard when you found them! Bring it in for a long distance digital hug! 🤗

anonymous asked: i love that she walked away. i love that she won. i love that she protected the boys. i love who she ended up with. i love the ending. I LOVE YOU.

I love you too and I love this story. I just saw that the story masterpost got 3k+ notes holy shit! Thank you all for reading and enjoying this fic! ❤️

[witchlingsandwyverns]

Hello friend, it’s your holiday gift exchange elf (gremlin?)! I was thinking about you because I’ve been making good progress on your fic and while there’s still work to be done, I’m excited about where it’s going! I do hope you will like it.

We’re one month out from the first day of gifting, and one month from your birthday! It’s been so fun keeping exciting secrets from you 🥰😍😘

Other than your birthday, will you be celebrating anything this holiday season? Any traditions that are your favorite? Do you have a favorite holiday movie or song that gets you into the spirit?

I hope you’re having a fabulous day and taking time for yourself! I can’t wait to finish up your gift and get it in your hands!

Ahhhhh! Hello!

This holiday season is a little stressful, ngl. We just bought a house and are currently managing repairs before moving in (hopefully) at the end of December. We may be digging a new water main trench this weekend, the calendar days are flying by and holidays are looming 👀😅 My partner and I have decided to do the holidays a la carte since we will be moving and working a majority of it in order to be out of current place (hopefully) end of January. Oh! And we just found out the barn cat we just inherited with the place may be pregnant?? KITTEN CHRISTMAS???

So we will be celebrating a big milestone while only doing the bare minimum and our fav traditions: hanging lights (I have a whole barn to gut/clean, maybe I'll hang lights in there too when im done), lighting candles, cookies to give to our new neighbors, hanging stocking/finding small stocking treats, drinking cider and cocoa, maybe making a mulled Christmas sangria. Maybe I can convince partner to go caroling with me down our new driveway lol after sangria 😅

Hanging lights is a big tradition for me. I grew up in the pnw so when daylight savings hits, and it gets darker even earlier, Christmas lights really help me with that transition. The dark always feels more magical with a little sparkle to make it homey.

Anyways thank you, I'm so excited for the reveal and to see what you love made 💛💛💛 much love and cheering till then 🌲✨️

#secret santa

[cl-babydew]

I finished Cowboy Bebop! Also icon change!

So I was gonna make an icon change sooner, butttt I got stuck deciding between these two:

Or

Cuz CLEARLY I ship Spike and Faye! HOW COULD I NOT?! THE BANTERRRR AHHHHH THE FLIRTING I CANT! Urhvydfufa

As for the second! It’s just so soft and makes me all 🥺

It was especially hard to choose after the ep when Ed left! Geez I cried! XD

So I decided to wait til I finished the series!

Which I finished last night and I’ll be honest.. the ending wasn’t that great!

Like I expected to SOB!! XD But I didn’t!!! I didn’t even tear up!! I was sad! But I was more unsatisfied and confused!! And a tad salty?!

Like you build up Julia THIS WHOLE DANG TIME! For her to LITERALLY die 8 mins inthe last ep, right after she just came back into my Spikey boy’s life! Like I honestly saw that as bad writing! Plus the whole 2 eps felt so chopy! Like we didn’t even see Spike mourn!! HE JUST GOT HIS PIECE HE CLAIMS HE WAS MISSING, BACK, AND YOU HAVE THE AUDACITY TO KILL HER 8mins IN AND NOT HAVE HIM MOURN! BARLEY SHOW AN OUNCE OF SADNESS?!??

It felt so weird to me and made me upset!

I’m sorry but I literally LAUGHED when she died!! Like I never cared for her! And even when I met her, she never caught my attention! She’s such a plain character, I’m sorry! Built up just to die right off the bat!

It would’ve been more poetic to have them die side by side as Visous threatened would happen if she didn’t kill Spike!

Which she didn’t, so boom! Easy set up! Have them die side by side, fighting against Viscous!

What happened was too sloppy! I’m sorry but it was!

Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE THIS SHOW SO MUCH!

But when it came to Julia, I lost intrest immediately! Especially the ending 2 eps! It was a mess!

Tho of course I loved my Faye and Spike moment!! X3

Speaking of, I’m not really upset that they didn’t become canon, I already knew they weren’t going to, and that Spike was going to “die”! I was just living with the moments I got from them!

LIKE DANG! THE BANTER AND FLIRTS! THE FLIRTING IN THAT ONE EP WITH THE PYSCHO GUY AT THE FAIR!

NOT TO MENTION HER SAVING HIM MANY TIMES AND HIM HER!

THIS SCENE RIGHT HERE!! ^^^^^ MAY I JUST SCREAM OVER HIS SOFT CHUCKLE TO HER QUESTIONING WHERE THEY WERE WHEN SHE WOKE DURING THAT HOSPITAL EP?! HE STAYED THERE AND WAITED FOR HER TO WAKE!!! EXCUSE ME!??? THAT IS SOFT RIGHT THERE! AND HIS SOFT CHUCKLE/SMILE HE GIVES HER! I SWEAR SOME EPS END SO UNSATISFYINGLY IN THIS SHOW!!

Anyway! What was I getting at? Oh right! XD While I may be a tad upset, at the same time I’m not! X3

I’m just more upset with the end!

Well at least I have a lot of fics to go through for my ship! X3 I’ve been waiting to finish in oreder to read them!

Anywayyy!!

Clearly my new icon is:

And there’s the artist! X3 Dang this is such a pretty art!🥺

Besides all this! I really really loved this show!! The op became my new jam urjvyduvyf XD

Oh and I loved this crazy family of Cowboys and girls! X333

Oh and cowdog! X3

Geez I miss them already! X,D

Jet was amazing and I love him and he’s such a dad! Fight me! XD

Ed is crazy and precious! XD Love her!

And dang EIN I LOVE YOUUU!!🥺🥺🥺 The fact Ed And Ein has such a bond, my dang heart!!

Faye was always a pleasure to watch!! X3

And of course the one and only Spike! GEEZ HE KILLED ME SO MANY TIMES! HE’S SO PRETTY LIKE DANG SPIKE?!?! HOW COME EVEN THE WAY YOU WALK IS SO DANG ATTRACTIVE?! HUH!????

Geez he’s so illegal!

Anyway I’ll stop here and leave y’all off with Faye and Spike! X3

Bye! X3

#spike x faye #cowboy bebop #new icon

[birdsong-18]

empires smp first impressions!

video: Empires SMP : The Musical by ldshadowlady

omg this is such good production musically and vocally!

so what i’m getting is that everyone has a kingdom (ohhh empire lol) and they make alliances and play with each other

lizzie being the queen of the sea with her axolotl army had me ;-; in a good way

the song about her building her palace i already love this

the salmon vs. cod thing is so funny omg

outlaws and stand-off, there are assassinations and political war in the aesthetic minecraft server?! :O i love it even more.

also was not expecting joey graceffa i loved him in middle school

sausage seems very chaotic, double crossing king

JOEL AND LIZZIE MARRIED IN MINECRAFT AWWWW

there is no universe where lizzie and joel aren’t soulmates :):):):):)

“you could say it’s a date.” “no it’s a boat.” LOL IM DYING

Joel flirting and Lizzie just being oblivious for their whole song is so cute omg i want a joel in my life

their whole song being a fish pun is so cute as well

oh they’re so cute omg

the music and transitions gives me hadestown vibes but more lively if you get me at all

is this music on spotify?

IT IS!

time to unironically listen to minecraft music let’s gooooo

something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue is so special to me it’s literally the poem i want to use when i get married one day i ;;;

WHAT IS THE DEMON WHERR DID HE COME FROM?!

also xaneroth or however you spell it gives hades from hadestown vibes (songbird vs rattlesnake anyone?)

again, the rhyme scheme is on point love it

PROPHESIES?! YO?!?!

DEAL WITH DESTINY I KNOW THIS ONE! ITS SO GOOD!

I’VE GOT A DEEEEEEAAAAAAL WITH DESTINY!!!!! A BARGAIN WITH FATE!

I’VE NEVER HEARD THE BRIDGE TO END OF THIS SONG AHHHHH THE LAYERS!!!!

I’M SO HAPPY I LOVE THIS

THE ORB! SHE’S A FISH! THE END?! HELP?!

would you love me? if i was a fish?

xornoth got some beats

WAIT SHE ALMOST SAID FU-

not on my pg minecraft server

the voice acting in this is so good, color me impressed

YEAH THEY BEAT XORTNOTH

a crown to control all others?! what is this game of thrones type beat?!

the crown is so haunting of a song i love it

lizzie just goes: i’m turning to capitalism and slays it

this song tickles the brain cells, oh lizzie capitalism song i love you

the iconic game show every smp seems to have for some reason

LET THEM EAT CAKE TICKLES THE CELLS EVEN MORE

as a stampy kid i appreciate the cake shop and law, gives me the same vibes

a cake enforcer: as she should

THE RAID WAS SO TRAGIC NO!!!!!

this song was so much of a rollercoaster of emotions for no reason i’m so invested

MORE CROWN SONG LETS GOO

i love pg minecraft servers because it’s like “oh no, someone is in charge of all of us and we’re going to suffer” and the laws are “let them eat cake, tame dogs” and then there’s also murder

NEW ROAD TO A NEW PLACE?! hmmm i wonder where???

PROPHECIES!

this song sounds too happy for what was just announced.

FINISHING BUILDS!! YEAH!!

oh god, not the fortnight dancing please

SLAMON AND COD INTO THE REACTOR, WHY?!

YEAH ITS GOING TO EXPLODE

OH NO! EVERYTHING’S GONE!

WHAT??

AHHH

BLOOD SHEEP?

XORNOTH?!

THEY’RE FORTNIGHT DANCING TO THIS

AHHHHHHHH

WHAT?!

THATS HOW IT ENDS?!

;;;;o;;;;;

WHAT

and that’s it omg

yeah okay i’m hooked

good god i’ve been missing out on empires

i love minecraft roleplay so much it tears me apart from the inside out <3

i will be listening to this on spotify

i think my favorite song is deal with destiny or the one where lizzie turns into a capitalist, idk titles of songs

#song rambels #empires smp #empires season 1 #ldshadowlady #empires lizzie #i loved this so much! i am hooked on empires now time to binge #i’m gonna lizzie’s pov for now to catch up and then go watch other povs because lizzie now legally owns my soul from this video