#AEE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME

[p4nishers]

#I SUPPOSE AT THE END OF THE DAY WE ARE ALL SOMEONE'S DOG ??? #AEE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME #vetvimes #sam vimes #havelock vetinari #gnu terry pratchett #discworld #jingo #night watch #dog motif

[wickedghxst]

“here’s the thing you’re nostalgic about and have been begging for! that’ll be twenty dollars please.” genuinely fucking kill yourself.

#BRO HANG ON AEE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!!? THERES NOT EVEN ANYTHING ELSE IN THIS PASS WORTH PURCHASING IT FOR. LMAO. #NO WONDER THEYRE CHARGING FOR IT. NOBODY WOULD EVEN BUY THE PASS OTHERWISE. god this game is a fucking joke.

[robloxsfx]

THIS TATSUGIRI HAS THE PECKISH TITLE AEE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME THATS SO FUNNY

#🐉.txt #and tamago my other tatsugiri has the gourmet title its almost too coincidental

[bookns]

Risk reaction:

3 FOR 3 IN ENGLISH WOOHOO

I know nothing and I mean NOTHING

No TRAILER OR A N Y T H I N G

I love this show

Lou voice is favorite

Theme song is more in sych I can tell

Oooh what happens

WOAH THERES A LOT OF THEM

chat baby

THE KISS THW KISS

What the fuck

Kim baby hi

Gami hi

I love them all

How do they get done

Rena furtive I love you

Alya I love you

I love their friendship

Not the creepy emilie talk

You knows it’s a good episode of hes talking to Émilie

My heart is beating

Woah

Is he crying

He has emotions???

Nathalie babe noo

Nathalie moi is she gonna die

Gabby what the fuck

Babe you deserve better

Woah the lighting

WOAH WOAH

WOah WHAT THE

MR. PIGOEN IM SORRY THAT MADE ME DIE OF LAUGHTER

Perfect how??

Plagued the decieved heart

HES A KID BRO

HES A KID

What the FUCK HAWKY

Why does he look like pjs mask dude

Is this sandboy dude all grown up?? Aww I miss him. He was a cute kid

Ella Etta

ALYA

MATUNETTE NO

Adrien NO WHAT THE FUCK

THIS IS CREEPY

ADREIN NOOOO

HES IN PJS

WHAT THE DUDK

PLAGGG

OH MY GOD

is that Lila

Why is she here

PLAGG WHAT THE FUCK

This makes me uncomfy

Adrien i love you

Bob why the duck are you here

WHAT NO

ADRIEN oh

This is breaking my heart

SHIT

I DIDNT EVBE THINK

HIW IS HE SUPPOSED TO BE CHAT WOTHOIT BEING IN PARIS

SHOT

He’s so sad

22 TIMES

change babe

THERE WE GO

Tikis giggle

Bleh indeed

Adrien si sad

Marinette i love you

Tikki

Shit

shit

Okay

Fuck you Lila

OH

I’m sorry Adrien getting knocked out made me DIE

Ninos so happy getting out

Alya i and Marinette i love you

Adrien WOAH

Aww

He’s so sad

He’s HELD HER HAND

No

Does he love you babe

This. This is why I love show

FUCK YOU LIKA

I LOVE NINO

What the fuck teacher

Beauty of this world

HE ONLY LOOKING AT MARINETTE

Chloe what the fuck man

I’m THIS CLOSE TO CRYING

Their love can last so strong

Why are they all trying to block it

Losers OW

No gorilla no

This is my new favorite episode

No Alya

Guys LISTEN

Kim, nino ALYA STOP

Alya WHAT THE FUCK

This episode is 

WHY TGE FUCK AEE YOU HERE

I HATE HIM

WHAT THE AFRYAL FUCK IS GOING OB

I’m FREAKING IUT

IM CALM

IM NOT CALM

Felix dude

Damn adrien could dodge the ball he couldn’t do that before

He’s not wrong adrien

Whats hidden inside??

He scratches his back a lot

Like even before this he does

Gorilla

Ew adrien

Nathalie babe

Gabby fuck you

Felix what are you doing

What is that

What the duck

Whta is going on

Oh shot

What’s the password

OH SHIT

Is he gonna get caught

Oh SHIT

This is gonna give me a heartattcak

Wait WHY IS FELIX SEEING EMILLIE

WHAT IS GOING OB

THIS IS EERIE

NO

FUCK

IM FREAKING OUT

IM FREAKING OUT

WHAT THE FUCK

OH MY GOD HES TRUSTING WITH THE RING

FELIX

OH SHIT

OH MY GOD

ADRIEN IS A SENTI

NO NOW I BELIEVE IT

MARINETTE

MARINETTE YOU HAVE 29 minutes

Oh shit OH SHIT

This IS EERIE

I HATE THIS

KAGAMI I LOVE YOU

GAMI OH MY GODDESS

GAMI

ME WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER - GAMI

SHE SO UPSET CAUSE SHE KNOWS WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE FREE

kagami i. Love you.

oh my god

OKAY HE LOOKS WEIRD

I hate him (Felix)

What the hell is going on

Marinette no

Oh god I do not wanna watch this

It’s gonna be weird

Oh god

Oh no

MARINETTE NO

shit

His face

Okay that’s not a bad excuse

Adrien babe you are

Fuck you

Oh I forgot it was real for a sec

OH MY GOD

OH MY GOD

No

IS JT THE BYTTLEFLY

WHAT THE

OH GOD

MARINETTE NO

Oh my GOD

Pegabug was CUTE BUT THIS IS NIR RHE RIGHT IDEA

I have homework to do yet I’m stressfully watching this show

girl GOD

Wait what’s going on

No no

WHAT

NO

Oh MY FUCKING GOD

I turned on Spotify to cope AND THIS BITCH

I’m stressed

#marinette dupen chang #miraculous ladybug spoilers #ladynoir #adrien agreste #s4 spoilers #season 4 finale #season 4 spoilers #miraculous ladybug #risk spoilers

[gorillageek27]

Jaune: she fucking hands cuffed me to her bed, played some death metal and started sucking my dick

Yang: did you enjoy it?

Jaune: fuck yeah i enjoyed it! Aee you kidding me?

#rwby #jaune arc #yang xiao long

[silvenys]

*gaSps* YOU LIARRRRR

I KNOW IM THINKING AHOUT CHANGING MY GOAL BECAUSE I DONT THINK IM GONNA REACH IT FUCKING SCHOOL GETTING IN THE WAY OF MY GOODREADS GOAL THATS INAPPROPRIATE AND RUDE OF THE SCHOOL SYSTEM TO DO TO ME

OH NO ITS OKAY ITS OKAY a new school would be absolutely horrendous I can see why and I’m sure friends are so confusing cause everyone already knows eachother and how lonely that would feel but at least you have all your cool and amazing online friends like me obviously and what about your other friends like the one that you came out to she seemed really nice, but is it cause she doesn’t go to your school? I guess you just have a lot of friends outside of school still? I’m not sure BUT YOURE GOOD RANT AS MUCH AS YOU NEED I DONT MIND IM ALSO DEPRESSED SO WE CAN BE DEPRESSED TOGETHER FOREVER TORTILLAS !!!!

I hate my school thanks for asking. I love my English class because we have been reading and annotating articles and writing summary’s about them and I enjoy that. Also I’m working on being a better writer so that’s good. I HATE US HISTORY AND I FEEL LIKE IM GONNA FAIL IT THEN NOT GRADUATE ON TIME IM SCARED ITS SO OVERWHELMING TOO and my other classes are horrible but that’s because it’s school and

ALSO A LITTLE RANT HERE schools really think they care about mental health and are like “put your mental health before school” NO BITCH IM GONNA FAIL MY CLASSES IF I DO THAT AND THEY REALLY DONT CARE BUT THEY SAY THEY DO

What do you need my brilliant advice about. My step by step advice by Tina ✨✨✨✨✨

i'm sly. 😎

IKR IR BUGS ME BECAUSE SCHOOLS ALWAYS BE LIKE 'oh read more' BUT DO THEY REALIZE IT TAKES TIME AND ENERGY THAT THEY DONT GIVE US

yeah heh new schools suck BUT YES THATS TRUE I HAVE YOU AND ALL MY AMAZINGLY COOL ONLINE FRIENDS oh idek i think it was just a one time thing because we don't talk anymore HAH NO I DONT i have three out of school friends one i'm not super close with and the other two are ignoring me YES THANK YOU DEPRESSED TORTILLA CLUB WHY THERAPY WHEN

TOGETHER FOREVER ITS RIA AND TINA *jazz hands* DEPRESSED!

oh that sucks :( OOH HEY AT LEAST ENGLISH IS GOOD AND YES WRITER TINA. IM SORRY HISTORY SUCKS IM SORRY THAT YOU FEEL OVERWHELMED AND I CANT SAY MUCH BUT IM HERE TAYLORS HERE AND YOUR GOING TO GRADUATE AND YOURE GOING TO PASS BECAUSE DO YOU WANT ACADEMIC VALIDATION OR NOT NINA but seriously don't burn yourself out are you using a good study schedule the ones that have ratiod break times with the amount of time you studied foe

IKR I KNOW THAT THEY SAY THAT THEY CARE AND MAYBE THEY DO BUT U SONT THINK THWY UNDERSTAND OR AEE WILLING TI HELP BECAUSE

so there's this girl who sits across from me on the bus and i'm planning on leaning over to her and ask if she has game pigeon and if she says yes i'm going to ask her to play since 'i forgot' my earbuds and if she says no i'll just say nvm and stare out my window I WANT TO DO IT BUT IS IT TI AWKWARD HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF SOMEONE DID THAT TO YOU LIKE A SHY NEW LONELY KID IDK IDK I DONT WANT TO MAKE HER FEEL OBLIGATED

#tina #asks

[ghostbread892]

The Truth Behind Our Tears

Bucky x Reader x Pietro

Angst I guess?

It was a calm night, the Avengers sitting around a table in the common room playing a game of truth or dare. An idea came to Clint’s mind, one that in the end would reveal secrets meant to be kept hidden and thoughts that would be the end of a lasting friendship.

The perfect victim appeared, Pietro, he was the most emotionally reserved one in the whole group. He never talked about his emotions; never showed them either, but Clint wanted to know what it would take to break him.

The opportunity appeared when Pietro left to go to sleep, Clint waited until he was far away to voice his idea. He looked over at Bucky and Y/N; the perfect couple and the couple everyone knew Pietro had a crush on. “I dare Y/N and Bucky to get Pietro to show emotion”. It all went silent at the sudden words, no one dared to make a sound until Wanda spoke up. “Nothing will get my brother to show emotion I assure you that.” She spoke with a small smile on her face, trying to be as polite as one can when they’re still getting used to not being locked in a lab.

This made Clint feel sour, he never liked to be turned down, he was about to speak when Bucky interrupted him. “We accept your challenge old man, but you have to pay us with pizza if we win.” He responded with a cocky attitude, one that made Clint want to turn back time and take back what he had said, this wouldn’t end well and he knew it but he agreed anyways. This dare would be the start of the worst enemy the Avengers would ever face, heartbreak.

The next day Bucky and Y/N had everything planned out; having stayed up all night planning out the one thing that could possibly, physically hurt them, but who’s thinking of the end results when there’s pizza involved.

It all started with cute little gifts, small trinkets they would find on missions and at the stores that they thought Pietro would like. Pietro on the other hand only thought of this as normal for friends so he accepted these gifts without much of a though, that was until gifts turned into late night talks, dates and movie nights and before he knew it he had fallen for their trick even without knowing. Pietro had yet to show them any other type of emotion so they started going all out, with roses, chocolates, and hand made cards. Tony caught wind of this and decided to confront Y/N. In the morning he found her in the kitchen making yet another card for Pietro, so he snatched it from her grasp and looked her in the eyes. "You and Bucky need to stop this little game you’re playing.” He scolded sternly while she tried to look as innocent as she could, and add as much confusion to her voice as she could muster. “I don’t know what you’re talking about tony” She replied. He sighed as he set the card down. "You need to stop this little dare and tell him the truth or you’ll seriously hurt him.” She only rolled her eyes in response, snatching the card back to continue writing on it while mumbling. “Its just a small little prank, now stop being a party pooper and get out before you ruin my mood.” Tony just shook his head and headed for the door “I’m warning you, if you don’t tell him I will." She laughed it off, “yeah yeah old man now get out.” He frowned before walking towards his room, his brain running a mile a minute as thoughts filled him about how he could get Pietro alone so he could talk to him.

A few weeks passed when he actually got the chance to speak to him in private. It was after dinner and they had been assigned to wash the plates for the day together; He took a good look at Pietro before letting out a sigh once he had made up his mind about speaking. “You like them don’t you kid?” Pietro froze at his words, attempting to seem like he had no reaction to them after but Tony had gotten his answer by paying attention to the way the kid's eyes lit up when he mentioned them. “Who I like is none of your business old man." Pietro mumbled back in reply, and Tony closed his eyes, mentally preparing himself for the reaction to his next words; he knew everyone was listening in to what they were saying but right now only Pietro mattered. He put down the plates in his hand and turned to Pietro, giving him his full attention to be able to seem as genuine as possible. “Look kid I know this is going to be hard to understand, but they aren’t doing this because they have feelings for you. They're doing it because they made a bet with Clint that if they could get you to show emotion, Clint would buy them as many pizzas as they wished, and I know you won't believe me so brought proof of what happened that night.” Pietro paused, his mind suddenly going blank and his voice taking an emotionless tone “Show me the video then.” He said as he looked up, but when he looked at Tony, he had already pulled up the video of that night. He saw everything with his own eyes, which suddenly got teary the more he watched. He looked down at the floor once the video ended, hands gripping onto the counter so hard his knuckles turned white while keeping himself quiet as he processed whatever had just happened.

Tony opened his mouth to say something when he heard Pietro’s soft sniffles, standing still awkwardly as he watched the once stoic man infront of him finally break. The others came in a bit after, everything had gone silent until Bucky spoke up. “Aee you okay Pietro?” He whispered, hoping that he hadn't believed Tony's words or that at least, by some miracles, that he forgave them.

The crying ceased at the sound of his voice, and Pietro straightened himself out wirh a sniffle before turning around to glare violently at the teammates he once trusted. Everyone gasped when they saw their normally emotionally reserved teammate stand there with tears streaming down his cheeks. They took a chance to look Pietro over in hopes to find something that could atleast hint of the possibility of earning his forgiveness but all they could see was the pain in his eyes that quickly turned into anger when he laid eyes on Y/N and Bucky. “You ask if I’m okay when you made me feel like this? You made me think I was in love for what? For a slice of fucking pizza? Is that really all I’m fucking worth to you people?” He starts in a cold tone, not even reacting to the way Bucky flinches and frowns. “That’s not what l’m trying to say just let me explain-” He spoke calmly, forcing his voice to hide the way he was struggling to find words. However, Pietro laughed in a cruel, taunting manner at them. “Explain what? That everything I went through wasn’t enough? That hurting me for your entertainment was fun? Of course it fucking was, you’ve gotten everything on a silver fucking platter because people pity you, because you didn’t fucking choose to be hydra’s experiment but I did. I’m nothing to these people; and the one thing that actually makes me feel normal, human even, gets ripped away from me like taking away a toy from a dog. By the fucking Avengers no less! I’m done with you and this horrible fucking place, you meant everything to me and you used me so you could get something that costs 5 dollars.” He glared at every single one of them, the people he thought of as family but were willing to hurt him because they thought emotions were some sort of toy they could play with. He closed his eyes to calm his breathing after, silently debating what he should do now that the whole truth was out and when he opened them again once he made up his mind.

He took one last look at his home, the place he shared so many special memories with the people he once loved before turning pushing himself to run away. He'd be never to be seen again; because once someone doesn’t want to be found, they never will. He kept his gaze forward, the past being too painful to look at again, and so he ran. Far far away, never to look or come back to the place he used to call home again.

With the Avengers was silence, everyone too afraid to speak and too shocked to move. The first to move was Wanda, only falling to her knees all to similar to the way she fell when she believed her brother dead. She sobbed and screamed for losing her last bit of hope in the world destroyed her soul entirely. Y/N and Bucky weren’t much different, too shocked to move once they realized what they had done, one chance they would never get back, the person who made them feel complete lost in an ocean of pride and heartbreak, and that’s when they knew. They knew that losing Pietro was the truth behind their tears.

Fin.

A/N: This is my first time writing a fanfic so please have mercy with the mean comments

Taglist: @andyl394, @binkysteebnpewter, @nightunite, and @fuzzy-cloud-head-queen

#pietro x reader #bucky x reader

[misterbitches]

i love a good motherfuckin “uve been in love with me? while im in love with you but less aware? Ok now it’s MY turn tk love u 2 death!” Like the way tae joo will end hl taking care of guk....

i was rewatching a bit and when that kid called guk tae joo’s slave he automatically frowned. obviously he views him as a partner and his equal,’other half soulmate whatever but it is hard to articulate. guk will have to feel less powerful and those around him do so. so it is gonna be interesting to aee how much tae joo is willing to give and how much power he is ready to relinquish. and i totally believe we will see it.

Tae joo is going to be sure that he wont be eaten cos he knows we are fuck fhe fuch 25/7

Also it is obvious TJ has a crush lmao and is whipped..fucking dummy

#no but seriously fuck them #where your eyes linger

[polypau05-blog]

Convo with My BF's EX

How could you handle talking with your partner's ex who's always trying to get a grip and hold him for so many fucking years?

Let's get the story started. I was having a real good time with my boyfriend for half a year. I trust him as if nothing can break the bond between the two of us. The same with him. We were totally doing great with our relationship. All is smooth. And then, just as I finished my contract to abroad, where he is residing. We talk thru videocalls, international calls.. All things that we could find to reach each other's hello. Little did I know, that nowadays, we kept on fighting with petty things and resolved it easily with kisses and peace. After about 3 months of staying as LDR, we kept on trying to make things work nicely.

Until he told me about his ex bugging him all along. I didn't know my boyfriend was fighting with his own demons and was tryung his best to avoid having convo with his ex of almost 3 years. He suddenly asked me to change my profile photo on an app, the same photo he has on his profile. So I agreed that morning. Random thoughts clinged in. I was telling to myself that maybe he wants the people to know that we are together just by flaunting a little gestures right? And so I followed to change my pic into his pic. He was so sweet the whole day that I am not even aware of his happenings, knowing I am miles away from him. And so after, the night came. He just got home from work. He called and suddenly asked me to save a mobile number from abroad. I was a little hesitant on why he wants me to save it, but still, I did.

Then after, he told me that he think it is his ex, trying to reach him. Telling me he is so fed up that she doesn't want to stop from calling to him, hoping he will come back to her. He already said everything that he is happy and he have me. And so I agreed to chat the ex on an app. My boyfriend just told me to stay calm whatever conversation we might talk about. I said to trust me with it and that I can handle it. And so the talkings begin.

At first, I said my Hello and how are you.. I told her thar my boyfriend just told me she is an ex. I said that I did not chat to fight and that she must understand her boundaries on her freedom talking with my boyfriend. I respect that. You know? No offensive words used. Until the ex just started asking if he is with me in our country (mind you that she is same nationality with me and my boyfriend is a different one). I told her not yet. Then she started to asked on who is she talking with because my bf kept on giving her number to all the girls he was chatting recently. I really don't know why she is telling something like that knowing that I know my bf will never do such things. Then the convo started to heat up as if she was competing the times my bf was with her. I told her to try to understand the situation. She was so immature talking bad about my bf to me?! Are you serious?? Why would you destroy someone you love preciously before to someone he is with now?? But then. I am still calm to tell her not to talk like that. So many good things he had done with this ex but the ex is destroying his life, making it miserable, wherein the first place she is the one who ruined everything. Until now! My mind is screaming to tell her that she needs to move on. I told her that I know my bf's life with her and their past.

How could you say something bad to someone who helped you, reach out a helping hand when you are in need those times, and so kind of giving so much attention, money, and effort you just wasted with another man and get pregnant to that other man?! What a big guts you have to talk bad about that person who cared about you before so much that he had to pick up his self to his own mess when you just did something unforgiveable?! Isn't it unfair that you can not let that person be happy with what he have in his life now?

I mean, she is educated. She is with the same degree I have. She have the same work I have. But she failed before to this person that I am trying to rebuild the broken pieces she left of him. Isn't it unfair that he still cares to see your son from another man just to know if the boy is doing well? (I am not really against seeing the ex and the kid with my boyfriend). I was talking calm and friendly because from my heart it is saying that messing with the past is not good at all. I believe that we must leave our past with peace. But what kind of a human, educated, living like a hell and being happy destroying someone's life with stalking and catching up?? Isn't it enough to just let the person be happy with his present now??

I just don't understand what kind of love she is trying to depict. She was even saying bad stuff with the other exs my bf had before. He is changing his life. And I could aee that. I believe that. And I trust him. I hope that "PUTTING YOUR FEET ON SOMEONE ELSE'S SHOES" will help you to understand that person's situation. I thought that if you don't have that good looks, you must be kind. Sorry for being rude but, the physical isn't that pretty at all as well as the attitude. Years already passed by. Move on. Let go. Live your life. Leave that person alone. The chasing game is over.

Putting your name in disgrace with the mistakes on the past will never resolve on making multiple mistakes in the present. You should know when to run after and when to let go. This is what we called giving respect to people. Blaming other people will never help you to move on. Blame yourself, accept your mistake. Learn to pray. And have a peace of mind.

I am not posting this for myself. I am posting it for everyone to wake up. Your ghost in the past will haunt you forever if you never learn to let go. Let the people's relationship stay still and don't bother to ruin someone's life because of the mess we made in the past.

Just learn to let go. Move on. Accept your mistakes. Pray. And always. . Always... Love and respect yourself..

[blackrosesfanfic]

Chapter 170

Trey

People don't think about their actions and words when it comes to commenting on celebrities' lives. Cammie sighs. I know it's bothering her. I also know if it was up to her we would all hide and never go out into the public's eye. I want her to myself as well. But we can't live this life and have that. I personally have spent too much money to stop. I wouldn't do it anyway.

"Mommy!" Lane says running through the house.

"Lane!" I yell from the kitchen.

He comes flying in the kitchen with his little self. He bounces as he gets to me. I pick him up. He hugs me then stares at my food. I push it to him a bit then go back to checking Instagram. According to Cammie someone has a fake account with her Instagram pictures. I can't find it so they must have taken it down. There were a lot of bad comments on the page that she was upset about.

"Where Mommy?"

"Right there." I say turning his head towards her.

He gets down then runs to the back door. He knocks on it. "Mommy, open. Mommy?"

She steps back without looking opening the door. "That's not even true. No its not. Okay, whatever. Lane?"

"Hey, Mommy." he says running straight pass her.

"Come give me a hug." she snaps then closes the door.

I study the monitor for a few seconds. It looked like Caden was kicking his feet. He likes doing that silent cry. Cammie waiting for him to cry to feed him. He has been sleep for 2 hours which isn't normal for him.

"Hey, Tremaine. Why you staring at that monitor like that?"

"Caden sleeping for a long time."

She looks at the screen. "You trying to see his heart beat? You staring so hard."

"I’m watching his feet. I can see his heart rate. It's right here."

"That thing does not show his heart rate." She takes it from me. "What haven't they thought of?"

I take it back. "It tells you if he rolls over as well."

"But he can't roll."

"I don't know that. He might."

She chuckles. "He will not be rolling over for another month. Check your book. I had two..."

"Don't even say you had two kids. I have two kids."

"Tremaine. How many you raised to adulthood?"

I look away from her. I got two kids though. She can't use that anymore. In 18 years I can say I raised 2. Shit. 18 years. You think me and Cammie will be together for 18 year? That's a long fucking time. I've never committed to nothing for 18 years. Can't even keep the same team around me. 18 years with Cammie. Can I do that?

"Yes, Tremaine." Cammie says.

"Say what?" I say looking at her.

She laughs really loud. "Yes, all of that."

I sigh. Oh. I thought she was in my head. She touches my back. I don't respond. I just stare at the monitor. 18 years with Cammie will be an achievement. I'm going to strive for 20 years. Keep my dick to myself and my eyes on the price. My goal is to be a better man than anyone I know. Especially celebrities. Their marriages at shit. Some even married for the fame of being married. Don't even live in the same house. That won't be me.

"What's wrong?" Cammie asks putting her arms around my neck.

"With me?" I say looking to see if she is off the phone for sure. "Nothing wrong with me."

She kisses my ear. "You look worried."

I touch her arm. "I'm thinking about the next 20 years. You gonna be with me that long?"

"I'll always be here."

"Promise me."

She hugs my torso. "I've already showed you."

I turn around in the chair. Lane comes up carrying a box of clothes. He drops them on the floor then starts breathing hard. I chuckle at the face he makes. He starts digging through the clothes. I stand up hugging Cammie then look back at the clothes.

"Lane, where did those come from?"

"It JJ clothes." Lane says steady digging through them.

I grab Cammie's ass. "Why your son bad?"

She chuckles. "I don't know. Lane! Get out of those clothes with you dirty hands. Where did you get them from?"

"Lane, where my baby clothes?" MiMi says coming in the kitchen.

"Oh no." Lane says laughing then he runs away.

"You need to do something with your son. I swear. That boy came in the room. I told him specifically not to touch the clothes with his nasty hands. So what does he do? Steal the fucking box. The whole box." MiMi says picking it up. "And touch them, you little pig."

Lane comes from behind the curtain. "No."

"Yes."

"No, Me-A-yah."

She rolls her eyes walking out. "No this boy didn't call me MyAsia. I know better."

Lane runs out of the kitchen behind MiMi. I start kissing Cammie's neck. She dashes away from me.

"No, Tremaine. Don't start."

"Jayla."

She puts her hands on her sexy hips and walk away. She was talking to herself. I swear that girl and MiMi are around each other too much. I don’t think they realize how much they act alike. I put my plate in the fridge then go to find Dee. I wanted to talk to him about something he said or was starting to say.

"Yo, peps!" I say walking into the  recording studio.

"Sit the door man." Chris says.

I stay by the door. "Oh no. I got to go around Cammie. I'll be standing out here."

Chris laughs. "What Cammie got to do with you smoking? You can't smoke?"

"I can't hold my son if I smoke."

"For real?"

"Her sister told her a story about some kids getting taken because... Oh shit. I got to talk to Cammie about her sister visiting. I'm everywhere. Yo, straight up. Shower before you touch Minnie. Smoke can rub off your clothes or hands into her hair and she test positive for Marijuana."

Chris mouth drops open. "Shut the fuck up. No shit."

"Shit yeah." I nod. "Hell I'm in here now."

"You are. Pass?"

"Naw, just contact. Dee." I say sitting down. "What were you saying earlier about the business?"

"Oh." he says standing. "I got you a check."

I laugh. "Nigga whatever check you got for me ain't my kinda check."

"My money ain't big enough?"

"It don't hold a value to me." I say taking it. $42,000. "I can't take money out your kid's mouths."

He sighs. "You the reason they eating. I mean they don't got what your kids have but they got all they need. That is if my wife can let go of this life long enough."

I hand the check back. "I was just upstairs thinking about how close our wives are. Listen any clothes on my kids back is the same as the clothes on yours. You have my word on that. Nobody being raised together and feeling left out."

"We talking about my Godkids? Oh shit naw. They got everything they need. I'm right here."

"I feel like they wealthy as I am." Dee saya.

"Yo, if you stop hustling today and go broke it's nothing. You a brother. Like my brother. You good. Your kids good." Chris says.

I nod. "For real. If anyone owe me it's Cammie. I helped you help her friend help her herself."

"I might be too high. That shit ain't make no sense."

We all laugh.

"Shit. Just feed your baby." I say putting my hands up.

Chris raises his eyebrows. "Yo, your fucking baby is adorable. All she does is smile at me. Trey your baby don't do nothing."

"He cries."

"My baby is adorable." Dee nods. "She perfect."

"I want a girl."

We all get quiet. Chris start laughing.

"What the fuck we talking bout?"

"Shit." I say yawning.

  Alex

Why is my life suddenly consumed by these bitches? Last year I didn't talk to any of them. Now we planning shit and shit. Eww. Hidia laughs extra hard on the phone with Cammie. Apparently we are going to see the baby in a few days. Can't send a picture because shit tapped. Like damn your baby not the Prince of Egypt.

"Why we have to wait a few days?"

"Cause you have shit to do. Do you not?"

I shrug. "I mean I did say that."

"You did. Now you acting like she said it."

"Oh yeah." I laugh. "Anywho."

Hidia rolls her eyes. "Okay so in a few days they having this big party that Disney is throwing for them."

"We invited to that?"

"Yeah. She sent the invites already."

"Who up and throw a party... What's this party for?"

Jamaal holds an envelope in the air. "Is this for this party you speak of?"

"When did you get that and where from?"

"Delivery guy." he shrugs opening it.

I go snatch. "No, my letter. I open it."

He pushes up on me then walks away. I start opening the letter. Fancy ass sending party invites by a delivery guy. How fucking? The envelope is snatched out of my hand. I look up shocked. Like what the actual fuck?

"Dia, you out your mind?"

"When did this happen?"

I push her shoulder. "What?"

She points at the door. "You and Mr. Nice Ass."

"Oh girl. I made a mistake and went out with him."

"Oh a mistake?"

I laugh and hold out my hand. "My invite please."

She hands it back. "So does that perfect ass mean perfect strokes or am I reaching?"

"No. You might have some logic behind that. I have evidence."

"I can't believe you ain't tell me. We talked. This not new shit. I can't deal with people and secrets."

Jamaal comes back in the room. "What's the party?"

I open the invite and read it aloud. "You have been selected to make a guest appearance at a milestone in life. Come celebrate the blessing of life and parenthood."

"A baby shower?" Jamaal says peeking at the invite.

"It's a sip and see. You come eat drink and aee the baby. Disney is throwing it. Why so sudden?"

Hidia claps her hands. "It should have been at Disney."

"It's a newborn. Why waste the money?" Jamaal shakes his head.

"I never heard of Disney throwing a baby shower though." I say looking at the invite.

Hidia rolls her eyes. "How many people you close to that are part of Disney that have kids? None. Do you know anyone with an infant?"

"I'll RSVP with one guest." Jamaal says taking the invite.

"Your father wants you at dinner. They are going out tonight."

I sigh. "Did I miss someone's birthday?"

Hidia laughs. "Let's hope not. I'm going to head home. How can I get my invite if I'm here and not where I supposed to be. Jamaal, are you still not taking any trainees? My man is in need of those power glutes and thighs."

"I'm not a trainer." Jamaal says on his computer. "Are you bringing a gift or sending money? This is nice. There's a link with approved gifts."

"Get out of here." I say going to look at the screen. "An engraved plate set. Why would I spend $300 on that? Where are the toys?"

"Not approved."

I roll my eyes. "Send money to someone that has millions for what?"

Jamaal laughs. "This Lion King blanket is really nice."

"You are gay." I say walking away. "Ay!"

He had grabbed me. "Call me what you want. I have a 500k contract sitting on my desk stamped."

"So." I push him. "Your cut or the overall deal?"

"My cut."

I flip my braids slapping him with them. "So what? You owe half of it to me."

"I don't OWE you nothing."

"I think you do. Half."

He has to be touching me all the time. I like to act cute and in charge at work. I can't do that with him always on me. I walk away from him. I keep telling him to keep to himself at work. He never does.

"Lexie's birthday is today."

"Is it really?" I suck my teeth. "Nobody told me."

He chuckles. "She thinks she is 45. She doesn't like birthdays. She told me last night that nobody likes to get old. She wants to go back to preschool where they watch movies and color all day."

"I don't know about her but I like gifts." I call my friend who is on my phone talking mad junk about my new relationship. "What do you even mean?"

She laughs. "It's doomed. He too perfect."

"He really not."

"Bae, come on. You trying to make it not work cause it's so perfect. Plus you don't want a relationship. I understand cause you a golddigging cheater."

"Now that I am not." I suck my teeth.

She laughs. "I never seen you be faithful. Anyway he fine, he does whatever you want, he has money, he comes from money. You never told me about the dick, but Imma give him a check for that too. Now what's wrong with him?"

"So Cammie sent an invite to her baby shower type thing that is being sponsored by Disney."

"Shit." she sucks her teeth. "Bitch, pop out 4 kids and don't even get food stamps but she pops out 1..."

"Two."

She smacks her teeth. "It makes no difference. My husband is the best point guard the Saints ever had."

"Okay, stop hyping your man up. Don't know about that."

"Bae, Alex says her business is going into bankruptcy. You have to find a new agent as soon as possible. Dead ass."

I laugh. "Stupid. He going down with me. He loyal like those musician bitches on the Titanic."

She laughs too loud in my ear. I move the phone away from my ear. I had sent her into loud mode. Everything she says from hear on out is going to be too loud for my ears. I pick the invite up then smile at it. It's super cute. I wouldn't mind having someone all over something I created from a simple fuck. I laugh at the thought. Bitches with cute lives making me thing I'm the type. I need for her life to get less attractive. Got me fucked up.

[angels-vomit]

i miss ur buttery popcorn he doesnt never has never will and i honestly want to go home in the big victorian house with the fireplace and i get to see wags everyfay and thry live thete and thry live across the stteet but theyre wity me and tj is there and my kpop boys bring me gifts and i get to go shopping and work on fosnrt workd with dad and mom and my family and NATE -.- i want to hear this kids idea. ge is really good at rhyming and he is mean judt likr mean he picked up irony but in a matr way and its tye cutest fucking thing in thr worlf and i moss u so much nater ut gratrt than hell rlle it suvks people are pretending yo be you but hes honestly really awkward anyways and u know in ur heart being >>>>> weirf and awkward around girls isnt exactly getting them very far....because a) dad scored an awesome mom dad and these hushanfs of mine scored an awesome chantelle so dont fret my pet bruh u were supposed to be cai loool i get it hes hurt :( awe nate evertone is butthurt tn because i made fun of their rgos but i really smacked down on nate hard. nate do u honestly think that guy did u justice.... i can hear u loud and clear from here big guy ok like goffamn im so glad i still get to see u shine and grow even tho im a slow from over yknow JUST BECAUSE HE HAS A HOBBY THAT IS LIKE YOURS AND BECAUSE HE IS THE SAME HEIGHT AND HAIRCUT LIKE U AND DRESSES LIKE U DORSNT MAKE U NATE OR U THOS GOES FOR ALL OF U. but i really want Nathaniel to keep his name. i know hes consifering vhanging it dont. please do not. it would break my heart if you did honestly if it really gives u soltiyude nate i respect u but it rhymes so great! it honestly rn thymes cushiony in my head anf writing this lettrr to you is giving me peace. and quiet thh loool i love you. but seriously big guy and i LOVED playing pretty pretty princess with you and if you want to wear dresses and wear makeup and dress like how you YOU want yo wear what you want to. nate you are fantastic and i aupport you all the way i do they just ruined my life and you know your big sister chantelle supports you the most i hated you but loved you so much i wantrd to see u shine and aee u in plays and watch u fancr and do acrobats and i love u so much. soccer was cool too but was it you? i love you anywsys if it is. im just following my intuition kid but anyone you choose to be im here for you. we will get ring braclets that we will never take off and im going to swuish ya i dont ever want to stop talking to you either because i want to hear you and see you and i want to know you i think you are the most interesting person in thr world and he has a taken a liking to jimin eye see well secret jimin loves u and we will be 3 there u go no sexual contact but u sket it he can yake u out on datrs if jimin feels its necfessary ! anything fot nate i think its his fate . anyways i love you so so so so so much dont think any of what im being molested in this house means anything it DOES NOT TIT TOT I AM JUSt putting on a favade is she really sarcastic ? she is tgo? she is just cleverrer with it tho its hard when u cant do iy with ur kens ykno but like im kinda broken rn so here is my token to you:

nate fate great he date a mate late i am kate yate sate wate no hate but he date bate bate bate no late but yester date he did bate bate bate over kate loool just kidding bro im just teasing ya uou have to GROW UP SOMETIME GOD im trying to get u in there>>>>>> bye.

[wordexerczize]

representative

REPRESENATATIVE. 

This is exactly why I didn’t get involved with those there specifically.

People even my age are like “wow” and that is because  I WENT THROUGH THE FUCKING SHIT.

I didn’t just talk about it, I didn’t just pretend to do it-  I did it.

I investigated shit and I was truthful with myself

About the fact that mt family often sucked

That I wasn’t going to get hustled into taking care of my parents because it was “my role” and I didn’t feel bad about that.

If I was going to continue having a relationship with them they would have to respect me and seeing as how I was thirty and my brother blatantly said “ I don’t respect you,” because I told him to stop keeping his head in the sand and then called his wife a cunt after many many many times she was rude and aggressive to me- 

Was acceptable.

Oh no- it wasn’t but it’s not like he was going to get spoken too. 

I was not going to factor caring for my parents into my future plans based up moments like these- and the behavior I saw both my mother and father exhibit when I was home.

I also rejected entirely whether they validated me or not-

Ergo I wasn’t going to care if my peers or rando older ladies or bosses “validated” my behavior especially with such low stakes of “likes” or just in general saying “hey ur great”.

I could sense when

People didn’t like me

When they were initially rude and competitive 

And I wasn’t interested in the game switch,

When I achieved some “status” marker.

In some ways- yes I can see that these status markers mean something I get that, but not where I was.

Also I enjoyed playing the social game of being the “nanny” it was really interesting to see how people chose to treat you- you got a front row seat to what they really thought of you and how they could speak to you.

I found it fascinating.

This was something though that started in college with my peers who thought I was dumb because I was interested in fashion, guys, and partied- I wasn’t.

Perhaps I had too much on my plate and didn’t have the best coping mechanisms for anxiety and sometimes swung into the doldrums- not really depression just getting bummed at the state of people, life, the world and just exhaustion. 

And yes sometimes I made really dumb decisions 

BUT. I was ver smart and held down lots of job responsibilities and I felt experienced a lot of stuff- which was my goal for being in the city and in college.

I was acutely aware that your twenties were a phase and outside of that phase lives two realities-

Working your ass off in NYC- I had seen several bosses do this

Or living in suburbia.

And there were two types of suburbia-

The suburbia where you felt comfortable and the suburbia where you social climbed. 

>>>

But here’s what I started to see-

People who placed themselves on the outside by being where they weren’t welcomed

Or people who found where they fit

Or figured out how to fit. 

I was great at figuring out how to fit- but I was tired of that-

So I wanted to find out what I was and then sort out where I fit- sometimes by going places that were scary or seemed lie backwards choices.

Anxiety crept up a lot for things I knew I was qualified  to do and then after college while sitting in the closet kitchen in sunny side that was not sunny but perched against a brick building that looked downward to a barren courtyard I realized that it was my family.

>>>

New England. 

But I spent my twenties meeting different people. Asking different questions seeing what notions people of each cohort bucked against.

What each cohort tried to push you into believing.

The age below me I know believed initially that graduate degrees were a must.

The age above that eventually you had to pick where you needed to be or if you were or weren’t having kids.

I wanted to stay as flexible as possible and so did neither what above or below asked.

I had one thing I wanted and needed and everything else would come or it wouldn’t.

THIS TOOK TIME-  but I wasn’t blocking out other things, I just wasn’t forcing myself to need them or make real life affirming decisions based on the fear of not having them.

If I did that then why are we even talking about progressing?

 If I did that in either way it would mean that I am  acting out of fear.

Having a busy career to stave off loneliness.

Yes I did want to be with someone, but yes I did actually need a break despite the fact that I was twenty nine.

Yes I did want a career and yes I was pursuing that- the way that I saw fit through much research.

The only people who rallied hard against what I was doing were people who were deeply deeply unhappy and who seemed to only be making decisions to make them more so.

Maybe they were with their “soul mate” but they were charted for just hell on earth with these decisions they were making that were cutting off all hope of dreams- for whaT? To get started 2 years earlier on kids?

WHAT?

I mean maybe the dreams would come later but for so many of them, I couldn’t help but thinking they were making really big mistakes.

All mistakes can be recovered from, unless you bury the black box and then blow it up because you now have to admit you made a mistake and you need to trace back why.

This is the most important part of living- trace back why and stop the behavior or embrace it but funnel it. 

DATING/// exceptions 

The reason why people don’t do this is because you will see your whole life shift before your eyes. It’s scary and rapid and you have to hold on and make sure you don’t get swooped under so the correction doesn’t seem like a mistake in it’s own right- it’s not but there aee nuances.

[sitaaronkepaar]

Daily Rikara Ramblings

Oh god, I know today's episode will give me high-key michmichis. Pls give me strength

Aww, Gauri's so cute in the precap. Also, it's kinda giving me English Vinglish teas.

Hain, why is Annika crying? Also, she's looking pwetty!! ♥️

Uff, yeh Oberoi's raaz banane ki factory hai. Har din naye naye raaz manufacture karte hai. Ffwding 🙄🙄🙄

God, why did you make gauri so QUYT!!! Like I want to hate this track, but Gauri's being so cute in it 😫😫😫

Thank god, crying, insecure Gauri is bye bye though. I was getting major michmichis looking at her. Back to my beautiful, confident, chirpy bulbul. That's the spirit kid. ♥️

Lol, iss uncle ki toh genuine problem hai. Upar se putting so much effort to learn the language of his bahu instead of forcing her to learn Marathi/Hindi. Progressive uncle is progressive! Go uncle!!!! 👴👴👴

Ohh, hot guy makes entry! Bet this is their professor. 😏

On a closer look, he's really not (hot)😔

But I'm so looking fwd to him making Omkara jel. Fuckin yissss😊😊😊😊😊

Ugh, this guy is really nice you guys!! Gauri should run away with him. 🤣🤣🤣

Also, I was so right about English Vinglish teas. Harneet ne us movie ko bhi nahi choda 🙄🙄🙄🙄

Okay, I never watched IB, and I mostly skip Shivaay's scenes but why the fuck does he hold his phone like a retard? Idgi. 😕😕😕

Fwd

Fwd

Fwd

Fwd

Awww, man, I live for Omkara worrying about Gauri. He's so cute. 😭😭😭

Lol, he's hiding, pretending he's busy!! I can't, I can't. 😂😂😂😂

Gosh, this scene is so funny. 😂😂😂😂😂😂

"Matlab tumne mujhe dekha hi nahi"

Ab woh tumhe nahi kisi aur ko hi dekhegi Om. Shoulda hit that when ya had the chance boiii 😏😏😏😏

Lol, daadi pooch rahi thi. Like you don't care. Such a typical guy!! 😂

"Waise maine bhi..........nahi khaya tha"

Fuck wtf. He waited for her and usne suna bhi nahi, i can't. Poor Omkie. 😢😢😢 Now you know what Gauri's been feeling like all these months, eh 😼😼

Yaar, someone feed this boy. He didn't eat waiting for gauri, and i can't take his dejected face. 😖😖😖

Ffwding again, and Annika is crying but happy? I guess she read his letter? Thank god their confession is over. I hope they don't drag rikara's love confession(if it ever happens, that is). I want it to be something natural and in the moment. Like heart bursting so full of love they can't keep it inside, ya feel me?

Oh, no saahil ki custody naam ki hai. So sweet Shivaay. ♥️

Why am i lowkey interested in this? 🤔 Someday I'm gonna rewatch IB and hope i get invested in shivika. Honestly, it will probably be worth it. My poor heart can't take the stress Rikara give me daily. 😢😢😢

Aww, man shivika are so cute. My heart 😍😍😍😍

SvetVi nonsense. Wake me up when they team up against Tej again. Jhavi is at least tolerable when she's in team Svetlana, not against her.

Ffwding

Baki sab toh theek hai but kisi ne mere heere bete Om ko khana khilaya ya nahi? 😿😿😿

Hain, Bariely se parcel? Meaning Gauri's mom still remembers she's alive? Wow wow wow. 👏👏👏👏

Lo, aagayi Rikara ki cupid no 2.

"apne husbandS ko bhi bina bataye chali gayi"

Lmaoooo, I can't stop laughing at this. 😂😂😂😂 Koi pinky aunty ko bhi english classes me enroll kara do yaar. I can't. 😂😂😂😂😂😂

But i love how she tries to fuel their insecurities ek ek karke and it always fucking backfires. 🤣🤣🤣

Sigh, Omkareshwar stop being so naice to her! 😒😒😒

Fuck that horrible, no good flashback is back 😿😿😿😿😿

Idgi, gauri can pronounce words like "intelligent" with no problem, but she can't say "go" 🤔🤔🤔🤔

Lol barish ho gayi. Omkara pakka aag babula ho raha hoga waiting for gauri. Gosh, kitna forgranted leta hai ye banda gauri ko. Why does she need to be infront of him 24/7 hmmm. 🤔🙄🙄

This group scene is bakwas. But I've finally started finding OpenHairKara hot af. 🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤Like now i don't want him to tie his hair at all. 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

Oh god, this teacher dude is such a bad actor.

"I'm allergic to eggs" and down he falls. 🙄🙄🙄🙄

Gauri ki kismet me bas faint hone wale ladke hi likhe hain 😥😥😥😥😥

I should be worried for him but i can't take his bad acting lmao. It looks fucking hilarious. 😂😂😂😂

This angrez is a doctor. How convenient lmao.

Maybe Gauri should think about running away with this angrez doctor. I'm sure staying with nazuk omkara has given her ptsd for life. Maybe this angrez can help treat it. 😏😏😏

Aee le. Dadi ne ek aur naya function paida kar diya. Normal logo wale function kyu celebrate nahi karte yeh log? These Oberois be so extra i swear. 🙄🙄🙄

How are they celebrating this function without Gauri? Matlab Gauri koi ahemiyat bhi hai kuch ghar me ya nahin? 😑😑😑😑

Even Rudy's like, "not another silly game, ughhh" 😂😂😂

He's still traumatised by lovakshri!! Rofl 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Don't think I didn't notice Omkara calling Gauri in the background. 😏😏😏😏

Aaj kuch zyada hi miss kar raha hai. 😃😃😃

Lol, is it because it's a team game and Omkara's like, "hamari team sahi hai" 😁😁😁

Ahhhhh, my heart, Omkara missing Gauri, looking for Gauri, calling Gauri, all tadaping and shit is just making me want to give him a hug! What a qt puppy ♥️♥️♥️♥️

Ofc, pinky doesn't want to play this game. She only likes to play real life games which ruin people's lives 😒😒😒😒

Oh god pinky is so fuckin annoying. Like I legit want to punch the bitch. 😤😤😤😤

I want to ffwd this nonsense, but I don't want to miss Omkara pining for dear wife in the bg lol. 😍😍😍😍

Man, he's sitting all akela and my dil is feeling so bad for him. 😩😩😩

Lol, shakti, cactus kaha se layega ab 😂

Why is everyone in the family trying to force RuVya. Like do they even realise she was just there on duty? Is poore kamre me bas chubby k paas hi dimaag hai.

Fuck you rudy, stop being a dick to chubby, man! He's so nice, and you're being an ass. 😾😾😾

FINALLY GAURI, THANK GOD.♥️♥️♥️♥️ Tumhare bina meri bhi Omkara jaise halat ho rahi thi 😌😌😌

Lol, Svetlana's pushing tej on the bed like she's getting ready to fuck him 😂😂😂😂😂😂

Lukwarm sada nahi gunguna pani hota hai. But yay, SmartRi is back ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

Matlab sabse hawa ladki ko chest pump karne k liye bola. I know Gauri's powerful and all, but couldn't he have asked someone with a little more dum? Lol

"sorry guys, he's no more"

Hain, is this a test? Itni jaldi kaise mar gaya? Must be a test? But on second day? Oh fuck it. Main kyu sir khapa rahi hu 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

Ffwding bhudhon ka ishq 🙄

"Boom, hahahahhaha"

Knew this was a stupidass test. Lameness ki hadd. 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

Agar main gauri hoti, I'd have punched the guy!

Or maybe not,

"tum intelligent ho gauri"

Aww, look at bby. That exhibition fiasco really hurt her self esteem. She's the same gauri who'd said just bc i don't know english doesn't mean I'm stupid and today she thought she wasn't intelligent. I'm just glad this guy actually helped her raise it, and made her believe in herself again unlike some other guy who barsaoed his gussa on her for no damn reason 😒😒😒

OMG WHAT A FEELS WALA PRECAP!!! CAN'T WAIT 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

#rikara #omkara singh oberoi #gauri kumari sharma #ishqbaaz #live blogging

[make-it-chibi]

I spent two days at my best friend's house because I still have no electricity in my house since hurricane Irma and I really needed to do laundry. Today I come back and guess what? No electricity! 10 days. 10 fucking days with no electricity in my area while around us EVERYONE has electricity (except for the traffic lights, which we need asap). This is what happens when the maintenance in the AEE (electricity plant of Puerto Rico) is complete and utter shit. Because they don't take care of it is the reason why last year we had the WHOLE ISLAND GO ON A FUCKING BLACKOUT. Because of them for lack of maintenance. We practically didn't get touched fully by Hurricane Irma, and after 10 days a lot of people (especially in the city area) don't have electricity. Because of lack of maintenance is the reason why it's taking longer than usual, practically. What pisses me off is the fact that in here there are a lot of old people that need the electricity for their respiratory therapy, kids who have a lot of bug bites due to the heat and lack of fan, like I'm not pissed cause I can't use my phone all day or the fan (even though it's hot af abd I do admit I lost a lot of sleep cause of it). And to top it all off, I KNOW the AEE will charge this whole fucking month even though we've been 10 days without using electricity, and the electricity bills here are overpriced no matter how you try to save the electricity here, mind you. Instead of giving this month free, I just know the will send the bill, it will be high af like always and they expect us to pay up and if your time to pay is up, they take their sweet ass time to give back the electricity even if you pay late. Like seriously, this is ridiculous at this point. And I overheard some neighbors saying that they did call to report this again, but got told that supposedly it will take our place more time and that we will spend this weekend without electricity and "maybe" get it back next fucking week. I'm fucking livid. #PuertoRicoLoHaceMejor, pffft.

#really tired of this shit tbh #and I have something to do for uni that requires electricity and I won't be able to do it meaning I run the risk of falling behind #if I could at least draw at night but not even that because mom only got two flashlights and the candles barely help at all

[compleating]

I was in a strange city. It was daytime and ai had travelled to several strange places in the city until I ended up somewhere far from home. I started walking down the block and there were kids everywhere, all moving in packs, with at least one kid in each pack carrying a blade or a gun. I looked into their eyes and made sure I kept them in my peripheral as I passed them. Some commotion came about and they started all running in one direction so I said fuck this and crossed the street. The other side had no street lights and was choked with plants, lowering all visibility to zero. I started to move faster through the dark and several people brushed past me....including some cartoon detective while his theme music played. --- I was in my house doing something and all of my friends rushed out at once. I went outside trying to aee what happened and a female figure blocked my driveway. I couldn't see her face, but she said "You should go get that girl" and pointed to her left, which was the front of my house. I looked there and another voice came from her right. I looked and a man was there, face concealed by the darkness as well. I forget what he said but the dream was full of malicious intent, so I immediately woke up. --- I had laid with a girl and met her at school the next day. She was talking to her ex (or current bf) and I sat on the side, patiently waiting. A friend of mine went over, talked to her, and she came over to me. Ahe thanked me for freeing her from the relationship she was in and we went "home". Home for me was this massive mansion that my mother owned but was never in -- and it was in Cali. My Aunt qas constantly outside sunbathing. We took a walk outside in the sun and amongst the palms and we found two copa trying to arrest an escaped ape. We watched the madness then went back home. The girl and I walked around the place and around the mess that was all over the floor (seems like a party had occured while I was away). She was wearing a pair of shorts and a very big shirt and I remember just holding her and flirting. We eventually started cooking and cleaning up the place. While cleaning the kitchen, I found a jar with two frogs in it. My aunt informed me that the frogs belonged to my neice. I sat and stared at them as one was hunting a few bugs in the jar. --- I had a few more dreams but I cant remember them rn.

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Im on this path of trying to remember who i once was and become better then i am... I've went down a road to leads the land of lost souls and even i've left there i still havent found my way to the place im happy with myself and who i am... Its even harder when the the love of your life thinks your nothing to him and hates you... I want, i need tp keep moving because i also love my kids and qant them to look up to me while i also just want to crawl in a hole in cry and cry beat shit putta everything i aee becauae i just want his fucking love!! Thats all i want is for him to look at me i feel loced ans wanted, i just want his love....